i feel like a butterfly

anonymous asked:

Hello I hope you can help me . Lately I been really thinking about my sexuality like I like girls I always had since I was little . But I still find some boys attractive tho I have kissed a boy but haven't felt anything when I did . I still haven't kissed a girl yet but I feel like i would like it . Like i get butterflies around my girl crush at school and I don't get butterflies around guys . I just feel really confused

You could be a lesbian. Just because you know you like girls doesn’t mean you’re blind and can’t admit when a guy is attractive. You could also be bisexual. But if you want my opinion, don’t worry about it. Just be yourself.

Monday 8:27am
I woke up with you on my mind.
You called me babe last night —
my heart is still pounding.

Tuesday 10:53pm
Today I realized we won’t work.
What we are is hurting her.
And I think she matters more to me than you do.

Wednesday 11:52pm
I broke things off with you today.
She barely said a word.
I’ve never regretted anything more than this.

Thursday 4:03pm
I shouldn’t have sent that message.
You shouldn’t have been so okay with receiving it.

Friday 9:57pm
I almost messaged you today.
I didn’t.

Saturday 8:49pm
I’m walking around town in search of alcohol.
They say that liquor numbs the pain of having a broken heart.
I want to put that to the test.

Sunday 2:32am
I heard you texted a girl you’ve never spoken to before.
I wonder if it’s because you’re trying to replace me.
I can’t help but wish you weren’t.
I thought I was irreplaceable.

—  a week with you on my mind, c.j.n.
Move on, leave, run away, escape this place… but don’t forget about me, about us, about this town. Always remember where you come from so you can appreciate how far you’ve come.
—  c.j.n.