i feel guilty

I'm taking a break...

Yep, I’m taking a break from Tumblr for who knows how long. My parents don’t know I have this blog and the guilt is kinda starting to get to me (it may not seem like a big deal to most people but it is to me) and I’m afraid I’m starting to get careless with it and I’m way too dependent on it so I’m gonna end up getting caught.

I really don’t want to delete my blog, it’s done so much for me and I’ve met so many amazing people and it’s helped me through rough times with my anxiety lately, so I don’t want to completely get rid of that. So, I decided to delete the app off my phone for a few days and try to transition back to Instagram (my queue is long enough to last me a while), until I decide what to do about this, I may be back after a few days and I may come back just to delete it, I really don’t know

To my amazing internet friends ( @sweetpotatoirish1-7 , @islysmiley , @imsherlockedtotv5xq , @ale-le-me , @mediocre-anime-fangirl) I love you guys so much and this is just in case I decide to delete (it may be for nothing because I may end up deciding in a few days), thank you for being such great friends, you really are the best ❤️

I’ll probably delete the app off my phone tonight or early tomorrow, so if you want to talk to me before I go you can send in an ask and I’ll make sure to answer it before then :)

This goodbye post may end up being for nothing because I may decide in a few days to come back, but I really don’t know at the moment so just in case, thank you all for following me, this blog and this fandom have done so many good things for me, I just need time to distance myself from this site and decide what to do from here, but I love all of you so much ❤️

-Jess

It makes me really upset when people don’t leave comments on a fanfic. I read fanfics with over 40 kudos and 300 reads but there are zero comments. ????? It isn’t that hard to write out “This was so cute!” or “I loved this!”

I used write way back when and I remember just siting there, staring at my phone and waiting for someone to tell me what they thought about it. Shit, even constructive criticism was enough for me, because it meant that someone actually gave a shit.

The simple things can go a long way.

tbh its kinda depressing that the cs and sq fandom are so divided that I just…. listened to what sqers are saying and respected their feelings and its turns into this Big Thing

like its just depressing that me doing the bare minimum is a rarity. its sad that the fandom is so divided. a cser respecting a sqer shouldn’t be the exception, it should be the standard and its really tragic that’s not the case.

dan is a good and lovely person pass it on

I feel disgusting for being abused as a child. my self-esteem is horrible and I feel guilty all the time. I feel like nobody cares about what happened to me
—  Posted by Anonymous.

I really wanna get back into drawing;;;;;;
looooooonnnggggg sighhh ((lies down
MUST DRAWW RAWRR 

anyway, thanks to you guys who still message me and tag me and ahh it just makes me really happy and it gives me loads of energy to continue <3
I will try to get back to you guys soon and answer my asks((

I MISS YOU ALL;;;;;