i feel like i had actual interesting things to say

anonymous asked:

I'm seeing many fans being upset over Chloe Decker's love interest, but the way you people are handling it, I must say, Lucifer fandom is the most matured fandom I've ever seen, proud to be a part of this :) Do you think it'd help Lucifer to figure out that Chloe actually has free will?

yes. way more mature about this than about candy, that’s for sure. thank god.

but that is the thing. i too am annoyed by the love interest thing, but i also feel like it’s kinda necessary. i had a feeling it was gonna happen. cause yeah, if lucifer sees her “moving on,” with someone who is not him then he might see she has free will and choice. something has to wake him up to that before they get together, which they will. so yeah, i think this is part of that.

The Greatest Sin of the "The Last Airbender"

This has been in my drafts since forever, so I’m just going to post it. 

Ok, Lake Logai, there is no movie in Ba Sing Se, blah blah blah…

Now that we have that out of the way…

While watching the movie that doesn’t really exist, I realized something. I don’t think the worst part of the movie is the shitty ass bending, the terrible action sequences, the bad editing, or the racebending. Sure, those are all pretty terrible and atrocious, and you can talk at length about how all those things suck, but there is one crime that overshadows all of these bad decisions, a crime so terrible that not even doing everything else right could save it. Ladies and gentlemen, the biggest crime of “The Last Airbender,” is that it lacks agency and nuance. 

People just do things to get from point A, to point B, and you barely feel anything for the characters. Aang’s a whiny, emotionless little shit (wow, I can’t believe I just said that); Sokka is emotionless, humorless, and incredibly monotone (well, movie!Katara and movie!Aang are too but that’s besides the point); Katara is fucking annoying, and too busy narrating to actually have character; Iroh is way too serious; and while Zuko at least had the brooding part down, you don’t really feel bad for him the way you do for show Zuko.

And, as far as agency goes, the movie is completely lacking in it. I don’t want to sound like a dumbass here, but it’s exactly like watching a historical documentary that does nothing to show you why people did the things they did and why things happened. It just says “here are a few interesting facts, watch as I completely butcher everything by sucking the soul out of all your favorite characters.” 

Everything seems to revolve around this emotionless world savior that ran away not because he was a 12 year old kid burdened by the responsibility of being the Avatar, but because he couldn’t have a family. And when he does come back, he’s barely trying to struggle with the consequences of his actions, and everyone begins to rally to his flag on the spot. Why? In the show, at least, they tried to say “hey, look, your actions have consequence,” “hey, we’re not going to rise up just because you’re the Avatar." 

That’s what made the show so special. It showed consequence, it showed that these people had lives and identities. But somehow, M. Night Shyamalan managed to suck all that from the movie.

The writing is also, of course, terrible, way too wordy, and filled with needless narration and exposition. People just randomly say things without paying attention to their surroundings. What’s the deal? 

At the same time, a bit of the writing could work, but Shyamalan ruins it by dropping lines at the worst time possible (”This was their practice area,” “The Firelord’s son.” I DON’T FUCKING CARE!). 

That, and I don’t want to say "in the show” again, but when Shyamalan does use the lines from the show, or something similar to those lines he:

  1. Gives those lines to different characters which doesn’t make sense and robs the original characters of possible character development.
    1. Example: Iroh getting Aang’s lines about balance. 
  2. Makes characters stupid by asking stupid ass questions
    1. I’m looking at you, Yue.
  3. Robs characters of their own agency and motive. 
    1. For example, instead of Yue choosing to sacrifice herself because she feels like it’s her duty, she needs Iroh to tell her to do it. 
    2. Prior to that, instead of Aang showing off how spiritually enlightened he is, his lines about the Moon and Ocean spirits bringing balance to everyone is given to Iroh. Which, although it make sense for him to say, still robs Aang of possible character development.Granted, he had little character to begin with.
    3. Aang getting Katara’s “Imprisoned” speech

It’s strange to watch this, and then see an interview that was made prior to this movie’s creation where Shyamalan sounds enthusiastic and knowledgeable about this world. What happened, Shyamalan? Apparently a lot of the changes were out of Shyamalan’s control, but I don’t really buy it due to how terrible this movie was. The writing, and timing was still awful.

That, and after watching enough of Nostalgia Critic’s M. Night reviews, you start to see a consistent pattern. 

And I just want to point out that, if you watch the behind the scenes stuff, Noah Ringer does actually act like he could have been a good Aang. 

So, what happened? I know he has never acted before, but still.Bad direction? 

But, back on the topic of agency, there were just a lot of opportunities to have characters develop, interact, and grow. But instead everyone’s a stick in the mud. Take this deleted scene for example:

Ignoring the fact that there’s no bending for whatever reason (even though Yue already sacrificed herself), this would have been a great time for Aang to drop his “but I’m just one kid” line. Technically, it wouldn’t add much because, as I said, Aang’s character in this movie is basically cardboard, but at least it would give us the sense that he had doubts.

 And, on top of that, all that, you have Katara seeing that Sokka is upset by Yue’s death (and the collar-grab was very out-of-character but that’s besides the point), and ignoring his feelings, before managing to calm him down by simply telling him to stop.

God, damn, people, show some emotion.

In the mean time, if you haven’t already, feel free to watch the Nostalgia Critic’s review of “The Last Airbender.”:

anonymous asked:

Soo I'm an INTP and I find it incredibly annoying when I open up to someone about a thing that I really like and care about and then they just ignore me or obviously has no interest in it. Like all I need is someone to say "cool" or "nice" LIKE I JUST NEED SOME VALIDATION THAT I'M DOING THE RIGHT THING DON'T MAKE ME FEEL SO WEIRD ALL THE TIME. I never write in caps but I had to sorry, I'm a bit mad.

I RELATE. some people are just dicks. or maybe they don’t realise that it actually affects other people when they ignore them because it personally doesn’t bother them

Strengthsfinder 2.0 and MBTI

This is a very basic rundown - I may in the future create a survey but for now this is based just on my review of the book and my MBTI knowledge. So if you know your strengths according to this system, it’s okay if it doesn’t line up perfectly with your type - I’m going by the most likely function or functions to be associated, but that requires a simplistic look at the functions in isolation without considering how they may work together.

Anyone who has not spent time in a corporate environment, Strengthsfinder 2.0 is a book you can buy wherever books are sold. The test code comes with the book to make sure you buy new, and I don’t know of a good free version of the test unfortunately. You get five strengths. I do recommend the book even if you pick it up used or from the library and can’t take the test because it offers concrete ideas of how to work with people with different strengths. 


For what it’s worth, I took the test several years ago and my strengths were Learning, Analytical, Responsibility, Intellection, and Deliberative. I’d be interested to see if that has changed.

Finally, apologies for any formatting weirdness. I started this on my phone, got annoyed, and waited until my new laptop was delivered (yay!)

Achiever (needs real accomplishments as motivation): Te. Maybe some Se users but I think they’re more likely to be… 


Activator (wants to act, always; learns by doing): Se.


Adaptability (thrives with interruptions, flexibility, and multitasking) : Se and Ne, definitely. 


Analytical (root cause to outcome, data and evidence focused) : Te. Yes, Ti is often seen as the analysis function, but in strengthsfinder the analytic question is “will this work in reality and can you prove it”, not perfect deduction. Instead, look for Ti as… 


Arranger (good at improvising and constantly interested in finding the most elegant solution): Ti. 


