i don't mean i'm going to do it

The holidays are stressing me out in more than the usual yontiff way. I’m probably going to spend Rosh Hashana with my usual synagogue, but I want to observe two days and they’re Reform and only do one, so I want to go to Chabad (which might be the only one doing a second day anyway, not sure, does conservative do that?) for the second day and also for Yom Kippur, because I am definitely not driving on Yom Kippur – not just because I don’t like driving on holidays, but because I do not handle fasting well and it’s very unsafe to drive 20 miles each way in that condition. But I’m really stressing out about the mechitza issue. I’m living as a girl mostly now, but the people there still know me as a guy and I don’t want to make anyone uncomfortable by being on the women’s side if they think I’m a guy, but it also would be inappropriate for me to be on the men’s side since I’m living as a woman now elsewhere. I think the students for the most part would be ok with it, but I have some non-student friends who are frum and I don’t think they’d take it well, and I don’t want to be the reason people are uncomfortable. But at the same time, I have to do what’s right, don’t I?

It’s just so frustrating to not know what to do because I’m just trying to be true and it’s on the side of Torah observance and yet I know that probably a lot of people would assume the case was the opposite of what it is and would treat me like I was doing something contrary to halacha and I just feel like there’s brick walls whichever way I turn and I don’t even know what way is up except to trust that I’m going in the direction of Torah but it feels so complicated

It would have been easier of course to just wait until after I graduated, but once I decided, I had to. It felt like I was lying.

I messaged the rabbi to ask him what I should do, but he’s super busy obviously so I don’t know if he’ll see my message today so I’m just gonna sit here and be stressed out until I hear back and probably after as well because that’s just who I am :(


“Go, be free, be free, be free!

  • Naruto: So...
  • Naruto: You're leaving the village
  • Naruto: Again
  • Sasuke: Yes dobe, and don't try to stop me
  • Naruto: *shrugs* fine
  • Sasuke: Seriously, I might be gone for years. I don't know how far this road goes... Where this journey might take me... Maybe I won't come back.
  • Naruto: *examining his fingernails* sounds fun
  • Sasuke: Because I might actually die. I have no shortage of enemies, after all.
  • Naruto: Meh, it's your life
  • Sasuke: Exactly.
  • Sasuke: And nothing you say will ever convince me to stay.
  • Sasuke: So don't bother trying.
  • Naruto: You've made the clear.
  • Sasuke: ...
  • Sasuke: You're really not going to stop me?
  • Naruto: Of course not, bastard.
  • Naruto: So... Are we good to go? It's going to get pretty hot later in the day. Better to start early.
  • Sasuke: Yes, I'm good to-
  • Sasuke: Wait
  • Sasuke: What do you mean by 'we'?
  • Naruto: You can leave the villiage, Sasuke
  • Naruto: You can go wherever you want and maybe you really won't come back this time
  • Naruto: After all these years, I've learned my lesson
  • Naruto: I can't stop you from doing what you want to do
  • Sasuke: You didn't answer-
  • Naruto: Let me finish
  • Naruto: You can't stop me from doing what I want to do either. Let's go, teme.
  • Sasuke: But you said-
  • Naruto: That I wouldn't stop you. And I won't. I always keep my word.
  • Naruto: But this time, I'm coming too.
  • Pepper: Now, ask me nicely.
  • Tony: Ask you nicely what?
  • Pepper: Ask me nicely to marry you... Tony.
  • Tony: What does that mean?
  • Pepper: You heard me. On your knee.
  • Tony: *kneels* Fine. Does this work for you?
  • Pepper: Oh, I like this. Yeah.
  • Tony: Here you go. Will you marry me?
  • Pepper: No. Say it like you mean it.
  • Tony: Pepper.
  • Pepper: Yes, Tony?
  • Tony: Sweet Pepper.
  • Pepper: I'm listening.
  • Tony: Would you please, with cherries on top, marry me?
  • Pepper: I don't appreciate the sarcasm, but I'll do it.

Dark x Light

anonymous asked:

thank you so much for explaining wolf dominance behavior! I'm so sick people like "dominance means they beat each other up all the time" and then someone going "no that's not right wolves don't have dominance at all!" and I can never articulate why both those ideas are wrong but you did it so well! Do you know more good resources about how wolf dominance actually works?

You’re welcome, I’m glad it helps! Yeah I think the debate has gone to 2 extremes now and neither extreme is helpful when looking at actual dominance based interactions.

Here’s some of the models of pack structure that have been theorised:

Some of these are more updated than others and there’s still a lot of variation within these structures. The model that’s pretty much debunked is A. No one uses terms like Beta, Gamma, Omega anymore  (and our guests sometimes do and it drives us nuts). The most basic and updated wolf pack model is that of a family group: a breeding female and male and their offspring. 

