i don't remember being so emotional the first time i read it

adlethstillio  asked:

A week ago I thought I had my anxiety under control.... ButT today I feel like I don't deserve to be called "adult" and this morning felt like I couldn't handle any more. THEN I learned that my psychiatrist bill is $700, not the $40 copay I was expecting. I know there are ups and downs, but fuck. This down hurts. A lot. I'm back to some obsessive tendencies I haven't done in months. Any tips for the down days?

I am so sorry. That sucks.

When I have down days, I do the best I can (being gentle with myself, and forgiving, because what is my best varies from day to day) to remember that this isn’t the first time I’ve had a down day, and to give myself credit for making it through.

“Ah, but that was different, this time is THE WORST,” your brain will say. And then we have to remember that our brain says that every single time, because depression lies.

I try to remember (and so I try to help others remember) that you don’t deserve this crap. This isn’t happening because of something you did or didn’t do; it’s just the way our brains are wired.

I focus on doing cognitive behavioral therapy, which is basically identifying a negative emotion (sadness, despair, etc.) and focusing on something awesome that made me happy, to replace it. For example, I may read a news story about one of my friends getting a gig I desperately wanted, and instead of being super happy for them, I’ll feel sad for me. When that happens, I have to deliberately think about and remember the specific emotional experience I had when I did something cool that I felt good about. I do my best to relive it, sort of turning up the mental volume on it, until I can’t hear (feel) the bad stuff.

That’s oversimplifying it, and maybe I’m not explaining it well, but it’s one tool that works for me.

I notice that, in your ask, you didn’t say anything about giving up or stopping therapy, and I wanted you to know that I’m proud of you for refusing to be a victim, and for sticking with your treatment and therapy to take good care of yourself.

Check in with me and let me know how you’re doing in a few days, okay? I promise you that it will get better. You are stronger than you think.

anonymous asked:

Hey ^^. I've seen the spoiler, and i'm really confused now. According to the spoiler someone arrives, soma opens the door and gets shot. Soma even speaks such line as "If you don't hurry up, I'll have the desserts all by myself", "You don't look well, is something wrong?", I mean he must be talking to ciel, at least he thinks so. But the carriage looks different, besides, i don't think Ciel wants to kill Soma. So Is it the twin? By the way, I can't see the twin's purpose in killing Soma

Hey Anon :) A translation got out by now so I hope you read the new chapter before reading my response. To answer your question, basically I agree with @akumadeenglish‘s post:

  • Seeing Soma’s reaction, it’s someone he has met before
  • but at the same time I really doubt it’s our!Ciel because Soma’s reaction was more lukewarm compared to how he generally reacts to Ciel (even if the last time we saw Ciel & Seb, Seb said they were going back to the house). 

Of course there are other possibilities at this point, but since it feels like the more we get into this arc the less things we speculated on make sense, personally I’m trying to avoid crack theorizing too much and so I’ll bet on the twin (probably Lord Sirius) for now. :)

As for what’s the purpose of the twin (if that’s him) for trying to kill Soma, well, that’s just my opinion but…

If we say that somehow Ciel sacrificed his twin 4 years ago (even if I don’t know exactly how that happened), which is why Seb appeared in the first place, if the twin survived/became a BD and was told/remembered about what happened, maybe he decided to take revenge on Ciel because of what happened 4 years ago and of Ciel taking his identity?

A revenge that would include:

  • shooting Soma, because he is Ciel’s “friend” even if Ciel doesn’t agree on that
  • but also taking Lizzie away from him (through emotional manipulation because she is probably very pained and confused)
  • all that in order to hurt our!Ciel.

I mean, some readers will never agree on that, but I think Soma’s words in the new chapter about Ciel are spot on:

Ciel already lost his parents (and twin) 4 years ago + Ann a year ago now, so take away the few people Ciel actually still cares about (Lizzie mostly, but maybe Soma to some extent as well, since they’ve known each other for a year now) and it would be easy to hurt him, no matter how much he pretends not to care at all. 

That’s how I see it for now anyway so I hope it’s understandable and I’m sorry if it’s not, since there are still a lot of things I can’t be sure about (namely UT’s role in all this, I’m just not sure of anything anymore).

Thanks for passing by and have a nice Kuro positivity day tomorrow, Anon :3 

Hey Anon! And I guess it’s different for everyone, depending on what you’re skeptical/didn’t like about the 2CT?
When I see how the more we get into this arc the less we can be sure of anything, I think it’s sure that Yana actually planned it long ago so that it would supposedly make sense, so I’m giving her a chance to convince me until this arc is over. :)

Personally, even if I don’t like the hidden twin trope (simply because it’s not my fav option when it comes to fiction), I’ll be more or less okay with the 2CT as long as:

  1. the main plot, current arc and future arcs still make sense storytelling-wise 

  2. the twin creates drama because he’s supposed to be a villain and not a poor little angel who just was a victim all along (seeing as he possibly just shot Soma/Agni tho, I’m not so worried about that point xD)

  3. the characters (namely Lizzie and UT) still make sense with everything that we learnt about them so far, UT being the one I’m the most worried about recently (since I’m not sure anymore of where he fits in the current arc).

That’s what I’m asking of Kuroshitsuji in general anyway, so it’s not just because the 2CT is becoming canon, even if I might become a bit more intransigent about character developments in the future (because the cast is the main reason I like Kuroshitsuji as much as I do). 

Sorry if that doesn’t help but thanks for passing by and happy Kuro positivity day to you for tomorrow, Anon :3

anonymous asked:

help i need help!!! i'm on season 2 ep 5 rn, and i really want to like lance but i can't :(( i just find him annoying and obnoxious and i don't know how to like him. please help?

Don’t worry, but I am so sorry this is probably going to be long…

Lance has many qualities that I endear, he’s funny, intelligent, selfless, and quite frankly he is the heart of the team. “The blue lion is… it seems to be the lion that I most associate with like, holding the team together. There’s something about teamwork with the blue lion. Like […] about providing what’s needed at the time, and being flexible, which I think is kind of a little bit of the water element of the blue lion. It ties into being a leg, too, you know. Legs are all about support.” [x]

Lance is honestly one of my favorite characters ever…

Lance is incredibly selfless even in the littlest of ways. In S1EP4 He is able to figure out quite fast that Rover was not the actual Rover thus throwing himself and shielding Coran causing himself to be badly injured then later during the fight despite almost nearly dying, when his teammates are in trouble he emerges from his coma and is able to make an amazing shot at the enemy before passing back out. Another time this happens is in S1EP9, Lance out right believes the castle in haunted and is scared yet when a voice that sounds like Coran cries out for help, Lance immediately straightens up, forgetting all fear to rescue Coran and runs to the source of the voice. Another display of this is when He doesn’t want to worry the rest of his teammates (He excuses himself from the party so he doesn’t sour the mood because he was feeling homesick in S1EP4) which I think is why he rather be known as the person who can lighten the mood/class clown of the team, making it easier for him to bottle up his emotions and not cause unnecessary trouble to everyone.

Lance is actually humble. Lance wants to be seen as a hero, but in reality that’s not who he thinks he actually is. He may want the parades, glory, and to be seen as the best but when it comes down to it, does he think he actually is worthy of it? Not really and that shows in S2EP2 when he is captured by the mermaids and they call him their savior. You can see it in his face, the worry and question because woah why me? You think I’m your savior? I’m just Lance. Then when the mermaids say “We believe you can stop her”, his face shifts into an uneasy expression probably because he doesn’t believe he could actually stop her. “He’s kind of cool, but he’s kind of a goof,” continued Montgomery. “I like Lance because he feels the most human. He’s got those insecurities, but he tries so hard to cover them up. That’s what’s kind of fun about him. He wants to be the cool guy. He wants it so bad, but not exactly…” [x]
In S2EP10, He thinks so highly of all his teammates, complimenting each of them and bragging about them to a complete stranger, but when he gets to himself he pauses and thinks perhaps he’s not as great as how he sees the rest of his fellow paladins. But my gosh, Lance is much more than meets the eye. 

