i dont care if its been posted already im posting it now


Working desk job means exactly this: apartment, tube, workplace, tube, apartment. It’s hard to find sunlight anymore, but he doesn’t think he minds: maybe he’s already used to this. It’s been longer than he cares to remember. 

He spends about two hours a day on the tube - not much compared to the amount of time he spends in his booth at work, but he doesn’t really register those eight hours. It’s like his mind switches itself off the moment he arrives to work and leaves him running on muscle memory alone. Time operates the same way when he’s at home, so by now maybe he’s only really conscious during the two hours on the tube. 


Sometimes he stays back on the tube past his stop. Sometimes until it reaches the end of the line. Sometimes he takes the tube with the intention of going somewhere specific, but then just sits there as his destination flies past him into the dark tunnel he’s just passed. Sometimes he goes down into the stop, just to hear the quiet again. 

Sometimes he sees maintenance doors somewhere in the tunnels, and for no reason he keeps their locations in mind. 


Sometimes the tube takes a turn that he doesn’t recognize, and he feels his heart beating faster all of a sudden. He would stare at the railway through the window pane, counting the seconds, until the tube runs past a corner he knows, or until he reaches his destination. Those moments still happen to him after two years of taking the tube to go… anywhere, really. He thinks he has the whole map learned by heart by now, but the underground keeps proving him wrong. 


There’s a community online for tube dwellers. He doesn’t know any of the dozen of members, online or offline, but he has come by some of them on other forums before. They don’t seem to be of any particular profile: there are men, there are women, ranged from 20 to maybe older than 50. The posts are few and far between, but some of them detail everything reachable by the tube. There are things even he doesn’t know. 

He screenshots some of the posts and keeps the photos in a separate folder, for no particular reason. 

The community hasn’t had a new activity for about three months by now. The members call themselves Rats. He checks through some of their personal pages on that site; the ones he checks have all been abandoned. 

Maybe they’re tired of the lack of sunlight in the tube, he thinks on the way to work. The tube sways and trembles quietly, its hum fills the air. Humans aren’t made for the underground afterall. 

concept of something vaguely formed in my head. I call it Rats of Spice City. 

@revolutionaryduelist (in response to this post ftr but its long and theres enough long posts on my blog right now)

i mean, it is about making dirk soft and cute, because thats what i dont like, thats what ive been complaining about! you and i had been talking about dirks characterization for days (weve been doing it for months, honestly, i think the first time we critiqued each others posts was in fucking november?), and i figured we had pretty much reached a stalemate where neither of us is going to change our interpretation of dirk but we both have well-established arguments to defend them, so its ok. folks other than you and i didnt get involved until 1. you tried to call out jade over a joke about dirk being a stem major, and 2. i wrote a couple of posts (admittedly that sounded angrier than i actually was, because i really, sincerely am not offended or put off by Soft Dirk) about dirks appearance, specifically, and ended it by cracking a joke about the ongoing stem discourse which i guess was my bad for tying these two unrelated issues together, and now i guess its all tied up in a mess of miscommunication where were all using the phrase Soft Dirk to refer to different things and nobodys sure what anyone else is talking about

i think dirk is a lot more complex and morally grey than your reading of him gives him credit for, and you think that my reading of him as morally grey is miscrediting him with the actions of splinters he had no control over, but we have pretty much agreed to disagree at this point. its not my reading, but its a valid one, so its fine. when i started talking about Soft Dirk i was talking about how common it is for non-mlm to depict him as being conventionally attractive, and as a gay dude who is not conventionally attractive and who sees myself a lot in dirk character-ways, that id really like to see more art of dirk looking ugly and gross, because people with depression (hello!) often arent really able to take care of ourselves or keep up with our appearances. i want a gay dude with depression who is a more accurate depiction of gay dudes with depression. thats it, thats where im coming from on this matter, thats 100% of my feelings and motivations. which is why i got so wildly offended when people (specifically, non-mlm!) started saying Soft Dirk (which i defined as a feminine, conventionally attractive dirk) is more ethical or better than the alternative… you see where im coming from, right? you understand why i got so put off by this discourse, right?

im not going to debate on whether theres evidence of dirk being smug/elitist/a control freak in canon, because weve done it a hundred times already (i think there is, you think there isnt, and we both interpret exactly the same lines in wildly different ways). instead what im going to say is that posts about dirk being smug, including jades post about dirk being a stem major are, like…. jokes? they are jokes. sometimes people exaggerate characters traits for the sake of humor. like posts about rose shopping at hot topic and being a mallgoth even tho in canon all she does is wear a lot of black, or posts about jade wearing a fursuit and going to anthrocon even tho canonically shes a furry who hates fursuiting. theres definitely enough grounding for Smug Dirk for that reading to be valid (and theres enough grounding for Selfless Dirk for that reading to be valid too!) and thats why people make jokes about it

none of us are doing it because we hate dirk, i rip on him harder than anyone alive and i would fucking die for him, robbie and jade and everybody else who cracks these jokes does it because we fucking love dirk and almost always because we see ourselves in him and were being self-deprecating. we are gay (and, yes, some of are gay dudes, if that matters) and mentally ill and mean and gross and we dont take dirk seriously because we dont take ourselves seriously. that comic about jake calling dirk a dumpster and setting him on fire? was drawn by a dirkjake shipper! ive seen dozens of “i ship dirkjake but you have to admit that canonically it was abusive” posts. and yet youre trying to pin this discourse on dirkjohn people. the problem is insular, not from outside your clique; the call was coming from inside the house the whole time.

and one last note: wlw absolutely get a voice in discussions of homophobia, dude. theres a difference in how systemic homophobia affects us but accusing wlw of “talking over” you in discussions of homophobia, frankly, comes off as dismissive and tone-deaf. wlw get a say in what is homophobic and what isnt, wlw get to relate to gay male characters, and obviously this isnt a “wlw vs mlm” issue because im a gay dude and i disagree with you! youre more eager to ally yourself with self-identified cishet people who agree with you (im talking about the post you reblogged by ao3sburbanite, so as not to be accused of vagueblogging) while you accuse wlw and lesbians of homophobia (and i didnt want to make this an idpol issue since thats what i did yesterday and fucked up and hurt people but, like, youre the one accusing “wlw” of talking over you, dude).

bihexualwitch  asked:

Hey, I happened upon your blog and saw that you believe that Sherlock is trans. How come? This is the first head cannon I've heard of this and I'm truly curious about your answer. What's your thought process? Thanks!

WOW BOY okay this is my first time actually being asked this question so here we fucking go!?!??! (edit upon actually having typed this all out: HOLY FUCK; read more:)

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so after the, Discourse, i figured i might as well make this post on how to write good autistic characters for voltron fans, or any other fans for that matter, should they want to include an autistic character within fics (which you totally should btw, youve got no idea how much positive representation can do)

before you read this, bare in mind that i am One (1) autistic person, i cant talk for every single autistic person’s experiences, but i have more authority on this than allistics. so im going to putting down the basics and then if any other autistic people want to add onto this please do!

so: the ground rules for writing an autistic character

1) do not use an autistic character for shock

this is probably one of the most annoying things. you do not write in an autistic character “””coming out””” about their autism at the dinner table and having everyone go silent in the shock of it. in reality you shouldnt have to point neon signs which say “AUTISTIC!!!! OH GOSH!!!!!!!” at a character. a super good example of not needing to do this is keith! its never been verbalised that hes autistic, he didnt sit everyone down and say “guys………. i cant neurotypical  up……………….. because im not neurotypical………………………………” 

but so many people hc him as autistic! this is because his character is clearly autistic without him needing to wear a name tag saying it, and your character shouldnt need a name tag either

2) dont make autism look like something weird

this ones super important dog. youve probably walked past thousands, THOUSANDS of autistic people in your life but i can promise that you didnt point and gawk at them: because autism isnt something weird that you can pick out in a crowd. if your entire character is “hey! this is grunglesnut! hes autistic because he loves trains so much that he paints murals of them and has slips of paper with thomas the tank engine on stapled to his wall!” thats not a good character. grundlesnut can love trains without you pointing and laughing at him for it and making it sound like some creepy obsession

3) dont make autism something to feel sorry for

we are not neurotypical pity porn. what do i mean? sit down and read what you just wrote where people find out that your character is autistic.

did you make autism sound bad? 

did you make your character telling another that they are autistic about understanding one another and working to make life a bit easier for the autistic person, or did you make it sound like it was a terrible affliction? did you make autism sound like part of the person, or did you make it sound like something which makes life for their family harder?

autism is not a bad thing, in fact even if it can make life harder i love my autism because its part of who i am. i dont want to read a story where a character is on the verge of tears because they just found out that their friend has autism and now life is going to be “harder” for both of them.

4) dont just shove an autistic character in for brownie points

listen to me carefully when i say this. you might think that by putting an autistic character into your story youre being great! super cool! youre being inclusive! but bare in mind that bad representation is just as bad as no representation, if anything its worse tbh

the main thing im talking about with this is people creating ocs which are autistic specifically for a fic. this is, yes, a bit of a mine field. but im gonna give you three useful pointers to get started:

a) first impressions are everything

b) it doesnt matter how much you go into the character in later chapters, first impressions are everything

c) im not fucking joking, dont even try to lie to me and say that you dont judge people based off first impressions, First Impressions Are Everything

i dont want to read a fic that has an original character as a family member with the third line that character saying being “im autistic”, because thats not what would happen with a majority of autistic people! yes there are autistic people who are a bit more comfortable with talking to new people, but dog im 17 yrs old and i still cant talk to a majority of my family at christmas reuinion dinners, let alone tell them i have autism

heres what you do: look at the characters youre writing about. for example klance: so, SO many people already see keith as autistic. there are posts about autistic keith which actually have thousands of notes. and those arent coming out of nowhere: how keith acts in canon is what makes so many people see him as autistic. why dont you write a fic with keith in it where keith is autistic! you dont have to change how he acts, you dont have to change what he does, because hes already autistic dude!!

5) listen to what autistic people have to say

look, i dont care how many autistic brothers you have, unless you have autism yourself you need to ask about it. dont just google symptoms and look at a list and pick out what you want to use: ask autistic people how they feel about a character.

