i feel like im being left behind

okay I’m STILL not done the book yet because #life™ but some follow up reactions

  • The entire scene where Calypso and Apollo were trying to escape on the slow kiddy train at the Zoo had me in stitches holy shit
  • Apollo frantically hitting the gas and Calypso is just leisurely walking next to it while glaring at him??? And the guards? omfg I was dying
  • Meg’s entrance was dramatic and awesome good for her
  • Why the fuck is this 12 year old so good at sword fighting she can keep up with one of the deadliest swordfighters of the ancient world™
  • When Lit threatened Leo and Calypso essentially morphed into the knife emoji on spot. A plus.
  • I mean I’m just saying: I feel like a pregnant griffin isn’t more important than helping a tortured seven year old girl. But I still love Britomartis so I guess it’s whatever
  • I love how Lit was going on like he has a score to settle with Leo because ‘he and his friends’ fucked him up in Oklahoma but like….Leo didn’t contribute to that at all like Jason literally did everything during that fight??? That was kinda like important to Jason’s development and shit??? Leo and Piper were golden statues and Hedge was outside eating grass??? Shouldn’t Lit’s anger be focused on Jason??? lol
  • Idk I just found it funny (I want to see Jason Grace again)
  • Calypso managing to shove out some magic yeah girl!!!!
  • MEG AND APOLLO HUGGING EACH OTHER FOR DEAR LIFE WHILE SOBBING: MY ENTIRE AESTHETIC
  • Leo meeting Meg was way too fucking funny omfg “so I understand you can like…control him?” and when Apollo tried denying it she makes him slap himself??? 😂
  • How did we fucking segue from lighthearted banter directly into Apollo having a vivid flashback of the time he had to murder the love of his life with his bare hands
  • Like I??? Was sobbing??? So hard???? Because a batshit insane Roman empire was getting killed by someone who loved him bc it was necessary for the world and the lover couldn’t stand to see anyone else hurt him??? Fuck me???? Rick Riordan ain’t real
  • “I couldn’t bare to look into the water without seeing my beloved’s betrayed face starring back” or whatever the fuck the line was but FUCK
  • Jo was a teenage girl crossdressing to fuck around with gangsters in the 1920′s before Artemis found her and honestly??? Goals
  • Also the scene where she was helping Apollo after his flashback was very sweet
  • Can’t believe the nerd spent like six hours playing soothing music just to get a griffin to lay an egg
  • Leo and Calypso better be whispering amongst themselves what I think they’re whispering
  • Leo seems a lot more…subdued than usual in this book? I don’t know if that’s just because we aren’t reading from his POV, or if it’s like a “I literally died and came back and then spent six months getting attacked every single day while trying to find home and now I’m stuck on another dangerous quest I’m fucking stressed” type thing, or if it could be from the relationship problems he’s having with Calypso, but either way he seems a little off and I’m worried about him
  • The Dread Pirate Valdez…leave.
  • How was that joke never made once on the Argo tho??? lol
  • The speed at which Leo seems to have emotionally adopted Meg is astounding and also #relatable
  • Meg’s far from my favorite character tbh but like??? I will probably punch everyone who’s ever frowned in her general direction in the face. Holy shit give this kid a break
  • She thinks Nero is scared of the mystery third emperor on the West Coast??? So….Caligula, probably? Laying my bets down on him now
  • I triggered the First Law of Percy Jackson” I had to put the book down bc I was laughing so hard I think that lines gonna end up on my gravestone or as the afterword in my autobiography omfg
  • “I’ve always had a phobia of snakes, especially if you included my step-mother Hera. BOOM!” I choked.
  • I like that half the time Apollo is able to figure out what to do to win because he has a general understanding of science
  • Like he knew his burst of godly voice power would only help so much, but he also knew if he stood in the right spot and yelled in the right frequency it would reverberate and knock over the bricks and shit??? NICE
