i feel like i've posted this before but i don't care

my future child: why is my friend named leia?

me: because her mom likes star wars

my future child: what about me?

me: i’ll tell you later, we’re going too fast baby, i don’t know what’s wrong baby, we’re going-

A sort-of sequel to this

“That character can’t be trans, because ____”

“They have a higher/lower pitched voice!”
Voice pitch doesn’t indicate gender. Some boys/men have higher pitched voices and some women have lower pitched voices, whether or not they’re trans. Trans people, usually adults, can also go through vocal training to make their voices higher/lower. Another thing to consider is that for younger characters, all voices are pretty high pitched. Young boys can often sing soprano in choirs and there’s a reason young cartoon boys are often voiced by teenage girls.

“We’ve seen them shirtless/in a bra!”
Shirtless trans boys: If they are younger, puberty might not have kicked in yet, so they have a flat chest. For older boys who would have gone through/are going through puberty, they could just have small breasts, took/are taking puberty blockers, or are taking T. Any boy who is 18+ may have gotten top surgery.
Trans girls with bras: This mostly applies to teenage/adult characters. They could be wearing a water bra/stuffed a bra/bra with padding. Again, they could also be taking hormones or have had top surgery done.

“They’re too young/too old to be trans!”
You are never the wrong age to realize you’re trans. Young kids can know as soon as they are developed enough to actually think/process things. For older people, they might have not realized what they were feeling was something significant/not just a random thought or that it is okay to be trans until recently. It could also be that they transitioned some time before, maybe when they were young, maybe not. This is a really weak argument.

“The creator said they weren’t trans!”
It really doesn’t matter. If the creator of a show says they’re not trans then they aren’t trans in canon, but that won’t stop us from imagining these characters as trans. Part of being in a fandom is recreating the characters and showing them to others in a new light, that might not be canon, but honestly who cares? A lot of artists and writers can show our favorite characters as trans in a good/cool way while not making that the whole idea of the work. As long as the original traits of the character aren’t lost, it’s fantastic. Getting upset for this reason is like getting upset because someone colored a person’s hair the wrong shade of brown.

“I don’t want my favorite characters to be trans!”
Congrats, you’re transphobic. 
I’d also like to point out that just because you don’t really agree with/can’t see a character being trans doesn’t really make you transphobic. In fact, I even have trouble seeing some characters as trans. But if it makes you cry cis tears/makes you mad to see trans people have fun/don’t like the idea of rubbing our little trans hands all over it, you are transphobic.

Any other bullshit reason
I don’t give a shit, any character can be trans and we don’t need reasoning to think that.

Also take into consideration characters who haven’t realized their trans/haven’t come out yet and don’t present as their actual gender 

header graphic by @squirrellygirlart || @miraculousblackout

Let’s talk about reposting, shall we? c:

I’m a little late to the party because I’m a dumdum who thought this was in August, but here we go. Long post ahead.

Funnily enough (or not), because I was late to join this protest, I posted a comic celebrating a follower milestone during the blackout and barely 2 HOURS later, it got reposted on Instagram. I kid you not:

(if you can’t see it, I posted mine 20 hours ago, and the repost was made 19 hours ago)

Anyway, this really puts a bad taste in my mouth. Not only was my work reposted almost immediately after it was made, it was also by someone who doesn’t even follow me AND they even changed up the caption for their own, thereby erasing my message for the comic I made.

I feel really disrespected as a creator. I made that comic to thank my followers, and right off the bat someone who is not even following me goes on and snatches it up.

The intent to repost this before anyone else was clear. Not once have I received a message asking for permission. It’s like… nobody cared to ask me first? It’s okay as long as they slap my name on the description like “lairep on tumblr made this”? Haha. no

Did they directly link the original post? Did they directly link my blog? No. And let’s be real, who’s even going to bother manually typing my name on the searchbar to go to my blog to see more of my posts when they can easily find them on some reposter’s account? Just giving the name is not enough credit. Just giving a name is not enough “exposure” or whatever new excuse a reposter has for doing it.

I’m not asking for much. Just don’t make me feel this way. Like I don’t matter besides providing content for you to peruse as you please. I do this for fun and I enjoy sharing, but I have the right to share in however way I want to. I’m the one making it, not you.

It took me a lot of courage to even start posting anything at all, because I’ve had previous experience of art theft that drove me from drawing and sharing for years… and if this goes on—- let’s just say I don’t want a repeat of that. I want to share, I want to make content, so please don’t do things that would make me want to stop.

Please don’t make other creators feel this way. Let creators feel like they matter. That you appreciate them. That you want them to keep making content you and others would enjoy. Make them feel the joy they give you with their posts. Make them feel like staying in the fandom instead of leaving.

Don’t steal, don’t repost. At the very least, drop a line to ask permission. It’s not hard to click links and type words. Even just to show you respect them as a person. It’ll be worth it, I promise. c:

This has been a long post (and I haven’t even touched on PLAGIARISM), but I had to say my piece. I fully support this blackout for me, my friends, and for other creators who are dealing with this kind of thing every. freaking. day.

Edit: Accidentally posted early instead of drafting, but I wanted to say I love all you artists/writers out there who bring joy and angst to the fandom and I hope you continue doing the thing c: I support you against all thieves, reposters, and plagiarizers. 

the signs as haruki murakami quotes
  • Aries: “No mistake about it. Ice is cold; roses are red; I'm in love. And this love is about to carry me off somewhere. The current's too overpowering; I don't have any choice. It may very well be a special place, some place I've never seen before."
  • Taurus: “I was always hungry for love. Just once, I wanted to know what it was like to get my fill of it - to be fed so much love I couldn't take any more. Just once."
  • Gemini: “Why do people have to be this lonely? What's the point of it all? Millions of people in this world, all of them yearning, looking to others to satisfy them, yet isolating themselves. Why? Was the earth put here just to nourish human loneliness?”
  • Cancer: "Life is not like water. Things in life don’t necessarily flow over the shortest possible route."
  • Leo: "Whatever it is you're seeking won't come in the form you're expecting."
  • Virgo: “If you remember me, then I don't care if everyone else forgets.”
  • Libra: "Even castles in the sky can do with a fresh coat of paint."
  • Scorpio: “Nobody likes being alone that much. I don't go out of my way to make friends, that's all. It just leads to disappointment."
  • Sagittarius: "But who can say what's best? That's why you need to grab whatever chance you have of happiness where you find it, and not worry about other people too much. My experience tells me that we get no more than two or three such chances in a life time, and if we let them go, we regret it for the rest of our lives."
  • Capricorn: “Don't feel sorry for yourself. Only assholes do that.”
  • Aquarius: “If you only read the books that everyone else is reading, you can only think what everyone else is thinking.”
  • Pisces: “I dream. Sometimes I think that's the only right thing to do.”

anonymous asked:

idk about people but i've always thought of pidge as a cisgendered female. i just don't think she's trans. from flashbacks she seems to be comfortable in her female identity and it's explicitly mentioned in the show that she's passing as a guy so people don't suspect she's katie holt.

hi! I think pidge is great in that her gender can be interpreted in a lot of different ways, and everyone’s headcannons on that are valid. Pidge does use she/her pronouns and given the mulan feel to her story, i can see why a lot of people see her as cis.

but also that being said i am trans, so personally i do like to think of her as a trans girl or nonbinary. This isn’t really based on the scenes pidge is in so much as the emotion and relatibility those scenes evoke. like, the look on her face when she goes to cut her hair, but she stops and her hand shakes? like she’s throwing a part of her identity away? im a trans boy not out to my family, and i cant tell you how much it hurts to hear comments like “why dont you grow your hair out itll look so pretty” or “that isnt ladylike” so for me, im the opposite. if my hair gets too long, it makes me feel a lot of disphoria, and i need to cut it right away. i could kind of see that same sort of reaction in pidge when she has to cut her hair and she feels like its forfeiting part of herself 

another thing is the way she reacts when shiro calls her katie. it means a lot when everyone’s calling you something that isn’t you and then someone you care about finally reaffirms your identity with your own name. and the line shiro says about keeping it a secret until she’s ready to come out? ya, ive heard that from someone i really trust before. 

something else that’s really relatable is the bathroom scene. like, i cant tell you how many times ive watched it and just thought same

it seems to me like the creators are pretty aware of the implications you could draw from pidge’s gender, and put this in as a reference to that specifically. it’s also worth noting that, while on the surface its funny becuase “ha, alien bathrooms, she can’t tell which is which,” the fact of the matter is, it’s not the stall signs she’s confused about. theyre coded blue and pink, so both we the audience and other characters in universe (hello keith) are perfectly aware of what that means:

and i mean, if anyone is gonna be able to read alien signs, it’s the person who literally made their galra translation program and also learns altean in her spare time. So its a matter of picking one that she’s hesitant about, not a confusion of which is which. lastly, the creators did mention pidge’s gender while talking about possible representation in voltron:

also, while pidge may be cis, being in the closet–having to hide your gender from everybody, feeling like youre living a lie, like you arent who everyone thinks, having to change the way others perceive your identity against your will, the worry about things like public bathrooms, and all the stress and anxiety this stuff causes–these aren’t issues that cis girls have. They are, however, very relatable to trans and nonbinary people, which is why a lot of people, myself included, can kind of see a bit of ourselves in her story. 

so basically just to recap, while pidge could be cis, the problems with her gender identity arent ones that cis girls typically face, and are more relatable to people who are trans or nonbinary, and in many ways her story seems like a metaphor for that, which is why she’s often headcannoned as such. i hope that makes sense?? 

mzyraj  asked:

I've seen you reblogging Jon/Dany stuff and I'm curious how likely you think that level of love/romance would be in the coming canon. Even putting aside whatever state Jon is going to be in post-resurrection, I'm not sure their past relationships suggest that each would be the other's type for instant attraction, and I don't know if they'd have time to develop much of a relationship what with the oncoming winter apocalypse. Or is it just a ship people like the idea of but don't expect?

Oh no, I don’t think the all-American, crewcut, boy-next-door Jon Snow we’ve seen in AGOT - ADWD is Dany’s type for instant attraction at all! 

Dany’s the type who likes rockstars with wild hair, and the power and danger of a big ol’ Harley-Davidson between her legs. She’s looking for a maverick fighter pilot from Top Gun to ride one of her dragons.  She wants a rebel with a cause, not a lost, grieving boy. I don’t think the Jon Snow we know is the type of guy Dany’s looking for!

But Jon Snow died. ;)

In the words of the King, “The person you put up there ain’t the person that comes back. It might look like that person, but it ain’t that person” (Pet Semetary). “Resurrection… ah, there’s a word (that you should put right the fuck out of your mind and you know it).”

GRRM has said that “Death is hard.” It changes a person. Look at the Lightning Lord. Look at Lady Stoneheart. They remember, but they’re not the same people anymore. I think Jon Snow, after spending some time in Ghost, is going to come back wilder. More reckless, more dangerous, more … rockstar. So I think Dany will find Jon very attractive. 

(from Jesus Christ Superstar

(Will TWOW please come out soon, because my ASOIAF / pop culture analogies are getting wilder and wilder.) 

So anyways, you can’t just “put aside” Dragonriding Rockstar Jesus Jon Snow and his Resurrection, or his Freefolk Groupies on the tv show, or his tv manbun when considering the potential for Jon/Dany. The resurrection – and the change it will bring – is a big reason why I think Jon/Dany has potential.

So how likely do I think there will be love/romance between Jon/Dany in canon? I’m certain of it. I think Jon and Dany will grow very close as they fight together to save the world, and I think that’s a beautiful thing. I’ll wager money on Jon/Dany falling in love in the books before the end of ADOS; any takers? First come, first served

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Greetings. 

Uh, so I’ve been working on this meta post for around 3 months now, gathering screenshots, gathering feedback, gathering more screenshots. The result is what could conceivably be called thorough.

Compared to the animation I made as the header, the post’s content was much harder to put together and write; I consider the animation icing on the cake. If you liked the animation, and like Chara (or don’t like Chara) then please consider reading the meta. It’s finally done!


Sections…

As a good portion (though not all) of this post is based on the well-known “Chara is the narrator” theory, first and foremost, this section has to be here to provide the base of the post.  It has most of the information known so far that supports the theory, and then some.

Here, we see the Chara describe the bed on the right as Asriel’s bed.

Nothing seems off about this in the pacifist run. There it’s just described as a “twin-sized” bed.

But the narrator has a reaction upon seeing the bed on the left in the Pacifist route. What’s so special about the left one? Why is it this one that prompts this reaction?

Chara’s bed. Chara’s deathbed.

That’s a pretty morbid comment to make; “If you laid down here you might not get up”. That sort of comment, especially in the pacifist run, is probably enough to make you squint and go “the fuck, my dude”. It’s completely out of left field. Most importantly, the narrator only had this reaction to Chara’s bed. The narrator knows Chara died here.

Why does that prove the theory?

They only seem to know what Frisk knows, and what they know.

At first, they don’t know what the plant in Toriel’s hallway is any more than Frisk  does.

Then Frisk reads the book about it…

Now the narrator knows what it is:

It’s another line that seems out of place the first time you see it - shouldn’t the narrator know everything? You’ve taught the narrator? Narrators, as you know, are supposed to be informative and helpful. There is no reason the narrator should fail to know something so obvious this soon in the game. They seem excited, too.

And they may not have known what a water sausage was called, but they knew what a golden flower looked like when they saw it at the very start, before anyone has even mentioned them or pointed them out. 

No one had to teach the narrator what this rare species of flower was name, even though they didn’t know what the common water sausage was called.

In addition narrator’s inconsistent botany knowledge, when you check the snow poffs in Snowdin, the narrator also shows a reaction to something they didn’t know before (after indulging in some serious sarcasm at Frisk’s incessant checking)

…and they seem a little dismayed to find there was something worth the repeated checks after all.

They also think Shyren’s tone deaf until Frisk starts singing with her…

And, my personal favorite:

The narrator doesn’t know everything and can learn or be proven wrong.

So we return to this neutral/pacifist line:

This narrator knows something about this bed that makes it different from the bed on the right. They react to this bed only, and pass this rather morbid, off-handed remark here. Mind you, this is still the pacifist run and white-text.

Despite not knowing everything, they know what happened here. Frisk does not yet know what happened in this bed. Chara does.

There is a jarring moment in the Pacifist run where the narrator completely breaks their usual way of narrating.

It’s Asriel’s phonecall.

The narrator has a huge reaction upon hearing his voice - the biggest emotional reaction they’ve had so far. The text spacing doubles out, the line delivers extremely slowly. This voice means something to them.

They just found out their best friend was alive after dying with him. Chara had no reason to believe Asriel was alive until then, speaking, breathing, and calling their name. They’re in shock.

They don’t show any reaction if you get the Snowdin phone call from Alphys, by the way, even though you’ve never met her, even if you’ve never reset (you can get this even if it’s your very first playthrough!). It’s Asriel’s voice, not the surprise phonecall itself, that elicits this unique reaction.

There’s a mode called “Serious Mode” (full list of changes here) in which the narrator drops the little jokes they usually make, particularly of the items:

Such as…

  • Buttspie
  • SpidrDont
  • Leg.Hero
  • Mandanna

to more serious versions…

  • Pie
  • SpdrDonut
  • L.Hero
  • Bandanna

and becomes very somber during the fight, and, at times, very quiet.

Serious Mode happens on four occasions:

Toriel’s fight, Asgore’s fight, Asriel’s fight, and the entirety of the Bad Times.

In other words, Serious Mode will only happen during Dreemur family fights on neutral/pacifist routes.

And speaking of Bad Times, examining the photograph of everyone smiling in New Home elicits a similar reaction:

Somehow, it still gives them pause, even after everything that’s happened. Even Flowey, after all his runs like this, was so jaded by then that his base reaction to these things was just “lol”.

Speaking of Flowey…

Flowey is not talking to you (although you are meant from a gamer’s perspective to take the following speech personally).

Chara can be named by you, but they don’t have to share your name.

(contrary to popular belief, which is the first screenshot taken out of context)

Your explicit instructions were to “Name the fallen child” not “What’s your name?” although the game plays off you assuming the latter.

Chara is not you. They have a true name.

And, seeing as how the other characters react if you try to use their name, and the speaking mannerism, this is Chara themself telling you this.

In the game, we play as Frisk.

And…

That expression he’s making in the first panel is not of someone talking to a stranger.

Flowey is talking to Chara at the end of the Pacifist run, with the same name he has been calling them the entire game, except now he knows that they and Frisk are not the same.

So what does he have to say?

After a deeply awkward, long pause, he informs them that everyone is happy.


…and that Chara shouldn’t worry about them.

After acknowledging their ability to reset, he then says that the power to save and reset is something Chara was fighting to stop.

He knows Frisk and Chara aren’t the same person, and he no longer over-idolizes Chara, but he has an idea that Chara, by the end of the Pacifist run, had been fighting the power to save and reset, asks them not to do it themselves, and tells them not to be worried about everyone.