Belief (strong core values, requires meaningful work above all): Fi, though the description tends towards a description of Fi with very American business values (the ideas for developing the strength on the other hand lean back towards Fi individual values/putting yourself in someone else’s shoes)


Command (believe healthy confrontation is important, want people to follow you): Te or Se


Communication (like to verbally convey ideas, captive attention): honestly, any function, but Se and Fe are the ones that stand out in their attention to both the situation and the audience. 


Competition (like to win): Te. Some Se users, particularly STPs.

Connectedness (belief in a larger picture/force) : Ni or Ne. As described, has more Ni overtones of a global coherent singular picture.

Consistency (rules apply to everyone equally): Fe, but with strong Si overtones. I think an obsession with fairness can come from a lot of places but as described here it’s somewhat at odds with individuality, so Fe.

Context (sensing the underlying structure from the past) : Si. Maybe some Ni users who work on details.

Deliberative (planner, extensive risk analysis): either Si or Ni, particularly dominant Si or Ni.

Developer (sees potential in others, works to bring it out) : either good Fe or good Fi. Fe for seeing potential in others, Fi for the individual touch implied in doing so.

Discipline (very routine-oriented/desires and creates structure/detail oriented): Si, especially STJs.

Empathy (sense the emotions of others, understand their perspective): Fe. I noticed the description used the word ‘intuitively’ which gave me an idea for another post but putting a pin in that.

Focus (constant review of your intended destination, convergent thinking): Ni, with a more Te-feel to it as described in the book (specifically efficiency), but it is a business book so everything’s got Te vibes to some extent.

Futuristic (good at having a clear vision of what could be; described as a dreamer): either Ni or Ne - it’s explicitly described as not really interested in pragmatism but has elements of Ni (singular vision) and Ne (desires inspiration from all over). The development recommendations are primarily to work on communication and pairing with people who can make this dream a reality, which I think is good advice.

Harmony (finding areas of agreement, reasonable compromise): I mean, the literal definition of Fe.

Ideation (thinking about concepts and connections but specifically novel and unusual ones): this one seems to tilt Ne rather than Connectedness’s Ne. That said I believe my INFJ boss had this as one of his. Shadow Ne?

Includer (acceptance….inclusion, idk how to explain that any better): So, probably Fe but also Fe can actually get super cliquey if someone will rock the carefully balanced boat - ExFPs are in my experience also very interested in inclusion.

Individualization (good at zoning in on the unique qualities of each person and acknowledging/encouraging them): Both healthy feeling functions. Healthy Fi is good at this because it also values individualization and acknowledges everyone has these desires; Healthy Fe is good at this because it realizes that forcing everyone into a mold of compromise will ultimately breed disharmony and because it’s good at understanding others’ needs.

Input (like collecting information/experiences.data): seems really classically xNTP but I could see ESTPs or ENFPs feeling this way too, so I’d say either Ne or Ti, with people who have both probably being most inclined.

Intellection (you like thinking and introspection and processing): This is a kind of vague one honestly, even if it’s one of mine. The language leans heavily towards introverts and thinkers, actually, so IxTx types seem the most likely.

Learner (enjoy the journey towards competence, energized by new facts): So the language switches from Ti-style ‘I want to know it all’ and then some personal anecdotes that are much more Si/Te ‘I love doing a deep dive into something relevant to my life but well beyond what’s required’. Let’s say thinkers in general - Ti will be more interested in the journey, Te in the ultimate competence.

Maximizer (prefer to make the good things amazing; like to help others reach full potential): Fe. My INFJ boss was a maximizer; this was actually one of the most useful discussions we had when it became clear that my passion was to fix what didn’t work and his was to take things that worked pretty well to something truly special.

Positivity (open with praise, optimistic): I feel this is mostly divorced from MBTI tbh though all the personal anecdotes made me think of extroverts who are feelers (ExFx types)

Relator (focus on deepening existing relationships, prioritize authenticity/the genuine): really probably more an Sx thing than an MBTI thing; definitely some Fi feel to it though.

Responsibility (take commitments incredibly seriously, reliable, willing to volunteer if no one else will): Si.

Restorative (problem-solving): Ti, usually. The description is actually great in that it explicitly says that it doesn’t matter if the problem is pragmatic or conceptual; or if it’s something you’ve seen before or is new and exciting. Descriptions of Ti elsewhere, take note.

Self-Assurance (confidence/faith in your strengths and your perspective): This is actually a much better depiction of Fi than the more obviously named Individualization in that it’s about belief in your own self and authority over your life.

Significance (want to be recognized/stand out/be exceptional): more Enneagram 3 than any MBTI function.

Strategic (pattern-oriented, convergent, planning): Ni. Mature Si users might also have this but as described it leans a bit more conceptual.

Woo (good at winning people over, love meeting new people and networking): Fe, particularly paired with strong Se or Ne (I’d say either the ExTPs or ExFJs - this one leans very extroverted and requires more than inferior Fe or Se/Ne).

anonymous asked:

is there a blog out there for autistic people to talk about their special interests? Like just send in an ask or submit full of everything you wanna say and it gets posted and if someone else likes the thing you can both talk about it together. That'd be a cool thing.

I actually set one up recently but it has only had a few submissions. @theinfodump. I know there are others but they mostly seem to be inactive - Mod Liz

Ph. by Greg Williams.


‘Taboo’ Star Tom Hardy on Being a “Dick” and Those 'Star Wars’ Rumors

The Oscar nominee and star/EP of FX’s 19th-century period drama admits he’s earned his fierce reputation: “I’ve been a dick. But then, who hasn’t?”   

If you believe everything you read, Tom Hardy is the best actor of his generation and also the most dangerous. Descriptors like “volatile” and “mercurial” trail his name, as do tales of on-set squabbles. But as the Oscar-nominated actor, best known for his roles in Mad Max: Fury Road, The Revenant and The Dark Knight Rises, arrives at The Ritz-Carlton on a snowy Manhattan morning to promote his 19th century drama Taboo for FX and the BBC, it’s hard to reconcile that image with the man seated before me. Between puffs of his e-cigarette, a thoughtful and exceedingly self-aware Hardy, 39, who both stars in and executive produces the limited series, spoke candidly about playing “scary blokes,” learning to love the awards circuit and just about anything but those Star Wars rumors.

Profiles of you typically include references to your “dangerous” reputation …

There’s this myth, which is quite asinine, that circulates about me — usually by those who haven’t worked with me. There’s only one thing worse than being talked about and that’s not being talked about in this game so I’d rather it be that, I guess. But there are other people who I work with consistently who know that’s not the case — who just wouldn’t risk having somebody like that in their midst because there’s too much at stake. Obviously you’re going to rub people the wrong way … and I’ve been a dick. But then, who hasn’t?

Is that reputation helpful when you play dark characters as you do on Taboo?

Of course. And I play a lot of scary blokes, and there are probably a few reasons why. First, villains are much more interesting than hero leads, who are, for the most part, really boring. The thought of going into work day in and day out to play someone who is just mind-numbingly boring fills me with dread, so I don’t bother. Another part of it is when I was younger I remember being frightened a lot — of being small and skinny and vulnerable and feeling that I could have been preyed upon easily. So, everything that I play is what scared me.