  • How long were these kids wadding through a sewer how do none of them have hypothermia
  • Leo: *sets himself on fire* “Gather round, children.”
  • Like first off someone saying ‘gather round children’ is always going to make me laugh for some reason that’s just a fact but human torching it up really added to the effect lmao
  • Like okay I understand the set up of the room so that no one would look in the canal and see them but like…how the fuck did no one realize they were there that just felt too easy I’m sorry
  • Chia Girl
  • When they found the prisoners was horrifying omfg???
  • The two fucked up boys on a hunger strike???
  • “…Hunter the Hunter?” “Yeah, I’ve never heard that before.”
  • Tall, Dark and Jamie.
  • Apollo babe you’re on a rescue mission with a time crunch please you can check out Jamie later holy shit
  • Georgie made me wanna cry get her back to her Combat Moms immediately
  • The entire sequence of Apollo getting the door open: S C I E N C E  B I T C H
  • “Lemme just fill up some syringes with ammonia just in case”
  • Alright I’ll admit when Meg started insisting she had a feeling they needed to go through the door: I was really worried she was about to double cross him.
  • Glad I was wrong but tbh that whole arena dress rehearsal bullshit was STRESSFULL
  • S T R E S S F U L L
  • First of all: Apollo’s out here constantly complaining about his puny mortal body but manages to fight and climb and run with a heavy ass chair strapped to his back: okay,
  • Second of all: why did no one warn me about Livia the elephant I was on the verge of tears every time he mentioned her
  • Third of all: Monsters, ostriches, race cars, basketballs, football, human mercenaries, animals, like…what even the fuck else SO MUCH WAS GOING ON I would’ve died in ten seconds flat???
  • Fourth of all: let’s just SET THE FUCKING GRAIN SPIRIT ON FIRE WHY THE FUCK NOT. HOW DID MEG EVEN MANAGE TO GET HIM DOWN. HOW DID APOLLO AND LIVIA MANAGE TO CRASH COMMODUS’ CAR TO THAT DEGREE AND HE NOT ONLY SURVIVED BUT THREW THE WRECKAGE AWAY FROM HIM
  • Fifth of all: THE FUCKING HUNTERS SHOW UP AND CAUSE EVEN M O R E CHAOS. Truly I don’t know how any of the main heroes survived that there was just too much.
  • The entire time I was reading it I was like “This feels like a giant fight at the climax of the book how the fuck are there more pages left what else is going to happen???” AND IM STILL WONDERING THAT LIKE
  • Thalia Grace has been returned to me.
  • Apollo’s strong urge to save Lit??? Okay I guess. It’s nice to see him being compassionate and shit but. I was kinda with Leo on that one lol
  • “Thalia Grace slid behind me on the elephant, which fulfilled one of the fantasies I’d had about the Hunter, although I never quite imagined it playing out like this” M E
  • What was his elephant-involved fantasy with Thalia I need a complete play by play lmao
  • Also the scene where Commodus dropped his composure for a sec and had a full-blown Angry Ex moment (which…he’s definitely entitled to). That was good and also I was highkey worried he might just try to kill my nerd then and there
  • Also that he’s not just mad that Apollo killed him but like. All their fucking history together. Shit’s intense.
  • Apollo loves this elephant so much after only like 15 minutes the first thing he’s gonna do when he’s immortal again is bless her or some shit
  • Also I’m glad they got that awful chainmail off her
  • The Hunters apparently just have a magical energy drink with mercury in it okay
  • Honestly??? I’m a little mad Artemis has been ordered not to contact him THE BOY JUST WANTS TO SEE HIS SISTER HOLY SHIT
  • Aaaaaand that’s about where I left off. Hoping to finish it all together the next time I get a chance. Hoping all the losers are alright. LOVING this book so far. Waiting to see an official reunion between Georgie and her Combat Moms. The Headless Ghost’s cryptic warning has me worried. Until next time…

that-loser-with-a-blog  asked:

Do you have any ushioikage headcanons?

