OKAY UHM FIRST OF ALL I BIT OFF MORE THAN I COULD CHEW, I WAS GONNA DRAW ALL OF THEM. LIKE ALL OF EVERYONES CHARACTERS, AND THEN HALF WAY THROUGH DRAWING THIS I THOUGHT TO MYSELF, HOW IN THE HELL WOULD I BE ABLE TO DO THAT? SO U H NAH. sorry ;; these are the only characters i got done. 25 people. idk i feel kinda bad but i just dont think id be able to do such a task- so uhm ye here you go. im sorry its shit xD like its all messy,,,
“What if ji and ksoo were to see the sexual and erotic stuff you shippers write/post about them? Just imagine how it makes them feel. As two men who are just friends it could make them really uncomfortable and they probably think its disrespectful too smh”
Rather than replying straight to this person and being petty, throwing shade and ready to fight like I usually am….I figured I’d reply with this nice and calm well thought out post since this subject comes up often with Kaisoo and I feel like this possibility needs a bit of exploration. :)
*****DISCLAIMER******: As everyone should know by now, I am a kaisoo supporter and this post is mainly to break down misconceptions in relation to them only. In other words, I am not speaking for other pairings/ships that arent Kaisoo. This is solely my perception and view on this so no shade will be tolerated. I edited this both on my laptop and my phone so idk if the “read more” shyt appeared…dont shoot me. The names of Kaisoo have been abbreviated to eliminate appearing in their respective tags. This post is also not to condone or promote the sharing of sexually explicit forms of shipping directly with the artists involved. (i.e messaging it to them on social media, mailing it to them, shouting things like “how hard does ji f*ck you” to ksoo in person, etcetera etcetera blah blah yada yada)
So, EXO debuted in 2012.
This makes about 4 years since they have been active in the industry.
Kaisoo shippers began noticing their interactions way before EXO’s debut.
Then, this airport photo that was released to the public was one of the first ones that showed how intimate they were with one another:
This pre debut photo was also leaked along with others, some of which were noted to have been much more intimate:
Eerily, these intimate photos vanished after EXO’s debut and are currently nowhere to be found online.
Anyway…moving on. :)
So we know that the kaisoo ship began its first stages of sailing around 2010-late 2011, before EXO’s debut.
Throughout all 4 years of EXO being active, both JI and KS have maintained steady and intimate interactions with one another. There were only two major periods during these 4 years of which the two seemed to be more distant around each other than usual. (There are many theories about this, research more if you’re interested.)
Simultaneously within these 4 years, the kaisoo pairing grew to become one of the longest and most popular pairings in EXO, to the point where it not only became one of EXO’s main pairings but one of the most popular pairings within the Korean idol industry as a whole.
That’s a lot of popularity, right? I hope you are following along.
“Kaisoo” is what international fans use to refer to “KAI” and “KyungSOO” being paired.
However, in Korea, they are referred to as “KADI”
“KADI” is written as “카디 ” in hangul.
Below is a screencap from an interview for EXO’s 2nd box dvd that included both JI and KS, released in 2015:
As you can see, they both seem to be well informed about their Korean couple name, “Kadi”.
Okay, so what does this mean? Just cuz they know the name doesnt mean they’ve seen what fans draw of them! It should be kept private!
This brings me to my next point.
Again, KADI written in hangul is 카디.
One of Korea’s most popular search engines is “NAVER. It is Korea’s equivalent to GOOGLE in the US. More than 25 million people in South Korea have used NAVER. NAVER has also collaborated with and sponsored many EXO related things both past and present.
I searched for 카디 in NAVER, and this is what came up:
On almost every page, there were drawings of JI and KS that were intimate and very erotic.
So, this leads me to my final point.
If we look at the timeline and how the kaisoo ship started before debut, it grew to be one of the most popular ships, they both know about their ship name and that erotic images show up when you search their name on NAVER (we could even factor in that JI has had an instagram in the past and that KS has been rumoured to have a private one)…then one could only conclude that the chance of them already having seen and possibly even read what fans have created about them is pretty high.