“but that will take ages!” well then dont write the character in

“but i plan to go into more detail in later chapters!” dude i will tell u first impressions are everything until the day i die

“but if i educate myself wont that be ok?” you could argue this: if you want a mediocre fic. if you arent autistic, it does not matter how much you read up on it, you dont know the first thing about living with autism. because to understand living with autism you actually have to live with autism. listen to what people are telling you: and i would recommend talking to multiple people since autism isnt black and white. it changes for everyone dude.

but, as i said, i am just one autistic person. if any other autistic people want to add onto this then please do, but understand that if you are allistic this is your time to listen to what we;re saying. im not doing this to flash my nd card and make everyone think im cool, im doing this so that we can avoid more,,,,, “Drama” in the future. its not hard to write a good autistic character: its hard to choke down your pride and ask how

anon:answer - part1

Anon ask : please do theories from jongin’s perspective ;_;

Eyy there anon-nie, sorry for the very delayed reply (actually I had written my answer earlier, but my tumblr inbox crashed /cry blood/ bc apparently my gifs+nonsensewords game is too strong)

your eyes, prepare them *dundundun*

ADDED: SORRY, I have posted it earlier/yesterday but shit happened (the gifs/picts missing mannnn) and then I had to delete it /le cry blood again/ since im such a tumblr noob

[As always, this is how I perceive things* (*things = dem kaisoo moments), I am not a professional nor qualified nor certificated nor expert of “body language and all that jazz”. i do not know these boys personally, everything is based on things* I have found/seen on internet cuz I have no life, this prob will be weird and deluded af]

Note #1: even tho this is “from jongin’s perspective” my words are written NOT on the behalf of jongin nor kyungsoo. I don’t and never will claim to speak on the behalf of either of them. This is from deluded 3rd person/outsider/stranger’s point of view.

Note #2: I am a trash and I have no shame to remind it to y’all. So if u think shipping is annoying, kaisoo is annoying, kaisoo shipper is annoying and fking deluded and loud cuz they cant control their feels and apparently they are at fault too bc many people appreciate their works (such as fanfics and fanarts etc) –

tbh how can that even be their fault? Like u mad cuz other ppl get compliments, like honestly? r u for real? Like fuck logic, yeah? And you are angry cuz we are loud here in tumblr? Loud about kaisoo on kaisoo tag? Like what? I mean what? Just… I don’t understand? I thought we r all liberals here man. I don’t know that our freedom of speech is limited here on tumblr? Then where should we speak out loud then? where should we spazz and vent out our feelings then? on the street? Yelling like an actual crazy person? I thought dictatorial communism isn’t part of internet but I guess I am wrong, of course we have to follow you oh the mighty and glorious majesty, the ruler of the internet, of course we shall seal our lips, or more like tie our fingers, to stop us worshipping our holy ship. Of course.

– anyway, if you are one of those people, skip this post. Don’t ever look at it. Forget it exists. you can leave me a hate mail and I wouldn’t care – please be creative if you do though ahaha no.

Note #3: since I feel this topic has a really wide range (since there are so many things that had happened on this ship to be discussed), so im gonna separate this answer into parts (the reason is bc I don’t want to risk any thing again since this is my 2nd attempt already and if this thing becomes too long again and then shit happens, like crashed or the image wouldn’t load bc of my noob-ish-ness, at least it wont take such amount of time for me to re-do it…),

anyway, this [PART1] will contain: jongin’s “don’t want to eat with that hyung” moment that turned into “become the closest the fastest”, to how he smiles at soo, looking, touching, ‘cute&love’ associated w/ ksoo

again im crazy dont listen to me /hurr-durr/ 

Now lets get this started; just like with soo before, Im gonna start with “I don’t want to eat with that hyung”

He looked so guilty when yeol mentioned and then yeol mentioned they [kaisoo] became the closest in exo. Im gonna be honest here, I don’t have any conspiracy theory/delulu shit to say opinion on jongin’s part/action, since this event of misunderstanding was occurred bc of ksoo’s action and I think I have explained it enough in my first post about the reason that I believe why ksoo couldn’t look at jongin

still im gonna remind y’all why I take astigmatism as such a bullshit reason, bc:

1. no other members had complained about this “he didn’t want to look at me” about soo, it’s only kai, and as far as I know the only thing that lil bit similar to this was; (in some translation notes) lay said that “i thought d.o was cold but turn out he isn’t, he is friendly” ((?) not exact words but basically that was what he said, btw this is from magazine interview, I don’t remember what magazine),

yet (IMHO) this feels very far different with jongin’s “don’t want to eat w/ that hyung”, bc even tho lay thought ksoo was cold it didn’t have that much impact on him, lay only said this as his first impression (bc he said “I thought…”, meaning that he only felt like that, right?) and he didn’t push it any further, unlike jongin who seemed to take it – ksoo’s attitude – seriously (proven by him didn’t want to eat with ksoo)… well of course I mean jongin did say ksoo didn’t want to look at him (so it makes sense?) and unlike in lay’s case, “he felt/thought [ksoo was a cold]”, in jongin’s case “he experienced it [soo didn’t want to look at him]”, do u get what am I saying? can you already feel my delulu radiates from your screen? Hm?

2. Now let’s “pretend” that astigmatism was the real reason ksoo couldn’t look at jongin. then why only jongin? I suspect ksoo must have avoided jongin(‘s eyes) often in their early/first encounters, bc it left such a deep impression (that made jongin didn’t want to go out together w/ him), if it was only one or two times ksoo didn’t look at jongin when they were talking….

(why I assume “when they were talking” while the gif[‘s sub] only said “he wouldn’t look at me”? bc jongin knew soo didn’t look at him, meaning he looked at soo while soo doing this [avoiding his eyes/face], then why he looked at soo when soo did this? why he found soo’s action was rude? at that time they just barely met, if soo was idle or busy doing his own things, ofc jongin wouldn’t find it rude for soo not look at him. thus it makes sense to conclude that soo didn’t look at jongin when they were talking),

…then jongin wouldn’t have such an impression about soo (bc if its just once or twice, you wouldn’t think about it right? You prob wouldn’t make a big a deal about something that happened for once or twice that involves someone you just met, but jongin had such impression about soo, meaning this had happened quite a lot/in repetitive pattern for him to notice and took it inside his heart/mind).

I’m not that knowledgeable about astigmatism but what I know is this eyes condition mainly causing your vision to be distorted and blurred, so based on these two major symptoms, (imo) it doesn’t make sense that astigmatism caused soo couldn’t look at jongin’s properly while they were talking…. (if jongin said “ksoo stared at me a lot when we’re talking” or “ksoo often squinted his eyes when he talked to me” etc etc… then it would match [more fit/appropriate] with ksoo’s eyes condition, instead of “he [ksoo] didn’t want to look at me. i thought he was in bad mood…” being paired with “bc ksoo has astigmatism”, imo it doesn’t fit at all….but prob just me idk IM A TRASH OKAY, A BIASED TRASH, don’t listen to me)

And after this “didn’t want to eat w/ that hyung” incident happened and solved they became the closest. I cant make any speculation/delulu theory about how they made up, bc until this day there is no interview about it nor any other members *coughchanyeolcoughcough* blabber about it, so I assume that how the way they solved this misunderstanding is only exclusive for them to know (perhaps someone outside exo knows or maybe other members know, but like I have said before that maybe there is some sort of unspoken rules for certain things between other members…)

I suspect that this misunderstanding was solved w/ jongin as the initiator bc i had mentioned jongin is a blunt person (as it had been said by some members in a radio interview)  even tho he is quite reserved like ksoo in my prev post, 

so MAYBE he asked soo why soo avoiding to look at him or MAYBE this thing was resolved bc they were being paired in the same room in the dorm and sooner or later soo had to look at jongin (soo couldn’t avoid him forever) and then bam they became closer; prob bc they have same interests? Like movie, anime/cartoon; pororo, prince of tennis, one piece: [jongin’s phone stickers, soo imitated franky on the stage when exo in japan], jongin’s ‘crayon/pencil shincan’ sticker on his phone case… (I sound so creepy rn… don’t judge me mmkay, I gained this information once upon a time when I was browsing tumblr at 2 AM. my brain decided to burn this info inside my memory…) MAYBE is the key-word cuz I don’t know shit okay, im deluded af

I mean MAYBE, I am all wrong here, maybe all the things i have written are bunch of crazy bullshit, maybe we are all wrong here, and need to visit the asylum for seeing things, bc they could be just a pair of mere co-workers, nothing beyond that, it could be just how S.Korean men do skinship to show the over-flowing cares and attentions they have to each other inside their beautiful, blooming and wonderful friendship. what do I know anyway I’m just an uncultured ignorant swine

something interesting also happens between the members bc of this “don’t wanna eat w/ that hyung” incident bc they like to make fun of jongin about this matter, like why? why the other members love to rub this incident on jongin’s face? do they think this incident as something special, is it bc this thing is so ironic since now kaisoo is the closest? But don’t you think it’s a lil bit too much, I mean IF kaisoo just a pair of regular friends then why other members try that hard to remind jongin of his awkward misunderstanding about his closest hyung in front of the camera? Why do they enjoy it so much to put jongin in such flustered condition? Why?

I just love how chanyeol threw that topic, again, twice.