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jadziastarkhooper  asked:

Hi,I've been wondering about the scene in TFP in 221B right before the granate exploded,Sherlock asks if its possible to make a phone call.He says maybe John wants to say goodbye to Rosie. Is this more likely Sherlock wanting to say goodbye to Molly?(Who would most likely be the one watching Rosie at that moment)Thank you😊

Hm, well I can honestly say that this possibility never really occurred to me till now. Interesting thought! I guess it’s certainly possibly that Molly was watching Rosie at that moment. Though, I feel like if Sherlock had known that, he might have said, “perhaps John would like to call Molly to say goodbye to Rosie.” And the other thing is that I feel like it actually makes Sherlock’s suggestion more meaningful in terms of character developement if I take my shipper goggles off. Because the way it’s portrayed on screen is a pretty selfless moment for him. He’s thinking only of his friend and his Goddaughter and not himself. Although I’d like to imagine Sherlock wanting a final farewell with Molly if he knew he was moments before death, it would still be a little bit more of a self centered wish. 

That being said, if I could write the scene in a shippy way, I’d absolutely have Sherlock suggest John say goodbye to Rosie, then John explains she’s with Molly. So Sherlock calls Molly (somehow lol) and lets John hear Rosie on the line and talk to her for a moment, and then there also ends up being a Sherlolly moment. That would be my shippy AU version lol…thanks for the ask! ;))

Interview at THR : 

‘Taboo’ Star Tom Hardy on Being a “Dick” and Those 'Star Wars’ Rumors

The Oscar nominee and star/EP of FX’s 19th-century period drama admits he’s earned his fierce reputation: “I’ve been a dick. But then, who hasn’t?”

If you believe everything you read, Tom Hardy is the best actor of his generation and also the most dangerous. Descriptors like “volatile” and “mercurial” trail his name, as do tales of on-set squabbles. But as the Oscar-nominated actor, best known for his roles in Mad Max: Fury Road, The Revenant and The Dark Knight Rises, arrives at The Ritz-Carlton on a snowy Manhattan morning to promote his 19th century drama Taboo for FX and the BBC, it’s hard to reconcile that image with the man seated before me. Between puffs of his e-cigarette, a thoughtful and exceedingly self-aware Hardy, 39, who both stars in and executive produces the limited series, spoke candidly about playing “scary blokes,” learning to love the awards circuit and just about anything but those Star Wars rumors.

Profiles of you typically include references to your “dangerous” reputation …

There’s this myth, which is quite asinine, that circulates about me — usually by those who haven’t worked with me. There’s only one thing worse than being talked about and that’s not being talked about in this game so I’d rather it be that, I guess. But there are other people who I work with consistently who know that’s not the case — who just wouldn’t risk having somebody like that in their midst because there’s too much at stake. Obviously you’re going to rub people the wrong way … and I’ve been a dick. But then, who hasn’t?

Is that reputation helpful when you play dark characters as you do on Taboo?

Of course. And I play a lot of scary blokes, and there are probably a few reasons why. First, villains are much more interesting than hero leads, who are, for the most part, really boring. The thought of going into work day in and day out to play someone who is just mind-numbingly boring fills me with dread, so I don’t bother. Another part of it is when I was younger I remember being frightened a lot — of being small and skinny and vulnerable and feeling that I could have been preyed upon easily. So, everything that I play is what scared me.

I’ve heard you say that you’re not “an ambassador” in the way a Matt Damon or your pal Leonardo DiCaprio is. What does that mean?

There’s a certain etiquette that comes with a very well-trained public persona, and I’ll probably get better as I get older but there’s a lack of filter for me in conversation.

Which can be refreshing …

It can be but at the same time it also opens one up to attack. But then you create this persona and you got to f—ing live in it, man — and it’s better to be seen as fierce than it is to be seen as something else sometimes in this job because there’s an element of danger that is required to the work.

You sat out the PR circuit during Oscar season last year when you were a supporting actor nominee for The Revenant. Are you more willing to play the game now?

Where relevant, I guess. But work is king for me, so if anyone comes and says, “Listen, we need you to flounce about in a f—ing dinner jacket,” I’m like, “No, I’ve got a job to do, and I’ll stay all night to do it.” Then we can flounce around court and posture and say how wonderful each other are. But if the work is good and you did your best, that really should be the prize. Interestingly enough though, now that I have been part of a lot of teams that I really care about, I’m really excited to celebrate their success in that world. I guess I just don’t feel like I belong.

When was the last time in this business that you felt like you didn’t belong?

The Oscars. Someone once said to me, “You’re not prepared to f— politely — metaphorically speaking — and that’s what court is.” But I’m over here when you need me. I’m one of the people on the squad who can get shit done. But I’m really happy that my wife and I have a photograph of us at the 88th [Academy Awards]. I’m in a tuxedo, and she’s in this beautiful dress and she looks gorgeous, and it’s like, “Whoa, that’s actually a piece of history,” and I would never have thought of that happening.

You didn’t think you’d be there or you didn’t think you’d enjoy it?

Both. And it was a lot to take in and lots of nerves, and I was extremely grateful to have not had my name called out. When Mark Rylance won, I was like, “Yeah.”

Had you prepared a speech?

No. I didn’t expect to win and was really grateful that I didn’t because it would be really terrifying to have to speak. I’m not ready for that. I get very scared of being exposed. … You’re not a character [on that stage]. And a lot of people have a sophisticated persona but I don’t. I haven’t paid enough attention on that front.

Taboo is your first collaboration with your father, who comes from the world of advertising. What precipitated it?

My dad writes, too. I went to him and I said, “Dad, I have this idea. I’d really like to play this character who does this.” I pitched him the world and the tone and the character, and he was like, “Thanks, son, can you get out of my office? I’m working on a book.” (Laughs.) I was like, “OK, just so you know, that’s something I would really like to do.” And I left it at that. I kicked it around a bit with some other people, and then it died a natural death. Then about eight months later, he came through with a treatment. He’d been quietly chipping away on it, and his treatment was awesome. We pitched it to Steve Knight, who I had done Locke and some Peaky [Blinders] with, and he came onboard.

This was the first time you’ve worn multiple hats on a project. What did you learn about yourself?

It was like university for me because I’d never done a short film or anything like that. I never really finished school properly or got my degree or anything. What was nice was I was allowed to observe from a position of having a relative amount of experience from working with some amazing film directors and talents in my career. But learning to move between departments was different to being employed to participate in somebody else’s infrastructure. I learned that I actually feel very comfortable as part of that infrastructure and that there are parts of me that really do enjoy the benefit of being able to look behind the curtain at what the problem could be, whether it’s financial or logistical, and help find a solution. When you’re working on somebody else’s job, you’re not allowed behind the curtain so you just get fed a lot of bullshit. Which is cool because you don’t need to know necessarily — it’s not your business — but there is a part of me that goes, “But I could help and I really want to help.”

As soon as you wrapped, you went to work on Christopher Nolan’s Dunkirk. How challenging was it to go back to wearing just one hat?

