i dont know why but this picture gave me a lot of feels

Homestuck Meta Theory

Alright, so I know there’s a lot of people disappointed with the ending, again, I sound like a broken record by this point. And don’t get me wrong- While I love the ending, I would still love to see more of the characters and the story! I just feel it’s a good end as it is. I’ve made a lot of theories about what the End means and everything about Act 7, but all of the things I said, about the Jujus, about becoming freed from Paradox Space, it made me think about the rest of the story, and I believe it has made my entire idea of what Homestuck is change.

So the big question here is, what IS Homestuck? Most people, including me, when talking to someone who knows nothing about it, will speak about the story, the 4 Kids playing SBURB, and the subsequent destruction of Earth. And then mention its huge amount of references towards programming languages, popular culture, storytelling in itself, and it’s self-referential nature. But this Ending has got me thinking that maybe the reason why so many people have been disappointed in the End is because they got Hussie’s intentions wrong.

We tend to reference how the humor and the nature of Homestuck’s narrative is a little extra onto the story, and while it is true the story itself and the characters have drawn a big part of the Fandom, I thought… What if the important part of the Narrative isn’t the Story, but the Meta elements.

As soon as I made connection, everything about the ending began to fall into place. I have commented before that I feel Act 7 is like being shown the Good Ending of a video game without seeing its Neutral Route. 

The Kids have Earth, and Juju Vriska uses manages to flip the ending so that instead of being trapped by Paradox Space’s rules…

They manage to ‘End’ the game properly and get their Happy Ever After.

All while Caliborn is shown getting his power of Immortality, and while we’re left ambiguous about what happens to Vriska and Lord English and everyone in the Dream Bubbles…

Another thing people have complained about is the Character Arcs.

They say how ‘different’ the timeline is. What was the point of Rose’s alcoholism if then Vriska just swats the drink away and it never had any relevance anymore? Terezi’s relationship with Gamzee never happened. Dave and Karkat got together? The Game Over Timeline is bad, everyone agrees that people dying is never good, but they also claim that suddenly having all that Character Development changed made them unable to relate to some characters anymore.

And of course there’s always the mention of how Vriska, even though she’s an abusive 8itch, ended up being somewhat of a heroine, or at the very least not seemingly getting too punished…

That’s where the Narrative itself told us there was something off.

DAVE: rose we dont have fuckin “arcs” we are just human beings

Many have mentioned it, about how not having a closure to certain character arcs referenced this portion, the notion that the characters didn’t have an arc. The same way she then references Jade breaking Endgame ships and such. Rose’s power is Light, and her information source comes from the same place as SBURB and Skaia. It’s a game. Of course she’d have the notion that all of them have to fit certain predisposed stereotypes or their stories have to follow a certain pattern- Rose is looking at their lives since SBURB started as it has been. A Story.

But Dave is having none of it. Dave is beyond the thought that all they do has to follow a set pattern, and claims they don’t have character arcs. This might sound like a clever device by Hussie so he didn’t have to explore more of each of these character’s lives and he could close the comic leaving some loose ends but, there’s more.

Hussie? As an entity? Exists within the story. This would be all fun and dandy if it were a couple of stupid references and memes. And that’s what many people think! Most of his appearances in canon have been a joke, really. But…

Hussie joked about his influence on the comic, when his bot-self was about to mess up with the Kids in the Yellow Yard, but eventually didn’t do it. And yet? His fight with Vriska. His interactions with Caliborn. Everything pictured above? Hussie is a physical entity that follows the same rules as everyone else in Paradox Space and can influence the story. But he’s not a self-insert. He IS the Author. He is the one who wrote every of these characters and continued the story. He’s not another character, he’s himself, in the Homestuck Universe.

And then it began to dawn on me, that perhaps the Meta aspect of Homestuck was a bit more than Fourth-Wall Breaking fun and references to real life stuff. Of course, this train of thought led me to another main plot device that has never exactly been explained to its full extent. Jujus.

There’s the Sucker…

The Crowbar…

The House Juju…

A lollipop that could change character’s personalities, making them immediately make up for aaaall of their mistakes without a care in the world, start alchemizing new weapons, and end up exactly where they needed to be.

A crowbar that can break other of these mysterious devices, and more importantly, has been shown to be able to interact with the Website itself, which seems to be its own physical entity as well!

A house that gave John the ability to change the story, and that ended up being used against the Big Bad of the entire comic.

A puppet that trapped the Souls of various characters and became the gateway for the Big Bad of the comic to become who he is.

A mysterious pair of rings that oh so conveniently appear and disappear on characters, and leave you wondering what they really do, but clearly shown to at least be able to revive someone who, by no other means in the story, would have been able to get back to the world of the living.

Jujus are mysterious, when you look at them from the perspective of the characters. They have no beginning, no end, they just appear at some point and do a loop through time, ending up exactly where they appeared first. They are powerful artifacts able to change reality itself, with no explained origin… But we are no characters. We have seen what these things do on the comic through its entire lengths.

Jujus are plot devices meant to alter the Meta of the comic. They are not things that make sense in a true physical reality. They are artifacts that alter the rules of the plot. Because that’s what the plot is. A story. Because Homestuck is not real, and it acknowledges this.

Or at least… It was supposed to acknowledge this. Many have also claimed that the last updates were so disappointing, compared to Cascade, as Cascade managed to solve so many plot points, but this last one felt empty of everything. Plot. Character Development. That’s where Jujus and Hussie come in.

Hussie dies, in his own comic, a comic that acknowledges him as the actual AUTHOR of the events taking place. And later, we see…

Caliborn, the young version of Lord English, acknowledging Hussie’s death, as he takes the rest of Act 6 and makes it his. Through the use of the Command Prompt, through his own drawings, he begins to write his own story.

[S] Cascade had so many plot points resolved, and these last updates didn’t. Because that is the point. Ever since Act 5 ended and Act 6 started, Hussie has begun to lose control of the story. He was killed by Lord English, the big bad, who also took control of the narrative. Vriska acknowledges a narrator speaking, and forces the narrative to shift back to her opening the Juju chest out of frustration. The command prompts, John’s retcons- At this point, Hussie is no longer in control of his characters.

The Game Over timeline was bad, but it felt like it had more Character Development. That is because it was a not-retconned Timeline. The characters had struggles, the plot moved on forward, some people was possessed, it was all prime material for a conflict and a resolution afterwards! But Aranea’s intervention made it a Doomed Timeline. A Bad End. We all know how Doomed Timelines work, so everything that happens there would have been totally irrelevant. But John didn’t want to accept that. Roxy was still alive, and sad. And Terezi wanted him to fix things up. So instead of acknowledging he was in a Doomed Timeline, like Roxy did? Roxy, who saw her mother-daughter die in her arms, and claimed there might be nothing left for them. And meanwhile, John just managed to get his powers ready, zapped back in time and solved everything.

New problems arose in the new Timeline, sure, but not as many. And a lot of the character arcs were suddenly shoved back. Rose no longer struggles with alcoholism, Karkat doesn’t chase after Terezi, and becomes Matesprits with Dave after mellowing down. Gamzee, one of the biggest dangers, is shoved back by Vriska until he’s barely relevant anymore.

And all of this might just be me trying to find an explanation to the sudden loose ends not being tied. But I think, all of this, was meant to express more than Hussie rolling the story back or changing the story to fit other things. No.

We go back to Dave’s words. We’re real people, we don’t have arcs. We are real people. In a comic, where the author is a character, and that always acknowledges it’s a comic? Dave saying they’re real people is big. It was taken as a joke, because they are characters, come on! Right? … Right?

Well of course they are. But that’s the thing. Up until Act 6, all of the various characters were nothing more than that. And even during the Game Over Timeline, they were nothing more than that. But Hussie’s death, the ghosts, no longer relevant, trying to fight back against Lord English? Caliborn’s acknowledgement of a story and trying to take control of it? And finally, John’s powers.

The House Juju gave John something more important than being able to change the Timeline.

The ability to make Selfcest canon.

Wait no- That wasn’t it.

The ability to alter the plot to his own whims.

John’s zapping doesn’t follow the rules of Paradox Space. It allows him to change the timeline as he wishes and it still be the Alpha. Not only that, but he can also warp out of the story itself, sending people and things to the background of the website.

It’s when Vriska starts to try and find this Juju that everything about the narrative begins to shift gears. John now can change the plot. Which means he is not adhering to the rules that bound them all anymore. He can go back, bring people who were dead back to life, save his friends, and aid them get a better ending.

And in this new timeline he’s changed? Everyone seems a bit different. They have gone through different things, and are as confused as anyone else about what is going on. This is the moment where these characters stop being characters.

This isn’t a story about Four Kids playing a Game, getting involved in Shenanigans and trying to live a happy ever after as villains try to plot on destroying them and reality. Homestuck is the tale of the characters from a webcomic, becoming self-aware, and escaping the grasp of the author and the narrative.

I don’t know if this is what Hussie intended, and if it is, at what point he planned to start leading the story this way. I might just be crazy and be reading too much into this? But as I see it? It closes every single loophole in this story.

Doomed Timelines are meant to be nothing. They are meant to fade, and not be relevant anymore. But the ghosts are having none of this. They WANT to be relevant in this story again. They create an army, and head off to defeat the biggest threat in the entire comic.

Caliborn knows reality itself isn’t as it seems, and tries to make his own story within it. He strives to become almighty, and then begins to destroy and rend reality itself so he can make way for his own rule.

Vriska knows she’s in a story, having interacted with the very Author and the command prompt! But she is not trying to change the story- All the opposite. Vriska follows the rules of the story, closes loopholes from what she has seen, but tries to be the one who causes everything. She wants to be in the spotlight of this tale. She creates Bec Noir just because she had seen it in her screen. And knowing this is a story, she goes off of her way to find methods to defeat each of these villains, at any cost. Because in a story, once she defeats these big, powerful foes, she’ll be a heroine, and everyone will regard her so highly, she’ll be over everyone else. Just like she wants.

John? I don’t think he knows he’s in a story. But he has the power to alter it. And after he begins to mess with the timeline, the rules of Paradox Space begin to shatter around him and his friends. Time loops, Rules, Plot, why would they care about how a story goes, if it’s not a story, it’s their lives. They just want to be happy and get away from this cycle of destruction and death.

I’d even go as far as to say God Tier Calliope knows this. If her Land and her Earth were anything like Caliborn’s, she might also been in contact with the command prompt. Perhaps the fact her entire mission was a self-sacrifice to collapse the Green Sun represented how she, too, saw Paradox Space as what it was- A construct that kept these characters trapped as that. Characters. And the only way to escape its grasp was the erase its very existence, using Lord English’s destruction to tear a hole through the comic, and destroy it.

In this way, everything that happens towards the ending makes perfect sense. There are hundreds, thousands, who knows how many timelines, in which every plot hole will be closed. But we’re not following these. It would be easy to cause, say, the Condesce to wake up. Because of her immortality curse given by Lord English. Or the Draconian Dignitary get to the Frog Lily Pad. Something happens, interrupts the kids from entering to the new Session, and bam! Suddenly more plot! Their entrance to the Universe is blocked. Terezi worries about Vriska, so they begin to plot a way to help her defeat Lord English. The black hole in the Session that likely leads to Caliborn’s land becomes relevant, and they all have a trip to beat up Caliborn. Something happens to Calliope, her ring has ended up in Caliborn’s hands as well, he traps the kids, the Alphas beat him up, all loops are closed, we have a bittersweet, predictable ending. And this has happened. In many timelines before. Over, and over. Perhaps the one we’re following isn’t even the Alpha, for that very reason.

But it doesn’t matter. I talked about how the Jujus were a way to alter the plot, and let’s go back to this, and look at my theory about the Kids Souls being Trapped for all eternity in this Juju. The moment Caliborn uses this Juju, he kickstarts the entirety of the rules of Paradox Space. These kids we follow through the story, are trapped in a plot, with rules dictated by narrative that they HAVE to adhere too.

Then the ghosts decide that this is bullshit, and that they, even after death, want to still be relevant. Instigated by Vriska and Meenah, and aided by Aranea’s mind control, they manage to find a way they can alter the plot once again, a Juju. John touches this Juju, and suddenly he gains the power to alter this plot as well, and begins his and his friend’s journey to escape the clutches of Paradox Space and the comic itself.

John was trapped in the house all along. So of course, shoving his arm through it? He managed to grasp at the other side. He got a taste of what it was to be free. And he gained the power of changing the plot as a result.

Then, Vriska becomes alive again. She’s relevant, and bashes down on her ghost self. Ghost self that had at one point tried to make herself relevant, even though since she’s dead she shouldn’t be. This way, Vriska proves that, while she acknowledges the story as a story, and wants to be always present and in the middle, she never sees it as something she has to escape. She has no character development, because now, in this timeline that John has changed, she’s free to do whatever she wants, she’s her own person without a character arc, but doesn’t find the need to become said person. She doesn’t want to change, she wants to keep following the plot, and take down the big bad.

So Vriska takes the house Juju from her alternate self, goes against Lord English, beats up the Author of the comic itself as a last Fuck You, and then uses the Juju towards him. And this is when Alive Vriska makes her big mistake. By following this plot, this story, the Juju house crashes behind her…

She’s on Lord English’s side of the house. Because both of them know the comic is just that, a story. He knows about the narrative, and the author. So he kills the author, and becomes the big evil that must be defeated. Meanwhile, Vriska knows about the narrative, and the author, so she beats up the author and tries to become the heroine.

Caliborn and Vriska could very well strive to break free of Paradox Space in other ways, but instead they do what they do best- Be themselves, and fuck shit up in the process. And it’s this mentality that in the end, as the House Juju appears, tells us that both of them have been doomed. Doomed to be trapped in this Collapsing Paradox Space there’s no escape from.

Except there is an escape.

