i dont know why i am doing this to myself!!!!!!!!

100 Dialogue Prompts: Part 4

It’s amazing to see how much we can create together, my amigos. Here’s part 4.

  1. “Look, I might be evil but even I have standards.”
  2. “Do your parents know you’re dating Death?” “No, I promised we wouldn’t get back together after he broke up with me the first time.”
  3. “Wait why am I naked and covered in cheese?”
  4. “Good god, that cake is fuckin stale and dry mate!!” “Just like how you are recently? Gee, thanks.”
  5. "There is always time for a high-five.”
  6. “Karen, what would ever posses you to find me here.”
  7. “Oh my god, put that man down! Come on, let’s go get you some REAL food.”
  8. “A demonic sugar glider?”
  9. “People always say they never thought they would be here but I absolutely did.”
  10. “And I thought I was a bit weird. But you! You are insane!”
  11. “So your hair knows kung-fu? Ha, that’s nothing! MY hair knows HAIR-ATE!” (You know, as in karate) (This used to be an insider between me and a friend…)
  12. “One day, darling, you and I are going to conquer the Universe not just our world.”
  13. “Did you seriously think they wouldn’t notice when their humans went missing?!”
  14. “Well, maybe next time you should consider that not everyone wants to be woken up at four in the morning by a- what IS that, anyway?!”
  15. “Now, how exactly did your foot get stuck in the barrel?”
  16. “I hope you realize what you’re doing. This forest never ends, you know that, right?”
  17. “You can’t just kill someone and then make it all better by saying sorry!”
  18. “Why the fuck is my cat levitating?!” “He said he wanted to feel what flying was”
  19. “You’re trying to tell me you killed three men…with a microphone?”
  20. “Hang on, are you a John Wick fan?”
  21. “IT’S TWO IN THE MORNING!” “And?” “ I have a strict no murder rule until eight. Call me then.”
  22. “I did realize you were going to be naked the whole time”
  23. “Ok, I understand you like animals, but you can’t just bring a tiger into the apparent without asking!”
  24. “I…I didn’t want you to find out like this. I’m so sorry.”
  25. “OH MY GOD CATHERINE! I JUST SAW A NARWHAL! I’M TELLING YOU, I SAW A FREAKIN’ WHALE UNICORN!”
  26. “I gotta go, I left my toaster in the oven!
  27. "Why is there a gaggle of fancy buisness men on my front lawn?”
  28. “Can you please stop referring to me as ____! That’s not my name!” “Then what is?” “I don’t know!”
  29. *Sarcastic* “Yeah, sure. I won’t at all mind being your footslave.” “Oh, goody! I knew you’d agree!” “Wait, what?”
  30. “When are you going to give up on this whole ‘evil’ thing?” “When it stops being so much fun!”
  31. “You didnt say to KILL the man!” “WELL I DIDNT SAY NOT TOO”
  32. “Mum, Dad… I’m gay.” “That’s nice, honey, but now is not the right time!”
  33. “Take a look at your soul and consider your life choices! Oh wait, that’s right! You don’t fucking have a soul!” “Oh, god, just go drown in a bathtub of syrup why don’t ya?”
  34. “I kindly ask you to please quit making your heart stop. It’s creeping me out!” “So… Y-You were sleeping in a coffin” “Yeah I’m used to it” “Are you a vampire or what?! How can someone get used to sleep in a coffin?” “No I’m used to sleep I never said that I’m used to sleep in a freaking coffin!”
  35. “Darling I love you, more than I can ever express in words…. But please stop teaching chickens necromancy.”
  36. “I wanted to know why you stole souls, not your melodramatic backstory…”
  37. “I really wish that old white man would stop rubbing his nipples at me”
  38. “You know it is written: Do not summon Satan, right ?”
  39. “Look around, what is this?” “My room?” “No, this is pathetic.”
  40. “I’ve been a professor for 20 years, and yet still my greatest secret hasn’t been revealed–I can’t read.”
  41. “Our souls don’t belong in these 'human’ bodies, every one of us is implanted here from another galaxy, and this has been the case for a thousand years. No one knows what 'actual humans’ are like without us inhabiting them.”
  42. “Did you just create a portal in time and space to pull another version of yourself into this world so I have to deal with another annoying idiot?” “No but thanks for the idea.”
  43. “You’re bleeding?!” “Nah, I’m frolicing in a field of flowers - yes I’m bleeding!”
  44. “Let me get this straight. I tell you that I make a decent omelette and you somehow equate that to qualification for piloting a spaceship?”
  45. “It’s the weekend! Let’s hit the town! See a concert, redo our wardrobes, get high, start a crime ring, I don’t know.”
  46. “Keep running, you’ve only got 4HP!”
