i dont think i love many things


“No, I didn’t. You know him better than anyone else ever has or ever will. You made him, you taught him to be all he is, and you know him down to his bones. You know how strong he is. You know how much he loves you. If I gave you anything, give me your faith now. Teach one thing to all your children. I have never told you anything more true than this. Believe this, if you believe nothing else. Raphael saved himself.

anonymous asked:

hey milly ,, i really want to be friends with this one person and it's gotten to a point of almost infatuation i think. i just feel like they are so much more interesting and intelligent and fun and i feel bland!! and i feel stressed bc so many people now are up to date on politics and the world but i barely know because im worrying about other things...i feel,,, not worthless, but just kinda dumb

hey love, i can relate on this. i have pretty much always got my head in the clouds. i dont know much about politics, geography, fashion ..i just have lots of emotion and things in my mind which are not ‘things’. i talk emotionally rather than factually. i often feel like i am behind. but i think i realise that, we cant always be up to date. you are not bland or unintelligent or any of those things described. you are you and that is enough. i love fashion and humanities etc but i dont know names of designers of anything..or brands. i think this makes things real though. we cant always be clued up. its difficult to maintain healthy friendships when you compare yourself negatively with someone. you are not bland and you are entirely full of worth and not dumb. i feel like i am dumb too and say this sometimes. but we are not!!!! full of love and passion. its ok

Question tag

Rules: Answer the questions and tag 20 blogs you want to get to know better! I was tagged by @those-lesbian-ships thanks hun ❤ 

Nicknames: spritzi or schwanzkrone (for all the germans out there please dont ask xD) 
Star sign: Cancer
Height: 5'10"
Time right now: 1:46 pm
Last thing you googled: height converter
Fave music artist: my all time fav is pink but idk there’re too many
Song stuck in my head: shape of you - ed sheeran
Last movie I watched: the lovely bones thanks to @reginasevilpanda :’(
Last tv show I watched: Merlin
What I’m wearing right now: LLTQ shirt and sweat pants
When I created this blog: last fall I think
The kind of stuff I post : ouat, swan queen, Regina and some other ships
Do I get asks regularly? Almost never
Why did I choose my url: because swan queen is endgame
Gender: Female
Hogwarts House: Hufflepuff
Pokémon team: Blue
Favourite color: black
Average hours of sleep: 6
Lucky number: don’t have one
Favourite characters: way too many but my number one is Regina mills
Dream job: Primary teacher
Number of blankets I sleep with: 2 

I tag: my puppies @thedeadpuppies, @deuxieme-etoile-a-droite, @ourheroregina


Let me tell you the moment i escaped the feelings. I guess it was at MAMAs. We were performing, i was singing and i realized i have MONBEBEs who loved our performance. I got to see their face and i thought i should not be depressed like that because there might be MONBEBEs who’re stressed out. Though there might be a bumpy road, try to believe that things will work out as MONEBE wants. I thought you can even do something impossible.

virgo moons dont seem to get a lot of love on here but i think its one of the sweetest placements. there is no other who is as attentive and helpful and happy to serve than a virgo moon. they notice all the little things that you dont and take care of you in so many subtle ways that you might hardly notice. you never have to ask a virgo moon for help, they are always one step ahead of you. and unlike cancer, there are no strings attached to virgo’s acts of kindness. they simply do it because they enjoy it - they like to feel like they have made things better for their loved ones, and your happiness and appreciation is reward enough. virgo moons have a reputation of being cold but the virgo moons i know dont see themselves that way. they’d say ‘of course i’m not emotionally distant or detached, i love you, i do things for you all the time.’ because virgo moons figure that the best way to convey their feelings is through action, rather than whispered sweet nothings and empty romantic gestures. and they would be right! but there are other aspects to intimacy that virgo moons aren’t so good at, and thats where they get the reputation for being cold. such as, opening up and expressing your emotions whether they are good or bad. crying without being embarrassed in front of the people that love you. telling your loved ones what you love about them and how much they mean to you. virgo moons struggle with that. they are private and self-critical people, most often, and for this reason they have almost a kind of disdain towards certain emotions - usually sadness, anger, guilt, even sentimentality. they dont like to confront or express these messy parts of themselves, because what good is that for anyone? but virgo moons should know that the people that love you want to love all of you, the good; the bad; the happy; the sad; the soft; the callous; the intense and the dark. there is no part of you that is an inconvenience. you are beautiful, kind souls, virgo moons. 🌙✨

