i dont expect yours to be this long

re: artists working themselves to death and why the HECK is this the standard

the entire thing about the death of an animator in japan due to overwork is exactly why i am completing chapter 1 of 1989nk in months, not weeks.

this has been one of my biggest fears getting this project off the ground. the standard for work output by artists is set so fucking high nowadays. we’re ALL expected to perform at the level of the outlier. (This was apparent to me as early as in Art School, when we were all treated like we were absolutely fucking useless for not being able to do an entire 5 minute 3D animated film all by ourselves like that one guy in our program.) Artists who overwork themselves and overachieve (whether by perceived necessity or choice) unfortunately create an illusion to consumers and employers that their level of performance should be the standard. It creates a nasty cycle, because more artists start trying to adhere to that standard and it gets passed on and on and on.

i’m honestly fully expecting my deadline for chapter one to be too long of a wait for some people. “This other artist got their 30-40 page comic done in 6-8 weeks, why is yours going to take 6-8 months?”

listen, its because i don’t want to not be able to draw for the rest of my life at 30. I dont want to destroy my wrist and make myself ill and make the quality of the comic suffer because i have to live up to the vicious overwork cycle that’s completely blanketed the digital art/media/comics scene. If another artist takes only a few weeks to do their comic? Fine, but you know, theyre most likely suffering BADLY for it, and even THEY shouldn’t have to do that. They really, really shouldn’t. Overwork and over achievement frankly needs to stop being praised and heralded, because its not only extremely damaging to the artist themselves, but it also creates that cycle i mentioned.

Trying to keep up with the immense production quantity and speed that other artists seem to be doing has never, ever been possible for me and I’ve occasionally tried, only to seriously break myself. Even the amount of work I do is considered a lot by some, so then how is it that to me, it always feels like chicken scratch? It feels like i’m STILL not doing enough, ever. Even with the amount of work I do, I still feel like a lazy sack of shit and feel crippling guilt when I’m taking a break to do anything else but draw. I constantly feel like I’m losing the race. That isn’t right. That isn’t fair.

i just really, really hope that people don’t see my production time for 1989nk and go “that’s too long, artists don’t take THAT long to do work” because. well. honestly, they should.

monthly fic rec: april 

- time bomb by thissentimentalheart (291k)

“Why exactly are you here?” Louis asked, feigning annoyance and failing pathetically at it.
“My publicist told me I can’t go anywhere near you.” Harry said, eyes still smudged with last night’s eye liner. “That makes you my favorite person in the world.”

Or the one where Louis has everything: a lead role in a giant Hollywood franchise, a glittering new house with an entertaining Irish neighbor, and a steady, normal boyfriend who he probably loves. Louis never expected to become a household name among young Hollywood overnight. He also never expected to find something endearing about the enigmatic rockstar who keeps showing up on his back porch.

- the melody you never heard by bananasandboots (30k)

It’s one last adventure. One last chance to be young and carefree. One final weekend before they take up their internships, their corporate positions, before they enter the real world, fresh out of university. Niall’s his best mate. Liam’s been there for him since they were lost, little freshmen, trying to find their ways through an overwhelming first year. Harry can’t disappoint them, even if it means enduring four days with Louis.

Louis, who he does share a history with, a history he’s never told anyone about, not even Niall, a history he hasn’t brought up in three years because it’s stupid and embarrassing and confusing.

Or, the one where Harry gets roped into a four-day camping trip with the boy who kissed him and never called back. 

- say hallelujah, say goodnight by alivingfire (110k)

Louis is an angel who is just a little too bad to be good, Harry is a demon who is just a little too good to be bad, and they’re both a little too in love to be impartial when angels and demons go to war.

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BIGBANG Reaction ~ Finding Out You Have an Idol Brother

JI’m literally going to spam y’all with BIGBANG stuff bc I got my G Dragon ‘LOSER’ Styled jacket today and I’m in love with it and I’ve too like 150+ selfies in it omg.

They got so long i dont know how but I love this group more than life itself bYE

Seungri:

When you told Seungri you would be hanging out with your brother for the day, he wouldn’t expect to stream on his instagram feed of you and Oh Sehun from EXO. Seungri would try and pick out where you were from the pictures and do some slight stalking, finding you and Sehun sitting with coffee’s in your hand’s and sitting at table outside a small cafe.

Seungri would go full on jealous boyfriend mode and wait back in your apartment for you to come back, bombing you with questions like “So how do you know Sehun?” “Are you two close romantically??” which grossed you out a bit and made you explain that he was your younger brother.

