i don't know whether i like this or not

there’s something in you worth loving.

you heard me.

it can be as rudimentary as the charming way you smile, or how pleasant your laugh sounds. there is something. I know how difficult it is to conceptualize; I know it’s even harder to think that these positive things, even the small ones, make up for the void – make up for all the perceived negative way we see ourselves.

to be honest there’s a lot more about us to love than what we gives ourselves credit for. it never feels like enough; we need to either be more than ourselves or nothing at all. most of the time it feels like nothing at all. but it’s not like that.

if you didn’t know it today, you are worth loving. people do love you. there are people out there that will come to love you. and there’s always time to cultivate things in ourselves that people can come to love. we’re amazingly dynamic like this.

but don’t give up.

you are worth loving.

Y'all realize you can dislike something/someone just cause it doesn’t vibe with you, right? Like doing 726382847282377 hours of research to make things look problematic and telling other people that they’re bad for liking it isn’t necessary at all

anonymous asked:

Imagine Steve wasn't in love with Bucky Barnes before his big freeze, but now he's falling head over heels for the Winter Soldier

Steve wasn’t confused about his feelings.  Not really.  He’d been attracted to men just as much as he had been women.  He might’ve had to keep his attraction to men fairly quiet until he woke up in the twenty-first century, but he’d never been confused about feeling how he did.  

The confusing part was Bucky.  Or, maybe the confusing part was that it wasn’t Bucky. He wasn’t sure what the difference was, exactly, and what it meant that he hadn’t been attracted to Bucky before he was the Winter Solider, but he was now that Bucky wasn’t the Bucky he used to know.

He wasn’t sure if it was the hair, or that shared life experience he’d mentioned to Natasha once, or if it was something else that Steve thought, somewhere deep down, that he should feel bad about because the change in Bucky had come at the expense of so much.

Bucky wasn’t the Bucky he remembered and that difference made all the difference.  He was darker and haunted and as strong as –if not stronger- than Steve and there was something wily that shifted behind his eyes, sometimes, that made Steve’s stomach flip.

Bucky noticed.  And made sure to bring it up when he knew he’d catch Steve off-kilter enough to talk about it (exhausted after sparring.  Steve would be damned if Bucky hadn’t timed it perfectly because he knew how good Steve thought he looked exhausted and sweaty.)

“You wanna do something about it, or are you trying to see how frustrated you can make yourself?”

“What?”  Steve sputtered.  He wasn’t ready and didn’t know what to say and felt guilty that he was attracted to Bucky (the Winter Solider) now that he had seventy years of unspeakable horrors behind him.  Steve wondered what that said about himself.   

Bucky sighed.  “I see the way you watch me.  Did you always do that?”

“You mean did I do it when – Before?”  Steve managed to keep his voice even.  Mostly.  

“Yeah.”

Let it never be said that Steve Rogers backed down from a confrontation. “No.”

Bucky nodded, watching Steve carefully, searching his face for. Something.  When he finally spoke, it was much quieter, secret-sharing.  “I was hoping you’d say that.” 

“What?” Steve leaned back against his locker.  He was pretty sure the wold was tilting on it’s axis.  

“Steve, I – I’ve been wandering around thinking you’re mooning over someone I’m not anymore and – and it’s not true.  You want me, not him.  I mean – you know.”

Steve nodded.  “Yeah, Buck. I do.  But what does that say about—“

“-Stop.  We’re both different.  This might be the best excuse to finally forgive yourself for the fact that seventy years just happened to change us both.”

It was Steve’s turn to pick apart Bucky’s expression and when he’d done so to his satisfaction he reached out towards Bucky, who leaned in in kind.  

JARVIS ensured the locker room was off-limits for the next week. (First for the privacy of Captain Rogers and Sargent Barnes, and second for the repairs necessary to the space once they were through with it).  

anonymous asked:

Hux has been in a loveless marriage with someone high up in the First Order since he was in his early 20s, it was purely political and arranged by his father. Hux meets his new co commander Kylo and eventually starts an affair with him

[Admiral NICOL, 03:07]: My Destroyer will be crossing paths with yours in two standard days. I’ll be coming on board to see you.

[General HUX, 03:08]: As you wish.

[Admiral NICOL, 03:08]: You will be ready for me.

[General HUX, 03:09]: Of course.

[Admiral NICOL, 03:11]: I expect your wedding band to have not left your finger since my last visit.

[General HUX, 03:12]: It has not.

[Admiral NICOL, 03:13]: Good. Have there been any major changes since my last visit?

“Who are you messaging?”

Hux is sitting back against the headboard of his grand bed, and looks up from his datapad and back down to where Kylo lies beside him, eyes blinking open slowly from his sleep.

“Nicol,” Hux answers with a sneer, reaching to brush Kylo’s hair from his eyes. “He’s coming to visit in a few days.”

Kylo groans. Underneath the covers, he slides his arm around Hux’s waist, leaning in closer to kiss Hux’s hip, pressing his open mouth against his pale skin and sucking gently.

“He can’t find out about us,” Hux says, eyes locked on the way Kylo’s lips look divine against his skin. “We’ll have to stay away from each other.”

