i don't show i care but i really do care

gatewaytogay  asked:

Do you genuinely care abt not harming minors or are you just upset bc people are mad at you and you don't wanna lose your internet cult following? If you really cared you wouldn't hide it all and you'd post something publicly. I'm really hurt considering I used to be a big fan of yours.

Absolutely, I do!! I have posted publicly, and I don’t think of anyone as a cult following, I constantly am overwhelmed all the time by the love people show me each day because I feel I am undeserving. You all are incredible individuals and I can see you’re hurt by this, and that kills me, as well as any possible thing I may have promoted. I just didn’t know if you wanted your blog out there on the dash, but I can certainly do so if you wish! I am doing what I can to restructure and prevent any of this again. Please please don’t lose hope in me. I don’t know how to express this more than my future actions, so I hope what I do from here on out helps fix things and prevent any possible bad results from my actions.

Since Tumblr seems to be the new magic lamp, can I make a wish?

Hello OL tumblr genie watching out there *waves*


How about we get some OL promo instead of asking fans for money, political tweets, gym pictures and trying to make non cast members relevant? 

Sincerely,

A SHOW fan

  • onision (2012): uhh excuse me? thank my fans? i don’t think so swetty :) i got where i am today because of ME :) because i worked hard, not because of my fans :) don't agree? then stop watching me and see what happens :)
  • onision (2017): IF YOU STOP WATCHING ME THEN YOU'RE BASICALLY CONDEMNING ME AND LAINEY TO HOMELESSNESS, POVERTY, AND DEATH. I'M NOT TRYING TO SAY THAT I WOULD KILL MYSELF IF I DIDN'T HAVE YOUTUBE, BUT I WOULD KILL MYSELF IF I DIDN'T HAVE YOUTUBE. AND IT WOULD BE THE FAULT OF THE PEOPLE WHO WOULDN'T PAY ME. IS THAT WHAT YOU WANT? FOR US TO DIE BY SUICIDE OR STARVATION? DO YOU REALLY WANT OUR BLOOD TO BE ON YOUR HANDS, JUST BECAUSE YOU DIDN'T CARE ABOUT US ENOUGH TO DONATE 50 MEASLY CENTS? SOME """FAN""" YOU ARE, CLEARLY SHOWS THAT YOU'RE A FAKE FAN. MIGHT AS WELL JUST BECOME A JUDGE AND SENTENCE US TO DEATH. IF YOU REALLY LOVED US THEN YOU WOULD WANT TO GIVE US ALL YOUR MONEY. THANKS A LOT, FAKE FAN. I WOULD NEVER HAVE DONE THIS TO A YOUTUBER WHO I CARED ABOUT. OH AND DON'T FORGET TO SEND FLOWERS TO MY GRAVE WHEN I SHOOT MYSELF OUT OF DEPRESSION BECAUSE YOU WOULDN'T PAY TO WATCH MY VIDEOS.

kensianson  asked:

Jakei, I care about your health more than your animations. I mean, animating that long just for us is good and all but please do take rests and I know you said you've been BUT I don't believe you >:( Show us a pic of you sleeping and THEN we'll talk about animations :> (Ok, trying my best not to be a kind of rude and angry about it, but don't take this as a threat or somethin' I just really care about you :> )

Hahahah I’m fine, dear

I mean it!

I finally could fix my sleeping schedule and days are very different now (I’m about to sleep after I answer this) and It makes me more productive, so animating is not actually stressing me out or something. I’m working everyday, but in a paceful and relaxing way.

Also I’ve been taking walks all this week to clear my mind of some…useless thoughts in order to keep save my work and of course my health. But is not a big deal. That’s helping me to get some ideas for comics and animations, even shitposts heheh.

You wanna a, picture to know if I’m not lying? Here you have it:

These guys and the Adobe suite pillows are like a good damn therapy to relax my body while I’m sleeping. Even the amount of nightmares I was having are dissappearing. Since I always loved to sleep, I can assure you this is the best part of the whole day after work. 

Genuinely caring about somebody a lot, does not guarantee they care about you equally (or at all) in return. Some people will never care about you regardless of what you do or say. So don't assume somebody appreciates you just because you do nice things for them.

This is something that I unfortunately didn’t learn until well into adulthood - It may sound obvious when its spelled out, but when you’re in the actual situation its not always so clear. Most of my life I thought if I really cared about somebody a lot, then they must care about me to some degree in return. It always felt like that connection was so strong it had to be mutual, even if the obvious signs showed otherwise. Despite certain people treating me like dirt and rarely reciprocating, I would do everything I could to make them happy. I would go out of my way to help them, say & do nice things for them, encourage them, etc..with the assumption they’d eventually show their appreciation for me being in their lives. I’d think “how could they not care about me when I make it so obvious how much I care about them? If I just keep trying they’ll come around”. This was especially true for people who maybe showed signs they cared at some point in the past, but weren’t anymore.