G Dragon:

Jiyong and yourself was attending yet, another party and you were almost starting to lose interest in it when you saw your brother, Shownu of Monsta X by the drinks table and excused yourself from your boyfriend who was currently already talking to someone else. While making small talk with Shownu, 

Jiyong had turned his head just as you gave your brother a half hearted hug which made the boyfriend quite jealous. When he approached you, Jiyong slung his arm around your waist and looked at Shownu with a weak smile, suddenly taken by surprise when you introduced the previous male as your brother.

Daesung:

When attending the MAMAs, Daesung couldn’t help but smile the whole way through BIGBANG’s performance when you loudly sang along where you sat with the idols and your group, especially when you were singing louder at his parts. What caught him off guard on EXO’s performance the most was when you put more energy and sang louder in a certain member’s solo. 

The poor duck was so confused he would literally ask you who your favorite member was, you’d turn to him and reply quickly “Of course it would be my brother, Minseok, who else?

Taeyang:

You were watching a SHINee Interview on tv when Youngbae had came back from a long day of work and started complaining about it, now you wouldn’t have minded right up until your brother Jonghyun had made an appearance on the screen and you got super excited and told your boyfriend to shush for a few moments.

Youngbae literally got so confused and watched your excitement over Jonghyun which kind of made him jealous. Youngbae would whine and pull you into his arms asking why you couldn’t look at him that way only for you to tell him that “You’re not my brother, pabo.

T.O.P:

Never would he ever think that he would walk in on you and Seungri hugging like you had known each other your whole lives. To Seunghyun it looked intimate but to you and your twin brother it was nothing but a innocent comfort hug on how he’s been feeling so stressed lately. 

Your boyfriend had only one thing in mind and that was to step in between the both of you earning a shout from Seungri who then received a violent threat along the lines of “If you ever touch my girlfriend again I’ll break you and throw you to hounds” which both you and Seungri only laughed at, making Seunghyun confused. 

Seungri and yourself both explain that you’re twins which makes Seunghyun feel like an asshole for not realizing any sooner.

I guess that’s who you get your mischievous side and influence from then.

3

hi boys and because i have no consistency im back with another preposition

do you live on the edge? have you ever wanted a super cheap commission? heres the offer for you! with Experimental drawings!

basically i draw however id feel would work best with the request, full body perhaps, probably colours??

pros:

  • fast, i can get these done much quicker than my usual full lineless art
  • cheap, pay whatever u like bro!! if you dont like what you get give me 2 cents i dont care
  • wild! risky! dangerous! 
  • i get to practice different ways of drawing!

cons:

  • literally none?????
  • ok maybe whatever comes out looks like crap but if that happens give me 1 cent thats it.

and ofc im still offering regular commissions if thats more your style,

thanks for your time! if youre confused dont be afraid to ask any questions!  usual info down below the cut

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Wavering Heaven

Request: “I’ve just read Coffee Shopes and Scars and could you do a part 2?? It was just so cute and wonderful!!!”

Word Count: 3,767

Pairing: Newt x Reader

Part 1

Tag List: @dont-give-a-bother @caseoffics @red-roses-and-stories @myrtus-amongst-the-stars @ly–canthrope @benniesgalaxy


Sunbeams strike your husband’s face. The golden light outlines the soft freckles dotting his face. His lips are parted, taking in and letting out deep breaths. His chest rises and fall in the same peaceful rhythm as his breaths, casting a shadow on your arm over and over. The sight brings a smile to your face as you run a thumb over his cheekbone and down a small scar on his cheek courtesy of your own clumsiness when dealing with a murtlap. You don’t feel too guilty given the amount of scars crawling up and down your arms that Newt caused before you met him.

The coffee shop where you first met Newt earns your business at least once a year, sometimes more if the two of you happen to stay in town for any amount of time. The sweet little shop hasn’t grown or changed much, aside from investing in more durable vases. Newt had proposed there six months after you first fell for him, then brought you back the past three years for your anniversary.

You trace shapes with his freckles as you contemplate your marriage and how you ended up somewhere so vastly different from anywhere you’d ever even dreamed of. Newt is heaven. He’s a blessing that has only ever proved the existence of soulmates, that the universe didn’t mess up when it brought the two of you together.

A tide of peaceful joy swells in your chest when Newt shifts, murmuring nonsense as he wakes up.