In short, I know a lot of you want to protect JI and KS and make sure that things like this stay private and out of their reach, but I am 99% sure that its too late for that and they have already seen these things.
I also don’t feel like protection is needed, though, and its because of this reason. If we can conclude that within 4 years they had to have been exposed to “erotic kaisoo fanart/fiction” then we can also conclude that there is a possibility that they aren’t bothered by it too much.
The reason for this once again goes back to the timeline. We know that the kaisoo pairing has been around since 2010. We also know there is a possibility they both knew about their pairing.
Hypothetically, lets say that I am and idol and found out that fans were looking at my interactions with another idol and creating sexual imagery out of these reactions and I don’t like it. My first reaction to limit this would be to reduce how much I interact with this person in the public eye. Less touching, less whispering, less laughing and being seen together. Whether fanservice or just normal interaction, if me being shipped with this person made me uncomfortable, the interaction with them would slow down.
But Kadi’s interactions with one another didn’t slow down until almost 2 years after debut, which would lead one to come to the conclusion that A.) They are not bothered by being paired with one another, and B.) The reactions slowed down for a reason other than them being uncomfortable with shipping.
I’m pretty sure they’re bothered and just feel like they can’t say anything cuz of SM!!
This is a possibility, but again not very likely. Remember not too long ago when Chanyolk put up that long post on instagram after people found out he started following a specific female idol? And we all know about how vocal Amburr has been lately about ef ex as well. KS was able to politely communicate that he no longer needs gifts from fans, so its safe to say that if shipping him with JI was an issue that would have been conveyed somehow too.
There is also so much evidence from Kaisoo themselves clearly showing how shipping doesnt seem to make them uncomfortable.
We have the sticker set that JI used on his phone. This sticker set was made by and given to him by a fansite:
In this sticker set there were drawings of JI by himself, JI with animals and KS drawings, but not any other member/idol.
This also shows that, once again, kaisoo had been shipped by the public for a long time, giving them the likely hood of knowing about it.
There are also lots of videos in which you can see both JI and KS smiling at banners of which their ship name had appeared:
And then there is the eery coincidence of JI mentioning that one of his favorite songs was “Montreal” by the weekend, 4 years after it was used in a FMV for a kaisoo fanfic called “Arbitrage”:
Has he read the actual fic? Most likely not. But its possible he may have seen seen the FMV which included clips of him with KS as well.
I want to reiterate agian that this post is not to say that its okay to post sexual works of idol pairings in places that they will see it. Of course it should stay among shippers only. What Im saying is that on a website like tumblr, an idol from south Korea is not likely to see what shippers post and even still, because there are shippers who share things externally and search engines exist…there is the possibility that an idol has already seen what you’re trying to keep from them.
Whether you choose to acknowledge it or not, shipping is and always has been apart of the kpop industry. We know it, the companies know it and idols know it too.
With the internet being such an open way of communicating and sharing things for so many people, its only a matter of time before some nsfw shipping art is leaked on a platform that makes it more accessible to idols. But this is not something that you can blame shipping itself(especially when it is encouraged) or the MAJORITY of shippers for. The majority of us are not sending our NSFW kaisoo art and fics directly to KS and JI themselves. It was even Kaisoo shippers themselves who used our voices to stop the film adaptation of Anterograde Tomorrow in an effort to protect Kaisoo. The majority of us are just talking among ourselves on exclusive and private platforms and sharing our imagination in the form of art.
Every now and then someone may leak things that should have been kept private. But that is an issue for THOSE shippers, not shippers and shipping as a whole. There are good and not so good people in all fandoms, and there is nothing wrong with artistic expression among fans.
