i dont think ill ever get over them

anonymous asked:

I'm about to go into my first semester of college ever and I wasn't just wondering if you had any advice? Especially when it comes to studying and doing your work and just staying focused in class. I'm a huge procrastinator but I've slowly been breaking that habit and I need to get my shit together lol

oh gosh my studying habits are ATROCIOUS. like, they work, but Dont Be Me dude.. my fridge right now has literally nothing energy drinks in it, i only went to three (3 total) of my developmental psych classes the entire semester and for a four day period this week i sustained myself on nothing but mcdonalds pancakes and fried rice… im lowkey a mess

but um if you can get like a study buddy bc that’s really a great person to have around. my friend riley and i squatted in her godmother’s house for a week to study for finals and did nothing but sleep, eat, study, and listen to our bop city playlist to keep us awake. that was great for my study schedule actually cause im a big procrastinator but not if ive got some kind of pseudosupervision. uhhh lets see what else um. use flashcards whenever possible, i know it encourages memorization over learning but if you can basically understand the material, use flashcards cause they cause you to overlearn and that’s what you want since generally you get overconfident about how much you remember and flashcards just burn it into your brain. 

keep up with your assignments so you dont get overwhelmed but dont kick yourself if you’re not studying 24/7 or even keeping up with the material, sometimes its better to cram for a week or two before the test than to do half an hour every day, it helps to avoid retroactive interference (forgetting something you learned a month ago because you’re focusing on current material). but also dont screw yourself and start studying the weekend before an exam.

and ok last one this is the most important i think because as a procrastinator im sure you’re just like me and you get tired at night and think “ill just finish this in the morning” dont ever do that with assignments or studying but always do that with reviewing things. while you sleep (in REM sleep i think) your brain goes over what you’ve learned in the past couple of hours before you went to bed and in the morning you’re usually better at remembering things you were struggling to grasp the night before when you were exhausted. i usually tell myself what i want to do before i go to bed (lets say memorize a stack of flash cards) and then i review them all even if im barely getting them right, then i go to bed, get up an hour early and suddenly everything is way more familiar than i thought itd be

good luck!

so ive hit 1000 followers and

Im honestly really thankful for the support!! n for the fact that you actually think my content is any good. Getting my art noticed has been v helpful for me! 

But I rlly feel like I should stop being as..into it. The fandom, I mean. I guess its a difference between being a fan and being in a fandom, if that makes sense. I still love Bangtan a lot dont get me wrong. But all Ive been drawing for a whole year has been bts and I kinda need to get away from that for a while. Ill still draw them sometimes bc tbh when will I ever get over them. But yk, not as much,,

Basically what Im saying is that I might not post anymore ..? I wont delete the blog if, for some reason, u still wanna see it or smth ? Srry for not posting much in the first place too.

aa i dont know how to end this post so uh

ly guys n all that

why im putting the donation button back on my blog

ok i know i make jokes about it and stuff but my family is really in a bad place right now and we have to be out of our current house by the end of the month (march).  we have no idea where we are going to go when we leave and im afraid we might have to get rid of my dog, daisy.  she’s my best friend and has helped me through depression and anxiety and i don’t want to lose her.  since i work at the animal shelter on the weekends they have been helping out with giving us dog food and treats but idk where we are going to go after we move out of our current house so we might not even be near the shelter that’s been helping us out.  

((This was taken at the vet before she had to have laser therapy on her back because she could barely stand))

we are on food stamps and the money we get is barely enough to get us by and usually the last week or two before the money is refreshed there is barely anything left in the house to eat, and there are also many other things we need that aren’t covered by food stamps.  one time my dad went out to buy some food with what little money he had and he barely got anything but when he came back home my mom started crying because she was afraid we wouldnt be able to pay our bills.  (our electricity is currently being paid for by a local church)

my dad recently lost his company and so he is working a low paying job to keep us on medicaid so my mom can have her operation because her hip needs to be replaced asap.  

so basically what i’m saying is i’m putting the donation button back up on my blog because any little bit of money will help us right now.  i originally took it down because i kept getting hateful messages about it and it made me feel really bad about myself but our situation is even worse than it was then so i’m putting it back up.


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Chapter 8 Part 2

The door slammed shut.

“Ow.” Gail said muffled by Holly’s lips as she’s pushed hard against the door.

“Sorry” Holly moved her lips to Gail’s jaw.

“Why does this feel like a one night stand?” Gail said with her eyes closed as shes over whelmed by the lips making its way around her neck.

Holly stops and gives her a lopsided smile, “..because you go back tomorrow night and I wont see you for a while.” She latches on to Gail’s earlobe as she starts to move them towards to bedroom. 

“at least this time I know I wont get pregnant” Gail said bluntly. 