Lance is so smart. Lance in canon is good at reading people and the situation, he has an awareness of others and is able to make pretty good calls. We see a lot of it in the very first episode and more of it whenever Shiro is absent. Without most of us fully realizing, Lance is able to step up his leadership game and is able to give out orders to the rest of the team, and make calm, collected decisions. Lance is able to put one and two together and come up with plans quickly. In S1EP7, He stops Keith from being reckless and hurting the Balmera, coming up with a great alternative plan that is successful, not once, but twice during that episode. “But also, he does evolve. There’s aspects to his character that will start coming more into the forefront as the series goes on. You’ll see him take steps to real leadership material.” [x] And this is only the beginning of the show, we have to remember we only have two seasons released out of the planned six. We still have so much more to look forward to in regards of Lance’s growth.

I love Lance’s dynamic because yes he is a goof ball and he probably doesn’t pick the best times to crack a joke, but he’s exceedingly a talented marksman, and not only the heart of Team Voltron, but the heart of the show itself. I love Lance, not because he’s perfect but because he isn’t. Which is why I think many people project onto him. He’s so human. He is flawed but is constantly growing, adapting, and learning from his mistakes.

kayla-ships-klaine-and-destiel  asked:

for the meta thing, have you done the dark one fight yet? y'know when emma finds killian after she turns him into the dark one and he just feels so betrayed? i love that scene!

The dark one fight is definitely one of my top favourite moments… because I am an angst whore.

Just a quick reminder - these are simply my thoughts and perceptions of the scenes, i’m in no way saying i’m right and i’m definitely not saying it’s exactly what happened. It’s purely my own interpretation and i’ve no doubt that most would probably disagree with my views. But please try to remember that these are only being made for fun and not to be taken seriously in any way.

Also this is probably the longest one i’ve done. You’ve been warned!!

And with that said, we shall begin!

He may be newly darkened, angry and hurting right now… but Killian Jones is still at the forefront. 

He still won’t see any harm come to Emma, even if he is upset with her right now.

He certainly won’t kill her to get his revenge.

Emma’s completely oblivious to just how upset he is. She’s just thankful it worked and he’s still alive.

But he soon clues her in. 

This is the first time we see Killian truly angry at Emma and expressing his feelings. And I think it’s great tbh.

This was one thing he asked of her, begged of her, and she refused him.

Emma’s trying to calm him, I don’t think she truly realises just yet what she’s done to him - she seems very relieved that her plan worked, and because it did, she’s more determined and sure than ever that they’re going to be fine.

They’ll get rid of the darkness together. 

This bit I find really interesting. 

He’s just asked her about excalibur, and Emma’s told him a lie. Rumple is of course meddling, but look at killian’s face there.

It’s quite similar to the face he has when he realises she’s after something from him on his ship.

He’s reading her.

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anonymous asked:

jess! any chance you have any drarry fics you could rec that are on the happier/fluffier side? I haven't read many so anything you can think of I would appreciate! thanks in advance :)

DO I EVER, ANON!!!! :’’) I haven’t read much fic in general lately so most of these I’ve talked about before I’m sure, but they’re all SO GOOD they deserve to be recced repeatedly!!!


  • All Life is Yours to Miss by Saras_Girl (and corresponding *incredible* podfic-  if the idea of isolated professor draco malfoy slowly learning to integrate himself into hogwarts, make friends, and ~fall in luv~ warms the cockles of your heart, READ!! THIS!!! FIC!!!
    • featuring a) harry spelling draco’s eyebrows bright gryffindor red b) draco’s pet beetle stanley tacking his way through life c) one of the most heartwarming and Soft™ slow burns of all time
  • Stop and Stare by Saras_Girl - “This is not a story full of drama or conflict or clothes being ripped off in a frenzy. It is about peace and about that creeping sort of love that sneaks up on you while you think you are busy doing other things.”
    • ^ aka everything I ever want ever
    • draco runs an animal sanctuary. harry agrees to build him a shed. includes at least fifty instances of the two of them being unbearably adorable and TAKING CARE OF ANIMALS TOGETHER
    • also features Mama and Resident Cat Lady Narcissa Malfoy pointedly asking harry if he’s “seeing anyone” over tea, sending my emotionally constipated slytherin son into a coughing fit
  • Wish Upon a Star (As Dreamers Do) by ICMezzo - “There’s plant magic and celestial magic and dark magic and normal magic…Then there are wishes, and dreams, and love, and those are even more magical still.”
    • draco is a wishmaker (i’M EMOTIONAL ABOUT IT) and harry is a hogwarts consultant who has a wish to make
  • Seeing Draco Malfoy by khalulu - harry loses his glasses and they end up in draco’s hands…THINGS ESCALATE.
    • in which harry buys draco flowers and then upon being asked “you brought me flowers?” immediately splutters “nO!??!?1″
    • ALSO featuring: harry complimenting draco by telling him he has a “face like a white - pointiness”
    • you just can’t make this stuff up
  • Right Hand Red by lumosed_quill - THE CLASSIC!!!! includes a healthy dose of angst but mostly will delight your socks off. eighth year shenanigans!!! the whole hogwarts crew being wonderful!!! guaranteed to make you cry over chocolate cupcakes for the rest of your life!!! A MUST READ
  • Stately Homes of Wiltshire by waspabi - another with a healthy dose of ~serious emotions~ but it’s also an absolute delight and I’D BE REMISS TO NOT ATTEMPT TO MAKE EVERYONE READ IT IMMEDIATELY. it’s one of the best!!!!
    • “Malfoy Manor has mould, dry rot and an infestation of unusually historical poltergeists. Harry Potter is on the case.”
    • featuring some of the Greatest Characterization Ever, lots of teasing and bickering, and lots of draco malfoy being perpetually pissy about just how beautiful The Chosen One is
    • “Thin winter sunlight gleamed off his high cheekbones, yet another in a long line of irritations.”
    • “Sorry, what?” Potter asked, all flawless brown skin and sharp jawline, the arsehole.
    • R E A D  I T

okay, I’ll leave you with those six for now. apologies if you didn’t want me to ramble for ages about how great all of these are but…your first mistake would be assuming I have self-control :o)

HOPE THESE SUIT YOU, LOVELY ANON!!! :’’) they’re all utterly fantastic and I cannot imagine you not loving any single one of them. please enjoy and do let me know if you read any!!!! :3 <33333333

dreamcatchersdaughter  asked:

Winteriron soulmate wing fic AU where your soulmate has inverted wings to you and your first words to each-other are written on the inside of your wings? Like if Tony has primary gold and trim red, Bucky's would be primarily red with gold? (they don't have to be those colors that's just my example)

I’m not sure how this is going to turn out because, to be perfectly honest, I really struggle with soulmate AUs. It’s not an idea that resonates easily with me, but I kind of wanted to try as a personal challenge to myself. I’m also twisting some of this a bit in terms of what indicates a match. This is gonna have a lot of gratuitous talk about my thoughts on destiny and I am so sorry and you should just not read it.

Tony never did have the patience for philosophy. Well, not philosophy for philosophy’s sake anyway. As it applied to science? As it applied to morality? Important shit. People needed to think about the implications of what they did not only as it related to the present, but also as it related to those who would follow, those whose lives would be dictated by present-day choices. He liked that kind of thinking. It was where his brain functioned best.

But all the, all the fluff? Waste of time. He remembered the first time he told Steve he’d never put much stock in amorphous concepts like “soul” and “destiny” and the shock on Steve’s face.

“But, but you’ve…what about the patterning?”


“You stock it all up to strands of DNA?”

