i don't think anyone understands my love for this character

Michaela =/= Yandere
  • Friend: Miki!
  • Me: Oy. What's up?
  • Friend: Got a question! Do you like playing Yandere-Chan?
  • Me: Of course. She's mega fun to play.
  • Friend: Do you consider yourself a Yandere?
  • Me: PFFFT!! Fuck no XD
  • Friend: But you play a Yandere so well! How do you do it??
  • Me: I am an actor, darling. I research my character and perform the best portrayal of them I can. I just happened to research Obsessive Love Disorder enough to understand the mindset of a Yandere and applied it to my performance.
  • Friend: Then what are you?
  • Me: Dorodere.
  • Friend: Never heard of that.
  • Me: I don't become obsessed with someone like a Yandere does despite thinking similarly like one, but a Dorodere can be wrongly construed as a Yandere without proper context.
  • Me: As a dere, I am open and kind to anyone I meet; like a typical normal human being. However, in my mind when I meet someone or step into a social interaction, I've already constructed multiple ways to obtain the upper-hand in a physical or even psychological situation and most of them are mildly fucked up. It's not out of malice or ill-intent; just natural instinct of survival.
  • Me: Despite this, my thoughts are not for an end goal, such as another human being's affections, nor are they ever put into action. My thoughts are simply thoughts and are not played out simply because that is not what a normal human being does.
  • Me: ^^
  • Friend: That's kind of cool... yet kind of scary.
  • Me: Yeah lol I do get assumed to be a Yandere a lot though because I'm voicing Ayano xD;; -shotdead-
  • Friend: I mean it's kind of expected?
  • Me: Ish, but now I'm afraid boys won't like meh because of Ayano ;AAA; -Single FOREVERRRRR-
  • Friend: Just turn into a Yandere and kidnap someone -JKJK-
  • Me: HAHAHAHAHHAHA go fuck yourself <3
  • Friend: Love you too <3
Naoki Urasawa, MONSTER, and the whole Dark ≠ Interesting thing

Ugh I was feeling all gross learning about what’s going up with Hydra Cap and all as well as the general attitude in media that inherently “good” characters are “Boring” and the fact that so many people feel the need to add darkness or violence or cruelty to make things “interesting” and that got me thinking about the work of manga artist Naoki Urasawa, specifically his most famous series, Monster.

For those who don’t know about Monster, it’s an extremely suspenseful and well-written crime/drama/thriller manga series (as well as an anime which is a pretty faithful adaption, but I haven’t watched it) , and the whole plot centers around not just one, but several serial killers, as well as addressing child abuse, racism/neo-nazism, as well as corruption in the government, medical industry, and other various institutions. Knowing all of that, it’s easy to see how Monster could easily become an extremely grimdark, cynical, violent narrative regurgitating the popular “edgy” theme of how “life sucks and then you die,” as so many modern narratives seem to have bought into.

But it’s not like that, not at all. The thing about Monster, as well as the rest of Naoki Urasawa’s work, is that while it does not shy away from the reality of cruelty in the world, it also addresses the opposite. Throughout Monster, we see people act with incredible kindness and gentleness, even in the midst of extreme situations. There’s an appreciation for the beauty in the world, for the little, often overlooked details of life that make it worth carrying on. There’s the strange, makeshift familial relationships that people form to help each other through loss and grief. And people are not static; people can change, for the worse, of course, but also for the better, people work to redeem themselves and others, and the inherent worth of every person, despite the overwhelming sense of guilt and past wrongs, is emphasized over and over and over again. The narrative does not justify wrongdoings, not in the least, but does a very good job of showing that while humans are capable of horrific things, they are also capable of extreme love, encouragement, and transformation.

And get this: It has ALL of the above, and is STILL an INCREDIBLY gripping, suspenseful, eXTREMELY fascinating story with high stakes and great twists and tons of character development without resorting to cheap, sensationalized voyeuristic deaths or glorifying violence in the “good guys” name. And of course when I say the characters are good, I don’t mean they’re perfect–they make mistakes, they’re flawed as heck, they’re limited by their personalities and experiences, but they are HUMAN, and they are also GOOD.

And the way the world is, I think we need more characters and stories like that out there.