  47. “This is clearly your first time. Stop screaming already, you’ll wake the neighbors!”
  48. “Has anyone seen the outdoors?” “What the fuck is an outdoors?”
  49. “Why do I feel like this again, I thought we were done with this?”
  50. “Look, as much as I like to hang out with you, I’ve gotta go and save the earth. Toodles!”
  51. “Have you seen?… oh shit”
  52. “Two questions: one, how many matches do you have, and two, where do you keep your socks?”
  53. “Because fuck surveys, that’s why!”
  54. “Stop yelling out the window or the koalas will rip your face off!”
  55. “I guess when I heard 'Night of Debauchery’… I didn’t picture muffins on your pajamas.”
  56. “Honey, you can’t keep throwing people to the pit of pain and despair just because they don’t like choc mint ice cream.”
  57. “Oh, no honey, put that back…”
  58. “It’s going to be too late, you know. It’s always too late.”
  59. “Hey, so, uh… I’m in trouble…” “What did you do this time?” “I got stranded in Wales….. again…”
  60. “OK, but… how do we get the dog out of a hole in space in time exactly?”
  61. “Aren’t people supposed to grow instead of shrink ?”
  62. “Wait. You’re aroused?” “Why would that surprise you?” “It does on account of you being covered in blood. Wipe that smile off your face. You look like a cat in heat.”
  63. "I pay your taxes”
  64. “No, ____. We did not raise our hamster like this.”
  65. “You can’t run from your own shadow(s), what makes you think you can run from theirs?”
  66. “You adopted… a dog?” “Mate, that’s not a dog.”
  67. “And at this moment, he decided to punch himself in the face.” “Narrator, listen, I know you’ve been with me my whole life, but you’re a huge jerk.”
  68. “Why didn’t you tell me it was a portal BEFORE we ended up here?”
  69. “Is that…the Mona Lisa.” “…Yes…” “What did I say to you about stealing priceless artifacts!?” “…That I had to take you with me next time.” “Exactly!”
  70. “Yes, I agree, magic is pretty cool. But did you really have to use it for THIS?”
  71. “Despite the fact that was epic, you’re still suspended”
  72. “Chill, dad it’s not what you think it is!” “Well it looks like you’re making out with the demon your grandma banished to cellar…WHY IS HE IN YOUR ROOM?”
  73. “If you truly love me you’ll let me-OH FUCKING HELL DID YOU JUST STAB ME!?”
  74. “Spoon”
  75. “What began as a conflict over the transfer of consciousness from flesh to machines escalated into a war which has decimated a Million worlds.The ___ and the ___ have all but exhausted the the resources of a galaxy in their struggle for domination. Both sides, now crippled beyond repair, the remnants of their armies continue to battle on ravaged planets, their hatred fueled by over four thousand years of total war. This is a fight to the death. For each side, the only acceptable outcome is…“
  76. ”… I’m going back to bed. You brought it here, you can deal with the mammoth yourself.“
  77. "Is the food supposed to be moving?”
  78. “You mean to tell me that in the two minutes I was gone,  you bombed a minor country,  got married to a stripper,  and assassinated a world leader?!”
  79. “Is that a unicorn???? EATING MY BEEF JERKY?!”
  80. “Do I get to dream about you again tonight?”
  81. “Well now I have to change clothes AGAIN!”
  82. “All of this was because of a… OF A PLUSHIE?!” “Well…Yeah?” “Great, how are we going to get out of jail now?!”
  83. “So…you gonna tell me why my brother is upside down and why you’re wearing my purple thong?”
  84. “Did you really have to burn down another Cracker Barrel?”
  85. “Sir, that’s impossible, you can’t do that.” “IS THAT A FUCKING CHALLENGE?!?!”
  86. “We need to invade Portugal.” “…Sure, why not?”
  87. “Did you divide by zero?! YOU’RE GOING TO KILL US ALL”
  88. “Stand down, Milady, this is a matter between gentlemen with mustaches.”
  89. “Next time you get arrested I am NOT paying your bail” “That’s a lie and you know it.” “….”
  90. “I thought you were dead.” “So did I”
  91. “John dont flush the dog down the toilet”
  92. “What did I say again about resurrecting dictators??”
  93. “Cucumbers are NOT pets… what do you mean, you ate him??”
  94. “Are you and God seriously fighting right now? And what happened to Satan?”
  95. “Are ferrets supposed to be blue??”
  96. “I’m the protagonist? Well I guess that explains why I look like about a thousand other people.”
  97. “Why do I do this to myself?”
  98. “Stop eating your tortilla chips with ketchup. It’s unattractive.”
  99. “How do you eat an entire cheese wheel in one sitting?”
  100. “Why are God and Satan moving in with us?”

