i don't think that they'd understand

Can you believe Yuuri is going to marry his idol?? the man he has looked up to almost his entire life?? the man who he has seen as god-like, unreachable, perfect. Victor was what Yuuri wished he could be but never thought he’d be able to reach Victor’s level but then?? Victor himself proved him wrong, helped Yuuri reach not only Victor’s level but above it?? His biggest dream was to skate on the same ice as Victor but now he has skated with Victor and they’re gonna get married???

And can you believe that Victor, who has dedicated his life to skating, who has neglected his life and love for decades met a beautiful man who took his breath away, stole his heart during one night and then disappeared, left Victor pining for him with no way to contact him, finally found him?? He found that beautiful man and that man gave him everything that had been missing from Victor’s life and he didn’t even have to try. And then he slipped a ring on Victor’s finger in the most romantic setting imaginable, wordlessly promising to stay by his side for the rest of their lives??

can you believe?????

lgbta
  • 2011: the a stands for ally
  • 2013: the a stands for asexual
  • 2017: the a stands for and i don't want the world to see me cuz I don't think that they'd understand when everything's made to be broken i just want you to know who i am i just want you to know who i am i just want you to know who i am i just want you to know who i am

anonymous asked:

Why do people only believe the ridiculous customer service stories but when I tell them something relatively simple they think it's fake?? Like I could tell my friends that today some guy came in and started swinging on the ceiling like a monkey and throwing his own shit across the store and they'd believe me but if I say "some dude called me a bitch today" nobody believes it??? What is this I don't understand

We get a lot of that around here. Like, seriously, people are the scum of the Earth. There is no hope for humanity. Only customers. -Abby

I Don’t Want the World to See Me (Cause I Don’t Think that They’d Understand) #13

Finally!  Sorry about the wait, this got a little out of hand.  Also, one of my professors this semester is cruel and clueless.  Anyhoo.  This installment gets Bucky’s POV mostly caught up to WEMtbB, so the next update will be there.  Which will be a while, thanks to the 25 page paper due in 2 weeks. 

This is a companion piece for When Everything’s Made to be Broken (I Just Want You to Know Who I Am) from Bucky’s POV - if you haven’t yet read WEMtbB, this won’t make much sense.

#13 takes place during part 43 & 44

***If this is your first time reading through, and you HAVEN’T yet read through part 45 of WEMtbB, this will contain major spoilers***

Word count: 5824 (yeah I know, what the hell Cass, this was supposed to be a series of drabbles)

Warnings:

For the entire work:  Language (I have a potty mouth), violence, and angst.  This will probably get pretty dark later on, and there will be smut.  If that’s not your thing, you may want to avoid this story.

Additional warnings specific to this part: Character death (nothing new, but from Bucky’s POV), physical assault, injury, violence, threats/mentions of death, panic, anxiety, Bucky’s really pissed.   If I need to add anything else, PLEASE LET ME KNOW.  If you don’t want me to publish the ask, I won’t, or you can feel free to do it as a Nonnie.  I will not take offense to any trigger warning requests.   Your well-being is important to me and I do NOT want to trigger anyone.

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charlietherocketman  asked:

Dear Greg, I really wish I could support you on patreon because you have done so much for me as a person. I am a transboy and have had bad thoughts in the past. You've helped me see the brighter side in the future. I am only fifteen and I think if I asked my parents to start paying for you patreon (I'd try donate a lot) they would be shocked or something. I'd pay them back every month but I don't think they'd understand. You probably won't read this but I wish you good luck in your future.

Don’t worry! Just being a viewer of my channels makes me appreciate you more!

Originally posted by sooper-dee-dooper-natural

anonymous asked:

Ah I just got to Kiri's hero debut and can I say... I am WEAK for Kirishima with his hair half spiked up, half disheveled and falling all over his face from the battle while wearing that big, genuine, bright smile of his. What did we do to deserve this boy? Bakugou and Denki are such lucky boyfriends.