Flowey says Chara was with Frisk during Pacifist, and cared enough about the safety of Frisk and their friends to worry about their happiness by the end of Pacifist.

Combine all that with these well-known screenshots…

The narrator is speaking in both of these screenshots (still in Toriel’s house) in white-text. The narrator didn’t say, “It’s you, Chara.” They said “me”.

The Chara=Narrator theory is made pretty obvious by this. The mirror dialogue could be taken as its “big reveal”.

You can read more evidence here, here, and here.

The narrator isn’t Gaster. His entry # 17, triggered in the True Lab (the only entry missing from the monitors) was done at the same time Alphys was conducting her Determination experiments (all other entries, except #17).

Meanwhile, the narrator…

…seems rather unsure about the whole True Lab.

And gosh diddly darnit, the narrator isn’t Toby. This is Toby:

The narrator isn’t Frisk.

 When Frisk’s name is revealed in pacifist, they say, “Still just you, Frisk,” (so the narrator obviously isn’t Frisk, even in Pacifist).

The “you” the narrator speaks of is always Frisk; Chara is never referred to with “you”. The “me”, the narrator themselves, is always Chara. It’s stated outright.

Chara’s narration also includes the narration in parentheses, such as:

There were no flowers when Chara fell (as seen in the intro) so the “you” is still Frisk. Other characters use parentheses occasionally too, as a thought, aside, or whisper. Frisk doesn’t speak outside parentheses either. “Still just you, Frisk” has no parentheses.

 Frisk is never the narrator. The narrator remains Chara on both runs; the first instance of “It’s me, Chara”, Frisk has no way of even knowing the name “Chara”, since it’s in Toriel’s home in the mirror, before Flowey calls them “Chara”. It’s Chara talking to Frisk, not the other way around.

Chara does speak in white text often in the Less Than Favorable Outcome…

…but they now seem to use red text to describe things they feel especially emotionally strong about something.

Red text is also used by the narrator in Pacifist, when they sarcastically get excited about something that’s not actually that interesting at all.

On top of that, the narrator seems to be explicitly in the same place as Frisk (which is, to say, in their head)

…because they didn’t say “You felt strange lying in the bed”. They said “It felt strange” and then say that it feels, to them, too small for Frisk now.

And it seems Frisk talks to the narrator on occasion.

The person is in Frisk’s head, can communicate with and be heard by Frisk, likes to make little morbid comments about Chara’s deathbed, gets very quiet on most routes when confronted by Dreemurs, reacts to Asriel’s voice, and only ever refers to themselves by name as “me, Chara” while referring to Frisk as “you, Frisk”.

(I’m a dirty liar, that wasn’t brief at all)

They seem excited upon seeing the toys in Toriel’s house. There’s a small pause in the narration (if you don’t skip) as they assess Frisk’s thoughts….

…then they’re disappointed when Frisk isn’t interested in the ‘cool’ toys; so, a child, with more childish tendencies than Frisk.

They can be very impatient with repeated checks of objects or people (on several occasions)…

(note that this particular example was added in the most recent patch. yes, extra narrator impatience was patched in. word)

They can be very critical of your choices…

They also have a sense of humor that runs from weeb shit, to puns, to sarcasm…

…even in serious situations:

So keeping in mind that Chara seems to be having a good enough time on neutral runs to joke around (even about their own death bed)…

… what happened?

The narrator is not having such a good time during the Unfun Run.

They become no-nonsense…

very impatient…

(even compared to their usual impatience with multiple checks; this time they simply refuse to give information on it twice)

angry…

completely focused on things that will aid the “mission”.

(Sound a little like a gamer speedrunning, doesn’t it?)

There’s an interesting clue to the narrator and their state of mind when you check the bag of dog food in the lab.

You see, unlike the dummy and tree, it’s affected by kill count, not LOVE.

If you kill no one…

Pacifist route text. You haven’t killed anyone at this point; the narrator is optimistic (”glass-full”). They’re having a good time on this path. They’re hopeful.

After killing someone (even a single Whimsun, who won’t even raise your LV at LV 1)…

 The narrator is pessimistic. The bag is now “half empty”. Their state of mind is directly changed by you killing even one person.

But if you kill Doggo, and your kill count is 21+….

The dog bag becomes funny. This is directly affected by killing Doggo and killing more than 20 people. The narrator doesn’t find his death funny before 20 kills. Something has changed in them.

Their view on the world is directly changed by how much you kill.

  • If you kill no one, they’re optimistic. They don’t want you to kill.
  • If you kill even once, they become pessimistic.
  • If you kill over 20 people then they can be sadistic, even on a non-genocide route.

But they do not find Doggo’s death funny unless you kill more than 20 people (which is more than the equivalent of an entire area’s worth of monsters). They did not find it funny before the kills corrupted them, or they would always find his death funny, even without the kills.

In addition to that, Chara becomes unrecognizable to Asgore in the Bippity Boppity Bad Path. Whereas before he was reminded of Chara when he saw Frisk…

in this route…

…they are completely unrecognizable, even when before he recognized the similarity in neutral/pacifist. Why is that?

Because in this run, Chara has changed. They were so unlike this during their lifetime that Asgore no longer even recognizes the murderous creature before him as human, much less resembling his child.

So how is Chara able to get that far gone?

They state outright that they woke up confused, and sought your guidance. You led them to this conclusion. Either they become optimistic and value life, or they think power is their reason for living, and it’s kill or be killed.

We’ve seen this before. Why is Chara able to be taught this way - to either extreme?

By the time we show up, Chara’s own soul is long gone.

This is how he’s able to recognize Chara in the Goddamn Bitch of an Unsatisfactory Situation. This is not a commentary on how Chara acted in life (because you’ve been killing countless monsters and there’s no way anyone would let that shit fly, and Asgore, again, couldn’t recognize them,+ also their LOVE starts at 1)…

…but because your actions indicate someone empty of a soul, and that’s what Flowey is expecting of Chara if they were to come back to life like him.

Even after Chara saunters up with the same colored red soul they also had in life beating inside them, Flowey assumes it’s stolen (he’s wrong, it’s still Frisk’s, but more on that later).

Asgore has never seen a soulless, murderous person (being soulless is unprecedented until Flowey) but Flowey has, and he’s been waiting for Chara to turn up as a soulless person, just like him.

Flowey is fully expecting that if Chara were reborn, they would be soulless, which is how he recognizes them: as “someone empty like me”, a being with no soul.  But how does he figure?

Their souls were combined. When Asriel lost his, Chara lost theirs. Their soul would suffer the same fate, because they were combined.

Chara confirms that they don’t have a soul by their comment here:

It seems as though they were once able to understand “these feelings” but are no longer able to.

Even with Frisk’s soul. Why is that?

Look what happened when Flowey got six souls. He turned into

Like Chara, who’s attached to Frisk’s soul even when they don’t “own” it, Flowey can feel what the souls are feeling, but those feelings are incomprehensible, not his own.

Frisk had to SAVE him while he had the souls to make him feel love again.

The Chara who’s doing the Dusty Dance here is about as much like the “original” Chara as the Flowey we meet is like Asriel. Flowey took a long time to get there on his own; he didn’t have a “guide”. Although when Frisk comes along…

Even soulless people can learn.

…one direction or another.

(non-pacifist neutral endings, had to use a transcript because I can’t find screens and I don’t want to reset and kill anything llollol)

This is what you’re doing. You either prove to Chara that you don’t have to kill (which seems to help them, going by the “half-full” statement and general spirit of the narrator at those times) or you teach them that killing is not just fine, but they HAVE to kill. Like Flowey, they seem highly suggestible, and they are looking to YOU for direction.

And like Flowey, if you show Chara any sign that this “kill or be killed” rule isn’t absolute, even after killing dozens of people, they hesitate. If you fail to kill everyone you possibly can in an area, no matter what it is or how much LOVE you’ve gotten, Chara will not kill Asriel. You’ll be bumped back on the neutral route.

I mean, it’s not like they can’t move your body for you at that point, but even so, they drop everything to see what you do next and don’t even try to “possess” you for the duration of the run.

But there is one point of no return.

If you teach Chara that Asriel’s way of thinking was wrong - for sparing lives and getting them both killed in the process - and to kill with no exceptions, they go on to kill him.

If they kill Asriel, it’s all over. Nothing you can do brings them back from this. They will immediately go on to destroy the world, because “there is nothing left for us here.

That’s what the Pacifist route is about, by contrast. 

If the narrator is optimistic upon seeing the “half-full” bag only when you haven’t killed anyone…then they don’t want you to kill anyone. They want to believe that Asriel was just trying to do the right thing.

Because if you don’t kill anyone, then Asriel’s “never kill, no matter what” actions are validated, and he didn’t betray Chara by sparing the humans.

But you have to prove it.

If you kill even one creature, you show that there are circumstances you can kill in, meaning Asriel was wrong, and then the narrator is pessimistic, and says the bag is “half-empty”.

You’re doing the narrator a favor, making them happy, optimistic, by being a pacifist. You teach both Chara and Asriel that he was right all along. And this seems to make them both happier and more at peace, despite being soulless. They are able to let go of their regret and move on.

A soulless person has limitations, but not inevitabilities. They can show concern for others and retain a portion of their past identity.

Flowey cares about Frisk’s future at the end of their journey, and Chara fights alongside Frisk during their journey. Speaking of which…

This is a little more blatantly obvious than everything else. Any time Frisk loses consciousness in any way, on any run, one of Chara’s memories comes up. 

When Frisk goes to sleep….

Memory of Asgore telling Chara to wake up.

When Frisk falls from an incredible height after being chased by Undyne…

 Memory of Chara falling down.

When Frisk dies…

Memories of Chara’s death, and Asgore begging them not to die.

Not to mention the “jokes” Frisk tells Woshua, which draw unconsciously from Chara.

Frisk fell on their grave. 

Toriel took Chara when she left and gave them a burial in the ruins.

When she left for the ruins, there was only one golden flower in the entire Underground.

Harvesting seeds from it…

…she planted them, Chara’s favorite flowers, over Chara’s grave, where they were buried at the same place they first fell.

That’s why the coffin is empty, and how they came in contact with Frisk.

But other humans have fallen here before, right? Why attach to Frisk?

They’re both red souls. The coffin reads “Chara”. It seems Chara’s essence is only able to attach to the same kind of soul they had in life.

According to Chara themselves, they’ve been awake since more or less the beginning. Yes, even before you started doing the Monster Mash.

Their awakening wasn’t due to the all the murder - they woke up confused and then looked to you for guidance. It wasn’t like they smelled blood and went “oh gee whillickers!! I gotta have me a piece of this”.

They woke up due to Frisk’s power, which wasn’t LOVE but, as Chara says…

….Frisk’s human soul and determination.

As you might remember, Asriel was sleeping peacefully before the flower he was in was injected with determination. The determination revived him, woke him up. Frisk’s determination, their “power that awakened me from death”, also woke up Chara the exact same way. Chara was suddenly within a vessel that had enough determination to awaken a soulless essence.

Frisk has had more determination than the determination-injected-soul-revived Flowey since the moment they entered the Underground; Chara has been awakened by it since then, too.

Actually, it wasn’t at the very beginning. Although they are attached to Frisk when they fall on Chara’s grave (the stat menu) they are neither conscious, narrating, nor giving options…

In the very first room, you get no narration of any sort no matter how hard Frisk stomps around these flowers. It’s silent as the grave hahaha…

And during the fight with Flowey…

 No narration (which would likely say something like “Perhaps don’t touch the “friendliness pellets”). No options.

And Chara’s name is not there.

Dates, storytime, sure. But even the fight where you “fake hit” Undyne has Chara’s name. Because it has the options interface. It’s expected that when bullets fly, and damage is dealt, you get your options interface. The options interface only shows up with Chara’s name.

And if you backtrack, even immediately after meeting Flowey, you get the narration:

The narrator’s choice of words is interesting here - instead of saying “They broke your fall” they’re guessing that that’s what happened.

The narrator was not around to see Frisk’s fall, and up until the moment after Frisk meets Flowey, they weren’t even awake to say anything about it either. If you walk into the second room, then walk back, the flowers still can’t be read. You have to “meet” Flowey/Toriel.

From this moment on, you have Chara’s name on your battle interface, the narration, and your options during fights. And given what Flowey says here…

…there seems to be a reason for that.

At the end of Pacifist, Asriel has something he “feels like he should tell” Frisk.

Most likely, their connection works something like this. It seems that Chara even performs minor actions on their own during the pacifist route…

such as them opening to a page in a book, vs Frisk doing it…

…and if Frisk tries to “gift” Gyftrot after giving them 35G already, they are stopped.

…although it seems like Chara is generally content to take the back seat, as Asriel did for most of his and Chara’s walk on the surface. As they said, they woke up “confused”, and considered Frisk’s proceeding actions “guidance”.

They see what Frisk sees…

Smell what Frisk smells…

…taste what they do….

They can even feel pain.

And they seem to have enough insight into Frisk’s feelings to comment on them.

As for movement, whether or not they move Frisk’s body doesn’t seem to be dependent on LOVE. After all, they start walking on their own at a fairly low LOVE (6) …

(namely, through all of Papyrus’s puzzles)

…and they completely stop moving Frisk’s body on their own if they spare anything, even if LOVE is high.

Not to mention, Chara had control over the Asriel-Chara Combo Pack while they had no LOVE, and Asriel took control back when he had no LOVE. It seems purely dependent on how much either person wants to move.

In other words, they always have the ability to move Frisk, but mostly choose not to do anything against their will. That’s because…

LOVE isn’t power. It’s just a unit of measurement, to measure how much a person is willing to hurt people.

This is what you increase when you execute a monster.

That’s why your stats increase; you’re not gaining power, you’re emotionally distancing yourself, and, through you, increasing Chara’s capacity to hurt, which, by the way…

Starts at 1.

This is what they mean by “We defeated the enemy, and became strong”. At a LOVE of 20, strong to them means this means “emotionally invulnerable, distanced enough to hurt and not get hurt”. This is how they can bring themselves to destroy the world at the end.

It’s likely that they were always able to ERASE the world, having already the power to SAVE and RESET, but that is was a choice not to.

Flowey even says so when he talks to Chara at the end of Pacifist.

In fact, once Flowey regains control over the timeline, he is able to destroy a SAVE file.

So what do you think happens if you’re the one in charge of the timeline, and you destroy your own SAVE file? When no SAVEs exist any longer?

Flowey himself seemed to be shooting for this goal, too.

This is why Chara thought you were killing the monsters; to build up enough “strength” to go through with complete annihilation. To leave nothing that would attach you to the world. This is what they thought your guidance was for on that route.

So…why aren’t they using their control over Frisk more if they always can?

Boutta make a wild statement.

 …and as for what Frisk needs help with, that can change dramatically.

They give Frisk options they think could work during fights and whatever info they have on objects you check (knowledge including deathbeds…but not water sausages).

They even tell them how to spare monsters outright if they know.

(this check can occur even before Loox says anything if check is picked first)

They can point out weaknesses….

Or give Frisk advice on dodging….

Of course, we know Chara’s not all-knowing. They seem stumped at Mettaton initially - at this point an invincible metal box with no weak point - so they put this as an option instead.

“I’m helping.”

- Chara, probably.

Thanks, Chara.

They cannot tell a monsters stats if a monster tries to hide them…

…but it is clearly the narrator who is providing the check text.

This is not Muffet telling you to decline any invitations she offers you.


This is not Mettaton telling you his weak point, as he is very honestly trying to kill you.


This is not Endogeny wondering how many dogs they count as (they can’t even speak).


And it makes no sense for all monsters to suddenly refer to themselves in (sometimes insulting) third-person. It’s the narrator who provides the CHECKS, but not the stats.

As for Frisk themself, they get subjected to some light teasing…

…but they seem to be regarded affectionately.

Chara excitedly points them out in the mirror,

sings them what appears to be a nursery rhyme on their first CHECK (I wonder if Frisk is much younger than them?)

calls them cute, (get out of here shippers, this isn’t a shipping post)

and once New Home is reached, if Frisk, despite being attacked at almost turn, has chosen not to kill everything that attacked them, Chara sounds impressed with them.

This, when they could have just said “It’s you” again.

After all, they were once faced with a similar situation. Going back to what was said before, they are being taught that Asriel’s decision was right on such routes, and it’s working.

However, aside from their morbid comment about their deathbed, which apparently they just could not hold back, they have chosen to try to avoid disclosing their exact identity from Frisk by withholding certain information about all the other items in New Home.

Why is that?

Chara seems to be a pretty introverted, quiet person.

If we note their posture, they’re much more tense than Asriel, and are using flowers to hide their face. Smells like anxiety ( and not the super-confident, hyper-aggressive flirty yandere everyone keeps portraying them as for some reason).

Asriel was their best friend, and… well, they haven’t known Frisk for that long, and they’re not about to tell practically a stranger (albeit, one they are sharing a body with) every detail about their entire past life within like, a week??

Hey, does this sound familiar?