I mean look at him, his smile was so full of guilty… and the smile only lasted for few seconds…

“cant look bc of astigmatism”…  later on this guy stretched himself on top of jongin without blinking

Now lets move on from ‘don’t wanna eat with that hyung’ to ‘become the closest members’, as you may have known, after a while yeol moved in kaisoo’s room, in radio interview (I don’t have the link, nor I have watched it, I only saw the gifs or was it translation notes? Idr…) yeol said that kai always locks the bathroom door when he takes shower (I assume that each room in the dorm has its own bathroom, since if yeol was talking about shared bathroom, then why he mentioned this habit of kai few weeks later after he moved in with kaisoo then? why he didn’t notice this habit and then blabber it sooner before he moved in? hence I think he was talking about kai’s habit in their shared bedroom’s bathroom),

(Okay thanks to the anon who told me before, I watched the video again, so basically the lady asked kai (for dancing in the shower) bc D.O mentioned it first. It was around the minutes 35-ish. Exo Sina Interview.)

 the gifs above telling us that ksoo walked in when jongin was taking shower (and dancing too), why he didn’t lock the door when (as far as I know at that time) he and soo shared bedroom only for 2 of them? Hmmmm? yeah there is probability his habit of locking the bathroom door started bc of this event, BUT when he mentioned about D.O saw him, he didnt look, uncomfortable? ashamed? he giggled… like “lol hyung saw me”, so it makes me doubt he starts the locking bathroom door thingy bc of this BUT HEY THIS IS PERHAPS JUST ME SEEING THINGS FROM DELUSHIT EYES

Look at him changing his shoulders stance and then threw a damn smirk at the end. He was in ‘guarded’ position – his arms were placed in front of his body (according to some articles that I have read, if a person lying they would put something as a barrier; it could be their arms, purse, a cup, etc, between them and the other person / interviewer), so hommie aint lying about their pororo ritual bc he ‘unguarded’ as soon as he mentioned “me and kyungsoo…” (again this is just how I see things, also notice he gulped first before he spoke, his cheeks/jaw tensed and then his corner lips tugged up too. Before he spoke he was in hunched position, when he spoke he moved his upper torso, leaning it forward, like in “attacking” stance? Like um, proud of the words that flow out his mouth? IDK IM CRAZY YO PERHAPS JUST OVERNANALYZING THINGS

Many others (including me) have notice he often has a proud expression when he talks about ksoo (or when other praises soo, like when suho talked about ‘chart’, or when ksoo sings), and that damn smirk he gave after he said “[we] watch pororo together” was like a mocking? Idk like ‘bitch me and soo have special ritual and u don’t how sad ur life is /laughs/’. idk maybe this is just me ;__; /save me from this delusional state/

Also speaking of pororo I heard that jongin bought his niece a bucket of flower and a pororo doll /cue to scream like banshee/, the anon (not my anon btw, it was kyungsoosbumhole’s anon who said this) speculated that the reason jongin brought 2 gifts bc one of them from ksoo? Idk if it’s true but even tho im not sure but just thinking about it makes me giddily happy  

And I know this is about jongin now, but look at soo when jongin said soo was the tidiest and soo fucking bit his lips cuz he was so fucking giddy like “omigash jongin praises me AFHGSFDHLG” 

soo fucking folded jongin’s shirt and when he got praised by jongin he looked so giddily happy and it seems he only does this to jongin bc no other members said about this (like for ex other would say ‘yeah he folded mine too! He is so tidy!’, but no one did so)… again just jongin… /groan happily/

i’ve heard that soo helps around the dorm, I heard he cooks (the manager said he does this often on weekend, suho also said that ksoo helped him in the dorm – something involving cooking while if its cleaning, xiumin will handle it), he even wiped luhan’s sweat, he tied tao’s shoelaces and he helped yeol often too (with his mic, outfit, etc)

but when he does it to jongin, it’s different? I mean he blew jongin’s mic for fuck sake and always there to fuss over about jongin (jongin’s mic – the one that being hold and the one that being glued on their face/cheek, non-existent eyelashes, water bottles, clothes, etc), its like jongin gets special treatment,

also folding shirt is quite personal don’t cha think? like usually people would just nag and throw the shirt somewhere else if their just-platonic-hommie-bro-roommate being a pig, …or the hommies would be ‘like nah man just move it somewhere else I’ll deal with it later’, perhaps ‘they would say thanks dude for folding my shirt’ but will they show it off later to the world? Like ‘hey you know what? My hommie folded my shirt yesterday! He is so neat! … and also very cute and also he makes me want to coddle him, and he makes me smile all the time idk he’s just very cute, and his lips look so plushy too, I want to touch them while I feed them sweet, but you know, of course in the most heterosexual way… #no homo’

and this might sound sexist (I know this does NOT apply to ALL, so sorry in advance boys) but it’s rare for boys do this, especially do this for another boy’s sake; unless they are really really really close like so close they did eskimo kiss on the stage… and don’t give me, OMIGOSH ITS JUST ABOUT THE ANGLE OF THE CAMERA, bc no, man, no, they were standing straight right in the front of camera – if baek and jonghyun didn’t stand in front of them, we could see them clearly – so, what angle? Like what is this angle do you speak of? Is this angle the same creature as kim jongin’s non-existent fallen eyelashes that do kyungsoo picked off his cheek? I mean if its from the side, sure, but straight in front of camera? and they also pressed their cheeks together after that eskimo kiss, is that the magic of camera’s angle again??  Sure, hon),

ofc this is just camera’s angle playing trick to us

another version


there are many other moments about jongin showing off his love  uh-pardon me—i mean his very platonic best friend :)  soo to the world (or more like stage, just look how often he points soo when soo is singing) or showing off how close they are (like that “we watch pororo together”, “we created fake cinema, JUST THE TWO OF US, with popcorn too”, “he saw me dancing naked”, “I dun call him hyung cuz we’re close”, “he is not quiet you have to know how to approach him” etc…), it would make me write a damn book with sequel too if I decided to discuss about all of them moments, cuz there are so many…

now lets move on to how jongin always associate ksoo with cute, heart, and love… tbh I would like to simply just say ‘hommie is so whipped af’, but I think the asking anon wouldn’t be satisfied if I only answer with that

so again, IMO, It seems that jongin really adores ksoo,  bc the constant “cute” and “love” he keeps associate with soo seem sincere, I don’t believe this is part of fanservice… like when he chose that s.e.s – love song for soo, too subtle to be fanservice and when he called soo cute (when baek said soo looked dumb) he looked startled ((?) like ‘oh shit’) when he realized that there was a camera, or that “hyung should take care of his voice, I’m worried, I love you”, he looked really sincere when he said this, but what do I know I’m just a fucking trash

he mouthed gwi yeo weo  귀여워 , which means ‘you’re cute’, right?

yeol and luhan hesitated but jongin immediately pointed at soo

lol hyung so funny

look at jongin stopped smiling as soon as baek looked at his direction (and baek had his mouth clamped when he saw jongin muttered cute) 

in the video he didnt even laugh/grin when he said this, his face just straight (and then he dropped the paper and that was it)

Mind you that he said “i’ll only give you an unchanging love” instead of S.E.S – love (bc it was supposed to be a clue, I guess, so he couldn’t say the song’s title)

his name wasn’t even mentioned by soo yet people know it was him who wrote this bc;

1. He had said this to soo before and had associated the word love with soo before (showtime),

2. He grinned happily and had expecting eyes looking at soo when soo read the poem,

3. Soo didn’t mention any name and immediately talking about chanyeol’s poem, even tho the host said “ah the member who wrote this must be lovable/precious”, if it was nothing for soo, soo would tell  who was the one who wrote it [read out loud the writers name] after the host mentioned those words, but he didn’t. why?

The point is jongin never cracked a mocking grin or made an awkward face when he declared his love, he either said it seriously or he grinned happily (when soo read oranghae poem) and for the “cute part”, I think it’s obvious enough for us to see that kim jongin finds do kyungsoo cute. Maybe this is just me being a trash biased, but imo jongin looks at soo with so much adoration in his eyes /cry cuz it’s so beautiful/ and don’t give me that OMIGOSH JONGIN LOOKS AT EVRY1 LIEK THAT bc fuck no. has he ever followed the other members’ movement w/ his eyes like this?

Or has he ever turned around 180o so he could look at other members?

has he ever been immediately snapping his neck just to see them speaking? (look at his neck/nape/shoulders twitched when soo began talking)

idk this is prob bc im deluded af but near the end i see his neck/jaw twitched before he turned around to face soo, as if he already wanted to turn around but refrain to do so since he was still talking to suho

chanyeol talked again but he still looked at ksoo

has he ever ignoring ksoo’s speech so he could look at other members like this?

baek singing but nini still stared at soo

soo only spke 2 words, i remember watching this video, and i think soo said “thank you”, kris was speaking bc they were interviewed in english, anyway soo only spoke 2 words then kris continued speaking again and jongin still has his eyes at him

suho spoke, baek was in his own world, yeol stare at the cameraman’s soul while kaisoo stared at each other, look at soo gulping, he looked at jongin and then his orbs darted down and the corners of his lips twitch

Also I have seen in YT where ksoo beatboxing and sehun danced, jongin looked at sehun BUT he didn’t smile, yet we have seen jongin smiled when soo dances in front of him

near the end of the gif, he tilted his head to soo’s direction and then smiled

near the end, his body already wanted to move to the left (our left) to do hip-thrust, but his head still in ksoo’s butt direction

there is nothing to be pointed out bc clearly his eyes were checking out his bae soo

Talk about smiling, maybe this is bc im so fking deluded and biased trash but I notice that whenever jongin laughs, he often turns his head to soo, like he wants to see soo when he’s laughing, just check on pepero commercial for example and there are also gifs 

it was soo on the bottom, and tell me right in the eyes that he didnt stare at soo and smiled )later on he got distracted bc suho got up)

why he didnt just smile at yeol instead, and i notice lay (i think) spoke too, why only smiled at soo’s talking? HMMMM?

he stared for a bit, turned around but then soo started laughing (snorted) and he turned his head again to face soo and then grinned

And like before, I have read some articles about if someone turns their head to [face] another person when they’re laughing/smiling basically meaning that they want to share their happiness to that person, and also it indicates that person as the source of their happiness/joy/good feeling/etc – hence that’s why they want to look at that person when they’re smiling/laughing, unconsciously hoping that their smile/laugh will become contagious to that person. Plus I heard smiling is one of the signs of attraction…



lets move on to touching,

first I would like to point on how they always do this naturally, and it makes me thinking perhaps it’s a habit? And we have seen how they often do this backstage (when they aren’t performing, when there is no fangirl to be satisfied with “opparr playful gheiness”);

he could just tap soo’s clothed arm/bicep and then told soo to move closer, but noooo he decided to grabbed soo’s bare hand instead

pulled off soo’s hoodies then rubbed soo’s shoulder

he stared at soo and then moved his head closer (look at him treated soo like a puppy (honestly the way he stares/acts at soo remind me of how someone would stare at their kids/puppies/kittens/lovedones/cutestuffs, like awwwing, but idk CUZ IM DELULU TRASH)

