Is there something you’d like to ask, Mr. Bradford? Look at you, you’re so gorgeous. Vince was right, I can’t believe I’m actually living with you. I still get butterflies in my stomach every time I’m about to see you. You do? Even now we live together? Do you like your new home? I’m home anywhere, I can fall into you. I just want to feel like this forever.
Carlisle (standing) in the children’s ward of the hospital he worked at in Columbus, OH in 1907.
Four years later he’ll meet a young Esme in a different ward of this hospital.
month after that he’ll be gone to parts unknown, possibly Chicago.
Carlisle packing up and moving a mere month after meeting the woman
he’ll one day fall in love with just is a wee bit too coincidental to
me. He’d been in Columbus since 1905, so I suppose he could have
already been planning the move before meeting her– though if that was
the case why doesn’t the Guide just say so? My headcanon is that he was
significantly drawn to her and didn’t understand why. It unsettled him
enough that he decided to leave town before he ran into her again,
whether accidentally or on purpose, because he was self-aware enough to
admit he was tempted to manufacture an “accidental” encounter. For him I
think the major stumbling blocks were that she was so young and that
she had a family– we know he’d been considering making a companion
since he’d been unable to find one among other vampires, so I don’t
think the fact she was still human would have fazed him, or at least not
much. Having said all that, I don’t think he realized what she would
one day be to him or I believe he would have stuck around and built a
relationship with her. He may be conflicted about being a vampire, but
he definitely doesn’t have Edward-level issues with it.
thing I’m curious about now is exactly when he started thinking he would
have to create a companion for himself. Was it after his encounter with
Esme or before? Was there a part of him that realized looking among
vampires was hopeless because she was what he’d really been looking for
all along? Only the rest of his brain didn’t get the memo and so he fled
from the weird attraction without realizing exactly what he was doing?
Or is it all really just a huge coincidence?
I don’t believe in coincidences that big. I’m really curious to know what you guys think!
My size is a huge part of me. You just have to appreciate those kinds of things. So I wasn’t born with long legs - who cares. You just have to embrace it. Being body positive is really important to your overall happiness.
without even thinking, i jumped up and threw my arms around him, making some weird sound that combined laughing, choking, and crying. he was holding me so tightly that i couldn’t see his face, but it was a really long time before he let me go.