I KNOW RIGHT he’s such a gorgeous boy???? Most beautiful manly man I’ve ever seen ever??? with his bright smile and huge eyes and long lashes more like rip me I’m every day grateful Kirishima Eijirou is a thing that exists

mintybogdanow  asked:

hey there! so my friend's username is dangerousteam (their blog is empty as they just use it to read fanfic and they don't wanna tell me the name of their main lmao) so i think they'd like viktor, yuri and yurio, the scenarios, the reader is stressed and frustrated with themselves bc of their add, lots of things are going on and even though they're very smart, they feel like they wont make it, even tho other people try to understand they can't fully do it. i guess it'd be nice with some angst

Of course I can do this! I personally struggle with ADHD and anxiety, so I totally understand where this request is coming from. This request is dedicated to @dangerousteam by their friend. If any of you are struggling with ADD, ADHD, or anything of the sort, you’re not alone; I understand and I’m here for all of you. Feel free to talk to me is you ever need anything from me, or just want someone to talk to :3 I hope you enjoy, and thank you for the request <3


[Viktor Nikiforov]

  • Viktor knows about your ADD and how you can struggle at times, and he always does his very best to help you through tough spots and make sure you feel alright
  • and he may not always get it and he’ll say “omg babe your amazing y are u sad” but honestly he’s crying his best and he loves you sm ;-;
  • Things are getting a bit much for you to handle, and you’re stressed and tired and getting to the end just seems impossible right now, and you reach a breaking point
  • Viktor comes home to find you at the kitchen table crying into your hands, and he drops everything to run over to you and crouches in front of your chair
  • “Baby? C’mon, look at me. I need you to tell me what’s wrong so I can make it better and so i can validate you and make you feel loved bc dammit you’re wonderful and i don’t deserve you
  • When you explain what’s wrong, he stands and takes a few steps back, and you know you’re in for a lecture
  • Viktor goes on and on about how amazing and smart you are, how much he loves you, how wonderful you make him feel, and how confident and strong he knows you can be; he accompanies his speech with a ton of Extra™ gestures and facial expressions, and it’s almost like he’s performing on a stage or something
  • When he finishes his rant, he pulls you out of your chair in a bone-crushing hug and plants kisses all over your face, your stress and worry fading with every touch of his lips to your skin

[Yuri Katsuki]

  • Having experienced mental illness himself, he can empathize with you and understand how your ADD is causing you to struggle
  • He’s the best at understanding where you’re coming from, and he knows exactly what you like and how to make you feel better
  • One day he comes home to a suspiciously quiet house, and he finds you in bed and looking like you’re about to cry
  • me as fuck tho lmao like “oops i can’t do this today i gotta stare at the wall for three hours” yeah adhd is wild y’all
  • He crawls under the covers with you and takes you into his arms, resting his head on top of yours while you start to cry
  • “(Y/N), I know it’s hard, but please don’t give up. You’re so smart and I’m proud of you for trying your best every day. It’s okay to cry, but please promise me you’ll get back up and keep trying once you’re ready. Please?”
  • omg what a sweetheart ;-; like babe you’re so supportive and loving and ugh fuck me up
  • Yuri will hold you and allow you to cry until you feel better, and he’s cheering for you and supporting you the second you get up and try again

[Yuri Plisetsky]

  • Yuri can have some problems sympathizing when it comes to your struggles with ADD, but he knows how to comfort you when the time comes
  • and he’s not trying to be mean ???? he just thinks you’re so smart and beautiful and special like wtf are you insecure for babe u good
  • He comes home one day to find you laying on the sofa and crying, and his protective mode engages automatically
  • He asks you what’s wrong, and you explain that your ADD is causing you some stress and anxiety; Yuri nods in understanding, but his face contorts to a look that looks like a mixture of hurt and anger
  • he’s not mad babe ugh he just wishes you could be happy and know how much you mean to him
  • Yuri somewhat forcefully pulls you up from the couch and holds your face in his hands; his hold on you is firm, but he’s careful to not hurt you
  • “Hey, knock it off. Quit crying, idiot. You’re smart, you’re strong, and you’re fucking okay. I get that you have ADD and it’s hard sometimes, but I’m not letting you quit. I love you too much to watch you give up.”
  • Yuri moves his hands from your face to your waist an he pulls you into a hug, and you let the last of your tears fall into the fabric of his shirt
  • He’ll hug you and hold you for as long as you need, then Yuri will sit down with you and help you get back on track with whatever is bothering you

anonymous asked:

Do you think Jonghyun did plastic surgery? I've seen people call him a plastic surgery 'monster' and the 'male version of Park Bom' but it honestly upsets me so much. I believe that Jonghyun didn't do any plastic surgery expect that one time he got a nose surgery because of that car accident (but I don't think you can count that). Sure, Jonghyun has changed a lot since debut but mainly his skin got lighter and that's about it. If people would only look at his PreDebut Pictures they'd understand.

this is a sensitive topic but my general opinion on plastic surgery is: no one should be judged for getting or wanting to get plastic surgery. as long as it’s a decision that the person getting it made for themselves (and not one that they were forced into) it’s fine. people who try to use a person’s plastic surgery as an insult against them are both cruel and vain. (case in point: all of the gross comments that are made about park bom.) i don’t want to go much further into this, but what i will say is: you’re right that he has changed much since either predebut or debut. all you have to do is compare recent photos with any from either timeline and it’s obvious. he got his nose done after he broke it in a car accident in 2013 but i don’t consider that plastic surgery. any other speculation that people make about him (or any of the other members, for that matter) regarding plastic surgery often doesn’t take into account the following: aging, contouring / styling when wearing make up, weight gain and loss, hairstyling (because this can actually change a person’s look a lot, contrary to popular belief - look at how much sharper jonghyun’s features looked in early 2009 vs. late 2009 simply because of his change in hairstyle), so on and so forth. 

and his skin hasn’t really gotten lighter - at least not overall. his complexion has always been darker, but if you ask anyone who has a darker skintone it’s not rare for skin to look lighter during winter time or if the person in question hasn’t been spending much time out in the sun. (example: our jonghyun with his room entirely decorated in black that apparently has no windows in it.) plus: whitewashing in fantaken and official photos is a thing. trust me. i’ve seen shinee twice in the last year, most recently in march, and he’s tan. 

anonymous asked:

it's hilarious to me how antis don't understand that liking ~problematic content~ is actually the norm, shit like game of thrones, breaking bad, 50 shades, have always been wildly popular with normal ass people, i have LITERALLY sold racy, freaky romance novels to amish chicks, almost everyone loves this shit! I think if they ever tried to interact with real human beings they'd get laughed out of the room for being silly, dumbassed killjoys

Fiction with problematic content in is popular bc it’s fucking real it acknowledges the real problematic shit that happens in the world it isn’t some sugarcoated happy-go-lucky bullshit that nobody can actually relate to

trans-ahsoka  asked:

Idk if u know the answer to this but uh. Like? Is..Taagnus considered Bad or something? And if so, why???? I get that it's a rarepair,, but I literally don't understand why it would b considered problematique™ Everyone who ships it kinda seems to do so very quietly and like. Some ppl even seem concerned they'd get shit for it so? What's the deal?

theres like…a somewhat vocal number of people who think its Bad to ship 2 of taz’s player characters with each other because theyre played by irl brothers. but its like. thats really the only thing i ever see people say about Why Taagnus Is Bad, and that argument is flimsy at best, considering griffin plays all the npcs and very very very few people are opposed to ALL taz ships

like its whatever i can respect it if people are too yucked out by that to be able to get into taagnus–probably a lot of people just see PCs and NPCs as different things, but i SUPER dont for a lot of reasons–but i just think that the only argument i ever see being posed as to why its Bad And Problematique is a shitty one that holds little to no weight when u think about it for more than 0 seconds. like just say ur not into it and go on w your day

as for why were kind of quiet about it, i think there are a lot of reasons?? like for one thing there ARE people who like to give taagnus shippers crap over it, and it can be anything from the obvious (sending rude and/or confrontational asks) to the innocuous (reblogging taagnus art and tagging it “i dont ship this tho ew” which happens FREQUENTLY AS HELL and gets Very grating Very quickly). plus were in the minority, like, theres a canon taako ship that people love and theres no way we can compare w that, esp when there are people who want to label taagnus discourseworthy or w/e.

nobody wants a fight??? and i wouldnt be surprised if most of us are just trying to avoid fights.

