i don't know why i do these things to myself

So No. 6 has this subtle recurring theme I've picked up on.
  • Shion: "Hey Nezumi, could you do this thing?"
  • Nezumi: "How fucking dare you ask me to do that. You think I do things for you? No. I am out for myself and myself only, and if you want something done do it your fucking self Shion. You're not the boss of me. I don't even know why I put up with you. I don't even know why I associate with you. You don't know anything about this world do you? If you asked anyone else to do that thing you just asked me to do they'd spit in your face. Fuck you Shion. FUCK YOU."
  • Shion: "Ok."
  • Nezumi: "Well if you're going to be A BITCH about it!" *proceeds to do go above and beyond to do thing*

anonymous asked:

Jw why do you hc lance as dyslexic? I don't want to seem rude and I'm not dissing your hc, I just wanted to know why (I'm really hope this doesn't come off offensive, I'm just genuinely curious)

not offensive at all! i’m happy to explain why i headcanon him as dyslexic :D

for one thing, i myself am dyslexic so i can spot the traits in Lance that give off a dyslexia vibe

exibit A) flying a spaceship simulator is hell because there are buttons all over the place and it’s easy to forget what each one does/easy to misread the labels and mix them up, no wonder Lance always crashes it

(one can argue it’s because Lance gets easily distracted, i think it’s a mix of both)

exibit B) math is confusing af and its really easy to get numbers that look/sound the same mixed up. it’s also easy to get your basic addition, subtraction, multiplication shit mixed up too

lmao shut up keith he knows that, he just gets it mixed up

exibit C) weird af motor skills when there’s a lot goin’ on at once

exhibit D) celebrates the tiny wins bc he doesn’t win a lot

exhibit E) disliked school enough as a child to pretend he was sick to get out of having to go, and if you’re a dyslexic who hasn’t been diagnosed and put in a special learning class to aid your learning disability yet, you are going to hate school with a burning passion and will try to avoid going in any way you can

exhibit F) clever come backs on the spot????? who???? bitch i need time to think of a clever response you don’t just come up with something witty to say right off the bat

exhibit G) insecure af??? he thinks he’s pathetic??? feels like a 7th wheel??? doesn’t think he has a “thing”????? doubts his capabilities?????? has a shit self esteem???????? all these are common things to feel for people with dyslexia because they struggle so much

literally fuck you Iverson. how dare you attack his self worth like that

also, i want to refer back to a quote i once read from an official website on the learning disorder, which is “the most consistent thing about dyslexics is their inconsistency”, and i think that ties in really well with Lance representing water, which is also inconsistent af. i think that’s one of the key roots to Lance’s “i feel like i don’t have a thing” insecurity. 

so yeah, this is why i headcanon Lance as dyslexic. as someone who has dyslexia myself, i see a lot of myself in Lance’s behavior, and can relate to a lot of the things he does/says/feels. 

thank you for asking! 

how do you silence the voice in your head that tells you you’re a talentless hack and everything you write is garbage asking for a friend

The Signs As Jack Handey Quotes
  • Aries: "After I die, wherever my spirit goes, I'm going to try to get back and visit my skeleton at least once a year, because, "Hey, old buddy, how's it going?""
  • Taurus: “The tiger can't change his spots. No, wait, he did! Good for him!”
  • Gemini: “Sometimes I wonder if I'm patriotic enough. Yes, I want to kill people, but on both sides.”
  • Cancer: “I hope if dogs ever take over the world, and they chose a king, they don’t just go by size, because I bet there are some Chihuahuas with some good ideas.”
  • Leo: "I wish outer-space guys would conquer Earth and make people their pets, because I'd like to have one of those little basket-beds with my name on it."
  • Virgo: "Just as bees will swarm about to protect their nest, so will I "swarm about" to protect my nest of chocolate eggs."
  • Libra: “I think a good novel would be where a bunch of men on a ship are looking for a whale. They look and look, but you know what? They never find him. And you know why they never find him? It doesn’t say. The book leaves it up to you, the reader, to decide. Then, at the very end, there’s a page you can lick and it tastes like Kool-Aid.”
  • Scorpio: "The first thing was, I learned to forgive myself. Then, I told myself, "Go ahead and do whatever you want, it's okay by me.""
  • Sagittarius: "You can't tell me that cowboys, when they're branding cattle, don't sort of "accidentally" brand each other every once in a while. It's their way of letting off stress."
  • Capricorn: "I guess the hard thing for a lot of people to accept is why God would allow me to go running through their yards, yelling and spinning around."
  • Aquarius: “We tend to scoff at the beliefs of the ancients. But we can’t scoff at them personally, to their faces, and this is what annoys me.”
  • Pisces: "Instead of putting a quarter under a kid's pillow, how about a pinecone? That way, he learns that "wishing" isn't going to save our national forests."
Divide - as heard by me, Tumblr user live-laugh-ed.
  • Eraser: Coke will fuk u up. Don't do the drugs kidz.
  • Castle on the Hill: nostalgia is real. Growing up suckz, let's go watch a sunset dudes.
  • Dive: haha dive... more like dive right into that p*ssy. No really let's have the sex.
  • Shape of You: *gyrates hips into another dimension*
  • Perfect: darling just kiss (kill) me slow. no but really why am I single, where is my "dancing in the dark, barefoot on the grass"?
  • Galway Girl: I've got a huge Doritos & wine boner 4 u.
  • Happier: Man pain x 1000000
  • New Man: Ur new bf is a bleached a**hole
  • Heart Don't Break Around Here: (except mine) Why am I single? part 2.
  • What Do I Know?: Love is good, I think, maybe. who knows? I might be full of sh*t? But I'm sticking with it.
  • How Would You Feel(Paean): um this is getting repetitive but Why am I single? part 3. "How would you feel?" Dead, I feel dead inside.
  • Supermarket Flowers: *whispers softly* pls don't.
  • Barcelona: aye papi, mucho caliente daddy.
  • Bibia Be Ye Ye: *loses shoes* *loses keys* *throws up in cab* is this song about me?
  • Nancy Mulligan: Irish people doing Irish things and falling in Irish love.
  • Save Myself: save my soul from this pain.
Ok but

