i don't think i've ever been this happy for someone to win big brother

Remember me (Pt.1)
  • <p> <b>Requests:</b> Open!<p/><b><p></b> <b>A/N:</b> English is not my maternal language, sorry if this has any grammatical errors.<p/><b><p></b> <b>Summary:</b> Bucky and Y/N have a very close friendship. Both are part of the Avengers. He has a girlfriend and is going to take the big step. She instead, suffers a serious accident that changes everything.<p/><b>Characters:</b> Avengers, Bucky, Fem!Reader, OFC (Reader parents, brother...)<p/><b>Genre:</b> Drama, family, angst, romance, hurt/comfort.<p/><b>Warnings:</b> Curse/Swearing, car accident.<p/><b></b> •°•°•°•°•°•°•°•°•°•°•°•°•°•°•°•°•°<p/><b></b> "Two pairs of ACEs, I've won you all!" I exclaimed excited.<p/><b></b> "Oh, come on!" Clint complained after his defeat.<p/><b></b> "For once that I could win!" Nat said frustrated.<p/><b></b> "For once that Tony doesn't play and I have a chance of winning, Y/N makes us to bite the dust! Great!" Bucky said passing his peanuts to me.<p/><b></b> "Thanks, Buck! I'll enjoy your peanuts!"<p/><b></b> "How is it possible that you've won? If you supposedly are bad playing at this?" Clint asked quirking an eyebrow while passing me his nuts.<p/><b></b> "Oh, well... Let's say that I have learned from the best!" I answered to Clint as I winked at Tony.<p/><b></b> "Anyone could win this game." the Stark genius said.<p/><b></b> "It also have to do with the thing that you usually visit Las Vegas?" Nat questioned to Tony, I laughed<p/><b></b> "Maybe." Tony shrugged while he laughed.<p/><b></b> I looked at all my friends who seemed to enjoy the moment.<p/><b></b> "Anybody wants some coffee?" I asked while getting up from the couch of the common room<p/><b></b> "I would like to" Steve and Clint said at the same time.<p/><b></b> "Thank you, Y/N." said Steve with a smile.<p/><b></b> "You are welcome, Cap!" I smiled at him.<p/><b></b> "I'll be back with your coffee, gentlemen." I said while I went to the kitchen.<p/><b></b> "Smells good." Bucky said as he approached me.<p/><b></b> "I know, my coffee is the best"<p/><b></b> "No doubt about it, doll"<p/><b></b> "Hey, how are things with Molly?" I ask to my dear friend.<p/><b></b> "Great, actually, everything is going well. The other day we went out and... well, I proposed marriage. She accepted"<p/><b></b> "Hold on... seriously?" I asked unbelieving, he nodded proudly. " Oh my god, congratulations, Buck!" I hugged him. "You deserve it! Oh, my... God..."<p/><b></b> A strange feeling woke up inside me after think and think again about what he said. I ignored it.<p/><b></b> "Sush, low your voice, Y/N!". He said in a whisper. "Nobody knows anything, you're the first person to know it."<p/><b></b> "Oh! Really? Why?"<p/><b></b> "Why will it be, Y/N?"<p/><b></b> "I do not know..." I shrunk my shoulders.<p/><b></b> "Because you're my best friend, why else?"<p/><b></b> Ouch.<p/><b></b> I laughed "Maybe because you love me?"<p/><b></b> "Well, maybe. Yeah. And you and Jeff? How are you doing?" He changed the subject.<p/><b></b> "We are doing... well." I lied.<p/><b></b> "Are you sure?"<p/><b></b> "No." I admitted "We broke up."<p/><b></b> "Why?" He asked "You were going to live together."<p/><b></b> "I know, but according to him..." I talked "I'm in love with someone else and you know, jealousy kills a relationship."<p/><b></b> "And that's true." he supported his hand on my shoulder and went to hug me "And how you feel about it? Did you talk again?"<p/><b></b> "Sincerely, I'm feeling better than I thought, we broke up the other day and... I don't feel sad or depressed, and that... makes me think that I am insensitive, I don't know, Bucky... We didn't talk since he left my house."