Let’s make one more ‘100 Dialogue Prompts’ list together. Leave a comment with your prompt below. Don’t forget the double quotes “”. And as always, only one prompt per amigo! Also, here is your random Dutch word of the day: pindakaas

you know how they say some people are born to be famous…thats kyungsoo. he may seem too shy/quiet to be a celebrity but hes so well-spoken, doesnt get himself into controversies, handles stressful situations like theyre nothing, is able to face thousands of people with such ease, doesnt give a fuck about what people say about him, confident but is so humble at the same time. i dont know how he does it.

how i know i will fail my exam(s)
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Fucked Up|| John Swazz Imagine

You and Swazz have been together for about 6 months. Everything’s been great. You both were down for each other…plus the sex was amazing. But lately you’ve been missing the sex. Swazz has been busy latley and he seemed like he never had time for you anymore. You always had make yourself feel good because John was never around.
……..
You were laying on the couch when the door closed and you saw Swazz walk over and sit next to you on the couch. You leaned over and tried to kiss him but he moved away. You rolled your eyes.

“What is up with you lately” you say a little annoyed.

“Nothing. What’s with you.” he gave attitude back.

“Oh I don’t know…my boyfriend is being a complete asshole. Won’t even acknowledge me.” you say rolling my eyes.

“Why do you need attention every 5 seconds. I mean for fucks sake Y/N” he says more annoyed than before. You were taken a back. “YOU THINK I NEED ATTENTION EVERY 5 SECONDS! YOURE SHITTING ME RIGHT. I DONT EVEN FUCKING SEE YOU. GOD FORBID I WANT TO LOVE MY BOYFRIEND. I MEAN SHIT SWAZZ…IVE BEEN GETTING OFF BY MYSELF BECAUSE GOD FORBID YOU WOULD TOUCH ME. AM I NOT GOOD ENOUGH FOR YOU ANYMORE!” you yell. “NO. YOU ARENT” he yells back. Tears fell from your eyes. “WELL FUCK YOU TO! Have fun being single” you cry walking away. You walked up to your shared bedroom and grabbed a bag and started packing some clothes. Tears falling from your face every few seconds. You were so angry. You showed him nothing but love and support. You were so absorbed in your thoughts when you heard the door slam shut. “What are you doing” you hear his voice say. “Leaving” you sniffle. You put more clothes in the bag when he grabbed your wrist. “Let me go.” you say. You try to leave his grip but it doesn’t happen. He pulls you into him and you cry into his chest. He rubs your back. “Shit mami…I am so sorry. I didn’t mean any of it. You are more than enough for me. Hell I don’t deserve you half the time. I love you. I really am sorry. You can be mad at me all you want but please don’t leave.” he says. You sigh. You were head over heels for him. Your head leaves his cues and you look up at him. “I love you too” you sigh. “Please don’t leave” he sighs. “I won’t. Just don’t ever say anything like that again..” you say. He nods. He leans down and kisses you. He pulls away and a smirk forms. “What?” you say. “You’ve been getting off by yourself?” he smiles. “Yea…why?” “Well that’s not fair…let’s fix that” he picks you up and throws you on the bed pushing the bag of clothes off the bed.

what i really hate the most about bpd as a whole is the massive self doubt when i don’t feel or get some form of acceptance or attention.

it makes me feel disgusted about myself.

like i know its not good to sit here and wait for validation

and when i dont get it my immediate thoughts are ‘why am i not good enough’ or ‘i knew it’ and that thought process will spiral out of control

and yet i do it again and again because that feels so innate to me and i dont know how to stop

anonymous asked:

I just relapsed after almost 4 years of not harming myself. I don't know who else to tell. I am so sad and so ashamed. I worked so hard 😭

I want you to understand something.

I know it took a lot of courage for you to come to me. to tell me. to admit it. 

