i don't have room for these feelings

ok, but since i started following the skam soundtrack on spotify, i’ve always said that all i ever wanted was to go to a party where they played those songs… what i’m saying is:

nrk, you could have sent me an invite to yesterday’s party.

5 Things Tag~

5 things you’ll find in my bag

  1. My wallet
  2. My earphones
  3. Medicine
  4. Wet wipes
  5. Trash tbh

5 things you’ll find in my bedroom

  1. The living room lmao
  2. My messy desk
  3. Book shelf
  4. Cat
  5. A mess

5 things I’ve always wanted to do  

  1. Write a book
  2. Travel places
  3. Get tattoos
  4. Go skiing
  5. Be happy

5 things that make me feel happy

  1. Playing games
  2. Reading
  3. My friends
  4. Food
  5. Movies

5 things I’m currently into

  1. League
  2. Six of Crows
  3. Foxhole Court
  4. Borns
  5. Dirk Gently

5 things on my to-do list

  1. Make a to do list
  2. Failed step one
  3. I don’t have one
  4. I guess I just wanna relax for now??


Was tagged by @hobijoon ty so much for the tag ♥

I will tag @flap-monster @namgii @kaibngtn @polgara @nekromantorium @strawbubbly @namjoonmyprince or just whoever wants to~

anonymous asked:

Imagine Steve wasn't in love with Bucky Barnes before his big freeze, but now he's falling head over heels for the Winter Soldier

Steve wasn’t confused about his feelings.  Not really.  He’d been attracted to men just as much as he had been women.  He might’ve had to keep his attraction to men fairly quiet until he woke up in the twenty-first century, but he’d never been confused about feeling how he did.  

The confusing part was Bucky.  Or, maybe the confusing part was that it wasn’t Bucky. He wasn’t sure what the difference was, exactly, and what it meant that he hadn’t been attracted to Bucky before he was the Winter Solider, but he was now that Bucky wasn’t the Bucky he used to know.

He wasn’t sure if it was the hair, or that shared life experience he’d mentioned to Natasha once, or if it was something else that Steve thought, somewhere deep down, that he should feel bad about because the change in Bucky had come at the expense of so much.

Bucky wasn’t the Bucky he remembered and that difference made all the difference.  He was darker and haunted and as strong as –if not stronger- than Steve and there was something wily that shifted behind his eyes, sometimes, that made Steve’s stomach flip.

Bucky noticed.  And made sure to bring it up when he knew he’d catch Steve off-kilter enough to talk about it (exhausted after sparring.  Steve would be damned if Bucky hadn’t timed it perfectly because he knew how good Steve thought he looked exhausted and sweaty.)

“You wanna do something about it, or are you trying to see how frustrated you can make yourself?”

“What?”  Steve sputtered.  He wasn’t ready and didn’t know what to say and felt guilty that he was attracted to Bucky (the Winter Solider) now that he had seventy years of unspeakable horrors behind him.  Steve wondered what that said about himself.   

Bucky sighed.  “I see the way you watch me.  Did you always do that?”

“You mean did I do it when – Before?”  Steve managed to keep his voice even.  Mostly.  

“Yeah.”

Let it never be said that Steve Rogers backed down from a confrontation. “No.”

Bucky nodded, watching Steve carefully, searching his face for. Something.  When he finally spoke, it was much quieter, secret-sharing.  “I was hoping you’d say that.” 

“What?” Steve leaned back against his locker.  He was pretty sure the wold was tilting on it’s axis.  

“Steve, I – I’ve been wandering around thinking you’re mooning over someone I’m not anymore and – and it’s not true.  You want me, not him.  I mean – you know.”

Steve nodded.  “Yeah, Buck. I do.  But what does that say about—“

“-Stop.  We’re both different.  This might be the best excuse to finally forgive yourself for the fact that seventy years just happened to change us both.”

It was Steve’s turn to pick apart Bucky’s expression and when he’d done so to his satisfaction he reached out towards Bucky, who leaned in in kind.  

JARVIS ensured the locker room was off-limits for the next week. (First for the privacy of Captain Rogers and Sargent Barnes, and second for the repairs necessary to the space once they were through with it).  

