All In Your Head
A/N: I don't know what this is, Im planning on making this a few parts long. I literally just sat down and started writing bs and this is where we got LOL I know this will probably be confusing at first but once i upload and write a few more parts it’ll make sense! Enjoy xx
Characters: Mary, Sam, Dean, Reader
Parings: Sam x Dean x Reader!Sister
Warnings: Panic attack, cutting????
Word Count: 1,200
Flashbacks are in italics
You were blessing the boys always told you, they always wanted a little sister, especially Dean, but you always heard your dad, John, say otherwise. Any time he spoke to your brothers about you while you eavesdropped from you bedroom in the motel it was always “she was a mistake” “This wasn’t suppose to happen”
You would always cry for hours at night by yourself, you always told yourself it was because he was drunk he didn’t mean those things, regardless if he was sober or not he would always come in while you pretended to sleep, holding back your tears to make sure you were tucked in and safe.
But when John died all those things you always overheard him saying vanished from your mind, the boys never made you feel like you were a mistake, they never made you feel like you didn’t belong, they never singled you out, they did everything they could for you and you did the same.
You were happy for the boys when they had their reunion with Mary, you barely knew what it was like to have a Mom and so did they, so you could only imagine how they felt, you couldn’t even put into words how you felt and she wasn’t even your Mom.