i don't what i should do with my life anymore

some people make me feel so worthless, it hurts sometimes, I just wish to sleep for over a week without dealing with anything.

skystar720  asked:

Mama, I'm super depressed, and the only reason I'm alive is because I need to find out what happens in animes I watch and mangas I read. What should I do help get rid of my suicidal tendencies, because honestly, staying alive for animes and mangas is getting tiring. I don't wanna keep going anymore, I've been going for 3 years and I just wanna quit. What should I do?

If it’s been going on for so long, please, please get help! Like professional help. Also taking medication might do something, I know it’s not the most desirable way, but it’s better than you ending up hurting yourself or worse! Also something you need to do is look at your life and sort out all the bad influences you can get rid of. And those you can’t get rid of: try to make them as pleasurable as you can. Try to find good things in your life, even if it’s just one thing every morning, Try to find something you look forward to in every day. Even if it’s just stuff like “Looking at a cute bird” or “I wanna do my hair today!” Try to slowly get back some positivity in your life. It will take some time and it will be hard, but it’s crucial, even if you’re able to get help. Please know that you’re loved and that you’re an amazing seedling! Please, please take care of yourself! I love you!

Remington (my OC)

anonymous asked:

Hey there! I'm a INFJ and I met this really awesome ENTP - but now we don't talk anymore. I find myself thinking about how cool he was, and It saddens me at times to know we're not friends anymore. So my question is, how do I stop thinking about him (rumination?) Should I meet new entps instead? If so, how would I go about this?

It’s over, move on. You stop thinking about something when you no longer derive any “benefit” from thinking about it. I don’t know you, so I don’t know what your thought process is. You seem to be indulging a fantasy where you have convinced yourself that life will be more “perfect” if he or someone like him was in it. Your feelings having nothing to do with that person but everything to do with you and the state of your life. People often indulge in fantasy because it is a convenient defense mechanism, a way to avoid feeling the full weight of one’s true emotions, a way to distract oneself from the real issues that are plaguing one’s life, a way to superficially feel good when real living feels bad, a way to feel powerful when you feel powerless. Perhaps something is missing in your life right now, so then you think back to a time when you seemed happier, then you try to connect cause and effect, “oh yes, he was in my life at the time and I was happier, therefore, I will try to recreate those conditions so that I can be happier now.”

But that’s not possible because everything, time, his life, your life, the world has moved forward and keeps moving forward, and you will fall behind if you get trapped in trying to revive a corpse. Not to mention that not all ENTPs are the same, he was an individual and cannot simply be replaced like some mass-produced object, this is not what typing people is for. This fantasizing is likely to exacerbate your unhappiness in the long run because moving backwards contradicts the prime directive of Ni to move forwards, it puts the brakes on your self-development. You need meaningful relationships but this is not the way to go about it because retreading old ground is a dead end, though it may bring fleeting comfort much like hiding underneath a security blanket so that you don’t have to face your real fears or anxieties. Confront your sadness or unhappiness or loneliness directly, allow yourself to feel it fully so that you can know what it really is and find the right solution instead of plugging that hole with a fantasy world. If it is about grieving a loss, then grieve the loss properly rather than avoiding the process with wishful thinking and trying to trick yourself into believing that the loss isn’t real. Then get out into the world and make new relationships and find new learning opportunities for yourself.

anonymous asked:

Hi Victoria. I've been dealing with a lot of mental health issues lately and recently started medication. However, it seems that both on and off the medication, writing and reading don't come as naturally as they used to anymore. They've been passions for my entire life and I feel like I'm nothing without them. I don't see a life without them, esp writing, worth living. I'm not sure what to do. Writing and reading are the only things that have kept me going and I feel I've lost them.

I’m not a psychologist or doctor so I can’t really give advice on this, but as far as I know, medication isn’t supposed to drastically alter you like this, and you should talk to your doctor about adjusting your prescription to maintain your quality of life.