one thing that is giving me comfort is the size of the anti-trump group. like, i dont feel so much like a minority, fighting against this guy that everyone loves, i feel like the majority of the country is ashamed and shocked and disgusted. i’m encouraged by the sheer amount of people going against him and how many other legislators are saying “we’ll do everything we possibly can to prevent his plans from happening”. 

and the racists and bigots that are acting out right now, feeling like they finally have someone backing them, i think that they’re desperately clinging to the old ways in a changing world, thinking that by lashing out like bullies they can re-establish their control, but as the years pass and we continue to make trump absolutely miserable and prevent what he’s doing, and everyone learns over and over that this kind of behavior is no longer tolerated, i hope the bigots live the rest of their lives in quiet fear until they finally die off

  • he’s tol af
  • black hair
  • comes up like someone intimidating but is actually a dork
  • he jokes around but know when to back off and if he realize he went too far apologize right away
  • his horrible laugh
  • he wants to make nekomata’s dream true, he respect his coach so much
  • HIS ARMS !!!!!!! !!!!
  • when kenma is lost in his games and get missed he goes and search for him himself // light novel, during the trip to miyagi before playing agianst karasuno
  • biggest meme
  • he helps kenma with his studies 
  • he’s in prep college class and is also captain so he has plenty of responsabilities already
  • he’s in prep college class and how awesome is that!!! !!!!¡¡¡¡
  • he wants to fight people he doesn’t like 24/7
  • he also helps people that is not from his team *coughtcought||tsukki||coughtcouht*
  • HIS BACK DAMN !!!11!!1!
  • his provocation comments are on point
  • he knows exactly what to say and how to say it for encouring people to do better and try
  • he’s one of the most reliable characters imo 
  • his smile is so adorable it makes me cry
  • he says he is kind as a joke but he actually is, he’s probably not aware of how great of a person he is and makes me want to hug him
  • he sleeps on his stomach while pressing two pillows onto both his ears and his hair and it makes me want to hug him too
  • his leadership skills are unquestionable
  • silly comebacks like “for someone who is so clearly lacking in docosahexaenoix acid, I dont think your opinions have much validity”
  • has grudge on people for silly things “coughtcought||chapter200||coughtcought||yaku||coughcough*
  • he was so into volleyball as a kid that he used to tried out the techniques he watched being used in matches on tv.
  • he has the taste of an old man for food, pls save him
  • his current concern is that he can’t get rid of his bedhead hair, after all this years
  • he’s very skilled at shuffling cards. (light novel) @ furudate let me know how much time he spends playing card games and with who
  • he’s passionate af and works hard to achieve his goals
  • he’s cute af but also hot af
  • he gets as excited as yamamoto sometimes and it’s beautiful
  • he confuses himself when trying to say something intelligent
  • he’s so supportive, it makes me cry
  • don’t take shit from people who can’t be objective in their view and doesn’t stay unspoken either







notes from a casual cashier; december 4th

• i started my shift opening my usual register, i checked one customer out and moved on to the next person in line. the barcode scanner straight-up stopped cooperating and the guy whose things i was trying to scan got really mad at my incompetence. lovely way to begin a sunday

• the placement of the price tags on the ferrero chocolates display led everyone to believe the 30 box of ferrero rochers costed €2.99, and i had to break many hearts with the news that that was actually the price of the 16 box of mon chéri which nobody likes

• middle-aged balding customer: “nice hair! id dye mine like that too!”
me: “well why dont you? it would look great”
customer: “but people would think im insane”
me: “so what!”
customer [clearly endeared]: “youre RIGHT!”

