so I went shopping with my little sister & she’s a little shit, forcing me to come out of my comfort zone ( which is both scary and good tbh ), but hey I bought something I’ll probably only use when with my boyfriend, although I’m still a litle insecURE… thoughts?
i had someone i was close to at school call me by the wrong pronouns, and i pulled him aside and asked about it. he said that it was hard to call me a boy because my shirt was pink. i don't know if i should wear the shirt anymore or if i should just not care.
Don’t let that bother you. You can wear pink as a boy. Fun fact: Before World War II, pink was for boys and blue was for girls, but Hitler did something that used pink femininely, and then the world switched the colors. Because of Hitler. Wear your pink shirt with pride.
When my parents and I went to PH, I was a pretty big jerk for the first day or so. It was a long flight, I was tired, it was hot, and also it just hit me that I was on the other side of the world. So in true Isaiah fashion, I took out my frustrations by being… a dick. If you had me on snapchat, you probably saw my complaints.
The thing is: the Philippines is not a bad place. It’s a great place. The people are nice and the food is great. The traffic is the only bad thing, but I think that’s pretty much expected in any metropolitan area. I was just being a 17-year-old throwing a temper tantrum (…embarrassing), and looking back on it, I probably made my parents feel bad.
At the end of the trip, I didn’t want to go home and my parents made fun of me for it but I deserved it lol.
I hate so much that we have to base being trans on sexist stereotypes. I hate that my dysphoria fucking keeps me from assuming typically feminine roles. I hate that I can't wear a skirt without literally having a full blown panic attack because it's "a girly thing". Heck no. Stop gendering colors. Stop gendering clothing. Stop gender roles. Stop stereotypical masculinity. But in the end, I just don't wear pink or dresses. I just follow the binary. I hate it.
Honestly you know what, same.
I wish I could enjoy slightly more feminine things without worrying about being judged or invalidated - but you know what, we just need to say screw it and try to enjoy the things we want to.
You said skirts give to you panic attacks, so don’t start there. Try to find something smaller and a little more what society would consider feminine and work your way up to bigger things.