but like…….if u look at the characters themselves–wholly separate from their creators/players–i have a very hard time finding anything legitimately problematic about a relationship between them? i could make a big ol list of all the Good Healthy Things i see in this ship and anything even remotely iffy i think is either sth that just needs to be dealt with in canon (ie their respective traumas–which on another note i think could be dealt with by exploring their relationship w each other!! even nonromantically!!), or is a fuckin big ol example of Reachie Reach & Hellsite comin to say hello

anonymous asked:

Can you do the s and m family reacting to their s/o having anxiety (I don't think they'd be too kind about it, but I wanted to know what you thought) (if you can only do one family that's cool too!) thank you

I have anxiety, so I can relate! |・ω・) 

  • Ayato: At first he would tease you, but then after realizing you were really upset and actually weren’t okay he would probably pull you to him until you calmed down. If push came to shove, he would take you to a room where it was just you and him and try to talk about what was making you so anxious.
  • Laito: He doesn’t really understand anxiety, he thinks nobody should be nervous over small things. He would try to tell you everything was going to be alright and give you lots of hugs and kisses (hoping it will lead to other things.)
  • Kanato: Surprisingly enough, Kanato has anxiety too! He’s always terrified of being replaced or left alone. Whenever you have an anxiety attack, its the only time he shows affection by getting a blanket, sweets, and cuddles with you the whole day and doesn’t leave you alone until he’s sure you’re alright.
  • Reiji: He gets mad. He thinks anxiety doesn’t exists, he thinks it’s all in your head. Reiji never really does anything when your anxiety gets back except makes you a cup of tea and leaves it outside your door, he does care about you- but he doesn’t want to show it.
  • Shu: It scares him, he doesn’t like you freaking out at random times, he’s scared when you say you can’t breathe. The only way he knows how to calm you down is to hold you and rub your back soothingly, he even takes fake slow breaths, hoping that you’ll go in sync with him.
  • Subaru: He won’t let you leave his room. He will sit you in his lap on his bed and make you do dumb things like count his fingers and then yours, trying to do simple things to distract you like asking you dumb questions about how many letters are your name and his name combined. Just small things to calm you down.
  • Ruki: He usually takes you to a quiet place and reads to you and holds you until you say you’re okay. Then that night he sleeps with you in your bed to make sure nothing else happens to you.
  • Kou: He drags out dumb things like magazines with fashion, asking you which outfit would suit you best. You think it’s stupid but he will braid your hair or ask to do your make up, something to make you have attention on him and not what’s making you upset.
  • Yuma: He loses his shit. Yuma is terrfied when you start to breathe funny and can’t talk, he takes your hand and places it on his chest and takes long deeps breaths and tells you do what he’s doing. Everytime you have an anxiety attack he makes you sleep in his bed for a week, until he’s certain you’re okay.
  • Azusa: It shakes him to his core. He never leaves you alone except in the bathroom, even then- he sits outside the bathroom door and ask you if you’re okay about every ten minutes. When you do have anxiety, he holds you and hums, sometimes he will kiss you but that’s only if you’re sort of calm.

anonymous asked:

I hiiighly doubt they'll be buying cos like, my friend,, if u think rent is high in central u should see actual house prices like people don't rlly buy homes in London they just rent. Though I do wish they'd move out of London so they actually could buy a home!!

Sorry for the late reply, i was waiting for the video and didnt cook until i watched it so have been making dinner. 

I understand what you’re saying, but housing in London doesn’t really work like that. I’m from London, grew up in a house in London, will rent in London within the year, and ‘hopefully’ will buy somewhere in London in the next 7 years (if all goes well haha).

So basically, yes, rent is high in central London, or more we should really say the places in London accessible by the tube. DnP live in North London currently, and I’m assuming they’ll stay north of the river since the tube networks are better there. They won’t live properly central, so I’m thinking further out. (I’m currently assuming they live in zone 2). Flat’s out there will certainly be over £1million, but DnP have earned a lot of money recently from merch, TABINOF, TATINOF, and DAPGO. On top of that they have their YT revenue. So, buying a house/flat over 1 million I would assume is within their price range.