Because the door opens. It opens for the Kids and Trolls on the lily pad. And it opens for the Ghost Army and everyone else in the Bubbles. These are people that have been living aside from the story for a long time. The ones that are alive in the Session have had John change everything and the events happening after make them question Paradox Space itself. And the dead ones or the ones just stuck in the Furthest Ring? They fear being forgotten. They fear being erased by the collapsing Paradox Space, and had faced Lord English to try and become relevant once more.

Of course Condy’s curse didn’t wake her up. Of course DD didn’t appear. The moment the Juju appears, the story is done. There is no more plot. Because it’s not a story. The ones wanting to follow the plot are now seeing it crumble, seeing everything end. And the ones that wanted to become relevant against Paradox Space- Why would they need to even follow the rules? They are trying to escape them.

The Plot Holes are part of the plot in itself. John and everyone else didn’t need to fill it up. Because they are not part of the story anymore. We didn’t see their character arcs close. Because they are not characters anymore. They are not characters anymore. They don’t need to show us they have grown- Or maybe they haven’t even grown. They are always growing, learning. But now, they have escaped this evil Universe that trapped them and forced into cruel and crueler situations. They have escaped to a peaceful realm. They don’t need to keep following the story. They are happy and free to live their lives however they want.

They are finally happy.

february 2017 - dan and phil

2/12

first week (1-7): still up on the isle of man for phil’s birthweek! phil goes on a pleasant walk on the beach. accompaniment confirmed by dan howell (and martyn and cornelia). dan fell or something while trying to be an aesthetic hoe (a sprained wrist and knee? sorry my honeybee). dan posts another pic from iom and i don’t know why i’m crying in the club right now? (also he posted a flop of it on twitter…whatever). phil liveshow! (highlights: birthday present haul includes cool shoes from martyn, sock book, rewined candle, cool beetle jumper from parents, sushi gummies from dan (nostalgia from tatinof uk), firefly on blu-ray, terrarium, big lava lamp from dan, basically just spent a lot of time walking on the seaside and stuff for his bday celebrations, dan falling was hilarious and also genuinely concerning, “He’s a tall guy so it’s a long way to fall,” magic 8 ball predicted that a dog is on the horizon ???!!!!???!!!, if he does anything interesting he’ll do more day in the lifes??!!!!?!). another seaside walk picture plz stop. new gaming video: Dan vs. Phil: QUICK DRAW! phil gives us a relaxing video of the lava lamp dan gave him. nailbaiting occurred by phil. dan and nathan zed interacted and i ascended. phil takes pictures of dan a lot and dan likes posting them (aka dan lays on the floor trying to script). new danisnotonfire video: MY EVIL PIANO TEACHER (aka dan playing the piano thank god). phil still has jingle bells stuck in his head. dan liveshow! (highlights: sweaty and sensual dan ://, they help each other film because setting up tripods is for losers when you have your own person, they cried laughing filming the piano video, dan was excited about this sext marcus butler sent him from this video but then realized it was a joke, phil’s birthday week has extended until forever, dan dramatically fell and talked about it for five minutes, has hamilton tickets, he might rebrand to Dan Howell on youtube wow plz, he went to the dentist :/). 

second week (8-15): dan and phil hang out with zoe and meerkats as her wish for make a wish foundation! new gaming video: IS IT PAINFUL TO DIE?! - Dan and Phil play Google Feud #2. phil liveshow! (highlights: dan got phil a signed nude of david boreanaz, when they saw manchester by the sea a man tripped into dans popcorn oops, wow! there were three gas leaks in their house! it’s like the universe is trying to say something! *cough* move, if there are more gas leaks they will have to leave the house for three weeks and they would probs go on holiday…japan plz.., phil has pretty houseplants with pretty flowers, he bought a fluffy coat, loved the meerkats, petbaiting). cute australia pic (i wish i was that kanga). new phil icon which has effectively made me dead? (also accompanying pic) new gaming video: DIL GETS A FREEZE RAY. dan gets wet and sticky with phil in phils bedroom. new amazingphil video: Dan and Phil PASTEL EDITS IN REAL LIFE! (i dont know how to feel? i have been overwhelmed). also dan calls phil hubby but like not really but also really and… why. phil wishes us a happy valentines day with a sloth. dan liveshow! (highlights: i don’t really know dan destroyed gender roles and wore a grey wig and a flower crown and tried to scrape off his tattoos just watch the video plz). another australia selfie :( another belated birthday meal for phil but he ate moss that was attached to his drink (is he just gonna keep turning 30 forever jeez). 

third week (16-23): phil’s parents come to london to visit (no phil liveshow) but during their next liveshows they confirm they saw book of mormon again with the in-laws *cough* parents. new gaming video: IS THIS THE END? Dan and Phil play THE IMPOSSIBLE QUIZ! #6 (twas a good one). there are seagulls outside phil’s windows (side note: hector aka shitty watercolour made a painting of it and the livestream of it was good not that anyone cares). phil spent his weekend watching time lapses of cats when they are home alone. dan threw an entire salad out (aka his agenda to force phil to eat pizza and not get healthy even though phil has signed up for the gym and gone jogging i hate him). new gaming video: HORSE BOYFRIEND SIMULATOR?! - Dan and Phil play: My Horse Prince. phil is a bad lurker irl #confirmed as he tried to watch a couple argue but it didn’t work out that well. dan said chicken instead of ordering coffee at starbucks and now he can’t go to that one anymore. also on the same day someone spotted dan and phil out on a bus wow. dan and phil were watching a property show (moving? stay woke) and saw their merch. dan liveshow! (highlights: pastel beanie: on, curly hair: worn, dick: out, i am forcibly removed from the liveshow, he said chicken because of the cow and chicken theme song stuck in his head what a weirdo, he has a cheeky idea for a video thats important but not really and he doesnt know if hes ready :), he has realized he could murder someone because he just spaces out aka the salad event, they forgot to paint their nails and put in earrings for the pastel edits video wow thats great, asmr, he loves moonlight thank god, he and phil play sing star and are only good at toxic and muse, his reblogs on tumblr don’t mean anything, he had a very long shower). phil keeps buying weird things for their home. phil liveshow! (highlights: storm doris, had a haircut in his house again and it goes without saying dan got one too, liveshow haul, he froze younow is philphobic, seven exo planets and countless universes! phil is so smart, final fantasy is too long for dapg, excited for the oscars, and then that’s it because phil likes to keep his liveshows short). 

week four (24-28): oops i counted the days wrong this week is too short, dan is a sad pimp, new gaming video: BATTLE OF THE BALLS - Dan vs. Phil: Golf With Friends. phil had a cozy day and ate cookies. dan believes moonlight should win for best film as it is the most important (thenks dan howell for my life). phil tries to stay up for the oscars but fails and dan lets us all know. “at least i didn’t fuck up as hard as the 2017 oscars envelope guy”, new gaming video: DIL BURNS THE PANCAKES - Dan and Phil Play: Sims 4 #36, dan didn’t have a liveshow because younow was broken

a nice month. what in februation

anonymous asked:

"You dont want me" ladynoir

Ladybug sat at the top of the Eiffel Tower, her head in her hands, wondering how she could have possibly screwed things up SO badly. 

She heard the light footfall of her partner landing behind her. She couldn’t say she was surprised, he had never been one to leave her to stew in her own misery. 

“So…” he drawled, coming and sitting beside her, “that was an interesting broadcast today.” 

“It was a disaster,” she moaned, still not looking up at him, “I should just throw myself off this tower and put myself out of my misery.” 

“Oh come on, it’s not as bad as all that,” Chat said, patting her awkwardly on the back. 

She turned and glared at him. “It was a live stream, Chat! LIVE! It’s out there. Right now!” 

“True,” he conceded, nodding his head, “but it’s not like you said anything horrible. It was kinda cute actually.” 

“You don’t understand,” she moaned, slumping over so until she was curled up in his lap, “I’ve ruined everything! What sort of an idiot starts babbling about their crush on a live broadcast.” 

“Well, apparently you,” Chat said with a light laugh, cautiously reaching forward to play with the ends of her hair, “and about half of the rest of the known world. It could be a lot worse buginette.” 

“Do you think there is a chance he didn’t see it?” she asked hopefully, looking up at her partner’s thoughtful expression. 

He gave her a pitying smile. “I think you’re pretty much out of luck their bugaboo. You already have a ship name and everything. It’s trending on twitter.” 

“Ugh, that’s terrible,” she groaned, curling up tighter and burying her face against his leg. 

“I don’t know,” Chat teased, “I thought Ladrien had kind of a nice ring to it.” 

“This can’t be happening,” she moaned. 

“Hey, come on. What’s this really about? Is it really going to be so awful for the guy to know you like him? He might be flattered.” 

“It’s not that,” Ladybug said softly, “I mean, it’s MORE than that. I haven’t even told him I liked him- as myself, my not Ladybug self I mean. And now… let’s say he does feel flattered? That just means I have made myself my own competition! And it’s not like I can just go up to him and be like: Hey, by the way I’m Ladybug and, as you already know, I’m totally in love with you! Want to date me now?” 

“Oh god,” Chat said with a sudden sense of horror, “there are going to be so many desperate fangirls trying to do that.” 

“I didn’t even think about that! If he didn’t before he’s definitely going to hate me now. I might be the only person in the world who can simultaneously confess to her crush and make it harder for him to notice me!”  

“You really are one of a kind there bugaboo,” Chat said giving her another reassuring pat on the shoulder. 

“And what if this puts him in danger? I mean I might as well have stamped a butterfly tattoo across his back saying property of Ladybug, please exchange for one miraculous!” 

“Please don’t do that. I am told that models need to be very particular about what they put on their skin.” 

“It’s not funny. What if I honestly made him a target?”

“Hey,” Chat said “I promise you, if anything happens I will be the first person on the scene.” 

“Thanks,” she said gratefully, reaching up and catching his hand in her own.

“So, you’re in love with the model boy,” Chat said softly, rubbing his thumb absently against the back of her hand, “gotta say I didn’t see that one coming.” 
“Yeah well, it’s not like it really matters anymore,” she sighed, “it’s not like it would ever happen.” 

He scoffed at her, rolling his eyes theatrically to show his clear contempt for her pessimism. “So tell me My Lady,” he asked shifting slightly so that he could look down at her with a playful smile, “what is it that you see in this guy anyways?” 

“Wouldn’t you like to know.” 

“You don’t want me, so clearly you aren’t after the guy for his looks,” Chat said wiggling his eyebrows flirtatiously. 

“No,” Ladybug laughed, “although they don’t hurt.” 

“Why My Lady, was that you finally admitting that you find me attractive?” 

“You’ve always been attractive and you know it,” she said reaching up and flicking his bell. “As you can see I’ve just had my attentions elsewhere.” 

“Oh so this is a long standing attachment then? How long have you been dreaming of being M’Lady Agreste?” he teased poking her lightly on the nose. 

“Almost from the first day I met him. It will be two years next week,” she said softly. 

“The start of school,” Chat murmured, “you know him then?” 

“yeah,” she admitted reaching blindly around to catch his other hand and pull him to her like a security blanket. “We were in the same class in college and we still have a few classes together now. Plus our friends are dating so we hang out a lot.” 

“You two are close then,” Chat said a little breathlessly, “that… well that certainly clears things up.” 
“Yeah,” Ladybug said, “it’s not just some creepy celebrity crush. I mean, it kind of was that too. I have like 2 dozen photos of him plastered on my wall that I used to practice talking to because for the longest time I could barely string a sentence together around him, it was kind of embarrassing. I got over it eventually, but by that point I didn’t really have the heart to take the pictures down.” 

Chat gave her a warm smile. “I can see it now, you stuttering and tripping and shooting the poor confused boy adorable awkward smiles before running off in the opposite direction.” 

“Shut up,” Ladybug said but she couldn’t help grinning at her partners soft tone and fond smile. “I got better.” 

“I know.” He raised one of her hands to his lips and gave her a delicate kiss. “So you still haven’t told me what you see in this guy,” he challenged, “If I am getting demoted to your rebound choice I deserve to know what I am up against,” he said slyly. 

“He’s kind,” Ladybug smiled, filling with warmth as she thought about her love. “He always wants to see the best in people,and he… he is just good, you know? The kind of goodness that doesn’t come from ignorance or being sheltered, but that has seen pain and and heartache and loss and yet still chooses to be good. 

“That is high praise indeed My Lady.” 

“You aren’t going to make fun of me for this?” 

“No My Lady. If anything I am going to love you more for it.” 

She gave him another grateful smile before sitting up. The sun had begun to set and she knew she should be getting home. She probably had a dozen of so missed calls from Alya waiting for her. 

“Well who knows,” she said attempting to be flippant. “Maybe he’ll finally just reject me and I will change my mind about you Kitty.” 

“Wouldn’t that be a twist,” Chat laughed climbing to his feet and offering her his hand to help her up as well. 

“It would probably be for the best,” she sighed. “It’s not like we can be together. Not with Hawkmoth still on the loose. There is too much at stake. And I don’t know if I could bear having to hide my identity in a relationship.” 

Chat grinned again. “You are very wise My Lady.” 

“Mostly I am just telling myself that so I can feel better,” she admitted and was rewarded with a loud melodious laugh. 

“You know,” he said, eyes twinkling “you are probably right. Clandestine meetings, midnight makeout sessions, it’s probably better to hold out for the real thing.” 

“Yeah.” 

“Besides, I hate to break it to you My Lady but I have a sinking feeling that #Ladrien is not to be.” 

“And why is that Kitty?” 

“Well,” Chat said looking out at the sunset, “not to be the bearer of bad news but I have it on very good authority that your lover is very much spoken for.” 

“oh?” Ladybug said trying not to let her disappointment show. 

“Yes, completely and hopelessly in love. Someone at his school in fact.” 

“And who is this mystery girl?” she asked. 