What I’ve learned over the years is that a lot of times that reciprocal connection is imagined. The amount you love somebody does not always affect how much they love you back. People can and will use you and your emotions. And just because somebody may have once cared about you in the past, doesn’t mean they still do now or ever will again in the future…theres often nothing you can do to change their feelings through any good deeds or kind words.

I’m not talking about classic “nice guy” syndrome. Not the crush who friend-zoned you that you’re desperately trying to win over by being nice when there should have never been any expectation of feelings to begin with…I’m talking about people who you genuinely feel a meaningful connection with. Whether that be friends, family, or romantic partners.

I wasted a lot of time on people expecting them to suddenly start reciprocating my feelings and actions. I’d be convinced I could win people over (or back over)…including bad friends and former relationships…if I was just nice enough to them and let my feelings be known. Looking back I should have cut my loses far sooner. I should have focused more on finding people who not only cared about me, but wanted to make me happy in return.

Its important not to assume somebody appreciates you just because you love them and do good things for them.You can waste a lot of time and energy focusing on people who will never really care no matter what you do.

So, Prison Break will be back in a matter of hours.

And to a lot of you, that may mean nothing. 

But it means a hell of a lot to me.

Prison Break first aired when I was fourteen. I don’t remember much about the night itself, but what I do remember is kicking up a real fuss when my brothers outvoted me on the choice of programming, the two of them commandeering the TV remote and forcing me to watch the pilot of this new prison show instead of the episode of House that I had apparently very much wanted to watch at the time. After that night, though, House certainly never took precedence in my schedule ever again, because I had fallen hard for Prison Break in a way that I never had with a show before (or since), my soul already eagerly sold to it before the credits were even rolling on the first episode. 

For the next four years of my life, it was my obsession, my joy, my greatest love, the one thing I could talk endlessly about (particularly any part related to MiSa, my OTP of all OTPs), and the mere thought of which would always make me happy. It led me to my first fan forum, to amazing friends (who I am still in touch with to this day), and also brought me into the world of fanfiction, which in itself became (and remains) a hugely important part of my life. 

As it went on, the show not only taught me life lessons like sacrifice and making difficult decisions and taking responsibility for your actions; it also taught me about myself, and what I wanted and valued and believed. And, as with any show that truly pulls you in, the characters were always far more than just actors spouting lines– they were like family to me, and I celebrated and struggled and grieved with them through four incredible and traumatising seasons. I genuinely cried more tears for them and their pain than I ever did over anything else in my own (obviously very fortunate and privileged) life. 

The same year that Prison Break ended, I graduated high school and was accepted into medical school, a career that I had chosen for several very good reasons, not the least of which was because my still-forming teenage self had looked at Dr Sara Tancredi and had seen exactly the kind of woman I wanted to grow up to be. About five years after that, I was freshly graduated as a doctor, and finally got the chance to meet Went, Dom, and Sarah at my first Comic Con, and was able to thank them in person for the beautiful thing that they had helped create, and which– in Sarah’s case in particular, of course– had helped to create me. 

Today, I’m exactly a month shy of my twenty-sixth birthday, and have been a doctor for almost two and a half years, having even worked briefly in the prison system during that time, among many other things. I may not have the posters hanging on my wall anymore, and the cardboard box full of memorabilia and carefully folded cranes might be tucked away in a closet out of sight, but even still, this show has never left me. It’s in the “Be the change you want to see in the world” ring that I’ve worn every day for the last nine years. It’s in the tiny origami flower that has been tattooed on the back of my left ear since I was nineteen. It’s in the crane that was tattooed on my left wrist two years ago in Chicago, with those same old forum friends beside me, all coming together for the first time in our ten-year friendship to visit the city and the prison that had been the setting for the story that had brought us into each other’s lives. But even more than the marks on my skin, its mark is still inside me, a permanent building block in the foundation of who I am. 

In the last eight years, there’s only one thing about this show that I’ve always regretted, one thing that I have literally wished (on shooting stars, four-leaf clovers, birthday cakes, 11:11, dandelions– you name it, I’ve wished on it) that I could change. Of course, I know that happy endings don’t always exist; that reality is hard and cruel and whatever, so supposedly TV should be too. But that never stopped me from wishing that there could have been just one more happy ending out there to give to this story.

Then, about two years ago, something happened. Stars– both astronomical and celebrity– aligned. Whispers like ‘reboot’ and ‘season 5′ floated around, and then suddenly, startlingly, my dream had started looking like a possibility. A possibility that eventually turned into a miraculous definite, the confirmation followed by months of filming and promoting that I promptly did my very best to ignore or hide from, because I was convinced that if I thought about it too much– let myself hope too much– it would somehow all disappear again; would revert to being merely an elaborate fantasy that I’d concocted in my head, a silly fangirl’s headcanon to rectify her OTP’s heartbreak as well as her own.