And anyway, they almost certainly won’t pay for the whole house, they’ll get a mortgage. And because they’ve had a large income over the past few years from the things mentioned above, getting a mortgage for a house/flat which is over 1 million, even 2 million would probably be given to them. 

And people really do buy flats and houses in London. Some friends of mine who work in city jobs only had to save for a couple of years and live with their parents and now they’re buying flats - so it’s very possible dnp are buying. And my future is dependant on the fact that I’ll one day be able to own a flat in London. I’ve checked if it’s possible if I get a good enough job - and it’s possible, hard, but possible. Luckily for dnp they’ve been raking it in, they’ve probs got awesome credit scores, they’ll be easily given a great mortgage loan with a dealable mortgage repayment system from a bank, and they’ve almost certainly got enough to put down an offer on a house/flat.

And it makes WAY more sense to buy a house/flat in london (if you can afford the deposit and get a mortgage) BECAUSE the rental prices are so high. If you rent, you never see that money again because it’s given to a landlord. If you buy a house/flat with a mortgage, then if you want to move to a different place you sell the house/flat and sell the mortgage too and get your money back (and hopefully a bit extra on top if the housing market doesn’t crash). So a house is an investment - renting is just throwing money away, and in London it’s throwing a lot of money away. This is called getting on the property ladder: the concept is you buy a flat and a mortgage, then sell it for profit when you want to go somewhere a bit bigger. This way you gain money rather than lose money renting.

DnP for sure have enough money to buy a flat with a mortgage, and this is a good idea because it’s an asset which will give them stability. By their age it’s nice to know that you have a stable investment which if all else fails you can sell. If their business crashes then they can sell the flat and mortgage and gain their money back. If their business crashes and they are still renting then they’ll lose everything. So it’s more financially stable to invest in a house.

And just because they may be moving to a flat it doesn’t mean that it isn’t their home :)

Also, there are plenty of houses (rather than flats) which would be a great size for dnp in London. I personally don’t think they would actually move to the suburbs of London. I assume they live around zone 2 right now, and i would think they wouldn’t live past zone 4. So this idea of them moving out to the suburbs into a house isn’t really their style. And london is big and there are houses within their price range within zones 2-4. 

idk, i hope you understood all of that. i get what you’re saying, but as a Londoner in their 20s, I really do think it would be way more sensible and financially beneficial if they’re buying this next place rather than renting :)

(i’m so sorry, this is all too real for me and probably the most boring shit anyone has ever read and the scariest reality check for any fellow Londoners in their 20s hahaha)

I Don’t Want the World to See Me (Cause I Don’t Think that They’d Understand) #9

Here’s another little piece from Bucky’s POV - it takes place during Part 39.

***If this is your first time reading through, and you HAVEN’T yet read through part 45 of WEMtbB, this will contain major spoilers***

Word count: 1331 (so much for this being a drabble series)

Warnings - Angst, anger, thoughts of violence/death, thinly veiled threats of violence/injury/rape/death, violence, injury

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anonymous asked:

gallavich prompt: can you do something where one of them has an accident and forgets who the other is? :)

// ok I’ve given this my best shot…it’s a total standalone, full on oneshot, completely unrelated to my gallavich queer club universe (but trust me there is lots more of that coming!) enjoy //

‘Im sorry Mr Gallagher but he has amnesia.’

Ian sighed. 'But he’s going to remember? It’ll come back?’

'We can’t know anything for certain. I don’t want to promise something that may not happen. You’re free to visit him now, though. He’s awake.’

So Ian walked slowly down the corridor, breathing in the harsh chemical smell of the hospital. He just wanted to get to the room and see Mickey, yet he walked slower than ever. He knew that every step he took was a step closer to discovering something terrible.

'Can I come in?’, he called, knocking on the door. The man in the bed frowned at him, confused.

'I think you have the wrong room, man,’ he said, shrugging blankly.

Ian’s heart almost stopped. 'Mickey. It’s me. It’s Ian’, he whispered, shocked.

Mickey’s eyes widened. 'How the fuck do you know my name?’, he said, his tone suspicious and body inching away from Ian in caution, who had now entered the room.

Ian couldn’t believe what he was hearing. 'I know your name, Mickey Milkovich, because I have loved you for just shy of eight years.’