“It’s right on the tip of my tongue,” Chat said his eyes glittering with something she couldn’t quite name, “it will come to me. I’ll have to tell you next time I see you.” 

“Well thanks for the heads up,” she said leaning over to give him a kiss on the cheek, “and thanks for cheering me up.” 

“Always My Lady. I should probably get heading home myself.” he pulled out his staff and and extended it. 

“Oh,” he said, shooting her a final grin as prepared to depart, “I do remember one thing.”
“And what’s that?” 

“The mystery girl, I knew there was something about her that I found particularly delectable.” 

“And what is that?” 

“Her parent’s own a bakery.”  

Dating Yoongi

Dating Yoongi would include:

• When he realized he liked you in more than a friendly way he freaked out
• He would start observing you
• Trying to find something (anything) that could tell him that you liked him back
• He would stay nights awake figuring out how to tell you
• In the process he’ll start treating you differently
• Hell do it smoohtly tho
• He would casually bring you coffee
• He would text you everyday good morning and goodnight
• He would sit next to you everytime you and the boys had dinner together
• He would even buy you chocolates
• And you noticed
• When he finally reaunited enough courage to confess he almost fainted when you answered kissing him
• “I thought youd never ask, Min Yoongi”
• Soft smiles while eating dinner
• He would just look at you and smile
• He can’t help it
• You have that effect on him
• And damn you are his girlfriend now
• SHIT. You are his girlfriend
• “Yoongi are you okay?”
• “Huh? Oh yeah, sorry I was just… uh, thinking
• The boys would cringe but deep inside they are proud their hyung found someone
• You play with his fingers when you two watch TV together and he finds himself smiling a lot
• Since you go to his dorm regularly, he feels weird when you are not there
•  Like something’s missing
• “Hello?”
• “Hi, Y/n”
• “Hi, Yoongi”
• “Are you coming today?”
• “I have a lot of homework to get done tonight. I’m sorry, I don’t think I’ll make it”
• “Oh, okay”
• Ten minutes later he’s at your door with takeout
• “You are always coming to see me, so I thought that maybe it’s my turn now?”
• “Get inside, you dork”
• He’ll wait patiently for you to finish your homework so you two can eat dinner together
• “I want college to be over already”
• “It will be over in less than what you expect”
• “Yeah, I kind of have that feeling now”
• What do you mean?”
• “Well I have someone by my side now”
• “…”
• “No way. You are blushing”
• “'I’m not”
• “Yes, you are”
• “No. I am not”
• “Awww you are so cute when you blush”
• You give him a kiss on the cheek and he can’t help but smile and blush even more.
• So you give him another kiss on the cheek
• He’s smiling even wider now
• You cover his face with kisses and now he’s a freaking tomato and a ball of giggles
• You just discovered his weakness
• Cheek kisses
• He most likely won’t admit it but he loves it.
• You beg him to play the piano for you
• “No”
• “But baaaaaaabe”
• “Nope”
• He tries to act cool, but actually he doesn’t want to do it because he gets really nervous when you are around
• He’s afraid he’ll fuck up
• He doesn’t want to look like a fool in front of you
• But you keep begging him
• “Please Yoongi”
• *kiss on the cheek*
• “Do it for me?”
•*kiss on the cheek*
• “Please?”
• *kiss on the cheek*
• “For me?”
• *kiss on the cheek*
• “Oh fuck it. I’ll do it for you”
• One particular day you had a lot of homework he was sitting on your couch scrolling through his phone
• When you are done you go to see him
• “Yoongi?”
• But he’s sound asleep
• You cover him up with blankets
• You debate between going to your room or just sleep with him on the couch
• You don’t want to leave him there but you don’t want to wake him up either so you grab a pillow and lay next to him wich turns into you laying literally on top of him because there’s no much space in that couch
•  He hugs you in his sleep
• When he wakes up he doesn’t know what to do
• His beautiful (asleep) girlfriend is laying on top of him on the couch
What the heck happened
• He waits until you wake up
• Pretending he’s asleep to hear you reaction
• You just give him a kiss on the forehead
• And he can’t help but smile instantly
• “Were you awake?”
• “No?”
• You give him a suspicious look
• “Alright then”
• “Wait give me a kiss”
• Loves it when you kiss his head
• Always buying coffee every time you two walk past a café 
• Tries to hide the fact that he memorized your order 
• Sice the day you slept on the couch, napping is now a habit
• Loves to watch you sleep
• When he doesn’t want to wake up, you cover his face with kisses as always
• Sometimes he fakes he’s asleep so you give him kisses
• Because that’s his favourite way to wake up
• Random 3am texts 
• “I miss you”
• “Yoongi, it’s 3am go to sleep”
• Never uses emojis 
• 110% sure he will say I love you first
•  When you two get hype boy oh boy when you two get hype
• Literally theres a song one of you like and instantly you both are dancing
• And you guys sing too
• The boys think you both are insane
• Like that day you were both in your respective cellphones when “View” by SHINee came through the radio
• Since it’s your favourite song at the moment
• You two got HYPED
• Tries to cook ramen for you in your anniversary 
• Always making sure you sleep well
• But he still sents you texts at 3am
• He would never say it out loud but he loves it when you play with his hair while kissing 
• He writes you poetry
• But he will never let you read it
• Almost screamed when you gave him your apartment key 
• “'Im tired of opening the door for you. You can totally do it yourself”
• Going home to find him on your couch watching Netflix 
• Buys you groceries without telling you
• Always trying to convince you to take a nap 
• “I have to cook and I need to finish my assignment”
• “Please nap”
• Follows you around the house repeating “nap”
• Sits next to you while you’re doing your assignment 
• *stares at you because he knows it will distract you*
• “Yoongi stop”
• *doesn’t says anything* 
• “Yoongi”
• *starts playing with your hair*
• “Min Yoongi”
• *gently sits in your lap*
• “Nap?”
• Napping a lot during the day
• Staying up during the night 
• Talking a lot or not talking at all
• If you guys feel like talking the room will be filled with whispers and kisses
• If you dont feel like it then
• Comfortable silence 
•  “Yoongi I really like your smile”
•  “Why do you say such a thing when we are about to sleep?”
• Watches you from afar when you play around with his hyungs 
• Eventually gets sick of it 
• Probably makes you sit on his lap in front of everyone and acts as if nothing is happening 
• Or he casually sits in your lap
•  “Hyung is really smiley when he’s around y/n”
•  *glares at taehyung*
• “Y/n there’s someone you need to meet so this relationship can grow”
•  You meet Holly the next day
• Lets you and nobody else touch his phone 
• Takes secret pictures of you all the time without you noticing it
• y/n eating cereal
• y/n sleeping
• y/n studying 
• y/n drinking coffee 
• y/n eating Oreos
• y/n dancing
• y/n watching TV
• Literally takes pictures of you all the time
• Watches your pictures all the time when he is on tour 
• Loves waking up to your texts 
• Apologizes first when you guys fight 
• Plays the piano for you so you can forgive him faster 
• Sings to you in your birthday 
• “I wrote this song thinking about you”
• Whispers that he loves you when you start crying 
• “Shit Yoongi, I love you”
• Finds you extra sexy when you swear
•  *you watching old pictures of him*
•  “Woah I really like you with green hair”
• He asks if he can dye his hair green again
•  *goes to your home with his hair green*
•  “Woah you looked really hot with black hair”
•  *glares at you*
•  Always giving you plushies he wins at those stupid plushie machine games
•  Your room is full of plushies
•  Sometimes when you two are just laying in bed doing nothing he feels the need to open his heart to you
•  “Y/n I really do have deep feelings for you”
•  “I feel the same Yoongi”
•  “Y/n I wrote you poetry”
•  *You suddenly sit*
•  “Can I read it?”
•  “No”
•  “Please? For me?”
•  “Shit”

Incomplete

[Summary]: After finding out that your boyfriend Bucky had a one-night stand, your world came crashing down hard and you walk out of his life. Will you give him a second chance? Or will you leave him feeling incomplete?

[Pairing]: Bucky x reader (Steve is mentioned)

[Warning]: angst… SO. MUCH. ANGST. um.. there’s also mentions of cheating, drinking and a tiny bit of swearing.. also a teeny-tiny bit of abuse

[Word Count]: 2,295 (This is the longest one I’ve ever written! Damn, this got really wordy…)

Requested by: @ouatalways

Tagging: @bovaria @marvel-ash @just-call-me-mrs-captain @dividedwecantfall @buckysmetallicstump @mellifluous-melodramas @avengerofyourheart @buckyslion @metalarmproblems @marvelingatthewonder @beccaanne814-blog @mcuimxgine @capsbuchanan @imagine-assembling-the-avengers @that-sokovian-bastard @hellomissmabel @abovethesmokestacks @maybe-mikala @violentlyfarts @hymnofthevalkyries @after-avenging-hours @buckys-shield @buckysberrie @callamint @redgillan @whotheeffisbucky @candyrogers @blueeyedbucky @tragicalchemist @marvelous-fvcks @professionally-crazed @thetalesofmooseandsquirrel @fanfic-shiz @i-dont-know-how-to-write @iwillbeinmynest @theassetseyeliner @lilasiannerd @aubzylynn @ourpeachskies

A/N: BSB gif was made by yours truly! Yea, here we go again with more Backstreet Boys music but this song just fit this request so perfectly. I have no shame for making you listen to their music… [x] Also, I’m so, so sorry about the tiny bit of abuse that I put in here. I DO NOT condone that kind of behavior in a relationship (I have seen it happen and it scared me) I’m also sorry for Steve being a complete jerk in this…

Originally posted by jugheadcami

One hour. One grueling, heart breaking hour is all it took to make the last two years fade into the dark.

You found out from Sam’s roommate, who also happened to be one of your best friends, that your boyfriend and a few of his friends had gotten drunk at a party that Sam threw at his apartment. Even though you were also invited to the party, you had to work that night but you told Bucky that he could go without you. Worst decision you ever made.

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Draco confesses
  • Harry: I have been surfing the internet lately.
  • Ron: What is this infernet thingy?
  • Hermione: Its where you see all those food pictures, Ron. And its called internet.
  • Harry: What's this drarry that everyone's talking about?
  • Hermione: Its a ship.
  • Harry: A what? I saw nothing like a ship!
  • Hermione: Well, it is a concept of a fictional couple. The muggles know about us but they think we are stories. Well, let me show you.
  • Harry: I know about that. Ginny told me.
  • Hermione: Then why are you asking me, Harry?
  • Harry: Well, she said that she found the drarry ship cute.
  • Hermione: And?
  • Harry: And I found a lot of stories.
  • Hermione: And?
  • Harry: And I printed them out and took them to office.
  • Ron: Did you read them?
  • Harry: Hell no! I don't have enough patience. Malfoy was bored. He took them.
  • Hermione: ...
  • Ron: Well, I hope nothing good was in them. Oh Merlin! Here comes Malfoy.
  • Draco: Potter, what the hell is this?
  • Harry: Well I-
  • Draco: I don't care what you have to say. For years I have been working with you, trying to behave normally with you and never expecting anything from you! Do you have any idea what you gave me?
  • Harry: Well I-
  • Draco: Thank you so much. I am glad you feel the same. I love you too, Harry.

anonymous asked:

hii i love ur writing hehe can i request: monsta x in bed? like rough/gentle or any specific kinks and stuff HAHAHA forgive me

Hello! Thank you so much! For both the request and your kind words. I love you!

SHOWNU

  • ROUGH AF FIGHT ME
  • but like the kind of rough you don’t expect
  • he’s all sweet and caring but the SECOND he gets over-excited
  • he can’t hold back and he just lets loose
  • hair pulling, leaving finger bruises all over your back and hips, going so fast u can’t even keep up,,, yep
  • that’s shownu
  • (good luck walking the next day tbh)
  • tbh it would be SO easy to turn him on and you could probably use it to tease him a lot
  • like sending photos of yourself that are even a little bit exposing WOW he would be all over that
  • and the moment he saw you after you had turned him on his eyes would go dark and you would know that was it
  • he wouldn’t hold back
  • but he would be so embarrassed and shy about it afterwards tho
  • he would ask you if you were okay and if he hurt you but he would be hella sheepish about it
  • AFTERCARE DONT GET ME STARTED
  • him cuddling you and kissing the marks he left softly,,, probably having a bath with you and cleaning you gently just telling you how much he loves you
  • bc he really does 

MINHYUK

Originally posted by gifsmonstax

  • playful definitely playful
  • he would be very giggly pretty much the whole time
  • he would love making a game of it
  • probably make you chase him around the bedroom before you could touch him
  • he’d run around everywhere stripping items of clothing and throwing it at you while laughing
  • tbh when you finally caught him he would probably pin you down
  • tickle tf out of you
  • but when he’d had enough of that
  • the making out would start
  • and DAMN it would be hot
  • the boy knows how to kiss, and he’d show that to you straight away
  • but then always giggling between kisses as he stripped you out of your clothes
  • look he’d be so smug
  • he would want to make you writhe and make noises then he would be really proud about it when you did
  • LOOK he would look for praise all the time and you telling him what feels good would leave him so happy
  • afterwards he’d be the most cuddly puppy ever
  • no matter what situation you were in he would just want to chill and sleep and he would be super clingy and cute

WONHO

Originally posted by wonhontology

  • LOOK IF U THINK IMMA MAKE HIM KINKY AF
  • u right
  • this boy has every kink you can think of
  • he’s a very intense dom
  • but also a VERY good sub
  • definitely a switch bc he loves having the power and commanding
  • but he also loves being strapped down and teased and made to beg
  • BURN ME ALIVE PLS
  • look he’s the type to worship every single curve and detail of your body
  • especially the places he knows you don’t like
  • stretch marks? cellulite? a mole? a birthmark? he will love the fuck out of that stuff bc,,,, lbh he loves every part of you and he wants you to know that
  • he’s very big on stimulation in EVERY form
  • he’ll take it very slowly, making sure he kisses every part of your body before anything actually happens
  • he’s a sucker for names too (i know you’re thinking of daddy and u rigHT but also like lots of other names too)
  • (LIVES for piercings and will want to play with all of them)
  • also he’d be very into thigh-riding sO
  • also eye contact while going down on him/him going down on you
  • OKAY I HAVE TO STOP NOW BY E

