i dont want to work on this anymore

“secretly we all love angst” Sentence Starters

dont deny it DONT DENY IT 

  • “It never works for us, and it never will.”
  • “I’m done. I’m done trying so hard only for you to never even look in my direction.”
  • “I can’t fall in love with you.  I don’t want all the pain that comes with it.”
  • “My roommate had to go into my room and throw the sheets away because I haven’t been able to sleep in that bed since you left.”
  • “I keep asking myself “why isn’t the sun bright anymore” but then I remember you’re not in my life anymore and realize it’s just my own eyes.”
  • “I regret it all.  I really do, I swear.  Please, please– let’s fix this, please.”
  • “Remember when you promised we’d always be together?  Because I remember when I thought you meant it.”
  • “I can’t move on from something that wasn’t supposed to end!”
  • “The phone calls aren’t the same… I can hear in your voice that it’s not the same anymore.”
  • “I’m trying to avoid talking because I know what it’ll lead to, and I don’t want that to come.”
  • “Don’t you think you can fall back in love with me?”
  • “This whole time I’ve been using you to make me feel better, and you never caught on.  You never caught on.  I want you to hate me now, but I don’t think you’re even able to.”
  • “Kissing me breaks the promise… remember?”
  • “Every time we fix things something else ends up breaking.”
  • “Why don’t we stop pretending we’re not on a road to destruction?”
  • “It wasn’t even fun at first, honestly.  It was just like… Morphine.”
  • “You’re just not enough anymore.”
  • “It’s been too long since you’ve really smiled.”
  • “Ah, it was all my fault.  Wasn’t it?”
  • “To think, we thought just the sex would be enough to keep us in love.”
  • “Back then, I lied when I told you I didn’t love you.  You needed to move on from me– I needed to protect you from me.”
  • “You never had that shine in your eyes when you were with me.”
  • “Quit trying to fix me when you need to just fix yourself.”
  • “I’m so tired of everything about us, and about how we thought we were in love, and how we think forcing it can make us be in love– I’m so tired of it.”
  • “This whole time you’ve still been in love with him/her… Not me.”
  • “I couldn’t make you fall in love with me.  I thought I could do it, I really did, but… But I know you… And this isn’t love.”
  • “Did you really think I needed that kiss back then when all that you conveyed in it was pity?”
  • “To think I’ve changed so much to get you to like me, and you still never really look my way.”
  • “I know I deserve better than you.  I realize that, but you were so broken… I didn’t want to be the one that made you shatter.”
  • “All of this was to protect myself.”
  • “I feel like I’ve been looking for who you used to be… Back when you were actually happy.”
  • “I never want to even hear your name during my life anymore.”
  • “Your lips used to be sanctuary, but now I just feel trapped.”
  • “Isn’t it time we both stopped pretending we make each other happy?”
  • “The thing I regret the most is giving you so much hope by agreeing to this date.”
  • “We have the kind of history anyone would never want to think about again, and you’re hear asking me on a date?”
  • “What makes you think I’ll be any different this time?”
  • “I’ll let you down.  I will always let you down.  I’m not enough for you to be satisfied.”
  • “Are you satisfied with the mess you’ve created out of me?”
  • “I should have listened to everyone who told me this was a bad idea.”
  • “I’ve never met someone who can so gently destroy me the way you do.”
  • “I can’t forget about him/her!  It’s not in my power to forget how he/she felt when they loved me.”
  • “The saddest thing is that when I told him/her I loved him/her, he/she thought I was lying.  He/she never believed someone could fall in love with him/her.”
  • “Listen…  You’re his/her best friend… and I completely fucked up– it’s over between us, but… please, punch me, or punish me, or do something to me because he/she just… cried.  He/she wasn’t even angry, they were just so sad– Please, be angry at me, please.  Give me what I deserve.”
  • “It would have been better if we never met.”
  • “You’re my regret.”
  • “I’m not angry at you, just at myself… Because I knew this would happen, but I let myself fall in love with you anyways.”
  • “Don’t tell me to give up like everything is meaningless.”
  • “This is why I don’t let myself fall in love.”
  • “Somewhere deep inside me, I still have hope that you’ll fall in love.  How pathetic.”