'I’m not a fucking fag,’ Mickey spat aggressively, but his eyes were fearful.

'You’ve got to be kidding me,’ Ian muttered incredulously. Mickey had reverted back to how he was before coming out. Before even knowing Ian. He walked up close to Mickey and got up close, the words falling slowly but piercingly out of his mouth. 'I don’t know what year you think you’re in, but back in 2014, you came out. You practically screamed it. Your dad beat the shit out of us, but we won. We went home and showered together and we didn’t fuck that night. We kissed with our broken faces and just lay side by side all night. Toe to toe, head to head. I held you. I kissed away your tears. And then, Mickey, then you rested your ear over my chest and you fell asleep listening to my heartbeat.’ Mickey was staring at him, paralysed. Ian wondered if he’d gone too far, but he didn’t stop. 'I know your name, Mickey Milkovich, because I can’t count the number of times I’ve fucking screamed out your name each time you coaxed my body into an orgasm…which you reciprocated nicely, might I add. Usually I top. But liking what you like don’t make you a bitch, isn’t that right?’

'I don’t know who the fuck you think you are but you need to shut your fucking mouth,’ Mickey practically whimpered. Then Ian calmed down a little. He realised that this wasn’t Mickey’s fault. So he spoke softly and less aggressively.

'I know your name, Mickey Milkovich, because six months ago, we got married. In the park here in Chicago. Our sisters were bridesmaids. Your brothers didn’t show up. But mine became yours. Lip was my best man. Kev was yours. And Yev was ring bearer. Your son - our son.’ Mickey was speechless. 'He’s almost five. And these are the rings he carried down the aisle to us,’ Ian said, holding up his hand to show the thick, plain silver band snug on his fourth finger. Then he tentatively reached out to run his thumb over Mickey’s identical ring. Mickey instinctively snatched his hand away like Ian’s touch burned him. 'In your vows, you told me that you loved me beyond any and all things. And you told me again later, when it was just us, because I still couldn’t believe it. It felt like a dream. Because I love you too, Mickey. So, so much,’ Ian told him, tears in his eyes, desperate. He clasped Mickey’s hand now and held on, his husband’s hand, the hand he knew better than his own, as he cried silently.

Mickey stared at their hands, fingering the ring on his finger, frowning. 'I don’t know where to even begin…they told me I had some amnesia but…how could I forget so much? There’s just, years and years missing. Years with you, apparently. You don’t seem like the sort of guy I could forget’, he whispered.

Ian raised his eyebrows. 'Was that - are you flirting?’ he almost laughed.

Mickey looked away awkwardly. 'Look, I know I’m gay. I’ve always known. I never kiss guys. Don’t want them to get attached…well. I don’t want to get attached to them, honestly.’

'You kiss me plenty. All of that playing-it-straight crap went to shit after a couple years with me.’

'Am I really married? To you?’ Ian reached for his wallet.

'I’ll bring more pictures from home, tomorrow - but I always have this one with me. This is us. Last May.’ Ian showed him the little rectangular picture.

'We look good,’ Mickey remarked, but the two men in tuxes with matching grins looked like strangers to him. There was a pause. 'Do I really have a kid?’

'Yes. He’s here,’ Ian said, flipping the pockets of the wallet over and revealing a photo from a year or so ago, of Yev sat on the couch at Ian and Mickey’s place. 'Yevgeny. We all call him Yev.’

'What kind of a -’

'Russian.’

'Why?’ Ian considered how to answer. 'Who’s his mother?’

Ian sighed. 'It’s a long story. I’ll tell you another day.’ Mickey didn’t persist.

'How did we meet?’

Ian smiled. 'It was 2011. We were still living out our teenage years, though yours were nearly over. You thought I’d - hurt your sister and you just burst into the shop where I used to work, screaming out my name. Wouldn’t be the last time you did that…anyway. We didn’t really meet until I came to your place one morning. We started out fighting, pretty hard, but then you pinned me down and - I just remember our eyes locked and we just stared at each other, and we just knew. And then we were just doing it. Fucking in your twin bed. I was fifteen. Shit.’ He sighed. 'We kept hooking up in secret. Always rushing through the sex. Terrified of getting discovered. That was more you than me, but still. We didn’t even kiss for, like, two years. Not that I didn’t try. But we used to flirt shamelessly. That was more me than you. You were nothing like anyone I’d ever known. I didn’t think you could exist. But you did. Eventually you seemed to just accept that you wanted me and you weren’t going to deny yourself pleasure anymore. It was literally destroying you, Mick.’