Flowey never reveals what his identity in the past was - Asriel - until he thinks you’re his best friend. Likewise, Chara doesn’t really think it’s relevant what their name was before they died…

…but no need to hide things like that from their best friend, right?

It’s like I said before. On the Pacifist run, you teach them that what Asriel did had merit. Frisk survives, makes friends, and helps get the ”best” ending, all without fighting back, even when attacked.

But if you’re riding on the Asshole Avenue, you do the pretty much worst thing possible. You teach Chara that Asriel was wrong to not kill, that the “mission” is worth more than anyone’s lives. Which means he betrayed them. Their most trusted person… And then, it seems, as a coping mechanism, they project this relationship on Frisk in his place.

Hey, does this sound familiar?

“I don’t know why I ever acted like you were the same person. (pause) Maybe…the truth is…Chara wasn’t really the greatest person, while, Frisk…you’re the type of friend I wish I always had. So maybe I was kind of projecting a little bit”.

Asriel wishes he could have always been friends with someone like Frisk, so he projects the persona of someone he was always friends with - Chara - on to them. If you take the Highway to Hell, this happens in reverse.

Remember that locket? The one that says “Best Friends Forever”?

…the one left on Asriel’s side of the room?

…the one Asriel generates on his image of “The God of Hyperdeath”?

It does not appear on either of his true forms, so it’s not ‘really’ there, but a projection he creates.

There are two presents in this room, indicating one is meant for the other. The one on Chara’s side of the room is a worn dagger, useful, according to them, for gardening (and excited-about-watersausages, constantly-drawing-golden-flowers Chara seems to like plants). The one on Asriel’s side of the room is a single heart-shaped locket.

It’s possible there were matching lockets, but if that’s the case, the one Frisk picks up is likely Asriel’s; Chara would have been buried in theirs, and it explains why he’s not “really” wearing it when Frisk has it. It’s also possible given that it’s called “The Locket” that there is only one, also possibly indicated by there only being one in the present box.

Regardless, the locket in the box seems to be Asriel’s. This locket belongs to Chara’s best friend.

Which, in this run, is Frisk.

The “you” is always Frisk. Chara has already use first-person pronouns to describe themselves at this point. “In my way”, “My bed” but still refers to “you” often. Even in this route, the description on the golden flowers is still “They must have broken your fall”.

 It was neither Chara or the player who fell on these flowers, but Frisk. “You”, as Frisk, are still the one walking around. So when Frisk equips the Locket…

The locket is right where it belongs.

Forever.

You, the player, who objectively know Asriel was right outside of the game, inflict that great pain of betrayal on them and manipulate them into thinking you are the better partner by comparison. That Asriel wasn’t their best friend, but you are.

Chara doesn’t hate or even want to take over Frisk in this route. Far from it. That doesn’t mean they’re all sunshines and rainbows, though.

In pacifist, Frisk can get subjected to numerous bouts of impatience from the narrator (who seems to get weary and annoyed with repeated checks especially) but for the most part it seems like they’re trying to humor the kid.

Sometimes they turn repeated checks into little jokes, like the “Snow Poff” conversation, or this one if you keep turning the sink on/off:

But in this route they’re angry and impatient  The underlying fury of being “betrayed”, the potential for moral depravity that comes with being soulless having been met to its utmost, colors their every interaction with every being, including their new partner.

They snap at them upon checking the presents in Snowdin…

won’t offer up the “snowdecahedron” joke…

and offer very quick checks for a lot items.

The overall tone in this route is “What are you doing? Let’s go.”

But, even so, there are seldom occasions in which they actually remove control from Frisk McChecksalot (actually, the player).

In fact, you remain in control for most of the route, being able to move, act, and spare on your own with no interference. These occasions that Chara is acting stand out very starkly from the rest of the route because they’re the ones you can’t control.

…and they mostly seem to be a case of someone sitting next to you and yanking the controller out of your hands, going, “AUGH!! LET!! ME!! DO!! IT!!!!

But these actions aren’t all insignificant. Even though you, the Player, are at the head of this dust bath, and they are sitting back and letting you “guide” them for the most part (if you hit the fight button, the kill is yours) they make a few “contributions”.

They make an initial mistake in their narration (lmao) but they’re still suggesting battle plans for you, so you are actually the one fighting this fight, not Chara…mostly.

At the very end, that last strike is not from your input. After your attack is dodged, they quickly make a second - the first time they attack on their own.

and their first kill. Since LOVE hasn’t increased before their strike and is still 19, this proves they could have fought without your input but allowed you to be in control for this fight as well, even including the “Spare”  option. You were still “guiding” them.

After this, they then quickly march on to the garden, and kill the two people waiting there. Not because they don’t trust you to (after everything, I’m sure they’re fully expecting you to) but because, I think, they felt they should be the one to do it.

This route ends with their kill count technically at three, but as they feel they’re in partnership with Frisk and therefor an accessory to all the murders, they both share the LOVE and EXP for all kills.

Then…

They go on a spiel about the nature of stats, give thanks, praise, etc. Emphasis is placed on your actions being done willingly and their partnership. Here’s where things get interesting.

They give this option. This can be seen similar to a “fight” or “mercy” button, for the world this time. Obviously, they’ve been conditioned to expect you to choose “fight”, or “erase”.

 Interestingly, they can erase the world themselves, but still provide an option dialogue for this. It’s as I said; they’re not interested in taking over. They believe they’re following your guidance (or what they think is Frisk’s, rather, but you are controlling Frisk) and a person can’t be guided if they take over all the time.

That, of course, doesn’t mean they can’t take over.

The option dialogues are a courtesy. Chara could’ve taken over at any time, but allowed you to do what you would - to guide them, one way or another, because they woke up confused and didn’t trust themselves after the failure of the plan. That’s what they meant.

You have led them on to believe this is what you were after all along. If you choose “erase”:

They’re like “right, exactly as I thought. You’re great, we’ll be together forever” and they’re practically making heart eyes. or whatever the hell those are

Choosing no…

They get a little flustered, if not dismayed. I mean, they just killed their family not five minutes ago for you - including their best friend, who they thought betrayed them, who they replaced with you… who just betrayed them.

You were not after some lofty goal like destroying the world, you were killing because it was fun, because the world is your playground, when Chara assumed you were on some kind of mission. An appropriate amount of pissiness ensues.

Regardless of your choice, they strike down the world…

not Frisk; this is erasure of world, visualized; the window of Undertale shakes, and we know what Frisk getting attacked and killed looks like.

If you wait on the screen for several minutes, making your intention to go back clear, and retroactively making it obvious you did the run for fun, not a “purpose”, they chew you out.

After venting their annoyance at you (and confirming this route’s actions were mostly on you), they suggest a compromise.

This confirms that, throughout the route, Frisk still had their soul. Otherwise, it couldn’t be used as a bargaining chip here.

You’ve never had your soul taken more politely. They asked for permission. They even double-checked to make sure. They give you want you want in return.

Except, it’s not your soul. Chara thinks they’re talking to Frisk when they ask for “your” soul (they think they’ve been talking to Frisk this whole time) and it is Frisk’s soul that they take. Otherwise, this…

…couldn’t happen. congrats. you just sold an 8~ year old’s soul. asshole.

Of course, that leaves the question of why they do this during these endings.

I believe they’re trying to hold you accountable.

It’s right after this statement that they suggest the “compromise”. If you kill everyone for fun, reset, and try to live happily after with them, they can now shut it down. They don’t really interfere in the neutral endings. You led them to their point of no return - killing Asriel - and they make sure you can’t return from it, either.

But if you bring back the world and don’t try to get a happy ending, they chew you out anyway.

“Kinkshamed again!”

- you, probably

And they are so weirded out that they feel an obligation to tell you to do, literally, anything else.

“Despite me not understanding feelings anymore, I feel morally obligated to tell you to do something else”.

Some people have suggested this is to “kill humanity themselves” but. come on. LOVE is just your willingness to hurt. That shit cuts through monsters like a hot knife through butter, but out in the real world they’re just an angry baby with a gardening tool, humanity could fend them off with a wet mop.

On top of that, the destruction of humanity is literally only one soul away.

Asgore would have taken Frisk’s soul and wiped them out, and by killing the children up close and personal, he’s proven he has the mettle to do it. If Chara wanted humanity destroyed, they need only give Asgore Frisk’s soul. They could even inhabit the now completely soulless, determination-infused body like Flowey does if they chose. They do not ever go this route.

Plus, it’s a pointless act when they can already destroy the world, and Chara’s whole reason for being pissed at you is for killing when you didn’t really have a point, then dodging responsibility for it.

They don’t stop trying to hold you accountable on the second pass, either.

Functionally, you paid for the game so you have to be able to play it, but that doesn’t stop this pissed-off 12~ year old from appointing themself your final, unkillable judge if you choose to murder everyone just for funsies and then act like you can get away with it.

That’s why they’re here in this route. Chara is Undertale’s very last stand in a long, long effort to try to make you responsible for what you do here.

Aside from narrating, Chara makes their own contributions for Frisk at the end of this route, too.

After ascertaining that neither they or Frisk can move their body, or reach the save file, they give this suggestion with zero prompting:

Once they’ve thought of it, they then give you an entirely new option on the option menu.

And if you go to SAVE your friends, but back out of it (with shift or x)…

…they get shocked beyond speech, because why the hell would you back out of saving them.

But they’re not even sure at first if this is going to work.

Until it does.

And when Frisk finally gets to the point where they SAVE Asriel, they need to trigger memories of friendship with him somehow - that’s how they saved the others, by reminding them of the times they shared together.

Puzzles, fighting, jokes, phone calls, hugs. It seems that they can only use memories they’ve shared with their friends themself to save them; they can’t save Alphys by using Undyne’s memories.

Frisk has no such shared memories with Asriel they can use to SAVE him.

Fortunately, they know someone who does.

Asriel’s memories with Chara are triggered.

For the rest of the fight while Asriel talks to Chara about how much he cares them, the narrator lapses into complete silence.

After all this, they stick with Frisk until the end…

…but there’s no way of knowing what happens to them after The End.

Flowey dropped by to give Chara that status report, which can’t be physically next to Frisk…

…but the Mysterious Black Void is kind of a special place; it’s unknown if it’s even a “place” or how one reaches it or communicates with beings inside it. Someone is addressed by Flowey here in Neutral endings, too.

So their status and future after the events of Pacifist are unknown.

Buuut, we do know a little about their past before the events of Pacifist, if not after.

As far back as the KS, the legend has been “those who climb the mountain never return”. According to the story, Chara trips and falls in while trying to get a closer look at the hole, but we’re more concerned with why they climbed the mountain.

“Why would you climb a mountain people are said to disappear from?”

…wanted to disappear?

This unhappy third reason was why Chara wanted to climb the mountain.

The “small child” who was scaling Mt Ebott was trying to commit suicide.

Asriel doesn’t state the reason outright to Frisk, but Flowey’s conversation with Chara makes it obvious what this meant.

“I decided it wasn’t worth living anymore, so, like you, I tried to die”.

As we know, Chara’s successful, later suicide attempt was planned, from Asriel’s point of view, around the idea of having their soul in Asriel’s body, which would not erase them from existence. Flowey is referring to their “unhappy reason” for climbing the mountain. They tried to “erase themselves from existence”. 

There are indications that Chara fell before monsters left to go to “New Home”, and was the deciding factor for them journeying to the other end of cavern.

The first is that it seems Asriel lived in the Ruins Home for a time, as the child’s room in the Ruins Home is called…

…Asriel’s room.

And he, Toriel, and Asgore all have their chairs at the Ruins Home table.

Two big chairs for two big goats, one little chair for a little goat.

On top of that, Asriel seems to have been in the Ruins close enough to hear the injured Chara.

Chara likely stayed there for a little while (say, two weeks to a month, apparently not long enough to justify buying them their own furniture yet) as one of their golden flower drawings, identical to the one they put up in the same place in the New Home room, is hanging up in the Ruins Home room.

As we know, the reason the monsters retreated the farthest end of the tunnel from the barrier after being trapped is because they were afraid of the humans on the other side.

However, something changed. After millinia of being in one end of the cavern in the Ruins, where Asriel was born and where he found Chara, monsters very suddenly decided they weren’t afraid of humans anymore.

…and journeyed to New Home.  (there also appears to be a missing history book volume in between these two volumes)

Asgore himself had also changed his mind about humans killing them all once they left the barrier. 

Why would he change his mind after all those millenia?

Because he had the “future of humans and monsters”. 

 Chara fell when the monsters were still in the Ruins, and was heavily implied to make them unafraid of humans any longer after millenia, brave enough now to populate the rest of the cavern rather than staying as far away from the barrier as possible, and heavily implied to have changed Asgore’s mind about humans too.

By necessity, we’re going to have to toe the line of HOPE a little here, since Chara has never stated the reason for this outright in their entire life.

This statement comes right after “I know why Chara climbed the mountain. It wasn’t for a very happy reason.” with no pause; Chara’s reason for climbing a mountain people disappear from, for wanting to “erase themselves from existence”, is related to their reason for hating humanity.

But, unlike their reason for climbing the mountain…

they refuse to talk about this, even with Asriel. Suicide is already a very private topic, which they were willing to breach with Asriel, so there is something even more private going on they explicitly don’t want him to know about.

And no, it’s not because they killed someone.

These are their starting stats. Their Level of Violence is 1, correlating with 0 Execution Points, which go up any time the Frisk-Chara Combo Pack kills someone.

Was their reason for hating humanity because humanity is objectively the worst, ever?

Nah, Asriel knows this already. It seems they’ve probably talked about this. At length.

So the reason they hated humanity is tied to something specific, private enough that Asriel can’t know, not murder, and big enough that they wanted to erase themselves.

In relation to this, I’d like to call attention to an indisputable fact.

The distance between the village and what they see as Death Mountain is about the distance of the underground, which we can walk Frisk through in a day or two. Given its track record, people are probably forbidden from going there, so they’re not hitching a ride there and since they’re children (the coffins all being the same size as Chara’s coffin and Frisk’s sprite barely fitting into one) they’re not driving either. 

The children who flung themselves into the Underground probably had to walk there on their own. They probably all came from the same settlement. Eight children who came from this village all tried to “erase themselves from existence” in a relatively short span of time.

Also, by the time they get Underground, they have something in common.

Context: after you reset and she guesses your favorite flavor.

Context: Asgore completely unsurprised to hear you can come back from the dead and have many times. He fought the other children, and it seems he’s heard this story before.

The children who climbed the mountain and came from the same village as Chara somehow had the ability to SAVE and RESET on their journey. But they gave up at the end, and without determination, they died for real, and their ability to save and reset was passed to someone else.

We know that only one being can hold save/load powers at a time, since Flowey’s are taken away when a being with more determination arrives. For some reason, this individual has been the fallen children on many occasions if not all of them, and that’s no coincidence. There is a reason for that.

I believe Chara also had that power. Frisk’s SAVE file is in their name.

And there’s this question that Flowey asks them at the end of Pacifist.

He’s asking them if the power to save and reset was one they were fighting to stop. Given that they use this power along with Frisk even in Pacifist (to, at the very least, keep them both alive), I he may be referring to their efforts in life. Maybe they believed their death would erase this power. They likely lost it upon committing suicide, having lost their will to live/determination.

And how does this relate to their possible reason for hating humanity, that they could never tell Asriel about?

Even after he says Chara was fighting to stop the resets, he makes this accusation. I think this is what they might have been afraid of. (although this is a fair accusation, because starting the game up could only indicate that there is an intention to reset and play again, and he has picked up on that and only confronts them if it is started again) 

But Chara seems to hate the power to reset’s potential for using it to dodging responsibility. Your attempt to abuse it completely sets them off.

They have an overwhelming drive to hold you responsible for the actions you take, to prevent you from getting away with outright abusing the power for fun without consequences.

It’s possible that their secret power to reset is linked to their reason for hating humanity, which means it, too, must remain secret. That the humans in the village tried to abuse their power, and the humans were never held accountable for it, and that other children who could reset were driven up the mountain decades later for the same reason.

It would also explain some strange actions taken by Chara during the trip outside the barrier.

We know Chara has some kind of real fixation on these flowers - they have drawings they made of the golden flowers next to their bed. But I don’t believe they made this request, and carried their body over just to see the flowers.

Was it to force an attack on Asriel? Hell no. Chara already has control over his body before they even pick up their body. And he’s already agreed to take six souls. If they had any idea that Asriel would have “betrayed” them, they would not have trusted him with the reason they climbed they mountain, the locket, and their soul.

I think the beliefs of the villagers and their subsequent attack was an accident that the combined intellectual “might” of two 12~ year olds couldn’t have predicted. Plus…

It seems that the monster-human combination with one soul is a little frightening to look at. The God of Hyperdeath has enough souls to generate an image to his liking, but with one soul, his appearance is “very unsettling” and described by even the monsters as a “horrible beast”. The villagers might have assumed he must have killed the child he was holding because of his appearance.

And if Chara really wanted the villagers to attack, they could have mutilated their own body in front of them, faked an attack on their corpse; all they did was carry it to the golden flowers. The image was likely similar to a parent carrying their sleeping child to bed.