KIHYUN

Originally posted by j-miki

  • teASE
  • TEASE
  • T E A S E
  • can u guess
  • he’s a tease
  • such a little shit you would not BELIEVE
  • the kind of person who would take everything PAINFULLY slow while wearing a sly lil smirk on his face
  • like taking your clothes off in slow motion
  • or putting his lips SO CLOSE to yours but never letting them touch
  • running his hands over your body to get you excited
  • totally into orgasm denial WHERE IS THE MEME OF HANSOL WITH A BIBLE I NEED IT
  • he’d love getting you right on the edge
  • building you up slowly and with such skill like,,,, he’d very skillful
  • knows exactly where to put himself and what to do
  • but he would love getting you worked up until you were so clOSE
  • then he’d stop completely.
  • lil shit
  • he’d do that a few times until he had you begging
  • he’d tell you to ask nicely and YOUR SWEET VOICE WOULD MAKE HIM WEAK AF
  • “okay baby, i’ll let you come”
  • then he’d send you so crazy you would be screaming for him and oh man that would be music to his ears
  • SOMEONE DROWN ME I HOLY WATER PLS

HYUNGWON

Originally posted by ch-hyngwn

  • aka oral king
  • i mean how could he not be with deM LIPS
  • a lil shy bean at first
  • blushy and awkward
  • doesn’t know where to put his hands or how to make it feel natural
  • once the making out starts though,,,, he’s got it
  • he becomes very very intent on pleasing you
  • bc he’s one of those people where your pleasure means more to him than his own
  • which is why oral is usually his go-to
  • he loves feeling your hands in his hair
  • and your hips buck underneath him woW
  • he’s the type to softly grip your thighs at the same time or hold your hand
  • after you’ve reached your climax he would press soft kisses to the insides of your legs and your stomach, going up until he reached your lips again
  • loves just pressing kisses to your neck and chest and letting you hold his hair as he does
  • very soft and will take it slow usually
  • just wants you to enjoy yourself as much as possible tbh

JOOHEON

Originally posted by monstalways

  • SOFT
  • the kind of person to constantly tell you how beautiful you are
  • like no matter what part of the do ur at
  • he’s gonna tell you how beautiful you are
  • and how lucky he is to have you
  • when i say soft i mean soft
  • he’s very respectful and will always ask you if something is okay before he does it
  • the LAST thing he wants is to hurt or pressure you
  • he’d be so careful and caring tbh
  • “is this okay?” “can i do this?” “would you like me to stop?”
  • but not to the point where it would be annoying yknow
  • like he asks just enough to keep the mood high but to know what you want him to do
  • he’d encourage you to tell him what’s good 
  • once he finds something that has you writhing he won’t stop tbh
  • afterwards it’ll be all cuddles and him telling you how much he loves you

I.M

Originally posted by wonhontology

  • the baby
  • he’s gonna act like a baby at first
  • stressing about what to do and where to touch you and being nervous to look at you
  • also trying to calm his nerves with cheesy pick-up lines  
  • you just roll your eyes and tell him to chill
  • eventually he’ll be okay
  • you just gotta get him turned on and then he’ll shut up
  • ( except not for long though bc i have no doubt he’s loud af )
  • changkyun’s thing,,,, outfits
  • pretty little chokers and silky gowns
  • no matter what gender u are he loves pretty underwear and lingerie
  • he’d probably buy you stuff and be shy about it when he gave it to you as a gift but
  • it would make him weak af to see you in stuff he bought
  • ALSO SEND HIM PICTURES WHILE HE’S OUT TO FUCK HIM UP
  • like while he’s busy if you take a nude or suggestive photo and send it to him
  • he’d be a sweaty flustered mess
  • but MAN would u hear about it later
  • nd i don’t mean just being scolded,,, although that would happen
  • “punishments” tbh

Imma go take a holy water bath now. Hope you enjoyed!

Bloodlines - Part 1

A/N: Based off of the song “Heathens” by Twenty One Pilots, this will be a multichapter fic with either a lyric being a chapter title, or the headers to break down the thought process of the chapter. None of the lyrics are mine, and they are all in bold - Again, I do not claim to own them, all credit where credit is due.

I do not own Teen Wolf or it’s characters. Sadly.

Word Count: 2,500 (Not including lyrics.)

Warnings: None that I know of.

Beautiful people who helped me when I came to them with this crazy idea and said to run with it: @wheresthekillswitch @obsessed-withthe-hales @aworldmadeforme@life-what-life-i-dont-have-one

Coming back to Beacon Hills was supposed to be uneventful. Yet somehow, you are now stuck in the middle of two worlds you didn’t even know existed yesterday. Now between both worlds, but not belonging to either, you try to forge your own way, finding out that some ties are stronger than bloodlines.

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Lapidot Moments - The Masterpost

The “Lapidot Moments” series is an ongoing project that aims to discuss all of the possible hints and evidence for the Lapidot ship.  It covers the actual episodes of Steven Universe themselves, as well as possible hints from the Crewniverse and even topics such as the use of actual Peridot and Lapis Lazuli gemstones in crystal healing.

Please don’t look at this post expecting a simple bullet-pointed list - each point is followed by a link, which will take you to a post discussing that subject.  Everything being said is therefore being backed-up with some written analysis and/or images and GIFs from the show.

This masterpost will be updated (and possibly subsequently reblogged) each time we get more Lapidot hints/episodes/evidence.  

If anyone thinks that I’ve missed anything, please do let me know!  My inbox is always open.


HINTS & EVIDENCE IN THE SHOW
In chronological order

The Return

Log Date 7 15 2

Same Old World

Barn Mates

Too Short To Ride

Beta and Back To The Moon

  • Peridot and Lapis are so happy and relaxed around each other in Beta - it’s arguably the happpiest we’ve ever seen either of them.  They’ve set up a home together, give each other some quite telling looks, and Lapis is shown to be the only Gem who has ever truly taken an interest in what Peridot likes doing: http://jenhedgehog.tumblr.com/post/150739546058/beta-lets-take-a-moment-to

The Kindergarten Kid

Video Chat

Gem Harvest

The New Crystal Gems

Room For Ruby

General analysis from various episodes


HINTS FROM THE CREW


MISCELLANEOUS

Deal (Spencer Reid x Reader)

A/N: Hey guys! I’m really sorry I haven’t posted in forever but I’ve had writers block for awhile and I haven’t really had time to write but it’s the weekend (woop whoop) so I can write a lot and hopefully I can open my requests soon!
Warnings: season 12 storyline (DONT READ IF YOUR NOT CAUGHT UP)
Pairing: Spencer Reid x Reader
Prompt: the reader bails Spencer out of jail and he is eager to meet her in person and thank her
Request: ❌
Upcoming Imagine: Reader and Spencer have to share bed and he sleep cuddles
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“Spencer Reid.”
“Spencer Reid? His bail was denied.” The judge said.
“I am the daughter of the Chief L/N I think some exceptions could be arranged.”
“I’m sorry there’s no way…”
“This man is innocent. I have a theory to prove it and if that is not enough then I will contact my father myself. Put him on trial for bail. I’ll even pay the whole fee. No state backup.” You argued with the judge.
She looked you in the eye and nodded.
“The theory? I’m going to need to talk to your father as well.”
You explained your theory and reasoning behind why Dr. Spencer Reid is innocent and she seemed to understand and agreed to talk to your father.
People might ask why are you so eager to get Spencer Reid out of that prison, and you would give them the answer.
He doesn’t belong there.
He is innocent.
And you have been studying him since 2007.
You’ve always been interested in the man with the IQ of a genius and eidetic memory.
Not only was his intelligence impressive, it was the level of intelligence at his age that was impressive as well.
He was your age and that always sprung more interest in him to you.
You’ve watched every press conference and attended to any of his speeches he very rarely gave.
Once you heard he was in prison, you knew there was a missing puzzle piece from the picture.
You spent sleepless nights dedicated to some way to get him out because you knew he wouldn’t last more than 6 months there.
You’ve actually met him after one of his speeches and found out how socially awkward he is.
Ok your leaving some trait out.
He’s attractive.
Sooo attractive.
Anyways, you knew he had to be bailed out and your willing to spend $5000 dollars on it.
You’ve already sacrificed so much for him.
Time.
Money.
And he doesn’t even know it.
-
Today was the trial.
When Spencer was dragged out of his cell and told there was a trail for bail, he was so happy yet so confused.
The bail was denied.
He almost thought it was a joke.
But when they took him to court he knew this was no joke.
He could be getting out of there.
He entered the court room and saw a y/h/c haired woman standing on the defendant side of the room.
She never turned around, leaving herself anonymous to him.
“Mr. Spencer Reid was imprisoned for the murder of Rosa Medina. You, Miss. L/N, promise to hold account of all bail fees for you plead him innocent.”
“Yes your honor.” You said looking back at Spencer.
He looked at you with disbelief.
You smiled shallowly at him before turning around again.
“Any objections?” The judge asked the half empty courtroom.
There were other men and woman in there, which you recognized as the rest of the BAU.
Everyone was silent.
“Without any objections, Spencer Reid will be bailed from prison. Tomorrow, April 6th, Mr. Reid will be removed from prison and in house arrest for 30 days. Case closed.” The judge said smacking the gavel on the table before everyone filed out.
You made sure you were first, trying to avoid any contact with anyone.
They will all ask the same question: why and how.
“Miss. L/N!” You heard behind you.
Great.
You stopped and turned around to see a young, tan man with black hair approach you.
“I don’t want to hold you here long but I just want to say thank you. On our teams and Reid’s behalf. He will be very thankful you did this. I don’t even know how you did it but… you did!” He said with a smile.
“Yeah I have connections and no problem. I think we all know he didn’t belong there.” You said with a smile.
“Well I’ll let you get going. Thanks again!” He said turning around.
You sped walked out of the court room and right when you met the doors, officers were escorting Spencer out.
He turned around and mouthed thank you to you.
You nodded and smiled.
You took notice of his restless eyes that were full of hope.
You instantly felt empathy for him, thinking of the sleepless nights he must of had in such a dark place.
You followed them out and headed separate ways.
You couldn’t help but feel his eyes on you as you walked back to your car.
-
You thought about visiting him.
You thought about calling the BAU and getting his address and leaving a card or something, but that would probably be too much.
As soon as the month went buy and you knew he would be out of house arrest made you happy.
He could get the help and rest he needs.
Just as you were thinking about him there was a knock on your apartment door.
You thought it was the pizza you ordered but when you opened the door, there definitely wasn’t a pizza man.
It was Spencer Reid.
His hair clean and face smooth and free of facial hair.
“Hi.” He said lost for words.
“Hey umm allow me to introduce myself. I’m Y/N L/N.” You said, keeping your hand at your side, remembering he isn’t fond of handshaking.
“I-I can’t thank you enough for what you did. I mean… I don’t even know you. I don’t know how you bailed me out and I don’t know why but… I would like to know. I would like to get to know you because to be honest… you saved my life and I owe you.” He said nervously.
You smiled and then saw the pizza guy awkwardly approach your door.
“Oh yeah uh hold on.” You said grabbing your wallet.
You approached the door with 20 dollars and paid the pizza man telling him to keep the change as you traded the food for cash.
He left and you and Spencer were back at square one.
“Do you want to come inside? I have this pizza that I could use some help eating.” You said presenting your neat and clean apartment, glad you tidied up earlier.
“Yeah I would love that.” He said coming in.
You shut the door and set the pizza down on your counter.
“I hope you like pepperoni.” You said with a small laugh.
“Who doesn’t?” He said standing on the other side of the counter.
You gave him a slice of pizza and sat down next to him on a stool.
There was a silence between the two of you, but not an awkward one.
You watched him eat, until his attention was drawn to you, making you stop and blush.
“Are you okay?” You asked softly.
“Yeah… are you?” He asked confused.
“Yeah but… I mean mentally. Physically too.” You asked again.
“I-I think so. Aside from nightmares I’m okay.” He said his brown eyes seeping into your soul.
“Physically?” You asked again.
You’ve noticed how he walked in and he’s in pain.
He looked forward and swallowed furrowing his brows.
“Headaches and minor bruising but I’m okay.” He said assuringly. “How did you bail me out?” He asked changing the subject.
“I have resources and connections. My father is the Chief of the state police.” You said taking a bite of pizza.
“How did you know I was arrested?” He asked, curiosity lacing his words.
This could be embarrassing.
“I um… I’ve always been interested in you I guess. Ever since 2007, I’ve been studying you. God that sounds creepy…”
“No no it doesn’t. It really doesn’t.” He said with a smile.
“So yeah. Your intelligence at this age just really drew me in and I was eager to know more about you so I made sure to attend or watch any press conferences and I even went to one of your seminars about criminal behavior.” You said heat rising to your cheeks.
“Yeah! I remember meeting you! I knew you looked familiar.” He said, his voice raising a few octaves in remembrance. “You were like my only normal fan.” He added making you giggle to yourself.
“So I take it you already know me pretty well but I still like have no clue who you are.” He said laughing, setting butterflies free in your stomach.
“Well I actually was interested in criminal behavior and am planning to study it in college soon.” You said taking another bite of pizza.
“Really? That five thousand dollars could have paid for text books and about half of tuition.” He said.
“Yeah but you have so much going for you and you didn’t deserve to be in there.” You said drawing your attention to your toes.
“Again, I can’t thank you enough for that.” He said.
You watched as his hand inched a little closer to yours.
He was hesitant so you made the move yourself.
You grabbed his hand and stroked the top with your thumb.
“You don’t need to thank me.” You said looking into his eyes.
“I do but I don’t know how.” He said as his eyes wandered back and forth.
“Spencer, you really don’t. I did this because it was my choice. I wanted you out of there. I needed you out of there.” You said bringing his attention back to you.
“Why?” He asked, his voice breaking.
“Because… I knew you wouldn’t survive in there.” You said.
He looked at you, asking for more of an answer. “There’s more to it than that.” He whispered.
“I-I don’t know. I knew you were innocent and I knew that the only person who could really do something was me so I acted upon it and… now we are here.” You explained quickly.
He smiled and stood up to take his plate to the sink but you quickly stood up and took it from him, doing it for him.
You carefully watched as he sat down, slightly wincing.
“What hurts?” You asked.
“Everything.” He said rubbing his eyes.
“Why don’t we sit on the couch.” You said putting an arm around his back.
You helped him walk to the couch, seeing how much pain he has been holding back.
“What did they do to you?” You asked sitting next to him.
“Nothing. I’m just sore.” He said pushing away the subject.
“No they hurt you.” You said sounding a little more concerned than what you intended.
There was a brief silence before it was interrupted by his soft voice.
“They uh… they beat me. A group of them.” He said quietly.
“How many times?” You asked just taking notice of the bruised bump underneath his bangs.
“8 times out of my whole visit.” He said as you carefully pushed his hair back.
You watched as goosebumps rose on his skin.
“My stomach is the worst.” He said, instantly regretting what he just said.
“Here let me get you a heating pad.” You said standing up but being interrupted by his hand on your wrist.
“I’m okay I don’t need it.” He said with an uneasy smile.
“Let me take care of you.” You whispered faintly.
His face softened and was full of happiness.
He slowly let go of your wrist and you retrieved your heating pad.
“What’s your favorite tea?” You asked plugging it in.
“I’m okay I don’t need…” he stopped when you looked at him with a hand on your hip.
“I-I like chamomile.” He said with a smile.
You walked into the kitchen and started to boil some water.
While you waited you sat next to Spencer.
You saw his lips part and then close again.
You knew he was going to thank you again but he already knew your answer.
“Did you get enough to eat?” You asked quietly.
“Yeah. Yeah thank you for dinner. I haven’t had pizza in awhile.” He said slightly sitting up.
Again you noticed his stiffness and the slight furrow of his brow as he shifted in pain.
“You poor thing.” You said brushing hair out of his eyes.
You didn’t think his eyes could get any softer but they somehow did.
He was comfortable and relieved.
You leaned a little closer and he didn’t stop you so you took that as an okay.
Your lips barely brushed against each other before you heard the screech of your tea kettle, making you jump in your seat.
Spencer smiled as you blushed and got up to finish making his tea.
You brought it out to the living room and set it on the table.
“It’s going to be a little hot.” You said sitting next to him again.
He took the heating pad off of his stomach and sat up holding the cup in his hand.
“Careful.” You said setting your hands over his as he was about to take a sip.
“I said it’s going to be hot.” You said again.
“I was just seeing how hot it was.” He said as you awkwardly took your hands away.
He took a little sip and set the cup down.
“You can stay here if you want. It’s getting a little late and I know how hard it is to get a cab.” You said with a smile.
“Okay thank you.” He said.
He looked at you, hesitantly but then he wrapped his arms around you in a tight hug.
You were surprised at first but then you happily hugged back.
“Thank you so much.” He said into your shoulder.
“Yeah. It gets lonely here sometimes. It’s nice to have you.” You said pulling away slowly.
Before you pulled away, he kept you inches away from his face.
You held your hands on each side of his face and slowly took his lips in yours.
He pulled your body closer to his as he deepened the kiss.
Then out of the blue he pulled away quickly.
“I’m so sorry that was inappropriate…”
He started to say but you interrupted him.
“Don’t be sorry. For one I kissed you and for two I wanted you to kiss me back.” You said shyly as your faces remained inches apart.
“Okay… glad to know I wasn’t the only one.” He said with a small giggle.
“I’ll let you sleep in my bed. I’ll take the couch.” You said pulling away from his grasp.
“No no I’ll sleep on the couch. It’s very comfortable I won’t mind.” He said with a smile.
“Spencer please sleep in my bed.” You said crossing your arms.
“Instead of arguing, let’s come to an agreement that we sleep in the same bed. Deal?” He asked standing up and taking your hand.
“Deal.”

