i drink to remember i smoke to forget

i’ve been drinking since noon
and i’ve been high all day.
maybe if i pour more chemicals in my body,
i won’t remember my name.

maybe i won’t remember anything
and i’ll be thankful for that.
reverse a few months in the past
and forget who i am.

i mean, listen, we all change
and sadly we have to cope,
but some of us don’t know how
so we drink or cut or smoke.

or we find vices within ourselves
that we promised not to do.
but rules were meant to be broken, right?
sadly, that’s true.

The Landlord - Richard Armitage x Reader fic Request

This is a fic request for the lovely @thorin-thoughts. Thank you so much hun for your patience! I hope you like it!! 

Thank you @deepestfirefun for proofreading it! You’re a dime <3


Request:  I want a one shot based off my imagine of “Richard enjoys walking around the house naked just so you stare at him” ;)

Forever tagged: @fizzy-custard

If you wish to be tagged in my upcoming drabbles, let me know :) <3


The landlord

After everything you had been through today, this is just what you needed. You groan as you watch the thick black smoke escaping through the hood of your car. You heave a sigh. It is late at night, you’re tired as fuck after your shift at work and all you want to do is go home. Go home and share your bed with your two favorites lads: Ben & Jerry. A brief smile crosses your face when you think about that lovely ‘Karamel Sutra Core’ flavor pint that is waiting for you in the fridge. Yum!

A frightening noise from your car pulls you back into reality again. Oh god, it’s about to give up…
‘No, no, baby.’ You whisper at your car.

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Against Me! Transgender Dysphoria Blues Sentence Starters

content warning: antiquated language, allusions to/mentions of dysphoria, anti-trans violence, drug use.
Okay for cis people to use/reblog, but please show discretion with some of the sentences.

  • Your tells are so obvious.
  • It keeps you reminded, helps you remember where you come from.
  • You want them to see you like they see every other girl.
  • They’ll hold their breath not to catch the sick.
  • I wish I could’ve spent the whole day alone.
  • I wish I could’ve spent the whole day alone with you.
  • We can’t choose how we’re made.
  • Another night to wish you could forget.
  • [You’re] making yourself up as you go along.
  • Who’s gonna take you home?
  • Does god bless your transsexual heart?
  • You should’ve been gone from here years ago.
  • You should be living a different life.
  • You make me want to smoke cigarettes.
  • You make me want to drink whiskey.
  • Even if your love was unconditional, it still wouldn’t be enough to save me.
  • I’m addicted to the feeling, the only kind of steady I believe in.
  • What makes you think you’re gonna die any different?
  • Welcome to the future, an always ice-cold nightmare
  • This night, too, will end.
  • I’m drinking with the jocks.
  • Just like one of the boys.
  • I’m gonna fuck them all.
  • All of my life, wishing I was one of them.
  • There will always be a difference between me and you.
  • Hang like a cross around my neck.
  • What’s the best you end you can hope for?
  • A bullet in the head and a bullet in the chest.
  • A nail through the feet and a nail through the hands.
  • Where would we be without all the distance?
  • You know I’m already just a skeleton.
  • Don’t wanna die without bite.
  • I never wanna say that I regret it.
  • Is your mother proud of your eyelashes, silicone chest, and collagen lips?
  • How would you even recognize me?
  • You don’t worry about tomorrow anymore, because you’re dead.
  • She sleeps with your picture by her bed.
  • You were wearing the jacket that I met you in.
  • The most real person that I’ve ever met.
  • In the dark of our graves our bodies will decay.
  • I wish you’d never change.
  • All things will fade, maybe it’s better off that way.
  • I wish you’d stay with me.
  • Our waking life’s just a living dream.
  • There was fighting in the hall.
  • By the time the ball dropped, it was already over.
  • No resolutions for the new year beginning tomorrow.
  • I don’t ever want to talk that way again.
  • As if I owed you something.
  • I don’t want to see the world that way anymore,
  • I don’t want to feel that weak and insecure.
  • All the young graves filled.
  • Don’t the best stars burn out so bright and so fast?
  • I’m never coming down.
  • Black me out.

anonymous asked:

How about The reader being the one that Murdoc has in his room when he's drunk with strawberry and crying his heart out instead of 2D?