“Good morning, darling.” You say, pulling your hand back to your side.

He blinks his green eyes open, smiling when he sees you. “Morning, love.” He mumbles.

His sleepy smile warms you. “You must have slept well.”

“Quite well.”

“I didn’t see you come to bed.”

He stretches, revealing a strip of skin on his stomach that you run your fingers over. “Pickett wanted to talk. He wouldn’t stop ‘til I let him sleep in my vest pocket.”

That explains why the vest is so nicely hung on the coat rack in the corner. “I guess I should just be happy you made it to bed at all.”

His cheeks tinge pink as he slides out of bed and changes the subject, heading to the dresser. “You’re shopping today, right?”

You step next to him, giggling at his expression when he notices his jade sweater grazing the middle of your thighs. “That was the plan. Need something?”

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anonymous asked:

Lmao I put in me two weeks notice not two long ago. My boss has me scheduled for 2 weeks after my final week (aka this week) and I'm like LMAO DONT EXPECT ME TO SHOW UP IVE REMINDED YOU AT LEAST 3 TIMES WHAT MY LAST DAY IS BUDDY DONT BLAME ME FOR YOUR NEGLIGENCE WHEN I DONT SHOW UP BECAUSE I HAVE A NEW JOB.

If they needed you that badly then they should have thought about it BEFORE you quit. Tough tits, now. Scheduling you doesn’t mean they can keep you. -Abby

. I know I can shit post a lot and I may scream about my love for JB to the point that it gets annoying, but thank you for sticking with me anyways! I would like to thank you all for following me and for befriending me! I love each and everyone of you and I only wish for your unending happiness. I’ve met so many people on here who made my life more colorful and who i want to keep dear to my heart for my whole entire life. Thank you so much, I can never thank y’all enough. <3

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aestheniaa  asked:

Hi so my grades are kinda slipping... and I would appreciate some advice. (I'm in high school and I struggle with anxiety so approaching my teachers is really hard for me) Any tips on raising grades, turning things on time (and actually finishing it without getting distracted) and studying (especially for difficult subjects)

hi there, i’m really sorry to hear that. i completely understand what you’re going through as i am honestly terrible at staying on task, studying, and being productive. while im not sure if i am the best person to give advice on this aspect, being the disorganised person i am, but i have some strategies that help me get through.

  • the most important thing is: get started!! this is honestly the hardest part but a lot of my anxiety comes from my huge workload, that i tend to not start until the last minute (which i naturally regret every single time). i know this is much easier said than done but even if you focus on getting a little something done, it’s always better than avoiding it. tell yourself you are going to have to get it done sooner or later, and no matter how tempting it is to choose “later”, you need to make the better choice for future you.
    • do whatever you can to get yourself in action and get the ball rolling. this is something i suck at. what i do is set my timer for 10-20 minutes and tell myself that i will do nothing but work during this time. if i successfully do that, i can take a break of 5-10 minutes and time this as well, before getting back to work again. 
  • forget all the extra stuff! let go of any preassumed expectations of what your study and work should look like. this will only discourage you to begin. 90% of my studying is actually a huGE mess of rushed notes and 3am cramming. 
    • start with the bare minimum! don’t begin with unrealistic expectations for yourself. once you have done the basic things, you will have accomplished what was necessary, and then you can strive to build on what you have, improve, and keep the momentum going.
  • and lastly, don’t be too harsh on yourself. especially with adhd, i’ve kind of just accepted that i won’t be the perfect, most consistent, student that i can dream of being as easily as it seems (keyword: seems) like it is for others. and although this doesn’t mean i dont constantly strive for progress and improvement, this just simply means that i try not to beat myself up when i get a low grade, or when i dont focus for as long as i want to. 
    • we are all simply human. that is all we can ever be, and part of that is failing, making mistakes, and not always reaching the expectations of ourselves and others. but the most important thing is to not let that detract from ALL the time and effort we have invested, or let that discourage you.
    • don’t forget to reward yourself for small victories! baby steps are what makes up massive achievements. dont ever diminish your efforts.
  • for difficult subjects, recognise that you are going to have to put in effort to do better. nothing else will get you there. i don’t know what subjects you are struggling with so i cant give specific tips, but its important to understand that for some subjects you will have to invest more time, effort, and energy to do well in them. for me, this is math and i am aware of the fact that i have to do tons of practice in order to reach average.
  • i feel you with the teacher anxiety. i think its important to remind yourself that teachers are there to help you, and try to rationalise with yourself that nothing horrible is going to happen just by asking for some help, whether it be clarification on a topic, or for an extension if you genuinely need it. at the end of the day they are human too and hopefully they will understand if you try to explain your situation genuinely. 
    • set yourself some small objectives regarding teacher interaction, i.e. raising your hand to ask a question during class, or staying back to ask about something you don’t understand (this sometimes help me with anxiety because not everyone is listening.) 
    • teachers will appreciate the extra effort you put in and hopefully you’ll slowly be able to overcome the difficulty of approaching teachers, as well as establish better relationships with teachers

