i dont want to survive

what they say: you’re using your mental illness as an excuse 

what they mean: i care more about the thing you couldn’t do than your mental health 

what they say: try yoga/a healthy diet/just being happy/etc. 

what they mean: i dont know what mental illnesses are or how they affect people 

what they say: youre overreacting 

what they mean: my microscopic brain cannot comprehend that people feel, think and act differently, especially when they have mental illnesses making them act/feel/think a certain way 

what they say: you just want attention 

what they mean: i dont understand that humans need attention and affection to survive, that wanting attention is nothing bad, and that just bc i noticed doesnt mean you actually wanted me to notice

I am irritated that from all of fallout 4 companions, X6 is the most vague and undefined and he otherwise is so interesting and the character has so much potential?

Like I want to know what X6 thinks about the Institute personally, I want to know if his love for the Institute is something he chose or something he was brain washed into??? I mean to ignore the fact that unlike any other faction, the Institute is almost irredeemably evil so a lot of people not only will miss X6 as a companion but will also not understand him and his ways because of how badly the Institute was written. 

But I feel like even in fanon X6 loses his agency because you can’t really tell if he is brainwashed into the Institute mindset or he willingly chose to be a courser? And in fact can a synth willingly choose to be a courser? I mean X6 refers to Gabriel as “it” but we don’t know how he was treated in the institute? Yeah coursers more or less have more freedom than other synths, but they also go through a lot of training so we don’t know how he was treated. He doesn’t consider himself as anything more than a machine (the way the Institute treats all synths) and yet he is very loyal. Is his loyalty coming from self hate and idolizing Father and the institute like he was taught, or is it coming from being forced to survive by learning to be emotionless and follow orders. 

Obviously as you gain his affinity, he starts showing emotions, humor, sass, loyalty and admiration towards the Sole Survivor, but it still remains unclear where he really stands. I wish they sort of cleared that out, the more you get to know him the more you find out if he was forced to be a courser, or he simply became one because he actually agrees with the institute - and can synths actually willingly and freely choose to agree with the institute since the pressure of getting “killed” always hangs above their heads if they show their sentience. And coursers get demonized by the Railroad too as if they willingly support the institute, even though there are runaway coursers that changed their minds. 

 X6 is actually wonderful, very intelligent and curious and overall he never feels like an emotionless machine at any point, but I just wish he was given more agency so we could see where he personally stands with the Institute the way the other three faction companions state their own personal feelings on the matter the higher your affinity is with them. 

What the signs want at the end of the Game of thrones series: 

Aries:            Sansa Stark happy and alive 

Taurus:           Sansa Stark happy and alive 

Gemini:          Sansa Stark happy and alive 

Cancer:          Sansa Stark  happy and alive 

Leo:                Sansa Stark happy and alive 

Virgo:             Sansa Stark happy and alive 

Libra:             Sansa Stark happy and alive 

Scorpio:        Sansa Stark happy and alive 

Sagittarius:   Sansa Stark happy and alive 

Capricorn:      Sansa Stark happy and alive 

Aquarius:        Sansa Stark happy and alive 

Pisces:          Sansa Stark happy and alive 

WHAT THE FUCK AM I

SUPPOSED

TO

DO

WITH THIS

That is tiny Sougo with a cat. I repeat. Tiny Sougo with a cat. And Mitsuba and Hijikata with their commander leading the way. And then that is Sougo with a cat. Our sadistic little captain with a cat. An actual cat has approached evil Sougo to play with him, our supposedly heartless guy. Heartless my ass. Look at his face, I’m sure he’s so surprised in the best of the ways.

And then omg the way Kondo and Hijikata are looking back. Just like Mitsuba used to do when he was little, they make sure he’s okay, he’s still there and following them. And you know the worst? This is the last time we’re seeing then as Shinsengumi. After this, there’s no police in Edo anymore. They’ll be gone in an arc and it’ll break my heart and gintama please stop omg I won’t survive this

Idiot. You’re crying too.

Despite what this might imply, after reading this weeks chapter I was uncontrollably happy.

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I see you Calum😏

Calum deleted this pic after posting it on his twitter first.