/grab soo’s arm and dragged soo closer/ i wonder what xiumin thought

compared to chen, he only nudged chen lightly ‘OMG HYUNG THIS HAND’S MOVEMET IS SO FUUNNYY AHAHAAHASGHKHDK’

first pict, look at him grabbed soo’s arm

he dragged soo to be closer with him, and i notice there was a lady there, so either he wanted to speak/whisper to soo (but soo’s mouth aint moving tho, it could be he just whispered) or he didnt want to soo to get close to that lady

Second, how they touch these so called intimate area or erogenous zone

soo looked at camera and also rubbed nini’s hand

then arm rubbing stopped, jongin rubbed soo’s knee (bc soo’s arm looked free now/off jongins hand/ behind the bottles), broship much

soo moved back when he noticed there was a camera

sliding from nape to throat

why jongin ducked his head when soo stared at him, was he shy? jfc nini u had ur hand on his neck, u practically manhandled soo to stand closer yet u got shy when he stared at you? that male host tho

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jongin moved his leg so their knees touched, also it seems his leg placed under soo’s leg/calf

Anyway neck is one of the erogenous area, you could trigger a wet/bonner/both moment if someone caressed ur neck, or u prob will feel ticklish , or both (horny+ticklish) but soo doesn’t react about this, as if jongin is used to do this to him (and lemme remind u when chen and tao tried to touch him – on his thigh – he removed their arms, but when jongin did it, he didn’t. jongin put his palm on his neck, bare neck. Don’t u think bare neck is more sensitive than clothed thigh? and not just bare neck, but the front part – the soft and vulnerable part – of his neck, not his nape (bc I notice some ahjussi would put their arm on some youngster’s [clothed] nape or other members would do this to him too/each other)

Sure this can be seen as something playful (bc once upon a time when I was in HS, some guys did this as a type of joke – they would ewwwwww-ing and then laughing like a llama after they did it)

But this? THIS? most ppl would flinch/back away like “dude the fuck r u doing?” as soon as they see their mate’s hand flying directly to their crotch, but soo didn’t. he just stood there, as if it is NOT something surprising for jongin to do.. hmmmmmm.. and don’t give me that’s how S.Korean men skinship works bullshit /HONESTLY?/

Speaking of zipper, I also have something to say about this… this shit has been bugging me for a long time;

am I the only one who think that jongin was talking about soo’s belt? (bc I have seen this gif set couple of times in this site, yet the caption is always about “what do you mean jongin?” or “what?” etc) and what I mean belt is not the seat belt, but the belt around the waist, the belt that you wear on your pants.

jongin mentioned about soo’s baggy pants, meaning soo wears belt so his pants won’t drop (cuz it’s so baggy/lose yo), but why would jongin mention such thing then? it makes sense to wear a belt if your jeans/outdoor pants lose, so it makes me thinking that the “baggy pants” he mentioned was indoor pants, like sweat pants/hip-hop-pants/soft-clothed-material-pants, and then the belt perhaps the cloth-rope that usually loops inside part of the waist (hope I explain this correctly, me no speak English as firsteu language yo), cuz usually ppl would just wear the pants without giving a shit about that cloth-rope but perhaps soo adjusts and ties it around his waist? Idk

but my point is, does that mean jongin often sees ksoo wears pants? They shared a bedroom tgther, so yeah it’s not that big deal, it’s common, but then doesn’t that mean jongin not only just sees but pays attention to soo when soo puts his attire – especially his pants – since jongin was able to burn soo’s little quirkiness inside his memory and then unconsciously blurted it out to yeol + camera. And on the 3rd gif soo immediately froze and stopped looking at camera (he looked at yeol instead) and on 4th gif jongin was eyeing ksoo then he laughed it off like ‘nvm dude’ when yeol asked him “what?”

Now lets move on how they comfort/take care of each other, it seems that ksoo showing his care more behind the closed door/inside the dorm… 

(for ex folding his shirt, cooking, remember when he mentioned jongin couldn’t cook, or in exo showtime jongin said I expected more than this when he ate that burnt meat that was cooked for soo (does that mean he often taste delicious foods made by soo then if he commented like that?) or when jongin praised soo’s cooking in EXO ASK BOX –

– ugh speaking of EXO ASK BOX i just rewatched it bc of writing this, and I just love it when yeol answered that D.O as the member that he likes to prank but always fail (bc ksoo ignores yeol’s pranks) and then jongin was like ‘bruh I got this’ and then explained everything about how and why (ksoo ignores yeol) and then when chanyeol got question about ‘which movie u would like play/star in?’ sehun answered “horror” and then baek made fun of ksoo saying “horror kyungsoo” and then ksoo was like “this isn’t about me! it’s about chanyeol!” and other members made fun of him and then ksoo went to torture baek (which he didn’t do bc he went back to his seat again) and baek was like “I thought this is about you” and then others laughed and jongin immediately cut in “it’s horror for chanyeol too” like whaaaaat?

Did he just defend his baby? Or this is me just seeing delulu shit, bc I interpret “it’s horror for chanyeol too” as a form of defending soo bc ‘soo in horror = joke’, so he put yeol in horror too to equalize the joke/mock, and after he cut in the joke faded away and yeol was like “yeah it’s horror for me”,

also jongin laughed when baek joked “I heard you took cooking class” to soo, suho snorted while yeol and sehun were smiling a little, he was the only one laughed ‘HAHAHA’, it was short but loud like other members didn’t find it that funny –

– back to cooking thingy, when baek said “d.o makes good spaghetti” then jongin quickly added “he makes great kimchi too” like he wants to show it’s not only baek who knows about soo’s best dishes but he knows that too (PROB JUST MEANT NOTHING THO… im just a trash anyway),

… while jongin often shows it on stage/public – not in fanservicely manner – like he would put his arm around soo when soo nervous

their heads touched

Or when he defended soo

all other members sans yixing and jongin wanted to hit soo, yixing had his reason, bc he was told to heal soo later with his “power”, what was jongin’s reason for not wanting to hit soo?

Or answered for soo

soo was like “um…”

then after jongin answered for him, soo nodded and was like “ah yes that’s my unique trait”

Or when soo got embarrassed he went to jongin even tho yixing was right between them

Or when jongin asked soo instead of yixing

Or dis

lol trolled by baek

Or when jongin encouraged soo to step forward or “promoting” soo

/hides behind jongin/

“no my love, dont hide, stand beside me”

Now lets move on to his stare, above, I have mentioned why I feel his stare for soo is different (full of adoration and all that fairy tale bullshit /im a bitter person/) from the way he stares other members, and how often he gets caught staring at soo FOR NO REASON (while w/ other members, he stares at them when they speak/perform/etc) but with soo, he just STARES even tho soo doesn’t do shit (like other members are talking/giving speech but jongin stares at soo instead).

tell me right in the eye he didnt just look at the mirror to see soo’s butt reflection (while sehun looked at soo bowing instead)

he looked at soo biting the sandwich (?) and then he blinked and flicked his eyes on the right (not on soo anymore), also look at his arm, very subtle there mr.kim

Again perhaps this is me being biased deranged trash but I see kim jongin stares at do kyungsoo’s lips like he wants to kiss the fuck out of that man’s heart shaped lips

[zoom this shit if u dont believe me] sure this gif is SLOWED, but it didnt hide the fact that jongin flicked his eyes to soo’s lips then. meaning he did look at soo’s lips, also if this once/twice happened and got caught on camera, what makes you think that he doesnt do this off camera? and has he ever done this before to someone?

Sometimes you look at someone’s lips when that someone talks to make it sound clearer (according to some science program on BBC idk I don’t remember whats that show’s name), your brain connects your hearing sense with seeing sense, thus the brain will be able to retrieve more information and digest it so the result will be much more defined / clear. (in simple explanation : people talk - -> you hear = good brain reception; people talk - -> you hear + you see them lips moving so fine = better brain reception)

Also it had been said that if you’re engaged in interesting conversation you would stare at that person’s face (not only their eyes, but their entire face). does that mean jongin and ksoo often engage in such interesting conversation (I often see how other members cant get inside their bubble)? also does that mean jongin really wants to hear ksoo’s words, like he doesn’t even want to miss a single word? 

or was it bc he is intrigued by soo’s lips and makes him to want to kiss dem plushy  (remember he was the one who answered “heart shaped lips” as soo’s unique feature, while in showtime baek chose “wide-white-part-of-the-eyes” as soo’s unique trait), and I’ve heard somewhere u would often stare at your crush’ lips (idk if this is true tho), not necessarily u want to kiss them, but bc someone’s mouth often moves a lot (wetting their lips, smiling, talking etc), so when u stare at ur crush face u often will focus ur stare on their lips (beside their eyes too)… but idk

I think that’s it, I cut it and made it shorter than before – some parts that were originally here aren’t here anymore – I would add them later in the next part.