i will now end with a quote by jake from adventure time: “sucking at something is the first step to being sorta good at something.”

this is just what i have at the top of my mind right now. i don’t know if it’ll help you too much but i hope it addresses at least some of your issues. i wish you all the best of luck with everything. let me know how it goes :) 

anonymous asked:

I understand venting to people helps but with the internet, displaying to an entire audience usually goes kinda bad! like most recently you recording and put hateful people on blast on your twitter (they were cunts albeit) but why do it? it doesnt really gain you anything other than sympathy pats. same with your constant "disappointment" in your comments. it hurts, it really does but these are just faceless people (like me kek!) just report/block and keep truckin'. dont show that it bothers you.

I am not even hurt, I didn’t expect sympathy pats, It legit was the worst comment section I’ve had in my videos with a bunch of spam messages, virus links and so forth.

It is expected when you grow as a person but I do go through my comment section to keep it as friendly and safe for people to go through, as long as I can.

But I will not stay silent about how I feel about it, that’s basically censoring my personality. I’m not going to become an emotionless puppet just because I have an audience. 

anonymous asked:

Feyrhys and the AU “I was trying to take a sneeky picture of you because i told my friend about the hot guy on the train and she wanted to see but you totally noticed and yeah this is awkward”

A/N: ok i really love this AU.  And I kinda (by kinda i mean definitely) want to write more in this universe, so let me know what you all think! @rhysndtrash I did the thing! [Part 2!]


~ Rattled ~

Shooting a furtive glance toward her slumbering companion, Feyre bit her lip and tugged her cellphone from the pocket of her messenger bag.

I think I found my muse

There’s a delay in reply, which Feyre fills by scrolling through Tumblr and Instagram, grinning faintly at a few kind comments and tags on her latest piece, which is a misleading characterization unless one considers ‘latest’ to mean over six months.  Still, its good for her ego. 

She’s halfway through reading a ranting conspiracy theory, which managed to connect heelys and Roswell, when an alert drops down at the top of her screen from Mor.

Oo.  intriguing.  is he hot? 

Smirking despite herself, Feyre opens the message to respond.

I never said it was a he

I could be talking about a non-human for all you know

Three dots appear almost immediately and she settles back against the worn but pleasantly clean faux velvety seat, sipping at her fountain drink only to be met with a mouthful of watered down Sprite.  Gross.

pretty sure thats illegal

also that doesnt sound like a denial to me…

Rolling her eyes, Feyre answers back,

ew thanks for making that gross

and fine.  it’s a guy.  but this isn’t about hotness.  artists have muses that they remain platonic with

mhmmm.  so is this going to be a fling or are we talking long term life partners?

whats your stance on marriage as an institution?

Feyre lets out a snort at that, then quickly checks to be sure she hasn’t woken sleeping beauty.  Because he is…beautiful that is.  Purely from an artistic perspective.  This isn’t romantic attraction.  She definitely didn’t think about mouthing her way across his sharp jaw bone while his hands gripped-

i hate you

As if Mor had expected that answer, she fires back almost immediately

no u dont.  and send pics

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1.6k celebration: art requests now open!!

thank you @phanperra for making this banner for me<3

so we somehow reached 1.6k, holy crap this is so much for me, and thank you for supporting and appreciating me. the only thing i can do for you is make better art for you guys, keep on improving and creating.


