It’s that halfway point between being straight up jealous and not wanting to be and simply cause your personal life experience has taught you that sometimes people have a habit of moving on or simply growing tired of you. It’s distinguishing between them that’s hard to do.
I miss the days of being a little kid. You could just walk up to someone and instantly become their best friend. There would be this instant click of trust and friendship, and you were playing like you’d known each other your whole five-year-long life.
There were no fights over boys or worries about how much you weighed and you didn’t worry about which friends you could trust; you trusted all of them and they all trusted you. Everything was black and white; no moral dilemmas over a situation, no real issues.
Now? It’s all a blurry myriad of colors, so much that I can’t decide if the resulting mess is beautiful or tragic. Sometimes, all the available choices are the wrong ones, and we can’t always fix everything with a hug or an “I’m sorry” anymore. People change and come and go, yet we all stay the same and wish that everything around us would, too. We learn to hate food and ourselves and each other because society says so. We fight over boys like the world would stop turning if we stopped fighting, and sometimes we don’t know who we can trust.
I guess this is just one of those days where I really want nothing more than to be five years old again.
let’s build a blanket fort and watch disney movies and drink hot chocolate with too many marshmallows, just like the old days // an excerpt from a book i’ll never write #22
I was hooked after the first line. Pop sensation Bebe Rexha returns on this beautiful Friday to deliver what could be the pop song of the summer. Featuring a blend of genres, Bebe flexes her star power in the first release of the 5 song EP “I Don’t Wanna Grow Up,” due out on May 12th. In a time where female pop stars are not only unique, but making fantastic music (see Tove Lo, Kiesza, Sia) you can now feel comfortable adding Bebe to this list of rising stars.
Why is everyone in such a big hurry to grow up?! SLOW THE HECK DOWN! Be immature and have fun! And if someone dare tell you to grow up yell, “WHY DON’T YOU GROW DOWN?!” and stick your tongue out at them then run away arms flailing.
“ you know , sometimes I wish I wasn’t seventeen ”
My best friend looks at me sadly and replies
“ but why ? You’re almost done with high school , we are almost done with this little
Town, you can go off to that big city you’re always dreaming about .”
“ I don’t know . Seventeen is hard . Life is hard. When you are six , life is so carefree . You are so clueless about the horrible things around you . When you are six it’s all about running as fast as you can, and living in the moment . At seventeen I’m always thinking about tomorrow . It’s all about plans and what’s next . I’m so stressed. Seventeen means the future . Seventeen means running as far away as you can .”
- 17 is too much at times . Sometimes I’d rather be 6