it wasn’t your fault. it was schools fault.
everytime that hyuk has a performance, you miss it because of your packed schedule. you wished that you could just go or do whatever or wherever you wanted when you wanted.
you remember like it was yesterday..your high school graduation. of course, hyuk was there but he seemed a bit off.
“hyuk? what’s wrong?” your eyes filled with worry quickly after realizing that your boyfriend had a pouty face.
he forced a fake smile to assure you that there was nothing wrong. but there was.
“come on, lets go outside.” you got up and grabbed his hand, guiding him out of the refreshments room.
you weren’t going to believe any lies that he was going to attempt to tell you. it was obvious that he had something on his mind. something that was dragging his regular happy self down.
“tell me what’s wrong.” you said.
“i just…nevermind.” he looked at you and bit down in his lip to hide his frown.
“c'mon i don’t want to hear that.. you better tell me hyuk.” you forced him.
he let out a sigh and broke his eye contact with you. “will you still be able to…”
“to what hyuk? you’re like how many years older than-”
“come to my shows. and please let’s not talk about our age gap…ever.” he whispered the last part, no one could know about that. not now.
“if this is what’s bothering you, then…yes i will still try to go to your shows. i’ve never missed one yet. and i damn sure don't plan on missing one.”
you cut him off with a kiss, causing him to turn to putty in your hands. he was a sucker for you and he needed to make sure that you’d be around. you were his inspiration for everything after all.
you got a nonification from the angel that attended each and every one of hyuk’s performances. she went live so that those at home could watch him live.
you tapped on it and god…there he was, singing pour up. he looked amazing. and you noticed that he was wearing the necklace you got him for his birthday which made you smile and tear up. you were beginning to feel emo.
honestly, you felt distant from him. you’d see him every now and then but that was either for a quick fuck or to spend “time” together which only lasted for about an hour.
god knows you didn’t want to break up with him. you loved him too much.
you pushed your thoughts to the side just for now and focused on hyuk. of course, he was singing well and giving a great performance. he sung a few songs before getting to what2do. a song that he wrote when you two weren’t on the best page.
but right in the middle of the song, he stopped singing, covered his face and looked down. he walked off of the stage while shaking his head. but before he left, he spoke into the microphone, “i’m sorry”.
“what?” you asked yourself before hopping off of the couch and heading to your room to dress yourself.
you threw on a skirt, one of hyuk’s old supreme jackets and a pair of your old sneakers. you looked fine, if you excluded the fact that it looked like you had no bottoms on.
after locking up the house, you looked back at your phone. the ‘angel’ was apologizing to her viewers.
“dean is backstage. he’s been back there for a good six minutes…i hope he’s alright. if there are new viewers, the reason why you don’t see dean is because he cried on stage and left. he’s still here and maybe will be out soon. hang on.” she turned the camera around to face the stage.
hyuk had came back, with a hat on to hide his puffy eyes. “i apologize for my abrupt stop…. it’s just… i’m having problems.” he wasn’t going to continue the sentence but people in the crowd encouraged him to.
“tell us dean!”
he sighed into the microphone. “i wanted her to be here and…she’s not…”
“aww.” the crowd cooed as he started crying again.
you put your phone in your pocket and continued your walk to the venue. you hoped that security would let you in although they most likely wouldn’t.
even if you told them that you were hyuk’s girlfriend. they probably wouldn’t believe you because of how you looked. or maybe just because they were trying to keep him safe.
when you finally got to the back of the building, you saw that there was no one at the back door so you started to open it… until someone opened it before you.
“what were you doing?!” two men who looked like security guards asked you.
“umm…” you paused. “i’m here to see hy- dean. i’m his girlfriend.”
the both of them started to laugh and point at your features, telling you how hyuk would never date someone like you.
you just stood there. unfazed. how and why were you unfazed? because you were used to this. it was nothing new, so you let them get in on their jokes.
“y/n!” hyuk literally screamed when he spotted you from the hallway.
he pushed pass the guards and pulled you into a tight hug. “what are you doing here? i thought you said that you have a test tomorrow and you need to study?”
“they teased me hyuk.” you ignored his question and stared the two older men in front of you down.
“what?” he looked back at them and codly said, “you’re not the only ones. hardly anyone believes her.”
“sorry.” they said in unison and left the two of you alone.
hyuk stepped back and looked at you, he noticed his jacket and that brought a slight smile to his face.
“you cried…on stage. why?” you cut straight to the point making his smile drop.
“because i miss you y/n. i miss us.” he paused and ran his fingers through his hair. “i miss you being in the crowd and i miss spotting you out and singing to you. baby we’re not even around each other as much anymore. and when we are… it’s just..not the same.”
“i honestly feel the same way hyuk…i really do. but-”
“please don’t say but, just be here with me. we can work this out.” he looked down, obviously he was in some type of emo state.
“alright..after your show, let’s go home.” you suggested.
“after the show? home?” he asked. the tone of his voice was lifted and his eyes opened much more wider than before. You
“yes hyuk, now get in there and give your fans a good performance!”
he grabbed your hand and guided you through the building, to the stage. “what are you doing?” you asked him through gritted teeth.
he placed his finger over his lips and signaled for the dj to start the music. “everyone this is the woman in my life, y/n. and i will be singing to her.” his voice came out shyly and his cheeks were a pinkish red because of all the blushing that he was doing.
the crowd cheered him on until it was time for him to begin singing. they cooed along with you all the way till the end.
“i love you y/n.” he said, sincerely.
you mouthed i love you back to him and opened your arms wide. but, he didn’t hug you.. he cupped your face with his hands and kissed you. he kissed you in front of all the cameras.. something that he once said he’d never do.
when his set was over, he bowed at the crowd and thanked everyone for coming. he also apologized again a thousand times until you had to stop him.
“are you happy with me?” he asked, while holding the door of his car open for you.
you nodded and spat out a quick “yeah.” before he could close the door.
you didn’t lie, although things may have been a little off with your relationship with hyuk but that didn’t mean that you weren’t happy most of the time.
when he got into the car, he started the engine and turned up the radio. you leaned back into the seat and held onto his hand.
“you know, if you at least attend some of my shows, i’ll be the happiest man alive.” hyuk said.
“i’ll see what i can do.” a smirk stretched across your face. he didn’t exclude the"some" which made you feel good. he was finally understanding that school was a top priority.
“you better.” he laughed.
when you two got to your house, you watched a movie and talked about your relationship. thankfully, you worked it out with him completely. you would attend some of his shows and he would come over to your place everyday for way more than an hour time to spend time with you.
“tell me everything will be alright.” you said, while you snuggled deeper into hyuk’s chest.
“everything will be alright. i promise.” he kissed your forehead and sung one of his songs to you until you fell asleep.
“love, love the stars.
love, love the moon”