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*I’ve been considering this for so long and i still haven’t found the perfect timing to do this, so i’m going to post this now. Considering april is my exam month, i may not be very active here soon. Please put up with the time required and don’t expect i can do yours quickly. This is the first time i do this and idk what to expect. The art request will be open for long, unless this flops.

charm shipping update!

i’m finally ready to start shipping out some of the storenvy charm orders!  what you see in the photo is just the first group of many trips to the post office i’ll be taking over the next 2-3 weeks. due to the amount of orders i got im not able to ship them out all at once (the lady at the post office is already scared/annoyed of me when i go in haha)

anyway this is just an update to say that shipping has begun! emails will be sent out to you when you package is sent out so if you dont get on today that means yours is not in this group and it’ll be in a later group of shipments! this is your last chance to notify me of any address changes (you can email me at bakakhee@gmail.com or message me here)

thank you all so much for your patience and understanding. i wasnt expecting to have to delay the shipping so long but with school, work and sudden personal life problems i was set back. but its no excuse, i take responsibility of the delayed shipments but im glad to announce that everything is back in progress now.

spirit!yugyeom

Originally posted by jackandjael

  • first off, yuygeom is a demon
  • jk jk he’s a lil shit but he is a form of spirit and demons are also technically spirits too, tho he isn’t one
  • yugyeom is a… special spirit
  • most spirits are kind of tied to something you know? and the most popular are elemental spirits and whatnot
  • well yugyeom is tied to a messed up ouija board
  • basically, somehow, he is now connected to this damn board and no matter how hard you try, the only spirit you can talk to is him and the only spirit you can summon is him
  • this board is sitting in an antique shop so yugyeom has been kinda dormant for a while
  • but one day, you come in
  • you were dared by your friends to get a ouija board so you could communicate with ghosts
  • if you could make it happen and record the experience, you’d pass
  • you hate your friends now
  • the number one thing you’re scared of is channelling a demon or some malevolent spirit or what the heck ever so knowing that there’s a good chance you will just. damn
  • what’s worse is that they requested you purchase a real one, aka an old one bc apparently that makes it all the more serious i guess
  • when you come into the fourth antique shop that day and spot it, you’re at the register and getting it rung up in record time
  • the little old lady who runs the place is super sweet and mentions how the board had been there since she was a teenager, and that many had bought it but many had taken it back, saying it was faulty
  • of course you’re intrigued and also this is your life on the line so you’re like what??
  • she giggles and is like “its kinda funny but apparently people are only able to communicate with one spirit using this board. i’ve heard he’s harmless but i should warn you, in case you were hoping to speak with your dead grandmother or something”
  • you raise your eyebrow but bid the old woman ado and head off home, ready to get this shit over with
  • at least if the spirit is “friendly” then you have nothing to worry about
  • your family is out so you head up to your room and pull out the board, dropping it onto your bed before you get everything ready, propping your phone up to record you as you begin
  • You do everything you’re supposed to, and then you go, “is anyone there?”
  • you’re expecting the planchette to move or better yet do nothing, so hopefully you can get this over with
  • and then
  • poof
  • you scream when a (admittedly handsome) teenage boy suddenly appears before you, legs crossed and his face in his palm as his eyes stay closed 
  • once you’ve finished screaming, the boy slowly opens his eyes and murmurs, “hey”
  • you’re not sure what to say
  • this is the only spirit you can talk to? dont the spirits usually stay in the board and talk through that? why did it appear in front of you like this, and bored looking nonetheless?
  • you blink for a bit, unsure of what to do next when the spirit sighs “if you’re not gonna ask me any questions, can you end the session? i was having a good dream”
  • “spirits dream?” you ask him, and his eyes rise to lock with yours before he shrugs “something like that. any who, what’s up? im yugyeom”
  • you tell him your name reluctantly, and he simply nods, thinking you’re about to ask him all the usual questions like “will i get married to (insert heartthrob here)?” ”will i ever get rich?” “who’s gonna win the Super Bowl?”
  • but then you go “my… my friends dared me to do this. t-to call a spirit and ask you some questions, so… um… why dont witches ride their brooms when they’re angry?”
  • yugyeom’s interest is piqued and he sits up, thinking long and hard to answer, “because… road rage?”
  • you giggle nervously, looking at the list of things your friends forced you to ask him “so they don’t fly off the handle”
  • you’re not expecting yugyeom to find it as funny as he does but he’s bent over laughing like you’ve told the best joke he’s ever heard
  • “tell me more!” he demands, eyes alight and all the boredom wiped off his face
  • quickly, you start listing off jokes from the top of your head, all of them tickling him in one way or another
  • you don’t even realize that your phone has died of battery or that it’s suddenly gotten late until you turn to grab your phone and see the moon high in the sky
  • “oh, i didn’t think we talked that long… I dont even think they’ll see you show up on camera”
  • “they won’t, but i can help you make it look like you did the dare, and prank them too”
  • you furrow your eyebrows and listen in and he grins, telling you to charge your phone and that you’ll find out soon
  • ten minutes later, you’re sat with the phone before you and the board out, yugyeom having disappeared from sight
  • he’s told you to ask the questions they’ve given you, and he’ll do the rest
  • once you’ve finished telling the first lame joke they’ve given you, the pillow on your bed flies across the room and starts hovering over your head, and its so unexpected that you react pretty well for the camera