<p/><b></b> "Don't say that! Perhaps now you maybe don't feel the need to cry and feel bad, it need not to be just after the break up, you know? It can be when you least expect it or just when you're ready to let you feel that."<p/><b></b> "You are right, Barnes, thank you." I hugged him again.<p/><b></b> "Hey... you know that you can count on me, right? Always"<p/><b></b> "I know. I know." I whispered "Thank you, Sergeant."<p/><b></b> "It is nothing. Come on, let's bring them the coffee." He said while the returned to the living room.<p/><b></b> "Yes, sir"<p/><b></b> [...]<p/><b></b> "So you will come, Y/N?"<p/><b></b> "Huh? Sorry, I was with the paper work... What's up?" I raised the view.<p/><b></b> "I was wondering if tomorrow you will come to the cinema with us, and with Laura and the kids?" Clint asked with a smile.<p/><b></b> "Yes of course!"<p/><b></b> "That's great!" Nat exclaimed "I won't be the only single while these two spend the film flirting!<p/><b></b> I laughed. That also make me it to my.<p/><b></b> My phone rang, it was my father.<p/><b></b> "Excuse me, I'll be right back, guys." It took me a bit to answer the call. "Dad?"<p/><b></b> "Hello sweetheart, how is everything going with the Avengers?" my father asked<p/><b></b> "Dad! It is been so long without knowing about you!" I said as I looked around "Everything is going really well. And you? Who are you doing?" I questioned happy.<p/><b></b> "Well, hey, bubble..."<p/><b></b> "Dad... how many times I said do not call me that... Tell me, what happen?"<p/><b></b> "Listen, I'm coming home"<p/><b></b> "Really? If so, when?" I asked excited, since it would be the first time that I would see my father in 18 months.<p/><b></b> "In two days I'll get to New York."<p/><b></b> "This Sunday, I..." I whispered "Then I'll pick you up at the airport, yes?"<p/><b></b> "Y/N, you don't need to take the trouble." he said calmly.<p/><b></b> "Dad, like it or not, I'll do it. And then we're going to enjoy the best lunch ever, alright?" I smiled.<p/><b></b> "You're just as stubborn as your mother." he said nostalgically.<p/><b></b> "So? What we can do now about that?" I said funny. "How long is going to be your permission?"<p/><b></b> "About that is what I wanted to talk to you. Honey, I've retired, I've left the army."<p/><b></b> "What!? When!"<p/><b></b> "Bubble, I have to go, this weekend I'll explain you everything."<p/><b></b> "Okay, bye dad. I love you."<p/><b></b> "I love you too, Y/N, bye." I smiled, finally I would see my father.<p/><b></b> Once finished the brief conversation with my father, I finished the paperwork that I had, then I cooped up my things, I said goodbye to everyone and went to my apartment. I was accompanied by Bucky, who had been waiting for a while. We were heading to the garage.<p/><b></b> "Do you want me to take you home?" I asked him.<p/><b></b> "No- well, Yes." he said awkwardly.<p/><b></b> "Yes or not, Barnes?" I laughed.<p/><b></b> "Not or Yes? What?"<p/><b></b> "Oh, god! This is been the weirdest conversation ever!"<p/><b></b> "Yeah, actually" he smiled at me.<p/><b></b> I loved his smile.<p/><b></b> "Y/N, can you take me to the Italian restaurant?" He asked nervously.<p/><b></b> "Sure! Will you be dining there with Molly?"<p/><b></b> "Exactly, doll. Why?"<p/><b></b> "Nah, for nothing, I wanted to congratulate her."<p/><b></b> "Congratulate her? Why?"<p/><b></b> What a dork.<p/><b></b> "Of course, aren't you going to marry her?"<p/><b></b> "Oh, yeah!" He laughed.<p/><b></b> After that and the short trip to the restaurant, I congratulated Molly for agreeing to marry Sergeant Barnes, because thankfully, I would not be the only one next to Steve that we would have to worry about him.