i dont miss a thing

Sometimes it feels like I’m drowning and I just–suffocate.

Lance starts being afraid of what he loves

(tryna color but obviously failing)

bonus slav:

they bond over mutual fear (shiro is not amused and hunk is low key worried about lance)

All right so in the wake of that new KH3 trailer I’m seeing an increase in confusion among fans re: how it’s possible for Sora and Roxas (and, by extension, Ventus) to exist at the same time. Because I just love tl;dring more than anything - plus helping people out is nice too - let’s review:

  • Roxas was born during KH1 when Sora turned the Keyblade on himself and removed his heart. Unlike most Nobodies, Sora himself didn’t become a Nobody, but produced a separate, physical individual entirely different from himself. Roxas, at the time of his creation, was an empty body with no heart.
  • At the end of Chain of Memories, Namine has to take Sora’s memories apart and put them back together, a process that takes months to complete. As explained by Namine during 358/2 Days, some of these memories find their way into Roxas, presumably having naturally gravitated to him since he’s a part of Sora. (Note that this, going by the calendar in Days, occurs after Roxas comes out of Zombie Mode and starts developing a personality. Sora’s memories are extra, not a core piece of his personality/existence.) 
  • From Roxas, some of Sora’s memories find their way into Xion because of her ability to copy Roxas.
  • As also explained by Namine and Riku, Xion contains Sora’s most precious memories: Kairi. Without them, he can’t wake up. Namine says that the “best” solution is for both Roxas and Xion to die since they’re “fighting so hard to be their own people” and the memories can’t be taken back from them any other way. (And this is just my speculation here, but I imagine Roxas needed to go primarily because he could continue to threaten Sora as an unintentional conduit for those memories to escape into someone else again - a second Xion, so to speak, if Xemnas went that far.)
  • After Xion and Roxas return to Sora, his memory is completed and he wakes.

Prior to Sora’s memory being scrambled by Namine, Roxas was no “threat” to him. He was his own separate person. It was because he was unfortunately caught up in the middle of everything that he had to return to Sora, in order to complete the latter’s memory. Thus, if Roxas were recreated (by whatever means), he shouldn’t take any of Sora’s memory because Sora’s memory is intact now. And since Roxas grew his own heart, he’s now a heart inside of Sora’s with his own emotions and memories; recreating him isn’t necessarily a matter of creating an entirely new person again, but freeing his heart (and giving him a body, however that’s going to work, which also applies to Xion and Namine and presumably Terra and Eraqus, as well, if you want to get into all that).

So, really, there should be no co-existence issues between Roxas and Sora in the future - or, better put, there’s definitely room in the established lore for the possibility of their co-existence. Granted, I’m sure it won’t be a simple matter (hence Xemnas’ suggestion) but when thought out alongside all the past indications that Roxas will be saved, it’s definitely likely.

As for Ven: for some reason there’s even more skepticism that Ven and Roxas could co-exist than there is for Sora and Roxas. Roxas is arguably more Sora than he is Ven; Roxas shared a lot of Sora’s memories, rejoined with him directly, and even told Sora in DDD “You’re me.” …And yet it’s now entirely plausible that they can co-exist. There’s no more of a connection between Roxas and Ven than there is Roxas and Sora - except that they share the same face, which really means nothing - so if Roxas and Sora can exist at the same time, Roxas and Ven most certainly can, as well.

so shhh sshhhhh enough of this “Ven and Roxas will merge into one person” nonsense we will have both precious children alive and awake and safe or so help me

I got tired of drawing OW characters so I took a break- 

it’s been two days and I already miss drawing them lmao

its been so long but im still trying to figure out how you could go from “i love you” to “i don’t care about you anymore” in such a short amount of time

Tuesday ~ 19:30

Last night as I was staring at the ceiling, just thinking, I realised that I don’t miss you anymore, I don’t miss you like I used too and I feel, free. I remember wishing you would appear in front of my eyes and we would collapse in a blur of limbs and kisses, I would miss your scent on my neck and wrapped around my waist like ribbon. I guess it took time, and time is healing me.

them..

So, I hadn’t really intended to address the matter but I’m receiving a lot of asks and pm’s about it + it’s in the press here so i might as well just get it out of the way real quickly. 
Two metastases (new tumors created by the main one) have been found in my dad’s liver and it’s shitty but that’s just the way it is. I’d rather not discuss it and while i really am super appreciative of all your support and kindness I would rather not receive asks or stuff about it. I’m finishing up final exams and shit and i just need to focus on the things that i actually have control over (like my grades). 
so thank you all and i hope this answered your questions. 

Some days I think I’m over him and then there are days where I end up crying on the bathroom floor till 5:00 am staring at his picture, wondering why he thought I wasn’t good enough. Cursing myself for not being good enough for him.
— 


Excerpts from the book I’ll never write #283

03/15/2016

9:34 pm

Shout out to all the trans aces who:

  • Don’t feel ‘truly’ asexual because you don’t know whether your dysphoria is having an affect on your sexuality
  • Feel that your trans-ness can’t be removed from your ace-ness but are told it should be
  • Don’t feel comfortable in hypersexual LGBT spaces
  • Have had your asexuality invalidated by people who say you can’t be ace and trans
  • Have had your trans-ness invalidated by people who say you can’t be ace and trans
  • Are happy that you’re trans and ace
  • Are sad that you’re trans and ace

Your feelings are valid. Your identities are valid. And you are amazing (ace, even!).