  • Otome guy 1: I was betrayed by a woman in the past. Trust is an illusion meant to be broken. I can never love again.
  • Otome guy 2: Love? I am familiar with the concept, but I am aware that even my most trusted reference books are no substitute for actual experience.
  • Otome guy 3: People keep telling me to tone down my flirting habit, but... look, the incident with the mannequin was just that ONE TIME
  • Otome guy 4: Meh. I don't care about romance. I'm just gonna go take my third nap today...
  • Otome guy 5: I'm busy living my life on my own terms. I don't have time to waste on foolish ideas like love.
  • MC: *walks into the room and breathes*
  • Otome guys: O-oh. *clutches chest* What is this mysterious feeling...??

Draco wanting to support Hogwarts in the Triwizard Tournament but not daring to do so because there was no Slytherin champion.

Draco slowly realizing that he and Harry were both under pressure to constantly succeed.

Draco wishing Dobby wasn’t treated quite so badly but it was expected of him to think otherwise so he compromised by shouting and name calling but never hitting him.

Draco wishing he could watch the World Cup from the top of the stadium but never daring to mention so because being in the Minister’s Box is a glorious honor.

Draco spending days locked up in his room when his father’s friends came to the manor.

Draco dreading to come down for dinner because you never know if He will be at the table.

Draco being terrified of You Know Who but forced to speak his name.

Draco feeling physically ill when confronted by Voldemort but accepting the position because he is the man of the house while Father is in Azkaban.

Draco crying in his room at night because his forearm burns.

Draco wearing long sleeves because he has a constant reminder of what is being asked of him.

Draco vomiting as he flees the astronomy tower.

Draco feeling so relieved that he collapses upon hearing that Voldemort was defeated.

Draco still having to uphold the now tarnished family name.

Draco.

Nessian Feels
  • Cassian: Please just get out-
  • Nesta: Fine, I'm leaving *starts to storm out of the room*
  • Cassian: I wasn't finished.
  • Nesta: *hesitates at the door*
  • Cassian: Please get out of my thoughts, my mind, and my dreams; because you consume them all.
  • Nesta: *heart stutters*
  • Nesta: I don't have any control over your mind, Cassian.
  • Cassian: Believe me, you do.

anonymous asked:

I feel like Grim looks different every time you post a picture of her. Are you sure you don't actually have like, 12 different tabbies that are never in the same room, at the same time?

here’s a secret reason I don’t post as many pics of Grim: her fur is STUNNING, all ticked & rich, but it goes dull blah brown when in shadow?? like here’s my Grim resplendent in the sunlight:

& here’s my good good girl in the shade. she goes from jaguar to warm potato:

Drarry fics II
  • Fanfiction-author: Mmh... I haven't written some good old smut in a while... let's just start with Harry pushing Draco angrily against the wall in a fight...
  • Draco: Potter, what are you doing?
  • Harry: I don't-
  • Fanfiction-author: ... and then Harry draws closer... and closer...
  • Draco: Ew, Potter! Get away from me.
  • Harry: I'm not... I don't know what's happening. She's making me do it!
  • Draco: *huffs* Then why do I feel like your wand is pushing up against my thigh... even though you're holding it in your hand???
  • Harry: It's clearly HER fault.
  • Fanfiction-author: *evil laughter* Wait for what I have prepared for you guys in the Room of Requirement... 😜🎁🎉🎊😈😉
  • Draco: What the hell? 😳
  • Harry: *panicking* Oh no. Please don't make me lose my virginity to him.
  • Draco: Hahaha, you're still a virgin, Potter?
  • Fanfiction-author: Why are YOU laughing?
  • Draco:
  • Fanfiction-author: Also, this is a bottom!draco-fic, so...
  • Draco: WHAT??
Hamilton characters as things my friends and roommates have said at college
  • Washington: Every time you don't keep your side of the room clean, god kills a puppy.
  • Angelica: Honey, if that boy talks to you again and you don't like what he's saying, send him to me and I'll kick him so hard in the ass, he'll need my foot surgically removed from his mouth.
  • Maria: I look like a hooker in this dress, but not a cheap one. Like, a really expensive one. For the guys who wear nice cologne and suits.
  • Laurens: I don't know if I'm gay. Or straight. Or bi. I don't know what I am. I just know I have to pee now cause I'm so stressed about this.
  • Hamilton: I want to have a party just about me. Like, no music, no dancing, nothing. Just an empty room and me with a mic, so that everyone will come and have to hear me talk.
  • Eliza: I feel so guilty, I ate sugar before lunch. My mum always says it's unhealthy to eat sugar before noon. What have I done? I'm a horrible rebel. I need to go call her and apologise.
  • Peggy: DUDE IM NOT A GARBAGE CAN STOP THROWING YOUR FUCKING GARBAGE AT ME AM I THAT UNNOTICEABLE JESUS I HATE YOU ALL
  • Jefferson: Everyone here is so goddamn stupid.
  • Burr: Either I'll kill myself or my dorm-mate before summer break. I don't know which yet.
  • typical guided meditations: you are light, you are love, you are protected and safe. don't be afraid to let go of all the negative things in your life. you are all that there is, the source of all, which is infinite goodness and love. let go of all the things that no longer serve you and make room for new universal energy to cleanse your body, soul and mind.
  • my personal guided meditations: listen up you little bith. i dont have time for u to be fuckin around with all these bad vibes. feel the light in every fuckin atom in your body alright. man up and stop giving a shit. let go of all thef uckery. right now. let it all go bitch. kick the sadness in the balls. let it all fuckin go. love and light bitch, love and light