“Can’t do that,” Kylo murmurs. “I have to be with you. You’re not his to command.”

It’s as though the golden ring around Hux’s finger tightens at Kylo’s taunting words. Hux looks down at it as Kylo shifts next to him, sitting up beside him.

“He’s my husband, Ren. I have to–”

Hux’s sentence melts away into Kylo’s mouth, consumed by his kiss, every one of his thoughts shifting away from his husband and to Kylo Ren; the one Hux wishes he was betrothed to.

“He’s not your husband, Hux,” Kylo says, shaking his head. “You see him once a year where he comes on board, has sex with you, threatens to contact your father about your lack of progress since his last visit, then leaves. A husband is supposed to kiss you good morning, bring you flowers, hug you when you’re down, hug you when you’re happy, fight anyone who brings harm to you, stay with you regardless of differences. So, forgive me for refusing to leave your side once that idiot is on board.”

Hux blinks, amazed and enamoured; feelings that have never once graced his heart in the years he’s been married to Admiral Nicol.

“Careful, Ren,” Hux says, reaching up to cup Kylo’s cheek. “You sound as though you’re plotting treason against my husband. ”

Kylo smiles, eyes locked with Hux’s, a sparkle in his dark eyes that Hux has never seen before. But he’s distracted suddenly by Kylo’s hand smoothing along his own, gliding up his fingers with the gentlest touch that Hux has ever felt. There’s a soft grip around his ring, pulling it away from him until it’s completely off and cast aside, tossed into the darkness that surrounds Hux’s bed.

Kylo says nothing, though neither does Hux. Instead, Hux picks up his data pad, finding his messaging application still open, Nicol’s question still unanswered. With a smirk on his lips, Hux begins typing.

[General HUX, 03:31]: Yes, sir. I’m afraid quite a lot has changed in your absence. But I’m sure we will discuss things upon your arrival to my ship. Let us hope that your journey is a safe one. Best wishes, dear husband, and long live the First Order.

Lena being Extra™
  • *Mon El is getting punched by a Daxamite*
  • Lena: slow and steady wins the race........now where is that gun *looks at feet where the gun is* nOPE I don't see it.
  • *Mon El gets slammed against a wall*
  • Lena: ....I wonder whether Kara would like to see me in this dress. Time for a selfie
  • *Mon El gets punched again*
  • Lena *looking up from her phone*: can't a girl sext in peace
YOI Characters as things my classmates have said
  • Yuuri: You think I'm innocent but you should see me in a group chat
  • Viktor: Guys I think I'm gay but I'm not sure yet-- never mind I'm sure I'm gay
  • Yuri: I'm 5'2 but I'm still ready to fight someone
  • Otabek: Wow y'all think I'm a gentleman but wait till you see me swallow a quesadilla whole
  • Phichit: What's your Snapchat? I don't have one I just want to know for future reference
  • Chris: I got an A on my science test and I'm ready to bust a nut
  • JJ: I may look cool, but on the inside I'm just a soggy pile of worthlessness just like you guys
  • Leo: I might have failed three of my classes but that's chill. Im chill
  • Guang-Hong: *in a squeaky voice* I'll shank you
  • Georgi: I don't know whether or not I've had two girlfriends in the past month is good or bad
  • Seung-Gil: I'm great at parties. I mostly just hide in the corner and hope nobody notices me. It works like a charm.
  • Michele: No homo but guys are really pretty
  • Emil: Yugi-Oh is for babies; I play Magic the Gathering like a real man
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top fifteen rucas episodes (as voted by my followers) ☼ number fourteen 

girl meets game night (1x17) 

Mentally ill nonbinaries are cool and awesome. Whether your mental illness has an impact on your gender or not, you’re still pretty amazing and there are so many people who are glad you exist. Like me! I’m glad you exist. Keep being you.

Either the Rowdy 3’s van gets impounded by the CIA for evidence, or it gets left by the side of the road and eventually towed away for scrap metal after the local authorities assume that it’s been abandoned. But then they steal another van during the breakout and it’s not the same, it’s not their baby, but it’s a fresh new start. It’s their home sweet home and the newest member of their little family, and they can’t wait to get back on the road once they’ve finished laying low in the deserted cabin that Farah organized.

They come out one morning, yawning and bleary-eyed, only to find that there’s no longer an intimidating black CIA van parked outside.

There’s Dirk Gently with a pile of empty spray cans at his feet, looking proudly at their new Mystery Machine.

Tattoos look really good on you.

“Hyung, is that.. is that real!?”

Kyungsoo chuckles, “no, it’s just temporary.“ 

 Jongin gulps, tearing his eyes away from Kyungsoo’s milky neck and the dark tattoo that goes from behind his ear, disappearing into his shirt. 

 "Wanna touch?” Kyungsoo asks, his voice only a notch above a whisper. 

“W-what?” The younger stutters. 

 Kyungsoo shuffles closer, “I asked you if you wanted to touch it.” He cocks an eyebrow at the younger. 

 ”it what?“ 

“My tattoo.“ 

 "Oh. Yes!” And with that, Jongin raises a shaky hand. 