  • yugyeom is grinning above you, having appeared above you with a finger raised to his lips
  • you have to bite your lip to keep from laughing as you continue to ask questions, and in response he makes the planchette move and gives you weird answers like “haunted horse party” or all out flips the board to appear like an angry spirit
  • he shuts off the recording in the middle of making it hover “in thin air”, and you’ve got your elaborate prank
  • “this is the most fun I’ve had in years” yugyeom laughs
  • “im gonna have to thank that old lady when i return the board”
  • you’re pretty surprised to see yugyeom’s expression turn sad and he just kinda pouts at you like a kicked puppy
  • you feel bad instantly
  • “you… can’t you keep me- i mean, the board? i promise im fun to talk to!! ill never possess you or anything… unless you want to be possessed by a spirit then i’ll definitely make sure we make a fair deal or something-” “yugyeom i can keep the board calm down” 
  • hes so happy and tells you that if you ever need someone to talk to you or whatever you can just take out the board and talk to him
  • you’re kinda surprised that you’ve unintentionally made friends with a spirit but hey, he’s cute and he’s almost definitely not going to kill you
  • so this goes on for a while
  • you lock yourself into the privacy of your room and take out the board and honestly you and yugyeom just hang
  • he tells you about all of the weird experiences he’s had with people who try to channel him and you sometimes use him to spook your friends bc its pretty funny ngl
  • he makes you into a lil shit too
  • sometimes you just open the ouija board and let him follow you around the house
  • he’ll bother your family, move things onto high shelves, take things and hide them in new places, and overall just entertain himself
  • you accidentally left the board open once and when a guy in your class came over to study he spent the whole time tugging on the guy’s gelled hair
  • when the guy went to the bathroom, yugyeom snuck in and made fog appear on the mirror before he wrote for him to “get lost or get possessed”
  • needless to say that guy ran away from your house and never talked to you again
  • “i dont like that guy” “oh wow, i didn’t notice with how you repeatedly whispered in my ear ‘i dont like this guy’”
  • technically, if you keep the ouija board open, yugyeom can go anywhere with you, but only so far or the connection gets kinda weak
  • so sometimes you take a backpack and open the board inside when you go places and you want him to be there with you
  • one time you took the board with you to a horror movie and sat it up in the seat next to you and people thought you were crazy but yugyeom was right next to you making fun of the fake ghosts
  • one time you’re really curious so you go “yugyeom, has anyone ever tried to release you?”
  • yugyeom is pretty shocked that you’ve asked and tells you that no, no one has ever cared abt him enough to stick around after the first few sessions, let alone to release him from the board altogether
  • you decide that you’ve formed a pretty strong relationship with yugyeom so you offer to let him out
  • yugyeom is really apprehensive and you are too bc obviously its dangerous and he doesn’t know what will happen to him if he is released
  • will people see him? will he inhabit something else? will he live a normal life or remain a spirit?
  • “i’d… think i’d like that. but i can’t promise that everything will go right afterwards”
  • you know, you’ve known for a while, but you want to try for him
  • you can’t help daydreaming of being with him in other ways bc he’s so sweet and really cares for you
  • he knows you so well its kind of crazy
  • you’ve even caught yourself day dreaming about kissing those pretty lips every time he laughs, or whispers in you ear late into the night
  • the fact that he has no problem being close and intimate with you already leaves you pretty flustered as it is
  • you’ve grown impossibly attached to this goofy spirit and if you can free him from the board, you’d love to
  • the only thing is that the only way to free his spirit from the board is to break it
  • either you’d free him or you’d lose him forever, and that’s what scares you
  • you make up your mind and summon him to get his permission, and when he gives you the go ahead with a shaky smile, you snap it in half with all your might
  • its silent afterwards
  • you don’t feel yugyeom’s warm presence like usual
  • you call out his name softly, sadly, thinking that you’ve done it and lost his spirit forever
  • your hands hold the broken pieces of the board and you’re moved near to tears now, knowing you’ve messed up for real and you’d never see yugyeom again
  • then two warm arms wrap around you from behind and you flinch, eyes wet as you turn to observe who’s there, and you smile when you make eye contact with yugyeom
  • hes grinning at you too, but something feels,,, off
  • its not like his usual, carefree smiles
  • his canines look a little sharper
  • his grip feels a little rougher
  • his lips a little more red than soft pink
  • his arms tighten that much more around your middle and you blink, your smile faltering as he says nothing
  • “y-yugy?” you ask softly, and you watch as his grin melts into something of a smirk
  • the smirk is different too bc unlike his usual playful smirks after he’s scared you coming out of the bathroom or pulled a successful prank on someone, it’s hidden with intentions you’ve never seen on him
  • it doesn’t fit the yugyeom you know
  • “you know… when they tell you not to play with spirits, you should probably listen” he says, his pupils glinting a blood red as his fingernails, no, claws dig into your hips
  • your hands shake as he twists you around, shoving you up against the nearest wall as one of his hands encircles your wrist and the other grasps your chin
  • you’re nearly shitting your pants at this point, staring at who you once thought was the kind, caring spirit that you’d grown to love
  • he leans in impossibly close, taking up all the air in your lungs as his breath fans across your lips 
  • his tongue glides out, licking his lips slowly before he whispers teasingly against your trembling mouth
  • “they might just be demons in disguise”
  • remember when i said he wasn’t a demon :)))) i lied

