i feel ill

You know what breaks my heart? Kids who were always told that they were too smart and used to be overachievers but now they have depression and anxiety and other mental illnesses and can’t recover because the bar was always too high for them and they just sit and suffer silently watching everyone else get on with life while trying to be what they used to and trying not to commit suicide but they can’t talk about it because “You’re smart you’re gonna figure it out yourself ” .
Nothing is more disappointing than knowing that no one will help you as you sink deeper and deeper into darkness and believing that all your high hopes and dreams will remain dreams forever.
I feel you kids. You are not alone .

I wish I wasn’t born.

Cause now the people I love have to deal with me and I’m ruining their lives and I can not even kill myself to make up for it because they’re such wonderful persons they somehow still love me.

I wish I wasn’t born.

—  Not poetic // but real.
Anxiety

It’s like I feel fine, I’ve had a good day then I start to over analyse every single thing. Every conversation I’ve had. Everything I’ve said/done. Do people not like me because of stupid stuff. It’s uncontrollable I feel like everyone hates me.

Lars of the Stars

my paranoia, being vague as fuck: something bad is going to happen

me: what?

paranoia: something…..

me: *is suddenly hyperaware of everything & everyone and prepares myself for death or danger at any moment*

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mchanzo week day 4 - red/blue

i love the contrasting colour schemes of these two, i think thats one of the reasons i love them as a couple so much
doing big coloured/lined pieces is so difficult in a single day! but im loving the challenge

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