i feel like i should be apologizing for this

anonymous asked:

saying Stefan's cancer is terminal seems like a very extreme and outlandish claim when the word was never once seen in the translation. so far there isn't proof. it's very bad, but to say he's dying right away? I think you messed up doing that.

Admittedly, I do agree. I felt I should have used something less than extreme, but by the time I was going to edit, it spread like wildfire.

I feel incredibly guilty with my wording, and by no means did I mean for it to sound like he was going to die immediately. I most likely misconstrued some of the wording, and I thought I saw the concept of no cure (outside of experimentation), but I’m not the strongest of readers (or wording for that matter, but that’s for another day).

You’re 100% right. I feel like I’m repeating myself, but I do severely apologize. I wish there was something I could have done better.

i don’t like texting because it fosters this idea that we have to be accessible to others and to interaction 24/7??? stop that!!! if im not texting back, it’s not bc i i hate you, it’s because im just chilling, ok? and interacting is draining. i don’t think every person should have to be accessible to everyone that has their number literally every second of every day. stop apologizing for not texting back “on time.” do you, live ya life on your own time okay????

  • person: *talks about something they're passionate about even if I don't know much about it or can relate too much*
  • person: aAAH I'M SORRY I SHOULD STOP TALKING SORRY FOR BOTHERING-
  • me: Listen. Listen. I love listening to what you're passionate about. It's fun listening. You don't have to apologize. It's good talking about things you like. Enjoy yourself.
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Keiynan Lonsdale photographed by Storm Santos for VULKAN Magazine

“I like to change my hair, I like to take risks with how I dress, I like girls, and I like guys (yes), I like growing, I like learning, I like who I am and I really like who I’m becoming. Spent way too many years hating myself, thinking I was less valuable because I was different… which is just untrue. A couple years ago I was able to accept myself, and it saved my life, but now I’ve gotten to a new road block and I feel kind of lost. I gotta take the next step and actually embrace who I am, which is pretty exciting. Not faking shit anymore, not apologizing for falling in love with people no matter their gender. I’ve become bored of being insecure, ashamed, scared… no one should feel like that about themselves, especially when there is so much good life to live. Ya know more and more I see so many young people being their best / truest selves, it’s fucking inspiring… so what have I been waiting for!? Who knows. Everyone in their own time. I hope we can all learn to embrace who we are and not judge people who aren’t exactly the same as us. The truth is we are all family, we’re all one. Just love.”

TEXT MESSAGE STARTERS !

Send one of the prompts below to get a response from my muse.

drunk texts:

  • ( ✉ → sms ) plea se eh elep me im drunk and i dotn know whe re i am
  • ( ✉ → sms ) i fukcing miss yo u
  • ( ✉ → sms ) i look so fuckigjn GOOD
  • ( ✉ → sms ) i csnst stop throwiging up
  • ( ✉ → sms ) fu ck you  for hurting me
  • ( ✉ → sms ) why dotn you ever call me anymore huh
  • ( ✉ → sms ) stop being so fuckigjn borign and coekm to my party
  • ( ✉ → sms ) i dropped my pzziza o nt eh floror im fuckgin pissed
  • ( ✉ → sms ) i j sut left you a 3 mintue long voicemail singing. sorry
  • ( ✉ → sms ) even when i’m durnk ic ant sotp thinking about oyu

hateful texts:

  • ( ✉ → sms ) you’re pathetic
  • ( ✉ → sms ) you make me miserable
  • ( ✉ → sms ) fuck you. delete my number.
  • ( ✉ → sms ) you never meant anything to me, anyway.
  • ( ✉ → sms ) fuck your apologies, you can keep them.
  • ( ✉ → sms ) congrats on always ruining everything
  • ( ✉ → sms ) my life would be so much easier without you.
  • ( ✉ → sms ) and next time you feel like calling me… don’t.
  • ( ✉ → sms ) i don’t want anything to do with you anymore.
  • ( ✉ → sms ) if your goal was to make me hate you, then congratulations. mission accomplished.

misc/random texts:

  • ( ✉ → sms ) i think my neighbor is an alien.
  • ( ✉ → sms ) help me think of a name for my new dog
  • ( ✉ → sms ) sooooo… what was your first impression of me
  • ( ✉ → sms ) should i get pizza or chicken wings for dinner?
  • ( ✉ → sms ) no one’s ever made me feel the way you do.
  • ( ✉ → sms ) i borrowed your weed. hope you don’t mind.
  • ( ✉ → sms ) why do they say drugs are bad when they make you feel so good
  • ( ✉ → sms ) today is the oldest you’ve ever been, but the youngest you’ll ever be again…
  • ( ✉ → sms ) [ File Attached: 001329.jpg ] of all the drunk pictures i have of you, this one is my favorite.
  • ( ✉ → sms ) i used your pics to catfish someone, and since they bought me a laptop… you have a date with them tomorrow.