But I do think Chara wanted the villagers to see their dead body.

Chara, for reasons unknown to us, has an extreme fixation on holding people accountable and responsible for their actions. Their reason for hating humanity - I believe this originated from the villagers, who did something so awful that Chara thought an appropriate punishment for them was death. 

They want the villagers to see their dead body; to hold them responsible for driving them up the mountain, to show them the reason they were about to die.
And if Chara had the power to reset as long as they had determination, that the villagers abused, Chara’s death even being a possibility is an indication to everyone that they lost the will to live.

I think they’re trying to say…

And I don’t think their eventual plan was to restart a war on humanity - they seemed to truly want to break the barrier.

That said, would they have been altogether that fussed if monsters managed to defeat the hated humans, and regain control over the earth, after being slaughtered and trapped underground? Probably not. Many monsters themselves, during the events of Undertale, are “so hype for the destruction of humanity”, after all.

And no, I don’t believe “premeditated murder is A-okay as long as one’s backstory is tragic” (which no one has ever claimed), but this way of thinking is also analogous to the monsters believing it is alright to kill seven children to break the barrier, despite monsters souls supposedly being made of love and compassion; it is a flawed “ends justify the means” sort of thinking and Undertale’s message is that there is no right reason to take a life.

Chara also refers to the plan to break the barrier as “our plan”, not “my plan”.

Their plan was to “just” take six souls - this was as far as the plan was Asriel-approved and could be called “our plan”, which was…

If there had been any ulterior motive besides that they would have said “my plan”, although Asriel realizes in hindsight that breaking the barrier with murdered souls would mean having to battle the vengeful humans beyond, as his father was on his way to doing, after declaring war on them.

It’s worth mentioning that the narrator has a little moment when the barrier is broken:

It’s one of the very few moments when the narration voice goes nonstandard in the game, and it even matches Chara’s way of speaking at the end of the Lethal Limbo (but it’s not as slow and spaced out as their reaction to Asriel’s phonecall). The breaking of the barrier spawns an emotional reaction in them.

They may have even thought breaking the barrier was their purpose, as someone who was “the future of monsters and humans”.

Remember what Asgore tells them on their deathbed?

They’ve probably heard this line before. This is the angle Asgore pleads to them from.

Now, as a singular human with a singular human soul, knowing monsters can absorb human souls to exit the barrier that’s trapped them for millenia, how does one become the “future of monsters and humans”?  How would you, as a suicidal child, have interpreted that line?

How would you have fulfilled your dad’s wishes for you to become “the future of humans and monsters” knowing what resources were available to you: your one human soul, your boss monster pal…and your knowledge of where to find 6 of some very bad humans’ souls?

We know they held this line very close to their heart, because…

…even after death, they remember it.

There are clues scattered around New Home, and in the behavior of living characters, that indicate that Chara had a mutual love of their adoptive family.

Toriel obviously cared for Chara very much. She took them with her to the Ruins to give them a proper burial when they died…

she took the seeds of their favorite flower to plant over their grave…

and even has one of these flowers in her room.

And, after she leaves Frisk at the door of the ruins, when she thinks she’ll never see them again, she goes to stand quietly by Chara’s grave.

Chara, who I believed loved all of them very much, likely thought very highly of her. Their way of speaking (if not necessarily their tone) sounds very like hers:

Some of the narration even sounds like it could have come from Toriel herself.

And given Toriel’s reputation for being a strong and intelligent person,

they might have thought of her as a role model.

They also seem to have inherited her sense of humor.

During the battle with her they give the check option:

and when she finally starts relenting, and talks about taking care of Frisk and begging them to go upstairs, their narration turns to silence.

If she is killed, then, even on the Violent Venue - where Chara had thought talking to her about what they’re doing was useless - they express sadness while walking around her home.

Asgore and Chara seem to have been pretty close.

Flowey even makes a comment on this…

That, even where Flowey’s “hundreds of methods” couldn’t get Asgore to show the souls, he’d do it for Chara…implying that Flowey thought there was some favoritism going on. you made the whole room awkward, Flowey.

Asgore seems to have held hopes during Chara’s life that they would become “the future of monsters and humans”.

…a hope which he immediately puts on Frisk after deciding that the look in their eyes is similar to Chara’s.

But we know that Asgore cared about them far beyond that potential, as he is still attached to them after they’ve died.

During the events of Undertale, Asgore seems to have developed an attachment to their favorite flower…

…it’s even on his trident.

and he drinks it as tea.

(which Chara seems to like, too)

Seeing as the gift to them in their room is described by them as a simple garden tool (on everything but That One Occasion When You Try to Kill Literally Everyone)

and how excited they were to learn what the hell is a water sausage

it’s probable that Chara and Asgore spent a lot of time in the garden together; maybe this was when Chara starting bringing up the golden flowers, and why he cultivates them after their death.

And it seem that Chara was highly attached to him too. Walking around new home, one can discover this tidbit about a “pink, hand-knit sweater”:

They know the sweater was hand-knit, and there’s a pause when the narrator sees it, implying some surprise.

And it’s so relevant to the narrator that it even has red text associated it, in which they express interest in that he still has it.

Their bed (“my bed”) does not have red text, but “my drawing”, their picture of the golden flower, does, implying that they were the one who made it for him.

Meanwhile, the bureau with a Santa Claus outfit inside is given no pause by the narrator in Pacifist…

and is dismissed completely in the Significantly Unpacifist route.

…completely unlike the sweater. The narrator is not surprised to find this goofy object is owned by Asgore, they’re surprised because he still has the sweater they gave him. A likely huge sweater, that they knit by hand.

Given that it says “Mr. Dad Guy” it seems that they once called him this (either as a slip in regular conversation or because they couldn’t quite say “Dad” outright) and it become an in-joke for them.

The fight with Asgore starts out with some narration…

…but once Asgore strikes out the Mercy button, and it becomes clear you’ll have to fight him, they go dead silent for the entire fight.

And during the fight with him, the narration doesn’t even try to give him any CHECK text - it simply says Asgore and gives his stats.

They’re not enjoying this.

Post-death, Asgore’s relationship with Chara is complicated. By this time he’s already declared war on humans, so he tried to keep them in a cold, above-ground coffin with the rest of the children, perhaps as a way to detach, and talks of having a child.

Since he and Toriel knew, while Chara was dying of the same symptoms Asgore had had, that Chara was trying to commit suicide…

…it’s possible he felt they had a role in Asriel’s death when he declared war “in a fit of anger”.

But he also describes them this way:

(a look of hope he sees in Frisk’s eyes right after he offers to make them a family; it seems Chara possessed similar hope for this to work once.)

And given that he still has the sweater they made him (maybe this is why Chara was surprised to see it?) and the ongoing motif of golden flowers, I don’t think he every succeeded in hating them, if that’s what he was going for. I don’t think Asgore has it in him to truly hate anyone.

And Chara remembers the words he told them on their deathbed, and seems to have kept them close…

as Chara remembers them every time the Frisk and Chara Combo Pack die, and finds the determination to come back.

So about that buttercup incident.

Would they really try to kill someone they cared about this much?

Asriel describes it as an accident they both made together regarding the word “buttercup” being close to “cups of butter”.

Chara didn’t even know what a water sausage looked like; their knowledge wasn’t perfect. Even I didn’t know until Undertale that buttercups were poisonous, and I once dug a hole for a jalepeno plant. A whole hole.

If they really, really wanted a boss monster soul, they could have gone after the weaker Asriel’s soul, or just attacked outright; even in pacifist, with a LV of 1, Frisk can cut through Asgore and bring him to his knees with ease. Humans are just that strong.

And Chara wouldn’t have had Asriel as a witness to the pie-baking if they were doing something secretly murderous to his father.

Plus they could have just reset until it worked, if that was what they were after.

(And why didn’t they reset after the poisonings?)

There is, however, an indication of their true feelings towards this incident.

They’ve decided to use buttercups to kill themselves.

Buttercup poisoning - a truly atrocious way to die, if you’ve ever read about the symptoms - is their preferred method of suicide.

This child, who climbed the mountain looking for a way to die, must have been able to think of other options…that “gardening tool” they had, falling, maybe even the bullets of a monster. Instead they chose a particularly painful, gruesome way to die, the symptoms of which everyone would recognize as buttercup poisoning, ruining any potential efforts to conceal their suicide.

Which it did.

Why?

They’re holding themself accountable this time. They might have considered it “making up” for their mistake.

Toriel even seems worried that Chara might think that she and Asgore are angry with them about the incident (given that it’s their choice of suicide) and tries to reassure them that they both want Chara to wake up:

…So why’d they laugh about it?

I think it’s important to realize that “laughing something off” doesn’t just mean standing there chuckling like an asshat. It means “to make light of a situation”, which is a process that can include making jokes and laughing.

Also, given the context:

It seems that they managed to diffuse the situation with Toriel by making jokes (probably relating to butter puns), which is why Asriel mentions “laughing it off” as something he thought was the correct thing to do.

Actually laughing at his dad’s pain itself would never be seen as the right thing to do by Asriel (jesus, he’s not stupid) and would definitely have alarmed the aforementioned Toriel, whose bullshit detector, by the way…

…could fry a snail at 25 yards.

Given that they kill themselves painfully with buttercups, it seems they really were deeply, deeply disturbed by what happened, made light of it to cope and de-escalate the situation, and this was their chosen method of making it up to them: enduring the symptoms themselves and giving their soul up in an effort to break the barrier.

There’s another clue to this later on, in the True Lab:

For Snowy’s mother, you are given the same act options with her as you did with her son (the other amalgamates also have options relating to their less drippy counterparts).

But choosing laugh elicits a very strange reaction from the narrator (who is already acting strangely, repeating “It’s so cold” over and over the entire fight).

They seem to have zoned out completely during the fight, and describe an action that Frisk does not, in fact, do, but more likely what Chara themselves felt like doing.

Choosing to laugh again makes the Chara snap at you:

And, despite laughing “until tears ran down their face”, they don’t say “But you don’t think it’s funny”. They say “But it’s not funny”. It’s a statement of fact, not of Frisk’s feelings; Chara doesn’t think it’s funny.

Interestingly, there’s a situation that corresponds to this.

It’s Snowy’s dad. Consider that you’re talking to Snowy’s mother here.

It’s a parallel to what he said. Neither Chara nor Snowy’s father think it’s funny, and they say so outright.

Seems they’re using laughter to cope with a situation that disturbs them so much that they became disoriented and even incorrectly describe something Frisk completely didn’t do.

And that the laughter is a stress response that they “can’t stop”, even while they’re crying.

Which is, uh, hardly unheard of.

And, interestingly, choosing to “heckle”…

…results in an even more disoriented response, in which they don’t even state what they think you did, but guess you said “something like it”. It’s a little concerning to think where they may have pulled this exact response from.

Choosing to heckle again results in them heckling you.

This response wasn’t something “you” said, so it wasn’t said out loud. Given that this space is for Frisk’s ears, or else this dialogue would have raised some goat-brows…

…they are directing this towards you, who have chosen on your own to “heckle” twice. This is a parallel to the somewhat snappy “But it’s not funny” that they say upon you choosing “laugh” twice (which must confuse them), and also to another situation.

If you continue to heckle - and continue to heckle - Snowy over and over, suddenly Frisk says something quite mean, and the narrator’s tone is obviously dismayed. Likewise, it’s a little concerning to think where Frisk might have pulled this response from.

Although some think the “you”, unlike ever before, is somehow Chara here because Frisk is a Mary Stu who can do no wrong. Actually, it is the player who chooses the action. Frisky Bits just does the details.

Chara also gets concerned if you keep ignoring Greater Dog…

And they get pretty judgmental about the candy dish.

All the bad ACTs are on you, if you choose them. Saying the bad ones must be all Chara and the good ones must be Frisk is just wrong, when all ACTs are done by “you”, the player, Asshole in Chief. If anything is done by Chara, they always narrate it as “I”, and since you’re controlling Frisk, Frisk’s actual input is limited.

Chara’s just providing the options, so you can act good, or bad (or “burn”, or “cry”)  with complete freedom, thus not impairing your “guidance” with any bias that actually prevents you from choosing an action.

Mostly.

As for the laughter in the Edgy Exigency, these times are a case of corruption, calling back to earlier…

…in which the dog food bag only becomes funny after killing 21+ people. Since it was not funny before, it can be surmised that there’s been a critical change in the narrator directly from killing over 20 people.

Basically, you turned them into another Flowey (except one who’s in Frisk’s head) who really does laugh at misfortune, even though it isn’t Flowey’s true nature, and it’s not Chara’s, either, or they’d always find the bag funny if all the dogs were dead.

It doesn’t take just a soulless person to find this funny; it takes corrupting them, too.

Back to goats.

Okay, so obviously these two were close in life.

The other monsters noted that they became like siblings.

Flowey says that they were “inseparable”.

They were constant playmates:

And together in embarrassment over the nose-nuzzles.

They also seemed to confide in one another and talk quite a lot:

Asriel might have played a caretaker role of sorts to Chara. He knew they were suicidal, and there’s a line of Flowey’s that sticks out:

He had some sort of reason to think Chara would find it surprising that he was suicidal and that he would want to “follow in their footsteps”.

It’s possible that he tried to talk them into wanting to live, or encouraged them, and reassured them, on more than one occasion, and that this is why Flowey thinks Chara might not believe he’d try to “follow in their footsteps” and “erase himself from existence”.

Asriel also tries to caretake Frisk, too.

It’s who he is. Asriel is a person of sympathy and compassion, two huge fundamental aspects of his personality (which is why he changed so much when he lost the ability to feel those things), whereas Chara seems to be a person of empathy and analysis.

During their conversations, Chara likely relayed some of their experiences or views on humans to him:

even if the exact reason they hated humanity stayed secret. It was likely during those conversations that their strong hatred for humanity became apparent.

And it seems that Chara might have tried to take care of Asriel in the same way, given this line exists:

During this part of that run, Flowey hasn’t said this before, so it was something he told them during life. Asriel told Chara during their lifetimes that “they were the only one who understood him”.  Except this time, Chara is unique in that they’re the only other person able to share the experience of being soulless.

He also says this during the Pacifist run:

It seems that Asriel was also going through something during this time of his life, and Chara offered up (apparently accurate) analyses of his character or his feelings, which made him feel understood by them.

Chara does have the potential for trying to “caretake” someone, given that they try it with Frisk sometimes…

and they also spend a lot of time analyzing Frisk’s feelings during the narration.

However, Chara seems to be able to be very strict sometimes regarding acting “grown-up” (even with their way of speaking) …

so it seems they and Asriel must have been close or the same age, and Chara very determined that he act his age to the point of harshness.

They seem relent on this somewhat with Frisk, giving them the option to “Cry” on the battle with the then-invincible MTT (so maybe Frisk is a few years younger?)…

but they draw the line on acceptable sobbing conduct for someone Frisk’s age, um, somewhere.

(it should be noted that this is the narrator speaking, not MTT, who already has a speech bubble next to him and speaks in all caps)

But according to Flowey, they seem to have had fun playing together:

But for Asriel, it’s not just because they’re “special” for still being fun to play with and understanding him:

He just really, really cares about them.

Like, really really cares about them.

(although I would not go so far to say - like some people apparently have - that his attempted murder - while a soulless person - of someone he thought was Chara just to keep them from leaving him, was a sign in and of itself that he cares about them; it was definitely not good behavior there)

So, uh, anyway, like, one would hope all that (non-soulless behavior) love is mutual.

Well, given that the narrator completely loses their shit when he shows up:

it’s evident that they do have some pretty strong feelings about him. (the last occurs randomly during his fight, up to several times, and never gets that shaky outside of it)

During his fight (as with Toriel and Asgore) the narrator’s Serious Mode is entered. They are in fact, pretty serious. They keep talking about the end of the world…

and their CHECK is somber:

while Asriel uses the same attacks Toriel does. 

Then he goes rainbowy, floats around, starts using stars instead of fire to attack.

…and suddenly the narrator gets super excited.

They change his name to rainbows in the text, the CHECK text for him suddenly gets really… childish?

And suddenly they know every move he’s about to use, and they make sure Frisk knows, too.

Which all are named attacks, which is completely unique, and a little silly.

Yeah, I’m making the case for it.

It’s Asriel’s edgy deviantart OC.

He and Chara are playing their childhood game again.

And Asriel is taking his turn to be the sassy shonen antagonist, complete with unique evil laughter for this persona that he doesn’t use even as Flowey:

And that apparently sounds like this.

So maybe the “Demon Who Comes When People Calls Its Name” is Chara’s edgy villain OC to Asriel’s “God of Hyperdeath”? But, uh, that’s HOPE stuff and we’re not there yet. so forget you just read that.

Eventually Asriel (who says he’d been holding back to make “The God of Hyperdeath”) gets serious again, and the narrator is back to pessimistic despair.

And, of course, we know the whole sequence where his memories with Chara are triggered.