It was great but that’s because Chris is firing on all cylinders in every aspect. There’s a genuine feeling of security with him. He has his signature on absolutely everything and he is still open to best idea wins, which is a profoundly confident [place to be]. But I used to irritate other directors, I’m sure, before I had the opportunity to do Taboo because I had that drive to be a bit more than just an actor. Not just because I want more meat in a hamburger or I want to be heard; it’s that I really care about problem-solving. I can do the acting relatively easily at this point, so my energy is kind of, “Oh, how can we make it better? I want to help the team.” But the team just wants you to “shut up because the team needs to think.” (Laughs.) It’s like, “But I’m on the team! I want to help you think.” “Just f—ing shut up, OK.” So now I have that place where I can go.

Taboo is being billed as a limited series. Would you like to do more?

Yeah, there is a mythology to it so we can and I love being in production. I definitely want to continue down that road. I have no desire to be an auteur visionary director but I do love being part of the machinery and the infrastructure, as well as the writing and acting.

At this stage of your career, how are you choosing projects?

It’s always been first come, first serve, whatever is interesting, whenever I’ve got time.

Leo was the one who brought you The Revenant, yes?

Yeah, I read that [script] a bit and I was like, “It’s Davy Crockett. I ain’t feeling it.” (Laughs.)

That wasn’t an easy shoot …

Actually, it was a lot easier than Taboo. But I had no control on The Revenant whereas in Taboo I was responsible and accountable for so many different things.

Did you call up Alejandro Inarritu, Revenant’s director, after Taboo and say, “Now I get it”?

No. (Laughs.) I do get a lot of things now, but also I’m aware that there were certain things that I did get at the time — that there were things that I wasn’t privy to because of my position in the team that I could have probably helped with and instead I irritated people. But I was right to pursue going into production of my own. I have a place to go now. So yeah, I do feel sorry for producers now to a degree, but also I’ve created a monster in that now I know as well.

Final question: Rumor has it you’re going to be a Stormtrooper in the next Star Wars movie. True?

I don’t know if I can even say that. Where did you hear that?

The internet.

Ah, the internet is a glorious web of deceit and misinformation, isn’t it? (Laughs.)

So that’s misinformation?

It could be, couldn’t it?

The eight-part 19th century drama, in which Hardy stars as an adventurer, presumed to be long dead, who returns home after years away to find his recently deceased father has bequeathed him an unusual inheritance, premieres Jan. 10 on FX. It airs first on the BBC.

puk-lepuff  asked:

In addition to the stag/doe ask someone sent in, there's such thing as a bambi lesbian. They're supposed to be more interested in cuddles than sex.

Yeah, there was actually this userbox a while ago that was about being a bambi lesbian! Then I got 5000 asks because nobody knew what it meant and I had to do research because I’m old and don’t know what the Cool Kids are saying these days :’)

Anyway, I feel like this goes along with the aroace sapphic thing and I just started rambling. My bad.

anonymous asked:

out of curiosity, do you remember any fandom opinions of yours that have changed drastically in recent weeks or months? i always feel strange about stating opinions on my blog that are very different or even contradict opinions i had a few months ago...

Hmm, I have to think about it.

It’s difficult because my opinions are actually pretty slow to solidify. There’s a lot of “I tend to think” or “I couldn’t say for sure but my impression is…” in the early stages, while obviously I’m very opinionated and inflexible later on. 

There are things like … I found 99.95% of space!Spanish insufferably grating a few months ago. Then I seduced myself with thinking about how it could be interesting if it were more than an excuse for endearments that would be distilled vicarious embarrassment in English, and remember how fucked-up SW conlangs are anyway, and just sailed full steam ahead. There’s plenty of headcanon stuff that’s shifted around in general. But those are mostly not firm opinions so much as the possibilities that lie within my opinions.

I can’t really think of opinions that have changed radically, though. I actually re-read the posts in my ranting tag over the last year, and … yeah, I agree with everything I said. Sorry!

【161031 TRANS】 K-BOY Interview - Bang Yongguk

1. In your song “Good Time”, there are the lyrics “the things that do not change”. Is there anything that you think “This won’t change” or “hasn’t changed”?

Since I’ve liked music since I was young, I think that hasn’t changed. Rather than going out and making a lot of noise, I think it’s more fun to spend time in the studio working on music quietly. That hasn’t changed at all.

2. When you stay in the studio for a long period of time, doesn’t your head hurt?

There are times where I do get headaches, but instead of going out it’s more comfortable to stay in the studio. It’s been that way since junior high school so that will never change.

3. You have a fearless image, is that true?
Well…

4. For example, if there was a ghost or something like that you wouldn’t get scared, right?

Women! Women are scary!

5. Did something happen? (Enthusiastically) Would you tell us in detail?

(A little hesitant) What? No, no, there’s nothing in particular. I just thought if it was a guy wouldn’t that be something he would say (lol).

6. You’ve said on a radio show that you’ve been approached 5 times by women. You’ve confessed that the reason you refused all advances was because you don’t have time to date. There are those who think that it helps influence music to be in love. Do you think this way as well?

I don’t think one cannot say that it doesn’t influence music. However, I think that during that time the other person would feel anxious. Since I’m the kind of person who loves to work, we wouldn’t be able to be together….

7. There are a lot of women out there who would that that’s okay though.

First of all, there isn’t anyone I’ve discussed that with or anyone who has said that (lol).

8. By the way, how would you feel if you were rejected for the same reason?

Ummm, I think my heart would ache. As such, I would decline before any of us would hurt each other.

9. Have you ever felt bad for those women who have approached you?

Yes. Even if there was someone that I liked, I wouldn’t be able to approach them.

10. Eh? Even though there was a girl you liked you’ve never approached her?

Hahaha, never! You often see the patterns of on and off unrequited love(?), right?

11. If you end up falling in love, would you immediately tell the other members?

Yes.  Anyone who falls in love would probably want to tell. Their mood and face would say it all I think.

12. Really? (That’s too bad…) Speaking of which, are you scared of things like ghosts?

I don’t think I’m scared, however I am very interested in ghosts. Actually, when I work at the studio alone in the middle of the night, I often feel a shiver down my spine.

13. Ah, I’ve heard stories of ghosts materializing at places like studios. But is there not a rumor that one becomes popular when a ghost appears?

No, actually as I mentioned I still haven’t had the experience (lol). I guess I might not be that popular since I haven’t met a ghost yet. Hahahaha.

Who in B.A.P?
1.  The person who has similar tastes in music? Zelo
2. When I feel sick, the person who would nurse me back to health. Himchan
3. The person I go to when something worries me. Youngjae
4. If I could be reborn the person I would want to be reborn as? Daehyun
5. The person I think, “Perhaps this person is a distant relative?”. Jongup

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Stanley Pines and the Forced HeteroNormativity

Ah, Stan Pines. Ladies man, town darlin’, getting all the girls and his fair share of trouble. And boy, do we get an earful on how much he loves girls. Heck, it’s almost like he’s trying to shove the idea that he likes girls into everyone’s face. Just to make sure, without a doubt, that yes, we know Stan, you are into women! But man, he also loves to let us know how much he hates marriage, to the point of it being an ongoing joke. He tells us how upset he is that the girl he liked chose someone else over him. He says multiple times under his breath “Ugh, women”, as if he’s just disgusted with the lot of them. But but, please don’t forget everyone! He likes girls! He wants to get all the babes, he has drawings and fantasies and ridiculous paintings all depicting him ending up with women, but man does he love to talk about how much he also hates them.