Backstory- this was my first time playing, and I’m playing a tank with a party of me, a cleric, and a rouge. We’re all approximately level two. My character happens to speak draconic (you’ll see why that’s relevant) and we’re all trekking through a dungeon

Cleric (ooc): *explaining how dungeon crawling works*
Cleric (ooc): *mentions dragons*
Rogue (ooc): okay, but we’re level two, we won’t run into a dragon for a really long time.
Party: *goes into a new room*
DM: the door closes behind you
Rogue: heck
DM: the room begins to get very cold
Rogue: heck heck heck
DM: you have the feeling something very big is watching you
DM: a giant ice dragon is sitting in the corner of this room, atop a pile of gold and strange, glowing stones.
Cleric and me: *both shoot pointed looks at the dwarf*

And that’s how I ended up negotiating with a dragon before I figured out how to talk to people without offending them 👍

Sylvia Plath for the Signs
  • Aries: "It is so much safer not to feel than to let the world touch me."
  • Taurus: "Kiss me, and you will see how important I am."
  • Gemini: "I want to talk to everyone as deeply as I can. I want to be able to sleep in an open field, to travel west, to walk freely at night."
  • Cancer: "Can you understand? Someone, somewhere, can you understand me a little, love me a little?"
  • Leo: "Remember, remember, this is now, and now, and now. Live it, feel it, cling to it. I want to become acutely aware of all I have taken for granted."
  • Virgo: "Go out and do something. It isn't your room that's a prison, it's yourself."
  • Libra: "Please, I want so badly for the good things to happen."
  • Scorpio: "Please don't expect me to always be good and kind and loving. There are times when I will be cold and thoughtless and hard to understand."
  • Sagittarius: "I am afraid of getting older. I am afraid of getting married... Spare me from the relentless cage of routine and rote. I want to be free... I want, I want to think, to be omniscient.
  • Capricorn: "For all my despair, for all my ideals, for all that- I love life. But it is hard, and I have so much- so very much to learn."
  • Aquarius: "I took a deep breath and listened to the deep brag of my heart. I am, I am, I am."
  • Pisces: "I dream to much, work too little."
  • Friend: *can't find me in a crowded room*
  • Friend: *sighs* I can't believe I have to do this again... I WILL SEND A FULLY ARMED BATTALION TO REMIND YOU OF MY LOVE
  • Me: *pops up behind them* DA DA DA-DA DAAAAAA DA DA-DA DA DAYA DA, DA DA DA DA DAYA DA
  • Friend: *jumps* Sweet Jesus!
  • Me: HEY! I HAVE NOT BEEN SHY I AM JUST A GUY IN THE PUBLIC EYE TRYIN' TO DO MY BEST FOR OUR REPUBLIC-
  • Friend: *screeches*
  • Me: Hey little homie, don't get so upset! Tell Vanessa how you feel-
  • Friend: *leaves*