BOY DO I. 

I spent a lot of time thinking about them during that crazy s3 so there we go

My personal favourites all actually start with Shiratorizawa!Kageyama. I have a bunch of different routes and ideas about it but especially this would be the starting point of, err, what I like to call, Melancholy of Jellykawa Tooru, but it all ends well, I promise XD (damn i missed that)

As it goes in that old one, slowly Kageyama and Ushijima bond over their mutual interests.. well, ONE interest really. They are the sort of people who just complete each others sentences (even tho they don’t talk a lot lol) and are in complete synch and it’s just so obvious. (Tendou laughs at them, Semi shoves his elbow into his side also I love that hidden tensemi there lol im weak to it sorry)

Oikawa is super salty over it all and can barely handle anyone mentioning them but he just has to because they win the nationals and it’s everywhere and he’s not even sure why he’s so incredibly touchy but at some point he just realizes it’s not just the winning part, he feels like he’s being left behind, both were his rivals who didn’t even know each other but now they’re a team and they’re there, they have what Oikawa wanted for himself and them being there together is part of his, err, melancholy lol. He represses it successfully.. for the most part..

…Until he ends up in the same team with Ushijima in uni. Of course, Ushijima, with that perfect social awareness, starts talking about Kageyama because he thinks that would be appropriate since kageyama talks just so much about Oikawa. At one point it becomes clear they’re dating and Oikawa is completely mortified. After that, he realizes why he was so bothered by it all before.

Kageyama often goes there to meet Ushijima and they practice together and Oikawa just snaps and leaves whenever he shows his face

At some point kageyama, rattled by that behaviour, confides in ushijima that oikawa was his first crush and ushijima is kind of like i have been there and they are not surprised they agree on liking oikawa (lol neither am i)

Oikawa is insanely frustrated and hates seeing them together even though you can’t find a less-pda couple than them lmao 

Outside help: Severely Needed

Outside help: in the form of TenSemi, points out that Oikawa has been “too tsundere and it was disgraceful even for people like them to not notice”  then tendou points out semi is being rude 

They literally corner Oikawa lmao he thinks they’re pissed at him bc they have that intense, focused look 

Then they confess to him and at first he’s shocked, then outraged then he’s like WHY DO I EVEN WANT THIS BUT OKAY FINE WHATEVER DONT EVEN MENTION HOW YOU CORNERED ME TO OTHERS OR TO ME EVER AGAIN

they’re like???cornered??? how???? and let me tell you oikawa is not amused

but in the end.. they end up perfectly balanced >_< althouth oikawa changes seven moods before those two even realize something is wrong and oikawa is like “no. nevermind. -_-” and they’re like “oh alright then” 

and it’s just beautiful (♡ಥ‿ಥ♡)

hey, a prayer request please

a little on the personal side this time.

i’ve always had trouble making friends. see, just because of the way my personality (snarky) and humor (commentary) are, a lot of people tend to dismiss me as boring at first interaction. it takes me a few weeks to find my stride with each individual relationship, so i tend to be very awkward at first, which drives people off.

it took me a full year at my small co-op (only 10 highschoolers) to feel like i fit in and felt comfortable familiarity with everyone. i’ve never been good at immediately clicking with others. it’s always been gradual with me, and most people dont seem to have the patience for that.

i guess it’s hard for me because i feel like im already being left behind. my roommate already has like 10 friends that she’s going out and doing stuff with and so far she’s my only psuedo-friend. i’ve been lonely for so many years now and the thought of it happening all over again is frankly causing a lot of emotional stress.

anyways, i guess what i’m asking is for y’all to pray that God sends me just a few good people willing to be friends with me. just a squad i can hang out with where i dont feel like an intrusion. i would really like that.

anonymous asked:

i feel like were all missing something!!! like they know the script was leaked and they know that the clip with clarke would be a spoiler and make everyone think one way like it feels like were looking at a puzzle and theres one piece missing because they wouldnt want to spoil that like im sus 👀