<p/><b></b> But it saddens me in some way, although I do not know why I feel this, that there are things that are going to change.<p/><b></b> [...]<p/><b></b> I snorted.<p/><b></b> "I hate traffic! Damn traffic!" I said taking my hands to my head. "I should have gone through the other way ... But no! I had to go down the main street... Great! Just great!"<p/><b></b> I turned the radio on. The music they played rumbled in my head, but at least it made something more enjoyable the wait.<p/><b></b> Again. Damn traffic.<p/><b></b> It waited 15 minutes, when the thing finally seemed to move on and I was able to follow the road without more problems, but the traffic light turned red, so I had to stop, again.<p/><b></b> My phone started ringing. I could not find it, it had to be on the seat next to me. I looked for it and it appeared under the passenger seat, I bent to take it.<p/><b></b> It was for an instant that all around me was illuminated, a blinding light prevented me from seeing well and a sound like the horn of a truck. It came from the same direction as the light.<p/><b></b> A strong impact, hit my car and caused several dangerous turns. I saw the crystals break and I heard a loud metallic noise before everything darkened.<p/><b></b> Everything happened very fast.<p/><b></b> I saw nothing. Everything was dark, it was like if the world had disappeared. As if there was nothing.<p/><b></b> "Miss? Help! Oh, my god! Oh, my god! We need help!" I heard a distant voice shouting for help, I suddenly opened my eyes and saw that I was face down, inside the car yet.<p/><b></b> I shook my head a little, I looked around, everything was backwards. I saw everything double and each time the voices were more distant. I tried to stay awake, but I felt my eyes close. I really tried not to lose consciousnes.<p/><b></b> "Now I understand that... What Jeff told me..." I thought. "Funny. It was true."<p/><b></b> Shit.<p/><b></b> "I'm in love with him. I'm ... in love with Bucky," I whispered before being embraced by the darkness.<p/><b></b> And well, then, everything just changed.<p/></p><p/></p><p/></p>
yay questions ~
  • 1: Let’s start with a tricky one; what is the real reason you are confused right now? - I think I wanna date this one kid but idk man
  • 2: Do you ever get “good morning” texts from anyone? - nope
  • 3: If your significant other smoked pot, would you care? - I would be happy
  • 4: Do you find it easy to trust others? - nope
  • 5: What were you doing at 11PM last night? - I was at a concert
  • 6: You’re drunk and lost walking down the road; who is with you? - probably my friend B
  • 7: What would you do if you found out you had been cheated on? - I'd cry and then probably punch the person who cheated on me
  • 8: Are you close with your dad? - nope
  • 9: I bet you kissed someone last night, right? - no :(
  • 10: What are you listening to? - my brother and my friend C talking
  • 11: You can only drink ONE liquid for the rest of your life - what is it? - water
  • 12: Do you like hickeys? - I like them as long as they're not insanely visible because my parents get pissy
  • 13: What time do you go to bed? - depends, mostly around midnight
  • 14: Is there someone who continuously lets you down? - yeah
  • 15: Can you text as quickly with one hand as you do both? - not quite
  • 16: Do you always answer your texts? - yeah I feel bad if I don't
  • 17: Do you hate the person you fell the hardest for? - no because I haven't gotten over him yet
  • 18: When was the last time you talked to one of your best friends? - a minute ago
  • 19: Is there someone that makes you happy every time you see them? - yeah, C
  • 20: What was your last thought before you went to bed last night? - I set my alarm
