ok but what if BTS doesn’t want to wake up Yoongi not because they’re scared of angering him, but they actually don’t want to wake up him because they know how hard working he is and how less sleep he gets so they want to let him rest whenever he can
In spite of everything I love
Harley Quinn but, damn, writers treat her so badly. I swear, the temptation to
make her actually stupid must be terrible because it’s so often implied, or
explicitly stated, that she slept her way through school. First of all, it
does not work like that. Second, she’s
not a therapist or a psychologist, she’s a psychiatrist, she’s a fricking MD
and a damn young one too. Managing pre-med and collegiate gymnastics that she
relied on to keep her scholarship? Harley is fucked up, but she’s not the dumb
blonde she plays. (also stop making her stacked, she’s a gymnast. she is 4’11”
of pure muscle and is not top heavy)
If you want a good Harley
backstory it’s simple. She’s ADHD but medicated and slightly robotic because of
it. I want to take special care not to demonize meds but, rather, people’s
disapproval of neurodivergence and a lack of focus on what is best for a
patient rather than what is most convenient for others. So, maybe, around ten
years old Harley is a hyperactive space cadet who’s brilliant at tests but
sloppy at coursework, who would be a gymnastics prodigy if she could actually
focus on technique and put in practice time instead of fooling around. Then the
meds come and it’s actually really cool because she can do the things she needs
to do instead of just wanting to do them, doing something else entirely, and
getting in trouble. People are proud of her, she’s proud of herself. But now
there are expectations. Family and teachers and coaches overschedule her, find
worth only in her success and don’t care about her mental health at all as long
as she’s performing and castigate her when she does fail. Fuck if you don’t
internalize that. But she doesn’t look unhealthy and she’s doing amazing. She
actually has to choose between the Olympic trials and continuing her grad
studies. She probably has some issues with self-harm but it either doesn’t look
like self-harm or is well covered up.
When Arkham accepts her, fresh
from her residency, it’s not a mistake. The woman is amazing. All they can see
is a mountain of achievements rather than the seething ball of nerves,
self-loathing, and imposter syndrome boiling just under the surface. That’s
when Joker comes in. He’s got the Hannibal Lecter shtick down. Where everyone
else sees an intelligent driven young woman he sees a frightened overwhelmed
girl who is working her hardest to convince the world she’s anyone other than
herself. Sending her into a nervous breakdown would be too easy so he doesn’t even
bother. Instead he’s open with her, almost friendly. The other doctors are
amazed, Harley is amazed, she’s not done anything particularly revolutionary
but, for the first time in forever, it looks like the clown prince of crime is
showing progress. He unravels her and it’s a challenge, she flinches back and
gets very serious when he comes too close to the real Harley under the
professional. Still, soon she’s questioning everything. She doesn’t even really
like her co-workers. She hasn’t had a real friend in years. She’s forgotten how
to have fun. Did she ever want this to be her life or did she just do it for
other people? It starts so slowly that it looks, at first, like she’s getting
better at self-care. Maybe something totally silly one weekend, a trampoline
park where she can enjoy the way her toned body moves without stressing out
over landings, a face painting booth at a street fair, some garishly colored
downright tacky decoration that clashes with her sensible apartment. Suddenly
she realizes how much she hates knowing the difference between cream and ecru.
The beigeness of her life is repulsive. She hates the person she’s pretending
to be even more that she hates herself which is really saying something.
After her weekend of freedom she
would have called in sick if it wasn’t so suddenly important to see him. The
relief she feels at talking to one of Gotham’s most infamous supercriminals is
disturbing but it is relief and she’s been swallowing a slow-motion panic
attack for hours. She admits, though she shouldn’t, that she took his advice
about doing something fun and he teases her, what would straight-laced Doctor
Quinzel do for fun? Did she realphabetize her sock drawer or buy a new
clipboard? It’s not important to impress him, it’s really not. He’s dangerous,
cruel, and he looks so proud when she admits that she bought a lamp shaped like
a lawn flamingo. The only mistake, he says, is that she should have stolen it.
She hopes the wicked thrill it gives her doesn’t show on her face. It does. She
almost even laughs. He likes it when he can make her laugh and she likes it
when he likes things.