(Haha all these panel ‘caps are all pretty boring but thats because literally everything else is spoileriffic so if anyone WANTS to read it, I’d rather you go in fresh!! If anyone needs like, trigger warnings or anything for it just hmu and I’ll try to letyou know)

anonymous asked:

Hi mango! So I have a group of friends I cosplay with, and as we watch series someone calls "dibs" for a character and no one else is allowed to cosplay them, and sometimes get upset if they want to. I understand this rule if it's a character they really /really/ love, but otherwise I think this trait is a bit unhealthy in a group. Do you have any advice for something like this? I don't want to make anyone in my group upset or leave them, but I don't know how to talk to them about it.

1. I’m assuming your friends are not in kindergarten anymore. “Dibs” is not a thing once you’re out of kindergarten. If they are over the age of 4 and still calling “dibs,” I’m worried about their cognitive development.

2. “I understand this rule if it’s a character–” No, no, that is not a rule, that should never be a rule, that’s not how friendship works. It isn’t a “rule,” it’s people being possessive and thinking they own a character just because that character ~*means a lot to them*~. Spoilers: characters can mean a lot to more than one person. Unless you actually created the character yourself, you don’t get to claim them.

3. You’re right to think that it’s an unhealthy trait, it absolutely is. It speaks to a lack of maturity and an unwillingness to compromise. If it were me, I’d address it ASAP before it starts to cause further issues within the group, because it’s something that could easily blow up and result in someone getting seriously hurt – over cosplay, and that’s not cool.

4. If they aren’t willing to talk about it or share? Get better friends. These ones have a lot of growing up to do.

anonymous asked:

I am not sure I believe in Olitz anymore mainly because of Liv because I understand that Fitz loves Liv deep enough to forgive her but I am a bit tired of her doing what the heck she wants to Fitz all the time and then they don't even discuss it and they just make out in the oval. It's true he needs to grow some balls against everyone not just Liv. I'm not even excited about next week because I'm expecting more badly written characters.

Anon, I’m sorry but I think you came to the wrong Olitzer with this. I’m a Liv stan. I will cape for my fave without repentance over anyone, even Fitz. And I love him too but not as much.

Olivia doesn’t do anything that Fitz doesn’t allow. Even when she backs him into corners and forces him to play the game her way, he allows it. Just like she’s always ending it and running, he can do the same. He can lay down an ultimatum if he wants. But he doesn’t. Fitz is nobody’s victim. He’s not weak. He’s not a child. He’s the most powerful man in the free world. If he wanted a mistress at his beck and call, he could have his pick of women. If he wanted to live with Mellie forever, he could do it. If he wanted to live in the mountains with a mangy dog, he could. He’s white, good-looking, wealthy, intelligent, and charming. He’s got the world on a string. He’s literally got the most agency of any character.

Now I don’t think Liv threats him particularly poorly, but if she does, it’s because he lets it happen. If he wanted to stop anything, he could. Just like he did in S2 when he let her go. He is not a victim of anything. It doesn’t matter how much he loves her, if he wanted out, he’d be out. He’s not beholden to her in any way. As Liv put it in the Rose Garden scene, he’s “away by definition.” He’s somebody else’s husband, and the leader of the free world. He and Liv don’t have any love children or financial ties. He could pretend she never happened to him. But he doesn’t. He forgives because he chooses to. He goes back to her because he chooses to. Just like she does with him. People like to say that Olivia pulls the strings in the relationship, but who gave her the strings to pull? I feel like I’m repeating myself, but again I remind you that Fitz is not a child. Nor is he simple, slow, or stupid. Things are the way they are because he lets them be that way.

Also, and this is a pet peeve of mine in this ship, why are things held against Liv when he doesn’t hold them? Why do Olakers hold things against Fitz when Liv doesnt? They forgive each other implicitly and without question because there is never an malice or betrayal intended. That doesn’t mean they don’t hurt each other, but if they’re not counting wounds, why are we? You brought up all the things Liv allegedly does to Fitz that go without discussion, but don’t they always have their moments? Don’t they always establish an understanding, even if it’s inadvertent? If neither of them has ever demanded an apology, why do we?

Anon, it’s cool if you stop watching or stop shipping or whatever you wanna do. I can’t make you stay or believe. I can only provide you with my perspective.