So in short, to answer your question…I (clearly) wonder sometimes if Kaisoo has seen what things shippers post about them all the time. I do acknowledge the possibility that they also may have seen these works. I do wonder how it makes them feel, but I also know that they are adults and if they do feel uncomfortable or if they feel its disrespectful they will tell us/show us in their own way and we don’t have to worry about protecting them from things like this. :)
Okay so I had a thought (I don’t know if someone’s done it before but hey)
what if Annabeth got swapped instead of Percy in Heroes of Olympus.
I think it would’ve been really interesting to see Annabeth, who is generally untrusting of new people, try to fit in when she arrives at New Rome.
Also, it fits because Hera really hates Annabeth, so uprooting her life would be like the ultimate punishment.
The roman demigods would all be doubtful and stigmatise her due to her godly parent, like what they did to Percy slightly but worse, because the Romans (Octavian) don’t believe Minerva should have children.
“daughter of Minerva, definitely cohort five”
Octavian makes little digs at her constantly, but she is Annabeth so she doesn’t take any his shit, and makes sure get him back during war games.
Instead of using water in the war games she would help Frank plan their tactics and kick everyone asses with amazing fighting skills. If they thought Percy was impulsive with his technique wait until they see annabeth.
I feel like hazel would look up to her as an older sister (maybe ask for advice on fighting, Annabeth would tell her of course but she’s amazing and doesn’t actual need the help), Frank would respect her a lot (like the mark of athena amplified) and would be in awe of her battle planning skills maybe even envious.
Annabeth would constantly reassure him that he’s very good himself, and each time she says it he’d feel slightly better.
Okay here is where it gets gay Reyna has an implied crush on Percy (that, lets be honest, is down to compulsory heterosexuality and I just read it as desperate for help?).
and Percy is 100% type person who you can rely on.
Annabeth though, Reyna would be dazed by her, like she’d feel so star struck by her when watching the way she holds herself in battle (and her muscles, come on, especially ABS)
when they are about to leave for their quest, where they probably use trains or something reminiscent of the lighting thief, Reyna pulls her aside and reaches out to her.
Annabeth would take a while to clock on that she wants a relationship, then she’d probably feel guilty because she wants to help her, but she remembers hints of a boyfriend who she seems to like a lot.
Embarrassed, she’d change the subject immediately.
Then a month later, she’ll meet Rachel and live happily ever after.
When Annabeth, Frank and Hazel return from the quest, she’d fight the giant for Athena (I forgot the name) and do a similar thing to Percy I guess but Annabethied.
I feel she’d use talking as a diversion and maybe have a plan before starting the fight?
Reyna hugs her after, but pulls away fast coughing and blushing.
Bonus: pipercy and jercy bonding at Camp Half-Blood
Hey instead of or before tagging reblogged art with #me, #wow i look great here, #kin, #dont like this pairing but cool, can I suggest ya say something you like abt the art or otherwise in some way validates the artist’s labour bc I’ve honestly never met an artist who likes seeing those comments on their art and if I’m honest it makes me feel a little cheap when I’m trying to build a career and a reputation
If you appreciate the work someone’s doing, ideas, visualisations, skill or otherwise, make it visible, use their names instead of “that one artist” when you discuss them - these things are little but they make a huge difference in this line of work, esp when our income depends on commission for freelance artists etc
Thanks, reblogs encouraged
Anon Request: Ok so I have an idea where the reader is literally so in love with jug?? Like they’re in a relationship so jug love her back but she’s beyond, &a by this I mean like always kissing him, touching him whatever. I just wanna be so in love with my man I pick pretend dirt off him 🙄
Warnings: none wow go me
Hello! I’m sorry this took so long sweet Anon, thanks for your patience. :) I don’t see Jughead in my head as a super affectionate person but I think you’ll really like this. Enjoy! <3 - Juggie xx
It was no secret you could spend literal hours staring into the crystal blue of his eyes, feeling swept up by the ocean waves and beauty contained in them. Often times you would, for as long as you could anyway, while tangling your nimble fingers in the locks of his hair that were free from his beanie. Your fingers would then make their way to running along his jaw and travelling down his neck to his shoulders. His strong stare would captivate you but it wasn’t strong enough to keep you from looking at his lips longingly, practically melting at the thought of being kissed by him again.