After that, when Asriel’s talking about how much he cares about Chara…

Chara goes quiet in their narration for the entire rest of the fight  (as they have for Toriel and Asgore’s fights). What he says here definitely means something to them.

Asriel also seems to have owned a locket (possibly matching, but at least one that was his) that said “Best Friends Forever”:

that Chara gave him,  which he takes immense pride in.

So they’ve probably told him before that he was their best friend. And they trusted him enough to talk about wanting to erase themselves, and climbing the mountain.

And, of course, they trusted them with their soul when they died, when they could have quite possibly more easily convinced another, more human-hating monster to take it.

I’d say they loved him.

I don’t think they could have predicted the events that would occur as a consequence of their failed plan.

But, as much as they loved each other, their relationship, as we know, wasn’t perfect.

After Asriel initially says he doesn’t like the plan, it seems like they press forward with their reasons. They seem pretty deadset on the plan happening. I think they had already decided to kill themself a while ago; they had a detailed plan already in mind for it.

Then, after he agrees, they must have asked something like “do you think I’m wrong?” or “do you doubt that it will work?” and this idea seems to actually offend Asriel, who had been speaking haltingly before then.

And this is where things go wrong. If Chara had listened more to why he didn’t like the plan before going forward with their reasons for it, maybe they would realized he really didn’t want to go through with it, not just because he didn’t want them to die…

but because he also didn’t really want to kill.

If Asriel hadn’t thought Chara was above imperfections, and knew that he could still be a good friend while doubting them if they were doing something wrong, he could have told them when prompted why he didn’t like the plan.

Even on their death bed, never doubting them is a huge moral concern for him that he uses to convince himself that the plan is right.

It’s possible, given the time, and the fact that they were only like 12 when all this went on, that they could have worked on these issues and matured into a more equal, healthy relationship. But we have no way of knowing what could have happened.

Here’s what did happen, by the end of Pacifist:

Asriel comes to terms with the fact that Chara wasn’t perfect, an undeniably healthy development. And despite apparently previously finding enough similarity in Frisk and Chara to confuse the two, Asriel finally realized the difference. Pacifist Frisk has refused to kill even in self-defense, and Chara didn’t.

 But I think he might has another reason for telling Frisk all of this, including this line…

See, in the Neutral-Pacifist route (not following an aborted Murderous Mumbo, that is) he seems to get this idea that Frisk is Chara, calling them up on the phone as Asriel, pretty quickly after the Photoshop Flowey fight.

He brushes this off as “projection” (which likely did have something to do with it)

but then he talks to Chara after Pacifist, knowing that they were with Frisk, knowing they could SAVE.

And even seems to have an idea before the fight that Chara is inside Frisk.

So what he’s telling Frisk here isn’t entirely true, but he also doesn’t out them by name as the voice in Frisk head (as Chara hasn’t outed themselves, although Frisk could likely guess) but he does make sure Frisk knows a little about them for the road. 

Then, of course, we have Flowey’s conversation with Chara at the end of Pacifist, which is our biggest indicator for where they stand.

He’s still taking the time to reassure them that everything is okay, and tells them not to worry, a role he probably played in life, too.

He talks about the resets, says he couldn’t do it all again, and guesses that Chara was fighting to stop them…

And:

He’s making it clear from the get-go that he doesn’t approve of resets himself, and if Chara were to go that route, he wouldn’t go along. Considering what happened before, it’s a massive development, and absolutely a healthy one.

He’s made it obvious that he still cares about them, that he wants them not to worry, and acknowledges his own actions as Flowey, but he will now let them know if he thinks something is wrong, and tell them if he doesn’t want to do it.

And during his last moments, he watches over their grave.

I don’t think he stopped caring about them.

This would leave some hope for, maybe, a healthier friendship than they had when they were alive… but it’s also true that neither of them have a soul by the end of Pacifist, and a lot has happened since they did, so it will never be what it was, or could have been.

Both of them have, however, found some peace, and it’s possible that they communicate intermittently like they did here.

Unless you reset. That button is actually yours to press, unlike what Flowey thinks. If you leave everything be, Chara doesn’t do it on their own, even though they’ve proven they can act without player input.

Okay, so there’s this common misconception that Chara is constantly harassing Frisk to just kill a monster, already. By now we ought to know that’s not true…

…because they just want to see what Frisk thinks is correct, since they no longer think they know what the right thing to do is themselves, after their plan failed.

Whatever Frisk does, they can come up with a reason to justify it, because they’re soulless and think Frisk is their “guide”.

But what we haven’t covered is that Chara is actually - outside of the Shin-stabbing Shindig - a dirty monster apologist.

They

will

white-knight

for

every

monster.

Even while these things are shooting bullets at Frisk.

Chara, as we know, hates humanity, but in life they tried to martyr themselves to break the barrier, and the monsters took better care of them than humans ever did. They don’t hate them.

And it might surprise you to know that they found an idol among them.

Undyne is, technically speaking, fucking cool, and Chara knows it. It’s likely they didn’t know each other while Chara was alive (because Undyne has to guess if Toriel is Asgore’s ex) but no matter what route you take, they’re impressed with her.

In Neutral-Pacifist, they describe her as:

And they start getting really, really dismayed if she starts dying on a Neutral route.

Even during That Time in Which the Amount of Fun You Will Have is Actually Rather Small I Think, even after they’ve taken to describing other monsters dismissively… 

they describe her the same way as they always have as they always have.

As the heroine.

So what were they like?

I have no idea. By the time they show up in Undertale’s timeline, they don’t have a soul, so it’s hard to get an exact idea of what their true personality was like. I think the neutral route, and details of their old life with the Dreemurs, are the fairest ways to estimate this.

So, they were, as we know, fairly strict on some things.

And they often try to talk like a “grown-up”.


But they’re also still pretty childish sometimes.

And somewhat of a messy child.

They were quite possibly anxious.

They were artistic:

with the ability to draw, and hand-knit a sweater for a goat the approx size of a small car, which must have taken them damn near forever, so they were capable of the dedication to finish large projects.

They were also able to read fairly advanced books, given that they quote Japanese literature  word-for-word on one occasion:

so they’re obviously pretty intelligent.

They enjoyed gardening, which might be related to their love of the golden flowers:

and while their knowledge is limited, they get excited learning new things about plants:

They’re capable of being highly empathetic:

which does not mean they’re always sympathetic.

They can be teasing…

harsh…

and warm.

And they were suicidal, and extremely self-destructive…

And they are bitter, and wrathful, over something we don’t know about.

which has made them very determined to hold people accountable for their actions, particularly with resets.

Also, they, uh, really like dogs.

Except this one:

Okay, maybe this one too.

Even if he can’t knit for shit.

They were some kind of weeb??

They have a sense of humor:

They seem to have an interesting way of dealing with upsetting emotions, starting with irony…

to silence…

and, when things get really bad, tearful laughter.

And, ultimately, whether they find peace, whether they accept Asriel’s view point as right or wrong…

…depends on your “guidance”.

wait, wasn’t that just a tl;d-



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You want some HOPE, dontcha? 

You can leave now. Really. This is just for all the things I couldn’t find a place for in the main analysis because I suck ass at organizing, or that I couldn’t find enough evidence for. And just wild theorizing. And you wouldn’t like that, would you?

There’s a message in the strings of the data from Chara, that doesn’t show up ingame under any circumstances; it’s a message for people who look at the game data. Right at the very top.

And it’s not just for genocidal players, either, or it’d have been put in the currently-empty files you get upon completely that route. Any dirty hacker could find this message, even one who never completed that run, like my weak ass.

Here it is:


Why this definitely has something to do with Gaster:

  • He got a lot of attention in the new patch, and this only shows up in the patched strings
  • Chara usually calls themself partner, not servant
  • It’s in the strings, not the game

Why this definitely has nothing to do with Gaster:

  • There’s no evidence they knew each other in life; related skeletons (Sans and Papyrus) don’t even recognize Toriel, their mom.
  • Additionally, the plan to break the barrier couldn’t have been Gaster’s
    because it sucked ass and he was supposed to be brilliant. Plus, it’d require Chara, a child, to commit suicide.
  • Chara is currently chillin in Frisk’s head so there’s not much opportunity for communication between the two unless Frisk is also there, or the Mysterious Black Void really is just that mysterious.
  • The player is the one who reads the strings, and the message it replaces in the old version was directed to the player.

Illuminati not confirmed. Illuminati ambiguous.

Yes, they were. They had a human soul strong enough to give Asriel the power to cross the barrier.

The reason people don’t recognize the Frisk-Chara Combo Pack as human sometimes, specifically in the No-Mercy run, is because…

…their actions indicate someone without a human soul. Flowey seems to think this disqualifies someone from their status as a human.

By the way, Flowey’s lack of a monster soul seems to make others hold him in a category outside of monsters (who even have snowmen in their ranks):

Besides that, Asgore clearly recognized them as human in life, and in Frisk after their death, like I said, but no longer recognizes them now.

Also, it’s the game way of calling you a monster for doing that run, you nerd.

Okay, so we know “The Absolute GOD of Hyperdeath!” is Asriel’s villain OC, with it’s own unique laughter…

that he doesn’t use while Asriel the Kid

or Flowey the Flower.

…so it’s some kind of completely separate villain persona he’s made up to be edgy and cool and it shoots rainbows and stars, unlike his regular fire attacks. Chara seems to know about his OC and what his attacks are called, so I imagine it started as a game they played.

What if Chara’s counter to “The Absolute GOD of Hyperdeath” was “The Demon Who Comes when People Call It’s Name”?

And since we know Flowey’s “creepy face” is associated with the GOH…

maybe Chara’s “creepy face” was associated with their edgy villain OC?

But that’s just a theory.

It seems they refer to themselves by neutral pronouns at least twice:

and Asriel does too:

aaand that’s all there is to say about that. lol

They act serious and intelligent, but the KS describes them as a “small child”…

not a teenager, so I’m gonna guestimate their age at like, 12. so stop drawing them in creepy stuff and shipping them with adults, you freaks.                                               

NO!!!

I see people throw out the “bandage” as proof that Frisk is, in fact…………………………………….a zombie.

Frisk does start with a bandage, but the things in the coffin? Not exactly bandages.They’re described as mummy wrappings. Not a single bandage, used many times.

On top of that, we can see that when Chara (who is in the intro dated 201x, “the date I came here” with their single striped shirt) fell there were no flowers.

However, Frisk’s fall was broken by the flowers.

And when Frisk comes in, the ground around the flowers is not dug up.  Chara is still buried there. 

Frisk has their own soul, whereas Chara’s was combined with Asriel’s and destroyed.

Frisk is a whole different person, with a whole different name, and a whole different soul. And, uh, differently colored clothes, with different numbers of stripes. I really hope that’s not what convinces you.

It seems that Chara may be a few years older than Frisk, given the difference in behavior (Frisk “waving their hands wildly” to “conduct”) and the way they expect Frisk to be excited by toys, and the nursery rhyme dummy check. I’d guestimate Frisk’s age at 8-11? so stop drawing them in creepy stuff and shipping them with adults, you freaks.

However…despite this…

They seem to be the same height…

C O N F I R M E D

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one of my favorite things to think about is the relationship between Lupa and Jason. Mostly the idea of Jason being one of Lupa’s favorite pups since Romulus. 

  • He was probably the youngest camper she had to take care of in quite some time so I like to think she got rather attached, though she would never admit it or show it openly (or at least in a way that humans would consider open affection, all the other wolves know whats up) 
  • and she’s most likely the only mother figure Jason has any memory of and I love that. I love the idea that as much as Jason has strayed from being a child of Rome, that’s who he is at his core 
  • Lupa as this ancient being who due to her nature rarely gets attached but then here comes this little boy and he’s strong stronger than she’s seen in centuries and she can feel it as soon as he is in her presence
  • His blue eyes shine up at her with fear but also wonder because sure he’s seen dogs but this is…. a very big dog 
  • the first few weeks are rough– He scampers off every chance he gets, cries out frequently for people who couldn’t find him if they tried
  • Lupa is patient, and she chases him down when he strays too far, lets him cry into her fur, wraps around him extra tight on nights when the tears won’t stop. 
  • she loves her pup, the first she’s personally cared for in longer than she can remember. But a son of Jupiter demands the best, and the best is what she is. 
  • The day he is ready to go off to Camp is a sad one for Lupa, but she knows more than anyone the price of keeping a pack strong. She hopes Jason will understand some day too. 

anonymous asked:

Sense the SDCC thing, I've been seeing a lot of art and fics that are dragging Kara/Supergirl. Like I get that some people are upset at the actors but the characters have nothing to do with any of this. I started watching the show because I read the comics when I was a kid, I just loved Supergirl as a hero. It's really kind of upsetting. They're treating a character like shit because they don't like something the person who portrays them did.

So this is a long dissection of the current Supergirl fan behavior, but if you’ve been wondering what the hell is going on, you might be interested in reading these concepts.

I understand why you’re upset. I am too, because Kara is such a wonderful character. I don’t think I’ve ever liked a character as much as her.

But there are two things you should realize when seeing this:

1. They never really cared about Kara to being with. Your loved Kara-focused content isn’t changing or leaving, because these people were not making the Kara content. They were likely initially making Supercorp Lena-focused content.

2. It’s not even about her.

I think what a lot of people who are newly joining this SDCC homophobia discussion are missing is that a lot of the most vicious backlash is not from people who are uniquely upset over this issue (though there are certainly people who are- and understandably) but from people who have had consistently overzealous reactions of hate toward actors and characters alike, save their fave (pretty much Katie Mcgrath/Lena Luthor).

On tumblr, and very noticeably in this fandom, there are sections of fans who seem to genuinely enjoy hating things. It’s a sport.

They’re having fun sending the most hurtful things they can think of to actors, and are the quickest to begin making vicious memes and jokes surrounding a negative event, before there has been a consensus within the community of how bad the “sin” was.

The “punishment” begins before the jury is out, and trying to defend those in the situation feels like trying to put a bullet back into a gun after it’s been fired. 

(Maybe it’s more like stepping in front of a bullet, because once these few have decided that the target is guilty, they won’t stop, and anyone who disagrees with them is guilty, too. Blogs and actors alike.)

This is partially why my discussion of the SDCC event had a “are they homophobic” slant (other then that I believe the nature of the event itself- if it was homophobic- hinges on the feeling behind the words, unlike most other instances of homophobia. It’s complicated and some people understandably disagree so far, but it’s really how I see it and I’ll be talking more about it a little later in different posts).

People started calling Melissa and Jeremy homophobic right away. Started targeting Kara as a character. Started “spite shipping” Lena and Reign. 

Or alternative to these options- immediately fan re-casted Kara as someone else to still be able to ship Supercorp. 

From where I stand, if you can so easily let go of this characterization of Kara, you never really cared about her as a character to begin with. If you don’t know that this was The™ person to play Kara Danvers, you’re likely more invested in the role she plays for Lena than for her as herself. 

And regardless of gender, I am uninterested in ships in which one character exists for the sake of another. (Lena existing purely for the sake of Kara’s development squicks me, too)

Recasting a woc as Kara doesn’t sit well with me either, for that reason. It’s a similar concept to how Maggie must exist as her own complex and valued person, apart from Alex, because she is a character of color.

I can’t really read the minds of these people, and I guess I could be wrong, but it’s hard for me to imagine actual Kara fans recasting her in this way.

Essentially, a lot of these people, or at least a very vocal minority, are so quick to accept that something horrible has happened because they want an excuse to hate them. 

They like it. 

Maybe it’s because they’re upset with the way society is and want someone to suffer for it. Maybe it’s because they have unresolved anger in their lives. 

But as it stands, it appears as if these people are using moral rightness and social activism as an excuse to be as mean as they want.

And like @youngbloodbuzz said in the link above, you start to look at their past behaviors in a new light. Were they genuinely upset at characters? Actors? Did they really feel like a travesty was occurring? That someone needed protecting?

Or were they just looking for reasons to call someone a “stupid cunt”?

It’s like they’re genuinely thinking, “It’s okay for me to make fun of someone’s physical appearance, call them intense names, make memes about how horrible they are innately, and send them death threats because they said something problematic once that a lot of people will hear.”

Sometimes they’ll call it “coping”, and maybe some people truly believe that makes it okay. But coping mechanisms are not above reproach.

If I hurt someone because I’m upset about something- even if I hurt someone because they did something wrong- it doesn’t erase the fact that I hurt them. We are still responsible to how we react to bad situations. We are still responsible for not reacting in an overly inflated way. 

Sometimes people will focus on how those that they’re attacking have more of a responsibility to be good people. That they are but mere bloggers, screaming into the void. They can’t possibly be accountable for how they behave. 

“I’m tired of talking about how bad the fans are, we should be focusing on what they did wrong!”

It creates an atmosphere in which an honest mistake from a well known person is much more crucifiable than the purposeful cruelty of the fans. We’re discouraged from criticizing popular blogs because the person they’re attacking has a wider audience and larger consequences for mistakes, as if popular bloggers don’t reach and influence thousands of people and as if we aren’t allowed to shape the way our own community functions.

