Okay, so I have issues with how each on sets out there stuff. Like, I don’t like how fanfiction.net doesn’t really allow for spacing? So sometimes what comes out as longer chapters on ff.net are actually two shorter chapters on AO3. I dislike the larger font on AO3 and that you can’t read it as a ½ sized layout like ff.net, but then I dislike ff.net’s inability to justify text or as said above, the lack of line spaces that can be slapped in.
Ok, here’s pretty much everything that happened while I was at MCM today:
Catherine arrived late (presumably delayed by transport), which meant autographs started late. She then made her way down the queue to apologise to people.
She signed all autographs not sitting at the table, but standing in front of it. She was at the end of the row, so she had the space to do so. She also allowed selfies and was just generally chatting with everyone.
I gave her the Partners in Crime print but she didn’t have time to look at it- it was in a cardboard envelope but she set it aside on the table to presumably take with her/ look at later. She did, however, say that she loved my Journey’s End print I had her sign (she said she loved stuff like that). She also gave me a choice of colours to sign it (I wasn’t expecting that), but we ultimately decided that black would probably be best.
Bearing in mind by the time I got her autograph she’s been signing for at least 10/15 minutes, she still apologised to me about the delay and said sorry for keeping me waiting, and she’d done the same for everyone in front of me too. I got her autograph first thing, so I don’t know what happened later on.
Because Billie couldn’t make the convention, it meant that I actually got to attend Catherine’s panel. I missed the beginning, but I got the following points:
You know what we need more of? Beginner’s classes for
It’s supposed to be really, really good for you to keep
learning new things as you age. It helps stave off strokes and dementia and Alzheimer’s
and improves memory. And hey, learning stuff is fun.
But I really don’t want to be infantilized when I try to
learn something. And I definitely don’t learn the way a child does. And
honestly, what adult wants to be in the same class as children? Very few.
This occurred to me recently because I’d like to learn how
to actually ice skate properly. My parents never signed me up for classes,
because it wasn’t a thing they ever cared about or thought about. Now I’m in my
twenties and want to learn, and also don’t want to be surrounded by a bunch of
eight-year-olds who probably honestly skate better than I do. Because that’s
embarrassing, and embarrassment is not how you learn.
Would it be good to lose the social stigma of being worse at
something than a child? Yes. Hell
yes. But we’ve got to start somewhere, and like I said: adults don’t really
learn the way kids do, and a lot of people use these kinds of activities to
make friends, and I don’t want to make friends with an eight-year-old, either.
Beginner’s classes for adults. Let adults suck at stuff and
learn how to get better and learn new things and broaden their horizons, while still being treated as adults. Classes for writing, for pottery, for chess, for art, for instruments, for singing, for sports, for chemistry. For everything, dammit.
There are things you learn from being Viktor Nikiforov’s coach, things that no other student will teach you.
“This is an emergency!” A sixteen-year-old Viktor screeches into his ear when Yakov picks up the phone.
“Vitya,” Yakov says, old heart speeding up. “Vitya, are you okay? Was there an accident? Who died?”
“An accident, this is a disaster, Yakov! I told them exactly what to do with my program outfit and they didn’t listen. They screwed up the lace, Yakov, don’t they understand what that’s supposed to represent–”
“Vitya,” Yakov says, “It is 3am in the morning. I am going back to bed.”
By the time Viktor is nineteen, Yakov is an expert in handling Viktor Nikiforov’s “emergencies.” Emergencies that, somehow, he believes only his coach capable of handling.
“Help, it’s an emergency,” Viktor whispers into the phone at eighteen. “Stephane Lambiel is so hot, Yakov, and his program this year–”
Yakov. Is. Done. When Viktor bursts into the rink at twenty, tears glistening in his beautiful blue eyes, dragging a hundred pound Makkachin with him, Yakov does not even blink. “YAKOV IT’S AN EMERGENCY, SHE IS BLEEDING YAKOV–”
“You clipped her nails too short, you fool, we’ll wrap it up and she’ll be fine.”
When Viktor Nikiforov is twenty-four, has two perfect seasons under his belt, the emergencies slow. Yakov does not miss them. He assumes his skater is finally growing up.
When Viktor Nikiforov is twenty-six, Yakov finds him sleeping on a rink bench. When he’s not skating he stares off, almost blank. When Viktor Nikiforov is twenty-six Yakov swings by his apartment to drop off his skating bag because he forgot it at the rink, again, and he finds Viktor crying, sitting straight up on his couch, TV off. When he talks to him, he realizes Viktor wasn’t even aware of the tears.
“Viktor,” he says, as gently as his face and voice can allow, “is this an emergency? How can I help you?”
“It’s fine,” Viktor says. “I’m fine.”
So often, when Viktor speaks, Yakov does not believe him.
Things change, at the rink. Yakov tries to make sure they do. Things get a little better. There are no emergencies.
Yakov is resting on a chair in the corner at the banquet of the Sochi GPF, exhausted by small talk and schmoozing with sponsors. He is ready to go to bed.
Then a twenty-seven year old Viktor Nikiforov is sprinting towards him, Armani jacket practically ripped open, blue eyes alight.
HEY KID, HAVE YOU EVER WANTED TO WRITE YOUR ENGLISH ESSAYS COMPLETELY IN CODE? WELL, NOW YOU CAN DO THAT!
Presenting one of the nerdiest things I’ve ever spent three hours on:
Fordese. Exactly as seen in Journal 3, but as a font. You too can confuse your work partner, twin brother, and dream demon arch-nemesis by simply typing on the keyboard as normal, no pen needed!
I must thank @picnokinesis and the fics they wrote in code for putting the random inspiration in my mind to do this, ahahah. XD
The font includes all coded letters from A-Z, both in uppercase and lowercase. (They’re both the same, though- I just figured it wouldn’t hurt to double up.) It has a full set of numbers, and the most common punctuation. Some of the letters are annoyingly close to each other, but it couldn’t easily be helped.
But hey, if anyone actually uses this and makes a post, please feel free to tag me in it so I can see! And if anyone tries this out and there’s any major issues with it, let me know and I can try to fix it! :D
It’s powerful. And painful. Just to imagine what Hannah’s last days were. To try to understand what led her there. But if she wanted to end her life we weren’t going to stop her. I cost a girl her life because I was afraid to love her.