I know the pain and sorrow and despair that drove you to it.

I know you feel alone and hopeless.

and all of that… is perfectly ok.

your feelings are valuable. important. and its okay.

I know why you did it. i understand it. and its okay.

but also understand this….

you dont have to do that. because you’re beautiful, and important… at least to me. if you’re reading my blog.. you mean something to me. if you gain even one ounce of improvement from what i write.. you are important to me. you matter. you mean something. and you dont have to do that to yourself.

you did what you thought was right for the time. theres no shame in that.

our mistakes are what make us grow. make us strong. unite us for a better tomorrow. Take the positives you learned from this and apply them to that future. throw everything else away… everything else doesnt matter.

its a new day now. a new chance. a new opportunity to take that one step forward. and you can… and you will… and i know these things.

you ARE strong… you have been and you will be. I have faith in you. I believe in you.

pick yourself up. get back to work. the road ahead is long… and I need you to be here. littles like you are what keep me going. keep me growing.. you… you help me. you are a great helper. 

and I am proud of you.

Forbidden

The cliche story of a love that is forbidden.

Pairing - Taehyung x Reader

Genre - High school Au

Part 1/?

Word Count - 3000+

A/n - I make Taehyung out to be such a villain in all of my other stories so I needed something to do him justice. Let me know if you guys enjoy and want more of this

Masterlist


There was never a dull moment.

“Does this seem like a good idea to you because right now I’m having second thoughts.”

“It’ll be fine. No one knows we are here.”

“I just don’t want to get into trouble. Are we even allowed up here?” I questioned.

“We aren’t going to get in trouble, don’t worry. Do you trust me?”

“Of course I trust you.”

“Okay then, lets go.” He said holding my hand and guiding me towards the roof.

Seven months ago I would have never been in this situation. Seven months ago I would have been in my room, probably studying for a test or something, blissfully unaware of how medicore my life was.

That’s all because seven months ago, I hadn’t met him. The boy who came into my life and completely changed my world.

His name was Taehyung, Kim Taehyung or Tae as I called him. He was an extraordinary person, someone that you des

I never noticed him, never really paid attention to him. If I said that I’d be lying. I did notice him, far more than anyone would know. I caught myself stealing quick glances at him, that turned into stares and I was only snapped out of my daydream by someone wanting my attention.

He was so quiet, didn’t speak much. Had a small group of friends that I had seen him around but that was basically everyone. I had never heard him say anything in class, he didn’t even say anything to me when he was at my home. Oh wait… there was that one time when he asked if I could get out of the pool so that the could clean it.

I’ve realized that I’ve spent a significant deal of time thinking about someone who has no regard for me. Someone who I’ve only uttered one sentence to. But it was something about him. He was so mysterious with his tall stature, dark eyes and chocolate colored locks that fell on his face. I would notice him sometimes, how he would blow his hair out of his face instead of actually using his hands to brush it out of the way.

Why was I noticing little things about this guy that I dont even know? Why was my mind so attracted to him?

“I hope you have all writen down your assignments because I am not going to be repeating myself.” My teacher warned right before the bell rang and the classroom started to shuffle out. I sat there frozen in my seat for a while, assignment?

Ah the history assignment, our end of term project that we were going to be doing along with an assigned partner. Crap what’s my assignment? And who is my partner?

“Did you hear me?” A deep voice asked requiring me to look up from my desk interrupting my thoughts.

“Huh?” I asked realizing that it was Taehyung.

“I said should we meet at your house tomorrow? Or did you have plans?” He asked.

My house? Why would we be meeting at my house?

“For the pool?” I ask, slightly embarrassed that I had no clue what was going on.

“What? No for the project.” He replied.

Ahh the teacher had assigned me and him together. Wait, I’m working on a project with Kim Taehyung? That means that I get to share more than one simple converstaion with him. That means that I will actually get to speak with him, and on a regular basis. I wasn’t too sure how I felt about this.

“Oh project, yes of course.” I replied.

“Six o clock good for you?” He asked.

“Yeah, yeah anytime is fine.”

“Okay, I’ll see you tomorrow y/n.” He said with a slight smile and this may have been the first time I had seen him smile, it was glorious. Not only that but he knew my name. I didn’t think he knew my first name, my last name of course because he worked for my parents, but not my first name.

He walked off and I waved at him. Which I realized was extremely awkward but It was fine because two of my closest friends just so happened to be at the door of the classroom greeting me. So i played it off well.