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My progress at the moment! If you want to stay fit by gaining or loosing weight..do it now! Now would be the best because if you wait and wait days and weeks,youll feel like you dont want to do it anymore. Ever since i started doing exercises on areas that i wanted to work on,i felt great day after day and my stress level became lower because i never gave up! START NOW BECAUSE IF YOU WAIT…YOULL NEVER START! ( ig: rosegold_ny)


so now, 2 days of work, about 50 layers and laptop that cries “for the love of god, dont create another layerrrrrrr” later, this is all i was able to do

im far from being happy with it but to work on it any longer would probably destroy my poor laptop, so i guess its finished now :/

(and yes, its supposed to be water)

Reposting Work

I dont see why all these people feel the need to revolt against @dement09, @beautysnake, and all these other artist. Why do you want to be stubborn? What is wrong with yall??? If an artist wants you to stop reposting their work then YOU DONT REPOST IT. Simple as that. Dont throw a fit. Dont get mad. Dont revolt. You respect the artist. They made that work you have no control over it. IF this shit keeps up i very clearly see some artists revolting back and not posting anymore. It is stupid.

Ive seen #Savesublogs or some shit like that and im like??? are you kidding me?? Let the artist control their own work. It isnt a free for all unless they say so and clearly Dement has not said so.We shouldnt have to say “dont repost my work” but it looks like we have to because you stubborn assholes want to keep on. Thanks a lot you guys for not caring about our work. If you like it so much then fucking share it on the respected platform of Tumblr by REBLOGGING IT.


Happy Holidays! Commissions are now open and at lower prices for the holidays!

My goal by the end of the month is to have enough money to get me through the next semester. I usually have enough time to get a part time job but since I am now going year round, and with a full schedule, I don’t have that advantage anymore. 

So, besides these Holiday commissions, how else might you help me? Well, reblogs always help! As well as - 

  • Becoming my patreon: You’ll see work I don’t post here as well as process work, and monthly rewards.
  • Buying from my Redbubble: I have some stickers, prints, and such (not a lot, but no harm in seeing if you like what is there).
  • Donations: I always feel awkward suggesting it, but if you dont want to buy a commission or anything from redbubble, I would appreciate anything you might be will to donate! Just send whatever donation you are willing to give to meggleston@rainierconnect.com via Paypal

Thanks so much and happy holidays!

i don’t often make text posts anymore so this is a little awkward um

what i wanted to say is; i get too often comments or tags on my work that are something like ‘i wish i could do this’ or ‘why can’t i draw like this’ etc, and it makes me pretty sad. i dont think you should put other artists on some kind of…unreachable pedestal. because it’s just not true…at all

you CAN draw like this, you CAN draw even better than this. i truly believe that given time and effort, anyone can improve at drawing…just like honing any kind of skill

i played the guitar for three years in my teens and i was still awful at it, you know? i never really practiced enough, and three years is not very long. i could kinda play the melody for ‘let it be’ by the end, and i was pretty happy with that. i just never had the drive for it that i have for drawing, so i didn’t stick with it

we all struggle with not being good enough for one reason or another, and it’s normal to get frustrated at our abilities sometimes, but…