anonymous asked:

LOL THE SUGA ONE WAS PERFECT! Yes he can be a kind supportive parent along with Daichi but hebis also E V I L! Daichi can be scary when angry but Suga will murder u in your sleep. EVIL I SAY! ok if you are not tired of those how about Akaashi next? So many fics make him this shy, pretty dude who needa to be saved by Bokuto nd I dont get where people got that. He's evil too, in a different way than Suga, but still evil

*kicks down your door* DID YOU SAY EVIL AKAASHI HOLY SHIT DO I LOVE THAT SHIT HOLY SHIT. (i already regret this entire meta) 

i mean to be fair i am partial to a wildly insecure akaashi because holy shitting fuck being shy/insecure and being a badass dickhead aren’t mutually exclusive what a fucking concept (this is rage at fandom in general not this ask, dw) but holy shit anyway

fanon akaashi

  • god it’s been so long since i read a bad akaashi
  • i live in my weird, dark akaashi corner and never wander out
  • fragile and feminine
  • like, dainty or something?
  • “so tired of bokuto lol poor akaashi”
  • eventually??? notices bokuto’s charm??? or something?? and is swept off his feet

canon akaashi

  • bruh
  • fuckin brutal my dudes
  • that moment in the anime? where bokuto’s explaining a rebound and then he’s like “well it can go wrong” and akaashi’s like “yeah it goes wrong a lot for you”
  • holy fuck what an asshole
  • bokuto’s like “NO” because of course he’s like “NO”, akaashi you dickhead. and then he’s like “you’ve gotta say that’s not true bokuto-san” because bokuto happens to know how to be be nice fucking person
  • and akaashi’s like don’t fucking tell me what to do you shithead
  • and the next time bokuto’s like “but if you’re calm you can figure out what to do” and akaashi swoops in knowing full damn well that he’s being a dick and is like “that’s not true bokuto-san”
  • fucking brutal
  • and you might be like “lol well he’s a sarcastic asshole with bokuto because he’s So Tired”
  • are you fucking kidding me
  • the guy spends all his free time with bokuto
  • endless practice? sure. lunch together? sure. the guy has a list of bokuto’s weaknesses, knows how to get him back on track no matter how shit his mood gets and you wanna tell me he’s not, like, one of the most important people in akaashi’s life?
  • also the second someone’s like “so bokuto, huh?” he’s like “yeah dude he’s super reliable and i only have good things to say about him whatever”
  • holy fuck
  • this is how he deals with a teammate he respects and is most likely one of his closest friends
  • he’s a dick. the way he smirks at tsukishima when they win? that’s a fucking “hahah suck it you loser, you little snot” even though he knows this is an insecure first year who is just getting the motivation to work at volleyball and he’s still like “should i be gracious in winning here? nah, i’m gonna smirk at him in a way that’s utterly rubbing his face in the fact that i fcukin played him hah you dickhead that’s our ace”
  • seriously though look at some of his faces the guy is absolutely out for blood. kenma is teasing him? i’m planning your untimely death you little pipsqueak. tsukki loses? hahahah how do you like that you lil bitch
  • not to mention he’s super fucking tall
  • he could crush you
  • this list is so long because i. fucking. am. so. emotional. about akaashi keiji.
  • he may be polite but he would murder you, bro. fucking murder you.
  • *muffled sobbing*
Guys My Age (2)

Pairing: Bucky X Reader

Words: 4K

Warnings: SMUT. NSFW gifs. 

Summary: You’re playing truth or dare with the Avengers when Nat asks you when the last time you got laid was  and Sam dares you to pick a song that perfectly grasps why you haven’t had sex in so long.

A/N: Enjoy the smot. And please use protection people. Better safe than surprised. I think this is dirtiest fic I’ve written so far.

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Request: Airplane sex and some fluff.  

Word count: 4,5745

Faint, slightly irritating rumbling sounds rang in my ears, slowly pulling me out of my otherwise heavy sleep and forced my sore eyes to blink a few times, before being able to open them fully. At first, everything seemed blurry and the noises surrounding me seemed rather unfamiliar. 

Slowly, waking up fully, I found myself laying in Shawn’s lap with my feet across the empty seat, I should have been sitting in. 