It’s wrong and unprofessional,
the relationship she develops, and she knows it but her whole life she’s been
so high strung. Nothing she’s done has been for her, she’s not sure she knows
how to really do selfish things anymore, but he knows the selfish things she
needs to do. It feels good when she follows his advice even when it’s small
things like the rainbow striped socks she wears concealed under her very bland
slacks and sensible shoes. She’s so happy, almost giddy, and he loves her
happiness, he loves her, he loves the real her that she’s had to beat down and
hide for so long, the her that even she isn’t able to love. She is able to love
him, though, and since he loves her she’s able to love herself for him, to
protect and nurture something so important to him.
When the choice comes between
her old self, the tedious endless labor of making the world proud, and Him, the
spectacular man that brought color into her life, it’s not even a question.
She kills Doctor Harleen Quinzel, she throws away the version of her that let
herself burn just for medals and hollow accolades. She embraces Harley Quinn
and it’s so much a part of her nature she can’t even see that she’s still
living her life for someone else’s approval, except this time that person is a murderous
clown. She hasn’t let her hair down, she’s just put it in pigtails instead of a
meg’s photoshoot with rob was one of the single most visually inspiring things i’d ever seen so i was REALLY intimidated to take on a single one of them. i told myself i wouldn’t pour a ton of time into this, and then immediately threw that thought in the trash
So there’s one bit near the end of the Genocide Run that hit me pretty hard, personally. And as with most things that hit me very hard emotionally, it was a random almost throwaway line that wasn’t written to be focused on that much. But whether it intentionally held the meaning I took from it or not, it doesn’t change the fact that I DID take meaning from it.
When Flowey is monologuing near the very very end of the game and explaining what he went through, he talks about how he lacks the ability to feel anything for the people around him, and how desperately, frantically, he wishes he did. He talks about how, at first, he tried to help people. He talks about how at first it seemed to help, but every time it was time to let go, to move on, he got scared and couldn’t do it. He’d panic and reset instead. And how then he’d be right back where he started. And he would try helping everyone again.
But it became hollow. Everyone always said the exact same things, and did the exact same things. And nothing changed. And nothing new ever happened.
And eventually, just out of sheer desperation for SOMETHING new, he decided to kill everyone. And how that was at first a relief, but even that grew stale and empty as he did it over and over again. Until he was left with nothing, and there was nothing to care about, either for better or worse, but he couldn’t let go either. So he was trapped in this world where nothing ever changed, and he couldn’t make himself leave.
It’s a sad story, but it’s also a bit of a gut punch because of its implications.
Maybe in time, the person playing the game, the actual human being behind the keyboard, not the pixel character they control, would find themselves in the exact same situation. Eventually, things in a game stop changing. Characters always say the same things, do the same things. And maybe in time, as boredom takes over, the player would also try a genocide game just for SOMETHING new. But eventually even that will become empty and lead to nowhere after you do it enough.
I can’t really say if that’s true or not. I can’t say it’s false either.
But It’s 2 years now. And a lot of us are still here. And more importantly a lot of us still care. Quite deeply in fact.
And maybe we won’t care forever, maybe the same thing will happen, or more likely, we’d be the ones able to let go and move on to other things and let go. Maybe there’s no escaping that.
But it’s been 2 years, and at least for now, we’re still here.
There is also the possibility I’ve considered, that since the insane success of the game was never expected or anticipated at all, that the level of love it caused in gamers was a complete and utter surprise, maybe their ability to never fall into that cycle of apathy and just how long they can keep going, caring as hard as ever, will also be a complete surprise that was never foreseen.
Or even more simply, maybe Flowey just needed to be shown, as with so many things, he was wrong about that too.
Who knows. Honestly I can’t say how things will look in time. It could either way.
I know that @higharollakockamamie has done amazing translations for ffxv’s comic anthology already, but I really liked this story about Noct and the black chocobo, so I scanlated it xD (I should’ve finished this weeks ago but I didn’t bc I love procrastinating orz)
Comments from author Hanten Sharoh (反転シャロウ): When it comes to FFXV, I’m all about the side quests! And the bounty hunts! So I smashed my passion into the script of this manga. The side quest related to the black chocobo was especially heartwarming, and I definitely recommend it to anyone who has not done it yet!
me, anytime i see a scary looking insect/bug/arthropod:
i appreciate your role in the environment and i'm sure you are a beautiful example of your species but please stay 19274538382 miles away from me, thank you
Ok ok but Phichit and Yuuri probably tried to pair skate like total dorks back in Detroit.