Stop the writers deadass leaked the script on purpose leaving out act 6 👀👀 I agree wit you, that’s what I’ve been saying all day. I’m suppose to believe that the writers (who usually just compile a few scenes from the start of the ep to make the promo and sneak peeks) actually included something as spoilery as CLARKE BEING LEFT BEHIND ON EARTH right in their fucking finale promo???? Which assumingely would be from the end of the episode?? Nah, something is fishing. My prediction (guess) is that the scene of Clarke in the forest is a hallucination from when she passes out end of act 5. And that while unconscious the group (Bellamy) runs out to grab her and then takes off with her. I think they might make us believe for a second that a time jump has happened and Clarke has actually been on earth alone all this time… but yeah. Maybe I’m over-thinking things but someTHING DEFS SMELLS A LIL FISHY.

anonymous asked:

hello uh;; sorry if this comes off as sudden but i wanted some advice as ive been really down about this. im taking my n levels this year and idk why but for years it makes me feel really inferior knowing that im in the NA stream and so many of the people that are close to me are from the Express stream and that makes me so sad knowing that soon they will be gone and ill be left behind both in education and them being somewhere else. idk what to do;;

hey hey, i understand how you feel but please don’t look down on yourself being in NA! i’ve had lots of friends in NA and I’VE always been jealous of them bc they were given lots of opportunities to try more hands on courses like Design & Technology and Cooking while us express kids were stuck with academic studies.

i’m assuming that you’re not as close with your classmates as you are with your Express class friends? if you have a CCA, try to bond with your juniors and make friends with the fellow sec 5s who’re staying too!

remember, kids in the express doesn’t mean that they’re inherently “better”. you aren’t being “left behind” either, they’re just graduating earlier and you’re doing just fine as you are, with the original structure of secondary school which used to be 5 years anyways! have trust in your friends that they won’t simply leave you either.

would read more but on mobile. but anyway it’s so hard being so suicidal but feeling so guilty because of the person you would hurt if you left behind. i don’t even feel like im valuable enough to grieve over but i’ve learnt recently with my near successful attempt that i am and as shocking and nonsensical as that is to me it’s always in the back of my mind now even though i’ve been fighting for so long and can barely take another second i don’t want to cause any pain. someone i barely i knew but talked to on here a few years back i learnt recently killed themself a few months ago and even that still fucks me up and leaves me feeling so hollow and broken inside. i genuinely thought things we’re getting better for her but they never really do, especially with bpd and depression. i know i’ll feel this way forever and when i get older and i’m still a useless neet (well not even a neet anymore…an elderly ‘eet’ i guess lol) i’m going to feel even worse. i’m not made for this world but the thought of her finding my body and ruining her life breaks me

Just wanted to say, school has me busy, and when I’m not busy I try to do my story stuff and you storytellers know that sucks up so many hours. 

I AM slowly catching up to all your guys’s stuff though!!

I’m going in order by my following list, so not by like favorites or anything like that! 

I like to read in order, so that’s why I dont send likes during the week because then I don’t know where I left off. 

So trust me, Im trying. Some of you I’ve been behind for a month, yikes, I apologize for being a sucky follower when a lot of you guys are on top of my stuff. But, I’ll get there! 

ps, if you dont like me leaving spam comments let me know and I wont! cause i cant shut up. So dont worry you wont hurt my feelings at all! :D

Have a  super good day everyone! 

(23/04/16)

“Are you okay?” They ask me.

“Just tired” I always answer.