  • 21: Is anyone else in the room with you? - not anymore but a second ago it was my friend C and my brother
  • 22: Do you believe what goes around comes around? - I don't know really
  • 23: Were you happier four months ago than you are now? - yeah
  • 24: Is there someone you wish you could fix things with? - yeah
  • 25: In the past week, have you cried? - yeah I cried ten minutes ago because my mum was being mean
  • 26: What colour is the shirt you are wearing? - light purple
  • 27: Do people ever call you by your last name? - no
  • 28: Is anyone ignoring you right now?- yeah actually
  • 29: Do you have a best friend? - I think so yep
  • 30: Would it be hard seeing someone else kiss the last person you kissed? - it is currently hard, because he's dating someone and they fucking make out and grope right next to me
  • 31: Who was your last call/text message from? - my nana
  • 32: Are you mad at anyone? - yeah
  • 33: Have you ever kissed someone older than you? - yeah everyone I've kissed has been older than me
  • 34: How old will the last person you kissed be on his/her next birthday? - uhh he just turned 16 in october so he'd be 17
  • 35: How many more days until your birthday? - 283
  • 36: Do you have any summer plans yet? - nope
  • 37: Do you have any good friends of the opposite sex? - yeah
  • 38: Are you keeping anything from your best friend(s) now? - yep
  • 39: Do you have a secret that you’ve never told anyone? - yeah
  • 40: Have you ever regretted kissing someone? - yeah
  • 41: Do you think age matters in relationships? - not unless it's either illegal or a super huge gap
  • 42: Are you available? - yeah
  • 43: How many people have you had real, strong feelings for since high school ended? - I'm still in high school
  • 44: If you had to get a piercing (not ears), what would you get? - belly button, I want one sooo bad. And I want a nose piercing
  • 45: Do you believe exes can be friends? - yeah I'm really good friends with an ex now
  • 46: Do you regret anything? - hell yeah
  • 47: Honestly, what’s on your mind right now? - going to sleep
  • 48: Did you ever lose a best friend? - yeah
  • 49: Was your last kiss a mistake? - no
  • 50: Why aren’t you pursuing the person you like? - because he's my best friend and I don't wanna fuck that up like I did last time
  • 51: Has the last person you kissed ever seen you cry? - yeah
  • 52: Do you still talk with the person you LAST kissed? - yeah, but it's weird now. We're trying to work it out
  • 53: What was the last thing you ate? - a rolo
  • 54: Did you get any compliments today? - yeah about my hair
  • 55: Where are you going on your next vacation? - february
  • 56: Do you own anything from other countries? - yeah, I have a bracelet from Afghanistan, a scarf and some jewelry from Spain, a bracelet from France, a scarf and a few shirts from Canada, a hat and dress from Aruba, and a bunch of dresses and shirts from St. Maarten
  • 57: Are most of your friend guys or girls? - most are guys
  • 58: Where have you lived most of your life? - I've lived in America my whole life
  • 59: When was the last time you took a long drive? - earlier tonight we visited my nana which is an hour away
  • 60: Have you ever played Spin the Bottle? - no
  • 61: Have you ever TPd someone’s house? - no
  • 62: Who do you text the most? - either J or C
  • 63: What was the last movie you saw? - Star Trek
  • 64: What’s preventing your current boyfriend/girlfriend from going back to their ex? - I'm single
  • 65: How many boyfriends/girlfriends did you have in 2011? - one
  • 66: Is the last person you kissed younger than you? - no, older