a ler taking sneaky advantage of skin revealed by clothes beyond the typical crop top.

Ripped jeans? Guess the knees are getting squeezes and thighs will be traced in the slits.

Shirt with a low-cut back? Definitely some upper back spidering in order.

And those tank tops with gaping arm holes leave that sweet spot - you know the one at the top of the ribs/bottom of the underarm - perfectly open for poking.

All accompanied by the appropriate teasing, “you should really talk to the company about this, look at all this exposed skin!”

‘Scuse me as I go breathe into a paper bag (and buy more of these articles immediately).

Tatiana Maslany really is everyone! 

Storm Clouds

SPN FanFic

~Sometimes you need to let it go before the storm can pass~

Reader, Dean, Sam

1,964 Words

Warnings: ANGST. Major Angst. Depressed Reader. Talk of Death. 

“I want to die.”

You hadn’t meant to say it, especially not to Dean, especially not now, especially not in that way, but he had been pushing and nagging all day and there it was. The truth spilled from your mouth in a viscous wave of half cried words that hung in the air between you and Dean like a smoke signal. Before the last syllable had rolled off of your tongue you already wished you could take it back, but there it was. It was in the open now; everything you’d been hiding from him, from Sam, from yourself.

His mouth opened and closed, his green eyes wide with shock as your confession turned in his mind. He seemed to be digesting it slowly, trying to figure out what you meant. It must have been a joke, he decided, and laughed solemnly.

“That’s not funny, kid. I’ve died. Trust me, it ain’t a picnic.”

You could have ended it then. You could have very easily laughed along with him and played it off as simply one of those things you said when you were tired and stupid. But you were tired and stupid, and you finally felt like you should talk about it. A hundred times that day he’d asked what was wrong, so, now he’d find out.

“It’s not a joke, Dean.” You looked him right in the eye, not a hint of a smile or twinkle of jest on your face. It wasn’t funny. It was the farthest thing from it.

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blograte-archive-deactivated201  asked:

do you know any ways to get at least an educated guess on your type? i know that a lot of people don't figure out their type right away and your understanding of yourself and the cognitive functions can change and grow but i have a really difficult time guessing my type. Everytime i think i know my type i discover new information or i see a different side to myself or the functions. I have been studying mbti for years and find it fairly easy to guess others types accurately but not my own

Yeah.

Be honest with yourself.

What are you good at? What do others notice about you? Why does that impress them? Do those things match up with a cognitive process?

What are you bad at? Where is your blind spot? What is the one thing that trips you up every time? Does it align with an inferior function?

How do you act under intense stress or when you are your worst self? Which inferior function matches that thought process?

How much time do you spend trying to people-please (F)? Or is “people” a problem for you since you always seem to trample all over their feelings (T)? Do you value how you feel about things / how others may respond (F), more than consistency or results-oriented action when you make decisions (T)?

Is your problem too much open-mindedness or not enough?

Is it that you fail to think about the future too often (S)? Or that you fail to live in the present too much, because you are thinking too much about the future (N)?

Would you define yourself as a dreamer or a doer?

Do you gravitate toward aesthetics and sensory stimulus (S) or theory (N)? Does the idea of spending an entire day in an intense conversation about an abstract concept inside a locked room excite you more (N), or would you rather go outside and engage the real world by dirt biking (S)?