• a customer: [buys three bottles of wine and eight boxes of coffee pods for the fancy coffee makers]
me: “that would be €45.87 please”
customer: “why so much!!! the bottles were €7 each!!!”
me: “um yea but you got all that coffee, and its €2.99 a box”
customer: “eight times two is sixteen!!!!”
me: “but 2.99 is pretty much three, and eight times three is twenty four”
customer: [flees the scene]

• an old man came back to the store after having paid, claiming i had given him too much money back.
to prove it, he showed me the (surprise! correct) change i had given to him and promptly dropped a coin in the unreachable depths of my register

• a girl bought 12 eggplants and i have questions

• people keep trying to stuff too many things in a bag, and ive gotten pretty good at eyeballing how many bags are needed.
i told a lady that there was no way her shopping would fit in a single bag, she proved me wrong and i apologised for not having faith in her.
she cracked the fuck up

• i had a weird interaction with a pretty dude who i guessed was a university students but turned out to have graduated like three years ago, and when he left i caught myself staring into nothingness and droning out a flat ‘wow kill me’

• a young child, approximately aged four: “why is your hair red?”
me: “i like it,,, don’t you?”
the childs dad: “oh she likes it, she was talking about it just now!”
child [now done with discussing my looks, but still eager to talk to me]: “did you know……… im very hungry………”

• an elementary school aged kid politely asked me for one of the avenger toys we hand out with certain purchases, so i complied.
he was very excited to have received a black widow figurine, if his exclamations were anything to go by

• old lady: “is your hair real? is it a wig?”
me: “its real but dyed!”
old lady, scoffing: “well obviously!!! its precious. how old are you anyway?”
me: “im twenty-one”
old lady: “u…h….. i thought you were sixteen……”

• when i walked back to my register after the break, i got asked by a new employee to help her with a machine that had ran out of receipt paper.
it was all haphazardly taped together and i didnt feel like taking the responsibility of opening it, so i asked her if there was anyone more experienced we could call over. she said there was no one.

i started stating something like “we are neck-deep in shit then”, but i spotted a child looking at us so i heroically changed it to “we are…… in a bit of a pickle :)”

• i left my register to go grab an item for a customer, and when i got back i noticed that the access to my seat was blocked by a stack of shopping baskets that reached to my waist.
i asked the customer how had i left my seat in the first place, and she claimed i swung “very athletically” over the obstacle. it sounds extremely ooc.

• despite my attempt to reach it in time, a package of pasta fell off the register with my high-pitched “nooOooOoo…” as a soundtrack

• an old lady who was clearly a zombie stole some lettuce under my horrified watch

• i interacted with a child who looked about seven and acted about fifty-four

i gave him a couple avengers figurines in hope of showing him how much his politeness and eagerness to help were appreciated, and he looked at them like they were a strange offering from a friendly but ultimately clueless alien.
i think he just wanted to go home, help his mom put the groceries away and then read papers about economics and finance.

I can’t wait until I have someone to spoil. You want the giant dinosaur? I’m going to win you that giant dinosaur. You want a large fry with those nuggets, you best believe you’re getting it. You want those new jeans that really show off your ass? Hell yeah, those jeans are yours.