other ghost!got7

ghost!jaebum

ghost!youngjae

imaginary friend!mark

ghost!bambam

goblin!jinyoung

i am not a person with a disability, i am a disabled person.

im in the middle of writing a massive essay as to why this is better, i want to make it clear that my illness/disability is so pervasive that it affects every aspect of my life, it has given me new insights and understandings, fighting against ableism has helped define me.

so dont take that away from me, for so long people have tried to avoid saying the word disability by using things like ‘hanicapable’ or ‘differently abled’ or just talking around it

just. fucking. say. it.

to say that i am a person ‘despite my illness/disability’ denies me an important part of who i am, to say that you don’t see disability or that you ‘look beyond it’ denies my struggles

i dont expect you to understand, i want you to listen and Just. Fucking. Say. It.

Pain

Min Yoongi

Genre:Angst

Originally posted by loveblushes


Pain

The pain I felt when the wheels of my first bike, aged 6, had given in beneath me. I remembered the burning scrape on my knee and the sound of your frantic footsteps racing towards me as I screamed. You wiped away my tears almost as fast as they fell and told me I could do better. ‘𝘠𝘢𝘩! 𝘋𝘰𝘯'𝘵 𝘤𝘳𝘺, 𝘢 𝘭𝘪𝘵𝘵𝘭𝘦 𝘴𝘤𝘳𝘢𝘵𝘤𝘩 𝘪𝘴 𝘯𝘰𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘐 𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘤𝘢𝘯 𝘨𝘦𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘳𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵!’ With a promise to never leave my side I was soon flying with speed on my bike, the wind whizzing past my ears as you desperately tried to keep up, your hands never leaving the handle even when I was sure I could manage on my own. You never left my side.


Pain

The pain I felt at each harsh word thrown at me, only 6 years later, left me defenseless and tearful. My only friend had always been you and the other kids at school never missed the chance to remind me of such. Before I could try and run from them you would be there, ice cold glare strong enough to scare any bully away despite your frail stance. ‘𝘞𝘩𝘺 𝘭𝘪𝘴𝘵𝘦𝘯 𝘵𝘰 𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘰𝘴𝘦 𝘫𝘦𝘳𝘬𝘴 𝘴𝘢𝘺? 𝘐 𝘭𝘪𝘬𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶, 𝘪𝘴𝘯'𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘮𝘢𝘵𝘵𝘦𝘳𝘴? 𝘐'𝘮 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘧𝘳𝘪𝘦𝘯𝘥.’ Never spoken in a gentle tone but always a matter of fact, usually followed by you rolling your eyes. I always knew of the care you had for me though, it’s not always something big that shows it.


Pain

The pain I felt experiencing what would surely not be the last of my first breakups. I suppose at the time your first boyfriend seems like it’ll be your last. Oh, the naivety of my adolescent mind. Still, you had never liked him and you never hesitated in telling me that, even to his face more than once, and who was I to go against your better judgement when you had yet to lead me astray. I remember turning to you immediately as I always had ‘Yoongi, It’s over I never want to see him again!’  I remember the pitiful sigh you had let out and of course you couldn’t help but tell me ‘I told you so’  but like time and time again you had my back, spending with me all the time I needed and complaining about the mess I was making of your shirt no doubt. You stayed and listened as I poured out all my sadness and betrayal, after all as you said ‘I’ve been with you through all the ups and downs and you me, why would I leave now?’  and so you didn’t.