Once again, sorry for the very late reply dear anon; reasons: motherfuckingassignment, inbox crashed in the middle of answering /le cry blood/, my kaisoo stash folder is really fucked up and un-organized its very hard for me to find the appropriate gifs/picts, my nooby skill is over 9999 and I managed to fuck up and deleted the already posted/answered ask—which is yours anon—/le cry blood 2x/ bc the picts+gifs wouldnt load after that so i thought it better to delete and re-post (SORRY DUDES and DUDETTES)

And for the anons that had asked me about jelly!kaisoo, ill merge them together with the next part of this post

[below this is purely my 2 cents, there is no “theory” anymore, skip it if you prefer it]

kaisoo have become SO obvious it hurts I think my “theories” aren’t needed anymore? (and somehow calling it theory makes it sound snobbish and scientific, that’s why I always put this [“”] sign between them, to make it not to be taken seriously, just take this as the usual stuffs you found on the internet, like that quote : everything’s on internet is true – Abraham Lincoln )

I feel I don’t have to explain shit anymore since it’s already there in front of our eyes, ksoo practically kissing jongin’s ear on stage, I cant believe if someone still doubting them? like “I think soo and kai have something going on… but but im not sure, they could be just friends… friends as in platonic, I’m not sure… I ship them though, romantically, but im not sure

do your friend eskimo kiss you? do your friend kiss your earlobe? do your friend caress ur throat/thigh/ear? do your friend occasionally touch your lips? do your friend stare the fuck out of you like they want to kiss you, fuck you, and coddle you? do your friend get jealous if you speaking/being close w/ someone else? if they do, then lets have a moment for out fallen brother/sister in the friend zone… I mean how could you still be in gray area? after all this time – all these recent moments? how? does ksoo need to stick his tongue inside jongin’s earhole to erase those clouds of doubts of yours? his lips on jongin’s ear is not enough for you?

oh btw soo’s lips on jongin’s ears is not the work of glory magical camera’s angle, okay? have you seen how many fans posted the picts from different angles?

from jongin’s back (why yeol judging them?)

here from different angle, sure soo’s lips didnt touch the ear cuz of timing but it doesnt hide the fact that his nose tip did touch jongin’s ear, It’s either soo’s lips or soo’s nose that touched nini’s ear, so what now? wheres your god camera’s angle now?

“yixing is busy talking, this is my chance!”  /goes to jongin to kiss whisper to him/

jongin was like “huh?”  bc in the first gif he was busy feeling soo’s lips/nose on his ear instead of listening soo’s whisper

and it’s not like jongin is any different, (this was when they were in japan, if im not wrong)

the work of perfect camera angle. sure.

sorry for my rudeness, but in case u don’t know this answer also being posted as a retaliation post, (I know some ppl who come to this tag to have fun but then when they see somebody talks shit and burst their bubble, it would leave a sour taste in their mouth man, not everyone have blessed life, perhaps they have shit going on in their life and escaping to this side of internet gives them giggles, so please stop giving us hate/self doubt),

me lurking kaisoo tag just to have some fun but then there will be a post saying shit about thing that I adore so badly (the post had mentioned about “its not just kaisoo shippers who are talented” too. wut? jelly much? our fandom has many good fanfics, I know.. i know..),

and often posts/messages like this would be added with “…don’t ship too seriously. you’ll get hurt later”, like do you think we don’t know that? do you think we don’t know it’s risky for betting our feels on the idea of two guys – that we don’t even know how their real personas/personalities are, who live far away from (some of) us, who see us as another number of views in YT or sales in music store – being together and in love for real? do you think we are that dumb? we know it but we still do it cuz it’s fun… cuz it gives us feels to spazz over, cant u just let us be crazy in our little world?

Idk where this hate comes from, bc I see kaisoo shippers all about kaisoo~kaisoo~kaisoo~, they rarely complain about other ships (they even rarely bat an eyelashes to other ship, sure other exo ship, but that’s it, “yay ot12!”, etc no hate whatsoever). Sure we can be loud and be like “OMGKAISOOSOREAL”, ‘#realestshipever’, “why u don’t ship kaisoo? What hurt u in the past?” or posting ‘this kind of post’ for exmpl (in my defense I have said the warnings about me being deluded trash etc), 

so yeah I understand that we can come out as annoying,  but these things only exist on this tag, of course there are will be people that cruise this ship or even helicarrier it, so why even bother? why don’t just avoid kaisoo tag or unfollow ppl that post/reblog kaisoo, for your convenient sake. So much simpler than writing a rant and then get many random anon messages or being attacked passive-aggressively by a trash blog, yeah?  

(uggggghhh im sorry im very rude but this thing just makes my fingers itchy to write a rant)

I have seen a lot about SM ships KaiSoo and there are some who aren’t really fond of this idea, bc then their “realness” will be gone. Tbh, SM has my blessing to ship kaisoo, sail it SM, fucking cruise it, makes it fly to the moon, why? then kaisoo don’t have to play cat and mouse anymore, they could practically making out on the stage and ppl would buy “oppar just do fanservice!!1!” this is better than “covering them”,

I mean with recent incidents, the company couldn’t afford anymore scandal (or could they? perhaps they could still give us “surprise motherfucker” moments). anyway, as vulgar as it will sound, this group is their main ‘money milking tool’ right now. so I guess them playing along with this ship is more beneficial, since 1. It’s a trending, it attracts ppl, there are ppl who ship them first then get dragged along and drowned in exo world, casual fans bcme hardcore  = actually spending money than spazzing over them on internet since they are now tied/attached emotionally, 2. also: less works, less shit to deal with, less money to be thrown. It’s simpler and easy, 3. Both parties are happy (fans = nonshipper – don’t have to get jelly cuz oppar still single, shipper – YEAH BISH OUR SHIP RULES, nongiveafucker = meh, they can date whomever they want as long no other member will be out anymore; while the company = yay money! yay getting support to fight another company! *coughYcoughGcoughcough* yay popularity – gets aided by big/major brand *coughSAMcoughSUNGcough*)  

it’s indeed such a low and shitty move (how dare them play w/ our maidens feels??), but if SM values kaisoo’s interaction and see it as money maker, at least the pair will be given support, right? (yay for a “shield-card”) even tho I think SM doesn’t have the balls to push kaisoo that far… but we shall see it later. We shall see.

it’s fun and game until you realize how easy they could lift and stomp your feeling like snapping fingers.

Again you may feel that I’m talking like kaisoo is real and in relationship already, bc that’s how I FEEL (IM FUCKING DELUDED TRASH WHAT DO YOU EXPECT) 

A.N: I want to take a moment to thank to whomever up there for blessing this year with many “intense” kaisoo moments; aggressive soo + gentle nini.

fucking bless.


As always, sorry for my rudeness and my mistakes (wrong grammar, mistyped words/names, profanities, delulu shit). Bye /get swallowed by earth/

ok so by request heres some more mentally ill newsies fam headcanons (a bit of an extension on this post) and before we begin, since there was some confusion last time, im mentally ill and this isnt romanticization, it’s a coping mech. enjoy. tw dissociation, past child abuse, disordered eating, self destructive behavior, homophobia

  • speaking of coping mechs, betting is racetrack’s lmao it gives him a sense of control over his money and habits and stuff like that even tho realistically hes got less control over it than he used to back when his parents used to take nearly everything he made, before he ran away
  • if he doesnt get to go down to the races at least a couple times a week he starts getting real anxious and twitchy and snappy so even though sheepshead is technically brooklyn, both jack and spot let him sell over there
  • jack’s super tactile because it’s really grounding for him & makes him feel connected and present. like just laying a hand on davey’s shoulder or putting his legs in someone’s lap while theyre just chillin helps him remember that he’s u know..a real person. in a real place. and not just lost in his head or whatever
  • he hated the refuge for a lot of reasons but one of the biggest is that snyder used to isolate him and keep him away from the other kids bc he was such a troublemaker so he literally had no way of grounding himself and it was distressing and scary and bad and he dissociated a lot because of it
  • a lot of the guys have weird relationships with food bc they dont get a lot of it so sometimes they get to a point where theyre just..forgetting to buy food. it happens to the older ones a lot bc theyre, u kno, saving their money for an apartment in a couple years, or a new pair of shoes for the smallest newsie, or a jacket for winter. and food becomes sidelined
  • usually tho they all make a habit of checking in and being like, dude did you eat today?? well did you eat yesterday then?? no? ok we’re getting something now. theyre all a little fucked up but they care about each other so theyve all got someone watching their backs
  • davey kinda feels like he’s invading this family space at first and he tries not to be intrusive or assume anything and he doesnt realize how much everyone actually cares about him until he doesnt sell for two days bc hes sick and wakes up in the middle of the night the second day to like ten newsies on his fire escape trying to figure out if hes ok
  • comfort objects….most of them have one or two…jack’s got a book about santa fe that he knows by heart and also his sketchbook, spot’s got his cane, boots has his marbles (haha)
  • theres…a lot of self destructive behavior that goes on. like, nobodys gonna stop any newsie from really doing anything or going anywhere unless its a turf problem so theyre free to do really ill advised things that they know will make them feel shitty bc. they just want to
  • not everyone makes a habit of it obviously but like. yeah. jack hangs around near the refuge sometimes just to hate it more and sometimes spot sees his family on the street and follows them around for a bit because fuck them ok he’s the king of brooklyn and he can do what he wants. hes not the same 12 yr old they kicked out for liking boys. and who cares if just seeing their faces makes him want to throw up
  • they monitor the headlines for each other in an attempt at a trigger warning for the guys who might be set off by something in the paper. thats why jack and race and the older guys always get their papers first so they can scan it and like if some woman was found murdered in an alley and they know that the newest kids dad died in a similar way, they can warn them not to look at that article
  • sometimes theyre not fast enough to warn the person though or sometimes they accidentally get triggered themselves and those are really bad days bc you cant really sell while youre having a panic attack. and usually the person will have already bought their papes, too, so every divvys them up and sells em and gives the money to the guy at the end of the day bc it’s not his fault
  • after crutchie gets out of the refuge he and jack talk about it a lot in private and just like. get it all out. bc its a fresh trauma for crutchie and an old one for jack that hes never been able to properly talk about bc nobody gets it, but now crutchie does get it. and it really helps the two of them to heal and feel better about the whole thing
  • theyre all definitely a family with a really good support system and i know ive been focusing on the manhattan newsies with a couple references to spot but trust me its very similar in brooklyn and the other boroughs bc theyre all in kind of a sinking boat together you know
  • the separate boroughs start working together a lot close since the rally and the union got formed obviously and everyone kinda figures out theyve been doing the same sorts of coping mechs and behaviors and building the same kind of support systems entirely separate from each other
  • theyre all a union, the newsboys union, and theyve always been acting like one

anonymous asked:

Why is h//ang the foo/ l trash?

okay, so, i want to be clear here: im a fanfic writer myself. i havent posted much for this fandom, but i DO write, and i know how hard it can be. so take me seriously when i say that i really dont like shitting on other authors, but this mess really is inexcusable. im gonna explain, but THIS link right here will also help a lot for anyone reading this. if you want to start from the beginning you can add a /chrono to the end of the link. also this is going to be stupid long because ive held this in for awhile so. readmore.