Before I leave for my own camping trip, I think those two would probably love that kind of weekend.:)

they would probably try every forest they know of (wich is a lot just for canada alone) and go as far and dark as they are…

…But don’t worry nothing can happen to them.:D

(especially since I made so many AU where THEY are the scary thing in the woods.XD)

ok ok here some jikook/kookmin rant.

i noticed something thats happening lately.i need to talk about it and i saw many people thinking the same things. lately there is a lot of ship action ON CAM from bts, vmin (i really love this ship but holy shit there was a lot of moments) namjin , jungjin , vhope ,jinmin and more ships except jikook.

jikook shippers love this ship not only bc its adorable but also bc its not fanservice, like they dont interect a lot on cam, most moments are when they think they are off cam/ in the background, but bc so many ships are having so many moments lately youd expect kookmin to d fanservice and have moments as well, but guess what..THERE ISNT.

now, i find this super suspicious bc while they do a lot of moments/interact with other members in front of a camra, jimin and jungkook are the only one to not touch/ talk/interact with each other like they do with the other members except brifly touching.(im not even going to start about how clearly the members tried to separate them) we know they dont hate each other, they both really clearly love each other even if it just platonic! THEN WHY THE HELL THEY ARE DOING NOTHING IF THERE IS NOTHING GOING ON?!

im not saying that they are dating (maybe and maybe not) but we always see JK stares at JM or being jealouis at vmin or rapmin…something is going on between them, and many can call me delulu but the tension is something else,all the really small interaction on cam, the hyungs trying to come between them, like them sitting across each other at fan meeting while they always used to sit next to each other is super weird and suspicious.

edit: some people are probably like “its not that deep” and stuff like that and i understand that but it is.

1.being gay in a country who is not the most accepting is hard, even celebritis who lives in a accepting country its hard for them to come out. my country is accepting but i have so many friends that are apart from the lgbtq+ qummunity, im always searching and learning about the qummunity and the rules some countrys has againce it and storys from people.

2. i dont think people understand how twisted the industry is. espically the kpop industry. people wont let other people know theyre attracted to the same sex, they would rather marry the other sex even if they are not attracted to the person. people who came out as gay or bi or whatever are having so many hard times in korea..only a few people who are famous in korea came out, but when they came out there was so much hate it nearly end their career, only a few are still populer and have a job and one of them even killed himself bc he couldnt take all the hate.

3. now i will talk from jikook point of view if jikook is real. some idiotic fans cut for jungkook when there was a rumor which is not even true that he have a girlfriend..how do you think people who do that react if he was gay and also in a relaionship? being open about their sexuality if they are gay could ruind them but could also lift them, we could never know. if they are real and bighit and the members know, then they will do EVERYTHING for not letting peple find out. the company may even set a fake girlfriend which is a common thing to do not only in kpop.

people who came from really accepting countrys need to understand that being who you are in some countrys and have influance like bts have or any other group is dangerous. so yea, things can get really fucking deep and even deeper.

readingsbyv  asked:

If I may.. My husband and I had tried to conceive and by the 2nd time not, we had decided to jus stop "trying" and jus did our thing and by the third time it happened! If you dont think about it and jus enjoy each other, it will happen! Your body senses the stress of trying and when it does, it rejects. Good luck! Much love and many blessings to you!! xo -V.

Hey, hi, hello. I know you’re trying to help & that you think this advice is helpful & for some people it may be, but for people like me that have to actively track our ovulation because our periods aren’t exactly regular & all of that, it’s not really helpful. When we’re in the moment of trying aka having sex, we’re in the moment. We aren’t focusing on making a baby, we’re letting it be natural. That’s important & has an aspect of what you’re trying to say, but we do have to actively try because of my period & things of that nature. I’m glad you were able to conceive your way, but everyone is different, little bird. 🌿

lordsmellymort  asked:

ok so im gonna send in a whole bunch of these but first off can u draw ur headcanon cecil & carlos designs?


god settling on a design for carlos was easy peasy hes p much described fully in the show so hes good its just C ECIL oh boy cecil was fun. theres so many headcanons and everything i just. 

i went kinda boring?? i kept the popular blond hair thing but tried to make his features more. idk. i really dont know. whatever. love his fashion sense tho

also i tried something new with the way i drew and colored! i tried to make it more pixel arty but it didnt come out quite like i planned. oh well. i still like it (tho i dont think ill ever do it again bc MAN that was hard)


lizardmusic  asked:

Alright so what do you think will the last 6 episodes of adventure time be just tying up loose ends on side characters? If so do you think we'll get like some solidifying Bubbline b4 it's over? Also is it just me or is it weird that season 9 is literally just 3 episodes?