Your friends said it was almost disgusting really, but that didn’t matter to you. You had fallen hard for Jughead Jones the III.
And of course he loved you too, you two had been dating for a little over a year. But to you it was a 24/7 job making sure Jug knew just how much you loved him. You couldn’t go a minute sitting next to him without staring at his features and kissing his cheek or his hands; to the outsider it seemed you were trapped in a honeymoon phase most teenagers would be out of by now. Certainly Jughead didn’t mind, but one day he finally aired his confusion.
“I really love you Juggie.” It had to have been the hundredth time you’d said it that day.
Archie groaned from the other side of the booth at Pop’s and Jug only laughed, “I know.”
“You guys are so in love it’s gross.” You stuck your tongue out at him and only cuddled farther into Jughead’s side. Archie suddenly had a look of mischief strike his face. “Are you one for bets (Y/N)?”
You were caught off guard, but never afraid of a challenge. You smirk, “Of course.”
“I bet you a milkshake you couldn’t keep your hands off him for five minutes.”
Without truly thinking of how long five minutes was you untangled yourself from Jughead’s side and shook his hand, “You are on, I like strawberry by the way.”
Archie laughed, but soon you’d realize what a mistake you had made. He’d already begun making conversation with Jughead, but you couldn’t focus. It felt so unnatural to not be playing with his hair or holding his hand. “‘Don’t you think (Y/N)?”
You snapped out of it, “Uh, what?”
You cheeks reddened as Jughead smirked at your lack of focus, “I was talking about watching a movie Friday. What were you thinking about?”
Archie answered for you, “She was just thinking about your beautiful blue eyes, JuggleBug.”
Jughead shot a glare at him making you laugh, “You better never call me that again.”
“Wow”, you remarked smugly, “what a pet name Arch. You sounded even more in love with him than I am.”
Betty slid into the booth next to him, “Ooh, are we talking about Jarchie over here?”
Betty and the boys continued to joke about the ship but you had made the mistake of looking back over at your gorgeous boyfriend. His eyes had softened by now, making you unable to restrain yourself from admiring the steadiness of his friendly gaze at his friends. Your eyes traveled down his perfect nose to his kissable, pink lips. God, why had you made that dumb bet?
It had to have been five minutes by now, maybe Archie forgot?
You slowly began to reach over to him, and immediately Archie cut in, “Nope! Not unless you want to buy me a milkshake (Y/N)!”
Your hand had already come in contact with his shoulder, so you said the first thing that came to mind. “He has lent on his jacket?”
You began to quickly pretend pick lent off Jug’s shoulder making Betty giggle and Archie proclaim in victory, “It had only been four minutes, I like vanilla by the way.”
You couldn’t care less, your hand found Jughead’s cheek and he leaned into your touch, looking into your eyes with so much love you couldn’t help but smile wide. This boy truly was all yours. “I have to know (Y/N), why do you show me so much affection?”
You looked down with a blush, “I love you more than I’ve ever loved anyone else, Jughead Jones. I couldn’t imagine my life without you and I need you to know that.”
His hand went under your chin and raised your face up to look up at him. It was his turn to admire, his gaze of pure adoration trailed from your eyes to your lips. “I know I don’t show it as much, but I think I’ve fallen pretty hard for you too, (Y/N).”
You indistinctly heard Archie groan something about his victory milkshake as Jug leaned forward and kissed you, making you feel fireworks and butterflies erupt in your stomach at his touch. His hand found your jaw and yours rested on his shoulders as you kissed him like you’d never get to again.