Keep reading

warning for artists!

So, there are a few lil teeny boppers who are taking temper tantrums for being called out on reposting and being highly disrespectful to artists who have politely asked for them to remove their repost. There are multiple screenshots going around twitter right now as that is where it has been taking place. They also misuse triggers, try to make light of misogyny and anxiety and also extremely ableist by using autism and r*tard as insults. They have been ganging up on artists who have tried to stand up to them and actually search up tweets because they are really sad individuals. I suggest not responding to them as I have tried that in the most calm way I could but it did not seem to get through to their heads so I suggest for artists just to straight up block them, since they think if they can see art, they are entitled to repost, so blocking them means they cannot see it then. I have receipts but as I said, it isn’t worth screenshotting stuff as there are plenty going about from other artists who have been blatantly disrespected and harassed just for wanting to be respected for the stuff they create.  

The usernames are as follows: @ geekassnerd , @ MauriTheKiller, @ kittensock_,  @ TokyoSexPolice and @ DrWednesday

There are more so please do be careful of that social circle if you are an artist! They already tried to have a go at me so I am not too bothered about posting this as if they were respectful in the first place, it wouldn’t have happened and I wouldn’t need to make a post at all. They will probably vague you in their tweets and quote and rt just to make fun of what you are saying even though you are in the right so just block them!

Please tell any of your artist friends if they draw fanart, particularly if they draw mystic messenger stuff! 

callout for bon enoshimo


previously/also known as:


probably some others i dont know

alright to start off- i know bon has stated not to publically call her out but all the issues i’m going to talk about have been brought to her attention and she refuses to even listen much less apologize for them (that ive seen, if she has in fact apologized for anything here let me know). 

shes even ignored anons (i know because i’ve sent some) about issues or answered in the format of a post without the ask (’@anon i really dont want to talk about that because of drama it will cause’ ((not a direct/actual quote, just an example)) ) which is often used by people as a way to avoid drama/being called out because no one will know what the ask said and therefore wont know about the persons shitty behavior. 

bon also usually deletes drama off her blog shortly after it happens, purposefully making it very hard to hold her accountable for things she says as theres no proof directly on her blog.

so i feel its important to let people know about stuff shes done thats not okay since she wont see that its wrong and wont apologize. she wont be civil about it and right her wrongs and people have a right to know. so here we go

also i’ve never written a formal callout before so if this sucks im sorry lol

getting onto the actual callout. its pretty long, so there is a tl;dr at the end. but please, if you can, read the whole thing. its important and provides a lot of evidence. also all the images are transcribed.  

topics/tws: racism, ableism, guilt tripping, manipulation

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Kiss me cause you can

Fandom: Haikyuu!!

Pairing: Iwaoi

Summary: “What did you just say?,” Iwaizumi asked, his eyes widening as the fear grew and turned cold and heavy in his chest.

“I just dared you,” Yahaba said offhandedly, like he was commenting on the weather, “to kiss Oikawa-san, Iwaizumi-san.”

A/N: I was surprised by the number of people that wanted an iwaoi continuation of that one kyouhaba kissing booth fic so here it is! Iwaoi is a pairing I’m not too confident about, but I hope you enjoy! *nervous sweating*

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as promised: the fetishism callout post!

let me just begin by saying there's nothing wrong with finding any of the cast members attractive. this is an EXTREMELY attractive cast. everyone is so FINE I bet even the folks backstage who we don't see are gorgeous. Its okay to be sexually attracted to them too! We've all made posts professing our love to the cast, which is perfectly fine!! Right now you're looking at Leslie Odom Jr's fiancé! we good!!

but ya see there's a big difference between "anthony ramos is my sweet freckled child <333" and "I want anthony to shove his #thicc cock inside of me and ten other cast members at the same time but also freckles uwu"

You see the difference right?? Right??????

I don't have anything against writing smut about the characters (who, yes, are technically real people but they've been dead for literal centuries ok. Let it go) but it just gets weird REEAAAAL fast when u say the same thing about musical!John Laurens and the real live human being Anthony Ramos. It gets even weirder when u talk about the cast members in this way in relations to each other??? Shipping real people in a serious, unironic way is just a lil :/// to me (I say "serious, unironic way" bc I do write rpf with my friend but its a Huge Joke™ and nonsexual and come on I don't actually ship sandra bullock and steve harvey together ok). I mean Anthony is quite frankly dating Jasmine Cephas Jones.....it's a legitimate fact. There are pictures. It's on Wikipedia. They're in LOVE and its PRECIOUS and they're gonna get MARRIED eventually so why tf r yall writing about him bottoming for Lin????????

And Lin!!! He has a beautiful WIFE AND SON. You can speculate about his sexuality, NOT PUBLICLY BC HE SEES THINGS, but that's fine if u honestly must??? (although he tweeted that he was straight once during his "grease live" livetweeting so......like......). U can talk about how cute he and jonathan groff are! But y'all don't stop there do u? Bc one second ur talkin about them being cute and then a sentence later it's all "and then he SUCKED his BIG FAT DICK clean off!!!!!! He was dickless!!!! While wearing their costumes!!!!!!!!!! He choked on the full decapitated dick!!!!!"

That shit ain't cute.

So, now that u finally realize that (hopefully), we can get to the real nitty mcfreaking gritty. this part is primarily for white fans but it technically applies to anyone who is not specifically latinx and/or black jsyk:

So even before the whole "baby girl" thing started, I saw quite a few of y'all calling Anthony and Lin "papi" which like.....why should I even have to tell you why this is wrong. If you're not latinx, DON'T USE THE WORD "PAPI", especially since most of y'all are using it in a sexual context. You went ahead and took an innocent word, and turned it into a way to sexualize your faves who just so happen to be latinx. It just ain't right, and its also?? weird??? Let me put it this way, I'm black but not jewish so thatd be like me calling daveed "bubbe". Or something. Either way see how that'd be gross and offensive? You're taking a part of them, a huge part of them, their culture, and turning it into something exotic and sexual. That, my friends, is fetishism.

Another good example of this is the whole "baby girl/boy" n "papa" thing. Y'all rly went ahead and took an cute nickname and rolled RIGHT with it lmao. @alexandralexander explained it beautifully in this post, but basically "papa" (and "mama") is a cute lil way of older folks to regard ppl who are younger than them. It's a caribbean thing, aka something yall just won't get. Idk what the whiter equivalent would be, idk like ur grandad calling u "big guy" or something??? Who knows. Just kno that its NOT SEXUAL IN ANYWAY LIKE WTF WHY DID Y'ALL MAKE THAT A DADDY KINK THING. WHY CAN NOTHING BE SACRED WITH YOU GUYS. Best believe when my grandparents call my brother "papa" they mean it in an endearing way. And that's how Lin meant it? I don't see how it could have been construed any other way??

As for the baby girl/boy thing, in all the times I've been called/heard someone else call someone baby girl, it was NOT sexual. It can be used that way, but it was n o t in this context. Again, its a cultural thing i guess. And with "baby boy", yall do remember that anthony plays lin's son in this show right. okay, just checking.

But forreal. what is wrong wit u guys. I told myself I wasn't gonna kinkshame nobody but its Time, it rly and truly is Time.

One last point I want to make (as if this isn't long enough already) is the language with which u talk about the cast too. This was said rly well in several posts especially this one that uses that tags ppl tend to use, but i’m gonna elaborate on it a little. I just want to know right now why Anthony (or our lighter skinned and SURE AS HELL THE WHITE cast members) is "sweet precious sunflower child cinnamon biscuit roll wheatgrass turkish delight with sprinkles or some other corny shit <333" while daveed is AUTOMATICALLY "raw me zaddy" THE FUCK??? Why we gotta go STRAAIGGHTT to zaddy-basis with daveed??? Why do I see y'all talking about his dick size???? Y'all dont do that from the get-go for the lighter skinned members (which is sad bc daveed is already a certified Lightskint™ so that's rly saying something)?? Why can't black actors (and characters) ever be seen as "sweet turnip bumblebees (???)" instead of either being put on an inhuman pedestal where it's "STEP ON ME BAD BITCH QUEEN" or sexualized with some "CHOKE ME YOU COCKSLUT" ???? Ask yourselves why y'all do that. I'll wait. 
And y'all don't even TALK about oak (as a quick sidenote okieriete is not that hard of a name to pronounce y'all just don't care to try. It sounds exactly like its spelled) but tbh I don't rly want u to bc you'd just sexualize him as well. Plus that means more for me cause I'm engaged to him too :) remember to save the date!!
This was all over the place and idk if I even said what I was trying to say but whatever. I guess what I'm trying to say is (and this is to white fans) you're stanning a thing full of people of color. im assuming that this is probably the first thing that youve been rly into that has included exclusively people of color. Please just be mindful of the way you talk about them. There's a history of you exotifying and sexualizing poc to the point that historically, people have been killed for??? There's a history behind y'all calling latinx folks "papi" and automatically assuming black folks got a big dick ok lmao. At the end of the day, the way you talk about them shows that you don't rly respect them as much as you claim to do??? Idk I wish I had made notes about this bc it sounded waaaaaaayyy better in my head but! Whatever it's still lit. s/o to @aaronsburrr for assistance! 

so as you all know i havent been on so much on this blog lately last year so i am genuinely making this post bc i want to sincerely thank and appreciate all of you mutuals that still have the want to follow and stick up with me lol i do not deserve you all i swear to god

honestly since i accidentally deleted my blog last year i thought lol whats the point on doing it all over again but tbh no what makes blogging fun isnt followers, it is you guys, my lovely mutuals that i consider friends already. i had a breakdown from the accident but you guys helped me through even helped me to gain followers again (seriously i dont deserve you all) blogging are seriously so much fun with you guys still around. seriously i met a lot of lovely people last year, we talked, we shared, we rant about our feelings to each other a few of you i consider as my close friends seriously you guys made this year so amazing for me, you are all rays of sunshine to me and i love you. everyone here inspires me so much and makes me strive to be a better person and i’m extremely greatful to all of you

this isnt a follow forever whatsoever you dont have to reblog it i just want you guys to read it :)