But not every pack is like this. Kanti, Bicho and Fiona are siblings, but Bicho usually will defer to Kanti and Fiona and get in trouble for doing things Kanti doesn’t want him doing (howling, ambushing Fiona, being a pest ect.). Kanti and Bicho both defer to Fiona but I have seen Fiona defer to Kanti or Bicho. And Kanti gets in trouble from Fiona from time to time as well. So they’re really all over the place.

Bicho deferring by pawing at Kanti, who is posturing over him. Bicho often uses very exaggerated submissive gestures to annoy Kanti enough to move him away from whatever resource there is. He is the master of Obnoxious Submission.

Also it’s important to remember that, in play, dominance structures are usually completely thrown out. So sometimes you’ll see a dominant wolf self-handicap and flop on the ground and throw out submissive gestures at a submissive wolf who will “dominate” that wolf. It’s hilarious. Good wolf jokes!

Despite Kanti and Bicho often deferring to her, Fiona is IT in this game of Wolf and Hounds where one wolf will be chased and harassed by the other wolves and then the game will switch with another wolf being “it”.

In order to simplify things as much as possible (even though it’s a lot more complex): When looking at wolf pack structure the dominant wolf or the “alpha” wolf - which generally will be a male and a female - is the animal with the most social freedom. These wolves do not defer to anyone and they do not need to “enforce” their position. It’s continually reinforced through body posturing, which is then responded to with reciprocal submission from other wolves. 

Also these dominant wolves are not necessarily going to eat first, howl first or get any other privileges other than being allowed to breed. Their offspring will naturally defer to them and then disperse once they grow up so as not to cause conflict. 

@koryos wrote up a great run-down of different canid pack models which can be found here: http://www.koryoswrites.com/nonfiction/dominance-behavior-in-canids/

I also recommend reading the papers linked to the article.

Hope that helps!

bloses  asked:

So you don't like Spanish girls ? I'm genuinely curious 👀😂

Never did I say I don’t like Spanish girls.
I love black women. It’s simple.
Do I think Spanish women are attractive?
Women of all races can be attractive
Would I date a Spanish girl?
I see nothing wrong with it
What’s the likelihood that it would happen
I love black women. And I’m proud of that
What’s that mean?
There going to be a lot of women I will be looking at and finding interest in before I even get a chance to look at a different race .
But why david?
Because there’s a lot of them.
All different shades, shapes and sizes
They’re smart as hell
They don’t Need me, but they want me
They don’t fetishize me
They understand me
They understand what is it to be black.
When we have children they will know how to raise them.
They understand my heritage
And it makes me proud I can do the same for them.
But david can’t other races do that as well?
Yea . Most. But not all. But..
But what david?
By the time I get to the bottom of that list I made and that it’s not gunna work with one another will pop up with those qualities .
Soooo ?
So pretty much it’s like a never ending cycle. So someone from another race is going to have to make such an impression on me to skip that cycle of never ending Phenomenal black women

