i don't think that they'd understand

anonymous asked:

Are you gonna start T ever? My mom had hard time accepting me being trans as she thought it was a phase/rebelling. She's been much more understanding after I started transitioning and she saw that I was serious. She also stopped misgendering when my appearance matched my identity. Our relationship is still strained but better. (If this is too private don't publish, no offense taken! I don't like people knowing I'm not cis so sorry about anon. Just wanted to share some thoughts. Take care!)

Hiya! To begin the ask with it’s not too private in my opinion, I don’t mind (over)sharing stuff as is evident by my personal posts haha~

And to answer your question, yes! I do plan on starting T, in fact if it were up to me I would have most likely started it already. But, there’s this thing at least in Finland that because I am mentally ill, they will most likely not give me treatment before, idk, they deem me mentally well enough. I guess it’s somehow related to ~it might be a phase bc of the mental illness~ kind of logic but yeah, it’s a bullshit thing. Esp since not being able to start T is making my mental health worse…

But I feel like you’re right, that things might ease up with mom once I start T. I feel like she’s still in the phase that, she feels like she can convince me to keep my legal name and not start T, so once that’s already done she will really have no way to avoid thinking about it.

Thank you for sharing your thoughts and experience!! I think and hope that when I start T they’ll get more understanding about it. I hope you take care too!!

I Don’t Want the World to See Me (Cause I Don’t Think that They’d Understand) #7

Alright everyone, I know it isn’t Sunday quite yet, but I wanted to get this up tonight because I don’t know if I’ll get the chance to post it tomorrow.

Special thanks to @musichowler​ for one of the passages in this part

#6 - Here’s another little blurb from Bucky’s POV - It takes place shortly after Part 32 of WEMtbB (masterlist here)

Word count - 873

Warnings - Angst, anger, internalized threats of death, brief implications of sex (nothing explicit)

Previously on WEMtbB:

“This isn’t over, Krakken.  You have to know that we will come for her,” Tony says matter-of-factly as he continues to restrain Bucky.

Anatoliy raises an eyebrow and watches Bucky as he answers, “Yes, I expect you will.  That’s kind of the idea, Mr. Stark.”  He motions you forward.  “Get in the car, we are leaving now.”  He turns back to everyone else as you circle around to the passenger seat, “We’ll be in contact after her treatment is administered; I’d strongly recommend that you not try anything stupid until then.  You will receive further instructions at that time.”

Getting into that car is one of the hardest things you’ve ever had to do; not looking back at Bucky as Anatoliy pulled the car out was nearly impossible.

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I will say this until I am worn down. I understand people wanting to be optimistic and I’d never get in the way of it. But I will NOT be waiting for a denial until they’re out of Syco. Until they announce Syco is out, Louis can go to Vegas for a month straight and not seen with anything baby revealed and I still won’t think it’s over.

When Syco is out of the picture, that’s when I expect the domino effect of everything falling into place. Because the only reason I think this has gone for so long is because they want to pin it on Syco. That’s why I think Louis is playing along, that’s why I think Liam is playing along with Chiam.

I Don’t Want the World to See Me (Cause I Don’t Think that They’d Understand) # 6

Alright Kate.  This is your fault.  I wasn’t gonna do it, but now I did it.

#6 - Here’s another little blurb from Bucky’s POV - It takes place during Part 27 of WEMtbB (masterlist here)

Word count - 1777

Warnings - Angst.  All of the angst.  

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I Don’t Want the World to See Me (Cause I Don’t Think that They’d Understand) #5

#5 - Here’s another little blurb from Bucky’s POV - It takes place during Part 18 of WEMtbB (masterlist here)

Word count - 1072

Warnings - I don’t really think there’s anything…


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I Don’t Want the World to See Me (Cause I Don’t Think that They’d Understand)

Good God, I must be a glutton for punishment.

Okay, so I had this thought that I should get into Bucky’s head a bit, and then this idea was born.  This series will be a companion piece to WEMtbB - it will be a series of short stories (drabbles? I guess I don’t know the technical term) that shows some of the events from Bucky’s point of view.  It will not be continual or as often updated - just random little blurbs here and there.

This particular piece would be placed somewhere at the end of part 1 or the very beginning of part 2.  It probably won’t make any sense if you haven’t read the other story - it’s here if you want to read it.

Warnings - mmm…probably angst, some self loathing.

Word count - 478

Let me know if anyone wants to be tagged!

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I Don’t Want the World to See Me (Cause I Don’t Think that They’d Understand) #2

Alrighty…here’s another little segment/companion piece from Bucky’s POV.  It WOULD NOT leave me alone until I wrote it.  

This takes place during WEMtbB Part 7.   It probably won’t make any sense if you haven’t read the other story - it’s here if you want to read it.

Word count - 868

Warnings - idk…self loathing I guess?

Tagging: @learisa @musichowler @shifutheshihtzu

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  • People: I like your story about your personal, real-life friend mentioning Harry and Louis are together, but I don't believe it because I didn't hear it from my own friend.
  • People: Someone I know once told me Harry and Louis are together but I didn't see them with my own eyes, so I don't believe it.
  • People: I saw People published a special issue with a full page spread of Harry and Louis' wedding but I do not personally believe it because I was not invited.
  • People: I saw Harry and Louis got papped in LA picking their children up from school but I do not personally believe it because paps get called to places so I don't know if it's real or not.
  • People: I saw Harry and Louis were laid to rest next to each other in a cemetery with matching headstones shaped like hearts that said 'Louis, lifelong husband of Harry' and 'Harry, lifelong husband of Louis,' but I just think that's a little extra so still don't think they're together.
  • Me: Please stop.