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anonymous asked:

Do you think you could explain all the drama and controversy behind the miss officer and mr truffles show thing. Are they asking for too much money on their kickstarter or is this just about one of the animators saying something rude? I'm really confused and i was kinda excited over this becoming a real show but now I don't know what's going on.

here’s the post claiming animators are still not paid for the work they did on the kickstarter video

here are my thoughts about the budget proposal 

here’s why i didnt like this crap in the first place months ago

here’s a response to one of the recent posts on the MOAMT blog

someone mentioned the creator (Ami) makes gross posts on twitter and yep sure does

for the stuff that happened months ago i never thought to screencap their responses and when i went back to look up receipts for my post all the shitty stuff they said got deleted or edited, and i dunno if anyone screencapped the original responses that pissed everyone off.

a run down of the “drama” (which tbh i dont think its drama, i think their non-apologies and anti-“sjw” bitterness makes it drama. people were pretty civil and polite until Ami started getting pissed off bc ppl were offended):

  • they had an url with a slur in it (f*ggot) which is not a slur for them to reclaim. 
  • when the original post with the meme art got popular, people started to get offended at their url. they got so many asks about it they threw a fit and changed their url, explicitly stating it was frustrating and just to get people off their back. 
  • yeah, they changed the url but continued to mock the people who were offended and asked them to change it. i looked up the posts where they did this and they were all deleted or the response had been changed from mocking to playing the victim.
  • they received an ask with a transmisogynist slur in it (t word but not  the usual t word, the other one) and answered the ask jokingly. they edited their response in this receipt too.
  • their online shop name is the same name their url used to be with a slur in it. apparently its too much trouble to move their shop over under a different name.
  • they posted an “apology” (its in one of the links) which is NOT an apology it’s a “im sorry youre offended i guess, will you piss off now since i said sorry” type of thing. 
  • basically theyve had a super shitty attitude about all this and theyre always mocking people who are offended. (see the link about their twitter and them making fun of “f*ggot” being offensive.)

people thought the bear had been put down but apparently not, i dunno how valid that is. also the RCMP, “Ms Officer” in the original post with the bear, has a long history of abusing power and racially charged oppression, especially of First Nation peoples. a lot of people dont want to support this project on that fact alone, since its glorifying a police force who has terrorized native communities and has been investigated for racist motivations multiple times. 

without the screencapped receipts of the artists original fuck ups and attitude, a lot of what i say cant really be backed up through evidence. idk if anyone else capped them, i figure if they did i’d see it eventually.

also with the reports of animators being bullied around and going unpaid is on word alone, the person who posted about it says they cant disclose who the animators are. so the evidence there is thin. however, my gut tells me theres truth to it, and the fact MOAMT hasnt addressed the accusations seems fishy. (and even when they do address stuff, it usually seems really hostile and desperate, which seems too reactive for someone so innocent. but thats my gut feeling and idk i dont blame anybody for disregarding these things.)

but still, its your money. if you still wanna support it, go ahead. i just dont think its wise and tbh i dont think this person deserves that kind of support just because they drew a cute bear and had a popular post based on an already popular post. at least not from me, theyve shown themselves to be very unprofessional, bitter, condescending and just straight up rude. people try to defend the slurs and non-apology saying English isn’t their first language, but that seems like a poor excuse. their handle of the language and slang is pretty good, i couldnt even tell. and even if its true, they didnt understand those slurs, they certainly dont really give a shit about it. their apology is about as far away from an apology you can get without explicitly telling someone to fuck off, and to top it off theyre now mocking the slur on twitter that they apparently got educated about months ago.

they dont give a fuck. they fucked up and rolled their eyes about it while saying the words “sorry”, deleted all the shitty stuff they said, and then now they have this exorbitant budget for a 7 minute pitch episode based on a tumblr meme. theyve shown themselves to be extremely unprofessional, and if nothing else, i dont trust them with all that money. if people want to support it, sure. fine, its your money? do what you want, and if you dont care abt all the shady/bad attitude stuff and just want the show to be made, welp. do what you do.

anonymous asked:

you probably think you're sooo smart, but you're honestly so disgusting. johannah has just passed and you're making it about your love for hating on larries. i follow only larries and you know whats on my dash: support for the tomlinson/deakins and links and links to charities. take your vile posts (which get less than 100 notes) and your vile self elsewhere. now is most definitely not the time

No, I know. Many Larries are adamantly insisting that now is not the time to talk about Larry.

Where to start? Should I start with the fact that it’s a lie? Just a couple examples:

Or should we talk about the fact that of course Larries have to at least hold off from “debating” Larrie and discussing proof and making up new theories right now? They can’t even take 2 days without inserting their made up conspiracies into this time of grief, but yes - for the most part, they are holding back. You know why? Because they can’t talk about this stuff without being hugely disrespectful and invasive and inappropriate. Because if they did talk about it, they’d sound like this:

Not to mention the endless “this shows how much they can keep private” - as if we shouldn’t be thinking “this shows how little we can know about their personal lives and how inappropriate it is to insist we have secret knowledge and discuss, speculate, and analyze their actions.”

So you’ll excuse me for not being too impressed with the people who realize that they’ll only look bad if they engage with the anons wondering what it means that Freddie was mentioned in Jay’s obituary and included in the family photo released with this tragic announcement. I’m not impressed that they realized they have to wait until everyone’s forgotten how incredibly obvious it is right now that Freddie is Louis’s son, until the pain of how they mistreated this family has faded. If your explanation for your completely made up, unsupported version of events requires denying the contents of the obituary released by a woman’s own husband, and you realize that this is such a horrible thing to say that you can’t even talk about it while everyone is still grieving her, maybe it’s time to just walk away.

And now they once again get to pretend to be victims in this fandom. Because they refuse to accept any responsibility for all the harm they do. On the same fucking day that we found out about this heartbreaking loss, they were already excusing their callous approach to Louis’s private life. There has been no acknowledgement that the way they talk about Louis and his family, the way they investigate and pretend to know how he feels, no acknowledgement that this could be harmful and is wrong. Freddie flew out to see Jay one last time and there’s no acknowledgment that Larries and their nasty, dehumanizing abuse were the ones who bullied her into deleting him from her social media. Not even a recognition of the need to take a more respectful approach towards any information we get about Louis’s personal life.

I care about Larries right now, at this tragic and difficult time, because I care about Louis and his family. Not because I want to win some stupid fandom fight, certainly not to be fucking popular. Because I want Larries to stop hurting them. And Larries continue to refuse to accept even the slightest possibility that anything they’ve done could cause harm. They refuse to think about their actions. Their avoidance of in depth Larrie discussion right now is not a sign of respect for Jay. If they wanted to show respect for Jay, they would be apologizing for using her illness as “proof” that Louis doesn’t care about his son. No, their avoidance of this discussion is so they can let themselves and their followers forget how horrible they’ve been and how obvious it is that Freddie is Louis’s son.

anonymous asked:

do you have any deep thoughts on jane

i have never been a parent and likely never will be. but on november 11, 2011, the feelings i felt when i laid my eyes on jane crocker were not unlike those which, i imagine, a new parent feels when laying eyes upon their newborn child for the first time. i wept. this is not a joke or an exaggeration.

i love jane. if dirk wasnt gay jane would probably be my favorite alpha. very briefly in 2011 before dirkjake was a thing i evangelized the good ship jakejane (sure, it lacks any kind of depth and, at that point, the prime draw for most people was that they were A Boy And A Girl Who Talked To Each Other. but nanna never got to have her reunion with grandpa, and i, who grew up on sailor moon, am a sucker for tragic reincarnated lovers).

granted, at that point, it seemed like jane was our new hero. we all assumed she would be given the same care and attention, the development and complexity that john had. we didnt know where the Jane Train was going but boy were we excited to get there!!!! nobody expected for the jane train to get a couple miles out of the station, stall, sputter, go around in circles (not how trains work) and then let us off in the middle of the wilderness, the conductor insisting this was where we were meant to get off all along

a lot of characters got fucked out of meaningful development as act 6 drew to a close but NOBODY got fucked harder than jane crocker and im going to be bitter about it until the day i die.

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i’m just so worried about EXO rn,and i so bad for them just like you T.T

each of them is exhausted and on top of new injury along w old injuries.sometimes it amazes me how they can still go on tho inside they just want to pass out tbh

Tao just came back from the jungle with a cast on his leg. he had to sit in a wheelchair. his feet is all swollen then his hands are full of bug bites. few days before that he slipped twice on stage and hurt his back and his legs. SM let him rest but he insisted to go on stage, to just sing on a chair and talk to his fan is enough. He tries his best to update all of his social media acc in 3 languages.He took time to answer fan’s comments and always reassure us when sth happened. How can you hate this boy i ll never get it

Luhan just finished filming his movie. He flew from places to carry out his own schedule and EXO schedule. He has to constantly deal w these cray fangirls who disturb his lil break in between filming. Knock on his door,harass him, sneak in his room, follow him. He isnt only tired physically but mentally too. I said I hope he ll cry when he wants too without holding back cuz he’s been strong and brave for too long. Today he cried,he hurt his ankle and got heat shock which is rlly dangerous. He came out and sing w tears. He never cry but he did today,he must be so so exhausted and prob feel guilty for not doing his best. I’m grateful for their effort to show us their best but i cant help but feel sad and helpless

Kai been dealing w his back injury since forever. His knees and waist are messed up too and they never really heal. Yet he still performs just to lay on the floor at the end. Then get up,grab the mic and do fan service and flash his smile. He looks like he can sleep any moment. They barely get any sleep nowadays,2 hours are prob all they got esp SMTOWN is coming up. But his performance never lack energy or passion. He tell fans not to worry. He put up w fans pushing and harassing him. He tell fans that he loves us. I couldnt ask for more