Meanwhile, people who genuinely value morality and social activism fall prey to this thinking. They’ll even join in on the action, because they think it’s a moral act. 

Rebellion, somehow. Righteous fire. 

It’s a twisted mindset that spreads because people are afraid to be on the wrong side of morality.

Even people who really think the reaction is “too far” are quiet about it because they agree with the fact that what the offending celebrity did was wrong, and see that the level of vitriol for them now is overwhelming.

This is how I imagine that people who believe Melissa and Jeremy’s words to be homophobic but who do not think a couple of mistakes makes someone pure evil are relating to the current tumblr dialogue: 

“Wow this thing was homophobic!”

“Huh, yeah, I agree. Maybe not intentionally, but yeah.”

“That means this person is homophobic!”

“Uh, well, not sure I’d go that far-”

“Oh and look at this other somewhat problematic thing they did a while ago”

“Hmm well that’s bad, but not everyone outside of social activism gets that that’s a bad thing, so I can see-”

“Wow did you hear that this person also has an opinion about the show that I disagree with! What the fuck is wrong with them?”

“Oh. Well I actually agree with them in that situation but-”

“Omg they think that their character is like this! Do they know them at all??? What kind of terrible actor doesn’t know their character?”

“Well that’s a pretty common way that people are reading this character. Just because you-”

“Here’s some conjecture about their personal life that I imagine happened that paints them in a bad light.”

“Well, you don’t know that, but either way you shouldn’t be diving into their personal-”

“Oh and here’s a totally real story from an anon about someone they know who knew this person in the past and says they were a jerk at this one point-”

And it becomes too much. If you don’t really love the actor, really love their character, you either extract yourself from the group or you ignore the opinions you disagree with. 

It becomes quite clear that these people want to feel this way and won’t be changing any time soon.

And the more there seems to be a consensus about the issue, the less willing people are to speak out, for fear of rejection.

The Spiral of Silence theory is a good way to explain it:

To avoid isolation, people tend to refrain from publicly stating their views on controversial matters when they perceive that doing so would attract criticism, scorn, laughter, or other signs of disapproval. 

Conversely, those who sense that their opinions will meet with approval tend to voice them fearlessly and at times vociferously. 

Indeed, speaking out in such a way tends to enhance the threat of isolation faced by supporters of the opposing position, reinforcing their sense of being alone. 

Thus a spiraling process begins, the dominant camp becoming ever louder and more self-confident while the other camp becomes increasingly silent.

Importantly, the spiral of silence occurs only in connection with controversial issues that have a strong moral component. What triggers a person’s fear of isolation is the belief that others will consider him or her not merely mistaken but morally bad. Accordingly, issues that lack a moral component or on which there is general consensus leave no room for a spiral of silence.

Additionally, I believe that if someone does speak out against the (perceived) majority, it is most likely to be someone who is very strongly opposing of it.

A person who believes “It isn’t homophobic at all! They are innocent!” is more likely to voice their disagreements than “Okay I agree with your assessment of the situation but I think maybe we’re being too harsh…”

So the “minority”- who could technically very well be the quiet majority (people with middle-ground opinions just don’t get as many followers)- stays quiet. 

They might even change their minds to agree with the “majority”, over time. 

Believing that the mindset of the group that you belong to is wrong is psychologically uncomfortable, so it is not uncommon for someone to try to adjust their thinking to fit those they feel connected to.

So, eventually, the only people who are speaking at all are those “majorities” who hate these people. Or those who act like they do for notes.

And then this thinking escalates amongst those still talking about it (remember: because it’s fun for them and they want to milk it for as long as possible) and it quickly translates to hating their character, once they’ve temporarily run out of material to be angry with the actor for.

So, back to your concern, how long until, “it’s hard to look at Melissa as Kara right now, because of how I fear she might feel about gay people” becomes something like “Mon-El is abusive, but Kara can choke so whatever” ?

(And on that note, one should consider how much they really wanted to protect Kara Danvers’ characterization from Mon-El’s influence, and how much was just a part of their hate-hobby.)

Maybe it won’t go that far. I hope it doesn’t. I hope people come to their senses about this.

But it’s escalated even since yesterday, when I started making this post. The language being used to describe Melissa when she is speaking normally, about normal things that some people have a difference of opinion on, is abhorrent. 


So if you’re just trying to enjoy fandom in a peaceful and creative way, I encourage you to watch how the people you interact with react when something negative happens.

Are they disheartened? Crushed? Are they considering leaving the show and it’s fandom? Writing serious essays about how they’re hurt?

…Or do they come alive?

Are they incredibly angry, and then making jokes immediately? Memes and edits and creative content more so than they do on a peaceful day? Do you get the sense that they aren’t going anywhere, for a long time, even though they don’t seem to enjoy anything about the show?

Then you might be better off unfollowing them.

Of course, not everyone who makes a joke about negative things is thus enjoying it. It makes people feel better to make light of situations as well as to express anger, and doing so doesn’t necessarily mean that they’re drama-seeking.

And sometimes people slip into the mob more than they would like to have, retrospectively. Say cruel things that they regret later. 

It happens, and tumblr can be a persuasive and pervasive place. 

If you follow someone who initially reblogs some slightly overly hateful things, but who then backs off after the first wave, they probably aren’t the kind of person who is fueled by anger. 

I’ve seen a lot of people I considered to be level-headed get wrapped up in overly aggressive, black and white thinking during the initial reaction to events.

But then sometimes, a couple of weeks later, they’ll post a tentative “Anyone else still wanna kinda like this thing, even though we said it was bad before?” and they’ll get enough approval via reblogs to feel like it’s okay to go back to normal.

Some blogs quietly sort themselves out, in the end.

And if you’re one of those people who goes overboard occasionally, I get it. 

You’re hurt and you didn’t realize that the basis for the fan reaction that you were involved in was morally shallow. That the people you were supporting were not righteously furious, but using righteousness as an excuse to be furious.

But remember the message here: people make mistakes. It’s the patterns that really tell you who they are.

And I think we can be better. Have better patterns, as a group.


In the end, I encourage you to point out when a reaction is too harsh, toward anyone. Even if it’s difficult. Even if you agree that what the person did was pretty bad.

Agreeing that “black and white thinking” is bad can feel like you’re lowering your standards for morality. But I promise, you can still value the things that you value and loathe the things that go against it, without condemning someone’s entire personhood based on a mistake or a handful of mistakes regarding those things.

Even big mistakes.

People are complicated. We are all made up of really good things and really bad things.

It’s easy to believe that someone is wholly bad when they screw up.

The hard part, the part that will ultimately ground you and help you mature, is realizing that someone can have some really bad parts within them and still be good people. (I encourage you to remember that when thinking about yourself, as well.)

The trick is recognizing the difference between when people are making honest mistakes that unintentionally hurt people, and when they’re willfully behaving a certain way because they want to hurt people (or don’t care that they will). 

And further, between when people are lashing out because they’re hurt and when people are inventing hurt to be able to lash out.

These distinctions will help you realize who you can guide or trust to work their issues out on their own when they slip up, and who you should distance yourself from.

Some very vocal portions of the fandom are, unfortunately, the latter.

anonymous asked:

can u perhaps give me ur thoughts on fans' theory about juvia being gray's second choice. i've seen loads of posts saying that gray had feelings for lucy but stepped down bc he saw her chemistry with natsu. but i don't think that's the case, gray was attracted to lucy bc of her looks. juvia on the other hand, i am confindently positive that he is attracted to her as a whole; her personalities, her looks, her everything and her in general. juvia was never his second choice, juvia IS his choice.

Well, I have to applaud you, anon. You pretty much nailed it, and I agree with you. I’ve said this before, but Gray has always been portrayed as a normal guy who finds attractive girls attractive. If Lucy was his first choice, then what is Erza, or Virgo, or the cute waitresses at the guild? Because he clearly had an attraction to all of them and has shown at least as much “interest” in them, as he has canonically shown in Lucy. 

Gray seemed to have a crush on Erza when she entered the guild, he called Virgo cute, and he was blushing over the waitresses new uniforms when they came back from the Tower of Heaven. Lucy is a beautiful girl, so I’m sure Gray thought so, too.  

Mashima basically showed us Gray is just a character who finds attractive girls attractive. Nothing more, nothing less. 

I also feel like this headcanon is simply built off of fans love for Lucy. So, if Lucy is your favorite girl, the more guys who like her, the merrier. She still gets her choice of guy, but doesn’t it feel good to have lots of characters interested in Lucy? Doesn’t that show how awesome she is? And I get that feeling. As a Juvia fan, I loved that Lyon loved her. It was nice and fun when that actual love triangle was in play. But, the difference is, that love triangle was supported by the manga. While the Natsu, Lucy, and Gray one doesn’t have a leg to stand on.

To say Gray decided he couldn’t go for Lucy, because of Natsu’s feelings? Shounen is not that subtle. Mashima would have shown us Gray having such a revelation. Even a slight one would have sufficed. But we have NEVER seen Gray take notice of Natsu’s relationship with Lucy. Not once. Likewise, and even more importantly, we have never seen Gray fall in love with Lucy. So, you can have the headcanon, but it’s not supported by one piece of manga evidence, and that’s a fact. 

Mashima has only ever shown Gray to have romantic development with one girl. That girl was Juvia. That IS supported with manga evidence. A LOT of it. And the above headcanon is trying to undermine the importance of that fact. 

Imagine if people started saying Lucy was a second choice for Natsu because Lisanna died? If she hadn’t, he’d have probably ended up with her, because their relationship seemed very similar to his and Lucy’s before she got swept off to Edolas. And even Gildarts seemed to think she was a big deal to him. 

But, as a Nalu shipper, I don’t think that’s true, because Lisanna came back, and that didn’t alter or harm Natsu’s relationship with Lucy, and if anything, Lisanna encouraged Lucy to stick close to Natsu. 

But, saying that Lucy was Natsu’s second choice is just as undermining as saying Juvia was Gray’s. And there’s no doubt, it would piss people off royally. Especially if such a theory was tagged as nalu. 

IMO, Gray is a very strong-willed character. If he had wanted to pursue Lucy, I honestly see nothing to stop him from doing so. Many of us are still not even sure of Natsu’s feelings, but Gray knew? All that time ago? Without Mashima showing us he knew, and showing us him making that conscious decision to back off of Lucy? Please.

IMO Gray never pursued Lucy for the same reasons he never seemed to have any previous romantic relationships. Because his feelings never progressed to that point until Juvia, thanks to the development he had with her, and because of the type of person she is. She was overt in her feelings. She showed him care, and understanding, and patience, and most importantly, she helped heal him through the pain and guilt and fear that has been holding him back from embracing anyone the way he’s prepared to embrace Juvia. 

And we know the above is a fact, because we’ve been taken through that development step-by-step. Mashima took the time to show it to us, because it was important. He showed us Gray growing past things, and opening up because of Juvia. 

So, how could he have liked Lucy to the extent of needing to “back off for Natsu’s sake” when he was too closed off at that point to have those kinds of serious feelings for anyone? And not one shred of manga evidence proves otherwise. 

He LOVES Juvia. And the manga has shown us he’s never been in love before, until Juvia., because she is the only one Mashima has shown us Gray falling in love with. She was the one who made the ice mage feel WARM. She’s the one who’s NOT a friend. She was the one he died for on more than one occasion. She’s the first person he thought of when speaking of what he wanted to do when the war was over. And she’s the one he promised an answer to. 

So, it would be nice if people stopped trying desperately to undermine Gray’s feelings and development with Juvia. The manga doesn’t support those Natsu x Lucy x Gray headcanons. It’s as simple as that. 

Nick & Judy open up their relationship to the public:

Quick notation: Nick and Judy finally decided to open up their relationship to the public on Instaram (Instagram in Zootopia of course). The following picture is the picture he posts on his account with the username: NickDaHustler. Judy’s username is OfficerHopps and Benjamin’s username is BenLuvsDonuts.


NickDaHustler: Have you ever met someone who believed in you 100% for who you are? Have you ever met someone who motivated you to do better in life? Have you ever met someone who accept you as your own self? And finally, have you ever met someone who always has your back and will stay by your side forever? Well I have and her name is Judy Laverne Hopps. We started off on the bad side until I found out how determined she was about her passion as a cop. Then, we later on became really close to each other during our night howlers case. And now I am her partner because she accepted me for who I am and I honestly never thought for once in my lifetime EVER have I thought that I would be a cop, but surprisingly, I am, all because of her. I didn’t become her partner because I wanted to be a cop, no, not at all, but I became her partner because it just explains how much she has really cared about me, and now, my life just gets so much better throughout time. Now, going to work is my favorite daily routine, because I get to see the bunny who makes my day ten times better. Every time I look at her, my heart just beats faster, and seeing her face everyday tells me how blessed I really am to have someone like her to come up into my life, and that feeling is the best feeling I could ever have, EVER, so as soon as I couldn’t take it anymore, I had to open up her, and I honestly know she wouldn’t say no because I’m the only person she has ever felt the same way towards, and because I know how much she really cares about me, and she told me herself that she cares so much about me to the point where she doesn’t care or worry about anyone else in her life. And now, she is not only my best friend and my partner at work, but she is also the beautiful little bunny I fell in love with. She just might be the love of my life, my soulmate… I’ve never felt this kind of love before, ever. Falling in love with your best friend is the best kind of feeling anyone could ever have, EVER, and I’m so proud of her and myself on having this outcome. Throughout time, my love for her just gets much stronger and I can’t wait for what the future holds. I love you so much Carrots, and I always will! 💚😭💘

OfficerHopps: 💜💓💖💗☺️ oh Nick…😭

BenLuvsDonuts: Photo Creds to me btw✌🏿. They’re so adorable together and I’m so proud of these two! OM GOODNESS!! 😢😭😭


Lol this was my gift for getting 100 followers btw. I decided to use this pic, because it looks a lot like something that would be posted on Instagram tbh. I hope y'all liked it :). BTW the original source for this picture is down below the tags lol

I love you too Cas

12.12 “Stuck in the Middle with You” Coda

The blinding light that had surrounded Cas moments ago slowly dimmed down to a level that wouldn’t burn their damn eyes out, before disappearing as quickly as it had appeared, leaving a confused, but blessedly healed, Angel of the Lord sitting on the ratty ass couch. Cas turned to Dean, looking as shocked as he had felt, before turning to stare at something behind the hunter. That something turned out to be Crowley, as he was holding the Lance, or the top part of it anyway, running his fingers over the now relatively harmless spear head. Apparently he had broken the Lance while they had their backs turned when Cas started spazzing out, black goo that looked eerily similar to the crap that came out of him during the Leviathan fiasco, effectively breaking whatever spell that was killing Cas and allowed him to finally be able to heal himself.

They all turned to him, bewildered, but Crowley just looked at us, a look of indifference on his face. “You’re welcome” was all the King of Hell said before he dropped the spear head and left, ever the drama queen. He looked around and saw that mom and Sam looked just as confused and relieved as he did, though Sam was looking rather proud and mom looked like she was wondering how in the hell (no pun intended) a demon could do something so selfless, so human, and so out of character like saving an angel’s life.  

But none of that mattered, not when Cas was safe, healed, alive. Sure his clothes were still bloody, they’ll get him some clean ones as soon as they get to the bunker and burn the bloodied ones because he did NOT want to see the evidence of Cas’ closest and almost final brush with death for a second longer than necessary, and still weak from the amount of grace that had to have been used to heal himself, but he was alive. That didn’t stop the worry and fear that had taken hold of Dean when Crowley said that there was no cure for this one, Billie’s warning of ‘consequences of the cosmic scale’ still ringing in his ears and hammering about in his skull as he and Sammy reach out to haul Cas up to his feet. And if he held on a little longer to Cas’ hand and squeezed a little tighter than necessary, then who could blame him? He almost lost his best friend, he had a right to indulge in his need to be clingy, even if it was for like a second.  

But that fear and worry had abated, for just a moment, when Cas turned to him, blue eyes slightly widened in shock, but with an underlying sense of apprehension. He looked like a deer caught in the headlights and for a moment Dean couldn’t understand why, before what would have been his last words to them came crashing through like a frieght train

“I love you… I love all of you”

Cas might have tried to save himself by attempting to clarify that his love was equal for us all, but even Dean, the most emotionally constipated human ever, could tell that that first ‘I love you’ was directed at him. Cas loved him.

Wait

Cas loved him?

Why would he love him? Why would he, an Angel of the freakin LORD love him, a hairless ape that has caused him nothing but grief since the moment they met. The mud monkey that had gotten him killed Chuck knew how many times, had cost him his family upstairs, his wings, his grace, everything? It just didn’t make any sense. Cas should love someone who could take care of him, and he wasn’t exactly boyfriend material, people didn’t look at guys like him and think ‘that’s them, that’s the person i want to spend the rest of my life with. That’s the one.’  He never had had a good track record with long term relationships, Lisa had been his longest and even then it was rocky and wasn’t long before it all went to hell in a hand basket. He didn’t think he could be the kind of boyfriend Cas deserved, the kind he wanted to be for him, but if tonight, of all the other times they had lost or almost lost each other, had finally taught him anything, it was that life was too short for doubts and hesitation and you never knew when your time would come (for good). He was done burying his feelings.