But tonight, it’s all becoming real. Tonight, for the first time in eight years, I will turn on my TV and see my character-family again; will experience that old feeling afresh. And though there’s certainly always the chance that the new season will somehow be a disappointment, or will only add more pain, it’s a chance I’m so very willing to take.  

A chance that I’m so, so grateful even exists.

So, if you can, tune in tonight (9/8c on Fox). Even if you’ve never watched before, even if you think that frankly I’m probably just overhyping it and it’s actually nowhere near as great as I claim. Do it anyway, and show the network and showrunners that what they have done means something to the viewers out there– to the people like me, who got far more from this show than just a fascinating story, who might have been a very different person today if they’d managed to wrestle the TV remote off of their brothers on that one night a dozen years ago. And who knows; a success for Prison Break now, like with The X-Files and Gilmore Girls before it, could mean reboots– and therefore justice– for even more beloved shows down the line, and even more opportunities for other fans to re-experience the things that helped to shape them into who they are.

And, well, this moment may have been eight long years in the making– but whatever happens, it was worth it.

dragonthorku  asked:

Hey there Jax-sensei I gotta question. Me and my Girl got into an Arguement recently and she thinks I don't care about her as much as I do. Honestly I love her, she's perfect. Funny, kind, smart beautiful and not gonna lie has a great rack. I love her so much, anyways we made up but I still have this feeling she's a bit cross at me. What can I do to show her I really care about her?

I dont know why people always ask me relationship questions lol but I’ll give it the old Jax try. 

Okay look dude what you wrote me is honestly really sweet and the fact you’re trying to rekindle things shows you’re a genuine guy. You told me you love her but how about her. You should tell her that everyday without being overbearing.

Why dont you Tell her just knowing she’s out there thinking about you, caring about you, makes you feel so at peace.
All your fears, all your yesterdays, wash away. And only hope remains in the promise of her embrace.

TELL HER “you make me THANK God for every mistake I ever made, because each one led me down the path that brought me to you. And when we finally come together, I want to hold you. Hold you all night.” 

Stroke her hair. Tell her she’s a woman, and show her your a man.
Until there is only now. You, and I, and now.

Or something like that. SOMETHIN PASSIONATE she’s the LOVE of YOUR LIFE so Treat like that. She’s a Dime, someone you’d fight ANY MONSTER FOR or any monster with because you dont care what physical pain anyone can bring you, losing her would be the worst form of suffering you could possibly endure.

Originally posted by my-freaky-things

The best lovers are best friends so tell that and show her that.  and thats a relationship that cannot be matched.


SHOW her how much you care about her.
Don’t have unfinished business and if all your words are true and your love is pure best of luck to you!

anonymous asked:

Sasuke did show romantic feelings towards Sakura. What about that time in chapter 138 in Naruto when they were fighting against Gaara and he rescued her and asked Pakkun to "Check Sakura" with a sad/concerned face? Don't try and tell me he did not care.

First of all, I don’t recall ever saying Sasuke didn’t care about Sakura, while they were part of Team 7. However, I do still stand by him never having ROMANTIC feelings for her and not really giving a fuck about her after the first skip. 

The example you’re giving me just reads as Sasuke showing concern for her well-being, nothing inherently romantic. Believe it or not, Sasuke is actually a very caring person and I do think he valued his teammates. He started to feel concern about Sakura and didn’t want her to be hurt or killed but those feelings flew out the window, after the left the village. 

Even by those standards, Naruto wins. Sasuke has showed more concern for Naruto than anyone else, when he wasn’t going on about killing him. Let’s look at a few examples:

The difference is that Sasuke has a weakness for Naruto, that he doesn’t have for Sakura or anyone else. 

I hope that clears things up for you.

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I guess we make a really good team.

anonymous asked:

I'm 15 and i'm afraid to say my age online cause i feel like people would treat me differently for being so young. I want people to treat me the way they do now like i'm an older person. I hate it when people won't show something to you cause i'm too young but i really don't care. And i feel like people will judge me for my age........

Hi there, sweetheart.

I can see why you’d be nervous; revealing your age is always kind of nerve-wracking thing, but I don’t think people would treat you all that different. There are loads of people who are years younger than you on Tumblr! If it’s, say, your friends or even people you don’t talk to on a regular basis, I don’t think they’d care how old you are!

I don’t think anyone would judge you, either. Ultimately though, it is your decision! <3

anonymous asked:

I LOVE DAMIEN SO MUCH BUT I DON'T TRUST HIM AT ALL. Everyone thinks that he really cares about us but when he said "You too" after telling Celine (?) To be cafeful is just...off. It's like he said it for formality and respect. I don't show any signs of care or anything at all -A.