They approcahed me with a telling look on their faces. “What was that about?”

“What was what about?” I asked.

“Don’t play dumb with us. We just saw you talking to Taehyung. What’s going on with that?”

“Oh, nothing. We have a project together.” I replied gathering my things.

“I don’t know if I should be jealous or feel bad for you, he’s hot but he has a rep.” My friend Sunny said.

“What kind of reputation?” Sure I had heard quite a few things but I wasn’t sure if I believed them.

“I heard he got expelled from his last school for stabbing a guy with a knife!” She said.

“Yeah and I heard that he’s a drug dealer.” My other friend Jessica added.

“Haha you guys are absolutely ridiculous.” I laughed.

“What, we need to fill you in on your new bad boy history partner.”

“I doubt any of those things you said about him are true. He’s certainly not a drug dealer.” I replied.

“How would you know that?” Sunny said.

Because if he was he wouldn’t be working for my parents cleaning my pool on a daily basis. I thought but of course I couldn’t let the girls know that, I felt like it wasnt my place to share his private life with others.

So I stayed quiet instead. “See you don’t know anything about him. He could be bad news for all that we know.” Jessica stated.

“Or, he could be a nice guy.” I replied.

“I’m gonna say no.” Sunny said.

“Well I guess Ill find out tomorrow.”

“Tomorrow?” Aren’t we putting the finishing touches on your party plans tomorrow? She asked.

“Oh man I forgot about that. But its fine everything’s basically ready for the party.”

“Oh alright well let us know everything that happens with him okay?” Sunny demanded.

“Fine fine I’ll fill you guys in. Now can we talk about something else other than boys and parties?”


Taehyung’s POV

Originally posted by glittersoo

He knew that he was in love with her the moment he saw her cry

Taehyung was always a hard worker. He was dedicated to the task at hand and made sure that he would get it done in an efficient manner.

An although this was his first job, he felt pretty confident in his abilities. Until y/n started swimming in the pool a lot more. He tried so hard, to stay focused. But how could he when she was laid out on display for his viewing.

At first he was uninterested. He thought that she was a beautiful girl but that was about it. He had never gone out of his way to make conversation and neither had she.

Until the day he saw her cry at her sixteenth birthday party. He was outside fishing red solo cups out from the pool when she came outside unaware of his presence. She stood there for a while as if she was thinking about something before tears started to fall out of her eyes.

She was a silent cryer. Taehyung wouldn’t have even know she was crying if it wasn’t for him seeing the tears fall down her eyes from his view at the side of the pool.

When he saw her cry he realized that she was a human being just like he was. That she was capable of feelings and emotions just like anyone else.

See this whole time, Taehyung had some sort of animosity towards the wealthy. His mom had told him stories and he had seen the way they mistreated the help. But something about y/n was different, and as she silently sobbed Taehyung desired nothing more than to go to her. To console her and tell her that everything was going to be alright.

He couldn’t, he felt like that would be totally hypocritical. Because Taehyung had been crying a lot those days as well. After years of battling with lung cancer his father had finally passed. Meaning that not only did he have to comfort his grieveing mother he had to grieve as well.

Which would have been a bit of an easier process if it wasnt for his need to get a job. His family was swimming in debt. His dad had left behind a large amount of medical bills and the salary that his mom was given by the Y/l/n’s family was just enough to get by.

He knew that he needed to help his mom out with medical bills and he wanted his mom to be able to buy his little sister school clothes. So when his mom told him that her employers were hiring for a pool guy he obviously accepted the job. This way he’d still be able to go to school and work.

He had recieved a scholarship to a prestigious high school and he was able to transfer his sophmore year. That’s when he noticed y/n. They girl that he had seen crying outside of her mansion. He wondered if she could reconize him but she never looked his way or uttered a single word to him.

It didn’t bother him though, because he knew the true y/n. He’d see her sometimes sitting out by the pool listening to music and writing. She would write so much. Taehyung wondered if her friends at school knew that she loved to write.

She was popular. She was really popular. It seemed like every girl in the school wanted to be her friend and every boy wanted to date her. Taehyung wasn’t sure if she was single or not,  either way it didn’t matter. It’s not like she would ever date Taehyung, and he was fine with that. He was perfectly content with admiring her beauty as he cleaned her pool. He was fine with passing her in the hallway and seeing her laughing with her friends. That was enough for him.