Holly stops and gives her a look. “What? You’re a doctor, you know how lady parts on lady parts work..” The brunette continues her assault on Gail’s lips again. Finally making it into the bedroom, Holly pushes Gail by her shoulders making her fall back onto the bed.

“ Trust me” Holly starts taking of her shirt. “..by the end of the night..” She bends down and yanks off Gail’s top. “..you’ll be saying my name so much” she steps out of her skin tight pants slowly, “ you won’t remember yours.” She claims as she stands in front of her girlfriend in just her underwear.

“Stewart, Stewart..” Gail lifts her self up on her elbows. “ you better get started then.” She pulls on Holly’s bra straps slowly sliding it off her shoulders.


Still out of breath. ” I didn’t know you could do that..” Gail takes a deep breath trying to even it out. “Like, who knew that would be so good?”

Laying next to Gail, Holly is holding on to the covers over her chest with a stupid grin across her face. “Stop it.” Gail said as she looks over and notices her girlfriend’s face.

Holly turns and kisses her on her temple. ” Told you so.”

“So smug, Stewart. smug.” Holly lifts the covers over them one more time. “ One more” She snuggles her head between Gail’s neck and shoulders. Gail just groans but turns to straddle Holly’s thighs.


“Crap, crap. Holly what time is it?!” Gail suddenly jumped out of bed looking for her clothes.

“Just a little pass 7:30” Holly said through a pillow. “ God, you were kidding about one night stand huh”

Gail pauses, walks over to Holly, braces her hands on the side of Holly’s face. ” You’re the best one yet.” She kisses her on the lips. ” Good morning, cranky.” She kisses her again. “Yeah, yeah” Holly grunted.

‘Why so worried about the time babe?” Finally leaning against the head board.

“Because, Sunday morning is usually breakfast with Sophie, but since I’m here, I promised we, you and I would skype her. and I dont think she’s old enough for the birds and bees talk, hence the clothing.”

Holly gets up towards Gail who was now digging for Holly’s laptop. She makes a move to hug Gail while still naked. Gail quickly turns around and holds up her hand. ” Babe, clothes. Sophie, waiting. Innocent child who misses her Ma and Mom.” Holly giggles and puts her arms up in defeat and makes her way to the bathroom to get dressed.  

Holly walks out of the bathroom with her hair wet to find Gail sitting in bed with a huge grin on her face. “..San Francisco is just like Toronto, but like, with a huge bridge and a lot of clam chowder and bread bowls.” She hears the little girl laugh. ” Where’s Holly?” The little girl asked. Right as she heard, Holly jumped onto the bed right next to Gail startling her.” She is right here..” Gail turns the laptop so Sophie can see both of them.

“Holly! Hi ma!”

“Hey sweetie, I miss you so much! ” Holly said and she pretends to tickle the little girl through the screen.

“ I miss you too, but every time you sing to me when we talk, it makes it better.”

“ Don’t worry, In no time ill be back there and you’ll hear me sing so much, youll be tired of it.”

“I dont think ill ever get tired of it, even if its bad.” The little girl said. “ Ma..”

“what is it baby?”

“How did you meet mom?”

Gail lets out a small laugh. She hands Holly the laptop and she kisses her on her forehead. “Sophie, I’m gonna let your Ma tell you that story. I just want you to know, she kissed me first.” She gets up from the bed to walk towards the kitchen to make them coffee.

She comes back to over hear  a little bit of the conversation. “— she told me she was a cat, yeah silly right?” Sophie laughs, ” Mom is so funny.”

“Yeah, keep telling her that It makes me happy.” Gail steps in, “Hey, I am hilarious. Comedy. I can make money with my jokes.” She hands Holly her coffee and gets comfortable on the bed. 

“Anyways, I had to feed that cat after she was so helpful,’ Holly shakes her head ‘No’, ” and after that night, we became friends. and then, I got really worried about your Mom one day, and it made me realize that I cared about her so much.“ Holly was now looking into Gail’s eyes ” I realized that I loved her, and I just wanted her safe all the time.“ She leans in for a kiss. As they break away they hear Sophie, ” Eww..“ with a giggle. 

” Alright alright, you better get going Sophie, you have a play date remember? With Kyle.“ Gail reminded her.

"Oh yeahh! Ok, Bye Mom, bye Ma! I miss you!”

“Love you baby!” They watch the screen go black.

“Uhm, Gail.. Who is Kyle?”

“Holly, calm down, they’re 8. They barely know what a penis and a vagina are meant for.” Gail closes the laptop and moves their coffee to the night stand.

“Lunchbox, I have 5 hours before I have to run to the airport. Wanna make it worth while?” Holly pushes Gail off the bed and makes a run for the shower. She thought, “ Might as well kill two birds with one stone.”