I think he knows what she’s trying to do, and the risks of it. But what if there were any risks of interrupting it while you had visions? Do you remember what Selene says to us before we have the visions? “Best to keep your enemies close…”
What if SHE was originally Dark? What if Dark wanted to possess us first, then it failed and you’ve seen the future, so she tried to push back in, but Damien and the Detective interrupted everything and then Dark had to find another way to act, and what better vessel than the former lover who still cares so much? - Mod Lily

anonymous asked:

Why does everyone care that Taylor swift wasn't at a protest that plenty of self proclaimed feminists didn't show up to including Beyoncé.. her activism is shit but who cares

honestly, i couldn’t give two shits about what t*ylor does or doesn’t do, i really don’t care anymore. but what i’m tired of is her using feminism and patting herself on the back for it only when it suits her, and then shutting up about it when it might hurt her image. that’s all.

  • Robert: Aaron! Have you told the police?
  • Aaron: Nah, but it's not cos you tried to blackmail me.
  • Robert: Look, I never would have told them Liv took my car. Okay? I panicked. Thanks for not grassing me up.
  • Aaron: What about Lawrence? Will he thank me as well?
  • Robert: That's done now. It's not what you think. I was trying -
  • Aaron: I don't even care. That's between you two. He'll see through you soon enough.
  • Robert: My point is I never meant for Liv to get hurt and I'm sorry. She's seeing social services today, isn't she?
  • Aaron: That's why you're really here, innit?
  • Robert: What? No! Honestly. It's a lot for her to go through, and I was concerned. Do you think she's gonna tell them about the drink being spiked?
  • Aaron: No idea.
  • Paddy: Hiya. How's Liv?
  • Aaron: Oh, thanks for asking. It shows you care about her, rather than just yourself. (walks off)
  • Paddy: Okay.
  • Robert: Call me when you've seen her, yeah? To let me know how she is.

anonymous asked:

I'm going on a date with someone and she's told me she's recently been in hospital after ODing and she has a problem with self harm. I really like her and I don't want to fuck anything up with her - is there anything I can do to show her that I'm there for her and I care? Idk what I'm doing here and I just wanna show her that I'm not gonna leave when things get bad

Be there for her, care for her.
Ask what she needs. Be the person she needs. Don’t try to think about the situation how you want someone to react. Everyone is different

E.g. there is Girl A and Girl B. Both had a mental breakdown while I was with them.
Girl A wanted to be held and wanted to hear how everything is going to be better etc.
Girl B on the other hand doesn’t wanted to hear anything. She doesn’t even wanted to be touched. But we were at a public place.
Her mother came some time later and stressed her out even more. She said something like:“If you don’t come out of the bathroom now, I’m going to drive home alone. It’s already half past two.” She tried to break open the door. I kept her mother out and talked to her. Her mother was the last person she wanted to see and it freaked her out more. The mother eventually went to the car.
You have to know that we were like 10km away from our hometown. I reminded her that I’m not going anywhere and that when her mother leaves without taking us, we will walk back home. I reasured that she won’t be alone.
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Try to understand her. Do not pressure her. Never. Don’t even pressure her to help her. You have take the distance she’s giving you.
Never set a time limit. It takes as long as it takes. Do not talk about yourself when she has a tough moment.
Be patient and understanding. Let her be and don’t be scared. Never say how hard it is for you. Don’t you ever let her feel like she’s a weight dragging you down, even if it’s true.
But most importantly don’t act different around her. Act like she’s any other girl. Don’t make her the diseases she has. She’s not a self harmer. She is Maria (I know it’s probably not her name) who self harms.
Don’t treat her differently, only in the way of loving her.

But do not forget selfcare. Selfcare is important. You have to be honest with her at the same time. It’s okay if you need a break.
If you don’t take care of yourself, you won’t be able to be there for her for a long time.
Mental illnesses can be tough. Don’t underestimate it. It’s not only cutting or feeling sad for a bit. It’s so much more. She could break you if you don’t take care of yourself.
I have mental illnesses too, so I know what a tool it can have on people.

And please, don’t ever say something like “Ugh, you’re always so depressed.” If she has depression, that’s a symptom. It’s normal for someone who has a mental illness that they have symptoms, that they are mentally ill.
It’s like a cold. People with a cold cough because it’s a symptom and they can’t put it aside because you’re uncomfortable with it.

Do research on the disorders she has.

I hope I could help you a bit. This is just me letting everything out of my brain. That’s why it’s unorganized and not structured well. And that’s probably not everything.

Lots of love to you 💞

The sleepover comic requested by @knightofbloodcancer!

Please click on it to see what they are saying, lol.

(Edit: I forgot to mention, the reason that UF!P@pyru$ is so smol is because that’s the only way they could force him to come to the sleepover. Edge is just kinda small on accident lol)

Eight fat skeletons is a lot .-.;;;;;;;;;;