(A/N) I live! Ahm…so…sorry? I haven’t updated my Eric Fanfiction in a while.. But I soon will! I promise! I will post an explanation later if anyone is interested. Anyway, this is for @sterek-foreverandever. Thank you for requesting and I hope you like it! :)
@caspercassiecas okayy so this is what I came up with- he’s a loser adult dude (like ig young adult..? 27 at least-) He looks the same from when he was in high school but he changes the color of his hair every few months. He has some nerdy frens maybee,,
I feel like once he gets squip!jeremy it’ll take a bit to actually be successful in life n all w a business soooo ig when he’s like- late thirties..? or so..? is when he finally thinks about putting time into the AI projects for squip!jeremy.
He’s always been a tech geek and all but he never exactly knew how to use his.. talent..? To actually make monies and all so the squip will help him out with that..
Request: Can I request a Finn x reader, the reader gets to be in a tag match with the hardy boyz (she’s the champion) and Finn gets worried/jealous because he knows that (y/n) had a huge crush on Jeff Hardy when she was younger and is thinking the worse when Karl and Luke assure him that she only loves him?
Warnings: A Hint to smut at the end, I don’t think anything else? (Maybe OOC Finn… pls dont kill me)
A/N: Sorry it took so long to post this, Summer is pretty busy for me because my Rude Ass Family likes to take advantage of our pool :( Hope y’all like this! @lip-sync@nickysmum1909 (i feel like I’m supposed to tag more people, but this sun burn is killing me so if I forgot to tag you I’m so sorry! If you want to be tagged in future stuff just let me know!!)
Loki stood, pacing in his cell, in his cage. He was enticingly close to (y/n), yet she had yet to come to him. He thought of the ring, what it must mean. She had kept his ring for a year without seeming to falter. But then there was his brother how he had lifted her up, flying the pair to the ship. She had seemed so comfortable with him. Loki let out a roar as he smashed his hand against the glass in frustration.
(Y/n) sat, watching the man with the eye patch. The man who had caught her and Loki in a compromising position sat across from her in ‘street clothes’. There was also a doctor, who apparently was a rage monster too, but (y/n) couldn’t see that. The man in the suit of Iron had tried to hit on her, but he was shit down by almost everyone. The only person in the band of misfits that she even liked was the woman with red hair. She stood up going to the man who appeared to be in charge.
“I demand to see my husband” (Y/n) stood tall in front of the man as turned around slowly.
“From what I’ve heard, he ain’t your husband yet. Plus, having you in there with the prisoner does not sound like a punishment to me” The man walked past (y/n) to the group. He made eye contact with each member before pausing at the head of the table.
“We are in a war young lady, the sooner you realize that the easier your stay will be” The man sat down looking at (y/n). She sprung at him, only to be caught by Thor.
“Don’t do this lady (y/n). Don’t do this here” Thor’s voice rumbled in (y/n)’s ear. She almost spat at the sensation, wanting do desperately for his brother.
“I refuse to serve you all. My mission is to retrieve the tesseract and bring home Loki. I am not of use to you” (Y/n) turned on her heels, leaving the group in semi-silence as the man in charge went to talk to her lover.
Loki snarled as Furry walked away. He didn’t need magazines, he need (y/n). He needed her almost more than he needed to be king, but he needed to tell her the plan. She would follow him, this he was certain off. She would claim it was in an attempt to bring him home, but only he would know better.
Loki closed his eyes thinking of the last night he had spent with (y/n). He had been finalizing all his plans, and even then (y/n) assumed he could only be up to good.
“Come to bed” She had whined against his ear, pulling at his lose shirt. He had tensed at her original touch, but quickly melted back into it.
“Darling, these plans” Loki had looked up at his fiancé, his angel. Her lip was out and she was pretending to pout with those big gorgeous eyes.
“That was an order made by the future princess of Asgard” (Y/n) stood tall, just getting use to her soon to be title.
“Maybe one day queen” Loki had smiled, settling a kiss on her lips. He was relishing in the memory before he was snapped awake by the sound of heels. And there she was, in the flesh.