So, which is it, Stan Pines?

Well, I’ve long suspected that Stan does like women, but he also has another preference that he feels he has to keep hidden from the public all the time; guys. Why? Because his father was a strict, unimpressed man and he grew up in New Jersey during the 60s when gays visibility was gaining traction in the state. And I mean, with such social and familial pressures, what’s a guy to do? Probably just sit around and never let their strict, unimpressed, stubborn, ‘tough as a cinderblock’, I-could-kick-you-out-over-the-smallest-thing father know that hmmm, maybe one of their sons is also bisexual. And instead feel forced to constantly say “I like girls” more often than not just to reaffirm that statement is true. He’s forcing how much he likes women, and even though I’m sure he does like girls (he had a major crush on Carla, he draws himself with the ladies, etc), it’s a pretty scary world when your pops might kick you out over something as mundane as sexual preference. Unluckily for Stan, though, he got kicked out anyway.

So, some evidence.

Keep reading

Seeing everyone’s reaction so far to their characters in my witchs’ universe has been so so incredible. I’ve actually been feeling really down about this world since last fall and was tempted to just delete everything a number of times?? It’s really made me feel so humble and ready to try and pick it back up again, so I just wanted to say thank you to everyone’s positivity.

Really, it has helped me so so much.

Calvin X Reader - Happy Accidents - Chapter 1

A/N Requested by anon. Sorry this is a day late, and kinda sucks. There were a few spots that I just couldn’t put into words without it sounding funny. I hope this is okay though. If you have any requests don’t hesitate to send them my way!

“Sorry for no game play today, guys. I just got home from running a bunch of errands and I’m too tired to play anything, so hopefully just my face will do,” you explained, smiling into the camera and watching as the chat filled with people assuring you it was alright, and hoping you got your rest.

Though you only had a small YouTube following, and an even smaller following that watched your streams, you appreciated everyone that watched your content as they all seemed to really care about you, and lately the amount of people who did just this had been growing intensely.

You had been planning this stream for a few days now, and since you announced it everyone had been excited, asking about the famous YouTuber ‘Leafyishere’ seeing as you had made a video on him recently talking about his content and joking on him periodically throughout the video. Though you had done this to many other YouTubers before, never had one responded to a video of yours, and since that’s just what Leafy had done people were excited for you to talk about the entire experience.

Reading a few of the messages in the chat, you giggled, saying hello to people who asked, and answering commonly asked questions that usually revolved around personal information you didn’t care to share.

Not 5 minutes into the chat and you got the question you knew was coming.

“How does it feel to be acknowledged by Leafyishere?” a comment read, coming from an anonymous commenter.

You thought about the question after you had read it aloud, not having seriously thought about the whole experience as you didn’t see it how others did.

Not an hour after you uploaded that video, you checked your Twitter to find you had a new dm that just so happened to be from Calvin. Though you were excited that he had even watched your video it never felt weird seeing as the two of you were just people and two people talking wasn’t weird. The two of you talked for quite a while about your video and he even asked about making a response to it which you gladly approved of tell him to give you his worst, to which you feel he did a good job of, considering his entire video was full of roasts and jokes.

“Well, I mean, I still feel the same really. He’s just a person,” you began, trying to find the best words to describe how you felt, “He dmed be a bit after my video was uploaded and after that we kinda just started talking.”

You smiled lightly feeling you had explained well, and read the chat as people said everything to, they “were jealous of you” to, they “wished Calvin would notice them a swell.”

You just shrugged and took a sip of your coffee, wiping your mouth on the back of your hand, “I mean I’d say we are friends now. Since then we’ve talked a bit so I’d like to think so even if he doesn’t feel the same.”

One comment stood out to you after this, it being must longer than the average one, “@skyfallffy178: What’s it like being friends with Leafy? Do you two flirt? Are you interested in him? Are you dating? Dude what if you guys were dating and we had no idea.”

You laughed aloud as you read, finding it hilarious that someone would even think this. Though the idea did appeal to you, you could tell that something such as a romantic relationship would be unlikely with Calvin.

“To the person saying Calvin and I could be dating, I’m going to shut that down right now. We aren’t and probably never will, but hey? He seems like a pretty cool dude and being just a friend is fine with me,” you chatted, looking from the chat to your camera, smiling widely.

Again the chat began to roar after hearing your response and you felt a bit bad that you couldn’t read every message, though you did pick out a few that caught your eye and read them aloud, trying your best to appeal to everyone watching.

“'Were you surprised by the sudden gain in subscribers?’,” you read off, having thought about this question for the last few days now, “I was surprised actually, yeah! I honestly didn’t expect any of this really. For those watching who don’t know, I’ve gained quite a few subs after Calvin did that response video, and I can’t say I’m mad about it. I love making videos for you guys and there being more doesn’t change anything. It just makes me more motivated to do videos everyday.”

You smiled cheerily into the camera, reading a few more messages

“'Would you date Calvin if he was into you?’" 

When reading this message you couldn’t help but have to stop for a few moments becoming stumped, having not thought of the possibility that he would ever be interested in you, “I don’t think that would ever happen, honestly. But I mean I guess if he asked I would say yes? I mean he’s kinda cute, and really nice. Honestly I probably would, he just seems so-”

You broke off and held your breathe, realizing the tangent you were going down and stopped instantly, registering what you had just done.

“I-I don’t know actually. Probably not. He probably wouldn’t ever like me anyways, so why think about that kind of thing? God you guys are asking some personal questions,” you stammered, feeling yourself becoming hot in embarrassment and anxiety.

You had fucked up and you knew you were going to pay for it. Not only had you been responding to questions about you and Calvin’s theoretical relationship but you answered them in such a way that people could take further than it needed to. Yes, you did like Calvin and if he ever did ask you out, you’d say yes, but no one, not even the internet, needed to know that.

The rest of the stream people in the chat kept bringing up what you had said about Clavin, and trying your best to avoid that topic from that point on, it was becoming hard to find questions about anything else, so you decided it was time to wrap things up and pray your friendship with the YouTube famous boy would last through the end of the night.

“Um hey guys, it’s getting kinda late and I know the stream has only been going on for about an hour but I really need to get some house cleaning done, and edit a video. I hope all you lovelies have a great day, and I really had a good time,” you spewed lying, through your teeth, feeling guilty you had to lie to your viewers in the first place, “Uh, bye!”

You quickly pressed ‘End Stream’ before leaning back in your computer chair and pressing your hands to your face in humiliation. How could you have been so dumb as you say those things about Calvin in a live stream. If anything the boy would probably be more inclined to stop talking to you over your stupidity rather than what you actually said.

Feeling all the stress getting to your head, you logged off of your computer and made your way to the bathroom, in your single bedroom apartment, and began to run the water in the tub, in desperate need for a well deserved bath.

Whilst soaking in bubbles, and lavender oil, thinking about what had happened on the stream today you soon calmed yourself down, chalking it all up to be an over exaggeration on your part. Calvin wasn’t going to know you said anything on the sort about him, and even if he did, he probably wouldn’t take it the way you thought he might. Though this thought didn’t completely settle your nerves, it did help.