When you get people to do things, which do you use: emotional persuasion and a group-focused slant (Fe) or by issuing orders and organizing each person’s responsibilities according to their skill set (Te)?

How much of your sense of self do you base in how others feel about or respond to you on an emotional level (Fe)? Or does how you feel about who you are overrule everyone else’s opinion, for good or ill (Fi)?

Do you typically blame external objects / people for your shortcomings or failures (Fe) or tend to self-blame for failing to live up to a high standard even when you are not responsible for what happened (Fi)?

Which can you do with little effort:

  • Organize and express your feelings to anyone (Fe)
  • Organize and share factual information with anyone (Te)

Is your biggest flaw choosing to detach from reality in favor of your vision of the future (Ni) or refusing to change or open your mind to new possibilities (Si)?

Or you are so hungry for new ideas, you fail to appreciate what you have until it’s gone (Ne)? Or you often make such present-minded, impulsive decisions that you screw up your life / relationships often through poor foresight (Se)?

To be honest, I’d speculate you’re an extrovert; they have a much harder time seeing themselves clearly than introverts, because their focus is so much on the external world all the time that “reflection” does not come easily to them. Fe-doms can delude themselves with a false persona (this is who I am, vs. the truth of who I am); Te-doms can neglect their emotional center; Ne-doms tend to relate to everyone and everything, whether or not it’s true (poor Si); and Se-doms often think they’re intuitives even though they actually get bored with purely abstract concepts.

- ENFP Mod

concept: vilde and even have a scene together in s4 evidenced by the fact that ulrikke was Not holding a menu. they’re at a party and vilde is really depressed bc she’s not having fun and even follows her into the bathroom w his signature “let’s talk” joint. they get high in the bathtub evidenced by marlons snapchat and that’s when vilde tells even she’s a LESBIAN

anonymous asked:

Who the fuck are these shady shippers? Why would they have been out to get you if you are both shippers? Envy? I don't understand. Do you think they are sending you hateful anons?

Envy? Power? Control? Who knows? People seem to think I’m the ruler of the entire fandom so if they take me out then they can a) take my place and be “Queen shipper” and b) turn people against me by lying about me. The thing is, I never asked to be in this position. I never tried to become “popular” or tried to be in control of anyone. I’m just a blogger like everyone else here. I don’t see myself as more worthy than anyone. I don’t see myself as the “Queen shipper.” I can’t change that others see me as this all knowing, powerful force who is secretly plotting behind the scenes. Anyone who truly knows me knows that that’s not true and that I’m extremely humble about having a large following. It disturbs me that people think they can use that against me and they allow their own irrational hatred for me to fester until they end up assuming that I have malicious intentions. I’m so tired of people taking their own feelings out on me and making me responsible for every damn thing in this ridiculous fandom and telling me what kind of person I am. 

Like I said, I’m not going into detail about what happened but I’m also not going to be silent about it. I believe I was treated unfairly and it was all because of a personal vendetta that actually had nothing to do with me and everything to do with the people who decided they were going to make up this fictional character of who they think I am in their heads and then punish me for it. 

descent into rarepair hell
  • me: wow, I sure do love [story]! so many awesome characters and themes, the writing's great, and there's even some really cool fanfic -
  • brain: ship the thing.
  • me: um?
  • brain: you see these two idiots?
  • me: yes?
  • brain: that's the thing. we ship it now.
  • me: but -
  • brain: ship it.
  • me: but there is exactly ONE FIC for this pairing EVER -
  • brain: ship it.
  • me: - it's got zero chance of becoming canon -
  • brain: ship it.
  • me: - they hardly even interact, I don't know why you'd consider investing in -
  • brain: SHIP. IT.
  • me: ...
  • me: I hate you, myself, and everything we stand for.
  • brain: shhh. headcanons.

anonymous asked:

Why is that everyone on the YOI fandom throws a fit when somebody suggests Yuri on Ice is a yaoi? Because honestly speaking I don't see why it should not be considered as such...

First of all I want to clarify that I don’t feel myself into that group of people that throws a fit (even when I DO agree that it’s not yaoi), but I will reply to you anyways.

Secondly, I’m by no means an expertise on the field but I’ve watched enough series that fall under the category of yaoi to know that YOI is not one. The only thing that links both “genres” if you want is that the protagonist/s have a love interest on somebody of the same gender and that’s all of it.
Yuri on Ice is a sports anime since the plot revolves around the sport practiced by the protagonist/s and advances with it while everything else (in this case Yuuri and Victor having a relationship) adds to that from a secondary place. Actual yaoi series like Junjou Romantica and Sekaichi Hatsukoi to name some have the same gender relationships of the protagonists as the central topic AND are the reason the plot advances (or not).