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marriage proposal: wonho
  • ok tbh i see wonho absolutely losing his mind over this
  • he’d be a nervous wreck
  • acting weird for weeks but once you ask what’s wrong, he looks like he’ll have a breakdown any second so you just let him be, figuring or rather hoping he’ll get back to normal soon
  • he hates keeping things from you. he really does, but
  • he just wants it to be perfect. he tries to plan out how he’ll propose down to the smallest detail, because you can’t say no. honestly what would he even do if you said no???? cry for 38 years that’s what
  • anyway
  • so he plans it all out, even prepares a speech, telling you how much you mean to him and how he wants to spend the rest of his life with you and all
  • and then he takes you to the sea. he packs blankets and tea and you sit down together on the almost deserted beach, wrapped in blankets and watching the ocean together, just talking until even your quiet chatter dies down and you watch wave after wave crash onto the shore
  • and wonho looks at you, looking so beautiful and he’s still so in love with you and his hand wraps around the ring in his pocket and he’s ready to ask you to-
  • except he’s not.
  • he leaves the ring in his pocket and you leave the beach after a while and wonho hates himself a little bit because he really wanted to ask he you, he really did, but he just couldn’t
  • of course he tries again
  • he tries again and again, plans out scenario after scenario but he chickens out every time
  • get it together wonho
  • the ring is always in his pocket, the words he practiced so many times are always on his tongue, but
  • it’s never the right moment, he thinks. something’s always wrong, the mood, the timing, something, he doesn’t quite know what it is most of the time, it’s just-
  • he wants to find the perfect moment, ok?? it has to be perfect
  • or maybe it’s just that’s he is petrified you might say no because he loves you so much and he doesn’t wanna lose you
  • meanwhile the other members are getting more frustrated every day because wonho just won’t propose but he won’t stop talking about it either and honestly??? they’re running out of suggestions
  • ………………….so
  • it’s a day when you’re off work and wonho is as well but since wonho still hasn’t come up with a new plan and you haven’t seen the others in a while he invites you over to just spend the day with them
  • you’re all in sweatpans and just hanging out at their dorm, eating too much and playing video games
  • hyungwon is lying on the couch and reading, wonho is playing with his phone, shownu and kihyun went to the supermarket to grab more food
  • and you’re playing mario kart with minhyuk and changkyun, sitting too close to the tv and being way too into it for adults, cursing at items that hit you
  • it’s a close call but finally you get first place and
  • “ha!!”, you scream in victory, “take that suckers!”
  • minhyuk and changkyun groan in unison but wonho just chuckles
  • he loves it so much when you’re being dorky and kinda obnoxious. he loves you so much. he just wants to marry you, is that too much to ask for?
  • “just let me marry her..”, he mutters
  • ………….…..  …
  • four sets of eyes practically snap to gape at him, all laughter and chatter gone in an instant, the mario kart tune still playing mockingly in the background, making everything seem a little surreal
  • and you’re just. staring, eyes about to pop out of your head
  • “you……what?”
  • he just stares back for a few second with equally wide eyes, feeling nauseous and dizzy because did he just really just say that aloud?? god no you’re gonna hate him you’re gonna leave you’re gonna-
  • “wonho?”, you ask quietly but demanding
  • he swallows and takes a deep breath. now or never, he thinks
  • “y/n”
  • he walks over to you and sits down on his knees right in front of you, pulling out the little box he’s been carrying around for weeks now
  • “y/n”, he repeats and looks into your eyes and again you’re just staring back, completely in shock and trying to convince yourself you’re not dreaming
  • meanwhile the other boys are just sitting there, gaping, also not believing what’s going on right before their eyes
  • “i kinda had an entire speech written out for this but honestly?”, wonho laughs nervously, “i can’t remember any of it right now…just”
  • he opens the box and holds it up a little, your gaze flickering between wonho and the ring in his hands
  • “i love you, y/n. please marry me?”
  • overwhelmed with emotions, tears start spilling out your eyes and you start to cry
  • “y/n?”, wonho asks, voice uncertain all of a sudden and his frown deepening by the second
  • he looks so ridiculously concerned that you can’t help but chuckle even though you’re crying. you quickly start to nod, wiping your tears
  • “of course. of course i’ll marry you”
  • and wonho’s expression immediately shifts into one of pure delight and the way he looks as much in love with you as you feel you’re in love with him right now, makes the emotions rushing over you only stronger, causing you to smile wider and cry harder
  • he takes the ring out of the box and your hand in his
  • “can i?”, he asks, smiling at you shyly
  • you nod again, not really able to talk, tears still rolling down your cheeks
  • as soon as the ring’s on your finger, you practically throw yourself at your now fiancé, arms wrapping around him, burying your face in his neck
  • his arms tighten around you and he starts laughing and crying, too
  • so there you are
  • on the living room floor, in sweatpants and with unbrushed hair, the mario kart theme still playing in the background. clinging to each other and laughing and crying at the same time
  • your emotions are all over the place but what you know is this:
  • you’re happy. so unbelievably and incredibly happy.
  • you don’t even notice when minhyuk and the other boys finally start breathing again, too, groaning and laughing because “can you believe him oh my god” and “finally he got his shit together”
  • you don’t notice either when a few minutes later the door opens and shownu and kihyun come back, kihyun promptly dropping his bag of snacks
  • “……are you kidding me.”

[ shownu // wonho // kihyun // minhyuk // hyungwon // jooheon // changkyun ]

the Moment is actually terrifying though

like, it’s obviously terrifying as a weapon – dubbed the Galaxy Eater, it can destroy an unfathomable about of matter between one heartbeat and the next and leave no trace behind – but people don’t really talk about its sentience enough

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Insecurities (Josh Dun)

Hell this is my second ever imagine I have written on this blog and I am thankful for the notes I received on my first post, as always feel free to drop some requests in my inbox and I will try to get round to doing them as soon as possible.

I was in a very sappy mood so I decided that I was going to write some emotional stuff about Josh being insecure about his looks as well as comparing himself to Tyler.

I want you to know that everyone reading this out there is beautiful even if people tell you any different (Including yourself) Trust me you pretty and beautiful every single day. If you ever want someone to speak to feel free to send me a message. :)

Triggers: Josh talks about body parts he dislikes such as, hair, eyes, chest, tattoos, and height. If any of the things above trigger you please be careful, however they are only brief mentions and don't go into any detail.


Josh POV

I have alway been slightly an anxious person throughout my life, whether that means hiding behind my powerful drum kit and letting Tyler be the main attraction during concerts or breaking into a small sweat when I order at a restaurant scared that I will mess up a simple order. However I thought that the one thing that I was able to control really well was the amount of negative comments me and Tyler often receive, I tend to just block them out because I know how many positive comments we get back from our fans, but something is different.

As I sit on the cold sheets at the very edge of the bed that me and my girlfriend (Y/N) share I can’t help but hear all these pessimistic words flood into my ears. I am sitting shirtless with only a pair of basketball shorts laying low on my hips, my elbows creating red marks on my thighs from where I had been leaning on my hands for a period of time. I didn’t know where this ongoing battle in my brain was leading to but instantaneously, I couldn’t handle in any more and the tears cascaded down my cheeks all at once as if every hurtful, mean and spiteful comment I have ever read suddenly turned to a pool of tears I was slowly creating on the crisp clean bed sheets, I have no idea what has come over me but I don’t feel this flood of emotions starting to slow down anytime soon. I suddenly remembered that (Y/N) is downstairs and that I should quieten down, the last thing I want to do is worry her about my stupid problems. I quickly jump up off the bed and rush over to the large mirror that was on the wall above a chest of drawers and stared into it

She doesn't love you 

She doesn't really want to be with you 

Did you actually think that someone like (Y/N) would actually want to date someone like you. 

Everyone likes Tyler more than you

Tyler is the attractive one

All you do is play the drums, Tyler does so much more and you just sit there

I look in the mirror that was in front of me, I stare into my dark brown eyes, brown boring old brown, I look at my bubblegum pink hair, its horrible, not even a natural colour. I continue to pinpoint different things on my body, my tattoos, my chest, my height and the list goes on. 