Everything would change today though. His teacher had paired the two of them together and he was currently standing outside of her house waiting for the door to be answered. His mom answered the door suprised but also showing a warm smile when she greeted him. “I thought you had the day off today? So that you could study.” His mom questioned.

“I am off today. I’m here for school.” Taehyung smiled back walking into the enormous place that he had been to so many times, but this time it actually felt different. He wasn’t here to work, but he was there as a guest.

“For school?” His mom started but was cut off by y/n’s voice.

“Taehyung?” She called from the top of the winding staircase. “Come up here.” She smiled and Taehyung felt like her smile could light up a city.

He nodded and started to walk towards the stairs but not before turning around and saying “see you at home mom” to his mother who was now wearing a concered look on her face.

Once he made it to the top of the staircase y/n greeted him. “Hey, thanks for coming.”

“No problem.” He replied back as he looked around.

“Here come this way.” She motioned as she guided him down the hallway.

He followed behind her noticing that the place was even bigger than his mom had discribed it to be. They passed a few rooms before finally stopping at a place with a large amount of books on display.

“This is our library.  We can study in here if you’d like.” She asked.

Taehyung nodded, he was impressed with the amount of space but also worried knowing that his mother had to clean this place everyday.

“Sit down silly.” Y/n said and Taehyung became fully aware of the fact that she had sat down and he was still standing. He sat down quickly blowing his hair out of his face and causing y/n to laugh.

“Would you like any snacks or anything?” She asked.

“No, I’m fine. I ate earlier.” He replied.

“What did you eat?” She inquired.

Taehyung thought for a moment,  as he really had forgotten what he had eaten. “I ate pizza.” He said finally remembering.

“Wow and you didn’t think to bring me any?” She said with a serious look on her face.

“I um - I”

“I’m just messing with you Tae.” She replied laughing slightly.

“Tae?”

“Oh, I’m sorry. Is it okay if I call you that?”

The fact that she had asked. The fact that she had genuinely thought that calling him Tae would offend him just went to show how little she knew about him.

“You can call me anything you’d like.” Were the words that came out of Taehyung’s mouth.

“Okay, well Tae it is.” She smiled back. Before pulling out her book and opening it up on the table.

“Okay. Let’s work shall we?”


Y/n’s POV

We had been working on the project for a good hour. Taehyung said that he had done research on this subject a bit before at his old school so he had a pretty extensive knowledge of it, which was helpful.

I wanted to ask him more questions but I found myself getting lost in his eyes. He would read outloud in his book and all I can do was stare at him as the words came out of his mouth.

When he asked a question, I’d just nod and he’d take that as I understood and continue on. We were making a lot of progress with the assignment until my phone starting to ring, for the third time in the course of an hour.

“You should answer it.” Taehyung said.

“No it’s nothing important really. My friends just want to know what im wearing to my party tomorrow.”

“Oh, a party?” He asked inquisitively.

“Yes my seventeenth birthday party. Now that I think about it.” I said an idea forming in my head. “You could help me, I’m stuck picking between two dresses.”

“Me? I dont really know too much about fashion.” He replied leaning back in his chair.

“Oh come on, it’s not that difficult.” I said.

“Okay, show me the dresses.” He replied giving in.

A smiled flashed across my face as I arose from my seat. “I’ll be right back, don’t go anywhere.” I called.

“I wasn’t planning on it.” He called back.

I rushed to my room to get the two dresses I was deciding on. I laid them out on my bed viewing them before finally trying on one. After it was on I glanced in the mirror before I returned to the library to show Tae.

When I entered the library he was on his phone. I cleared out my throat so that he would notce that I entered the room and when I did his phone slid out of his hand.  I watched as he took in the very sight of me and my cheeks starting to burn as I wondered what he was thinking.

“Oh.” Was the only word that he said and I immediately felt embarrassed. As if I was offering myself up for him and he was clearly uninterested.

“Oh? Is it that bad?” I asked feeling regret for showing him this.

“What? No!” He said standing up.“You look, breathtaking.” He finally stated making my heart flutter.

“Really?” I said spinning around to give him a full veiw.

“Wait.” He said stopping me in my tracks as he walked over to me.

“What is it?” I asked and he said nothing. He walked behind me standing so close to me that I could feel the heat of his warm breathe on the back on my neck.

I wanted to ask him what he was doing and but my heart was beating so fast and I worried that the words would come out as a stutter so instead I just stood there. He softly traced the outline of my back before finally placing his hand on my zipper and pulling up.