(Y/n)’s eyes were cast down as she made her way towards him. She had been told she would be allowed to talk, but only if they stayed on opposite sides of the glass.
Loki’s face light up when he say (y/n), a blush beginning to creep up at what he had just been thinking about, but quickly faded as he looked on with worry at his beloved. When she was at the glass her eyes finally lifted to meet his and it seemed like the simple glass that separated them was an ocean.
“Loki, you need to tell me where the cube is” (Y/n) murmured as her eyes only remained on Loki’s for a second before going elsewhere on him. Loki frowned, a image of (y/n) and his brother dancing across his head as he looked at you.
“I’ll tell you everything if you meet me when the green storm hits” Loki watched as (y/n) slowly nodded, completely understanding what he meant. (Y/n) scurried away, quickly shutting herself up in the room that had been provided for her and Thor, locking the door and then locking it again with magic to make sure no one would get in. She knew it was wrong to keep Loki’s plan a secret, but they still needed the cube, and she still needed Loki.
(Y/n) felt the ship rock to the side and knew it was time to go. A chill ran down her spine when she heard the roar of the green monster. She sprinted through the ship, heading to place where Loki had been kept only to find the cage gone, a man bleeding and a large hole in the wall.
“Loki!” (Y/n) screamed her eyes darting everywhere, if Loki had been in that contraption when it had fallen… no. Loki was much smarter than that. Loki wouldn’t, couldn’t just die. Not again.
“Are you ready to go love?” Loki’s cold hand wrapped around (y/n(‘a waist and her heart nearly jumped to her throat.
“Who was in the cage Loki?” (Y/n) stood over the empty space staring at the land below. The fall would kill anyone, even them.
“I’ll tell you everything later, we need to go. Now” Loki’s eyes searched (y/n)’s as he pulled on her arm. He was already adding a passenger, he couldn’t be late.
“Tell me, now” (Y/n) turned around to face Loki who looked down at her sadly.
“I didn’t want to do this (y/n)” Loki’s scepter touched (y/n)’s chest. She felt cold and weak, her knees giving out from under her. Loki swept his hand under her legs, picking her up with ease.
“Sleep my angel” Loki whispered, his lips hovering above her forehead as he placed a soft kiss there, (y/n)’s eyes fluttering shut.
(Y/n) woke up, in an old bed, in a dust room, with rope around her hands. A scream escaped her mouth before she could stop it and a cold sweat settled on her neck. She did not know where she was, who she was with, or how she got there, but she knew one thing was for sure. Loki was here.
“Hello my angel” Loki walked in, grimacing at the sight of you tied up. His hands moved swiftly and surely untying the notes, and then running them along (y/n)’s arms.
(Y/n) reeled back, hitting her head on the wall behind her. She glanced at her clothes. They were unchanged and surprisingly unwrinkled. She studied Loki. He seemed better than before, but his eyes were still extremely blue.
“Spill everything. Now” (Y/n) commanded from her corner of the bed. Loki reached out, pulling her to his chest.
“You are going to have to be a lot more specific love” Loki cooed, watching as the electric blue faded into (y/n)’s natural eye color.
“Who was in the cage” (Y/n) whispered looking into Loki’s eyes. They were still unnaturally blue, and almost painful for her to look at. Loki chuckled lightly in response to (y/n)’s question, instead leaning down to plant a soft kiss on her lips. (Y/n) pushed him away after a moment of hesitation, climbing off the bed.
“You answer my question now, or else” (Y/n) stood against the wall. She could feel the annoyance radiating off of Loki as he prowled toward her.
“Darling, you have nothing you could threaten me with. So,” Loki stood above her, smirking, as he stooped down to ghost her lips. “Give in to our desire” Loki’s lips met (y/n)’s with a fiery passion as (y/n) did her best to not react, but her body didn’t listen. She let out a soft moan as Loki’s hands trailed up her sides, sending a mix of shivers and pleasure down her spine. His hand wrapped around her waist lifting her onto the bed in a swift motion. He looked down at her with hungry, almost animalistic eyes.
