the day before their high school graduation, lucas and maya are laying in the bed of lucas’ pick-up truck. they’ve driven miles out of the city to find a hilltop where they can see everything in the sky. farkle and smackle had already left for early admissions to princeton, riley was closing at topanga’s that night, and zay was busy packing for his last summer in texas. maya was supposed to be finishing her portfolio so she could send it to the royal academy of arts for finalization. lucas was supposed to be at one of his last baseball practices so he could polish up his stats before he played in ball on a scholarship in college.
everyone was doing exactly as wanted, but everything felt broken. so, when lucas called maya and asked her to skip town for the night with him, she couldn’t resist. they had unfinished business, anyway. as they lay under the dark night sky, lucas was looking at maya more than he was the sky. “if i could paint like you could, i’d paint a picture of us in this exact moment. i’d freeze everything and stay here until i could perfect it. so i would never forget it.”
maya lifted her head to look at him, but she didn’t drop her head back down. she kept her eyes on the boy. “do you know my favorite thing about you? the absolute best thing about you?” she didn’t wait for him to respond, but she sat up completely. she shifted her weight, shuffling with one leg under her so she was sitting on her own calf. “you’ve never been able to hurt me. we’re sitting here and it’s our last night together for a really long time. i mean, we’ll have the summer, but we’ll never have anything like high school again. but, even though you know i’m leaving you in a few months, you’re still sitting here telling me how good i am at things. i can never replace you. no one in europe is going to put up with me like you do, or keep me as close as you do.”
lucas pulled his long legs close to his chest, wrapping his legs around his knees. “if i could go back in time, i would’ve stopped you from saying who my choice was when you were all covered in paint. because you didn’t know. i finally knew, but i still didn’t get a choice. i’ve wanted to be with you since freshmen year, maya. you’re leaving, but my feelings for you aren’t going with you. we have approximately 84 days until you leave, but my feelings are gonna stay right here in new york.”
maya suddenly felt like she couldn’t breathe. she everything came crashing down at once and it all hurt. “can you take me home? we have to be up early to rehearse for graduation anyway.”
lucas scrunched his face up, a bad taste in his mouth. “maya, wh–” but she cut him off before he could get another thought out by jumping out of the bed of the truck and getting into the passenger seat. they sat in silence the whole way home.
graduation went on as planned, then the whole group hung out all summer long. maya made sure she was never alone with lucas and lucas picked up on it quickly.
lucas was moving into his dorm before maya left for europe, but when the group was helping him move into his room, she was nowhere to be found. after he was moved in and everyone had gone home, lucas decided to lay down for a while. he was stalking all of maya’s social media, but he knew she wouldn’t post anything. she was never on her phone. she always said it wasn’t as good as the real connection you could make. just as he’d locked his phone screen, he heard a knock at his door. when he opened it, maya appeared with her hair in space buns and with a canvas behind her back.
she stepped in before he could stop her–not that he would have. he was just surprised to see her at all. “hi, i’m maya. you’re really cute. we should’ve hung out more. you make me happy.” she paused, swallowing hard. “i didn’t pay enough attention to you. it’s me, not you.” she grasped his hand, rubbing her thumb over his palm. “we can still be friends.” stepping forward, she stood on her tip toes, leaning towards his face. “not really.” maya kissed lucas gently on the lips, dropping his hand to grasp at the back of his neck. once she backed down, she finally stopped talking so fast and let him get a word out.
“i thought you weren’t coming, to be honest.” he muttered, licking his lips. he looked behind the girl for a moment, seeing the empty side of his room where zay hadn’t moved in yet.
“i was up all night. i got inspired to create something. i fell asleep around eight in the morning and i overslept since my phone was on silent. but i think i can make up for it.” maya scrunched her face up a little, her nose crinkling for a moment. she flipped the painting she had in her hands around, handing it off to lucas. what he saw was a painting of the night sky with lucas’s truck down on the bottom right corner. in the bed of the truck, lucas and maya were laying next to each other and maya was pointing towards the sky above exactly as she was doing before everything went to shit the night he said how he felt. in the constellations, there was an outline of maya grasping at lucas’s shirt like she’d done years before. each time, lucas had hoped maya would just break the tension and kiss him, but she never did. “i remember that night you said you would paint a picture of that exact moment if you could, then i realized that i could. i want you to keep that photo and remember me with it. i have an exact duplicate of it and i’m going to keep it in my dorm room. whenever you see that painting, you can think of me. and whenever you see the moon, know i’m five hours ahead thinking about the next time i get to see my muse again.”
lucas’s face broke into a smile and he wrapped his arms around her tiny waist. “i’m going to miss you constantly, cluckerbucket. you’re always going to be the one i chose. even if you didn’t let me choose you until now. we can make this work. i’m all in.”