-

Ian had gone to get them both coffee. On the walk back, he reflected. It was still unbelievable. And unfair. But when hadn’t things been with them? He didn’t know how he could tell Mickey everything. Svetlana. Terry. His bipolar. The accident. How could everything about them have been wiped clean out of his head?

As he returned, he was broken out of these thoughts by Mickey’s voice ringing down the corridor. He was…singing? Ian listened.

'And I don’t want the world to see me, cos I don’t think that they’d understand’, Mickey sang, scratchy but pure.

Ian stood in the doorway, frozen. Mickey noticed. 'Are you ok?’, he asked.

'Mick…why were you singing that song?’, he asked in a choked whisper.

Mickey shrugged. 'I don’t actually know. I seem to remember it from somewhere. And it’s - it’s nice. I guess,’ he said, puzzled. 'Why?’

Ian stepped inside the room slowly. 'That was the song we danced to at our wedding. It’s our song, it’s our fucking song’, he said, then sang the next line, voice shaking, 'when everything’s made to be broken, I just want you to know who I am.’

They didn’t say anything. They just stared at each other, both searching for things that the other didn’t know how to give.

Mickey slowly slipped off the ring and held it. 'So I can remember our wedding song but not the wedding’, he murmured bitterly.

Ian noticed Mickey’s eyes fill with tears. He knew him well enough to know that any second he would begin crying. He walked over and held Mickey, not caring if the gesture was too sudden - if his husband was crying, he was going to comfort him. Sure enough, Mickey gave a loud sob, then tears fell down his face as he began to cry. Ian absentmindedly stroked his neck, planted little kisses in his hair; it was second nature. 'Sorry,’ he said after a moment, worrying Mickey would react adversely to the affection.

Mickey shook his head. 'It’s fine. It’s - nice. That’s not it.’

'Then what?’

'It’s just…I want to remember it, all of it. Not only for my sake but for yours too, this isn’t fair to either of us’, Mickey sobbed.

Ian nodded. 'I know. I know’, he said, feeling tears sting his own eyes. After everything they’d been out through, this just felt like the sickest, most fucked up twist of fate.

Mickey slowly turned and looked at Ian. He had somehow ended up curled against Ian’s chest, a familiar position. They were so close; Ian could feel his breath on his neck and it took all the strength he had not to kiss Mickey. It was too soon, it was too soon, he kept telling himself.

But then Mickey reached up, slowly, tracing the outline of Ian’s face. Tentative at first, then coming to cradle Ian’s face in his palm. Mickey’s eyes fell to his lips.

'Oh fuck,’ Ian murmured, and gave in. He kissed him hard, and then Mickey returned the kiss, deepened it. Ian’s hands ran through Mickey’s hair and they really tasted each other. Ian couldn’t get enough of him, no matter how familiar he was. That was the beauty of it.

'Your kiss. I’ve had it before’, Mickey said breathlessly.

Ian smiled. 'My lips are clearly a pretty unforgettable experience’, he smiled through his tears. Mickey laughed.

-

Mickey had fallen asleep in his arms and Ian had stayed, holding him. It reminded him of old times, before the accident. They lay together on the bed, Ian breathing in the same old smell. The blood and the hospital couldn’t erase it; it was, unmistakably, home.

'Ian? Are you awake?’, he whispered.

Ian looked down at his husband. 'Yeah. I’m here.’

'I just want to say. I’m - I’m sorry. You don’t deserve this. I can’t imagine how hard it must be’, he said.

'It’s not your fault’, Ian began, but Mickey cut across -

'regardless. I’m sorry. And when the doctor sees me tomorrow, I’m going to find out how I can beat this thing - if I can. If I can’t, well…’, he trailed off, unsure what would happen.