And I’m not lying, I am tired.
I’m tired of looking at myself in the mirror and seeing another person stare back at me.
I’m tired of always frowning.
I’m tired of the way I can’t feel emotions.
I’m tired I can never do anything right.
I’m tired of always being left behind.
I’m tired of always being the last choice.
I’m tired that everyone thinks I’m ‘okay’.
Most importantly,
I’m tired of feeling like I’m dead every single day.
-Luna 🌕

anonymous asked:

Hey hi um i dont mean to be rude i just, youre 25 do you ever feel like youre being left behind? Like what if you end up lonely? Im sorry, im 25 and i've never dated anybody and im scared cause i want a family and you know, life goes by so fast and i always felt like this world wasnt for me, its so scary to feel this lonely you know? Like im here to just be a witness and thats not what i want, i want to love and be loved im just so fucking scared man :(

It’s not rude at all. ❤️

Listen. How your feeling is totally valid and understandable. I’m 25 and I’ve only had one serious relationship and it was only 8 months long. That was 3 years ago and I have yet to have a relationship as serious as that one. I get scared all the time because I want things like that, too. A family. Kids. But, the reality of it all is that we can’t force that shit. As badly as I want to haha. Look, we’re 25 but we aren’t behind. We’re still so young. We have so much time left for OURSELVES that we should take advantage of. We only have one life. So cliche, but it’s true.

You aren’t behind, my friend. Take adventures and go make new friends and fall in love with yourself and one day it’ll all fall into place.

Ditto

Word Count: 675

Summary: A glimpse into the reader and Dean’s relationship when she has to stay home from a hunt.

A/N: IT’S SO FLUFFY. I HATE IT. IM GOING TO HIDE NOW. But for real, I”m really bad at writing stuff like this. I get all flustered and feel so weird. I feel really silly, but I hope you’ll still like it.

You hated when you got hurt on a hunt. Not only because of the pain, but because of being left behind. You couldn’t go with the Winchester brothers to try and help people. Instead you sat in bed, nursing a compound fracture in your leg. No matter how much you fought, Dean wouldn’t let you go.

“I know you’re pissed,” he said, holding back a grin at the grimace on your face. “But you’ll only hurt yourself more and get in the way of the hunt.”

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Jet Black Heart - Luke blurb

OK SO HOLY CRAP I JUST LISTENED TO JET BLACK HEART AND IT INSPIRED ME TO WRITE THIS SO ENJOY! 

Originally posted by sexycliffconda

“Everybody’s got their demons
Even wide awake or dreaming”

You looked out your window, the sky was clear blue, you could feel the heat from the sun coming through your window. You wondered why you weren’t outside, but then you remembered you didn’t care. You felt stupid for being the way you were acting about everything, but this time, you couldn’t mask the feelings. 

You slumped down the stairs, and glanced at the clock next to the bookcase, twelve o’clock. “Hey sleepy head!” Your friend appeared from the kitchen. You gave her a small smile. “He left another message,” She frowned, “I think you should really call him ba-” You rolled your eyes. “Delete them, all of them.” Your friend flinched as you spit the words out, “And i’m not going to call him back.”

You walked past her, and went into the kitchen. Your stomach growled when as you rummaged through the cabinets. “(Y/N), I’m just trying to help you.” When you couldn’t find anything, you settled for a bag of chips. “I know. But I’m just done with this, with him.” You tossed a handful of chips into your mouth. “You won’t get over this, if you don’t confront him, tell him how you actually feel.” You shook your head no. “Okay, well if you won’t fix that, at least fix other things,” She snatched the bag of chips out of your hand, “Chips aren’t lunch.” You crossed your arms, and glared at her. “Then what am I suppose to eat?” She turned to you with a big smile on her face, “I’ll take you out for lunch!” She placed her hands on both of your shoulders, “It’ll be fun! Plus you need to get out of the house.” You finally gave in to her thousand request to go out for lunch with her, and began getting ready. 


Can I have the ribs platter please?” You asked the waiter. “Sure thing! Coming up soon, ladies.” She nodded before walking off. “Wow, (Y/N) you must be hungry.” You laughed, “You betcha I am.” You noticed she looked down at her phone, with an un-easy look on her face. That was, what it felt like, the 5th time she did it, and it started to make you feel anxious. “Whats wrong?” You titled your head. She immediately locked her phone, “Nothing, my phone is just being stupid.” 

