I’m starting to realize that maybe messy relationships are better. Not forever, but for now. Because yeah, there are a lot of plans cancelled last minute and screaming matches at midnight but there are also a lot of spontaneous weekend road trips and drinking wine on the fire escape in the middle of the night. I get why stability is desirable but I don’t want to know what to expect. Sometimes I want a ‘come outside’ text at 3am more than I want a planned dinner together after work. This might be because I get bored easily but it’s also because I don’t know what I want and whenever I think I’ve figured it out, it changes. And someone who’s constantly changing needs a love that reflects that.