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yall: as someone who has been ~professionally diagnosed~ with borderline personality disorder, its NOT manipulative to have a fp. this goes for everyone who has bpd: self dx or pro, psychotherapy or no, u cannot control the way u react to situations bc lemme explain something about bpd:

(if it helps, this is literally confirmed by the hospital that treats me and my psychiatrist):

borderline personality disorder is formed by one’s upbringing, by trauma or by a series of traumatic events,, ur brain develops differently than a normal person’s because ur constantly on the defensive! this is why we have the black/white thinking, why we are impulsive, why we have a lot of anxiety all the time, why we’re so exhausted ,, our brains are on constant DEFENSE mode and its not something we can turn off: we can only deal with the symptoms (i.e take medication for the anxiety, treat impulsivity, etc). people with bpd have a VERY hard time molding into a societal “healthy” behavior because since we are constantly on defense mode, our instincts differ from a normal person’s.

now about the fp (favorite person(s), if u dont know): people with borderline personality disorder tend to idealize and imprint on a person or a small group of people they admire, because they crave validation and they feel like they Die without it. (im using they to make it easier, but I HAVE BEEN DIAGNOSED AND AM BEING TREATED FOR BPD). a lot of borderlines do not tell their fp(s) they are their fp, but it does not change the fact that its still a process that goes on internally and that they do have emotional dependance on people, characters, etc (note: a fp can be a tv personality, a book protagonist, an anime character etc. the fp doesnt have to physically exist to be a fp).

all this being said, it is factually incorrect to say that having a fp is inherently abusive, not to mention extremely harmful to the people who ate trying to manage their bpd and have fp(s), telling them that imprinting on a person is abusive when a lot of borderlines experience abuse from multiple sources can in fact cause an immense amount of guilt and self hatred that could cause a borderline to hurt themselves and/or isolate themselves from the people they love out of fear they’re being abusive. THAT IS NOT PRODUCTIVE.

having a fp, imprinting on someone, being emotionally dependent on an individual is NOT abusive or manipulative. a person with bpd is not Bad for having a fp(s). i chose to tell my boyfriend he’s my fp, but that’s just me. call me abusive all you like. in my humble onion, and this is also the opinion of a lot of professionals, it is GOOD to tell the people close to you about your symptoms and why you act the way you do, so they can be more understanding when you act impulsively or erratically and they cant fully comprehend why you are acting that way, because its not the way a healthy person would act.

like, should i apologize to juliette from the shatter me books for being my fp and am i being manipulative to a character because i imprinted on them? that’s plain ridiculous and you should feel ashamed for ever perpetuating the idea that an uncontrollable symptom of borderline personality disorder is inherently abusive because that means that you are calling my PERSONALITY abusive, something that i cannot control or cure with any amount of psychotherapy and medication, and therefore you yourself are being abusive. funny how that works, huh?

This may just be me, but I feel the only person who should be able to correct someone on my pronouns is me.

If I find no ill-intent with how someone refers to me, then I find no real reason to correct them.

I don’t like the idea of people correcting or getting angry about something on my behalf.  That’s up to me to decide, not anyone else.  And by doing things like that it often feels like those people are “speaking for me”, which I don’t approve of.

I have to do this all the time, and then I end up apologizing to the person who was corrected, as they meant nothing negative when speaking that way.  Often the person correcting pronouns will be aggressive and immediately take offense -for me-.  Please, do NOT take offense for me.  It is up to me to decide if I am offended by the way someone addresses me or not.  And it ends up making me look and feel horrible.

Nine times out of ten, when someone uses “incorrect pronouns” they mean no harm and often feel bad about.  Not to mention, almost everyone who tends to correct pronouns for me does not know me personally, but their actions reflect negatively on me.  Which isn’t fair to anyone involved.

This is NEW to many people and allowing ME to go at my own speed and deal with things as I see fit helps with the transition BETTER.

I do appreciate how considerate and kind most people are being towards me, but remember to be kind towards EVERYONE as well.  Assuming the worst of someone or a situation will only hurt everyone involved.

So, in conclusion, the only ones who should be able to correct anyone about how I should be addressed are myself or my partner Val.

Thanks.

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Why couldn’t you have left well enough alone? You were happy.
2.20 // What Is and What Should Never Be

aliceinsherlockland  asked:

Hello! I feel like I should apologize about asking this, because I consider myself a big fan of yours, yet I never read American Gods (I did read lots of other things you wrote and loved them, somehow I skipped this iconic book) . So what I wanted to know is, for someone who didn't read American Gods, should I watch the show first or read the book first?

Why not watch the show up to the end of episode eight, and the first season. Then read the book.

Pen Pals

Pairing: Dean Winchester x Reader

Summary: The Reader takes up a Pen Pals writing program at her school, and soon finds herself falling for the military man who’s been sending her letters. What happens when she graduates? Will the letters still come after, or is she just a random person who was strung along just to blow off some steam via words? 

Word Count: 1.7kish

Warnings: AU, Fluff, Light Cursing

Author’s Note: Heyy my loves! This is my entry for @revwinchester‘s Birthday Challenge. I got the prompt “Soldier” with Dean (obviously). This was meant to be a one shot, but then I thought, why not make the other half in Dean’s POV? It’s only fair, right? Second part will come next weekend. And the third the following weekend. I really hope you guys like this! Feedback is definitely welcomed!!