'Then we’ll work through it. I vowed to take you in sickness and in health’, Ian reminded him. 'God knows you’ve done that for me. Look, I love you, Mickey. I will always love you. And I know you’ve forgotten how to love me, but I’ll remind you. I want you to remember, to feel it all again’, he whispered, kissing his neck.

Mickey smiled. 'Thank you, firecrotch,’ he muttered as his eyes closed, drifting back into sleep.

Ian’s heart jolted and he closed his eyes, grinning, as more tears came. 'You’re on your way back, aren’t you,’ he whispered, kissing Mickey’s forehead gently. He didn’t think his old nickname had ever made him cry before.

But that was their relationship. Expect the unexpected. Always.


// the end! PLEASE keep sending me prompts, I gotta write every day this month! //

anonymous asked:

What if Tony gets really self-deprecating when he's drunk and goes "Never have I ever accidentally almost destroyed the world" in reference to Ultron and nobody realised how much he's still being himself up over this (and probably other things). It seems like the team doesn't often get glimpses of this side of him and I'd love to know how they'd react if they perhaps didn't even expect he had such a side (as many people don't).

I think comments like that could help the team in two ways. One, they could laugh them off, together. And by that I don’t mean Tony wouldn’t feel honest guilt (it’s Tony, his guilt issues have issues) but because in a life like theirs you have to be able to laugh it off and move on, that’s the only thing you can do. And they get that. It could help them share this sense of understanding. And through that better relate to Tony.

Then there’s the possibility that they really hear the self-deprecation and realise  how much the self-blame is wearing Tony down. Now whilst that realisation might range from a slap in the face to a confirmation of something they’ve already known (depending their relationship with Tony, their attentiveness etc), understanding doesn’t mean they know how to fix it. Emotionally and mentally stable isn’t exactly part of the usual Avengers’ profile.

So, since comforting isn’t their strength - and this isn’t the sort of problem that’s quickly resolved by a single word of reassurance anyways - they’ll go with distraction. Distracting by teasing Tony about something silly he’s guaranteed to be embarrassed by. Distracting him by sharing their own failures. Distracting by saying something nice to him. Distracting him by talking about the latest crazy shit that’s happened to them.

(Yes, I headcanon that they all have Avoidance issues with a capital ‘A’.)

Also, when Tony says “Never have I ever accidentally almost destroyed the world,” I’ll guarantee you, every single one of them drinks.

I Don’t Want the World to See Me (Cause I Don’t Think that They’d Understand #12

Thanks for your patience, everyone!  There’s still one more to go to get Bucky caught up, and then it’s back to WEMtbB.  IDWtWtSM pieces will go back to being sporadic instead of a steady installment, so the main story will be updated more frequently (well, that’s probably not the right word, but you know what I mean).  I do have to warn you - I don’t have anything written for either of them, so it will probably be a couple of weeks between updates.

Also - I hate school it makes me want to cry.

This is a companion piece for When Everything’s Made to be Broken (I Just Want You to Know Who I Am) from Bucky’s POV - if you haven’t yet read WEMtbB, this won’t make much sense.

#12 takes place during part 42

***If this is your first time reading through, and you HAVEN’T yet read through part 45 of WEMtbB, this will contain major spoilers***

Word count: 2790

Warnings:

For the entire work:  Language (I have a potty mouth), violence, and angst.  This will probably get pretty dark later on, and there will be smut.  If that’s not your thing, you may want to avoid this story.

Additional warnings specific to this part: physical assault, injury, violence, threats/mentions of death, Bucky’s really pissed   If I need to add anything else, PLEASE LET ME KNOW.  If you don’t want me to publish the ask, I won’t, or you can feel free to do it as a Nonnie.  I will not take offense to any trigger warning requests.   Your well-being is important to me and I do NOT want to trigger anyone.

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I Don’t Want the World to See Me (Cause I Don’t Think that They’d Understand) # 8

#8  Here’s another little blurb from Bucky’s POV - It takes place during Part 36 of WEMtbB (masterlist here)

Word count - 2355 (so much for this being a drabble….)

Warnings - Angst, anger, the internal wrath of Bucky, thoughts of violence/death

Wondering where Bucky was during the last update to WEMtbB?  Here you go!!  If you need a little music, check out The Light by Disturbed.  This song could have been written for this particular segment.

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