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trashtrashrevolution  asked:

Hello hello~ Could you do RFA+ V and Saeran reacting to MC being a super famous music composer (popular or classical is up to you :)) but under a different name so no one knows it's her? Thanks so much!

I’m really sorry if you aren’t pleased with this, I tried my best. I had to do some research on modern musical composition. It didn’t help much though haha. The Saeran part actually had me in my feels, I love him so much honestly.


Zen

  • When you told him he kind of just??? 
  • The girl he’s in love with is not only so amazing to him but hella fucking talented too?
  • “We’re a power couple, babe!”
  • Then you told him you use a different name and he respects it 100%. He uses a stage name for personal reasons and understands yours. 
  • Obsessed with your music tbh. This boy actually buys ALL your produced music and follows on any news about you.
  • Offers to collaborate with you just because he loves your work so much
  • That song y’all produced was a fucking hit
  • He loves making music with you, or just sitting in. 
  • Literally can listen to you for hours and will never get tired of your music
  • But you when you get frustrated or stressed while writing he will be so sweet and make you tea, maybe even some massages  hmmmmm


Jaehee

  • You told her after you released one of your new pieces and she was non stop listening to it after.
  • “MC! You have to listen to this!” shit here it goes 
  • You tried to explain as calm as possible because you thought she’d be angry at you for keeping it from her girl were you wrong
  • Fangirl mode: To the fucking max
  • Homegirl was so shook, she had to take a moment to let this information sink in.
  • It was so quiet you almost thought you were going to have to spend weeks making it up to her for lying
  • Nope she was so excited for you. She’s asks some questions about why you use a different name but completely understands and respects your reasons 
  • To apologize for keeping it from her, you gave her a piece for only her to listen to because it reminded you of her
  • She is literally in tears 
  • You’re both hella lucky

Jumin

  • He had no clue 
  • When you told him he thought this came out of no where
  • He’s super impressed with your music 
  • Puts your music on while he’s working or away on business trips
  • People in the office got sick of it fast but kept their mouths shut because Jumin is intimidating af
  • He’s real protective of your identity. He helps you out and does whatever he can to keep it a secret.
  • He gets you the best deals for your confidential identity 
  • But he can be much..
  • “MC I think that person knew who you were..”
  • “She asked if I could take a picture of her family… at a tourist sight.” 
  • “But-” 
  • “Jumin Chill”

Yoosung

  • Paralyzed with astonishment because “My girlfriend is so cool!”
  • Probably has listened to your music before and doesn’t realize it until he goes through it. 
  • Subtly brags about how his girlfriend is super talented with his buddies on LOLOL 
  • Loves to listen to you while you’re making music
  • He’s staring at you though because he loves how beautiful you look when you’re so focused 
  • You tried teaching him a thing or two about music 
  • He didn’t catch on quick exactly, he sort of quit after a few days because it was exhausting 
  • “How do you do this so much MC??” 
  • “Lots of practice, Yoosung.” 
  • No matter how many times you say it’s all about practice he’s totally convinced you’re this superhuman machine
  • That he absolutely adores

Saeyoung/707

  • He already knew.
  • There ain’t nothing you can hide digitally from this boy 
  • He didn’t mention it because he wanted you to tell him yourself..
  • But he low key fangirled when he found sheets under your public name. 
  • Listened to your music even before you joined RFA 
  • Tried to keep it on the down low that he was a big fan but when you told him he couldn’t contain it anymore oh boy
  • Non stop and horribly obnoxious humming to your music around the house 
  • You were so torn between being annoyed and wondering how you got such a wonderful guy by your side 
  • #1 MC Stan by day, #1 MC’s Music Stan by night 
  • Buys all your music but ohhh no he didn’t stop there. 
  • Starts making shirts, hats, banners.. even pet clothes 
  • “Do you really think making even the robot cat wear your merch is necessary?” 
  • “IT’S IMPORTANT MC DONT QUESTION IT”

V

  • When you told him he was really, really proud of you and your music. 
  • He likes listening to it while smoking his pipe
  • Though he can’t see you, he really loves that you make music so he can feel what you were feeling while you made it. 
  • He totally understands why you kept your identity a secret. 
  • Fame is a pain in the ass and neither of you need it. 
  • You both bond through your artistic work, it made you understand each other really well.
  • He was already head over heels in love with you before and now he’s just so happy.

Saeran

  • He was really skeptical about the fame being a good thing. 
  • Until you told him you kept your identity a secret, he was pretty relieved. 
  • Just imagining you two getting stopped in public just freaked him out 
  • He sat in the same room as you while you showed and played some of your music 
  • He kind of just sat there awkwardly, amazed that it sounded so good 
  • He totally gets why your music is famous. He doesn’t know much about music but that was some good shit if he says so himself. 
  • If he ever feels overwhelmed or frustrated he asks you to play for him because it calms him down. 
  • If you can’t, he’ll listen to a playback. It helped with his recovery and anxiety a lot.
  • He thinks he’s so lucky to have someone so talented and understanding in his life.
  • You actually tried teaching him some basics and some snippets of your music and he surprisingly enjoyed it. 
  • You wrote a piece just for him that you knew would put him at ease anytime he listened to it, he was so flustered you presented it to him. Honestly protect my poor baby.
Boyfriend Mark pt.2

for my one and only @zxtlx akksksbsjs

  • we’re such trash for mark i cant even
  • and who isnt tbh , mark lee is just wonderful
  • im about to kill myself and y'all with this post ,
  • lots of fluff coming up , dont cry im warning you
  • okay let’s start

  • like taeyong , he’d probably all you his princess/baby

  • and he treats you like one too
  • your contact name on his phone is saved as “ my jagi 💜💜💕❤ /inserts 828292 more emojis/ ”
  • and likewise , he asked you to save his as “ babe 💜💜💕❤ /emojis everywhere / ”
  • one time haechan caught him texting you ,
  • he almost puked when he saw the convo because it was too sweet and corny
  • “ princess i miss you :-( ”
  • “ babe i miss you too , how’s practice going ? ”
  • “ pretty good , but it’d be better if you were here though ”
  • /haechan starts puking at this point of time/
  • he loves you so much he set the password on his phone lockscreen to your birthday
  • and probably every other password he has too
  • he writes/sings/raps songs for you
  • and asks you for your opinions on them
  • he’s so clueless and confused all the time he often asks you stupid questions
  • “ wait why are you giving me a gift suddenly ”
  • “ it’s your birthday today … ? ”
  • “ oh really , i didn’t know ”
  • “ babe i wished you last night at 12am sharp ?? ”
  • “ you did ? im sorry i think i fell asleep during the movie ”
  • “ oh my god , mark you even replied me ”
  • “ you serious ? but thanks anyway , i love you so much ”
  • and you cant help but pinch his cheek because he’s too adorable
  • sleeptalking mark acting up
  • talking about sleeptalking he often hugs you in the middle of the night
  • and mumbles something like
  • “ i … sarang you ”
  • “ you are my jagi ”
  • “ Y/N’s so cute ”
  • and you’re just there beside him blushing and hugging him tighter because his sleeptalk is always a form as entertainment for you
  • he makes weird noises and background noises when y'all have conversations
  • be it together with the other members ,
  • or just the two of you alone
  • “ okay guys let’s meet up next week ”
  • “ alrights , im looking forward- ”
  • “ yes !!! ”
  • “ woo !!! ”
  • “ yeah … ”
  • “ mark … stop what are you doing ”
  • he’s so sweet and nice he actually got you a guitar ,
  • so he could teach you how to play it
  • and also another reason was because he wanted you to sing songs with him next time
  • he stares at you from afar when you have events/performances
  • and everytime he has that proud motherly smile on his face
  • and he’d always give you two thumbs up to cheer you on
  • one time you accidentally fell down on stage ,
  • he got right of his seat and ran forward to the stage to help you up
  • all within like 0.292993 seconds
  • he even piggybacked you down
  • and obviously the whole school saw so there were lots of cheering over mark’s actions
  • that’s how y'all became the popular couple in school
  • even the teachers are supportive of the relationship and lowkey ships the both of you
  • like how they always make the both of you to pair up to do work/projects/presentations
  • one thing he really hates though ,
  • is when you get really sad and emotional ,
  • because he feels like he isn’t doing enough to comfort you and he starts blaming himself
  • but when you tell him all you need is a hug from him ,
  • he gives you the tightest and warmest hug you ever received
  • and he also gave you a small peck on the lips after
  • he smiles a little because he’s glad he’s able to help you
  • he brings you out on food dates almost everyday
  • and instead of you , he’s always the one getting fascinated by the variety of different foods
  • he also loves sharing/complimenting you on social media
  • there would always be a long paragraph of words for his captions for every picture of you
  • and on every single one the members wuould comment and tease him
  • “ ‘jagi i love you’ why do you never say that to your hyung here ” - taeyong
  • “ lee donghyuck error 404 not found ” - haechan
  • “ mork hyung and y/n so cute !! ” - chenle
  • “ why is mark never like that to us /tags the other members/ ” - yuta “
  • on the bright side, the other members really support your relationship and are always there for the both of you
  • my mind’s blocked now so i’ll stop here im sorry
  • in conclusion , date mark lee , he’s boyfriend material af
  • also a clueless little bean
  • i hope you liked it !!
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Summary: Its 2019 and there’s a wedding. Phil’s saying something, but Dan isn’t really listening, his mind’s elsewhere…that “where” being ten years ago, in 2009. Angst/Fluff 
TW:  Rating PG-13, Swearing, drinking/drunk

*Winner Of The 2015 Phanfic Awards’ ‘Emotional Wreck Award’*

*2nd Place In 2015 Phanfic Awards’ ‘Best Angst’*

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2019 Wedding ~

Dan was never really a fan of churches. Sure, he’s been in loads, plenty of family outings from when he was little, school trips in secondary school for religious studies, and some primary school hymn sessions, made sure of that. But to him they always seemed…too quiet? Yes, too quiet for Dan, he needed a distraction: a busy mind. The silence made it impossible to distract your mind from its own thoughts, so that you were forced to look at what was actually floating around in there…and Dan wasn’t a big fan of that either. Why?