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  • "Feed me."
  • "What a creepy thing to be happening."
  • "Why this whole thing strikes me as funny, I don't know..."
  • "There must be someone you can 86, real quiet-like."
  • "Here I come for you!"
  • "Don't tell me - you got a little tied up."
  • "I need blood, and s/he's got more than enough."
  • "[Name] is not a healthy girl/boy."
  • "If I can move and talk, who's to say I can't do anything I want?"
  • "I am flyin' now!"
  • "I think I need a root canal."
  • "Bear in mind, I'm not immortal!"
  • "It really is a rotten way to go!"
  • "What we have here is an ethical dilemma..."
  • "No thief would look in there, right?"
  • "The mask - it's stuck. I can't get it off!"
  • "It wouldn't be terrible at all. It would be a miracle."
  • "[Name], I don't think you understand..."
  • "I'll make it worth your while."
  • "If we fight it, we've still got a chance."
  • "Jesus Christ, I could asphyxiate in here."
  • "The guy sure looks like plant food to me."
  • "All I ever wanted was you and a sweet little house."
  • "Am I dreaming this?"
  • "[Name], that's thousands of dollars! Where is it?"
  • "It's the one gift I can give you."
  • "In a way, we'll always be together."
  • "Something is very wrong here."
  • "Can you hold, please?"
  • "Christ, what a frickin' scatterbrain!"
  • "Depression's just status quo."
  • "Relax. It'll be easier that way."
  • "I keep asking God what I'm for, and he tells me, 'Gee, I'm not sure.'"
  • "Just go with it, doll!"
  • "Well, get your ass in here!"
  • "I chopped him up, but I didn't kill him!"
  • "It's your professionalism I respect."
  • "Oh, [name], you're the most wonderful person that ever lived."
  • "No shit, Sherlock!"
  • "I couldn't sleep."
  • "I liked you from the day I came to work here."
  • "All my life I've always been poor."
  • "[Name], sweetheart, what's been going on?"
  • "You're a monster - and so am I!"
  • "You mean you'd still like me, even if I wasn't famous?"
  • "What'd I ever do to you?"
  • "I need some water in the worst way."
  • "It's an antique. They don't make 'em like this anymore."
  • "You kids should be in school!"
  • "How do you intend to better yourself?"
  • "She deserves a prince, not a sadistic creep like him!"
  • "Daddy left early. Mama was poor."
  • "I'm feeling strangely happy now..."
  • "I tried to be on time, but..."
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  • "I've done terrible things, [name], but not to you. Never to you."
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  • "You remember that total eclipse of the sun a week ago?"
  • "Get a move on, you little slut!"
  • "I don't like that guy, [name]."
  • "With the right advertising, this thing could be bigger than hula-hoops."
  • "It talks."
  • "Believe it, baby!"
  • "I'd meet a man and follow him blindly."
  • "You should hear the way he talks to [name]!"
  • "Don't die, [name]. I need you. Please, please, don't die..."
  • "I don't know. I have so many strong reservations me..."
  • "You love her madly, don't you, schmuck?"
  • "You watch your language!"
  • "What the hell's that? A gun?"
  • "Look out!"
  • "It's true. I did it."
  • "Lots of folks deserve to die!"
  • "That's disgusting."
  • "What am I supposed to do? Kill people?"
  • "I'll take it straight."
  • "Do we have a deal?"
  • "That's not a very nice thing to say!"
  • "Don't feed the plants."
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Guys I don’t know what to do anymore.

Right so basically my only real friend thought I was talking shit about him behind his back but I wasn’t. He then later texted me to say sorry and he showed me what he said. He told people I was a snotty two faced bitch and I should slit my wrists.

He knows about my depression and anxiety so for him to say that hit me like a truck. Anyway I stupidly gave him a second chance and now he’s saying that he wants to have a break and he doesn’t think our friendship is worth it.

So I’ve begged him not to leave me but he has and now I have no one left. I go back to school on Monday and I will have no one to hang out with at break and lunch. I’m going to look so lonely and I just don’t know what to do 😭

anonymous asked:

My ex boyfriend (dated for two years) is dating one of my best friends. It shouldn't matter anymore yet I'm compelled to care. I feel nothing, yet everything hurts. I'm plunging into depression. 4 days ago he made me feel loved & then 2 days ago called me a low-life dog with no home to go to. & I don't understand why. I believed both of them & now, I'm left behind & stuck. What should I do? Where should I go from here? I'm just so hurt and I obviously love both of them despite the situation.