  • *phone rings*
  • Makoto: You can answer that.
  • Akira: *answers phone* Hello?
  • Ryuji: Hey buddy what's up? Ready to go to our Phantom Thieves Hideout?
  • Akira: !!!
  • Makoto: ?
  • Ryuji: You know, where we go to change people's heart. Just like we did with Madarame. Madarame's heart.
  • Makoto: ...
  • Akira: *tries hanging up the phone*
  • Ryuji: And like just like we did the other day with Kamoshida. The shitty PE teacher we hate. Kamoshida's heart.
  • Makoto: ...
  • Akira: *banging phone on the table*
  • Ryuji: You, me; Ryuji Sakamoto. Ann Takamaki and Yusuke Inari from Kosei. We're the Phantom Thieves that take people hearts. Just like we did Madarame's and Kamoshida's hearts. Remember?
  • Makoto: ...
  • Akira: *bangs phone on table harder*
  • Ryuji: Anyway just wanted to remind you that we'll be in the Subway accessway because that's our hideout. Our Phantom Thieves hideout.
  • Akira: *throws phone at the door*
  • Ryuji: ...alright. I'll see you soon at our hideout with the other two. Later. *hangs up*
  • Makoto: ...
  • Akira: ...
  • Makoto: ...
  • Akira: D-don't you just hate wrong numbers?
  • Naruto: Sasuke...
  • Sasuke: What
  • Naruto: Huh?
  • Naruto: Oh, nothing
  • Sasuke: You said my name
  • Naruto: Yeah, that's just something I got used to doing
  • Naruto: You know, after you left
  • Sasuke: ...
  • Naruto: Like, I'd look at our team picture... or a shooting star... or get really tired while training
  • Naruto: And then remember you and then, uh
  • Sasuke: ...
  • Naruto: Sometimes Sakura, Kakashi, Sai, or, like, someone would say something and it just reminded me of, of you, uh
  • Naruto: It's- rhe- rhe-
  • Sasuke: Rhetorical
  • Naruto: Un, that
  • Naruto: I said 'Sasuke' a lot, like, these past few years but you were never around and, um, I never expect anyone to respond because you're the only Sasuke I know and everyone else is, like, used to it so they don't say anything anyways and, and
  • Naruto: Stop looking at me like that, teme!
  • Naruto: It's all your fault, ya know
  • Sasuke: ...
  • Sasuke: Actually dobe, I don't know...
  • Sasuke: where to begin
  • Sasuke: What am I to you, again?
  • Naruto: *mutters* and he calls me an idiot
  • Naruto: How many times do I have to say it
  • Naruto: You're my friend
  • Sasuke: And...?
  • Naruto: My goal, my most important person, the one I want to spend the rest of my life with, yatta yatta, we've been over this a million times already
  • Sasuke: *grinding his teeth and clenching his fists* so how do you. Feel. When we're together.
  • Naruto: Oh, uh
  • Naruto: It's really weird
  • Naruto: I get all giddy and, like, my stomach gets all... Twisty? Probably because you piss me off. Yeah, that's why my heart goes all *flails wildly* like that
  • Sasuke: I... See...
  • Sasuke: And do you feel that way about anyone else?
  • Naruto: Of course not
  • Naruto: You're my one and only
  • Naruto: uh
  • Naruto: friend
  • Naruto: Best Friend*
  • Sasuke: ...
  • Sasuke: Naruto
  • Naruto: Hm?
  • Sasuke: I'm leaving the village
  • Naruto: What?! Again?! WHY??
  • Sasuke: Let's call it a journey of redemption
  • Naruto: Redemption??
  • Naruto: Teme you're not... Like, no offense, but you don't feel guilty for anything, right? Because you didn't do anything without a good reason so...
  • Sasuke: Let's just say that
  • Sasuke: I'm 'guilty' in the same manner that you think we're just friends
  • Naruto: Huh?
  • Naruto: What does that mean?
  • Naruto: Sasuke, where are you going?
  • Sasuke: I have to pack. Good bye, my one and only
  • Sasuke: friend*

It’s all me! / (more)

  • what she says: I'm fine.
  • what she means: I guess I'm just blown away by the character development in Brooklyn Nine-Nine? I mean, what kind of comedy has such rich and well-rounded characters? Like they're silly, but they're still good cops? They do their jobs? Jake is ridiculous, but he also learns that loving Amy is more important than any job he could have, and even if she becomes a captain, he knows that she'll still be the same wonderful woman he fell for, and he doesn't have a problem being her subordinate? Like can we get more of this? Jake loves his best friend unapologetically, even when they are polar opposites, I mean he values Boyle because deep down, Boyle is a good man? I mean, look at Holt? Holt began as a hardened man, looking to rise above all the injustices he faced with spite, and he slowly sees that people are changing for the better, and he finds a way to enjoy some of the nine-nine's antics, even wish to be included in their fun? And they totally let him? Rosa learns that emotions don't make you weak, and love can be celebrated? Even Gina, who can only be categorized as a tornado of chaotic awesome cares deeply about her job and her coworkers? Even Boyle? Like I could go through every character but I might spend the rest of the day crying? Like do you know what I mean? Can you grasp the gravity of this?

Ryder & Lexi Moments 1 / ?