It felt good to be out the house, and not sitting in your room throwing yourself a pity party. You glanced over at another table, there was a happy couple giggling and the cute things their child was doing. You could tell they were happy. Your friend must have noticed, because she turned around and looked over at them too, and instantly looked back at you. “(Y/N)…” Her voice trailed off.” You smiled. “They look so happy.” The child was coloring, and showed her father the drawing, he smiled and said what a good job she had done. “I want that some day.” You smiled, and then looked back at them. “It will happen one day.” She looked at you with a hopeful face. “Yeah.” 


“Stop looking at your phone.” You said, trying to see what she was looking down at, by every time you tried, she would lock it. “Sorry.” You raised your eyebrow, “What’s so important?” Her phone lit up again, and this time she practically jumped out of her seat. “I have to go pee.” She said, and hurried away from your table. You sat there, confused by what was happening. This whole lunch thing was weird. She was constantly looking at her phone, and barely listened to a word you said. 

When you saw she was walking back tot he table, you couldn’t help but see someone tagging along behind her. “Calum?” You said to yourself, and then the worst of all, “Luke?” You stood up, and crossed your arms. You friend approached you with a awkward smile on her face. “Surprise?” She tried to make the awkwardness go away. You glanced at Calum, and then Luke. “Nice. Really nice, (Y/F/N).” You were pissed, but more so hurt. She set you up, knowing how upset you were. “(Y/N) I was just trying to-” You rolled your eyes, “Trying to what? Set me up? When I told you I wasn’t ready for this.” You looked down at her feet, clearly now feeling bad about the situation. “Have fun, I;m out of here.” You snapped, pushing past Luke and Calum. People were starring at you, which made things ten times worse. “Aren’t I your ride home?” She watched you leave. “Ever heard of a cab?” You threw your hands up. 

“Cause I’ve got a jet black heart
And there’s a hurricane underneath it”

“(Y/N)!” You balled your hands up into a fist and turned around, “What.” Luke stood a few feet away from you. “I know this was the worst way to do it but we-” You shook your head, you couldn’t believe you were listening to what he was saying. “But we what? Need to talk?” He took a deep breath, “Yeah.” You gave him a sarcastic smile. “You’re kidding me, right?” He walked closer, “We need to make everything okay again. I miss you so much, (Y/N).” He pleaded. “But you didn’t miss me “so much”, when you got drunk and slept with another girl. You didn’t miss me when you hooked up with her afterwards, while I was at home, missing you more than anyone, did you?” He said nothing. “I thought so.” He tried to place his hand on your shoulder, but you aggressively moved it back. “I just need a second chance.”

You rolled your eyes again, this was so stupid, all of it was stupid. You couldn’t believe that you wasted many years with him. All of that time thinking he really loved you, that he also wanted to some day start a future with you. “It was one drink, one mistake, I swear.” 

“One mistake like that doesn’t get second chances, Luke. You should’ve thought about this all the moment your lips pressed against hers, but you didn’t.”

“The blood in my veins
Is made up of mistakes”

“(Y/N)” Luke called after you again, but you kept walking. You left him behind, along with every feeling you had for him. 

OK THEN. THIS WAS LIKE, SAD. I KNOW THIS LITTLE BLURB DOESN’T REALLY GO ALONG WITH THE SONG, BUT I THOUGHT SOME OF THE LYRICS KINDA WENT ALONG WITH IT??? IDK???? BUT I HOPE YOU ALL ENJOYED, AND IM SORRY FOR BEING SO INACTIVE FOR LIKE 2 WEEKS….. 

IM GOING TO TRY MY BST TO WRITE MORE AGAIN AND BLAH. FEEL FREE TO SEND ME SOME REQUEST (NOTE: I DO NOT WRITE SMUT), BECAUSE I AM MAINLY FOCUSED ON DOING THOSE FOR NOW. 

HOPE YOU ENJOYED! :)