i don't know how i feel about this!!!!

Sometimes, when I hear Cirice, I think about how much I would have adored that song as a goth teen (not that I don’t adore it now as a goth old person) and I get all emotional and I feel like Molly Grue from The Last Unicorn. It’s not a unicorn that has arrived before me, however, it’s Ghost, and I want to wail “Where where you twenty years ago, ten years ago? How dare you, how dare you come to me now, when I am this?

Not to be dramatic or anything. Herpaderp. Mostly, I think I’m just getting to this horrible age now where I’m filling up with regrets like one of those rain gauge things you leave in the yard. You forget about it, and then one day you look at it and you realize it’s spilling over and you’re standing in the middle of the storm like an idiot and you’re drenched and you don’t know what to do and everyone else seems to have an umbrella. And is young and has their shit together. Or something. I try very hard these days to feel ok about myself, but I mostly just feel awkward and lost. And I’m glad I have my husband and my friends and awesome music to help me muddle through, but I’m still Molly Grue. 

I’m also Schmendrick, but that’s another post for another time. 

hands;

[I wrote this poem yesterday night trying to cope with my pain due to Sherlock and Johnlock and everything that happened] [this is indeed about johnlock of course]

sometimes
i do not understand
why it happens
why one put so much effort
into believing
and can’t do nothing,
in the end,
but find himself sitting still
disenchanted,
eyes
on empty hands.
and hands those
are yet again,
opened
hardly
because how are we to touch
again
if the first
-was it really only the first?-
-maybe, as the most important one, i remember it as such-
time
hurt so much?
but we were right
and we did love
and they did love
and they are loving
and they will love
for the whole time,
their opened hands
full of love.
when the fear
and that sadness
catch you
look at your skin.
know that
yours is cold
theirs is not
yours still hurts
theirs, somewhere,
is hot,
loved
(so loved)
and cured,
and taken care of.
do it for them
for you deserve your hands
to be full
of all those things too.
you should have been able to hold
their fingers
with yours (too).
I am sorry
you didn’t get to.
but trust your legs
once more.
you’re walking in the right direction,
do not stop.
they did not.
they live in your mind
and as long as you keep walking
they can never ever
die.
if you ever stop
do it for love,
and they will love
and they will dance
as you give yourself
the happiness
they lived
(somewhere)
and you
so fully
deserve.

Self-Knowledge Questionnaire   ––   based on your answers, we think the following three traits are important strands in your personality:

NEEDINESS

Being affirmed and nurtured by others is a central requirement for you to feel safe. This means you can be slow to warm up to other people, which is difficult because what you most need from them is their warmth. Yet you know how to be vulnerable: to let down your defences and accept that you need another person. This lack of pretence is a valuable trait, and ultimately more endearing than the macho efforts others make to deny their childlike sides. 

FOR NEEDINESS:

  • Why the Fear of Rejection Never Goes Away
  • On the Longing for Maternal Tenderness
  • How to Spend Time Alone

RATIONALITY

You like clarity and intelligent simplicity and you get frustrated at messy thinking. This can make you seem unreasonably pushy to some, but it is actually a virtue: you are motivated by a horror at pointless effort and a longing for precision and insight into how things and people work. Your ability to synthesise and bring order is essential in producing thinking which is truly helpful. 

FOR RATIONALITY:

  • What is Philosophy For?
  • Philosophy ‘ Ludwig Wittgenstein
  • Who Are You to Say That?

AGGRESSION

One part of your character is anger in all its forms: frustration, outrage – and when anger is suppressed – bitterness, grumpiness, and bodily aches. Fundamentally, frustration comes from hope: you get upset because you expect your life will be more than a valley of tears. One way to deny aggression is to direct it inwards, as self-criticism. But you’re at your best when you acknowledge anger, and act it out clearly and in a focussed way, with honour. 

FOR AGGRESSION:

  • How to Forgive
  • How to Deal with Conflict
  • On How to Disagree
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how dare the les miserables finale make me feel sad and both so uplifted at the same time. no fair. musical finales are supposed to make feel either super sad or happy it’s not fair you can’t make me super sad and uplifted at the sometime what witchcraft is this

The ice is a harsh and unforgiving mistress, even to its most ardent lovers.” 

WIP. I wanted a moment where Victor had to physically feel his limitations and loneliness with the ice. But I don’t know how to paint. @u@;;

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favorite character moodboard » peggy carter

“I know my value. Anyone else’s opinion doesn’t really matter.”

violetsedanchair  asked:

I just found out there are really four additional minutes! british board of film classification - they give ratings to movies and tv shows - says the running time of tfp is 109 minutes (actually 108 m 52 s). we know there is 90 minute long ep and 15 minutes exclusive footage for cinemas. but that's only 105 minutes?? where are those four, ha??

um oh my god? really?

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late night rendezvous with sehun ✨❤🌃 

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