  • 67: Do you curse around your parents? - yeah, everything except for fuck and cunt
  • 68: Are you happy with where you live? - for now
  • 69: Picture of yourself? - nah
  • 70: Are you a monogamous person or do you believe in open-ended relationships? - monogamous
  • 71: Have you ever been dumped? - yeah
  • 72: What do you most like about making out? - hearing the other person make those little sounds
  • 73: Have you ever casually made out with someone who you weren’t seriously involved with? - no
  • 74: When you kiss someone for the first time, is it usually you who initiates it or the other? - other person
  • 75: What part of a person’s body do you find most attractive? - depends on the person and gender. For guys I really like jawbones and eyes. For girls I really like lips and eyes.
  • 76: Who was the last person you talked to last night before you went to bed? - C
  • 77: Had sex with someone you knew less than an hour? - no
  • 78: Had sex with someone you didn’t know their name? - no
  • 79: What makes your heart flutter and brings a big cheesy smile to your face? - C
  • 80: Would you get involved with someone if they had a child already? - depends on when and how I'm doing in life
  • 81: Has someone who had a crush on you ever confessed to you? - yeah
  • 82: Do you tell a lot of people when you have a crush? - no
  • 83: Do you miss your last sweetie? - yeah
  • 84: Last time you slow danced with someone? - over the summer
  • 85: Have you ever ‘dated’ someone you’ve never met? - no
  • 86: How can I win your heart? - cuddles
  • 87: What is your astrological sign? - Virgo
  • 88: What were you doing last night at 12 AM? - I was at a concert
  • 89: Do you cook? - yep
  • 90: Have you ever gotten back in touch with an old flame after a time of more than 3 months of no communication? - um no
  • 91: If you’re single right now, do you wish you were in a relationship? - yeah
  • 92: Do you prefer to date various people or do you pretty much fall into monogamous relationships quickly? - monogamous relationships
  • 93: What physical traits do you look for in a potential interest? - pretty eyes... uh I prefer not super skinny people
  • 94: Name four things that you wish you had! - love, happiness, unlimited concert tickets, unlimited hippie clothing
  • 95: Are you a player? - no
  • 96: Have you ever kissed 2 people in one day? - no
  • 97: Are you a tease? - not for real
  • 98: Ever meet anyone you met on Tumblr? - no
  • 99: Have you ever been deeply in love with someone? - yeah
  • 100: Anybody on Tumblr that you’d go on a date with? - yeah
  • 101: Hugs or Kisses? - both? If I have to choose then hugs
  • 102: Are you too shy to ask someone out? - most of the time
  • 103: The first thing you notice about the opposite sex? - generally hair
  • 104: Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you babe? - if I want them too then yes
  • 105: If a sexy person was pursuing you, but you knew he/she was in relationship, would you go for it? - no
  • 106: Do you flirt a lot? - yeah
  • 107: Your last kiss? - like two months ago with J
  • 108: Have you kissed more than 5 people since the start of 2012? - no
  • 109: Have you kissed anyone in the past month? - no
  • 110: If you could kiss anyone who would it be? - C
  • 111: Do you know who you’ll kiss next? - hopefully it's who I want
  • 112: Does someone like you currently? - I think so
  • 113: Do you currently have feelings for anyone? - yeah
  • 114: Do you like to be in serious relationships or just flings? - serious relationships
  • 115: Ever made out with just a friend? - no
  • 116: Are you happier single or in a relationship? - in a relationship
  • 117: Your own question that you want me to answer. Just write it.