“I’m going to conquer this earth, and you will watch me do this” Loki kissed (y/n) one more time, but she had gone ridged. She knew this man in front of her was not who she thought he was. She knew that she would have to witness a war.
A/N: Okay, so don’t hate me, but I’m going to add another part to this because it needs it, and I feel like this story hasn’t finished yet. Also, after the part three I might continue it into Thor 2, not 100% sure but I just love writing Loki. Let me hear your thoughts guys.
isnt it a little.. shitty that twitter PSA thing, like... you cant even see whatever she has done bc the 1975era deactivated their account. and like i dont know this girl but to make someone feel alienated and shit ain't cool. i know you didnt make the post or anything but like /: can they really be that bad?? that they need their name dragged through the mud??
(in reference to this psa) no they just changed their url so you can still view it here. listen, i’ve been in countless rps with this girl including ones i’ve adminned in the past. her several characters such as lacy & nat (both troye sivan), kas & zoya (both joanna kuchta), rory & gray (both josefine pettersen), bailey (tarjei sandvik moe), timmy (jade thirlwall) and believe me, they’ve given me, my co-admins, my friends and my fellow members many many migraines with her behavior on multiple circumstances. she’s been in a bunch of rps before and has been kicked out of them as well, so you can ask other people in the rpc and they’d know her too. she’s caused unnecessary drama both ic and ooc and she often takes things ooc, and she’s shaded admins before and in my experience, she blatantly ignored our admin message to her after asking her to refrain from using her multiple accounts to target a specific member in the rp we were in. and no, this was a different occasion than the one in the psa, this was back late last year but evidently she hasn’t changed her ways. personally, i’d just like to avoid her at all costs because frankly i’m tired of dealing with her picking fights all the time. if you want to know more you can ask me for receipts i’d be glad to offer it up, i’m just done lmao
and since you wanted that @ so bad here u go @wintcrbird
help a trans college student change her name and get hrt
i hate to do this because i feel very greedy abt it but here’s my situation: i’m moving into an apartment near where i go to school in less than a month. i have a job currently and i’ll probably transfer to the district down there, which will probably only take care of my basic living expenses. i also just bought a used car and have to pay for my own insurance on it.
i’ve been trying to change my name legally and also get hrt for a long time (pretty much ever since i came out publicly almost two and a half years ago), but for one reason or another plans have always fallen through before i could accomplish either of these things.
in wv (where my parents live and where i’d be changing my name), there’s a filing fee for changing your name, which is 200 dollars, plus a smaller fee that isn’t specified in the paperwork for the newspaper running a legal notice. i can get to an informed consent clinic in dc for hormones but i do still need to pay for those appointments, and then pray that my family’s insurance will cover the payments for when i get the actual medication.
i know that this is asking a lot, esp when there are so many people worse off than me. however, i feel like if i dont do this soon, it’ll just keep falling through the cracks and it’ll never happen for me. it’s already such a strain on my mental health having to endure hearing my legal name in official meetings, or seeing the continued changes that have happened in the past few years because i didn’t get hormones. anything you can do to help would be greatly appreciated.
my paypal can be found at paypal.me/LoriK22 and you can also reblog to help this find a wider audience <3
Is it true that Eth doesn't like x Reader fics/headcannons? And if so, what can I do to make sure *he* doesn't see them, but people who like them do?
Hello! I’m sorry it took me so long to reply! I’ve seen that post going around and tbh, its inaccurate! There’s no actual proof to their claims that Ethan is bothered by SFW writing (he does NOT approve of NSFW fics under any conditions), I understand that the OP and their rebloggers are just trying to keep Ethan comfortable; however all the post is accomplishing is worrying writers. Heres my proof for this!