1st thing maybe but i think theyll tie up loose ends as they go along? i dont think its a good idea to try and solve Every Single Plotline at the very end of the show theres just too dang many but its. pretty possible

also i dont know, im hoping bc a lot of the storyboarders who wrapped up the show love bubbline 

and is it? i know we have 36 (or so) episodes left, im pretty sure thatll be split up between s8/s9 omg a 3 episode season doesnt sound real ahah

70 horrible questions

tagged by @moonjjongie thank uuu <33

01: Do you have a good relationship with your parents? i do, im lucky to still have both parents happily married and i get along fine with them both, even if we do have the occasional (usually passive-aggressive) spat - i rly need to remember my privilege sometimes tho i think

02: Who did you last say “I love you” to? i say it quite often so i dont really remember? i know that i last tweeted it at jinjin but i dont know who i last actually said it to? 

03: Do you regret anything? so many things tbh,, so many things

04: Are you insecure? im very insecure when it comes to romantic relationships and that sort of thing? like im genuinely terrified of never finding anyone who will want to be in a romantic relationship with me, mostly bc im already 18 and ive never had that kind of relationship or even had anyone rly be interested in me as a gf its my biggest insecurity and i hate it - other than that im genuinely quite confident? like ill have the occasional off day abt my body but i think we all have those dont we

05: What is your relationship status? lmao as previously stated, Single

06: How do you want to die? i want to die in my sleep, i dont want to know, i just want to go peacefully

07: What did you last eat? chicken jalfrezi haha it was great

08: Played any sports? i used to play a lot in primary school but not recently (unless u count dance?)

09: Do you bite your nails? nooo and i never have actually, i tend to tear them instead

10: When was your last physical fight? ive never physically fought anyone?

11: Do you like someone? i thought i did but idk? it might just be my ‘im tired of not being in a relationship’ side acting up

12: Have you ever stayed up 48 hours? not 48, not yet anyway hahah

13: Do you hate anyone at the moment? not anyone i actually know irl or talk to online, which is the most important

14: Do you miss someone? i dont really miss them considering ive never met them, but i miss not being able to interact with all my online friends irl like i wanna meet u guys; ellie (we’ve been so close to meeting once,,, soon we will), mandy, nat, elizabeth, ibone (we’ve been friends for literally like 4 years i think ill cry when we eventually meet ((and we will!! even if i have to fuckin fly to spain)))

15: Have any pets? a dog named peppa and a cat named hubble (my precious babies)

16: How exactly are you feeling at the moment? not really feelin anything in particular?? quite tired and sleepy i guess

17: Ever made out in the bathroom? ive never made out with anyone full stop lol

18: Are you scared of spiders? eh not really? like i dont like them but i wont scream if i see them

19: Would you go back in time if you were given the chance? oh definitely

20: Where was the last place you snogged someone? i hAVENT SNOGGED ANYONE

21: What are your plans for this weekend? nothing so far,, might try and meet up with some friends

22: Do you want to have kids? How many? maybe,, it really depends on my partner, i think if i did have kids i’d adopt at least one, as well as having my own children

23: Do you have piercings? How many? i just have one piercing in each ear but i generally dont wear earrings anymore so they mightve closed up tbh

24: What is/are/were your best subject(s)? english literature and classical civilisations at the moment

25: Do you miss anyone from your past? nah 

26: What are you craving right now? all these romance questions are really making me want to cuddle someone (*coughs* jinwoo *coughs) 