*Part Two*



Chapter One: First Letters

Pen Pal - a person with whom one becomes friendly by exchanging letters, especially someone in a foreign country whom one has never met.


I never thought I’d be the one to do these kinds of things. When I signed up for it at the beginning of freshman year in high school, people thought I was insane. They didn’t think I was going to go through with it, you see.

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anonymous asked:

hi viria i have a problem im dealing with right now ;; in my fandom genderswaps/bends are growing ever more popular and more and more big art/fic creators are accepting and supporting them. as someone trans i've been trying to educate people on how harmful it is, but as more & more 'big' or 'popular' accounts publicly enjoy them, its harder & harder to have an audience that will listen. i used to enjoy genderswaps myself but now ive come to see how truly harmful they are. i want to keep (1/6)

trying to educate ppl but soon it will be near impossible to convey my message as almost a whole of my fandom will just come to accept them and love them so much they wont listen ;; do you have any words to say from your perspective as an artist or from any other standpoint? even just a small word would mean so much, this trend is growing more and more rapidly and stronger every time a fic or piece of art supporting it is produced ;; (2/6) 

i come to you asking such a thing because there are fewer and fewer people that share the same belief as me that it is bad. the argument defending it seems very convincing to many. some trans/qenderqueer/nonbinary people find it enjoyable and comforting but those that are on the opposite spectrum - ppl like me who feel dysphoric and invalidated by it - are in the end told to deal with it and let ppl write/draw what they want and just avoid it since its a comfort to some. another argument (3/6)

is of artistic liscense: you should be able to make whatever you want and this is strengthened by the fact doing so comforts some trans/gq people. but i feel forgotten. do the people that are hurt by it not matter? i feel ashamed now when i try to put out my msg. but i just want to feel a little more normal within my fandomspace. i want to feel like i exist. yet hardly anyone will listen. it’s not longer something i and my friends can avoid and never really was, because it is harmful and (4/6) 

we have a right to speak out against harmful things, yes? i am finding it harder and harder to believe it. i really just yearn to feel normal as the people that are consoled by genderswapping feel normal. i feel i should mention i do remember when you made genderswap art and were educated and apologized, i have gone through the same process myself. i hope i am not bringing up bad memories and apologize if i happen to ;; please, if you could give just a few words yourself it (5/6)   

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Hello! I’m sorry, I think my askbox managed to eat the last part of your message, so it’s not entirely full! But I feel like I get enough information from these parts nonetheless. 

First of all, please, please, try to not let any strangers on the internet make you feel abnormal. I feel like it must be very hard to be put in such a space, but as much as you can, please focus on the people who DO share your opinion on this. As much as it might not look like it, I am sure many people (even out of those who still do genderswaps) mean no harm, don’t yet know how hurtful it is for some other people and WILL listen to you!

I remember when people educated me over this, there were so many who thought that…how to put it. That I think very very bad of transgender people, while I, at that point, didn’t really know much about this issue. When it doesn’t happen to you, it’s not always the thing that crosses your mind. I feel like people who explain why and how this is wrong to artists, especially with their point of view, do help to fuel a thought in someone’s mind, offer them to think about it if they didn’t have the option before.

I try to be hopeful for people, I want to think that even if genderswaps are popular, there are still many empathic people who will listen to you, and who will understand how you feel.

For many it comes to a choice: whether they enjoy genderswaps enough to still draw it when they know how much it upsets some people. It was very fun to draw, but I don’t want to be the cause of someone’s distress by doing it. So… I want to think many people might share my choice. 

I’d say…if you choose to explain your point of view to people who still do genderswaps, try to not make bashing someone the first thing you write them. It might cause anger and defense, and it might not lead anywhere. Back then I was “educated” in a way that made me cry my eyes out, but it’s not something everyone will be willing to go through. For me, it wasn’t people who yelled at me what a piece of crap I was, but people who really explained what they felt that made me think on this topic more. Keep in mind that there still might be people who don’t yet know your point of view. What they see - is the pictures on the internet, people do them, so they assume it’s okay. You don’t usually think “Hm, what can possibly be wrong with this picture?” about drawings you see on the internet. 

As for your safe place, I think you have already done that, block all the genderswap tags to try to avoid on your dashboard. Even if there are people who stop doing them, there will most likely still be people who just started, simply because there are so so many. You don’t want to stress out because of something the stranger did from the other side of the globe.

I’m sorry if this is zero help, I know there is no way to change everyone’s opinion or to inform everyone, but please, don’t lose yourself with this. You are you and you are important, what you feel is absolutely legit and valid, remember it!

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