(It took me awhile to understand what you meant XD)


~ You had known Murdoc just about your whole life but you didn’t have much to show for it. He was such a private man it took you almost a year to learn his last name. After awhile, you got used to this behavior. You didn’t mind it, he had the right to tell you what you wanted to tell you and if he didn’t want to tell you, then fine. It was his life. So when you got a drunken call from Murdoc at about 2:30 in the morning, you worried. You were at his door immediately. When Murdoc opened the door, the smell of alcohol attacked your nose. Your face scrunched up for a second before you got a good look at the green man standing in front of you.


~ He was shirtless, his pants hung low. He had his upside cross necklace dangling above his stomach. Murdoc held an empty bottle of vodka in his hand. He leaned against the door frame and held his face inches from yours. “I’m glad you came, love. I’ve got some strawberries for ya.” He pulled you through his door and locked it. You followed him into his living room. Murdoc pushed you down on the couch and handed you a bowl of strawberries. You took them and stuck one in your mouth. “There’s something I’ve got to tell you…” 


~ Murdoc had completely emptied his whole life story onto you. He told you about all the tragedies in his life and how awful his childhood was. He would only pause to sob into his hands or light a cigarette. Murdoc spend the rest of the night telling you the stories he hid away in the back of his mind. He told you that even the broads he’d confess to weren’t as good as you were at listening. You had just been sitting there with the same strawberry in your mouth. The sudden shock of his life story had taken away your hunger. You listened carefully to everything he told you and even took some mental notes of things.


~ By the time the sun had come up, Murdoc’s story was slowly reaching its end. You waited for him to stop talking before speaking. “Will you remember telling me, Mudz?” He chuckled lowly. “At this point in my life it takes more than one bottle of vodka to make me forget.” You sighed and took the bottle from his hands and took his cigarette from his mouth and took a puff. “Did you tell me because you wanted to or because you felt like you had to?” Murdoc was silent for a minute before he answered. “I’ve known you longer than anyone else in my life except maybe my brother and my asshole father. My past has been eating me alive since I can remember, I drink to forget but every night it takes more and more. Sooner or later it’ll kill me, but before I go I figured I should tell at least one person the story of my life.” He laughed darkly. You took another puff of smoke and blew it out slowly. “You’re not going anywhere while I’m still here, Murdoc. I’ll kill you before that alcohol will.” You both laughed and watched the sunset long enough to forget the night you had.

*:・゚✫ random bios *:・゚✫

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De like no post e/ou de créditos para nddobrev no twitter. 