“Josh are you alright? You have been in their a while now” I hear (Y/N) call from outside the door, with concern laced in her voice. I look once again into the glass mirror and rub the salty tears from my eyes trying my hardest to rid any evidence that I had been crying.

“Yes I’m fine, I will be out in a second” I reply unconvincingly because my voice broke halfway through.

“Josh, I know you’re upset please can I come in?” (Y/N) asks, (Y/N) wasnt stupid she knew when I was upset I don’t even know why I tried to hide it from her because I knew that she would just find out anyway. She was also stubborn so no matter how many times I tell her I am fine she wont stop pestering me to make sure that I really am alright.

I dont respond in the fear that my voice won’t be able to support me, I walk back over and sit on the bed like I was previously. (Y/N) pokes her head from around the door and sees me with my head in my hands trying with all that is left in me to fight back the tears that were threatening to spill.

“Oh Josh” (Y/N) exclaims sadly, putting her small her to her mouth and rushes over to comfort me.

I feel her protective arms wrap around my shoulders, I respond automatically by turning to her and burying my head into her soft sweet smelling hair, I continue to cry into her shoulder for another few minutes until I am settled enough to talk.

I explain to (Y/N) about all the emotions I have been experiencing and that I felt like people like Tyler more than me because he sings as well as play other instruments. I continue to speak to ashamed to look up at her softened glance. But when I finally do I notice she is also crying, however she speedily wipes the tears away not wanting to show her emotions on the situation.

“Josh, I can only understand that you being in a famous that at times it is going to get overwhelming for you, having all these amazing fans look up to you, admire you. However I know that you and Tyler are going to get your share of negative comments, but honestly that is because they are jealous, they are jealous that they can’t play the drums, they are jealous that it isn’t them on stage surrounded by thousands of people who love them, they are jealous that they can’t tour with their best friend, fuck that the people who say these low life comments proably don’t have a best friend.” (Y/N) takes a sharp intake of breath and swallows hard.

“(Y/N) I-”

“I’m not finished” She cuts me off and I stay silent looking at her from the side, at this angle I can see how the low moonlight reflects beautifully off of her glistening eyes. She truly is beautiful. 

“Do you know how upset it makes me when you say all these untrue negative things about yourself, Josh you are beautiful, personality wise and appearance wise, I love your chocolate brown eyes, because I love the way that they widen when you hear something funny, I love your pink hair because it suits your personality and I love the way that it sticks to your forehead when you play the drums.”

I cant stop grinning, I didnt realise that she picked up on all these small details about me.

“I love the your tattoos they look amazing, I love that when you are asleep next to me I trace over them softly not to wake you, I love your body all of it I love your toned chest and the way that your back glistens with sweat you have been playing the drums for a while. I love how tall you are you may not be the tallest but you don’t need to be any taller because your height is the perfect height for me to do this”

(Y/N) then gives me a quick and small peck on the lips, I grin widely.

“I love you Josh alot, and so do thousands if not millions of fans out there.” She finishes and tightens her grip around me. I sit in shock I didnt realise I did all of those things myself so I was surprised when (Y/N) picked up on them.

“Wow, I don’t know what to say, I mean how did you notice all these things about me?” I question a smirk appearing on my face. I see (Y/N) duck her head down as a red blush forms on her cheeks.

“I dont know I just, notice” She replies, I chuckle deeply.

“I love you (Y/N) and I’m sorry, I’m sorry for upsetting you”

“Josh it’s alright really, as long as you are feeling better then I am ok to. I love you” She says with a genuine smile on her lips.

We both sit there in silence for a minute just taking in each others company. (Y/N) stands up suddenly and stretched her arm out towards me, encouraging me to take her hand.

“C’mon, lets go watch a film and cuddle on the sofa for a bit” She suggests, I grin

“that sounds perfect.” 

anonymous asked:

One thing the chocobros love about their s/o? Can be gender neutral and can be serious or silly.

What they Love About them (Chocobros)

I won’t lie, this was a tricky request. Personally, I feel what they would love about their s/o would depend on what kind of person they were with in the first place. And you know people can be diverse. But enough rambling, I decided to play off of what we see of the boys, so let me know how it works out.

They never throw his obligations in his face. Just about everyone in the Lucian Court is adamant on emphasising that he’s the future King. They may aim to keep him grounded but all he hears is that he needs to get his act together. “Remember, you’ll be King someday.” Not a day has passed in his life where he hasn’t had  those words hurled at him. But when he’s with them? It’s as though, those words aren’t hanging over his head anymore. That he is good enough. Because why else would they choose him? He knows he has a long way to go but looking into their eyes, he feels hopeful. Not anxious, like he does when his duty is thrown at him. They never really bring up that he won’t be a Prince forever, which is probably part of why he feels at peace with them. In moments like this, being King feels like the destination of tomorrow, not the headache of today. And with them by his side he knows the transition will be smooth.

They listen to him. Not just that, but they understand what he says. Not just in terms of him sharing things at an emotional level, but at a more intellectual level too. Most people see that he’s hyper and smile-y and dismiss him. Thinking he’s too childish for a meaningful conversation. He socialises quite a bit so he has to put up with this sort of thing often. Which is why when he absentmindedly starts talking about something he read the other day, he realises that no one told him to quiet down. Noticing, that they were there and listening pretty intently. It was strange to see someone who’s relatively new in his life being so considerate. But he did take it as an invitation to bombard them with whatever opinions and the like he has. They enjoy that he does, loving how excited he looks now that he can actually talk to someone about these things.

When they joke around with him. The majority of his day, and arguably his life, is about maintaining the utmost professionalism. No quips, no sarcasm, no puns. He has to be succinct, clear, and formal. No two ways about it. He doesn’t really disagree with that though. Being in service to the Crown means one needs to be as sensible and mature as possible, he agrees with that. He will admit though, that it’s refreshing when he can be frivolous with them. Engaging in humourous banter. Laughing at each other’s jokes. Trying to outdo each others’ puns. It’s a nice way to break the pace in his day. And letting all the trivial thoughts out, empties his tank and helps him maintain the guise of the serious Ignis that those he works with are most familiar with. The Ignis that they have a hard time believing, exists.

When they help him relax after he trains. He usually tries to devote as much of his day to training as he can. Sometimes that isn’t particularly long. Other times it’s ridiculously long. He enjoys the adrenaline rush but he absolutely hates the aches and pains that come with strict training. They want him to feel less tense, so they try to do their part. Sometimes, they urge him to cuddle with them and they play the big spoon so he feels comforted. Other times, they draw up a bubble bath, and even though he’s tired, he still acts silly with them. Usually though, they like to give him massages. It’s the fastest way to get him asleep. Which is very welcome on days where he’s especially tired. This being a common occurrence, they’re pretty good at it too. And on days where they just want to collapse onto bed, he returns the favour and helps them relax.

anonymous asked:

Elriel? Can you explain this to me because I think you are suggesting breaking up Lucien and Elain's mating bond and Mor and Azriel being whatever they will be once Cassian is out of the way with Nesta, to ship Elain and Azriel. Don't get me wrong I totally think they will be friends as they are both quiet and caring people, but really a ship????

Yes, really a ship. I doubt it will happen, unless Maas:

  1. Wants to give us another example (other than Rhys’s parents) of why being someone’s mate does not equal automatic meaningful companionship/love
  2. She wants to make a point about how, in the real world, when you sustain a crush on someone for a long time/you build that person up in your mind to the point that the idea of them will always be better than the reality of them
  3. She wants to get at the idea of how a traumatic bond between two people can make them feel strongly for one another, but that doesn’t make it the kind of love that meaningful, healthy relationships are built on

It’s a loooong shot. Although, I can 100% make an argument as to lines that foreshadow the possibility of Elriel. I got on this ship because there was some significant foreshadowing for Mor’s death, and I’m the kind of person who will cry real tears/get actually real-world depressed when characters I care about die (MATTHIAS!). So I had to distance myself from Mor. JUST IN CASE. 