Sehun never rlly show any injury visibly but im sure he’s tired as well,esp mentally. Being the youngest he only cried once.The others dote on him and said that he’s sweet and thinks a lot. And he is such a sweetheart. Despite he look nonchalant or ignorant sometimes,he rlly cares for everyone and he cheer the members up. Yixing is a strong person but even him burst into tears seeing Sehun being cheerful to cheer them up.He must be hurting inside but he didnt whine or complain. Ever since he started his Instagram he never change his dp.His dp is the pic to support the Sewol incident and just recently he posted a pic to celebrate 100 day from the tragedy wishing well for those who left and those who stay. I bet you he pray for them a lot esp since a lot of students are near his age.He isnt a brat at all,he’s been through a lot too but he just doesnt express it. So presh T.T

Yixing’s back never rlly heal either,and his knees as I would like to say are fucked up. His waist act up once a while too cuz he constantly dance. He never complain an always always take care and worry for the fans. He told us not to get hurt,like no u shut up and dont get hurt. He told us to take care,to spend money on our fam and ourselves, to support them and keep loving them. Everyone knows he’s rlly nice bout accepting gifts tho it gets him in trouble. He’s tired but he always smile and do his lil L sign,post thankful words and post pic for us. You’ll never regret stanning him

Suho got so much skinnier its kinda scary. The members only talked bout his severe knee injury once and who knows if it still hurt.Ever since Kris/Yifan left,he got extra on his shoulders. He took everything calmly and nicely. He took care of the members,watched out for them,supported them and lead them. Ppl say he doesnt look like a leader or cant lead them but he’s doing a good job now leading 10 other ppl and some are older then him. It’s not easy but he do a good job and im grateful for him to be there to talk to Sehun,to hold Tao,to hug the others and encourage them. He watched out for the others so we should watch out for him too

Baekhyun just got over that one scandal and it still affects him.Now he hurt his shoulders and legs too but he still performed. He try to give his best now and whatever happened happened. The members still love him all the same,so if you love him then pls keep loving him. If you dont then dont leave harsh words. Doing this job isnt easy and ppl make mistakes, loving someone isnt a crime. Yes it hurts and it makes you sad but you can move on and there’s no reason to dwell on the past.He’s working hard to prove himself so pls be with him

Chanyeol got so skinny too,im just glad he is loved in Roommate. The guy even hurts himself to make the others laugh. He took care of the others and lighten up the atmosphere tho he might be just as sad. He’s dorky and funny,but he’s prob just as tired. He doesnt show up a lot in Roommate cuz of his schedule but he still do his best

Chen is also a sweetheart. Being a vocal and carry a lot of high notes,he prob strain his voice and have to take extra care of it.Also he sometimes got sick but he never rlly say anything. He works hard in dancing and always be there for the younger member.You can just tell how loving he is w his adorable laugh. He didnt train for long so the label of a vocal is heavy on his shoulders but he do a rlly good tho he doesnt think so. He didnt cry back then cuz he thought he didnt deserve the award but he’s just lovely and friendly tbh live witness here

Xiumin is the oldest one, he doesnt show nor talk a lot but behind the scenes and even on stage he just silently take care of the others. He’s mature but cute as well. He keeps to himself but he tries to talk more,to go out of his comfort zone. He’s just lovable. He’s good at both singing and dancing and back then when he lost a lot of weight it was upsetting. I’m glad he’s comfortable now and im actually happy to see him eat well.With the workload they have,I’d inhale all the food in the word tbh lol He isnt expressive but i know he knows and sees everything and try his best to let us know.Im happy that he tries but pls update ur Insta lol

And lastly Kyungsoo, another private bish lol jk He keeps to himself too and isnt expressive either. He already got a drama and a movie,prob rlly worried bout his acting but im glad he did fine so far. His presence add into the fun,he’s the guy that beat everyone up but also rlly serious sometimes .He also took care of the others silently,offer comfort and courage w his best tho sometimes its awk.But he cooks for them and share w Suho,so thoughtful and he’s jsut charming

I often complain how i want they to have shows tbh lol pretty sure im not the only one but think bout i think its enough now and i ll take what they give. I dont want to force them to work more and end up hurting themselves then feel sad OTL They work hard and try hard because of us so pls be there for them,pls give them comfort an encouragement and pls give them space too. They’re our age yet they’re living an entirely different lives and the downside of it are just horrible but they put up w it.Please protect and cherish them But we dont own them and they dont owe us anything.Don’t demand or pressure them or put them on high pedestal,and if you ever decide to leave its ok.They’re human too and they have feelings and make mistakes.for they have done a lot for us as well as we’ve done a lot for them.And they know it and try their best to show their gratitude tho they cant be like that all the time but through their words and actions you know right? 

I hope they’ll wrap up the tour soon but there’s SMTOWN coming up and maybe a new album so they prob still be busy.So i hope they ll have a long and nice break in New Year and pray to the lord that the fans wont disturb their small break in daily lives.Thanks for loving them and thanks for still being here -From a fellow fan <3


Hey Taylor!

My name is Jordyn and on November 24th im going to be turning 16 years old! Im really excited to turn 16 and i really hope you somehow see this post!! All I want for my birthday this year (and for my bday for many years) is for you to notice me so heres to hoping you see this!

Turning 16 this year is a really big deal for me because this year marks 9-10 years that I have been a fan of you! Now i know that may hard to believe, but i actually have a cd called Biggest Hits 2006 that has Our Song on it! I still remember partying to Our Song in the car when i was just a little girl with my family! I fell in love with you because you seemed like the happiest and nicest girl, and we were both from Pennsylvania! I still love you for those reasons, but also because over the years you have become the epitome of a woman that i would love to be. To me, you are the definition of strong, brave, beautiful, and hardworking. I couldnt have found a better person to look up to for the past 10ish years!

Im making this post in hopes of you randomly seeing in on your dash, and maybe reading it! I will forever be so honored that you decided to follow me last November 19th, and even if thats all the interaction i will ever have with you, im so honored I can call you a mutual :) I dont really make posts for you to see a lot because I kinda just like blogging and being myself on here, but i really do hope that if you have ever come across my posts you have smiled, or laughed (or scrolled down fast if you have seen my 1D fangirling 😂😂). Everyday I check to see if you still follow me, and everyday you make me smile a little brighter when i can confirm that you are still on my followers list! I love imagining that you secretly adore me, and silently stalk me and my blog, and that one day we will maybe someday meet! Ive come so close to you over the past 10 years, and although its been hard seeing a bunch of my friends getting to meet tou, i still have hope that someday we will cross pasts!

I just wanted to thank you for always being you, no matter if others want to change you! Your music, you personality, everything about you is so perfect and its always so refreshing to see someone like you in the media! Thank you so so much for doing so many things for us fans, like inviting some of my friends to the 1989 Secret Sessions and sending packages to others! I have made so many amaZing friends because of you and i will forever be externally grateful for that. Your music always puts a smile on my face, and it has always been a source of happiness and inspiration to me! I hope one day i can thank you for your amazing talents and efforts at making us fans so happy! Thank you for working so hard to put smiles on our faces everyday.

I really hope you are doing well. I hope Mama Swift is doing better (pleaze thank her for being so awesome and still coming to so many shows this tour), and i hope the rest of your family is doing well too! I pray everyday that you will find someone that you can love forever and that will take care of you, and I know that if you havent already found that person, you will find them soon! Take care of yourself babe, your health and happiness is more important to me than anything else! I look forward to seeing more of you (hopefully) over the next few years, and hopefully for the rest of my life!

Thank you for affecting me in such an amazingly positive way, thank you for being such a wonderful constant in my life, thank you for always being true to yourself. If you took time out of your busy day to read this post, thank you so much! If you didn’t, thank you anyway for following me last year and being such an amazing person in my life!! I love you so so much and i hope one day i can tell you that in person ;)

Ps. If you wanna like this post as a bday present for me, I definitely wouldn’t mind! 😋💙💙


shinee's comeback and the usual struggle of overreacting fans

hello fellow shawols :)
i make this post since we are very close to shinee’s comeback and we all know what that means, right?
its the time when we are supposed to vote for our lovely five stars and help them win in music shows. its something they deserve and, yes, even though they had told us winning is not that important, its still great.
theres just one thing i dont want to see this time and its a serious problem that can be easily avoided and will help lots of people not lose their sanity once voting started.

over the past years ive seen the same people, over and over again, be really disrespectful towards the fandom just because we werent voting enough and its such a sick attitude.

last year ive been told that when i make posts about how rude people are and how bad they made me and others feel by their scolding, forceful behavior, i could use my time for something much more important… voting for shinee….

im sick of seeing how people suffer from this.. who in the world thinks voting for shinee is more important than the mental and physical health of fellow shawols ? we should be supportive, with that kind of behavior people rather not vote so they dont please the ones who call them lazy and useless, seriously.

its sad, by now ive seen so so many people already fear shinee’s comeback because of how insanely stupid ( sorry not sorry ) shawols act when its about the voting.

please, PLEASE dont let people feel like theyre useless. there are people that:
-have mental illnesses
-have school
-need to work
-have family problems
-live in stressful environments
-have better things to do that make them happy and not stressed out
-just dont understand how it works
- dont get it to work no matter how hard they try

DONT ignore these factors ! i beg you, stop acting like everyones life revolves around kpop/shinee only. no, if thats the case for you and you have an obsessive behavior to spend all your time and money on kpop only, then thats your problem, but there are people out there who do not see shinee as their one and only reason to exist.

music should be enjoyable, people should support their favorite artists with all they can do and give. some give everything, some a bit less and others dont want to or cant do much or anything at all.
please stop with being so mean all the time.
i dont think shinee would want us to act like that just because of their comeback.

it makes me incredibly sad and mad.. i just want people to be able to love and enjoy shinee and be on here without fearing to be the next target of someone who thinks they need to make everyone feel bad.

please show more respect and care for others and treat them like you want to be treated instead of treating them like trash and not caring about them.

im sure we are able to make this comeback great for everyone. i ask and beg you to just respect others. you dont always have to understand.. just do your thing and let others do their thing, ok? if you make posts about how shinee isnt getting enough votes then at least be nice.

thanks for reading this and id be incredibly happy and thankful if you share this or maybe make your own post.. i dont care.. all i want is people to be happy.