  1. how do i stop growing up this isn’t fun anymore 
  2. being on twitter for so long gave me this weird and awkward sense of humor that really no one gets. 
  3. i just want to be famous to see who i will be shipped with 
  4. dsclp ai mais eu so falo com quem era 100% sexy no orkut 
  5. primeiramente vai se fuder segundamente vai de novo 
  6. sarcasm is a body’s natural defence against stupid
  7. I got 99 problems but I’m gonna take a nap and ignore them all 
  8. i heard u like bad girls,,,.,,.,.,, im bad at everything 
  9. eu nao sei o que estou fazendo nesse mundo,,,..,
  10. 96% of my life is ????? with a little ¿¿¿¿¿ 
  11. ctrl alt delete my life
  12. to procurando a pessoa certa pq a errada eu encontro sempre que olho pro espelho
  13. ..:*,,❀ exausta porém linda ❀,,*:.. 
  14. ninguem te obrigou a me seguir agr aguenta
  15. I DONT GIVE A FUCK 
  16. I wanna be hot enough to make people question their sexual orientation 
  17. we all go to hell 
  18. don’t judge my choices if you don’t understand my reasons
  19. menos nude, mais mapa astral *:・゚✫
  20. amostra o mapa astral *:・゚✫
  21. se fosse pra ser pacífico eu tava no oceano
  22. all I wanna do is get high by the beach 
  23. cute but psycho ◕‿◕ 
  24. kjkjjjddjkjd não sei o que ta acontecendo 
  25. a bad nem bate mais pq ela já é de casa
  26. oi obrigada tchau 
  27. 50% fome 50% sono 
  28. єυ ทασ sσυ вαixiทнα єυ sσυ υм мiทiσท 
  29. puppies are touchable happiness
  30. i really dont care
  31. who are you lil shit
  32. just because I don’t care doesn’t mean I don’t understand
  33. looking for a sugar daddy .,!*ೃ∗
  34. rainha gótica suprema das trevas 
  35. ✫ a vida não é bela mas eu sou ✫
  36. if you don’t think i’m a princess then you are 100% right i’m the fucking queen
  37. hello darkness my old friend
  38. nao gosta de mim mas fica me stalkeando,.,,,.. 
  39. kkjkjjdjkjd sai daq vagabunda
  40. hate me? nice, but who are you??
  41. vamo se beja na boca
  42. ninguém te obrigou a me seguir migs agora aguenta eu votando no meu idolo 
  43. no one yes door migs
  44. Breath. Smile. Repeat.
  45. i could be your baby tonight
  46. i want to have fun and be in love with you
  47. baby im a sociopath
  48. i drink to remember, i smoke to forget
  49. someone told me im out my mind
  50. im losing my mind ◑‿◐

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anonymous asked:

Pls give some general headcanons for the 2p allies

2p!America:

  • Allen D. Jones
  • Boston accent af (sorta like scout from tf2? I know theres a video of that on tumblr somewhere)
  • Piercings defo. Probably an tongue piercing, ears pierced as well as upper lobe and helix on one ear. Used to have snake bites but ended up taking them out
  • Probably has a meme page Oliver doesn’t know about.
  • Makes a lot of sexual innuendos
  • Actually gets along with his 1p?? Alfred just annoys him every once in awhile

2p!Canada:

  • Matthieu/Matt Williams
  • Strong moose man
  • Animal cruelty is a big nono
  • Is basically disney princess when it comes to animals
  • Hockey kING
  • Loves Matthew okay bye

2p!France:

  • Francois Bonnefoy
  • Lazy boi
  • Smokes and drinks a lot
  • Is waiting for the day he dies
  • Speaks french but usually slurs to the point you can’t understand him
  • Dislikes Francis a lot

2p!England:

  • Oliver Kirkland
  • Precious child
  • 98% chance food he prepares will be poisoned if he dislikes you
  • Doesn’t know what a meme is
  • Acts like a pacifist but will fite
  • Thinks Arthur needs to chill

2p!China:

  • Xiao Wang
  • Uses a vape pen for weed
  • Has a meme page

police officer knocks on his car window

cloud of smoke flows out once he rolls down the window

“good evening officer”

  • Has a Shaolin spade, says its just for “decoration”
  • Thinks Yao is an old man and needs to chill

2p!Russia:

  • Victor Braginsky
  • Pacifist as heccc
  • Looks really violent but wouldn’t hurt a soul
  • Doesn’t get the 21st century save him
  • “I drink to forget but I always remember”
  • Lowkey scared of how violent Ivan is and doesn’t trust him
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<p>To smoke or drink.. that is the question of the night. It&rsquo;s his birthday.. but it&rsquo;s also the 2yr anniversary of me getting this tattoo in his hand writing on my ring finger. Most days I forget it&rsquo;s there. Then others I remember I&rsquo;ll never be able to forget him even if I wanted to. I still don&rsquo;t. Necessarily regret it because I will forever and always love the man I thought he was. Just not the man he turned out to be. </p>

<p>So tell me people of Tumblr! Shall I smoke a bowl or have a couple shots?

I write to remind myself that I am
not supposed to touch you anymore,
to carve your name into something
other than my skin.

I drink because sobriety means remembering
and I am always feeling like forgetting.
I knew you’d never be permanent
and I kissed you anyway.