Just as you were beginning to get out of the tub and dry off, you looked to the bathroom counter, were your phone sat, and watched as the screen lit up with a notification. Feeling it could wait, you made your way out of the bathroom and to your room, quickly throwing on a pair of pajamas and running a brush through your wash hair.

Once you finally had the chance to look at your phone, you almost regretted picking it up in the first place. On your screen read, “Direct Message from: @Leafyishere.”

You began to panic all over again and mentally punched yourself in the face, hating yourself for ever letting those damned words leave your mouth.

Wearily, you unlocked your phone, and clicked on the Twitter icon, fearing the worst. As you tapped on your phone screen you could feel your muscles tighten, and your stomach drop.

“Hey, [Y/N]. Do you have a minute?” read the message.

You thought about your response, trying to talk yourself into believing what he had to say had nothing to do with your stream, “Yeah, sure. What’s up?”

“How was your stream earlier?”

You curled your toes in a panic but still kept calm, hoping it would blow over, but having a gut feeling, he was onto something, and he wasn’t going to drop it.

“It was fine. Nothing super interesting,” you answered blandly, desperately trying to lose his interest.

All you wanted in this moment was to go back to past you and smack her in the face, preventing the cause of all this stress from occurring.

“I got a few messages from some friends, saying you said some stuff about me. I was just wondering if you really said that shit.” Calvin asked, seeming to be calm, while you were having an all-out civil war in your head.

“I don’t know what you’re talking about, honestly. I said a lot of stuff during the stream, and I cant decide what you mean specifically,” you babbled knowing damn-well what he meant, though you’d never admit it.

After this message, Calvin took over two minutes to reply, and you had never felt like disappearing more in your life.

“Someone said you liked me. Is that true?”

Your worst fear came true, and you couldn’t help but vocally scream as you read, now knowing Calvin had heard what you said.

Almost shaking now, worried for the worst you began to type, “Um. No? I didn’t say that at all.”

“Oh. Uh, okay then. I was actually gonna see if when the next convention comes around, if both of us were going, if you’d wanna do something. Like dinner, or some coffee, but that’s cool.”

You blushed as you read, instantly sighing after once done, not realizing you had stopped breathing completely. Calvin wanted to have dinner with you?

“Wait, you’d like to have dinner sometime?” you typed out, desperate for conformation.

“I mean, yeah. You’re cute and funny, and I thought you kinda felt the same but if not that’s cool.”

Once you received this message you typed faster than you ever had before, not wanting Calvin to have the wrong idea for another second.

“No, no. I do feel the same. I just didn’t really think you’d me into me like that. haha.”

You felt like God himself had come down and given you a miracle. Not only did Calvin feel the same way as you, but he actually wanted to act on those feelings.

You couldn’t keep the intense grin off your face as you waited for a reply, holding in a squeal of excitement.

“I don’t know why you’d think that. I’m super into you honestly. How about next time we are both free and close, we meet up?”

You responded with a yes, smiling so wide, you felt your face might get stuck that way, not that you were complaining.

“Haha great,” Calvin typed back, quicker than expected, ‘I got a video to record so I’m gonna go but I can’t wait to see you. Bye [Y/N]“

You were read as a tomato reading Clavin’s message and couldn’t hold in your excitement, instantly texting a close friend, but keeping it inconspicuous, as not to start any drama or rumors.

Once done texting your friend, you laid on your bed, holding your phone to your chest, thanking old you for being so dumb as to share your feelings over a life stream. Though it may have caused you anxiety in the beginning everything was turning out to be okay, and way better than ever expected.

so yesterday was objectively a good day, praise-for-things-I-do wise

I found the reddit thread of someone I didn’t know saying people should read FOMC, and others saying it was well made and interesting

then I played in my weekly rifts game and did so well the GM texted me afterwards to say I had done an amazing job roleplaying and he really liked it

so guess what emotion I can’t actually feel about any of that, and guess how long it took to start involuntarily vocalizing suicidal thoughts again

dahhlek-is-dead-deactivated2015  asked:

i can't believe that tywin and joanna are cousins...

While brother/sister incest & parent/child incest (and Rhaenyra Targaryen marrying her uncle, Daemon) are considered an abomination in Westeros

(according to the Faith, “the gods hate incest. Look how they brought down the Targaryens.” Brother/sister incest was only tolerated among the Targaryens because, as GRRM says, If you have some huge fire-breathing dragons, you can get people to accept a lot of things that they might otherwise have problems with.” After the dragons died out, “the extent to which the Targaryen kings could defy convention […] decreased markedly“)

there are actually a lot of marriages between first cousins in Westeros!

Some examples of first cousin marriage in Westeros:

  • Tywin & Joanna Lannister
  • Rickard & Lyarra Stark
  • Jon & Rowena Arryn
  • Shella & Walter Whent of Harrenhal
  • Paxter Redwyne & Mina Tyrell
  • Viserys I Targaryen & Aemma Arryn
  • Aegon III & Jaehaerya Targaryen
  • Alyn Velaryon & Baela Targaryen
  • Aerys I Targaryen & Aelinor Penrose
  • Benfrey & Jyanna Frey
  • Alys & Jared Frey

Some proposed marriages between cousins in Westeros:

  • Lysa proposed a marriage between Sansa Stark & Robert Arryn
  • Wyman Manderly wanted to wed his cousin, Donella Hornwood
  • Cregan & Alys Karstark

Some affairs between cousins in Westeros:

  • Aegon IV & Daena the Defiant had a child together
  • Alyn Velaryon & Elaena Targaryen had two children together
  • Cersei & Lancel Lannister

So first-cousin marriage in Westeros is not that rare, actually. Quoting from this post

First, about the tradition of cousin marriage in general. In many societies it was (and is) considered better for many reasons to marry your cousin than to marry outside of the family. Some figures estimate that around 80% of all marriages historically were between 1st cousins. 20% of all marriages worldwide today are between 1st cousins. Those of us in the US have a cultural squick about such things, but even in the US 26 states allow marriage between 1st cousins. In fact, the US is the only western nation to have laws restricting such marriages. […]

As to the science, you share 12.5% of your DNA with a 1st cousin. You share 25% with an aunt or uncle, and I mention this for the Dany/Jon shippers, who have sometimes told me this is much less incestuous of a pairing. The chances of a non-related couple having a child with birth defects is 2 to 3%, and only slightly higher for 1st cousins (4 to 6%). More risky things have happened in Westeros.

There are lots of (relatively recent) historical examples of first-cousin marriage in our own world too. I mean, when viewed in a modern setting, I personally feel uncomfortable with first-cousin incest, but in a fictional, quasi-medieval fantasy setting such as Westeros, I’m gonna break out the phrase I usually frown upon and say, “things were just like that back then.” First-cousin incest is generally an accepted practice in Westeros, and GRRM even suggests the practice may have had political benefits

(The GOT wiki actually has some interesting things to say about incest in Westeros. Strangely, the ASOIAF wiki has no entry for incest, I had to come up with all those examples on my own, so I might have missed some.)

5

… Why do I feel like Loki was flirting here? I mean, was he asking cause one of the qualifications to date him is being royalty or something like that?!