The two being overly dramatic when arias are played, Phichit (trying) to lift Yuuri and only somewhat succeeding because Yuuri is pretending to die in his arms. Doing the entire single ladies routine on ice. Phichit holding ridiculous poses as Yuuri spins him around. Yuuri lifting Phichit up, Phichit holding his arms out wide and yelling “never let go jack!!!!!”. Doing a full on tango with a rose in Phichit’s mouth. Giggling as they fall on each other on the ice
Lapis redesign because I dislike her canon one. Specifically because of the fact she doesn’t really have any shapes that really DEFINE her, like Garnet = Squares, Amethyst = Circles, Peridot = Triangles ect, I associated her with a water drop shape cause…. y’know w a t e r.
Also got rid of the horrid neon blue colors and gave her speckles of yellow, like the ACTUAL LAPIS LAZULI GEM HAS. Why didn’t she have any sort of yellow incorporated into her design in the first place.
Bakugou’s internship with Best Jeanist; manga vs anime
It’s been a week since the beginning of Bakugou’s
intership with Best Jeanist has been aired now, and I took my time to
do a short analysis on their first meeting because the anime staff
did change the scene and it kinda bugged me since. I’m being really picky here so it’s alright if you didn’t think anything about this scene and don’t agree with me, feel free to ignore everything I’m about to say. I’m not writing that in any attempt to defuse Bakugou’s responsibilites and the issues he still needs to address; I already wrote about that on multiple post such as this one.
In the manga, Bakugou is clearly shown
being surprised the first time he and Best Jeanist talked. He didn’t expect Best Jeanist would have sent an invitation for him so he could ‘reform
him’, and what I liked about this scene was that Bakugou was pretty
cautious around Best Jeanist, and didn’t actually talk back to him.
There’s one thing about Bakugou that’s
interesting to notice; as aggressive as he can be, he respects
pro-heroes and behaves correctly with them (unless they’re trying to
enter his personal space like All Might did when he tried to comfort him). Here for example, at the beginning with Aizawa.
It’s a trait of him I
appreciate and that helps understanding his character. He’s not only an arrogant kid who thinks nothing of others and is convinced they’re
all trash no matter what they do. Bakugou admitted after their first
exercise with All Might that Todoroki was strong, that Yaoyorozu’s
analysis were on point, was wary of Uraraka during the sports
festival, and later told Kirishima he was strong as well. Bakugou is
knowledgeable and smart, he realizes others’ good and weak points and acknowledge they can be strong. He begins to act violently when he
feels weak because of his inferiority complex, and
it happens most of the time with Izuku, who was supposed to be the weakest-
if he’s stronger than him, then what does that make him? Bakugou is strong, but because of his complexes and anxiety, misreads reality and accumulates strong negative emotions that make him flares up. During his internship, he didn’t felt that way in front of Best Jeanist. Bakugou respects
Best Jeanist and holds him in high regards, that’s why he went there. Best Jeanist assumed
Bakugou went to his agency because he was popular but, Best Jeanist
is popular because he’s strong, and Bakugou must know that. In the manga, Bakugou took the
comment and didn’t say a thing in return. His stance shows he’s
being careful, even though he’d probably want to say something back,
and he’s being driven into a corner, as
Best Jeanist exposes what he’d need to change about his attitude and he knows that he’s ultimately right. Though combing hair and changing clothes didn’t really do the thing after all, did it.
Now in the anime, something completely
different was shown and I’m kinda disappointed with the way it was
handled. Unlike the subtlety of the manga, in the anime Bakugou flares up and has an aggressive stance as he scoots closer, like he’s
ready to fight Best Jeanist, which is on total contrast with how it
was pictured in the manga.
Bakugou appears irremediably violent and ferocious, just as Best Jeanist said, proving his point where it wasn’t the case in the manga where Bakugou behaved. Even though he was more on the defensive side in the manga, here Bakugou’s trying to be intimidating towards Best Jeanist, and as a result, Best Jeanist uses his
powers on him to… Tie him up and restrain him, once more.
There’s really less subtlety than in the manga where Best Jeanist didn’t use force against Bakugou and was trying to ‘reform him’ elegantly, according to his ideals. Best Jeanist is right when he tells Bakugou he
needs to be careful of appearances, they are in a society were how you appear in mass media is crucial and can determine your fate (the system Stain militates again coincidentally), and more importantly he wanted Bakugou to be more careful with people. His intentions were correctly oriented, but his methods were already useless even in the manga, and became ultimately wrong in the anime where it was some kind of an uncomfortable struggle for authority. Best Jeanist is a cool and strong hero, I liked the tension that was in the manga, and I find
damageable for both him and Bakugou how that interaction was changed in