But the more I thought about Elain and Azriel, the more I realized that it his SEVERAL of my nerd-buttons. Mainly my “Hades and Persephone” nerd-button. A myth that I am mildly obsessed with. And the more I thought about Elain and Azriel and their character development/backstories, the more I shipped Elriel. They are VERY similar. 

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Title: Metallic pt. 3

Genre: Angst

Pairing: Jumin Han x MC/Reader/You

have fun reading, everyone!! this is the part 3 of Metallic! Part 1. Part 2.

this prompt is based on days 7 - 9 of Jumin’s route but i took it from there. fic contains a possible theme ( cheating ) that might disturb some people. you’ve been warned!

It's everything you wanted, it's everything you don't...
It's one door swinging open and one door swinging closed.
Some prayers find an answer,
Some prayers never know.
We're holding on and letting go...

You felt yourself shiver against the harsh wind of the night— its half past 2 o’clock and you’re out on the streets, walking with only your thin cardigan, slippers and shorts. You felt numb. The image of what you saw kept replaying itself inside your mind like a broken avi. You couldn’t even feel your tears falling— nor were they really falling from the first place?

Going back to Rika’s apartment will be suicide itself so you fished your phone on your pocket and launched the RFA app, scanning through your contacts. You checked the chatroom and when you saw Jumin online, you immediately closed it. On your contact list, your fingers unconsciously clicked a number and you waited for the person on the end to pick it up. You prayed to yourself that it’s not Jumin’s number.

“MC?” A woman’s voice. It was Jaehee. “It’s… very early for you to call. What is it?”
You sighed in relief as you gripped your phone tightly, trying to mask any emotions from your voice.

“C-Can I stay with you? Even just for tonight?” You failed. Your voice faltered and you heard shuffling of sheets on the other line. You felt guilty. You disturbed Jaehee when it’s her only time to rest. Why do you keep on being a burden to others?

“What happened?” Her voice, now full, asked you. “Aren’t you with Mr. Han?”

“I’m…” You paused. Even just recalling what you saw felt sour. “…please. I have nowhere to go.”

It took her a few moments before she sighed and answered, “I suppose you can. Where are you?”

You told her the landmarks of where you’re currently walking at and she told you her house is just a few blocks away from there. She said you should take a turn 2 blocks from a certain coffee shop and her apartment will be there. You gave her your thanks as you started walking your way towards her home. But before you can cut the call, you heard her ask,
“Should I tell Mr. Han you’re with m—”

NO! No… Please… Don’t let him find me.” Your tone shook as you heard silence on the other end. You bit your lip to bite back a sob as your voice started to sound small. “…at least not now, don’tPlease…

Jaehee sighed as if she already had a gist of what happened. “Alright. But you should at least tell me what happened, MC. What you did is impulsive—going out to the streets at this this hour without anyone with you is fairly dangerous.”

“I- I’m going there now.” Pause. “Thank you, Jaehee…”


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I didn’t read over this so I apologise if it’s of bad quality.

This is a short imagine based off of the song SHE DON’T LOVE ME by Zayn. It’s not strictly essential that you listen to it while reading but it’s there if you want to. Enjoy, babies💗

That’s the thing about love - it changes a person. Someone who once looked tired with sad eyes could fall in love and their whole appearance would change; their eyes would beam with light and their smile would, for once, reach their eyes.

Love makes you kind, it creates happiness within yourself and within others, it’s a beautiful thing. I love love.

But falling out of love, it’s just as easy to recognise the signs. There’s distance and flinching and short replies, along with sighs of annoyance and fake smiles. [Y/N] isn’t in love anymore, not like I am with her. I can see it in her eyes whenever I touch her and tell her I love her.

However, she says nothing. She doesn’t break it off, she doesn’t leave, she goes each day lying to me. I sometimes laugh because she thinks I don’t know. How naive. It’s also humorous that she probably thinks I’m the delusional one in the relationship.

I think a lot about breaking up with her; what’s the point in being together if we’re not happy? But whenever I persuade myself, I think about how it’s her that’s not wanting to carry on, so she should be the one to end it. I wait for the day with a pounding heart.

It hurts, of course it does. I feel high amounts of adoration for her, I want nothing more than to be with her for the rest of my life, but knowing she doesn’t feel the same, it weakens my strength to keep going.

But more than anything, it angers me. The dark side of me, the demon in the pit of my stomach, arises whenever I think about her these days, which shouldn’t happen towards someone you love so dearly. How could she stop loving me? I find myself questioning it frequently with clenched fists.

It’s not her fault; if you happen to stop loving someone, what can you do? It happens, people change and feelings change. The least she could do is tell me, I think that’s what makes my blood boil - the fact she doesn’t have the heart to tell me, little does she know, she’s already broken mine.

She’s pressed against me, her hot body sending her heat onto my own. The feeling of her lips giving absolutely no emotion besides hungry arousal makes my heart pain in my chest, but I cover it up by gripping her ass in my palms.

“Justin..” she whispers, and I feel a sense of determination to please her, even if she doesn’t love me.

“I’m going to fuck you up,” I mutter, pushing her off of me and onto her back. Her hair sprayed across the white pillows that looked like a background of clouds in a breathtaking painting of a flawless girl. I had to stop from overthinking by suffocating myself with her distant kiss.

“Do it,” she replies in between her attacks on my lips, I could feel them becoming sore.

It’s like the idea that she doesn’t love me, that she no longer has an emotional attraction towards me, it’s making me want to fuck her better than I ever have. I plan on doing just that.

Her bare chest is exposed to me and I witness her nipples hardening. I remember the first time I took a hold of them, she started to pant breathlessly when I rubbed them. Now, I grope her boobs in my hands and she gasps loudly. I smirk, knowing I still have an affect on her.

“You like that, baby?” I ask, feeling myself becoming excited at the sight of her. She nods her head rapidly and takes her bottom lip between her teeth, I remember all the times her tongue danced with my own.

“You want me to make you cum, right?” I ask with a low voice. “I’ll do whatever you want, baby, because I love you,” I enjoy watching her shuffle uncomfortably at his expression of love. She didn’t repeat it, but instead, arched her back. Involuntarily, I gripped her boobs harder.

“Justin, oh my God,” she moans and rolls her hips up, it pleased me greatly. “Please, fuck me.”

This was something I’ll miss if she ever happens to confess to me. I’ll miss how she feels around me, and how confident she is when we’re being intimate. I’ll miss how she looks at me with so much dependency in her eyes when she needs release.

“Anything for you, babygirl,” I mutter before taking my hands away from her chest and letting one of them come down to meet her entrance. I smirk when I feel slight wetness beginning to build up. “You can get a lot wetter than that, [Y/N],” I said as I watched her. All she did was stare at me pleadingly.

My hard on stands tall now, causing her attention to be shifted every now and then, but I don’t mind.

I slide my fingers up so that they’re rubbing her clit slowly, she responds beautifully and I’m sure I’m still very much in love with the girl spread out before me. It almost makes my heart hurt, but I rub harder to erase my thoughts.

“J-Justin,” she gasps and I almost moan. I take the chance of moving my free hand to her chest once more and my palm presses against her left nipple, she shuffles for a moment at the awkward sensations running through her but rapidly becomes accustomed and bulges her chest out to reach my touch.

“Looks like you need a good fucking,” I said mindlessly. She nods her head.

With that, I take my hands away from her body, leaving her nipples hard and clit swollen, and take a hold of her hips. I see excitement mixing with the colour of her eyes.

“You turn me on so much, princess,” I breath out. It was true, but at the same time, I’m struggling to even keep concentrated as I proceed to fuck her.

“The feeling’s mutual,” [Y/N] chuckles and I know she’s lying. I slam into her to clear my mind. I let out a grunt as I feel her tightness around me, it sends shocks through my body.

“Baby,” she whimpers and it causes me to drastically pick up the pace. My hips are almost meeting her own every other second that passes and I watch with eyes full of lust and excitement. I am distracted.