maya nodded her head as he put her back down. her face felt hot, but she didn’t want to run away anymore. “i’m all in, lucas. i’ll still be all in when i’m 3,000 miles from you.”
so i had a dream last night, the shadowhunters gang went on some tropical vacation and they were at a water park, simon was all dressed up in his swimming trunks and he turns to jace who is dressed in his swimming trunks with a leather jacket on because he refuses to be without his leather jacket……..
this is kinda fun so rules: enter your answers then tag 10 people! use the first letter of your name to answer each question. real answers only. if the person who tagged you has the same initial, you must use different answers. you cannot use the same word twice.
a four letter word: amor (this doesnt say which language i have to use heh)
a boy’s name: adan
an occupation: arquero?
something you can wear: arma? lmao
a food: ananá
something you find in a bathroom: alfombra
a place: argentina lol
a reason for being late: andar boludeando
something you shout: AAAAAA
a movie title: avatar the last airbender
something you drink: agua
an animal: águila
a type of car:A car (i literally have no idea about cars)
everyone on here talks about “before he cheats” by carrie underwood as the One Exception to country music being bad but yall dont even know about gunpowder and lead by miranda lambert about fucking murdering an abusive boyfriend lmao it’s fantastic and it was platinum-selling and everything
“i’m goin’ home, gonna load my shotgun wait by the door and light a cigarette he wants a fight? well, now he’s got one and he aint seen me crazy yet slap my face into sugar like a ragdoll, dont that sound like a real man? i’m gonna show him what a little girl’s made of, gunpowder and lead”
don’t try to tell me that isn’t fucking #iconic…….smashing up a cheating boyfriend’s car is good but cold blooded killing an abuser is on a whole other level
Childish Gambino fetishize Asian women as well... I dont know how Jhene Aiko is even friends with him, he probably "likes" her just cause shes half Japanese. He's disgusting
Oh yeah I know! That lyric about UCLA and seeing Asian girls everything made me wanna bleach my entire existence. And I think he mentioned Asian girls again in some other song too. I don’t really like his music or keep up with it so I’m good but it’s a shame about Atlanta because it’s a really good show lol. Whenever one of my friend’s mention him I make this stank face lmao. But yeah, there’s so many male celebrities of all races both past and present that fetishize WOC and it’s truly YIKES! Some famous women are the same way as well and it’s not a good look *cough*KIMKHLOEKYLIE*cough*
Hey girl I'm in need of some SMUT but like with a good story line still ya feel? I was wondering if you could recommend me any lol
oh boy, I do have a few I could recommend to you, a lot of them I have already posted in lists, specifically these two, x, x but you can browse my whole tag for more.
Corey and Parker-is very smutty but with a good backstory. Dismantling Summer *selfpromo* also has some good smut along with a detailed story. Good Boy - is um…..very good and kinky. Heavy seasons 1-3 feels. Size Matters - Mickey is self conscious about his diiiiick. Upon Your Hips-Mickey likes riding Ian’s dick, okay? Adult Education - smut from the very beginning to the very end BUT with a good plot, like anything with that author.
Are you still keeping up with tg? I dont know what to say anymore bc kagunes are still magic and saiko is in love with urie now...
Dude I know, what the fuck? Saiko’s kagune is bullshit, he’s really pulling this out of his ass now.
Kagunes no longer make any sense, he’s tearing apart his own world.
Plus since when has she had romantic feelings for urie? That girl seemed like the type to be above that.
I mean Christ, what happened?
Ishida really threw himself off the crazy cliff and is just improvising at this point.
It’s like he’s been replaced by someone who knows absolutely nothing about Tg and is just trying to write a shonen. I wonder if Japanese fans are still being fooled by this, cuz I know some Americans are, but Americans are dumb. They see symbolism and good writing in all kinds of shit. Is Japan rising above this hack?
yes but like lowkey is this not a mood?? like: tfw you get so upset bc a 15 yo girl you dont know on the internet, on her own blog, in her own tags makes a joke about how white people dont age as well as black people on average that you feel the need to tell her that she should commit suicide …. something tells me anon is an aging white person lmao
1) Girl: *is waving at me*
Me: *waves back while walking towards her*
Girl: *starts to talk to the person behind me*
Me: *keeps waving until I pass her so she wouldn’t know I was waving to her*
2) me to therapist: “im sorry im always talking about me. please tell me if it’s too much i dont want to bother you with my stories”
3) coworker to my mother: “did you know lips didn’t have the same size? You can have your right lip smaller than your left lip”
Me: “lmao but it’s impossible, ,, we don’t have right and left lips…”
Mother: “you’ll understand when you’ll be older"
Me: “there is absolutely nothing to understand the only lips we have on our body are on the mouth"
4) me during a horse competition where you had to tell your name and your horse name to the jury and then the jury would repeat it to the public
Jury: “who are you?”