Probably

I love virgin Luke so I decided to do Y/N and Luke’s first time, but it’s slightly different anyway, I hope you like it :) idk sorry it probably sucks lol bye

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I had been sat sulking in my room all day, even resulting to convincing my mum I was sick today so I wouldn’t have to go in. I couldn’t face people, especially not after yesterday’s events. I guess it was my fault, I was stupid enough to trust someone like him. He told me he wouldn’t tell anyone, but here I was now hiding away from a bunch of abusive teens now that they knew my secret. I never got embarrassed easily, I never allowed myself to feel so trapped, but something like this was not easy to just ignore.

A couple of nights ago at this party, which I didn’t even want to attend, I found myself talking to the school’s popular and biggest asshole; Luke Hemmings. At first I thought he was going to try and get into my pants, but as the night went on - we got talking. It resulted in me spilling a few secrets to him, he was damn convincing.

The look in his eyes were soft and comforting and the way his face looked so peaceful, it was completely easy to fall under his spell. Soothingly, he had told me my secret was safe with him, but clearly it wasn’t. Now the whole school knows I’m still a virgin and I’m possibly the biggest loser out there right now.

I had been receiving glances all day at school yesterday and sly comments whispered to other individuals as I would walk by, making me feel completely paranoid. At first I thought nothing of it, it wasn’t until I had walked passed Luke and his clique of douchebags, when they began to shout stuff at me. They were vulgar boys and in all honesty, I hated myself more than Luke for telling him in the first place.
I can’t believe I actually thought perhaps he thought of me differently to the other girls. He definitely could have fooled anyone with the blissful way he looked to me so sweetly.

It was now six in the evening and my parents still weren’t home from work. It was usual to be honest, they didn’t really care about me anyway. Both of them were too caught up in their fancy lawyer jobs to be concerned about my well being. Perhaps that was the reason I turned to Luke for comfort in the first place.

The sound of my doorbell interrupted my train of thoughts, I guess that my parents were probably home early. I jump off of the sofa, brushing down my sweat pants as I make my way to the door, swinging it open to reveal a lanky blond boy stood in the rain.

I shake my head and dryly chuckle, “So now your funny jokes have been brought to my front door?” I scoff, “Thanks, but I’m not interested.”

I attempt to slam the door shut in his face, hoping it would hit him as I did so, but Luke caught it with his black VANS shoe and due to my lack of working out, managed to push the door open.

“Can I come in?” Luke quietly asks and I give him a glare, wondering if he’s being serious right now.

“No,” I say, trying to shut the door again but his hand reaches out and stops me.

“Please,” Luke looks me in the eye and then back to the ground, almost as if he wanted me to feel sorry for him. I groan and reluctantly allow him to step inside, feeling quite interested in where this dumbass speech will go.
I took a moment before responding and let him into the empty house. We walked into my living room and sat on the sofa opposite each other in silence. I wasn’t sure what he was doing at my house or how he even found out where I lived but I didn’t ask, maybe one of his stupid friends sent him here to mess with me a little more. The thought of that made me regret letting him in, but I wasn’t planning on talking until he did.

“You weren’t in school today,” Luke pointed out the obvious. I roll my eyes in response, not even feeling the need to allow words to answer that. I did not quite understand why he felt the need to come here in the first place, he made it very clear yesterday where we stand.

“Look, I’m sorry,” Luke began and I suddenly wanted to find out where this was going and also wanted to find out how he’d lie his way out of how it wasn’t his fault, “I didn’t mean for you to get this upset, I just told Ashton. How was I supposed to know he would go and tell the whole school?”

“Oh I don’t know,” I fake laugh, “Maybe because it’s fucking Ashton.” I leaned forward in my seat and grit my teeth whilst talking.

Another silence fell upon us as we just said opposite each other, but not looking up, focusing on the ground. Maybe I was dumb for telling him in the first place though, I couldn’t help that he seemed so sweet.

“Right well, if that’s all then Luke, you should go-”

“No actually, there was one other thing,” Luke quickly interrupted me, I just wanted him gone so I could get back to feeling like shit and him being here only made me feel worse anyway.

“I’m not interested,” I groan, throwing my head back.

“Can I tell you something?” Luke looks up at me and I look to him, finally making eye contact after what seemed like such a long time he had been sat here.

I shrug in response, not really understand what he wanted to say.
“You’re a virgin-”

“Oh my fucking god,” I erupt, standing up from the sofa and staring at Luke in shock as I darkly chuckle, “You don’t need to remind me, I think I know from the amount of facebook messages I’m fucking getting, you prick.”

I look to Luke, but he just sits there seemingly turning a deep shade of red. He almost tries to speak something, but he can’t bare to. I roll my eyes impatiently at him, really wishing this would be over.

“Well, I’ve never erm…you know,” Luke gulps, running his hand through his damp quiff.

I gulped as I stared at his red face, as his face was full of embarrassment. I couldn’t believe if I’d even heard him right, one of the most popular guys in school was still a virgin and he had just admitted that to me. Luke definitely would not have been on my list of virgins in school, the amount of girls he has chasing him and cheerleaders screaming for him when he plays a football match.
“Ha,” I scoff, “I find that hard to believe.”

“Believe what you want, but it’s true,” Luke snaps back, slouching in his chair.

“Why would you even tell me this?” I ask.

Luke shrugs, standing from his seat and walking over to where I’m stood, “I just feel bad for what I did, you know?”

I avoid his gaze and look to the ceiling now that Luke was stood an uncomfortable distance from me. He looked amazing, like always. He was the only guy who could pull of a lip ring and the whole all dressed in black look, but still look adorable.

“Can I make a suggestion?” Luke offers and I nod, “Well, we’re both virgins, so why don’t we just change that?”

I almost choke on purely nothing when he suggests such a thing. I look to his face and notice he’s dead serious, which scares me. I’m about to object when I wonder if I really wanted to turn him down. He was right, I definitely wanted to change the whole virgin thing, maybe this was a good idea.

“You mean, like, now?” I gulp. Luke nods, biting on his lip and licking over his lip ring as he presses himself against me. I decide no words are going to come out, so make the gesture of crashing my lips to his. He tasted like cigarettes and honey mixed together and it felt great. I hadn’t kissed many guys, but the ones I had kissed, definitely did not live up to Luke’s mouth.

I could feel the cold metal of his lip ring grazing against my lips as he slips his tongue slowly into my mouth. It was a new found feeling and it was exactly how I expected kissing Luke Hemmings would go.

Luke’s fingers fiddle their way into my hair, bringing me closer towards him. It felt weird making out in the middle of my lounge, so I begin to guide Luke upstairs to my room without breaking from the kiss.

We tumbled into my room almost like we were drunk and Luke slowly threw me onto the bed and climbed on top of me. It soon turned into a heated make out session and for a while I think both of us didn’t want to go passed this stage because it was awkward and embarrassing and neither of us knew what to do.

Luke had definitely made out with a load of girls though, I could tell just from how amazing his kiss felt, sending a rush through my body. Luke’s hands found their way to my tank top, slipping underneath and roaming around my sides, whilst continuing to massage our tongues together. His touch felt amazing, but I wanted more. I moaned into the kiss to hint to Luke to go further, he responded by pulling away from the kiss and lifting my top over my head, tossing it in the corner of my room. It all felt weird, but exciting and I couldn’t believe I was actually doing this. I helped Luke shrug his leather jacket off and depserately tug off his black t shirt. I couldn’t help but stare at his toned body, I guess football training really did pay off for him. Luke looked and me and smiled before travelling down my sweat pants, slowly peeling them off of my legs. Luke looked to me for assurance again.