I smoke because your breath cannot be
the last carcinogen I inhaled into my lungs.
I don’t think I can stomach the next
person to call me ‘baby.’

You will leave me slowly—
a scar that fades with time.
I will always be at your beckoning—
ensnared by the echo of your lips.

—  Leave Me Slowly
❝THE FAMILY JEWELS❞ SENTENCE MEME

Below the cut are a bunch of one-liners pulled from Marina and the Diamonds’ album·“The Family Jewels.”

“Are you satisfied with an average life?”
“Drinking champagne to forget yesterday, ‘cause I remember the way it ended.”
“Better to be hated than loved for what you’re not.”
“It’s easy to be sleazy when you’ve got a filthy mind.”
“Do you think you will be good enough?”
“All you ever think about are sick ideas involving me and you.”
“Hollywood infected your brain.”
“I’m a fucking wild card.”
“You’re just a little bit too much like me.”
“I feel like I’m the worst, so I always act like I’m the best.”
“Well, you don’t know fuck about my family.”
“I feel numb most of the time.”
“I’ve got nowhere to go.”

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✧・゚: *✧・゚:* \MARINA AND THE DIAMONDS LYRIC MASTERLIST/ *:・゚✧*:・゚✧

+ hi hi helo etc !!!! so basically for my first hundred (i'm crying i haven't been here long and ily all so much) i thought i'd make a lil masterlist of lyrics by marina and the diamonds from every ep/album that she's released that could be used for inspiration, descriptions, prompts, ideas, bios etc. check them out under the cut, and please like/reblog if you found this at all helpful. (ღ˘⌣˘ღ)

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What hurts the most?”
“Oh… Oh god. What hurts the most? That’s simple. It’s a bunch of things that pile into one ginormous realization. A realization that leaves you fucking devastated.
Nothing hurts more than knowing I think about her every single day but she doesn’t think about me. At all. Does she even remember everything I told her? What it was like to kiss me? Does she forget that I once made her feel like a princess? What hurts the most. Fuck. I’ve finally come to realize that everything I ever said to her, means nothing. She doesn’t remember a single thing. She’s too busy with him, with her friends, with school. She doesn’t think about me. She doesn’t see me. She wasn’t the one in love. I’m the one who sees her in my car, my dreams, the sky, the stars. I’m the one who never stops thinking about her. Fuck, I’m at work, and all I can think about is her. Her. Her. Her. I’m smoking cigarettes and all I taste is her. I’m drinking alcohol to forget her, but to fucking remember what it was like to hold her. I’m hurting myself because the thought of her hurts. I’m the one who cries when I hear that song. I’m the one who dies every time someone mentions your name. I’m the one who remembers the memories. I’m the one who actually misses her.
She’s fine without me, and I’m not fine without her. Don’t you fucking get it? It hurts so fucking much to live without someone who can live without you.
—  She’s going to forget me isn’t she?
a year ago on this day you stumbled in to my life and i remember this time last year i felt every single feeling all at once, hope,love and excitement. you made me believe in life and in love. i cant believe where we are now, i havent spoken to you in so long but i can never forget you, no matter what i drink, what i smoke even if i delete all the pictures, texts even if i threw out your hoodie and those letters you used to write me it wouldnt change anything i would still miss you and i havent stopped since the day you left me. its been a year exactly on this day where we knew of each others existence and since then my life has changed forever, i still wish you the best and i still think you are the most amazing person who has ever entered my life. i dont think my feelings for you will ever fully die but i guess a year later ive learnt a lot and a lot has changed but i got to move on and i got to be strong and try and find someone new but i dont know if another guy will ever be half of what you were to me, a year later i hope you know you changed me even if i probably mean nothing to you now or maybe im a bad memory to you or maybe you feel the exact same as i do i wouldnt know but either way you were the best and thank you for entering my world even if you are gone you are still there in my mind. i love you maybe not love love but i love you for making me feel things i never felt before or havent felt since and thank you for loving me even if it wasnt for long or maybe you still do thank you for everything. its crazy what could happen when you walk on the same road at the right day at the right time.
—  a year later
~j