He turned to Sammy, giving him a look that he hoped his brother understood, before addressing him and mom, “You two go on ahead in mom’s car, me and Cas will take Baby after we clean up here, don’t want the LEO’s to find the Lance, depowered or not.”

Thankfully his giant moose of a brother understood, grabbing ahold of mom while heading to the door, giving her a toned down Bitch Face #14 when she went to protest and pull away, “Sure man, you guys be careful though. I’ll get something for all of us to eat on the way to the bunker. And Cas, I’m glad you’re ok man.” Was all he said before he dragged mom out of there and to the car, not before discreetly throwing a eyebrow wiggle his older brothers way, the bitch.

Dean breathed out a sigh of relief as the door closed, he waited till he heard mom’s car start and leave before turning to look at the angel beside him. Cas looked confused, if a bit pleased. It was then that Dean realised that his hand had migrated to the angels back during his epiphany earlier, but he couldn’t bring himself to care all that much. It felt nice, the warmth of Cas’ back seeping into his hand, the surprising softness of that damn trench coat he always insisted on wearing. He was closer than Dean remember him being a few moment ago, staring at him with wonder, with no little bit of hope just shining through those beautiful blue eyes of his.

“Dean?” He asked, as if he was afraid that this was all a dream. And quite honestly Dean was having a hard time not thinking like that too.

Dean smiled slightly, eyes raking over his entire form, making sure that he was completely healed, reassuring himself that he was really alright, before moving his other hand to cup his angels cheek. Cas turned slightly into the touch, a soft smile blooming across his face.

It was then that Dean’s eyes started to burn slightly, the full gravity of what almost happened tonight, what he almost lost, finally register with him. He pulled Cas towards himself till he was flush against his body, holding him tightly. Cas looked at Dean, worried and but happy, before he brought his arms up, his left going around his waist and his right buried in the hair on the back of his head. Dean cleared his throat before looking him in the eye, thumb brushing away the stray tear that had escaped the angel’s eyes.

“Cas… I love you too.” Was all he got out as the rest of what he was going to say got stuck in his throat, but that didn’t matter, because Cas knew, he understood all that he was trying to convey, if the blinding, watery smile was anything to go by. And beside, words were no longer need, not as he finally pulled him even closer, closing the rest of the distance between them, pressing his lips to the angel’s surprisingly soft ones in a gentle, chaste kiss. It was the first of many, if he had anything to say about it, because now there was no way he was going to ever let this go, ever let Cas go.

THE END

baby, there’s a shark in the water pt.2

pairing: reader x young k x wonpil x sungjin

genre: angst

word count: 5,159

previous: pt.one

note: after getting some great feedback on the first part here’s part 2. I hope it’s just as enjoyable, happy reading!

Sungjin:

He couldn’t get the way she looked at him out of his head. It ate away at him the way Jina stared at Brian, revealing everything he didn’t know in a few short seconds. Sungjin knew he didn’t have her heart but he wasn’t going to let a guy like Brian Kang get a hold of it either, he didn’t deserve it.

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hufflepuffkira  asked:

hey Giulia!! I was wondering if you had any writing advice/tips? As you well know I'm a huge fan of your writing and I aspire to reach your level of talent aha. I apologize if I've already asked for your advice before too, you absolutely don't have to answer again if I have! (I love love your new theme btw!!)

This is so flattering Cosi omg thank you. I’ll try to put together some of my favorite posts that i often check while writing and maybe add some more.

  • here’s some general writing tips by @wellsjahasghost that i find extremely useful.
  • @rongasm wrote so many writing tips as well so you should definitely check out her writing stuff tag. This “How to develop/come up with a good plot” post helped me out a lot. Also i agree on every point of this post about what attracts me the most in a fic.
  • @danielzharman‘s writing tag include tips of every kind, if you either wanna write a fic or a novel, you can find some very helpful for your vocabulary, plot and general information for descriptions.     

          when i write i always check these ones in particular:

  1.   “how to translate emotions into written body language”
  2. “57 senses to use in your writing”
  3. “words to use more often + words instead of ‘said’ + words instead of ‘looks’ + showing emotions and feelings”  (this is more for non-native english speakers maybe?)
  • Personally, being english not my first language i always struggle with finding synonyms  and i’m always afraid of feeling repetitive with my expressions, so WIDEN YOUR VOCABULARY and always REREAD your sentences, read them out loud to see if they do sound natural and fluent, as well as your dialogues.
  • FIND A BETA, cause they really save your ass and even if your grammar is somehow perfect you’ll always need someone to cheer you up and that roots for you. Your beta is not only the one who corrects your work, but is someone you can count on when you need a good advice or even just an opinion about your writing. It’s not just a “writing/professional” relationship, strictly bound to your fic. ( ps. @youaretoosmart@stilesprefers-screamers ily)
  • PUNCTUATION is!! important!! You can tell me the best story ever with good characters and development but i can’t really follow it if paragraphs are commas-free and capital letters are optional.
  • COHERENCE, both for grammar and plot. Aka:
  1. don’t mix the tenses up. If you start with the present tense, stick with it and vice versa. (Unless you’re writing in present and have to do a flashback or something)
  2. as for the plot: always be careful about the dates and the socio-cultural background. For ex. if you’re setting your story post-college, you have to consider colleges in USA last four years. Or the fact that In USA you use different scales of measurement etc…
  • Also, when i read a fic, i have this small pad where i note all the expressions or words i either don’t understand or i find inspiring. There, i write down also some brainstormings for my fics whenever something inspires me, which can happen with movies, literature, tv shows… whatever. FIND INSPIRATION in everything you do: hobbies, places etc…just, pay attention to it, you know.
  • FOR MULTICHAPTERS you can deal with it as you like it but personally, i like to have everything scheduled. So for example for Quietus i’ve done the same process Rachel and Maggie did for Rainflower and made a two-lines plot for each chapter, set up the povs and basically wrote some key-words. I used Google Sheets.
  • if you have friends who are writers as well, DON’T BE AFRAID OF ASKING FOR OPINIONS, granted of course that you gotta be willing to accept constructive critics too (as Jade said). For my own experience, writers are very supportive with each other yikes.

i think … that’s it? Also because the others’ posts are really detailed and i don’t think i have much more to add on it.

Hopefully it can be enough, & for any advice or anything i’m always here to talk xx

nessaelanesse  asked:

Hey, I'm really sorry to bother you and I hope I'm not out of line but I just read your newest post about your stomach and I'm curious... Do you have any idea what's wrong? See, I've got something similar and for the last year and a half I've been living on rice, chicken and the few veggies that don't make me sick. I've lost a third of my original weight, but all the doctors I've gone too have no idea what's wrong! Which is why I'm asking. I hope I'm not out of line and I wish you the best day!!

Not a damn clue. My diagnosis currently ranges from “you’re overweight try losing weight” (no longer valid since I dropped fucking 20lbs in a month and likely wasn’t valid for most of my symptoms to begin with) it’s “just” IBS (a chronic condition unto itself which too few people including doctors seem to realize and dismiss as non life impacting simply because it’s “common”) leaky gut caused by allergies (previously thought to be celiac but repeatedly tested negative for) chronic GERD (somewhat more under control than it was to the point when I am off my meds which worsened the other symptoms) vocal chord dysfunction (previously misdiagnosed as asthma which before that was misdiagnosed as purely anxiety when in fact the reason I was panicking was because I couldn’t breathe) “it’s just anxiety” (which yes I have anxiety, but I’ve realized a LOT of it was being caused by allergies causing a near constant adrenaline response so that was fun. Nice to know I was on sedatives as a teenager because no one bothered to listen to me when I said eating XYZ hurt), hormonal problems (despite my hormones always being “normal”), and last but not least “I mean, it could be fibromyalgia or an autoimmune disease, your symptoms are kind of hard to pin down”. That latter part being a direct quote from a doctor. 

I’ve also had severe issues with my teeth, which since I have switched to a holistic dentist, have largely been resolved. (Still in pain, but every time he does something my health bounces up a notch so it’s a process I’ll be working with him toward fixing over the next few years. He even suspects I might have been getting mercury poisoning from some seriously dangerously over the limit leaking amalgam fillings I got in my early teens. He’s also the only dentist willing to remove my root canal teeth because they’ve never fully healed.)

So. Yea. I have some of my own possible theories that it might be SIBO which many doctors here in the US seem reluctant to even admit is a real thing (my current dr certainly doesn’t and will not test for it despite it being an easy culture test to do) and some possible genetic fuckery/immune system bullshit. Both my parents are extremely ill people with very similar issues, my dad even has an autoimmune disease he doesn’t care enough to even remember the name of so I can’t just narrow the field and test directly for that. Thanks dad.

The difference between me and them is I am actively trying to get a diagnosis and claw some semblance of health/sanity back before I turn into a hermit resigned to dying young. 

A big thing for me seems to be allergies/intolerances which have sprung up in the last few years. (Rice is the first thing doctors recommend for eating “plain” food but it’s actually a huge trigger food for a LOT of people) Eating only organic seems to have helped (suggesting a preservative allergy, which my allergist just kind of said “I believe you, but there’s no reliable test for it so just…don’t eat them”) 

Which is where you find me at now, two years down the rabbit hole of trying to get an accurate diagnosis. As for asking questions, it’s entirely okay to ask questions. I’ve pretty much wound up documenting my chronic health issues because a) it was helping me to keep track of things and then b) my blog got popular due to shenanigans and then a bunch of other people started going “HEY ME TOO” and we’ve created a sort of exhausted support group for each other and also c) the number of people who message me on a daily basis to tell me it helps them to know they are not alone is just…I’ve cried twice today at some of the messages I’ve gotten, and at the time of typing this it’s not even noon. 

I do not mind being public with any of this because gods help me if someone can figure out some small puzzle piece of their life from me falling apart then in some small way it will be worth it. Cause I know what that feeling is like. And I wouldn’t wish it on anyone. Chronic health issues are so incredibly isolating.

So yea…next step I’m off to see a natruopathic/functional medicine doctor (yes I made sure they are licensed physicians and not just crazy hippies) in the hopes that she might have some answers for me, or is at least willing to listen to me, which uh, yeah, the more you refuse to accept suffering to be your way of life, many doctor’s don’t seem to appreciate. I had my GI doctor tell me I shouldn’t google my symptoms and just accept the fact that the meds he prescribed for the chronic GERD would dissolve my intestines which, hahahahah, ha. No. I do not accept that. Not even a little bit.

I love the idea of an everybody lives au with Remus and Sirius raising a transgender Teddy. Like just hear me out:

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Teddy would be around the same age as Harry and they would grow up together as best friends.
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Those two then meet Ron when the Weaslys visit or something and the three become friends right away.
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Later in their first year they Meet Hermione, they all find her slightly annoying at first but give her a chance and the four then become inseparable.
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Teddy grows up happy. Sirius and Remus always make sure he’s loved and taken care of, a huge deal for Sirius, and he goes through his first three years happy.
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It isn’t until his fourth year he doesn’t feel right.
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He sees the way his body is changing and he can never get completely comfortable with it and he can’t figure out why.
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He always hears the boys in his dorm talking loudly about getting facial hair or fooling with girls and he never knows why he can’t join in without feeling like he’s lying to himself and he’s so confused.
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Even in the 90s the wizarding world isn’t the most open place for queer people so he doesn’t even know options exist.
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He finally asks Hermione because he knows she’ll help and he trusts her completely.
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He meant it to be an easy little question about what he was feeling could mean but his voice starts to crack when he gets deeper into it and he breaks down in Hermione’s arms because it hurts so bad what he’s feeling.
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Of course Hermione knows about things like this to a greater extent than most and she explains everything she can think of about trans people.
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And Teddy starts bawling again but this time it’s for joy because that’s exactly all he’s ever wanted.
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He tells Ron and Harry the next day.
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They end up being fine with it of course after much explanation by Hermione on what it all means.
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Teddy starts going by she/her around those three. Hermione teaches her the little bit she knows about makeup and cloths. And the feeling she gets every time they say her or she makes her want to tell everyone.
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She starts with her parents. She’s not particularly nervous, she knows they’ll be fine with it of course, but she still feels a twisting in her gut every time she thinks about actually starting the conversation.
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She decides one day, a few before Christmas, at dinner that if she didn’t do it then she never would. So she says it in the easiest way she can think of, “I’m a girl,”. Forks stop scraping and two sets of eyes are on her. She feels tears well in her eyes, though she tries to fight them down. Before she can she feels four big arms wrapping around her and she just cries for what feels like ever.
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From then on she starts going as she/ her everywhere she goes.
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She always has Harry, Ron, and Hermione there to defend her against assholes. And Sirius takes her cloths shopping (“Dad those are from like the sixties no,” “I’m from like the sixties and you never complain about me,” “Dad just no.”) And Remus does research into muggle reassignment surgeries and just ahahahssg I love Trans Teddy au. Also nobody dying is a great thing too.

anonymous asked:

About fandom PSA, this may be frustrating for you, but as a viewer I am honestly terrified of leaving comments? I used to comment often but then on tumblr I've read that adding stuff like "I need more of that/please write more/etc" puts pressure on artists. Then I started writing casual comments like "i like it/good job/etc" cause I am neither a critic nor a writer, I don't know how to express certain things? But artists want constructive criticism so unable to provide that I stopped commenting

Ah, so you are catering your comments and reviews for the authors, not writing what YOU want to tell them, right? That will never work as it’s going against yourself and when you go against yourself (aka what you want) then you get confused and can do nothing.

SO! So, write them the reviews YOU WANT TO GIVE THEM. I don’t encourage people to be rude or flood authors with nothing but “please more, please more, please more” because that does give pressure on people. Tell us WHY YOU WANT MORE and that’s a proper comment. “I want more because I love reading this fic (because it’s setting is interesting)”. “I want more because the characters are spot on”. “I want more because I’m excited whenever I get a notification of an update”. “I want more because the world building has got be hooked”. “I want more because character X is adorable in this.” 

If you don’t find anything which needs to be corrected (criticized) in the story, there’s no need to start to make things up either. Everyone reads and experiences art differently, so what’s not broken to you and works fine, WILL BE utterly broken and not working at all for someone else - and anything in between these two options for other readers. 

Commenting/criticism is just writing for the author what went through in your head while or after you read the fic/chapter:

  • “The chapter started a bit slow but got better the longer I read it.”
  • ”Character X was so cute in this!”
  • ”Dialogue went on a bit too quickly so maybe writing more dialogue would help the scenes to flow better?”
  • “I ran to read this as fast as I could aaaah!”
  • ”This part of the fic/chapter was my fave”
  • ”I screamed when I read part X”
  • ”The world setting is interesting”
  • “This chapter was worth of waiting.”
  • “I found this by accident and while the story wasn’t exactly my cup of a tea, I enjoyed reading this.”
  • “I never thought about this pairing, so thank you for writing about it!”
  • “This is seriously my fave rarepair, I’m happy there are more fics of it!”
  • ”It was clear how deeply character X cares for character Y when they cried after the news.”
  • “I’m confused of part X, can you tell more about it?”
  • “The chapter is jarring a bit, things could happen faster if you ask me.”
  • “You have repeated a word X a lot in the fic. I recommend replacing it at times with a word A, B or C to keep the text flowing.”
  • “When thing X happened I couldn’t believe what I was reading omg!”
  • “I can’t feel the chemistry yet but maybe a few more hot scenes would heat up the chemistry!”
  • ”There is good chemistry going on here”
  • ”You are making me bite my nails with anticipation!”
  • ”For a moment I was scared that thing X would happen”
  • ”WAIT WHAT WHAT IS GOING ON PLEASE TELL US MORE!”
  • ”That part X was so hot…!”
  • ”I’d like to know more about thing X, will you write more about it?”
  • ”Now I’m thinking there’s thing X going on and the character X will have their hands on it. Poor character A!”
  • ”The texts was written too tightly and was a bit hard to read so I recommend using more spaces and breaks.”
  • ”There was thing X in chapter 3 but I didn’t see it anymore in this chapter - what happened?”
  • “My theory is that something like thing X will happen soon!”
  • “I have this theory about this fic character X/setting-up and it goes like this………”
  • “Will we see character X in this story?”
  • ”I loved the thing X in chapter Y!”
  • ”When character X said thing X for the villain, I was so happy!”
  • ”This fic/chapter made my day!”
  • ”I’m a fan of your writing now!”
  • ”This was a good fic/chapter to read before going to sleep.”
  • ”I enjoyed this fic/chapter, it was cute and happy.”
  • “I never thought something like this could work but you made it work.”
  • I copy-paste this part of the fic in the comment section because it was my fave!
  • ”Thank you for writing this chapter/story!”