if you have the passion for it you can really do pretty much anything

we fell out of love 
those are just 5 words 
we say when we dont want
to explain what really happened
how can i explain to someone 
in a couple of seconds 
that when we went our separate ways 
it felt like i fell off a cliff you were my gravity
the same way it holds me down you held me down
so fucking close to you i swear i thought we could never be apart
i fell down i couldn't control the fall i was just waiting to land 
and be dead
the same way i felt while we were in love every single fucking day
i was on top of the cliff looking down waiting for the day you leave
and thats when i would fall over and land so fucking hard at the bottom, it happened so fast 
i dont even remember falling off but fuck i remember the land 
i remember not being able to move or think or sometimes id forget to breathe
i dont know if its because of the fall that shortened my breathing or maybe i didn't want to anymore
you told me maybe we’d work out one day but right now we intoxicate each other, and poison our cells  
your parents fell out of love it took them 10 years to realize it, it was through missed dinners 
and secret phone calls 
and coming home later than they said they would 
you dont realize they’re leaving but in reality they were gone all along you just refused to believe it
how am i supposed to explain to anyone that you were the blood that ran through my viens and the reason why i ever fucking smiled in pictures
i saw you in the sun every sunday morning and i felt you in my covers wrapped around me every single fucking night i was trying to sleep but you made your way into my skin and all the way up into my brain and into my dreams id wake up every fucking morning screaming begging for you to just go away but you were always there
and i cant tell if i loved having you on my mind all the time or if you just fucking stressed me out 
but now i see you in the pills i swallow to fucking try and forget you 
and i saw your tongue between her teeth and i understood maybe we were never meant to be.

we fell out of love



Thanks for those who have sent me asks!! <33 from now on i will be answering all ask privately and i prefer if you off-anon when you ask me so i can reply it directly to you//// but its up to you though (≧▽≦)

1.  @reisins Ahh unfortunately i dont have the software to record, (ive tried camtasia but i think my laptop isnt compatible(??)) but i want to try it when i find the right software >_< !

2. Thanks for informing me! But at this point ive seen a lot of people reposting my work on instagram (with & without permission) so i dont mind it anymore as long as they credit me ;v; for those who bothered to ask me first before reposting i appreciate it a lot!

3. Ooohhh thAAATSS CUTE and sad asddfkj but yuuri already knew what kind of magic victor used to enchant the apple with soo he refused to eat it ohohoh

4.  @maruz-panteno thank youu dearrr sob ily <333

5. Ahh nope ive never joining an rp group on tumblr and i didnt even know that theres a roleplay group here?? :0 i have only joined rp group on facebook

6. I acidentally deleted this asks after i posted it lmao im sorry @batsrule22 OYES I’LL MAKE another sw au, just wait for it <333 thankss btw !!

7.  @the-chill-goddess ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°) bro

8.  @corvvo UHH THANKS FOR sparing your precious time to send this ask ;;AA;; im flattered agh thanks and have a great day !

9,10 & 12 . THANK you guyss ily so much :’)

11. thhaankk youuu!!! ;v; ahh glad to hear that <333 LOLOL YOUR HEADCANON THO i can imagine it !!  otabek definitely left victor with his stoic face- and victor just followed otabek secretively to yuuri’s place laughs

So, I used to ship kl///@nce but now I ship Sheith mostly. I used to ship both but I was turned off from kl///@nce. Why? Because of all the nasty behaviour I saw in the kl///@nce fandom.

If that ONE person hadn’t asked to know if Sh!ro was 25, Sheith could have continued to be just a ship people didn’t care for, which is fine. Don’t ship it? Dont like it? No problem! But no, people have to take things too seriously and have to cause unwanted and unneeded drama.
And if it’s been “confirmed” that Sh!ro is indeed 25 why hasn’t Dre@m///works or any other place changed it from “five teenagers”?

That’s because the creators were put on the spot by an anti.

I won’t talk about antis anymore here and will just continue to block them all. I am just upset about all the hate Sheith is getting and wanted to let it out.


matching icons for you and your gal pal

reminder to block daily-monel, karamelsource, fuckyesmonel, dailymonel, fuckyeahmonel & dorothyedgar :) i’m pretty sure this is being run by the same person, and will most likely reblog ur gifsets and posts and put negativity on it, and i dont want that for anyone. i know how hard a lot of gif makers work on their stuff here, and its not fair that their work is being disrespected like that. have fun blocking!