Haha shit I’m late?? I haven’t done comics in literal years soooo. Yeah, this is something I think about in terms of John quite a lot. I can’t help but think it might bug him a lot now and then, even if he fixed a timeline, and when confronted he might lash out. Also, bonus pic;
aight I did not see this spiraling into mini-drama here but I’m going to try to say something because I get how awful feeling inferior is. Making comparisons can be difficult to avoid when you do not have very much confidence or especially when you feel as if you are not doing as well as you should be and are letting people down (this is cliche but everyone grows at different paces and regardless of progress you are loved). This obsessive comparing is extremely tolling on you and not worth the energy at all. As long as you are not adamant towards recovering like I was for the past few years, things will get better (or not as bad as it usually is). It’s not hopeless, I promise. There are people who do want you to feel your best and help you every step of the way and I hope you all have or will find at least one person like this in your lives.
That being said, this whole big blog/small blog thing should not matter because like dailyflygon said, we’re just a bunch of nerds drawing the Pokemon we love. My inferiority issues do lead me to assume ridiculous things like someone being more popular means that they’re obnoxious and exclude others unlike them, but I don’t get that with this community, even as a small, inactive, blog that is lacking in interaction (due to shyness). I’ve never considered myself a part of any communities before, but this one is extremely supportive and I want to at least protect that.
tl;dr It’s okay to feel down. We cannot control how we react to things, but we should not act on those feelings in a way that causes stress for others either. Instead, find a way to lift yourself back up without hurting yourself or anyone else.
It’s still Christmas in my timezone, so I’m not late!
Aaaand I accidentally made this another group picture of all the MCQ skellies, WHOOPS. It was originally going to be just the three bros, but then I felt Deccy and Fresh cuddles were necessary, and the others wormed their way in. They were also meant to be chibis, but they ended up just being smol? So, this ended up taking longer than I planned, hence the almost/kind of lateness.
I designed the sweaters for Geno, Error and Ink. I have mixed feelings about the results, but I don’t wanna mess around with them anymore.
I have more ideas for Christmas pictures, so I might draw and post them late!
I hope everyone has/had a very merry Christmas, or whichever holiday you celebrate, or just a great day in general!
i wonder what their last words to each other were.
after the finality of the moment had already settled, everyone felt it was over, inevitably, where they sharp? a last blow? or were they soft, a last touch of sentiment, after tearing each other apart, before the end? was anyone choking back tears, did they think they were going to miss the other? or did they breathe a sigh of relief?
and what was their last kiss like? there was no kiss goodbye, so when did it happen? and did they already feel the end coming on, two continents touching for the last time before being separated by their own slow drifting, or was it a kiss of lovers embracing before the crash? did they know its bittersweet finality?
did they ever say “i love you” in those last months? was the air colder than in summer?
how exactly did it feel when everything collapsed?
You don’t understand why everyone feels the need to always be doing something. You like to spend time just thinking, dreaming, planning, and it annoys you when people ask, “Why are you sitting around doing nothing?” It’s not nothing, you’re actually being productive, it’s just not concretely evident.