Mix these, write more, use these as guideline ideas ect. freely.  Writing a comment is REALLY nothing more than writing your thoughts out; and since you can’t stop thinking (unless you are meditating lol) then there is ALWAYS at least a one thought related to what you have just read/seen in your head. Write it out. 

anonymous asked:

Hey, I'm new to the supergirl fandom and I've seen there's a lot of hate on Mon El and Karamel and honestly, I don't get it? I don't see anything wrong with what people are calling an "abusive" relationship which started with "manipulation". I thought people would've liked that a man finally respected a woman's decision and waited for her. Since you support both ships (the Rhea post you made) on Supergirl, can you explain why people think it's manipulative and abusive? Ignore if you don't wanna

Hey there, welcome to the fandom, I haven’t been posting much about the ship you mentioned (well I don’t post anything related to it at all!) But i will try to make this as brief as I possibly can. (NOTE: It’s not my fault if this post ends up in the pro tag, I have properly tagged it as anti so if this is not your cup of tea, move along)

People say it started out with manipulation because it did. You see his “declaration of love” is far worse than the usual one that most women get at least once in their lives when a male friend develops feelings for them 

Usual/expected reaction to being rejected (which was shown through Winn in season 1): will tell you how hard it was for them to admit their feelings, will ignore you because they can’t be around you when they have romantic feelings for you, you’ll feel bad because you think you’re the reason for their heartbreak (though they won’t actively blame you) but if they’re a good friend they’ll come around and you’ll go back to being the good ol pals you were 

Respectful reaction to being rejected (in James’ case being broken up with): hears you out, accepts your decision, will continue to support you as a friend and genuinely still cares about you 

Manipulative reaction (exhibited by the useless alien): guilt trip mode- on, power of guilt trip- high, back it up with- more manipulation  

Now you’ll ask me “what’s so manipulative about his response??!! He was a gentleman who accepted her choice to not be with him!!” Let’s break it down shall we:

  •  Gaslights Kara throughout the episode when she wants to talk to him about the kiss
  •  Makes the whole thing about his almost death
  •  Immediately backs up the confession with “I know you don’t care about me” 
  •  Makes sure Kara knows he’s going out with someone else (she didn’t notice them, he literally calls her and makes it awkward)
  •  Backs that up with “yeah you rejected me” (and it hadn’t been too long since he poured his heart out to Kara) 
  • BONUS- By this time he knew all about online dating yet chose to go out with a woman who would surely interact with Kara at some point because they work in the same place.
  •  Makes sure Eve knows it’s not her he’s interested in while simultaneously trying to make Kara believe things are going good with them just to make her jealous 

And all of this was before Kara admitted that she may have feelings for him 

As for the Valentine’s Day episode? *Yoda voice* The Emotional Abuse Is Strong With This One. As I stated in several other posts of mine, it’s natural to get jealous and insecure when someone far better than you enters in the life of the person you like and can totally sweep them off of their feet, BUT that’s when you are unsure of how the person you like feels about you and how they feel about the other far better person (even with this excuse the amount of jealousy m0n l showed is way out of line) . In zis epizode Kara makes it pretty fuckin clear that she absolutely is NOT interested in Mxy and wants him gone and yet the person who is “oh so in love with her” just does not get it. He doesn’t try to help her and only puts her under more pressure by making the dumb decision of going against a being who can easily turn him into ashes. As for emotional abuse, these are the the signs of emotional abuse that you will find in the very first article when you look it up on google:

  • They humiliate you, put you down, or make fun of you in front of other people.- *yelling at Kara in the middle of the DEO (’BUT THERE WAS GOOFY MUSIC IN THE BACKGROUND! THIS WHOLE ARGUMENT WAS SUPPOSED TO BE FUNNY! LIKE HOW OLD MARRIED COUPLES FIGHT!’ I’m sorry but fun old married couples don’t fight about murder and neither does the man sound harsh enough for the woman to literally walk away, It’s not funny and it will never be)
  • They regularly demean or disregard your opinions- didn’t think Kara was capable of handling the situation 
  • They use sarcasm or “teasing” to put you down or make you feel bad about yourself- the whole daxamite thing whenever it’s convenient 

WHILE we’re on it, why not throw some other examples that took place during their relationship

  • They belittle and trivialize you, your accomplishments, or your hopes and dreams- before their relationship and during their relationship, saying she’s a hero because she likes attention, when he keeps saying Kara’s full of herself, and he never thinks Kara is good enough to fight her battles SHE IS LITERALLY SUPERGIRL YOU BUFFOOON! Don’t tell me he does it out of love cause then he’d say something along the lines of “I will fight with you, i want you to be safe” or some other sappy bs not straight up “yeah, you can’t handle this”
  • They make excuses for their behavior, try to blame others, and have difficulty apologising- blames Kara for lying about his identity 
  • The repeatedly cross your boundaries and ignore your requests- *announces their relationship to the deo when specifically asked not to* (BONUS- let’s appreciate how the writers try to justify his shit by bringing up Bhutan’s culture where it’s done out of joy. haha okay hunny but she literally asked him not to and he ignored her wish that’s not how it works)
  • They resort to pouting or withdrawal to get attention or attain what they want- this just sums him up
  • They play the victim and try to deflect blame to you rather than taking personal responsibility- wah wah why aren’t you hard on mxy, the one you dislike wah wah i’m the victim here cause you’re being mean to me cause i’m supposed to be better than a stalker super villain 
  • They invalidate or deny their emotionally abusive behavior when confronted- in the whole Jeremiah situation, ‘okay this is my second strike!’

And I haven’t even addressed the other reasons why people hate him (HINT: It’s got to do with him owning slaves, the best love interest who is also a black man being shoved aside to make way for him and him stealing screen time from minorities who actually play an important role in moving the plot along and not just stand there like a lamp shade) 

I hope this answered your question

Originally posted by wondwrwoman

Ways to Cheer Yourself Up (When wanting to be alone) - 50 top things to do
  • 1. Go ON Tumblr, believe it or not, we don't care where you're from, what you do, how you're being you, as long as you are being you, you're pretty much welcomed on here. That's why i love it. Unless of course you are homophobic or judgemental or ignorant - then the people will speak for themselves, we look out for each other here.
  • 2. Read Books; escapism is a wonderful thing
  • 3. Listen to music; and no - not the sad, 'ALL BY MYSELF' type music, but the kickass songs like 'I will Survive' or 'Loser Like Me' just celebrate yourself for being awesome, because we know you are; even if others don't; especially then actually.
  • 4. Become your own superhero. Every single one of you have a talent or a dream. Follow up on that talent/dream. YOU ARE WORTH IT, and you can be whoever you want to be.
  • 5. DISNEY MOVIES. Unless you absolutely hate bursting out into song - better cut of highschool musical and glee while were at this, then Disney is the best pick me up ever.
  • 6. Watch your favourite TV shows. Remind yourself why life can be awesome. Watching your fav characters usually means you can relate to them.
  • 7. Go on walks - it's very pretty outside, and sometimes our heads can be overloaded with information or stress, I advise calming music and a nice walk outside in comfortable clothes.
  • 8. Have a diary. A friend of mine recently bought me one, and it's a godsend because all the anger, or emotions I feel, I try to put in the diary rather than putting it out on others. It also calms you down. I feel better when I write.
  • 9. Speaking of writing...if you enjoy it- WRITE. Writing is a wonderful way to escape. You can put all your emotions into your characters and they just come to life. I tend to do that when I'm stressed.
  • 10. If writing is not your thing then bake. I've actually ironically read in a fan fiction where a character would bake when stressed and try out new recipes, this character tried making butterbeer; maybe be adventurous; have a food blog or something to keep you occupied.
  • 11. Be With Your Pets - Pets are loyal creatures, and they love you, even when you're being a pain in the ass, and I hear they're very good listeners.
  • 12. Now I don't know about you, but I LOVE Musicals. If you are a musical fanatic like me and you're feeling a little down, my dears; listen to those awesome voices, because sometimes we just - need - a break (Also, if you haven't watched RENT, watch it - NODAYBUT TODAY...or Starkid...Starkid make the most funniest musical parodies, even if you don't like musicals I suggest it, and if you're not enjoying their YouTube Channel, then I'll eat my own hat).
  • 13. ASK ME ANYTHING. If you really want to talk to somebody but you don't want to talk to people you know and you just want to get things out, my ASK box is always open.
  • 14. Find a hobby. If you don't really want to talk to anybody, that's okay, sometimes we need to just have some 'me time'. In my me times, I usually deactivate from Facebook, and just focus on things that make me happy. Like; Puzzles, Sudoku, Games, writing, cooking, singing, whatever it is...travelling even. Enjoy yourself.
  • 15. Travel. Maybe being stuck in the same place is the problem, maybe you're head wants to be in a place where it can ACTUALLY THINK.
  • 16. Go Hiking. I suppose Hiking is similar to walking but if you're an outdoor person, this is a great way to clear your head and to feel fresh.
  • 17. Hit The Gym. Or even do your own exercises. I like to walk - do crunches, and I love Zumba. I love dancing. If you love being active, this is also another way to clear your mind from negative things.
  • 18. GO SEE A MOVIE!!! When was the last time you had fun? Even if it's just by yourself. You're allowed to treat yourself. Go, enjoy, be surrounded by people, even if they're strangers.
  • 19. If you like coffee, treat yourself for one at a local cafe. Who knows, you might meet your coffee soulmate in a cafe one day.
  • 20. STOP thinking Negative. Have a Pros/Cons List. Try not to outweight the Pros list with the Cons. Please?
  • You are good enough.
  • 21. Write down a bucket List, and start ticking them off. Having goals and dreams is healthy. If you have dreams, then you have a direction of where you're going.
  • 22. Get help. It's okay, if you're head is in a really bad place to reach out to people. It really is okay.
  • 23. Help others. If you're not sure what to do with yourself at all, be useful to other people less fortunate than you. Volunteer! Work with Charity, Feed the homeless, help the guide dogs association.
  • 24. Smile more. It looks good on you, believe me. Spend time with your guilty pleasures, my guilty pleasure is binge watching glee
  • 25. Please DO NOT go to a pub to drink to ease your mind, if you are going to do that, do it with a friend, or somebody close.
  • 26. Eat Chocolate. Okay yes while society says NO DON'T EAT THE FATTY FOOD. Hey; screw them. If you feel better eating a bit of junk go for it. There's nothing wrong with eating a whole pizza or tub of ben and jerry ice cream when feeling upset - just try not to make TOO much of a habit : p
  • 27. REBLOG YOUR FOLLOWERS POSTS, you might be surprised that you aren't the only one feeling the way you're feeling, you might be surprised by how much you're forgetting that hey - it's gonna be alright.
  • 28. Do something nice for your neighbour. Ah who knows, have you ever actually talked to them? Maybe they might be lonely too.
  • 29. Have a GAMES Night. A very good friend of mine loves Games. If You LOVE Games, then hell have a marathon of them. Play the sims, be in control.
  • 30. Speaking of marathons...dun dun dun - MOVIE MARATHON, I Don't Know About You Guys, But Having A Harry Potter Movie Marathon always cheers me Up. WITH FOOD Of course, and good company, but this is about cheering yourself up, so if you don't want company, that's okay.
  • 31. Draw. I love drawing too. I suppose I'm more of the creative person. There are a lot of different types of people out there, maybe you like solving things - do those fancy cube things Idk what they're called. If you are like my brother and you love Maths, then maybe you can tutor someone. On one hand you're helping someone, and doing something you like doing, just like I'm drawing because I like drawing.
  • 32.Be with kids. believe it or not, kids are the most innocent little munchkins, and they honestly don't care what you look like, if you play hide and seek with them they'll be thrilled, so long as you're nice to them, they're generally nice to you... but be warned, they tell it how it is too. I talk a bit different. The most popular thing they've said to me was "Is that why you talk funny, because of the things in your teeth?" (They've also never really seen braces before) I even had one kid determined to get me to sing 'Everything is awesome' I'll never forget that because this kid clearly didn't care how I sounded, and just wanted me to sing with her. I felt great.
  • 33. If you're into Fairy Tales, Please Please Read Chris Colfer's The Land Of Stories series 1-4. It's an amazing series, and you almost forget what world you're in once you start reading. Plus, there's more coming (I'm a little excited)
  • 34. Watch Pixar Movies. You can't go wrong.
  • 35. GO TO HOGWARTS. Harry Potter Fan? Visit - Platform 9 3/4s in London, or go to the Harry Potter World, or if you can't actually visit these sites, go on Pottermore.
  • 36. Read Fan Fiction, you might not be a harry potter fan, but whatever fandom you are in, believe me sometimes Fan Fictfion Cheer me up. I adore Glee *Don't Judge Me* and Dalton is the best thing ever. Or Little Numbers...or Both. They cheer me up big time.
  • 37. Role play. If you like superheroes or characters, go be with the crowd. I believe they have events like Comic Con, and on Facebook they even have Events for such things, go be with strangers! So long as it's safe of course.
  • 38. Write a letter to the person who inspires you most and send it. You might be surprised by an answer.
  • 39. Pick up your instrument. Don't ignore your musical talent if you do have a musical talent. Remember, you're worth it. I don't care what you've done. Pick, It Up.
  • 40. Maybe go visit your family? I know this is about 'quality me time' but if you haven't seen your family in such a long time or are at a distance. Maybe being surrounded by something familiar is what you need.
  • 41. Change Careers. If you're not enjoying what you're doing or studying, change it. I remember in highschool a teacher said you might change your job 10 - 12 times before getting it right. It'okay, you just haven't found where you're meant to be yet.
  • 42. Enter a competition - Who knows what will come from it, take risks.
  • 43. If you're a risk-taker, challenge yourself. IDK how you're going to do that, but google has some pretty good answers. Even ask your tumblr followers, they follow you for a reason after all.
  • 44. Go on a boat. Go Fishing! I don't know, it's not my thing, but if you like fishing, then hell - go out there and fish.
  • 45. Find time for yourself, are you working too much? Maybe you are working too much. You know life doesn't stop for nobody, and if you keep pushing yourself so hard, time will go so fast and you won't realise how much of that time you could have spent on your own self.
  • The world is not going to end if you treat yourself.
  • 46. You ARE Good Enough. Listen to my words. Sometimes encouragement is all we need, when people feel hopeless, or like everything's gone wrong. It's gonna be okay. I promise, just hang in there.
  • 47. Write Down Quotes that Inspire You. I have a wall of these, and of people that inspire me too, and it reminds me of the good things in life when I'm in a crappy mood.
  • 48. Find something to do. If you're not doing anything, go take up a course, research things that interest you, you might be surprised by what comes from it. Join a community that enjoys doing things you do.
  • 49. Go To The Beach - If you live in Australia like me, visiting the beach is actually really calming and me and my best friend always would go on a random drive, and drive up to a beach or a look out, and it was always calming. Enchanting too sometimes. Maybe we forget about the place we live in, and what's exciting about the place. If you're in New York, visit Broadway or The Statue Of Liberty, or if you're in London, go to the London Bridge, or the Eye, visit the Eiffel Tower if you're in Paris...just go Anywhere.
  • 50. Take a random journey. Go on a train to somewhere new, go on a road trip. You never know what's around the corner.

Title: The View
Fandom: Riverdale
Characters: Cheryl Blossom x Reader
Word Count: 350
Warnings: None
Notes: Request from anon for “Could I request a Cheryl x fem! Reader with the prompt ‘Oh, don’t mind me. Just enjoying the view.’” ♥

Originally posted by hellomadzstuff

Dancing had never been your forte. There were way too many things involved in it: arms, legs, torso, hips – there was no possible way for you to do all of that at the same time, and for it to look good. You wholeheartedly commended those who could – such as your girlfriend, Cheryl.

At the present moment, you were sitting cross-legged on the floor of an empty room in Thornhill, watching as Cheryl moved about in various intricate and complex ways before you. She always appreciated having you present when she practiced new cheer routines. She trusted your opinions to be honest, rather than either of her mindless lackeys, or anyone else who either feared her, or just didn’t care (her parents being the latter).

What always awed you about Cheryl was how different she was when it was just the two of you. In public, she was harsh to everyone around her, and although she was never that way with you, she was still nowhere near as kind and considerate as when you two were alone. She was constantly doting on you – “Is the room too hot, or too cold?” “Are you comfortable?” “Are you hungry?” “Is my music too loud for you?” – no matter how often you assured her that if you needed anything, you would let her know. You didn’t mind, though; you knew it was her way of letting you know that she cared.

“Are you sure you don’t want a chair?” Cheryl inquired as she took a brief recess from her practice. The rise and fall of her chest was pronounced as she attempted to regain her breath, and her long, red haired ponytail was now messy, some strands sticking to her forehead with sweat. The skin-tight shorts she wore were enough to make your mind go blank, and the lacking length of them didn’t help, either.

“Oh, really, don’t mind me. I’m just enjoying the view,” you responded, leaning back on your hands with a sly smirk.

Cheryl rolled her eyes, but you could see a smile tugging at the corners of her red lips.


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