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anonymous asked:

The creamiest of creams

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Cream: favorite blog

Okay, so this is hard I do have two of my favorite blogs which are: @tinysongbird and @stillstreet aka Ashley and Josh Dun. 

I cannot chose one favorite blog from all of the amazing one’s I have so I am going to try to list as many as I can remember here and just encourage you to follow all of them and everyone else cause everyone is awesome!

Blogs to follow (aka everyone, but I will not remember everyone): @joshuadududuuunnn, @michaelsdumbtattoo, @spookyjimandtyler, @vulcanvampire, @21dashes, @joshdunverified, @llaneboi, @beanboyjoseph, @exhaledun, @areweintheclearyet-86, @jennathecliquemom, @twentyonecornflakesatthedisco, @earthtoalexaa, @iamhalseymusic, @kokiri-kelly, @blinded-by-fairy-lights, @use-ur-glutes, @therealjacksepticeye, @debbyryan, @dunchild, @quietisviolentxx, @plsjoshuawilliam, @neverdunwithtwentyone, @shilost, @sadlawyer, @holding-onto-slowtown, @vesselblurryface, @halseysedit, @clearlytyler, @im-not-phun-frens, @elizabethmorganmace, @meganmckinleymace, @fairlylocal4566, @vicesandvirtue, @vesperteeen, @punkrocks, @relatableclifford, @polaroidcal, @polarizedsoul, @joshdunclub, @tylerjoxeph, @tyjoandjersh, @galaxydun, @grav3yardgirl, @spookyjimandtyler, @spookyjimrippedmas, @blurryjishua, @lis-alis, @okayfriendplease, @embersintheash, @yourshakingshoulders, @twentyonequasars@twentydun-pilots, @n0phun-intended, @serenedun, @jennaaajoseph, @jennaaajosephh, @joshdunsquintylileyes, @joshssmile, @tumbledbylife, @duncare, @welcometoyewnork, @weareaddictswithapen, @whats-a-michaelclifford, and @didyoubringyourdog

Gah! As I said before this is not even close to all my amazing mutuals, so check them out and just go follow anyone! :) let us all be friends!

Thanks for asking!

Originally posted by joshler

twentyone-tysh-pilots  asked:

First off I love your blog! I'm looking for a joshler fic where Tyler was abused by his mom and locked in the basement. Once she is arrested and he goes through therapy he moves back to Columbus to go to college where he stays with Josh's family. I don't remember much else other than josh and Tyler shared a room and Tyler had a ton of triggers and really bad PTSD.

I’m pretty sure this is it - Christie

How was your summer? by TyjoBeans (5/? | 6,299 | Teen)

Everybody knows who Tyler Joseph is. He’s the guy who had been all over the news a year back because his mother had been fucked up enough to keep him locked up in the basement.

//past abuse

How I gained 40lbs in 2 months.

I’m about to get very personal with all of you and I believe it will truly help me find peace with my past. A lot of you have been following me since Day 1, so a little over 2 years now. You may or may not know my story and how dark and scary my life had become. I talk about my binge eating and just how bad it got but words are not as powerful as imagery. I want you to see my 2 month / 40lb weight gain in the darkest time in my life. Be kind, this isn’t easy to do. I’m doing this for the girls who are sitting behind their screens feeling alone because they don’t think anyone could possibly understand what they are going through. I’m doing this for all my followers who don’t believe recovery is possible. I’m doing this for anyone who struggles with depression, loneliness, anxiety, BED, EDNOS, and everything in between. 

It all starts with this scale pic. 

November 11th 2013

I weigh in at 179.8lbs and my last week training with my trainer. I remember it was starting to get really cold and I couldn’t keep with my schedule anymore. I would leave my house at 6am to be in the city by 9:30am, leave work at 7pm and not get home till 10ish. I would go home, change and head to the gym but I was exhausted and started to binge from hating my life so much. 

November 15th, 2013. A selfie I took in the Gap fitting room on my lunch break. This is what my body looked like. I was running at night through my sketchy neighborhood after work to run off what I binged on the train. I would carry a flashlight in my right and mace in my left and would pray that no one would hurt me. I was obsessed. 

This below pic is from what my friends and I call “sushi night” aka when I lost my shit and started partying too much. November 17th, so it’s safe to say I was in the low 180’s based on the scale pic. I drank so much that night I threw up sushi all over my best friend’s bed. I share this gross fact only to share just how much I was spiraling out of control and FAST. 

This is Dec 15th at our friend Joe’s house. I remember going to 7/11 with everyone and getting ice-cream and oreo’s after the train and feeling really sad and depressed that night. I remember crying hysterically in my room because I had to borrow that shirt from my sister Rebecca because I was so bloated from binging and nothing fit. I look like I’m in the low 190’s here. I was drinking and eating my sadness away.  At this point I stopped blogging which made me feel even more alone. 

Dec 28th. 

My friends came over and we all exchanged gifts at my house and made brownies.  I’m easily 210’s from how my face looks. How CRAZY is the change in my face in a matter of a month?  I just came back from Vermont and I remember binging SO HARD while I was stuck in the mountains with my family.  I literally gained like 15lbs in a matter of 2 weeks. I’m smiling but I was dead inside. 

AND THEN.
DUN DUN DUNNNNNNNN… the worst night of my life. New Years 2014. It was Jan 1st and I talk about that night a lot on my blog.  It was the night that the guy got stabbed front in front of us in Times Square and I was so blacked out we almost didn’t make it home.  I remember being 220’s or maybe even 230’s. at this point and  I couldn’t fit into anything in my closet. That morning I had to run out to the store and buy a XXL because my stomach was so big. 

Life hasn’t been the same since November 2013 and it took me 1 year and 3 months (up until now) to slowly make my way down again. It took me 15 months to overcome the depression and binge eating that destroyed me in only 2.  I’m closer to recovery today and truly happy again. As you can see in these pics I gained 40lbs in 2 months from my food addiction and BED. Binging isn’t a joke and when I wear people refer to overweight people as “lazy” or “unmotivated” I want to punch them in the face. There is so much sickness that could be going on internally that you know nothing about. Aside from the two friends you see in the above pics, no one knew how sad I truly was. I smiled like everything was fine but what no one knew was that I was eating so much I would lay in bed and cry myself to sleep because my stomach hurt so much. 

Seeing these pictures and looking at how close the dates are to each other gives me chills because I forgot just how bad it got so quickly. I didn’t think I would ever be okay again.

I’m not perfect but I’ve been binge free now for 2 months and thats huge for me. I moved, started a new job, started dating and have a new life in Brooklyn.

It took me over a year to go from binging every single day to binging every few days, once a week, once every two weeks and eventually not at all. Recovery isn’t easy and you will absolutly slip up from time to time but you must wake up in the morning with the intention on taking the day one bite at a time. I’m so happy now and will lose the remainder of the weight I’ve gained in time when it’s right for me. For now, I’m working on being happy right in this moment not when I lose 10 more pounds or I wake up and suddenly have achieved all my dreams. Life is happening right now and I don’t plan on missing any more of it. 

This is me today.

Cheers to surviving what I thought I couldn’t and coming back a stronger and happier version of myself. 

My comeback is going to be epic. Just you wait and see.