His thoughts normally consisted of dark existentialism, a fuckload of regrets, and old repressed memories, which he didn’t really want to revisit…especially as he is supposed to be paying attention to the vicar.

“Dearly beloved, we are gathered here today to-“ gathered? What’s he mean gathered, that makes it sound like people don’t want to be here; like they just wandered in uninvited. 

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I'm probably going to stop writing for BTS.

Writing is a huge passion of mine. The first time I was exposed to a novel that impacted my life, was truly the biggest door opening for my life, I was 10 and read novels my teachers wouldn’t allow me too because they thought the level I was at wasn’t enough. 

I lost friends because I just wanted to read. I became an outcast because I was truly so engulfed in the idea of imaginary worlds that I felt I was a part of. 

That being said, I wrote many stories based on bands I liked or stories I loved, etc. I didn’t know they were called fanfictions, or else I would’ve probably been blogging at the age of 10. I sat in my room for days during the summer, during winter or spring break just writing or reading. 

By the time I was 12 I had written two novels of a story I created, an original one. I hand wrote them, so it took much longer to create, but it was a huge accomplishment for me. I still have the copies of them, over 600 pages of white lined paper with messy, fifth grade grammar and shitty illustrations of the characters I had pictured perfectly in my mind.

Writing became more than a hobby for me. I became obsessed with it, to the point where my family had to force me out of the house to actually get any exercise or to be my friends.

I ended up losing most of my friends for that. I never contacted anyone, I was reading books over and over because I couldn’t go out and buy new series I was interested in.

I moved when I was 13, to a new city. I was happy about that, because I thought maybe I could get a fresh start and meet new people. I got involved in new series, movies adapted from books I loved, TV series adapted from books I loved. I found that people at my new school enjoyed the same things as me, and I found friends I related to and cared about.

I told my mom and dad I wanted to become an author.

They told me I was ridiculous, and that I would never make enough money to support them when they got older. They told me to get an office job like my older sister, do something safe and stable even if you hate it. I remember that being said to me, even though it was 3 years ago. 3 years ago is longer tn you might think.

I started to think if I can’t do what I love, what’s the point of living. Pretty drastic, especially for a 13 year old right? I was upset, thinking that my dreams were useless. Once I got into high school I had dropped writing and focused on my friends even if I was unhappy. I stopped reading, stopped thinking about the world I had created and was once so engulfed in, because why do something you love when you’ll never make enough money of it to support your family?

I was depressed. I got into more fights with my siblings  and mom more often. I hated myself. I didn’t like to spend time at home because all I did was cry and sleep. I was failing a lot of my courses for no reason. My teachers hated me. I was really wrecked by the thought of not doing something I love, especially after spending so much time and energy writing it and thinking it all, basing my life on imaginary worlds nobody knew of. I didn’t care about making money when I was older. I just wanted to write.

Writing fictional things was like a diary to me. I was physically abused as a child and mentally abused when I refused to get hit anymore. While I wasn’t putting my feelings onto paper, I made myself feel better by creating a universe that would help me forget the things I was going through. Friends leaving, family members dying, abuse and negativity from all around. My own way to cope.

Think about that, your whole life being shattered because you wouldn’t be able to afford to take care of people you practically hated just because they gave birth to you.

I created this blog once I became a fan of Bts, in the summer of 9th grade going into 10th. I was 15, and wanted to write my heart out. At this point I had given up becoming an author, just to please those around me. It was a hard spot in my life, my grandmother was in the hospital and unfortunately passed away. Again, it was my coping mechanism.

So I spent almost all my time on here, writing really sub par series to get rid of the fact that I didn’t have a future doing what I loved.

But I fell in love with writing again. I loved the attention I was getting for my writing, no matter how amateur it was. I was getting love and support I never had, which urged me to write more and more. I started to hardly see my friends, and was spending all my time writing once more. My grades went up, but hardly. My boyfriend and I broke up, and by the time I was in 10th grade I had spiraled back into that downward spiral of why do something you love when you can’t make enough money off of it.

My irritability and anger came back, I hated my mom and locked myself in my room for days. I stopped going to school and I failed every single one of my courses.

I was finally able to meet new friends, ones that I related to more than just hey, we watch the same TV show! We talk everyday, we always have something new to talk about even if its about nothing in general. I trust them, and I can really say I love them all so much.

I got diagnosed with depression, after years of living with it. I just reached a point where I woke up and forced myself back to sleep because I hated my life. My mom took me to the doctor and  barely needed conformation besides the fact that I didn’t eat, slept all day a contemplated dying all the time.

I got put on pills. Didn’t work. Got put on higher, stronger pills. Those fucked me up but I kept quiet. I was tired of looking like I was insane. Both of my parents dont believe in depression, they jut thought I was crazy and wanted me to leave. I was out of it most of the year but felt happier. Slept like the dead, had nightmares a lot, hardly ate, but as long as I felt happier I was fine.

Went back to school for a few months, quit again once I found out we were moving, again. Talked to only 2 people in real life, most of my friends were online.

I stopped taking my pills without anyone knowing. NEVER DO THAT. I didn’t consult my doctor, almost tried to kill myself and it was a mess. Since then I’ve been eased off my pills and have not had a problem with my own self hatred or suicidal thoughts.

I was ready to get a job. I had been studying for my drivers test and got help to make a resume. Never happened. My birth ceritifcate was lost, my SIN card seemingly disappeared into thin air. Can’t open up a bank account of nobody knows who the fuck I am.

My mom and I got into a huge fight, because she refused to pay to get me a new birth certificate. I needed one to get a SIN card, which was needed to open a bank account, which was needed to get a job so I could pay for a car and whatever else I needed.

The fight got so bad I tried to leave. Didn’t work, my brother found me and brought me home. My mom tried to leave next but it never happened. Empty threats from weak people.

 A lot of cups were broken by me that night, and I seriously believed I’d be stuck as a high school drop out forever. My mom made me believe that night that I was insane and had no life ahead of myself.

Everything calmed down, I went through boxes for days searching for my birth certificate which my mom didn’t help me look for.

I found my birth certificate, and I applied for a new high school. I’ll be graduating by the time I’m 19, but I don’t mind in the least. My resume is finished, and by this Monday I’m planning on going to get a new SIN card and apply for as many jobs as I can until I find one. I’m opening up a bank account this Tuesday and even studying for my drivers license again.

I really didn’t understand college, or university. Hell, I still don’t. I got into contact with my older sister I haven’t spoken to in 4 years. She promised me a place to stay when I graduated high school, until I was able to get on my feet by myself.

She went though a similar thing with my mom, leaving when she was young after getting abused, but she has a good life. Getting married this week and in college studying to make her own jewelry and open a shop of her own. She helped my inspiration return, and I’m grateful I decided to talk to her again.

She’s helping me find a college or university for creative writing. I plan on saving up once I get a job, and moving to where she is to attend. Writing is the biggest passion of my life, and I’ve gone through so much to finally realize I can do whatever I want, without being held back by those who didn’t believe in me.

I met people that give me amazing advice and all around make me a better person. This blog has been such an experience. I’ve gone through a lot of ups and so so many downs. I wouldn’t have met people I consider family if it weren’t for this blog, and I’m so happy,. All 13k of you have supported me more times than I’ve ever gotten hate. The hate I did get only made me stronger and more ready for the criticism I know I will receive. Whether it be if I publish novels, or end up becoming a screenplay writer. I’m not exactly sure yet.

The reason why I made this long ass letter, or… Whatever it was, was because I wanted all of you to know that this isn’t the end of park-jimeme. I’m going to improve in the future so much more than I have the past year of running this blog. I’m going to come back better than ever, with fresh original work that is purely from my mind and my mind alone.

Thank you all for being a reason that I’m able to get to this point.

Never live your life pleasing others, live for yourself and yourself alone. Find people who will support you no matter how hard times get. Get help if you need it, dont try to handle things on your own.

And last but not least, thank you to @infireation @bobajimin @seokjin-seng, @hyongtae, and @lellantos for helping me realize that I’m a lot better than how I acted, and for making me a better person 💕💕 I love you guys so much!!!

Umbrellas Can Do A Lot.

He didn’t remember why he was running.  Or why he was crying.  Or when the rain had begun.  He didn’t feel anything.  He didn’t feel cold.  He felt numb.  All he could feel was the sob biting at the back of his throat.  Sound was a distant memory and his sight was merely a blurry picture of a sidewalk, dim street lights his only guide.  Then there was a stop. He didn’t know why he was stopping or where he was but his lungs were screaming and then he was sitting.  He didn’t remember sitting.  He didn’t know anything.  

She was laughing.  She held a black umbrella and a woven basket full of warm cookies.  A warmth filled her despite the cold rain dripping down her face.  She was still so happy.  The day had gone extremely well.  Once again the universe on her side.  Nothing could rid the smile on her face.  Thats when she saw him.  The boy who always had the big smile.  The boy who did everything to make others happy.  The one that gave her this umbrella so she wouldn’t have to walk home soaking wet.  And here he was.  Huddled up next to a tree, shivering, drenched in rain water.  His arms were wrapped around his knees and his face hidden.  Wretched sobs were breaking through the barrier of his limbs.   

She stopped in her tracks, her eyes wide.  She stared in fear and worry but didn’t speak, didn’t move.  He didn’t notice her.  His sobs only progressed and worsened.  Then she finally moved, gaining her courage.  She quickly walked over to the shaking boy and held the umbrella over him while squatting down to sit next to him.  


“Adrien?”  her voice broke a barrier and his head snapped up to look at her.   His eyes were so flooded with tears and rain water, but he was able to make her face out.


“Marinette?”  he choked out the name between sobs.   


They stared for a moment before Marinette broke from her daze and quickly maneuvered the obersized jakckter ofnher father’s from her body to wrap around his shoulders.  He seemed surprised but was crying too much to protest.  


They sat there under the tree with the umbrella barely keeping the rain off of them staring out into the empty streets of Paris for a few moments. She wanted to let Adrien gather his senses before she asked anything.  


When the sobs had come to a noticeable slowing she finally ventured to speak.


“What happened?”


Adrien’s whole body stiffened but Marinatte placed a hand softly on his shoulder.  He looked into her eyes and went from scared to comforted.  He let out a breath and shook his head.


“I- I don’t know- all I remember is- my dad.  My dad, he- he was yelling.  And-and-” he cut off at the feeling of Marinette squeezing his shoulder.  She gave him a comforting smile that he took as a sign to trust her.  That she was there for him.  

He did his best to continue

“He was angry,  because I was late- I was late for the fifth time in a day to my appointments- and- and he blamed it on school.  He said he was going to have me homeschooled again.  After three years of school and now he wanted to take me out!  And then- and- and an-”  his eyes we’re filling up with tears again and he felt his throat tighten.  

“hey hey hey”  Marinette had both hands on his shoulders to face him.  “It’s okay.  It’s gonna  be okay.  I’m here for you.  I’m always here.”  she blinked in worry and tried to catch his eye.  


He opened his mouth to speak again, “And he called me- he he called me worthless.  He said i- I would never- I would never be- never be good enough.  That school had pulled me back- and my friends were- were keeping me from being great.  He wanted to ban me from seeing any of you ever again.”  a great weight  set on both of them as he looked in her eyes.


Marinette took a deep breath.

“listen here, Adrien.  You-” she poked a finger at his chest- “are perfect.  Absolutely amazing and great.  We all make our mistakes but coming to school was not one of them.  Meeting you- it has been one of the best things to happen to me.  Your father clearly has problems of his own.  We all do.  But your father doesn’t think you’re worthless.  He even said to me once just how perfect you were.  What he said was out of fear and anger and possibly hurt.  I promise you I will talk to him.  I will not let you be taken out of school okay?”   


He stared at her in surprise, “You really don’t need to talk to him, he can be really rough and I dont want him to get angry-”

She cut him off,  “I want to help you Adrien.  I can handle being yelled at okay?”


Adrien looked hesitant but nodded, “Do- do you really think I’m perfect?” his voice cracked.


Marionette blushed but nodded and smiled, “Absolutely.”  

And then he laughed, surprising both of them.


“What?” marinette asked.


He pointed at the umbrella, “I almost forgot about that.”

Marinette smiled and looked up at it fondly.  


“Yeah… ha,” she smiled light-heartedly.  


“You really hated me that day.  What changed?”


She blushed,  “Well,  I saw someone who was truly kind.  Who’s fame hadn’t corrupted them, even though it easily could have.  I saw someone who cared about the people around him and wanted to help him.  You did everything in your power to make others happy.”


Adrien smiled, “All I did was give you an umbrella.”


“At the risk of yourself,  and you did so many other things for so many other people.  Adrien you really are amazing.”


“Thank you…” he whispered, “so much.  Im so Lucky to have a friend like you.  I-”


She nodded.  “of course, Adrien.  Anytime you need me, I’ll be here for you.”  

And then before he knew what he was doing, he had his arms around her in an embrace.  She jumped in surprise and the umbrella slipped from her hand.  she slowly let her arns slip around his torso.  His head fell into the crook of her shoulder.  She stroked his back gently and listened to his breathing.