Me: “eva and Eden the flowery pony” (I had put flowers in his mane)
Jury to the public: “okay… (laughter) this is eva and (laughter) Eden the flowery pony (laughter)”
5) when we lost a competition because my pony was galopping too fast so I just throw myself off of its back. It was eliminatory not to hold our ponies so my team lost because of me
6) when i worked in a supermarket and I fell asleep in front of the till and a client woke me up
7) someone from my family I don’t remember: “hey eva! How are you? I hope you’re fine! Is your mother here? I need to talk to her”
Me, confused: “yeah! I’m fine and you?? It’s been a while! She’s inside, I’m going to call her, just wait here! :)”
Me: *inside* “mum…. there’s a man outside and he’s from our family but I forgot his name and he wants to see you”
Mum, going outside, talking to the man: “HAHAHA GUESS WHAT EVA JUST SAID TO ME!!! ‘there’s someone outside but i forgot his name’!! HILARIOUS (they both laughed in front of me)
RULES: ANSWER THE QUESTIONS IN A NEW POST AND TAG 20 BLOGS YOU WOULD LIKE TO GET TO KNOW BETTER 20′s too much omg i cant
nickname: hmm i dont rlly have any?? the most is like my friends calling me mom lmao
gender: cis girl
time right now: 8:20pm
last thing i googled: ‘black mirror cast’ i thought it was hayley atwell + it was + i cried so much at her episode omg
favorite bands: seventeen (ofc), day6 (stan day6!! they’re amazing!!!), first aid kit, haim, ladies code
favorite solo artists: declan mckenna, lee hi, hayley kiyoko, aurora, banks, joanna newsom, soko, willow smith, deserts chang (so i rlly prefer listening to female solo voices lmao)
song stuck in your head: ‘wishing u were somehow here again’ from phantom asbkshkbbm
last movie watched: idk actually?? i think maybe 'whip it’??? (fun fact i actually do roller derby + its Amazing, everyone pls try it!!!)
last tv show watched: black mirror!!
when did you create your blog: 4 months ago w o w thats gone quick
what kind of stuff do you post: kpop mainly, feminism/social justice stuff, aesthetic ish stuff, the occasional relatable suffering™ post
when did your blog reach its peak: nooo it’s only a bby still we’ve had no peaks yet
do you have any other blogs: nope!!
do you get asks regularly: i dont think i’ve ever had an ask akshjsjfkdjg
why did you chose your url: WEN JUNHUI
WEN JUNHUI i lov him
posts: 1945,,,,,, not bad for only 4 months??
hogwarts house: ravenclaw i have the scarf its official
pokémon team: i’ve never rlly been into pokemon!!
favorite colors: pastel Everything esp pink and minty blue, + rose gold
lucky numbers: 3 + 7
favorite characters: sansa stark (rip how the tv show treated u bby), ginny weasley, THE MARAUDERS + LILY POTTER, luciente from ‘woman on the edge of time’ (honestly this book is amazing, pls pls pls read!!)
what are you wearing right now: black vest top, joggers, + cute socks
how many blankets do you sleep with: hmm usually in winter like 2 duvets, in summer it depends on the weather!!
dream job: literary translator omg pls
dream trip: china!!! i rlly wanna visit every province at least once
There are so many beautiful black women who could of definitely been used in that shoot instead of Gigi but no you thought it would look better to use a white girl… “lets darken her skin and put on a wig” why?? So many SO SO MANY that would of slayed yet you thought a white girl can pull of that look?? Oh hell naw need to wake up and realize how much black girl magic is being served out there and stop appropriating looks… LMAO white people turn up SO FUCKING hard when a black girl looks bomb asf with blonde hair, “black people don’t have blonde hair thats appropriating” Um… blonde hair belongs to white people? You think only whites can be blonde? Ha what world do you live in and believe thats appropriating? I’m done… so done like i dont know what to say anymore
Healthy weight loss is not 2-4 lbs a week!? You gotta stop poisoning young girls minds! You probably don't mean to but seriously it's super unhealthy!!
Lmao girl even myfitnesspal says 2lbs is a healthy weight loss a week. But if someone goes lower than the lowest calorie goal of myfitnesspal (1200 for women and 1500 for men) it can be faster to lose weight. Sickass people like i am will go as low as possible, healthy people know that they dont need to poison they mind with a blog if a damn anorexic! Its on the top of my blog to stay away if youre not dealing with eating disorders!