“You like that? You love having me inside of you, don’t you?” I breath against her neck and feel her shudder - it pleases me. “You love me, right?”

She nods and a quiet whimper falls into the air instead of the three words I’m burning to hear leave her plump lips. I’m saddened, but I force my cock deeper into her while I growl lowly.

I know this isn’t right. This isn’t how it should go. I know she doesn’t love me, I shouldn’t be fucking her and trying to convince myself that there’s something still present between the two of us, but the mere thought of bringing it up makes me feel as though I’m going to throw up, and I’d rather be cumming than throwing up.

“You’re so tight,” I rasp, gripping her hips incredibly hard in the palms of me hands. Her body is hot underneath me. “I want you to cum for me, I want you to depend on me and tell me you love me and mean it,” I spoke involuntarily, I didn’t mean to say that.

“I’m so close, Justin,” she replied, clearly ignoring my later comment. It sent annoyance through my body.

We move like that for a while longer, and I can only feel her getting closer to her orgasm as I am my own. Her body shakes just the way I like, and I can feel my thrusts becoming unsteady as I try to create an impossible pace to get us both there.

Her hands are soft against my shoulders and the contact feels sensual, I can feel a strange lump in my throat. I force myself to concentrate on the naked girl before me and how she’s seconds away from cumming around me.

She writhes beneath me as she cums and I’m absolutely sure there is nothing more beautiful. It hurts knowing this is the only way I can please, but I make sure to appreciate that she still finds pleasure in our fucks.

I tell myself that if she doesn’t love me, I’ll make sure to be with her like this - with her legs wrapped around my waist as I pound into her - just so I can keep experiencing what it’s like to watch her look at me like I’m everything she needs.

To the people complaining about how hard it is to have one bias in BTS.
  • Me: *wakes up*
  • Me: how's jimin doing is he eating well is he okay is he tired is he happy with himself is he working too hard is he exercising his voice is he making sure he's not straining his vocal cords is he caring about himself as much as everyone else is he accepting help is he taking the advice from the right people has he identified the difference between hard work and being too hard on himself does he know his limits and that it's okay to have limits does he know he's never slacked off does he know his expectations are what make him feel like he fails but it's not a product of reality does he know how strong of a person and a presence he is does he know when to let go of things is he sleEPING
  • Me: how's tae doing is he playing games is he encouraging everyone to have fun is he communicating has he seen any kids lately any animals is he feeling accepted and appreciated is he living in the moment is he being a honest compassionate genius is he getting his space and serious time does he know it's okay if he can't make people understand and it's not a defect of his skills it's not his fault that he's not being heard does he know that some things are out of his control and it's okay does he know that sometimes people don't see the relevance in what he's saying and that's okay and is he making sure his hyungs are alIVE
  • Me: how's jin doing what has he cooked lately is he playing pokemon is he on the wii is his fliphone okay how are his hats and circular glasses is he feeding everyone has he told himself he's handsome a minimum of ten times today has he checked up on everyone's psychological health and stability does he know that i love how comfortable he is in his skin is he living contently has he caught up with his family does he know how much he is appreciated and how much of a lasting effect he has on everyone around him does he know how attentive and perceptive he is does he know how much i love that he continues being himself and how stable and hard-working and reasonable and positive and brave and professional he is and so much perseverance he deserves the spotlight but doesn't always take it just like when he wrote the lyrics for propose guys and didn't even give himself a big part he works so hard on dancing and doesn't feel the need to be validated by others words because he feels appreciated where he needs to be does he know how special he is does he know how much we love his go-getter attitude and that no one has forgotten how amazing of an actor he is how he enjoys life how he's mature and knows what to keep private does he know how cute he looks with glasses on and how anyone who can't see his charm is blind and how he has so many cool interests and how he knows everyone's potential and has standards for them has he given everyone equAL HUGS TODAY
  • Me: how's namjoon doing is he thinking deeply what books has he read lately does he know that no amount of thinking things through can prevent slip ups and that's okay does he know how sincere h is does he know how much of an individual he is and how much i love that is he contemplating life is he making good songs is he encouraging everyone is he telling everyone they're wrong when they snub themselves is he putting his arms around everyone and making contact in that way he does which shows his love in the little things is his phone out of memory did he remember his earphones is hE BUYING THE CLOTHES HE WANTS
  • Me: how's yoongi is he sleeping well how's his neck pillow doing has he remembered to eat does he feel like he's good enough does he give himself enough credit is he getting his introvert time is he content is he identifying his emotions healthily is he being attentive of the members is he putting logic to their insecurities in order to relieve them is he being strict is he keeping bts in a row is he subtly but consistently showing them love in all those little ways is he expressing his deeply felt emotions is hE SELF ANALYZING
  • Me: how's jungkook is he making faces is he dancing is he working hard is he being overly competitive is his head in the clouds is he being hard on himself does he know how perfect he is does he know that he's as productive as 1000000 american teenagers is he being comfortable with himself with his true self does he know it's okay to show his emotions he doesn't have to be cool don't feel too pressured is he accepting things is he speaking up is he sTILL RUSHING TO GROW UP
  • Me: how's hoseok is he being positive is he acknowledging his negative emotions is he living in the moment is he freestyling does he know he's an adequate rapper does he know we care about his mixtape has he been getting love is he screaming enough is he releasing his stress by releasing all of his emotions no seriously are his stress levels okay is he sick is he being too self sacrificing iS HE IGNORING HOW HE FEELS THINKING IT WILL JUST
  • Me: *takes first breath of the day*
  • Me: oh god i feel so bad for writing more on jin i love them all so much it's just i feel like so fed up with how no one appreciates him
  • Me: and oh god i feel like i didn't do too well on some of the other members but
  • Me: i love them so much i just
  • Me: i have to give them equal gifsets equal photo sets it's too much it's too much why can't i just have one bias then it's easy
  • Me: *comes home*
  • Me: i feel like i've been posting a lot of taehyung, jimin, yoongi, and namjoon lately
  • Me: and why do i keep forgetting someone when i do the tags???? what's wrong with me????
  • Me: i feel so guilty i'll post a lot of jin and hoseok and jungkook!!! i love them too idk
  • Me: i posted a lot of them and now it feels uneven??? i need to do equal pictures
  • Me: *gets ready for bed*
  • Me: i'm going to post some maknae like awwww- wait i like this picture but that would mean jimin gets three pictures and tae and jungkook get two each unacceptable i'll have to find two more pictures of-
  • Me: well now i need to post some hyung line they're great too
  • Me: *falling asleep*
  • Me: i feel like i haven't given enough attention to namjoon today and why aren't there more awesome pictures of jin like wtf that's not right-
  • Me: *dreaming*
  • Namjoon: i posted a kimdaily today and you didn't notice tf is wrong with you
  • Me: i'M SLEEPING
  • Namjoon: you didn't even reply in your sorry mangled KOREAN
  • Me:
  • Namjoon:
  • Me: wait you actually read those-
  • Namjoon: i was guessing that's what you do?
  • BTS:
  • Me: that's not gonna work again
  • Jungkook: why don't you notice me more i was creeping around hoseok in the last bangtan bomb OvO
  • Jimin: HOW COULD YOU
  • Jin: do you find tae suga jimin and namjoon more handsome than me? admit it the reason why you don't reblog me as much is because it takes you loner to find a "handsome" picture of me
  • Jin: what
  • Jungkook: pardon
  • Jimin: omg! why would you make them feel left out like that i thought you loved all of us i'm crying omg leave me alone
  • Me: don't cry you'll get dehydrated i know how you are about drinking wa-
  • Jimin:
  • Me:
  • BTS:
  • Me: FU-
  • Tae: wow you obviously find me the most handsome??? wtf
  • Tae:
  • Tae: you obviously find me the most funny??? wtf
  • Me: funny?
  • Tae:
  • Tae: excuse me
  • Yoongi: i think you mean me, tae
  • Jimin: juNGKOOK
  • Yoongi: wow if you can't love us all then jeez just pick a bias
  • Me: would you juST-
  • Me:
  • Me:
  • Me: stop screaming
  • BTS:
  • Hoseok: i feel faint
  • Tae: *crouches down*
  • Hoseok: *sits on Tae*
  • Me:
  • Me: *pretends to throw something*
  • Hoseok: KJADFKADadGKADJGAD?!?!?!?!!?!
  • Tae: look a dog
  • Namjoon: *trips and crushes Jin's DS*
  • Jungkook: inFIRES MAN
  • Namjoon: IT'S inSPirES!!!!!!!!
  • Jungkook: pardon
  • Jungkook: O_O
  • Yoongi: *yanks on maknae line's leashes except jimins*
  • Jimin: *starts recording with the V app*
  • Hoseok: haerTEU OH MY HAEURTO
  • Jungkook: O_O
  • BTS: i thought you loved all of us
  • Jungkook: O_O
  • Jungkook: O_O
  • BTS: *leaves*
  • Jungkook: O_O
  • Me: *wakes up crying in the middle of the night*
  • Phone: *OH MAN HOLY SHIT notification sound goes off*
  • Me:
  • Me: better check that