“It’s okay,” I slowly tell him.

“It’s just, I only know what I’m doing from the stuff I’ve seen online,” Luke blushes and it was odd seeing him shy when he was such a smooth character at school.

“Please don’t make my first time into a porn movie,” I nervously chuckle.

“Oh shit, we should make one of those one time,” Luke groans and it’s then that I notice the evident bulge in his pants, feeling for him in those tight jeans.

“I think we should actually get this over with first,” I shake my head and laugh.

Luke nods quickly, leaning down and pressing light feathered kisses on my stomach, making me giggle from how ticklish I am.

“That’s adorable,” Luke smirks, kissing me in the same spot above my belly button to make me squirm again.

Luke stops and begins to unbuckle his pants and I sit up instantly to help him, feeling a new burst of excitement and nervousness. He wriggles out of his jeans and my glare is held to the outline of his hard on inside of his calvin klein underwear. I surprise myself as I reach for the waistband of his boxers, slowly pulling them down. I look to Luke, who’s biting on his lip hard enough to make it bleed and he gives me a question look. I just smile at him, pushing him back on the bed as I pull of his underwear.

I watched as his dick slapped against his stomach and I had no idea what I was supposed to do. Luke let out a chuckle, or perhaps a groan, as he watched me. He slowly places his hand over mine and guided me to his hard on, showing me what to do. I wrapped my small hands around his large dick, getting used to the new texture.

“I apologise in advance if this goes wrong,” I tell him as he takes his hand away after helping me pump him a few times.
“It’s okay Y/N,” Luke struggles out a laugh, his breath hitching, “It’s a blowjob, there’s no good or bad way, it always feels great.”

I realise Luke has probably gone this far before from the way he speaks, but perhaps I could be wrong but I decide asking would kill the moment. I slowly wrap my lips around his cock, swirling my tongue around the tip like I had seen in videos online. I hear Luke muffle curses from his lips, which causes my center to ache.

I use my hand to pump the rest which I could not fit in my mouth as I bob my head up and down. I feel better when I hear Luke moaning, his fingers wrapping in my hair as he pulls me closer. I pull back, backing a pop sound with my lips, before wrapping my mouth back around him. Luke seems to enjoy that as he curses and twitches in my mouth, releasing his cum. It shocks me at first, not giving me a chance to decide whether to swollow it and I end up with his cum over my chin.

I look to Luke and we both chuckle as I wipe my chin. Luke sits back up and quickly unclasps my bra, placing kisses to my breasts and it felt odd but amazing. Luke lays me down and hooks his fingers into the waistline of my panties, pulling them down my legs. I kick them off and toss them over to where the pile of clothes is laying on the floor.

“Shit, I don’t know what to do,” Luke bites on his lip as he looks to me with concern. I chuckle at his same reaction to mine, so I copy his actions and guide his index finger to my clit and press down on it.

“Fuck, this is even better than it looks on porn,” Luke gasps, rubbing his finger in a circular motion around my clit. I wiggle from the contact, his touch feeling far better than my own. Luke slips a finger into me, making me moan out. I had never done this to myself, so it felt strange when Luke done it, but after a couple of pumps, it felt amazing. Luke pulls his finger out, beginning to make his way to my thighs with his lips, but I quickly pull him back up.

“No,” I say, “As if I’m going to let you eat me out with that lip ring.”

“What?” Luke chuckles, “You won’t even feel it,”

“Hell. No.” I repeat.

“Well fine, are you ready to do this?” Luke asks me. Suddenly I feel nervous by the thought of it, after hearing my friend’s stories about the pain - I wasn’t sure if Luke would be too rough. I had heard stories and experiences about awful first times and I didn’t wan this to be the case.

“Promise to be gentle?” I seriously ask to Luke and he looks almost offended as he furrows his eyebrows, leaning forward and pressing a quick kiss to my lips.

“I promise,” He says, hopping off of the bed and going through his jean pockets searching for something. He returns on the bed with a condom, fixing it onto himself.

“Did you know this was going to happen or something?” I raise an eyebrow as I glare to Luke, who turns red.

“No,” Luke smiles, “I just like to keep it in there for the right time, which is right now.”

Before he does it, he looks to me. “Y/N, are you sure you want to?” Luke asks me with concern, “I just- I don’t want this to hurt you a lot,”

“It’s fine, just do it,” I cover my fear as Luke, unsure, nods and lines his tip up with me. I bite on my lip as I wait for him to enter me. 

Luke lines himself up at my entrance and begins to slowly move in. At first it’s an uncomfortable feeling, but I manage to hold in my gasps. I bite on the inside of my lip as I try to focus on something in the room, so instead I choose to concentrate on Luke’s soft face as he watches every move he makes and I wonder what he’s thinking about.

As Luke got deeper I found myself holding my breath and squinting my eyes shut from the pain. Luke looks to me concerned and goes to pull away, although i stop him and tell him it’s fine. Hesitantly he continues, despite his nerves of not wanting to hurt me.

The feeling doesn’t go away, but it’s bearable and Luke notices my face relax and I feel less stiff from the actions. He looks to me for permission and I nod as he pulls out and thrusts back in. I was enjoying it to a point, but really did want it to just be over and done with.
Luke began to pick up the speed of his thrusts and with each, it became more bearable. I was definitely not going to come, but I knew from the look on Luke’s face he was trying so hard to hold it in.

“Fuck,” Luke moans, “This is fucking great.”

“It’s definitely something new,” I agree.

Finally Luke releases into me and it feels great. He slowly pulls out and flops beside me on the bed, both of us catching out breath and panting. I pull the sheets back and we both crawl under them, hugging the sheet to our chests. There was an awkward distance between us as neither of us had any idea what to say.

Finally Luke speaks, “Will your parents me home soon?”

“Probably,” I say.

“Shall I leave?” Luke asks, turning to face me and I do the same.

“I don’t know,” I smile, “Probably.”

“Are we going to do this again?”

I chuckle, rolling over and laying my head on his chest, “Probably.”

@drake-under-fire

Rinnah couldn’t help but to look down in guilt. After all, this kind, handsome Alpha seemed to like her so very much, and she’d basically told him that he wasn’t allowed to make her his. She shifted on the bench seat, shoulders hunched to make herself look smaller, more defensive. The question he posed, then, was not so unwarranted, but it made her objections even more awkard.

“N-no…Never even really talked to an unmated Alpha, before, much less go out with one. No one hurt me, or anything. No forcing, either.” She glanced up at him from the corner of her eye. “I’m just really scared of unbonded Alphas. My Dad said that he was gonna properly inspect any Alpha that was interested in me, but he’s gone.” Rinnah had told him everything about her family, and what had happened. An Alpha father, Beta mother, and an Beta twin. “I don’t know what to do…and I’m just scared. People tell all sorts of horrible stories about what happens during and after bondings. A-and I know you like me, but people say lots of Alphas pretend.”

Rinnah squeezed her eyes shut, feeling horrible about the admission of her fears. Such rude things to say around an Alpha who was so nice, and actually talked about bonding with her. “I’m not saying you’re one of them, but…” The girl trailed off, and shut up quickly before she said anything else that might upset him.