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i-dont-want-to-survive  asked:

I know it's not ace specific but I wasn't to come out to my male cuz (I'm genderfluid panromantic asexual) because the last time I talked to him he told me about gender neutral pronouns and I don't know how to without coming out to his homophobic and transphobic dad and sister and my family Help

My best advice for you is don’t. If it’s going to put you in a potentially dangerous situation then don’t come out. Just don’t. You are never under an obligation to come out. It’s not wrong to be in the closet. If being in the closet keeps you safe then stay in.

-Kieren

yall are freaking out screaming and yelling and tryina figure out whether or not dirk is dead (which is fair, hes a character a lot of people like and relate to), but what i really wanna know is this

IS JANE OK??

not only because shes jane and of course shes wonderful and i dont want her to die, but her survival is also crucial to the survival of literally everyone else. she lives? dirk (and the rest of the gang) will almost certainly be perfectly fine

Theres this whooole movement of empowering women to be independent and depend on one self andddd you don’t need a man to be successful! The last part especially is like a stereotype for black women. “We don’t need no man.” Listen. I agree with those statements, women can be independent, no one needs anyone to survive. But thats the thing I dont NEEDS anyone to survive but i definitely want someone. Honestly, I’m not an independent person. I need someone there with me i need intimacy i need people surrounding me i need other peoples presence. I am a people person, i am dependent to a certain extent, and there shouldnt be such a stigma with saying this. Ya feel? I hope I’m explaining myself, my thoughts are a little jumbled. Having people around does bring me happiness, and a males touch does too. Idk but yea. I feel like being a dependent person shouldnt be such a bad thing. Just like theres some ppl who are leaders, there will slso be some ppl who are just followers.

watching dans first video
  • friend: *cringes* ew he was such a dweeb lol
  • me: *sobs* oH MY GOD MY DAD HES COME SO FAR IM SO PROUD OF MY SQUISHY MUFFIN HES SO ADORABLE HE MAKES ME WANT TO PUNCH MYSELF IN THE FACE HE INSPIRES ME TO BE MYSELF NO MATTER WHAT AND HE HAS HELPED SO MANY PEOPLE WITH EVERYTHING AND I DONT KNOW WHAT I WOULD DO WITHOUT HIM AND HES 24 HOW WILL I SURVIVE I DONT WANT MY SON TO GROW UP HES MATURING ITS NOT OKAY BUT I LOVE HIM SO MUCH OH MY GOD
a summary of mockingjay part 2 as told by me

•woohoo it’s finally starting but where’s finnick
•it’s finnick and he’s getting married HEs so HOT
•why are there only 5 minutes of finnick at finnick’s wedding
•Okay but where’s finnick YHERE HE IS
•wHY IS EVERYONE BLOCKING FINNICK MOVE CAMERMAN
•okay the cameraman moved hello finnick
•ARE YOY SERIOUS Y U BLOCK FINNICK I CAME FOR CLAFLIN
•FINNICKS HAIR
•Sam Claflin is a beautiful human being
•oh my gosh Sam claflin is going to die here
•I’m CRYIGN STOP IT SUZANNE COLLINS (note that I was actually crying) STOP STOP DYING oh wait this popcorn is good
•Jennifer looks badass in that coat
•I want Jennifer lawrences coat
•why doesn’t finnick’s kid look more like him I’m not complaining but
•why did finnick die WHY DID HE DIE THIS IS NOT OKAY I DONT CARE WHO DIES KILL KATNISS BUT I WANT FINNICK TO SURVIVE
•why isn’t Sam Claflin given his own end credit thing he has to share his name on the screen
•that was a great movie I would go again just for sam Claflin
•*reads finnick’s death scene out loud in the bathroom*
•I should have timed this finnick only had like 10 minutes of screentime what an injustice y u no give bae more screentime

anonymous asked:

I cant ship anyone rn i just want them to survive and i dont think ereri will ever be real they have respect for each other and they care and stuff but no , just because someone adores someones skills or stuff doesnt always mean they have romanticlly feelings for eachother god dammit there is lots of ship war but this manga isnt about romance

That’s true, the ship hate is unnecessary.