              As far as villains go, Cass thought, the Red Hood wasn’t so bad.  Yes, he killed people, and that was inexcusable, but at least he didn’t kill innocents.  Plus, having once been Robin had to count for something, right?

              Which is why Cass didn’t turn around and leave when she saw Jason Todd sitting in the café on the corner of 15th and Larimer right where her “blind date” was supposed to be.

              The date had been Stephanie’s idea.  Cass needed some “normal socialization,” according to her, and Barbara had agreed.  So the three spent an afternoon taking photos of Cassandra from every angle and describing her in flattering half-truths (“How do you spend your free time?” “Fighting criminals.” “… Studying martial arts sounds better.”).  It didn’t take long for people to start contacting her, which Cass quickly learned was not always a good thing.  Quite a few people – mostly older men – sent her some very unsavory messages, often accompanied by unwarranted images of their supposedly impressive genitals.  One man in particular, a 54-year-old named Brad, had sent a message so vile that Cass had to physically restrain Stephanie from tracking him down and smashing his face in.

              Several people, though, had sent nice messages and seemed to genuinely want to get to know Cass. She got to chatting with most of them, and found that she actually enjoyed conversing with these strangers, though the textual communication was downright aggravating.  More than a little bit was lost when body language and emotion couldn’t be read.

              So when one of the strangers, who used the moniker ‘noprideallprejudice’ suggested meeting up in person, Cass jumped at the chance.  They agreed on a time and location, and Cass spent the morning being poked and prodded by Stephanie, who’d insisted on helping her friend get ready.

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anonymous asked:

hey i was just wondering if you could point me in the right direction here. i feel like there's a great tendency with ships that involve tony in which he is the 'weaker', needy one who needs to be protected and since i personally don't see the character this way, was wondering if you could maybe recommend me some fics (or authors) that don't have that? (idek if you do these things and i'm sorry if you don't and i'm bothering you)

While I’d love to say I’m a fountain of winteriron knowledge, unfortunately I cannot. However this is a great place to ask these questions, even if I don’t have the answer I’m sure some of the bang’s followers will be able to help you. 

Here is what I do have though: 

“Where have you seen me? Did anyone else see me?” Tony turned around and the Soldier put the gun to his forehead. Tony couldn’t decide if he wanted to lean into the door or the gun. “You come to me all the time. I took care of your arm the first time” he said and pointed at it. It was clad in leather today and through the glove Tony could only see the silver fingertips. The Soldier took a step back and shook his head. He seemed to concentrate hard on something and then said “No. You cried.”

Also known as: The meetings between Tony and The Soldier throughout their lives.

(While he does need to be protected in the first of the series, it’s because he’s like 2 so I feel that makes up for it)

After spending years under HYDRA’s control the last thing Bucky wants is to return to their ranks. He does so only because his situation provides an invaluable opportunity to infiltrate the most impenetrable army in the galaxy — his own discomfort is a small price to pay for the lives he might save in the future.

Three months is all he can take before he decides to throw his cover and find his way back to Steve, HYDRA hot on his heels. With him, Bucky has a memory drive of stolen information and a second personality sharing his body, courtesy of HYDRA’s brainwashing.

All Bucky wants is to deliver the information to Steve and the Alliance and finally return home, but when his ship is damaged he has no choice but to stop for emergency repairs. He’s directed to ‘The Mechanic,’ who can supposedly help, but Bucky isn’t exactly comforted when he meets the man in question.

But with HYDRA breathing down his neck Bucky doesn’t have a choice — he’s going to have to trust this Tony, whether he likes it or not.

(Bucky and Tony are both vulnerable in this at moments, but theres some equality in it so that it doesn’t favour one over the other, plus its just generally a really great story)

It is December 19, 1991 and Tony Stark is sleeping. This is significant for several reasons.

For a start, this is the first he’s slept since sometime early on December 16th. He’s gone without sleep for longer—both with and without the intervention of illegal stimulants—so it isn’t so much that as it is the fact that his parents haven’t been alive since December 16th.

The thing is, when he’d agreed to go out clubbing on the night of the 16th—back when he still had parents—it hadn’t ever occurred to him that someone would show up at 5:43 p.m. on December 17th (he’s still wasted from the night before, sweating the drugs out of his system, stinking of sex, and liquor) to tell him his parents had stopped being alive.


The man is named Tony, and he seems to know James better than he knows himself. In fact, there are many times when he doesn’t remember his own name—only Tony’s—and has to be told, over and over. Sometimes he pretends not to know, just so Tony will hold him close, and whisper it against his ear, until his world is reduced to warmth and safety and Tony.

(Again here there’s like an equality in the emotional breakdown moments, plus a really sweet story)  

And finally:

Imagine Tony has a young child &, for some reason or another, s/he is very shy & withdrawn with strangers, & it took him/her a very long time to warm to the rest of the Avengers. However, when Steve brings Bucky into the tower s/he takes & opens up to him right away, much to everyone (but especially Tony’s) shock. Not only that, but Bucky does very well with and opens up to the kid in a way he hasn’t since the brainwashing, bonding with him/her & healing himself as well.


Imagine Bucky read the Hobbit when it came out, and Tony finds out and lends him old tattered copies of the LotR books that he’s read about a hundred times at least. Bucky loves them, and they watch the movies and Tony takes to calling him Elvish endearments in bed because he’s a huge geeky sap, e.g. Meleth e-guilen means love of my life.

(Recovering Bucky not very sure of himself+ Strong Independent Dad Tony who has the sweetest little girl)

Hope this helps with your cravings anon. If anyone else has questions or an answer for this anon feel free to ask/add to this post!

DM Thoughts 25: The Evil Campaign


Now, I would dare to say that the grand majority of campaigns center around a party of good heroes doing their best to destroy the ultimate evil that faces them, perhaps the PC’s have to make some harsh decisions along the way or work with those who despise them. Do not mistake me, this can make for a splendid journey, however, an archetypal campaign most DM’s wouldn’t dare touch with their handy ten foot pole is a vile one.

No one ever considers a party of villains, how could they? Most BBEG’s are a singular entity to be decapitated by the lawful good paladin at the climax of the campaign or adventure. But what if it wasn’t the paladin slaying the cultist leader, but the evil mastermind having the paladin executed in a capital square when he finally claims his kingdom?

Today we are going to discuss the general idea of an evil-aligned campaign, how to run one, and maybe even a couple character ideas for inspiration.

An evil campaign takes everything players know about the grand majority of tabletop RPG’s and flips those ideas on their head. You aren’t playing the paladin in shining armor anymore, but the religious fanatic who is prepared to slay as many people as possible to usher in a new age of theology. The studious and naive wizard isn’t here anymore, make way for the vile necromancer, clad in black robes caked with dirt. And if you think you’ll see a heroic fighter, best kiss that notion bye-bye, for this is the age of the bandit lord, of the prince denied his claim to the throne, of the greedy asssassin and the pillaging barbarian.. this is time for evil.