Ethan claiming he supports all fanfiction that is NOT about him having sex with his friends. (Dated Dec 24, 2016)
So! In conclusion, Ethan does not mind people writing SFW fanfiction, but is uncomfortable with NSFW fanfiction. So, I’d say if you’re writing NSFW eth fanfic/hcs/blurbs, just dont tag any part of it with his tag or anything containing his name or tag (but tbh id stop doing it altogether if i were you bc it makes him uncomfortable) but don’t feel bad if you’re writing cute little SFW fanfiction about like bird watching with Eth or whatever lmao. But if Ethan does say i’m wrong on this or does comment on this, i’m sure we will all respect that!
Anyway this has been my opinion and my citations on this!
i know what youre thinking, “inactive for basically year and NOW he delete? what a lazy, selfish douche”
i have many reasons, but here is crux of it: im fucking tired guys. im really, really tired.
im just way too depressed and sick to continue making posts, content, or even tags. i can barely waking up in morning. i don’t even checking news on Syria anymore, im going mid july to find my MIA uncle and aunt anyways, so yeah i bet that’s going to turn out well.
also, im tired of negativity. i join “fandom side” of video games- more specifically, RVB- because i think it would being fun and supportive community where memes and creative ideas to thrive and to grow. that was 2012 tumblr, i was stuck in wrong year. now everyone is zealous vigilantee and harassing people and claiming that if anyone interpreting something different than them, they’re fucking criminals. discourse, stalking, callout, whatever fucking “doxxing” mean.
it reflect society today. people are so radicalized, they cannot standing to hear different view point than them- religion, politics, and apparently fandom now too? wtf, my only escape from that horseshit WAS fandom!! and now extremist assholes are everywhere. my home country, my “friends”, and my fucking stress relief?!?! its pathetic!!!
but in the end… what can you do? just roll with punches and move on, i guess
thank you so much to those who have supported me. it was great run. i had wonderful conversations with many lovely people, and i still wonder who those nice anons were. i remember every comment and tag, good and bad. my art and writing improving so much thank to positive reinforcement. i use to feel ok with sharing my ideas, even though my predictions or interpretations were deadass wrong most of in time. but they develop and improve like i did as human. i outgrow them… just like i now outgrow this…
believe me, THATS something i don’t saying lightly
basically, im not going to use my time and energy tainting my name with toxic community. im just not. im above that. i dont wanting to invest in something that i will now being burned for. im not even mad, just severely dissapointed. consider this blog permenately discontinued, same with others. i mighg start all over again or something, have to wait and see.
im going to tag people who were either kind to me, great people in general, wonderful artists, people i admire, people with great ideas/contributions, mutuals, chill blogs i follow, or people who have been following/interacting with my blog for so long it would be insulting to not give them regonition they deserve! most are combination of these. this is mostly as promo, even if they aren’t still active in fandom. they deserve better than this toxic bullshit too. i recommend them greatly, and if any of you are reading this, YOU MAKE THIS WORLD BETTER, OR AT LEAST FUCKING BEARABLE!! many others do as well, but here are people who directly making this blog’s time and experience worthwhile.
in no particular order…. (seriously, don’t reading too much into it :P)
AND LAST BUT NOT LEAST, @vividroute just for being my 69th follower (no i did not forget you, idk if youre even following me anymore but hey bonus points in my book)
thank you so much, i will missing you guys, but i cant doing this anymore. im sorry i couldnt having patience you do.
so why do i write this? why dont i just shut up and leave? why tag and drag these people to this post? good questions. i want you to know and understand from this experience: Karma exist. your contribution, work, kindness, EXISTENCE, ect. help me and even if you dont remembering, it impact me. i hope this doing same for you. im not going to force you believe Karma or any of that jazz. i just think that for what each of you have done, least i can doing is giving my thanks and/or explanations instead of being ingrate and abandoning everyone as i almost had, with poor rushed words. i am grateful for your presence on Earth, and i know im not only one who thinking so! ^^
now time to lay my weary ass blog to rest with one last rvb reference…