seventeen as vines/viral videos;
  • s.coups: hey, how you doing? well i'm doing just fine i lied i'm dying inside.
  • jeonghan: i'm a bad bitch you can't kill me
  • joshua: i want a church girl that go to church and read her bible
  • jun: gay, i wouldn't fuck you-i mean unless you want to ;)
  • hoshi: i'm washing me in my clothes bitch, i'm washing me in my clothes
  • wonwoo: my mum took my ipad away because she caught me listening to fall out boy and she doesn't like the act that i'm emo
  • woozi: i don't need friends, they disappoint me
  • dk: *wii sports music*
  • mingyu: go suck a dick, suck a dick, suck a motherfuckin' dick
  • the8: two bros hilling in a hot tub, five feet apart cuz they're not gay !
  • seungkwan: fr e sh a voca do
  • vernon: hi welcome to chilli's
  • dino: what up, i'm jared. i'm 19 and i never fucking learned how to read
  • Seokjin: (On the phone to Taehyung) Hello?
  • Taehyung: Hey, what's up?
  • Seokjin: I need your help. Can you come here?
  • Taehyung: I can't. I'm buying clothes.
  • Seokjin: Alright, well hurry up and come over here.
  • Taehyung: I can't find them.
  • Seokjin: What do you mean you can't find them?
  • Taehyung: I can't find them. There's only soup.
  • Seokjin: What do you mean "there's only soup"?
  • Taehyung: It means there's only soup.
  • Seokjin: Well then get out of the soup aisle!
  • Taehyung: Alright, you don't have to shout at me! (Moves to the next aisle) There's more soup!
  • Seokjin: What do you mean "there's more soup"?!
  • Taehyung: There's just more soup!
  • Seokjin: Go into the next aisle!
  • Taehyung: (Moves to the next aisle) There's still soup!
  • Seokjin: Where are you right now?!
  • Taehyung: I'm at soup!
  • Taehyung: I MEAN I'M AT SOUP!
  • Seokjin: WHAT STORE ARE YOU IN?!
  • Taehyung: I'M AT THE SOUP STORE!
  • Taehyung: FUCK YOU!!
signs as random bad lyrics i wrote
  • aries: "i'm a king, can't you see? i'm the one with royalty."
  • taurus: "ima go fly high in the clouds while loving you."
  • gemini: "i got this brain but i don't know how to use it."
  • cancer: "the moon is my friend and she is the one who understands me. whenever i'm down, she comes over to cheer me up."
  • leo: "be proud as fuck, get it, and don't ya give up, don't do it."
  • virgo: "your lies are never going to be as great as me."
  • libra: "you hit my heart so hard, not painfully. but all i want is you to love me carefully."
  • scorpio: "you know that everyone knows, you're fake as fuck and you gotta go."
  • sagittarius: "no need to hold up, don't need control of love and enjoyment."
  • capricorn: "you showed me what it means to fall deeply in love. this shit is tough."
  • aquarius: "i'm not an angel, i'm a devil who's missing someone to curse from a far."
  • pisces: "keep on imagining all the things you could see in your dreams, feeling free."

ginny baker + quotes (1/?) 

  • What she says: I'm fine.
  • What she means: Was Soma really shot? Or was it Agni? Either way, one of them is dead. Did Ciel really let this happen? I trusted him! Who was in the photograph that distracted Agni? Who would do this to us? Was it Lizzie? Was it Ciel? That doesn't make any sense! Can 2CT really be true? We don't know anything yet. We just have a glove, blood, and a burnt photograph to go by. Nothing's set. Sebastian, can you pull off one more miracle and stop all this??
Stuff I've Actually Heard People Say Part 3
  • "If a leaf fell on your face and stayed there, would you eat it?" "Wait. What kind of leaf?"
  • "One time I broke my finger during school, but I just ignored it because I had a test the next period."
  • "I just chugged four bottles of lemonade and ate half a bowl of Milky Ways, I'm ready to go!"
  • "You can't do the splits to achieve your destiny."
  • "Amoebas don't breathe."
  • "I hate this, even though it's to my advantage."
  • "We've gotta trick Ryan Gosling into being a furry."
  • "Who is Mac, and why is he cheesy?"
  • "Ah ha! All I have to do is ram myself into trees!"
  • "You smell like a piece of shoe."
  • "I love contagion food."
  • "Today I cried listening to the Trolls soundtrack."
  • "Ah, but this is a good thing! It just means I can begin manufacturing leg irons!"
  • "If you don't do it, I'll put the paperclips back in my ears."
  • "I thought we were gonna be furries together."
  • "Oh no, they're trying to be relatable!"
  • "I've got some sick hula-hooping tricks."
  • "Is that a pair of pants with no body?"
  • "Get schooled by a cucumber picker!"
  • "Your flowers are fat." "They're still pretty." "They're pretty fat."
  • "Your mouth, your money."
  • "All the money we've paid for violin and piano and voice, and the chicken noise is what gets them every time."
  • "Hey! No one coughs on my mom!"
  • "Yes, a Roaring 20s themed wedding!... but also dragons!"
  • "Everyone must come in their best armor."
  • "They do match! This one says "I love British boys", and the other is a picture of Zayn, who is a British boy!"
  • "I clip my nails, and they keep growing back!"
  • "Congrat! A single congration, no congrats for you."
  • "This is my finished."
  • "Memes will be the death of this country."
  • "I am ready for death to claim me."
  • "Sasquatch and stretch."






Fun story, someone tried the anime hand wall thing on me once. It worked for precisely two seconds before I ducked under it and kept going. 


For a moment I thought he was sitting on a giant fortune cookie and I was incredibly excited. 


She’s not going to be able to do it, but more importantly, damn Yuuko what are you wearing that’s incredible.