vampireapologist  asked:

I hope it's okay to ask a question about the Dear White Writers post. I'm part of the LGBT community (I know the struggles I face as a white member of that community is not the same as the struggles of POC within or separate from that community), but I've often had the attitude that yes, I want straight writers to include LGBT characters in their stories, but I don't ever want straight writers writing a story ABOUT being LGBT. If that makes sense? Like, yes, write a story about a knight (1/2)

(2/2) who is gay, but please if you’re straight do Not write a book in which the main plot is how that knight struggles BECAUSE they are gay. So my question is this: is the message to white writers similar; include POC characters, but do not attempt to write a story ABOUT being POC? But if I wrote a story with a plot completely about time travel (totally hypothetical) with a main character isn’t white, that would be okay? Thank you for your time!

Hi there! This is a really great question and I’m happy to give you my thoughts on it. But first, I want to make it really clear that there is no right or wrong answer to this question - it is more of a that depends” answer. Should a white writer write about a POC when it isn’t about race? That depends on how well the writer really understands what it is like to be that particular POC.

No matter what your story is about, coming of age, fantasy, steampunk, etc, I think to write a realistic POC character you have to understand their nuances. We all have been subjected to years of stereotypes by our media. It is everywhere and it can creep into our writing without us even knowing. We tend to recognize it better when we ourselves are of that background - but it isn’t so clear when we aren’t. Nuances are important, even in secondary characters. But how do you know those nuances if you are not of that culture? No amount of written or video research is going to give you those nuances or if you see them, you won’t really understand what they are about. For example, Koreans NEVER call each other by their first name unless you are either very close or at a much higher professional level. It is extremely rude to do so. And yet the number one mistake in manuscripts I see about Korea is this one. Even younger siblings can never call their older brother or sister by their first name. Or the fact that the word “You” is similarly almost never used unless you mean to be insulting. These are cultural nuances that you don’t get without really understanding what it is like to be Korean. And this is only the tip of the iceberg. I’m Korean American, and even I don’t understand it all. When I wrote Prophecy I had it vetted by a Korean college professor and beta read by my Korean Korean friends. And I worked closely with my father to get all the cultural aspects as right as I could. Yet I was raised in a Korean household! But see, I’m Korean American not Korean Korean, and there is a big difference between the two. You can do years and years of research and still get tripped up with the small nuances that we don’t know about. 

But I didn’t want to only give you a Korean example, so I reached out to my dear friend Meg Medina, who is an award winning and simply amazing Cuban American author and her new book, Burn Baby Burn, is coming out this March! So I asked her for cultural nuances and she gave me the following:

“Each country that makes up Latin America, Spain, and the Caribbean speaks a different dialect of Spanish. So, a Cuban might say a young lady is, una muchacha but elsewhere it’s una joven. Other examples, roast pork is lechon in Cuba, but pernil in Puerto Rico. If a Cuban tells you, voy ahorita, they mean they’ll be there “in a little while.” If a Mexican says that, they mean they’ll be there immediately. 

We also have words that are considered very vulgar in one country that are no big deal at all in another. A Cuban might be shy to call someone a pendejo (pubic hair), but an Argentine would use the word to mean “an idiot.”  Cubans call papaya Fruta Bomba because papaya is slang for a woman’s vagina.  
Cubans come in all races. Let me repeat. Cubans come in all races. And yes, all the conflicts associated with race come up in Latino culture, too.

The political landscape is very tricky - and often at odd with what people have come to regard as the “Latino voting block.” Because Cubans who left in the 1960s were largely white and middle class…and because they were fleeing Communism when the US was at the height of the Cold War… Cubans often had easier paths to citizenship, etc. This, over time, has created an us and them mentality at times between Cubans and other Latinos. Old timers are usually hard right and passionate about why. You’d have to really know Cuban history and how the revolution impacted families to know the dynamics of families that have some members here in the US, and some still on the island. There’s also the dynamic of age with regard to politics in Cuban families. ”

 Nuances are so important and oftentimes not easily researchable. Meg’s statement on the political landscape being tricky is so true. In Korea, the older generation tends to hate and distrust the Japanese due to the Japanese occupation. My mother in law was forced to learn Japanese at a young age. But my mom, who is younger, had less issues with Japan and more with China and Communism. My father actually had to hide in the mountains to avoid communist recruiters. And in Korea itself, the northern region folks look down on the south region folks, etc. Some things are just not researchable no matter how long and hard you look. Some things you have to get straight from a person’s mouth and let them share their lived experiences. 

Anyway, the point is most POC have their culture so ingrained in them that to not address it will make them unbelievable. That would be whitewashing. But on the other extreme, some writers rely far too much on stereotypes and write characters that are extremely problematic. Or they create characters that are incredibly hurtful to the community, for instance, a Korean boy who hates being Korean so much and wishes he was white is deeply problematic if he doesn’t have a moment of self-enlightenment. These things a white writer would not pick up on (clearly as this was exactly the scenario of a NYT bestselling book). And this is not something you can google. Well maybe now you can as I have written about it. But the point being, to a POC, race is always present. Always there. Your character can’t be a warrior astronaut who just happens to be Latino and has a Latino last name and brown skin but everything else about him is no different from a white character. That is whitewashing. You can’t write POC without having race be a big part of it. I hope that is clear?

And thank you Meg!! Everybody go buy her book!!!