27: Have you ever broken someone’s heart? idk

28: Have you ever been cheated on? never been in a relationship so, no

29: Have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry? -_-

30: What’s irritating you right now? the fact im single apparently

31: Does somebody love you? id like to think my parents and friends love me, bc i sure do love them

32: What is your favourite color? blueee

33: Do you have trust issues? no not at all tbh

34: Who/what was your last dream about? i honestly have no clue,, i rarely remember dreams its so sad :(


36: Do you give out second chances too easily? ive never really had to? so idk

37: Is it easier to forgive or forget? forgive, bc then youve confronted the issue, its hard to forget smth if u havent solved or at least talked it out

38: Is this year the best year of your life? im hoping the long summer holiday ill have and uni will make it the best year of my life so far

39: How old were you when you had your first kiss? L O L

40: Have you ever walked outside completely naked? no ?? wtf

51: Favourite food? pizzaaaa

52: Do you believe everything happens for a reason? yeah i think so

53: What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night? i watched monsta x ray lmao

54: Is cheating ever okay? NOPE NEVER

55: Are you mean? i dont ever try to be, i hope im not

56: How many people have you fist fought? zero

57: Do you believe in true love? ive never experienced any kind of romantic love like that so i have no idea?? like the romanticist in me wants to but im kinda of the ‘seeing is believing’ type so

58: Favourite weather? sunnnn

59: Do you like the snow? hell YEs

60: Do you wanna get married? Y E S

61: Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby? idfk like maybe? depends on the tone of voice i guess like it could sound patronising 

62: What makes you happy? kim jonghyun, choi minho, kim kibum, lee jinki, lee taemin, park jinwoo, kim myungjun, lee dongmin, moon bin, park minhyuk, yoon sanha, my dog, my cat 

63: Would you change your name? i think so? i might double barrel it or smth

64: Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed? I HAVENT KISSED ANYONE

65: Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do? depends on how i feel abt them doesnt it,, i dont hv a bff of the opposite sex so idk

66: Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around? nah

67: Who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to? my dad

68: Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with? i cant remember lmao

69: Do you believe in soulmates? i doo

70: Is there anyone you would die for? all the people i care abt tbh

i tag @5hineesback @seung-boo-kwan @chikookie @x-xcviii-o @xletthefireburntheicex @tak-uya @jinjins-freckles @you-me-at-idk @real-bad-egg @twaision @morningjimin

obvs these really are quite not nice questions so pls dont feel obligated to do it, or maybe leave certain questions blank if u dont want to answer

Inner monologue

Feel free to ignore my random brain musings towards my future self…

To do list:

Update Writing Master List (again? How many times am I going to have to update this thing?)

Brainstorm ideas for commission.

Finish an ML drabble or chapter (seriously you have a folder filled with work waiting to be finished!! For the love of all the is good pick something and write it!!)

Do annotated bibliography search (school stuff)

Read a chapter from Frankel (reading fanfics will not help you write that book report)

Do NOT start a new fanfic- finish one of the ones you have!! (Seriously, i know what you’re thinking- dont do it!!)

Do not watch princess bride (you’ve already watched it twice this week, please pick a different movie!)

If you complete all this you may work on one of your original book/fic ideas (future me: *holds up tablet* me: No! Thats all you’ve done for weeks! Future me: but- Me: nuh uh your wrist is having problems- just put the damn tablet down for a day! Future me: *hisses* Me: did you…? Did you just hiss at me?! Future me: *scurries off with tablet* Me: oh hell no! Get back here!!!)

HELLO I NEED UR HELP MY KIDS so im planning a trip to visit syrian refugees in their camps this summer in jordan and sweden/germany since i have my uncles there but id need money for myself bc i cant afford it and i wanna take things w me to the kids like cute little bags and stuff????

Sooooo ideas to raise money??? anything i can do in my school/neighborhood ? sell something? work on something? Please please suggest i really want to do it this year