Also being honest, something I’ve realized all of these series have in common is that sexual advances are used 90% of the time in order to resolve issues, ranging it from an uncalled-for kiss to a raw sex session because suddenly one or both of them had an uncontrollable sexual urgency idk??? That one point specifically is something Yuri on Ice took and treated in 2 whole episodes (episode 4 and episode 7) and smashed it on the floor in favor of a healthy, organic development in the relationship of two adults that love each other while accepting their flaws and respecting their boundaries.

Unlike a yaoi series, YOI is not meant to appeal the viewers obscure kinks or fantasies (like your average soap opera if you want), but to portray something organic and that people would see as achievable or #goals (at the risk that people might not find it intense enough welp they were so wrong ♥)

Originally posted by yandereatheart

Finally, here’s some things that would be different if Yuri on Ice was a yaoi series:

  • The fact Yuuri idolizes Victor would DEFINITELY benefit the later in his advances (aka Yuuri would let him do as he pleases just because he admires him, and by ‘as he pleases’ I’m totally talking about sexual stuff).
  • Yuuri’s anxiety would be played as something cute and a thing Victor would innocently take advantage of.
  • Victor would definitely be a seme, lone-wolf type character and have possessiveness issues and rage fits because of it (instead of the immature, 100% marshmallow-hearted dork we have in canon).
  • Something sexual and DOUBTFULLY consented would have happened in the onsen before the Cup of China hands down.
  • Episode 4 would have never happened (at least not in the way it did).
  • Victor would have kissed Yuuri there in the parking lot during the Cup of China without even asking, and would have done the same every time Yuuri felt uneasy instead of listening to him.
  • Yuuri would spend half of each episode aroused because of Victor.
  • We would have a hard time remembering either of them skate because each episode is full of the drama going on between them and their unresolved sexual urgencies.
  • Yuuri would either have an arranged marriage with Yuuko or be enemies out of resentment with the whole Nishigori family.
  • Yurio would have serious problems with being called ‘androgynous’ instead of using it as a personal strength like in canon.
  • The female cast of the series would be reduced to the half and the characterization of each woman would be super shallow in contrast to the wonderful ladies we have (for one thing, according to the yaoi formula Mila would probably be Victor’s ex and be a bitch towards Yuuri; Minako would be squeeing around about Victuuri all the time; Mari would ‘sell’ private data about Yuuri to Victor uncaring of exposing him).
  • The Banquet night would have ended up in sex between Victor and a beyond drunk Yuuri (and on-camera).
  • The main pairing would probably change to either of the following things:
        -Yuuri x Yurio.

        -Yurio x Victor.

    ( ^ with Yurio having an insane -and obviously sexual- obsession on the adult person of each pair and the later letting him advance).

       -Deaged!Yuuri x Victor (Yuuri would be like 18 or even less).

       -A romantic triangle between the 3 of them.
  • There wouldn’t be rings, at all, because if it’s not illicit it would lose its charm.
  • Phichit would probably be a trigger to Victor’s possessiveness and bitter personality, as in at some point Yuuri would have to resign hanging out with Phichit once or twice because Victor was too jealous.
  • Chris would definitely try something sexual on Yuuri.
  • The rest of the skaters would be background characters we could barely remember unless they do something to spice things up between Yuuri and Victor and their unresolved sexual tension.

Someone in the Hetalia fandom I beg of you please draw fanart of aph Australia gatecrashing the Eurovision stage to flash his ass and tag me in it, I need this like oxygen and I don’t know why

i swear one of the reasons why cal’s death is one of the saddest screen deaths ever is because ethan wasn’t there. we all know that cal died scared and not knowing whether ethan was okay, and we all know that ethan never got the chance to say goodbye. cal was there one minute and gone the next - and if ethan finds out cal died protecting him, he’ll realise how scared cal really was in his last moments.

anonymous asked:

I don't know why but out of everything, the one thing about series 4 that fills me with the most rage is that f-ing skull painting. Why were there different versions of it? What was the point? Why was it never explained? That's not something you can do by accident! Ugh! I'm annoying myself just thinking about it.

Haha you and everyone else Nonny. I think that skull painting is one of the BIGGEST clues to the entire series being one big mind-trip / unreliable narrator theory. I personally believe that the skull is representative of Sherlock’s emotions / state of mind, or – if it’s all in John’s head – John’s emotional reaction to situations. Everything in S4 is a false narrative, that I am convinced of.

And then Arwel just sort of brushes it off? You KNOW that something’s fucky when ARWEL won’t talk about something like that as being anything other that “I liked it”. Like, Arwel, PLEASE. You are DYING to tell us and they just won’t let you. 

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