OK, so I don't know if I have depression or not. Because, honestly, I can have great days. Sometimes, great weeks! But, normally, I find myself constantly degrading myself and believing that no one cares. Even though I KNOW my friends and family care (in my head), it just doesn't feel like that, in my heart. You know what I mean? Almost like I'm trying to convince myself that nobody cares about me?? But I'm being resistant about it at the same time? Sorry, it probably doesn't make any sense!
Don’t worry, friend, you make perfect sense! I think that a lot of people who have either worked on or followed this blog can relate to what you just described.
Buckle up, kids, this got way longer than I expected it to.