In order to run an evil campaign, you must start from the beginning, as with in all things. But consider the following: Are the player’s mere adventurers that crawl dungeons in search of treasures anymore, or are they all scheming ambitious men and women on the hunt for titles and their own vile perversions and destinies?

Perhaps instead of clearing out a bandit lair as their first quest, their goal is to seek allegiance with said bandits and pillage a nearby village.

Make the quests alternative and original, which sometimes can be done by simply reversing the idea of your traditional good-aligned quests. Instead of reclaiming an artifact from a group of villains who would use it for evil, the party seeks that artifact out in order to do great evil.

Most monsters and general combat opponents will not be the same either. Perhaps instead of fighting bandits or skeletons anymore, the party fights town guards, angry mobs, metallic dragons, and even angels.

And though these elements may seem different, it does not mean the party should experience less adventure or take in more lore than an ordinary party would do. Let them travel and carve dungeons up from the inside out- let them feel the wind in their hair on horseback across the vast countryside. They too will enjoy it, just as a good-aligned party does.

I will say that running an evil campaign should not be performed by a squeamish DM, or even one that feels pure-at-heart, inexperienced, or uncomfortable with vile scenarios, for these will surely arise.

Pillaging generally involves the outright slaughter of at least some of the local populous, which can be an extremely uncomfortable situation to narrate, which is a perfectly normal emotional response to such a scenario, for it is an evil thing- downright despicable.

Evil scenarios should make the players appalled and their characters intrigued. They should consist of evil events and encounters that further the careers and ambitions of the character party.

This generally will involve effects that are harmful to good-aligned NPC’s, and your party should know that and be fully aware.

On a side note, make sure that all of the players in the campaign are okay with running evil characters, for if they are roped into the situation it will quickly become an uncomfortable experience for them, one that will not be pleasant or enjoyable. Always make sure your players are having fun, as you have probably heard thousands upon thousands of times from hardened DM’s and GM’s, regardless, it is beautiful advice.

The storyline of an evil-aligned campaign can be as simple as the takeover of a nation, or as complicated as the takeover of a nation.

Most evil aligned campaigns will center around the domination of some aspect of general life, whether it be civilization, magic, religion, technology, idealistically, or politically.

This generally takes many steps to achieve, starting with small tasks that slowly escalate into heinous crimes against humanity. 

That being said, an evil campaign… does not always have to be… evil. That entire piece of syntax was difficult to write and is even more painful to read, but what I am trying to get at is the following; perhaps the player character are evil, but they are only using these vile means in order to further a goal that will ultimately do good for the world or a large portion of society in the long run.

Or… on the contrary, perhaps the characters are just straight-up assholes, and after all this is an evil campaign, eh? If the party wants to be the douche-nozzles they were born to be, allow them to do so- but ask them about their ultimate goals beforehand.

Characters in an evil campaign, both PC’s and NPC’s differ exponentially. Let us begin with player characters.

In this instance, I am going to give a simple list, considering this is a blog series for game masters and dungeon masters..

   -The vile necromancer, wishes to raise undead in order to conquer a territory.

   -A vampire prince wishing to live up to the evil expectations of his or her father.

   -A xenophobic purist wishing to make his or her culture the culture.

   -A religious fanatic who strives to convert all those he comes across to his faith, by any means necessary.

   -The conquering barbarian who holds domination and slavery by might in mind.

   -The cunning rogue who has an intricate layer of Machiavellian schemes laid out on top of one another seeking behind-the-scenes control.

   -The anarchist druid seeking the destruction of all civilization.

   -The industrial alchemist seeking the massive expansion of civilization. 

   -The shunned prince seeking to claim a throne that is rightfully his.

Those are just a few ideas, perhaps you wish to suggest them to your players or use them yourself, whatever the case may be, there are infinite of options out there.

On the next note, I always have talked about my love for colorful NPC’s, as you all know at this point. They are no less important in an evil campaign than they are in a good-aligned one.

Allies are perhaps more scarce, but just as influential. As I said earlier, instead of slaying all of the evil-aligned baddies, perhaps the party tries to recruit them. That being said, they will probably meet a plethora of bandit leaders, goblin lords, troll kings, and creepy necromancers.

Allow them one close ally, someone who shares their goals, such as a figure seeking a throne or an evil mentor. Then introduce several other allies who will slowly become just as important as the first, make sure at least some of them betray the party at some point during the campaign, for it will shock them and make the evil realization that much more true.

At the same time, there should be a large opposing presence. Maybe a justified guild of paladins with a deep secret that seeks to thwart the party at every turn, or even a good-aligned adventurers group that mirrors the party.

Of course you should also probably take time to develop these adversaries. Give each of them a secret that humanizes them, perhaps a dark one. Maybe the adventurers are part of a larger organization of counter-terrorists, or the arch bishop of the opposing diving presence has inhumane fetishes that he keeps a close lock on. (Again, I recommend The Book of Vile Darkness, Monte Cook, 2002)

Remember that there is a constant struggle between good and evil within every heart. Let your campaigns elements bring out the latter, give evil the exposition it needs in your world- let it thrive…

Or let it miserably fail in a glorious TPK, but that too is a story that will go down in history- and no matter what alignment of campaign you run, the stories will flow like mead in a tavern of gold, and they will always be magnificent.

-A, a particularly vile Dungeon Master

Let Me Love You pt. 5 [End]

Summary: She never really looked at Bucky that way, but she just recently broke up with her ex-boyfriend and Bucky is more than willing to help her get her mind off of him. Maybe she would let him help, if only he would stop being so infuriatingly annoying for just one second. A five part mini-series based on Ariana Grande’s ‘Let Me Love You’

Word Count: 947 (so short, I’m sorry!)

Pairing: Bucky Barnes x Unnamed female character

A/N: So this is the end. Thanks so much for reading. This will not be the last of me, I promise. So if you like what you read, maybe follow me for more? Hope you like it!

Part One, Part Two, Part Three, Part Four

Originally posted by lancetucker

They hadn’t even made it out of the front door.

Steve, Wanda, Natasha, and Vision were all sat on the couches, watching television in the common room when the pair came into the room; laughing and holding hands, talking about some stupid cat video she had shown Bucky on YouTube. 

“Right, but imagine T’Challa.” She laughed, making Bucky throw his head back in laughter at the tiny kitten who was going crazy over a laser pointer.

Natasha was the first one to notice them. Her eyes dropped down to their linked hands and a smirk tugged at the corner of her lips. Next were Steve and Sam who shared a very, confused look. But then Sam whispered an ‘I told ya so’, to his best friend. Wanda and Vision just smiled, happy that they were no longer the only couple on the team.

“Where are you two going?” The voice belonged to Steve. It was his ‘dad-voice’ as she liked to call it. And she could practically see his face before she turned around. 

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anonymous asked:

You have a lot of headcanons about autistic galra altean Keith, with lots of support from the other characters, but I was wondering if you had any specific headcanons about his interactions with Lance? ((bonus points if its shippy)). You don't have to if you don't want to, I just easily enjoyed your posts and was craving more 💜

Hell yeah, hell yeah, I’m so here for this. Even though I’m a multishipper I have to admit Klance has stolen my life. Also, I will pretty much always talk about Voltron, especially if it involves autistic Keith or autistic Pidge, so anyone who wants more is definitely welcome to shoot me an ask. :) You might get way more than you asked for

[Original autistic Keith and Pidge meta]
[Read the rest of my autistic Galra Keith posts]

[Also influenced by @klanced‘s ADHD Lance headcanon.]

Below the cut: the Cliffsnotes version (haaaa, who am I kidding, this is super long) of the slow-burn romance, featuring Lance being altogether Too Much, awkward heart-to-hearts, and a sudden barrage (literally) of romantic gestures.

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