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anonymous asked:

I don't think I can do this anymore. Life is so very pointless. I don't know what I should do to stay. I can't imagine my future, the past destroys my hopes and the present is completely shattered. What are the reasons I should live? I don't think anyone could possibly love me. It's impossible. I mean, I have no friends whatsoever. Even my parents ignore me. I mean, I understand they've got their own lives to live. But why the hell did they bring me in this toxic world. Why? Why? Why?

Okay. You are empty. Everything feels like nothing. The sun doesn’t even seem to touch your skin anymore, right? You aren’t sure if you’re even awake most of the time. You are ash. And I know sometimes it hurts to be that way, but this is where it all begins I think. Any sort of emptiness is a perfect excuse to fill that void with anything in the universe. I was empty for quite some time and I taught myself how to love it. What pulls at you? Even the tiniest sort of pulling? Keep a list of these things and dive into them when you feel low or when you feel high or when you are anywhere in between. Whether it’s hiking or video games or a new class or a new religion or a vacation or becoming a new person; these will help you. I think when we feel so unloved and unwanted we need to push ourselves to become something. You learn that you are the one who is going to love you most in this world. You are the one who is going to pick you up when you are down. I know it is much easier to love yourself when many others do, but to love yourself when you feel that no one does (and I hope you know this isn’t true, that no one loves you) that is true strength, and you can do it. I think you should tell your parents how you feel. I’m sure they just don’t understand. People get caught up in their own lives very easily and quickly. Sometimes we need to bring them back and remind them that there are others around. Also, it’s okay to not have friends. You can still do many things on your own. When I’m feeling lonely I go on walks around the city and I talk to strangers. My favorite stranger (who I guess is no longer a stranger) is the cross guard for the children on the street next to my school. He tells silly jokes and he says hello to everyone but many people just keep walking. Do you ever see people like that? If you do, stay a little while. I ended up chatting with this sweet old man for an hour and now I visit him and we email back and forth. Strangers don’t need to stay strangers. They become friends. When I felt unloved, I learned that the way to make the pain fall away was to give. You always have love to give. Always. Go on adventures on your own. Make lists of the things that make you feel alive so when you are sad you remember and then you go do them. For me it’s running down the middle of a creek or finding a tree that I can lay in or writing sweet things and taping them around the city or being extra kind to strangers. So now that you are ash in this moment, you know what you must do next? Grow! Burst right through the dirt and the ash and become whoever you want to be. Bloom with love and passion for whatever you choose. You can turn your entire life around, I promise you. Life isn’t always easy, I know that, but there is so much beauty around you and I hope that you remember that very soon. The world isn’t entirely toxic. There is pain, yes, but help that pain disappear one by one. Spread your love to everyone you come in contact with. It will change your life and it will inspire others and you will slowly change the world. You are here for a reason. You are not a tiny human who is here just because. You are a giant burst of something wrapped in skin and you are meant to do great things. You really are. You must let go and you must breathe. I love you. Come back to life. 

anonymous asked:

can you tell me how to deal with it when it's my mom who said negatively things? when i did something wrong my mom said things make me feel like i'm the worst person in the world, that everything happened because i didn't even try... i can't just ignore her words. i can't. things just keep replaying in my head over and over again. i can't believe in myself anymore and i feel terrified if i made any mistake. i'm sorry if i bother you, i just don't know what to do

Oh, dear… that’s harsh. I’m afraid I can’t really help you… you should talk about this with someone that’s closer to you in real life? Someone you can trust to talk about it. The only thing I can do is give you my best encouragement! Stay determined, dear :c

anonymous asked:

I'm in need of a bit of guidance, and I am hoping you can help steer me in the right direction. I've always been deeply rooted in my faith, but for the past few years I have wandered down a wrong path. I'm trying to restore my faith, but the friends I have don't really believe in God and indulge in temptation. I don't really want to be a part of that crowd anymore, but also don't want to come off as me judging them. I want to love them but also not be around that negativity. What should I do?

1 Corinthians 10:13: ‘No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it.’

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Dear Misha Collins,

Okay, so the likelihood that you’ll actually see this, is probably like .00001% HOWEVER, I have to try.

Next Saturday, March 14th, I have been blessed with a free ticket to Indiana Comic Con, in Indianapolis. And while I’m excited to go anyway, I would be even more excited if you were there, sir. I’m a super broke college student and I will probably never be able to meet you, when in reality, if there’s one celebrity that I could meet, it’d be you. Of course it would be you. You’ve changed my life more than you will ever know.