 When Jongin’s fingertips touche his neck, his breath hitches. Jongin traces the tattoo up and down. He carcasses it with his thumb. 

And their eyes lock. Kyungsoo looks away, feeling his cheeks heating up. 

 "Soo..“ 

 The older looks at Jongin, feeling  hummingbirds in his heart upon hearing the sweet nickname. "Yeah?" 

"Can I kiss it?” Jongin’s eyes are darker than usual. 

 The doey-eyed boy pauses and this time he’s the one stuttering, “y-you want to- uh, sure? I mean-” he doesn’t have time to curse himself for spluttering nonsense because suddenly Jongin’s soft lips make contact with his neck, and kyungsoo gasps. 

 His lips kiss, nibble and bite.

Kyungsoo is all gasps, sighs and blushes. 


 "Tattoos look really good on you, hyung.“ He murmurs against his neck. Kyungsoo closes his eyes.

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— Yves Navarre, Friends Gone With the Wind

I am So Done with these criticisms I keep seeing like “It was good and all but Diego Luna didn’t work for me casting-wise, he was too wiry and soft-spoken, not action-movie enough” and I’m like??? SPY???? That’s the point???? Honestly people need to stop forcing the Hypermasculine Jason Statham Aesthetic bullshit irrelevantly onto characters that bear literally no comparison.

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it’s kinda sad now that new gravity falls fans won’t get to experience the ultimate, incredibly satisfactory reveal that was finding out that ford and the stan twin theory were real

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I started drawing this before it got upgraded from an AU TO A HEADCANON ORIGIN STORY HEYYO

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Washington, DC, USA

“You should contact him.”

McGee looked up from his computer and gave Bishop a sad smile. She had tried so hard to convince him over the past weeks, and she did not seem to be planning on giving up any time soon.

He sighed, “Bishop, we’ve been over this.”

She rolled her eyes at him, “If you would just stop being so stubborn.”

“I’m not,” he huffed.

“Look, if you won’t contact Tony about the wedding, I will,” she said, crossing her arms over her chest.

He shrugged, “Whatever.”

“Okay.”

She started typing on her computer, but could still feel McGee’s gaze on her.

“Fine,” he huffed loudly.

She looked up at him, a sparkle in her eyes, challenging him, “Fine.”


Paris, France

The loud ping of his phone woke Tony up and he rolled over with a groan. He reached for his phone blindly and blinked as the bright light hit his eyes. An email notification had popped up on his screen. A small smile formed on his face when he saw who it was from.

“Tony?”

The sleepy voice brought an even bigger smile to his face, the email suddenly less interesting than it had been a second ago. He put his phone back onto the nightstand and turned back around.

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anonymous asked:

Hey! How do I tell if I'm ftm trans and not just a tomboy? Sometimes I seriously consider going on T or changing myself, but I really want biological kids so I won't, but I don't know how to get rid of these feelings.

Hey back! ;P I couldn’t possibly answer this question briefly, but it just so happens I wrote a book to help people figure out the answers to questions like these! The first chapter should help you figure out your identity. The second chapter should help you explore whether different aspects of physical transition are right for you. I think it might also be helpful for you to have access to the information in there, as you will learn that going on T does not mean you cannot have biological kids. (For example you could freeze your eggs before starting hormones and/or there are trans men who go off of hormones for a period of time later in life so that they can carry and give birth to a child.) I hope you will find that you don’t have to get rid of any feelings at all, but that those feelings will help guide you to find what path is right for you. Happy gender quest!

-Despite Neil’s slow start into the world of technology, once he discovers the wonders of online trolling, he has a very active social media presence.

-Usually he’s just commenting on fan pages and responding to his fans and the like.

-But it’s his birthday and fans have been leaving nice comments on his pages all day and it’s a little overwhelming but eventually by like midnight he’s gathered himself enough to be able to respond.

-And since it would take forever to respond to every comment individually and he’s tired, he decides to just post a video on his page saying thank you.

-Neil doesn’t intend for Andrew to also be in the video, but 1) it’s midnight and they’re already in bed and moving sounds hard

-2) It’s not like they’re purposefully hiding or not hiding their relationship, they’re just living their lives and

-3) Neil is still completely oblivious to things like public image

-So he thinks nothing of turning his laptop on and waving at the camera (like a nerd) and saying thank you and how much he appreciates his fans.

-He goes on for a while until Andrew rolls over into the frame, wearing his glasses and looking sleep rumpled and says “It’s 12:15 am and some of us want to sleep sometime this year. Say goodnight Neil.”

-And Neil just smiles and says goodnight, but doesn’t turn the camera off in time for it (and the fans) to miss him kissing Andrew’s cheek sleepily before rolling over.

-The jury’s still out on whether that was obliviousness or Neil being a shit starter.

-But anyway the internet explodes.

-Fan comments on the video are through the roof.

-Nicky makes no less than 12 separate fan accounts just to comment on how adorable it is.

-Andrew wants to kill Neil

-But what else is new?

-And if Andrew retaliates by posting a picture of Neil sleeping in one of Andrew’s hoodies on his Snapchat, who’s to say?