Pain

The pain I felt seeing you fall for someone else, stupid of me to assume you’d realise the feelings I had for you, when I had only just realised them myself. College was a pain, I was working at a local convinience store and an undecided major as you tried to balance being inbetween jobs, music production classes and our friendship. I didn’t even think you had enough room for a good nights sleep at the best of times, but still, you manged to meet her. Another music productions major that you called Julie. She was smart, beautiful, talented and a bunch of other adjectives you had spouted in your confessions about her. I had no choice but to listen to each one, I had no choice but to ignore my own feelings and support you as you had always done me. After I made a joke about you replacing her with me, although now I’m not sure if I was joking or not, you gave me that familliar gummy smile and told me that I would never be repleaed and that I was stuck with you, as if I minded in the slightest. ‘Replace you? My best friend? Someone has to take care of you’


Pain

The pain I felt as I shut my eyes and tried to forget the words you had said, as simple as they were, those words were the ones that hit me more than any other. ‘I don’t love you’  I don’t know what I had been expecting in response to my sudden revelation, as if it would change anything. We were in my dorm speaking about everything and anything as we had so many times before, but this time you told me you were going to tell Julie about your true feeings. You had both been getting closer and spedning more time together, in fact it was my first time I had really seen you in weeks yet still she was the only thing on your mind. It was stupid and selfish of me because I knew how happy you were with her, but without thinking I let out all the thoughts that had been torturing my head for so long. Like I said I don’t know what I was expecting but, what I wasn’t expecting is for you to tell me in the same matter of fact tone as always ‘I dont love you, I love her’ without hesitance or the slightest bit of guilt. I quickly ran from my dorm, leaving you in it, not sure whether I should be grateful or not at the fact that you didn’t attempt to follow me. I don’t know how long I ran for but I eventually crashed to the ground, mouth open in a silent scream of agony, realising, you had finally broken your promise, for the first time you were no longer by my side.


 I never thought you, who has been a relief to all my pain over the years, would eventually leave me alone with the biggest pain of all.

What about you jack? Whats it going to be? Loyalty to your country, or loyalty to me? Your country, or your old mentor? The mission, or your beliefs? Your duty to your unit, or your personal feelings? You dont know the truth yet. But sooner or later youll have to choose. I dont expect you to forgive me. But you cant defeat me, either. You know me too well. Just look at that bandana, if you cant put the past behind you, you wont survive for long. If we meet again, ill kill you. Now go home

All Tangled Up (Fluff)

Originally posted by bodylikeacity

Dean woke up next to the most perfect person in the universe, more brighter than the stars, more glowing than the half moon, and more beautiful than the view of the horizon, lined with coloured lights and soft contrast that yielded his eyes.

Every day he’d never ceased to ramble on about you. Even in the most unflattering of memories.

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CHOI JUNHONG LONG LEGS APPRECIATION POST aka model zelo.

Because this 1.88cm giant kid keeps growing…and he still has 2 years to grow.

plus

the world is your runway model choi juunhong!! xD

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happy pride month babes, i love and cherish you all. nothing and no one can take away your identity, not your parents, not your friends, not a stranger on the sidewalk. you are who you are, and what you are is beautiful. you and your identity are absolutely perfect in every way.

this is for the people who are out, either recently or for a long time. this is for the people who aren’t out or aren’t completely out, who are in abusive homes/situations, who’s family/friends aren’t supportive, i love you all. i know how you feel, that overwhelming fear that sits inside your chest, i know. and i’m here for you, if you need to vent or express your identity.

this is for the people who are figuring things out, who have no idea what their gender or sexuality is. who have comp het, who have to deal with self doubt and self hate, who are scared of what they are. i promise you, it’s going to be okay. you may have to go through a lot of shit but one day you will be content and peaceful. you will love yourself for who you are, all the scars and bruises and heartbreak included.

there are people who love you, who will accept you, who will protect you. you will find a family to belong in, whether it’s a mashup of friends or your biological family. there is hope, and it shines like the brightest fucking star. i’m here to tell you to not give up, keep fighting for your happiness, because you matter and you are worthy of love ❤️💛💚💙💜💖