ANYWAY. If there is any way that you could make it to Indy Comic Con (there is a SPN themed event there on Saturday, so you could come as like a surprise guest), it would really just make my life. This is my first convention and probably my only convention and I wish it was a bigger one, so you could be there, but I was just thinking I could try to get you to come anyway. 

I realize you’re busy doing shoots for Supernatural and being generally awesome and busy and important, so yes, I know it’s a long shot. I get that. But I have to try, because you as Castiel and you as yourself have kept me alive on days I didn’t think I could make it. I really wish you could come. It is a lifetime goal for me to meet you in person.

As for all my followers, please spread this around, so as many people as possible will see it, because you never know. Misha might be one of those people.

anonymous asked:

PBG! HELP ME! I don't want to go to college anymore but everyone in my life is telling me I should because I'll make better money. It's annoying and disappointing because out of all of my interests, none of them are offered at this college, and I have to go to this one because it's the only place that is 100% free for me. What do I do? Stay in college or pursue my passions? Both of these things take up a lot of time, so I can't do them both. :( Help me!

That’s a tough choice, but I can’t make it for you, I’m sorry. =( 

You just have to go with your gut, I guess. But I would say always have a backup plan. When I dropped out of college, I had money saved up from working, and I also had a part time job when YT wasn’t even coming CLOSE to paying the bills. And it wasn’t for the first 2-3 years or so, even after I partnered with TGS (now Polaris). If YT didn’t work for me, I had every intention of going back to school. 

Good luck, and I hope you can follow your dreams. But be smart about it as well! I got lucky, and I know it. That doesn’t always happen for everyone, even people who work really, really hard.

fields--of--roses  asked:

I love seeing that you're a Pokémon fan and haven't played to all generations. I'm a newcomer (been a fan for one year now) and the first game I played to was X. I've always been very insecure about this, especially that recently, someone made me feel bad about my situation. It lead me to questionning whether I should leave the fanbase or not. After seeing the messages you've been getting about this, I don't feel so lonely anymore so Thank You (:

Thank you for the lovely message! I’m glad you’re enjoying the fandom and don’t let the awful snobs get you down! They’re not worth it and to be honest they’re so pathetic considering they feel the need to police what people can and cannot like, they must be lacking in life to feel the need to do it.

You wouldn’t say that a football fan want a true fan because they only watch the matches their team is in, or if they only watch the Premier League and not the Scottish League. It’s insane that the pokemon fandom is full of elitist arseholes but they should just be ignored 😊

anonymous asked:

My boyfriend is an Atheist and I'm a Catholic, I don't want him to convert or become a believer unless its on his own terms but we tend to fight a lot about the existence of God. Its hard for me to even talk about my beliefs because his automatic response is,"where is your proof God is real?" He and we have a history together but I don't know if I can be with him anymore if he keeps making me feel like an idiot for my faith. What should I do?

I’ve written a lot on tumblr about this topic. My advice is to end this relationship. What kind of life are you going to have when your husband denies that your God is real? How can two people come to agreement when they have completely different answers to the biggest questions in life? You’ll always be pulling and struggling if you try to make this work.

Find someone who loves God. Someone who can pull you up when you doubt, not take advantage of you and make you feel like an idiot.

anonymous asked:

I want to end it all tonight. Ever since I was young I've self harmed and thought about suicide. I've been raped/molested by family members when I was young. No one knows. I moved in with my bf and he is super supportive but I feel like he's fading away. Like he can't handle it. He barely talks to me anymore and gets annoyed when I'm depressed. I've tried anything and there is no other choice. I don't know what to do :(

My heart breaks when I read this every time more and more. Would you listen to me when I wrote here: Don’t do it. Don’t go. Don’t end your life. Would it get to you? ‘Cause if it would, I’ll write it ten times, twenty times more. Don’t. Your boyfriend isn’t important here. If he can’t stick around anymore, let him go. I know it is hard watching someone walking out of your life especially if he was very significant to you. But what use from it if he doesn’t want to stay? You should surround yourself with positive and warm people, people who love and care about you. It doesn’t necessarily has to be your partner. Just please, don’t go. It’s not your time yet.