He didnt remember crying.  Or running.  He didnt realize when the rain fell to a trickle or when the moon appeared and shone down upon them.  He felt everything.  her hands carressing his back.  her steady breathing and the rain dripping down his neck.  He felt his chest thumping and a warmth.  He felt a strong warmth.  It radiated from his stomach and shook throughout his body.  And her arms around him felt like a blanket.  She hummed lightly into his ear a song of light and comfort and love.  Then there was a beginning.  He didnt know what was beginning but his heart was beating faster than it ever had and he was happy and he felt- he felt love

———
That is the first ml fanfiction. It was kind of short but I was in the mood to write and had to take advantage of it. I hope you enjoyed it ^_^

WHEN THE MOON HITS YOUR EYE LIKE A BIG PIZZA PIE THATS AMORE- okay I’m done.

mc falling asleep on the rfa+minor trio ❤️

Zen

- he was such a tease
- yeah its all fun and games till you stayed up all night, unable to sleep because of his ass
- he did apologize though
- zen had the day off, so you wouldve just slept in had you not needed to prepare for the upcoming party
- halfway through ansewring guest emails you could barely keep your eyes open, he noticed
- “babe, why dont you take a break ?”
- when you just grunted and yawned, he sighed
- but then he got an idea
- “at least come a little closer, its so lonely over here without my babe~”
- you scoot closer on the couch and smile, leaning on him as she wraps an arm around your waist
- he was so warm what
- you subconsciously cuddle up against him, eyes dropping when she starts running his hand through your hair
- when he feels your phone fall into his lap, he looks down from the tv to see youve finally fallen asleep, snoring softly
- mission accomplished
- youre so cute fuck
- definately takes several selfies with you passed out against his chest

Yoosung

- FINALS FUCKING WRECKED YOU BOTH
- you were so exhausted from the several all-nighters and constant anxiety
- either you had less stamina than you originally thought or all that studying really did you in
- either way, yoosung had enough energy to play some stress relief rounds of lolol while you felt more than dead and ready to pass out
- but it was hard ? without yoosung in the bed
- so in a brilliant moment of absolute exhaustion and grumpy clingyness you decided one way or another you will get your sleep
- when yoosung felt you tap his shoulder, and he turned around in his chair to see what you needed (having accomplished his ingame task with his guild for the moment), the last thing he expected was for you to plop down in his lap
- ????????
- he was confused and shocked and slightly turned on but thats beside the point
- (are you wearing his hoodie)
- (yes, yes you are)
- when you snuggled into his neck and wrapped your arms around his waist, telling him to keep playing, he smiled and kissed your temple, rubbing your back before returning to his game
- you were already drifting off, very much welcoming his warmth and affection, his hand on your back quickly lulling you into a long (and much needed) sleep
- yoosung thought you were so cute and told everyone on the messenger/in his guild how you fell asleep on him and how ADORABLE it was
- definately took a picture
- soon enough, he said goodbye to his guild friends, logged off and joined you in sleep
- his computer chair probably wasnt the BEST idea to sleep but youll deal with that when you wake up

Jaehee

- it was your cafe’s grand opening
- more people showed up than expected…..
- watching jaehee buzz around to bring customers their orders as you tended to your own duties made you feel so full of love
- despite how busy and concentrated she was, she wore a genuine smile the whole time
- her hair had grown a little in the time span of getting and setting up the shop, it reached her chin now
- she was so cute
- “excuse me ?”
- your attention snapped back to the customer in front of you, apologizing for your distraction
- each time you brushed by each other, she gave you a smile that made the corner of her eyes crinkle up in happiness “i cant believe this is happening”
- oh its happening
- at the end of the day, you two were so exhausted you slumped together on a booth by the back
- she was talking about how happy she was, how this was practically a dream come true, how grateful was that you were here with her-
- shed look down at you as she spoke
- you fell asleep against her shoulder…..
- she smiled and leaned her head against yours - she still feels a bit weird, still not entirely sure how she feel about you
- but she knows theyre good feelings
- maybe it really will take until she hair grows to reach her back
- but thats okay, she can take as much time as she needs

Jumin

- jumin had spent a lot of time cooped up on his office today
- like more than usual
- so you decided you were going to be the best wife and pleasently surprise him with a delicious dinner for when he got home
- if elizabeth 3rd would stop batting at your flimsy skirt cat pLEASE
- she actually ended up snagging a piece of meat you accidentally dropped oh the floor
- and you chased her around every square inch of the penthouse because jumin would kill you if she ate that AND stained her perfect fur
- she successfully hid behind the couch and devoured it
- you sunk to the floor and resorted to begging with the cat
- “elise you can eat it if you just let me clean your fur at least before the sauce stains it pleASE”
- this is probably the second stupidest thing youve ever done
- despite being a feline, she seemed please with that, purring happily in your arms and cleaning herself>br> - “lets keep this between us, okay?”
- until you brought the wet washcloth close to her face
- t r a i t o r c a t
- you gained a few scratches on your collarbone and arms, but you washed the sauce of successfully
- whew
- you got back to work on dinner, already tired as you placed everything neatly on the table and waited for-
- “mc, im home.”
- you darted to the door and greeted him with a kiss, clinging to his arm “welcome home, jumin !”
- “its good to finally see you, my love.” he bent down as elizabeth trotted up happily to greet her owner “and you too, elizabeth 3rd.”
- “whats that smell?” youd completely forgotten about the dinner you made !
- you smiled excitedly before speaking up “i made you dinner. come on~” you pulled him into the dining room, pulling out a chair for him before sitting in the one beside it, as opposed to the one across like you usually do
- he blinked his mild surprise away before smiling softly and taking a seat “thank you, it looks amazing.”
- you both talked about your days as you ate (intentionally omitting elizabeth’s preformance of course)
- that pompous little cat was curled up on the couch, behaving herself either due to jumins prescence or her full stomach you werent sure
- after you finished eating, you leaned against jumins shoulder, exhausted
- he looked down at you, curious, but your eyes were closed and your face relaxed, lips parted ever so slightly
- youd dozed off
- he chuckled and wiped his mouth ith a napkin, realizing you probably went to ridiculous lengths to make this for him you have no idea trustfund
- hed carry you to the bedroom and lay you down to rest, then clean up the table himself soon
- but for now you can rest for a bit

707

- this boy was working hard as ever
- legs crossed, laptop ontop of them
- at least he was on the bed, at the end of it, furiously typing away
- youd just finished getting ready to sleep, but you wanted to sleep with him beside you
- “almost done…?” you asked hopefully
- “yeah,” he reached behind himself to stroke your leg comfortingly, tossing a smile over his shoulder “almost done. dont worry.”
- he was so tired and you could tell, even if he hadnt faced you completely
- you could hear it in his voice, saw the exhaustion in his eye
- you nodded, smiling back and he got back to work
- you suppressed a yawn, pulling the sheets over your lower half and leaning back against the headboard
- you fiddled with the cover, waiting patiently for him to finish his work and join you to sleep
- “hey, cute stuff.”
- you hummed, looking up, hoping he had finished his work and was flashing you that million dollar grin
- you deflated a little when you saw him, still tapping away at his keyboard.
- he rubbed his neck “why dont you just go to sleep ? ill join you, i promise, but youre tired”
- you sighed a little, pushing yourself off the headboard to slip you arms under his, wrapping them around his stomach and laying against his back “not without you.”
- he was silent for a bit, stiff, but soon relaxed and shook his head “i… will hurry this up.”
- you hummed again, eyes drifting shut, pressing a kiss between his shoulder blades
- he figured youd fallen asleep soon after that, your grip loosening a bit as your breathing slowed
- he smiled to himself and sped up his working pace

V

- sometimes v suffered from bouts insomnia
- it wasnt terrible, but hed end up staying up later than he wished, no matter how tired he was
- when that happened, hed usually get under the covers and snuggle against you, focusing on your soft, slow breathing until he fell asleep
- but sometimes hed end up sitting against the headboard, reflecting on his choices and reminding himself ‘how awful.’
- when that happened, youd usually wake up to him still wide awake but so tired
- but this time, you woke up in the middle of the night
- there he was, leaned ahainst the headboard, stsring into nothing
- “v?”
- he startled a bit, looking down in your direction “mc, im sorry, did i wake you?”
- “no,” you sat up and laid your head against his chest “sleep with me.”
- “soon…” he pet your head, brushing the soft strands back as you closed your eyes
- “dont take long”
- he hummed and kissed what he assumed was the top of your head (or somewhere around) by the feel of your hair against his lips
- you quickly fell back into sleep snuggled against him, your hand geld in his free one
- with you in his arms like this, he almost forgot about his intrusice thoughts, stroking your hair
- his neck ached but he kept his face in your hair - the smell of your shampoo was calming
- after a while, he may his head back and thought, with you, maybe he could focus more on the present

Saeran

- ngl
- this boy
- he fell asleep on you sometimes when you were alone
- you were comfy
- hed never admit tho
- especially lately since you were working so hard for the next party
- hed just lay his head in your lap or on your shoulder while you worked and snooze while waiting for you to finish, one hand absent-mindedly playing with his hair
- hed also made a habit of using you as his pillow when you both slept
- sometimes when he woke up from nightmares, hed bury his face in your neck or hair and wrap his body around you, ever cautious of waking you up
- you were so comforting even when you werent awake
- your smell, your warmth
- so he was used to falling asleep on you if anything
- he wasnt quite sure how to react when you fell asleep on him while emailing a possible guest
- his cheeks were a bit hot, with your hot breath fanning over his neck everytime you exhaled
- he did smile a bit and maneuvered to kiss your forehead
- however just as he did so, a camera went off
- “SAEYOUNG.”
- “im keeping it forever.”
- “wha- saeran? whashapnin?”
- “LOOK at what you did. DELETE THE PICTURE.”
- “no can do saeran~”
- needless to say you didnt get to sleep for very long

Vanderwood

- you were watching a movie together
- no matter how often you two get the opportunity to cuddle, you cherish every one of them, because vanderwood is just so comfortable
- and they smell amazing…..
- youre so grateful to get to cuddle with someone like them
- sometimes you thought they were secretly an angel
- the first time you told them that they scoffed
- the second time you told them that, they quietly said “yours, perhaps.”
- the third time you told them that, they rolled their eyes, and smiles a little
- laying against their chest, snuggled under their coat, you were in heaven
- you could probably fall asleep right then and there
- actually, you probably were about to
- the movie wasnt bad or anything, but you were alot more interested in vanderwod than the movie
- vanderwood seemed to be alot more interested in you than the movie as well, watching your eyes slowly drift shut, a hand fisted gently in their shirt
- they smiled and stroked your hair before reaching for the remote to turn the volume of the tv down
- theh pulled the blanket off the back of the couch and draped it over the two of you
- it struggled to cover their feet, but covered your body perfectly from shoulder to toes
- they stared down at you fondly, then leaned their head against the arm of the couch and looked back to the movie
- “i guess, maybe, youre my angel, too.”

bonding time- hanbin scenario

Anonymous said:Hii can I request a hanbin scenario he and his daughter on “ the return of the superman ” show ? Thank you !!!!


hello anon here is the request!!!! i dont know how i feel about this one shot in particular. tell me what you think about this. my ask box is till open so if you want reactions or scenarios or imagine dont be scared to send anything. just be a specific as you want so i can live up to the expectation. hope you enjoy!!!!!


pairing: hanbin/reader

genre: fluff i guess? XD

Originally posted by kanqyoon

“Are you sure you are gonna be okay?” You asked your husband for the umpteenth time.

“Yes, I’m on top of this. I can take care of my daughter for 2 days.” Hanbin reassured.

Your daughter was currently playing with some of her toys in the living room while you were at the entrance of your apartment with Hanbin.

“If you have any problem, you call me and I will come back immediately. You have my number and the spa’s number—“ you ranted worriedly until Hanbin cut you off.

“Everything will be fine. It’s not the first time I take care of my daughter. We have fun don’t we Soon Young?” He addressed your daughter.

She simply nodded still engrossed in her toys. He chuckled at her adorableness.

“You just focus on relaxing and having a good time. You deserve it.” He said, wrapping his arms around you.

“Okay. Soon Young are you gonna come say good bye to mama?” You cooed towards your daughter.

She ran to you and gave you a big hug.

“You be good to daddy okay.” You instructed. She nodded diligently.

——————————————-

It was well into the afternoon now and Hanbin was preparing everything, he decided to bring his daughter to the pool since it was the middle of summer and your daughter was like a fish in water. She was already in her swimsuit and a cute little dress. Hanbin was packing the bags when he heard knocking at the door. He went to answer the door leaving Soon Young in her playpen safe, and in barged his members, Bobby and Jinhwan.

“Where is the little princess?” Bobby exclaimed, taking off his shoes and walking in, Jinhwan close behind.

“Please come in.” Hanbin muttered sarcastically.

The boys ignored him and went directly to Soon Young.

“What are you doing here?” He asked them, finishing to prepare the bag.

“We wanted to see Soon Young.” Jinhwan replied.

“Okay well you guys have 5 minutes, cause we are going swimming at the pool.” Hanbin announced.

“Aww I wanna swim with Soon Young. Why didn’t you tell me?” Bobby whined.

“This is my time with my daughter. Now we need to go, so thanks for coming, now get out.” He declared jokingly.

The boys protested on the way out, while Hanbin grabbed Soon Young and their bag.

Hanbin was currently swimming with Soon Young. He put her in one of those floaties so that she can splash around. He kept laughing at how adorable she was in the water. He kept playing with her, never wanting this moment to end, but of course all good things must come to an end. He knew it was time to go home when Soon Young was starting to get tired and fuzzy.

