i don't know if it makes sense but it was my favorite part

IN MY DREAM LAST NIGHT MY ABUSER WAS WATCHING STAR WARS WITH MY NEW BOYFRIEND

who has been my new boyfriend
through two birthdays and the funeral,
but I like to call him that,
know too well the way men steel-plate
themselves inside my joints
until my body has to relearn running.

& he knows
a few parts of this story,
but I didn’t want that man’s name
back in my bed.

just told him,
picture yourself in a theater with your eyes closed,
your own palms pressed tightly to your ears.
on the drive home, 
he’ll describe each scene frame for frame,
talk about the previews, which one
the two of you should not-see-together next,
and you will feel lucky enough in that moment
you won’t notice the entire city of Portland starting to melt.

months later,
when he says it is your favorite movie,
you will nod and know it is
not worth arguing over.

(“are you trying
to tell me
you
weren’t
even
there?”)

you’ll tell yourself it’s true.
tell yourself
it’s the best movie
you’ve ever seen.

I mean, I understand when Yoongi chose Jimin’s part as the one that made his heart race because I’m pretty sure that made everybody’s hearts feel like the whole entire jungle is in there but Jimin choosing Suga’s part is.. I don’t know? Obviously, as a Yoongi-stan, it made my heart flutter too (one of my favorite parts) but if you’re not one, I feel like you wouldn’t really choose it? Like, I know for sure you would choose something else because it wasn’t really that striking? (I’m not dissing Yoongi, btw lol) It was something that I feel like if you’re not a Yoongi-stan, you would just think of as something cute and then move on to some part more noticeable like maybe Taehyung’s or Jungkook’s floor dance. It was, for lack of a better word, a gentle moment and I noticed it because I was looking at Yoongi the whole duration of the video. But Jimin chose it and I don’t even know if I’m making sense, it’s just really surprising.

my favorite things about long running anime:

  • actual eras with distinctive art styles.
  • really really good animation and really really bad animation, all in the same show.
  • “how many VAs have died so far?”
  • no one even knows what the plot is anymore. it’s all lost in the distant past, like valentine’s day.
  • they have animated the same opening images a dozen times by now, and somehow they keep getting worse at it.
  • that one part that you will never forget because it was so incredibly bad it is seared into your mind for the rest of your life.
  • cell animation and computer animation can be compared in a way that they can’t for any show that was purely one or the other.
  • that period after Attack on Titan blew up and everything was stylistically thick lines. everything.
  • jokes/complaints that don’t even make sense to you anymore. like octopus hair. I rewatched the octopus hair earlier, and I have no idea why I decided it was octopus hair. I mean it wasn’t good, but it wasn’t exactly the “his hair looks like tentacles” that I remember either.
  • that one anime original episode that you actually like and will defend to your dying breath as evidence that the anime team is not completely creatively bankrupt after fifteen goddamn years.
  • literally watching the effects of years of changes to the anime industry over the course of one show. hey, remember when different directors worked on different episodes all at once, and so the style and animation quality veered wildly from episode to episode? good times. terrible times.
  • early episodes whose entire plots could be fixed by cell phones. later episodes where everyone has smartphones. the main character is still seven years old. somewhere, a portable fax machine disguised as a bentobox is crying.
young fans: a PSA

it’s okay that young children are fans of 5sos !!! my first favorite band was green day when i was 6. parents of young 5sos fans need to understand that young kids are NOT the target audience of 5sos, and they can’t expect 5sos to change who they are in order to please their young fans, who make up a very small percentage of their fanbase. my mom knew that green day was not aimed for small kids when they were my favorite bands, and we had a chat about which parts of songs i couldn’t sing along to because they were inappropriate and which videos i could and couldn’t watch. now obviously 5sos is less explicit than green day, but parents of young 5sos fans need to understand that they are NOT a boy band and they cannot expect 5sos to put on a clean, family friendly show every time.