“Your zipper wasn’t all the way up.” He stated calmly. I wondered how he could be so calm in this situation. I was virtually panicing and he just seemed so relaxed and laid back.

I spun around so that I was facing and we were mere inches apart. He towered over me and I looked up at him and gulped at the close proximity of our bodies. “Thank you.” I choked out.

“No problem.” He replied as he walked back over to whrre he was sitting and took his sit, immediately going back to his book while I stood there, heart on fire.

“I guess I’ll go try on the next dress.” I stated and started to exit.

“No need.” He stated eyes still glued to his book.

“Why not?” I asked.

“Because.” He said finally looking up from the book. “That dress was made for you.”

Thank god he had returned to reading as soon as he said that, him witnessing the huge grin that I was wearing would have been morifying.

I went to change back into normal clothes and then met him back in the library. I sat down and it’s as if he didn’t notice I was back because he didn’t look up at me until I spoke.

“I was thinking.” I started.

“Thinking what?” He asked now full attention towards me.

“Would you like to come to the party? If you don’t feel comfortable going you can bring your friends.” There was an awkward silence for a moment and I felt like I shouldnt have asked.

“You don’t have to come if you don’t want to.” I said.

“I’ll be there.” He said finally closing his book and smiling. He placed it into his backpack and stood up from the chair.

“Okay.” I smiled back.

“But I have somethings I need to take care of at home, so I need to head out now.”

“Yeah, no problem ” I said standing up so that I could walk him down the stairs. Once we got to the door we stood there for a brief second.

“So I guess I’ll see you tomorrow?” I stated leaning on the door.

“Yes. See you tomorrow ” he replied.

I watched him walk down the stairs and towards the gate to exit before he stopped briefly and turned around.

“Oh and y/n, you should really wear that dress.”


anonymous asked:

i always find myself stalking ur blog and honestly i dont know :( u reblogged my post once before and i cant believe you become this Big on tumblr ❤️ goodluck with errthang

THANK YOUUUU!!! Oh boi let us be mutuals pleaaaaaase. I wanna stalk you too now ❤️ 

Actually me too I can’t believe how much love and support this blog is getting (WHY? HOW?). I am very grateful to all my lovely followers and mutuals (I know I brag about them a lot, but no one can stop me I will keep doing it) I am vee~ery thankful. This blog is faaar from perfect and it still can’t compare to real big blogs, but their words of encouragements make me try harder even on the busiest days ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ So I think It is all thanks to them  ❤️

Originally posted by jimiyoong

okay so ive been seeing alot of bpd posts scolding other borderliners because of their behavior and i just have to say my piece abt it

i dont get why people feel the need to drag borderliners for their erratic behavior. personally i think it’s hard enough to have to argue w/ neurotypicals who tell me i’m:

abusive, distant, dysfunctional, mean, unbalanced, possessive

do you think i dont know i shouldn’t be this way? do you think i am comfortable and content with me being this way??

because let me tell you, IM NOT

so first of all, do you think im making my posts to glofiry my mental illness?

ANSWER: i’m not. i’m just trying to get by and, what are the odds, speaking about it instead of internalizing everything makes it feel an ounce less horrible

this blog, for me, is something i use to VENT about my problems, thoughts and issues. it’s just like a diary only online and open to the public. this is where i go when i feel 1. horribly depressed and need to distract myself from doing smething i shouldn’t 2. manic and need a distraction ( again) 3. lonely 4. in need of affirmation that I’M NOT ALONE in being this way

one of the reasons why so many of my relationships went to shit and i COULDNT GET BETTER AND AMEND MY BEHAVIOR was because i had 0 idea of what my symptoms were. i never introspected because i didnt know how and because i didn’t know anything i thought the problems lied with everyone else

i make posts about my intrusive thoughts. doesnt mean i act upon them

i make posts about splitting. doesmt mean i ditch the person i split on (every time lbh no one is perfect)

i make posts about my fp. i type out my jealousy, my fear of abandonment, my possessiveness. does that mean i act on my feelings? NO. and guess what? thoughts and feelings are something we are not in control of. i know it’s not fair to ask for my fp to give me 100% of their attention always. i can’t help that i feel like that. but do i actually DEMAND them to do it? do I act upon my thoughts and feelings? hell to the no. and that’s it, as long as we don’t act upon it!