Once back home he gave her a warm bath to get rid of the chlorine, dried her up and dressed her up warmly so that she doesn’t catch a cold. He then made some food and they both ate happily. By the time they finished eating they passed out in the bedroom.

—————————————————————

The next day he decided to bring her to the park and all the boys decided to tag along. Hanbin took lots of pictures and videos not wanting to miss on a single moment.

When you finally came back home that evening, you called out for Hanbin but got no response. You walked into the bedroom and couldn’t help but gush at the sight in front of you. Hanbin and Soon Young were both passed out on your bed, Hanbin on his back like a star and Soon Young snuggled safely on his chest. You took a picture, as you didn’t want to let this moment go. Then feeling tired yourself; you joined them on the bed making your place next to Hanbin. While still sleeping, unconsciously pulled you into his arm and snuggled you into his side. A sight of happiness left your mouth before you drifted off to sleep.    

anonymous asked:

so im kinda new, and i dont get it... what happened between Brendon and Ryan and why is Brendon butthurt??

WAH. 98GEP89RYG98SER9 THATS ONE OF MY FAVORITE TOPICS AND THE MORE SENSITIVE AS WELL.

Well, I dont wanna start talking about Ryden, BUT I WILL. You know that a lot of people (including me) ship Ryden like A LOT, and swear to god that they were hooking up (see, im not using the word love, i said hooking), but another part just afirm that Ryan Ross didnt love Brendon Urie as Brendon Urie loved him or started to falling in love for him. YAS. Well, I dont know if you are in to Ryden but  I will give you a WHOLE masterpost about it:
http://whisperdlullaby.livejournal.com/9051.html

(read it, like SERIOUSLY, its a lot of information).

A lot of people think Ryan was very confused about his life in the end of the A Fever Era and Keltie Colleen (his ex fiancee) was there too.

Well, well, butthurt stuff.

When you watch the Pretty. ODD. DVD you can see the music producer sayin that “one of the hardest parts was picking which part Brendon would sing and which Ryan would sing” then the camera cuts to their faces, they are not happy about it. Months after, P!ATD got split in two.

Some people of the fanbase just PICK a side, or you were going with Brendon Urie or with Ryan Ross. Well, Jon and Ryan get HELLA MAD because they thought Brendon and Spencer would change P!ATD’s name and start again with a new band like them, but well, they didnt because people knooow them. And well, the problem starts there.

They stopped talking for a longe time, when Brendon and Ryan acidentally met at a restaurant? I dont know, maybe a shopping, AND:

THIS PICTURE CAME OUT, SHANE VALDES TOOK IT. MY HEART EXPLODED AND I CRIED A LOT.

Well, after that, they keep saying that “oh, they are still friends blablablablabl a lot of shit” but then Brendon gave a interview for a radiostation saying that when they split, Brendon and Spencer where like “WELL, FUCK THOSE GUYS” but P!ATD still promoting The Young Veins new songs on their website. Welll… butthurt!

Then, Ryan and Jon started being hella aloof about P!ATD on twitter and interviews, Jon even said that Brendon and Spencer had no talent in a magazine interview, then, he apologized on the internet, saying that “they should keep going with their lifes and forget the past”.

When, The Young Veins didnt work out and time passed, Brendon said he had lunch with Ryan Ross and they were in the same events (but not talking or together) in pictures.

Last year Brendon gave an interview IN MY OPINION FULL OF BULLSHIT AND BUTTHURT STUFF, saying that “Ryan Ross didnt let him do stuff and be free, so he get very sad and thought he couldnt do stuff, and that now he could be free” look, im not saying Ryan Ross wasnt controlling P!ATD, because everyone knows he was the head of the band, writing the first two CDS almost all by himself, but Brendon was acting like his life was awful. And then, he said that “Ryan didnt let him sing and he got very upset about it because HE WAS THE LEAD SINGER AND IT WAS HIS JOB! HE WASNT DOING IT WELL?” I know, very childish of Brendon, because Ryan just wanted to sing some songs and parts and JUST IT, songs HE WROTE. How the fuck you get upset with someone who let you be the voice of his feelings and then ask you just to sing a few songs because its his feeling? LIKE, WHAT THE FUCK BRENDON.

Well, now we are here. We dont know if they talk, some people say that Ryan Ross want to do something, like a song with P!ATD while P!ATD keep struggling to find a regular guitarist since Ryan Ross left. 

AH, we cANT forget that Brendon Urie used to cry on the verse “but melt your headaches and call it home” because Ryan told him to give A LOT of attention to this part, like Brendon wrote it.

And he cried, since Ryan left.

He also wrote “Hurricane” for Ryan and, according to the fanbase, almost every Vices & Virtues song.

I think they miss being a parte of a thing, (im not saying like a couple, but brendon also came out as bisexual last year), but, doing music and not in this limbo of butthurt stuff.

I love them a lot, Im rooting for them… A LOT.

AND IF PEOPLE IN THIS FUCKING FANBASE KEEP TALKING SHIT ABOUT RYAN ROSS I SWEAR TO GOD I WILL RIP YOUR LUNGS OFF AND YOU ARENT GOING TO SING SONGS ANYMORE BECAUSE RYAN ROSS IS A GOOD PERSON WHO FOUGHT FUCKING A LOT FOR HIS DREAMS (JUST LIKE THE REST OF THE BAND) AND MADE PETE WENTZ PICK THEM AND WORKED HARD WITH THE REST OF THE BAND TO MAKE A NAME FOR THEM AND DUMPED COLLEGE AND STUFF AND JUST FUCKING FOUGHT FOR IT AND IM VERY PROUD, HE IS A GREAT MAN.

ALSO, IF PEOPLE THINK HE IS “THE BAD GUY” JUST THINK ABOUT HIS LIVEJOURNAL WHEN HE WAS FUCKING SAD BECAUSE HE BOUGHT A GIFT FOR HIS MOM AND SAID HE WAS SURE THAT “IT WAS GOING TO TURN INTO A PILE OF DUST” BECAUSE SHE DOESNT GIVE TWO SHITS ABOUT HIM. HE IS A PERSON, HE GETS SAD, LEAVE HIM THE FUCK ALONE OR I WILL KILL YOU BECAUSE HE IS A GOOD PERSON. HE INVITED FANS TO THE BAR AS A MEET AND GREET AFTER THE YOUNG VEINS SHOWS AND

WHOA HE SAID IN A INTERVIEW WITH PANIC! THAT HE GOT SAD WHEN THE FANS CREW GOT BIG AND HE COULDNT SIGN STUFF FOR EVERYBODY EVEN IF HE WAS THERE TWO HOURS AFTER THE SHOW.

IM SORRY FOR MY ENGLISH AND THANK YOU FOR YOUR TIME

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holy shit its late

the miracuchat is wild and somehow we got to coffee marshmallow mème frappuccino?? i dont???? what were we even talking about??????????? i feel like this is @frostedpuffs​‘ fault for some reason

(ayy = alya
niNO = niNO
coffee marshmallow mème frappuccino = adrien
flowers are flowery = mari)
((it gets a little confusing so youre gonna want to pay attention to text styles))

goodnight


17:24

something about optimism has changed their name to coffee marshmallow crème frappuccino

niNO: if i can
just
what the fuck

coffee marshmallow crème frappuccino: ;*
ilysm marsh
mwah mwah mwah

niNO: al?????

flowers are flowery: Alya why do you have adriens phone

coffee marshmallow crème frappuccino: um bc he got up to get coffee
i had an opportunity
i took it
pls know that this boy has autocaps and autocorrect on
its v hard to keep up The Aesthetic™

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Bleach 686


Guys, this is the last time I’m ever gonna address anything regarding bleach. I hope everyone respects that, especially the people who are gonna go anon and bash me for posting this after everything.

Firstly:

 The last chapters of bleach were pure disappointment not because my two main ships didn’t work out the way I wanted it to but I couldn’t really make any sense of it. I’m sorry as a manga, bleach really lost its pace. I spent 10 years with this manga and I was here to see till the end. I invested a lot of time and energy into this fandom and everything. I really expected better from Kubo.

Second:

 I’m really happy for princess. She finally has a loving family and a child. I’m glad that she’s with Ichigo. If IchiHime was meant to be from the start then why so much emphasis on IchiRuki. He could have given  Orihime so much character development. So much more but no he made it seem as if she only existed for Ichigo. I actually believed that Kubo was one of those writers that would actually make IshiHime canon.

Reasons:

  • IshiHime was a ship that could have portrayed the fact that, you don’t always find love in the places you look for but sometimes you find it in the most unexpected places, from a person that loved you from the start even though you never loved them back.  This is coming from my personal experiance entirely I’ve liked this guy for 5 years and IshiHime really gave me hope that one day I will find someone that will love me as much as I love them.

Orihime was a very decent and humble character. I loved her and enjoyed her warm and caring nature but she could have been such a badass as an individual. She was never mean or a bitch to anyone ever and neither was Rukia (please do note that) I dont understand why would he put Ichigo and Rukia together panel after panel with all his shippy gear on. Orihime had more better interactions with Chad and Uryu than she ever had with Ichigo. If Kubo had sold her and Ichigo as black sun and white sun from the start, man I would have shipped the shit out of it.

Third: I hated how Kubo made Chad and Uryuu something that they never wanted to be.

Uryu hated his dad most his life. He never wanted to follow his dads footsteps, which is why the song numb by linkin park reminded me of him so much. He had been misunderstood by most of his friends and even the readers in the first chapters but that cunty, snooty boy came to understand that friendship is one of the most strongest bond to exist. This arc should have  been about him and Ichigo abd their past and origins. Ichigo, who kept getting his bankai broken over and over again. Why couldn’t they just tag team the two of them for the last time?
Uryu didn’t have a mother, his father treated him as a low life runt. Even Isshin tried. He did try to understand Ichigo not with the best method to do so but he still tried where as Uryu’s father didn’t. I think Orihime and Uryu really deserved each other. In an alternate ending I could have imagined him to be a world class designer and Orihime by his side doing whatever makes her happy perhaps a very nice cafe with interesting serving, where the customers only came to eat and would be disappointed by the food but melt and forget the bad taste the food left on their mouth as soon as Orihime would flash her beautiful smile at them (Sigh).

Chad promised he’d never hurt anyone with his fists but help others lol. Really? a boxer? I hated this THE MOST. Chad really deserved better, even though he looked hot as fuck in the panels where he was shown. I think he should have owned a record store or made good mexican music or he could have been the doctor or worked at Kurosaki clinic or something, anything other than being a boxer would have suited him more.

Fourth: Why didn’t Kubo show or complete the states that the other characters were in. I really hoped they would show some Jinta/Yuzu or something regarding Urahara and Yoruichi who helped Ichigo achieve bankai and trained him so he could be strong and protect his friends.
Is Isshin Kurosaki dead? because that would just be sad. I could imagine him to be a great grandparent to Kazui. Kubo really should have at least mentioned this much but he didn’t. I could go on and on about how bad the chapter was but I’m gonna stop now and start pouring my shipper heart out.

Last and the most important topic I wanted to address is my otp, IchiRuki.

I’m sorry to all the IchiRuki shippers that got their hearts and hoped shattered into a million pieces after 686. I feel betrayed and angry as well but let’s not be pricks and be the bigger person. I’m gonna make a request to all IchiHime shippers.
Firstly, congrats guys, princess finally ended up with the man of her dreams as an IchiRuki shipper I never hated on her or said anything mean about her. I’m glad that she’s happy even though it’s not boy I wanted her to end up with but despite everything, I am genuinely happy for her.

Second, I would be really happy if some of you weren’t not so hostile to IchiRuki shippers, please understand that a lot of people found peace in this ship and now they are a mess. Be humble comfort us, Orihime would never been like “yeah bitch I got the dude” instead she would tried and comfort us IchiRuki shippers, she would’ve started crying for an hour, binged on so much ice cream that she would get a tummy ache and fall asleep.

The picture above is the picture of the last IchiRuki coloured page I had made. I was so proud of this and now every time I open my notebook. I feel sad, beyond words. Ichigo and Rukia were the definition of soulmates. I wanted them to be together so bad. I can’t really express it in words about how I feel. I don’t remember a single day where I did not visit the IchiRuki tag. I’m disappointed a lot. So much build up for nothing. Kubo seemed like he threw the idea of IR down the window so suddenly, that I can’t even cope with it. I’d rather have dead characters than an ass pull ending like this. It’s so shitty and rushed. I feel like crying. I invested so much I don’t know what to do with all these beautiful colored pages I had made for this amazing ship. I’m devastated. Laugh at me all you want but I am so depressed with the ending. From the beginning I could see the chemistry and the electricity that Rukia and Ichigo gave off when they interacted. The SS arc, which is my most favorite arc was the biggest pillar that IchiRuki has something more than friendship. A bond of love and trust and what not lol I guess I’m a little delusional. Let’s take  moment to honor this beautiful ship one more time and move on. Thank you every good anon, some great blogs like @peachtiger, @icchiruki, @50shadesofichigo, @daethberry, @ishihime-4-ever and so many more. Thank you, I respect and love each one of you. Stay strong, this bond will always be unbreakable but still life goes on and we all have to move on.

Kubo really fucked up and the worst part is they plan to make a live action movie which I doubt will sell shit. I would never pay a dime to just watch actors waste their time by portraying incomplete roles lol.

Anyways I’m done. Thank you everyone, the Bleach, Ginran, IshiHime and Ichiruki fandom I love each and every one of you. It’s been a roller coaster of emotions and heartache and its time to move on. I’ll still follow all the blogs that I followed for IchiRuki and IshiHime. Have a nice life bleach fandom for as you lost one hardcore dedicated reader.

Thank you and Au Revoir.  💙 💙

Side note: I am extremely addled at the moment as I write this post. So sorry in advance if I managed to piss any of you off.

Oh and dont you dare and try to steal that great art. Thanks in advance. Much love. xoxo 💙 💙