i dont know how it is for everyone else because i am one person and i, by no means, speak for everyone, but for me it helps  a lot to read about all i mentioned and more because then i can recognise it in myself and take it into account to then IMPROVE my behavior or at least try my very best to accommodate it. if someone writes about how they feel and i relate i think oh so it’s a bpd thing, that means i need to watch out whenever i feel this way to avoid being abusive/possessive/whatever.

ive learnt a lot from these posts because some things i didn’t know was abusive but as soon as i realized it i IMMEDIATELY made sure to try and correct that in myself. i wish i would have known sooner because it would have spared me and everyone else so much hurt

and before you type out a response to this, let me also emphasize that I DO NOT encourage abusive behavior from us. my point is not that we shouldnt be called out when we are behaving in an unhealthy way that affects ourselves and others. i for one WANT to be told when i’m being out of line because

I.  WANT. TO. GET. BETTER.

what i DONT want is to be yelled at by others in an aggressive manner, dragged, or guilted because of the way i am. in case you forgot, this is a disorder, one that as far as i know there is no recovering from. i can’t help that i have a possessive mindset AS LONG AS I DONT ACT UPON IT.

if i do, hell call me out! (but please do so in a way that’s reasonable and involves calm formlation rather than aggressive pummelling because i dont respond well to it because i get distraught) 

and finally i want to say that i get why some of you are angry. i dont want to attack any of you for your opinions, i’m just trying to defend myself here and you are right, we shouldn’t hide behind our illnesses and use them to justify what we do.

but honestly some of us arent there yet. again, i’m not justifying what were doing when we slip up and make a mistake but we’re all having a tough time. lbr we’re borderliners, it’s always gonna be tough. adding to that by making us feel worse will probably result in a setback rather than improving

so PLEASE keep on making posts about how to IMPROVE ourselves and our behavior, but please please please don’t go about it the aggressive , attacking way. i’m much more open to accepting my wrongs when i dont sense aggression and im sure that applies to others

thank you and sorry if some aspects of what i meant didnt come across

  • what she says: im fine
  • what she means: i find myself sickly attracted to a short cartoon skeleton to the point where i want to fuck a skeleton. a fucking skeleton. its a fucking skeleton in a fucking video game. this is ruining my life. but i want to fuck the skeleton. i am going to draw skeleton porn one day and this frightens me. i look at skeleton porn. thats right, skeletons doing the nasty. how? i dont fucking know but there is ectoplasm somehow incorporated and they fuck with their SOULS. talk about FUCKING MESSED UP. why do i want to fuck the skeleton? i am a disappointment to my family.

anonymous asked:

Why do you always buy the low calorie versions of bread or sandwich thins instead of normal bread if you dont count calories?? That still seems slightly disordered?

Sandwich thins? Why can’t I buy sandwich thins? I’m years into recovery, not everything I do is disordered and believe me, I tell myself and am upfront if I think I’m disordered. Sandwich thins are amazing!!!!!!! You know if you’re being disordered or not! There comes a point in recovery where you get back to normal and can trust yourself! Don’t let your disorder define the rest of your life yknow??

does anyone else with BPD go through phases where they experience full on ED behavior? by that i mean, a couple times a year i will enter an ED mindset and binge/purge and starve myself, count calories and try not to eat more than 600 a day, and completely hate my body when usually i like and dont mind it. this “phase” will last two weeks-a month and one day i literally just wake up and am tired of feeling that way and feel better about myself. i know becuase of the fast reovery i dont have problems with an ED and i think it’s just having to do with my BPD fucking with me? and i know it’s not an attention thing becuase i have never told anyone about it before and never wanted anyone else to know

i have also gone weeks feeling like i am trans and then suddenly i dont feel that way anymore?? which makes me feel really fucked up like why do i literally experience body dysphoria and hating being female for 3 weeks and the suddently its all over???

okay i’ve been having rough gender feels lately and like. do any other nb people struggle with just accepting that they can exist outside of the binary? because. while i know, rationally, the gender binary is made up, i still find myself coming back to it???? idk. lately i’ve been feeling more and more detached from identifying as a trans guy but i still find myself clinging to that label. does anyone else find themselves doing that?

honestly i’m not even surprised and i don’t understand why some of you act like you are. i mean i was expecting them to say some shit like that one day or another lmao. colorism has been here and alive since the beginning in the kpop industry and brown/tan/black people have been suffering from it for a long time. don’t act like it’s a new thing that you just discovered and instead of saying bts is cancelled maybe educate them?