I feel so homesick right now… so I took my homesickness and gave it to Lance bc thinking about how homesick Lance must be somehow made me feel happier for a second before I started crying bc he must feel it at least 10x worse bc I know I’ll see them soon and he doesn’t know if he’ll ever see his family again

Sorry if there are any typos, I can barely see through my tears

-at the garrison it was somehow different. he wasn’t with his family, but he knew he’d get to see them around the holidays and such things, plus skyping or texting or calling

-he still missed them and so he thought he knew what homesickness felt like: a tiny squeeze of your heart and a whispered voice reminding you of your family, but still fairly easy to ignore with the smallest distractions

-even then, if things got really bad for him at school he knew the worst they could do was send him back to his family, who would still accept him even if he was kicked out

-and then he was pulled into a giant space war

-which, unlike the garrison or literally any other school, has his schedule entirely unplanned

-was he going to eat breakfast tomorrow or were they going to have to fight something? was Allura going to surprise them with a crazy drill that they’d have to suffer through? was Hunk going to wake up later than usual and cause to Coran decide to make them disaster food? if he slept in, would the team let him sleep til lunch? who knows

-was he even going to live long enough to see his family? if Zarkon attacked earth, would they know? would they be able to stop him? what if his family is already dead? for all Lance knew, he could die in his sleep, but Allura dismissed him and said they couldn’t visit earth yet

-he has so much more time to think of things and at first he thought that would make him would feel better, but it doesn’t

-instead he notices that he can’t remember the way his sister parted her her hair, or where the freckle on his brother’s face was or if there even was one. he can’t quite remember the tune to the song his mother always sang, or the way his dad’s face lit up as he came home from his late shift at work only to find that everyone had stayed up late just to see him walk through the door

-his first thought is that it didn’t matter, that those were only the small things

-but then he noticed that he could barely breathe

-he was gasping and his lungs felt like they were full of cotton, his eyes stung as he tried not to cry, his head pounding out his erratic heartbeat. his hands and feet felt numb, his arms and legs like jelly. he felt nauseous too, and bile stung his throat as his mouth went completely dry. his heart felt like it was being ripped out of his chest viciously

-he tried to think of something else, anything else, but now his head was screaming everything he must be missing back at home

-does his sister still make cookies every saturday? does his brother still pick flowers on his way home from school? does his mom still make ridiculous cards for him and his siblings? does his dad still insist that they take pictures everyday?

-do they think he’s dead?

-at this point Lance just needs to get out. he’s scared and just hopes that distracting himself will still work because it’s the only thing he could think of

-so he walks right down into the dining room where the rest of the team is and starts talking

-the others talk back, and everything goes back to normal for Lance

-but the longer he’s away from his family, the more often this occurs, until it’s a habit to just talk to everyone every time he has someone to talk to

-he talked to the paladins, he talked to the alteans, he talked to Blue (and any other lion, although he couldn’t tell if they were listening or not)

-and eventually the others found him to be more and more annoying

-which sucks, because he needs them more than ever now, because now everything he does reminds him of home

-bathing, eating, sleeping, practicing, laughing, even talking

-and there are things he never did in space like fighting, training, or using crazy machines, but it just helped remind him that he’s doing them because he’s not at home

-Lance wants to tell them, but no one else talks about being homesick so he decides he has to stay strong

-they all say he’s annoying (wether or not they mean it) so he slowly gets quieter and basically loses his only coping mechanism but no one seems to notice how much worse he’s getting

-they don’t notice how quiet he is now either, until he says something and someone asks him if he knows how to shut up before they realize that that was the first time they had heard him speak in days

-they see his face fall and his eyes fill with tears, and now they notice his eye bags and the way he seems to be ready to fall over at any given second

-they don’t say anything however, because they aren’t very social and don’t know what to say (only Hunk and Coran seem to have any skills socially, but they wouldn’t be telling Lance to shut up in the first place so it’s safe to say whoever said it wouldn’t be a feelings expert)

-so they leave it alone. Lance was probably just tired lately for some reason but they won’t make him go to sleep because they figure he’ll be fine (again, pretty sure Hunk and Coran are the only ones who know what sleeping is)

-they’re too lost in thought to notice Lance leave the room gasping for air

-they’re too busy moving on to notice that Lance won’t be fine

Do you know that line from Perks of Being a Wallflower?

“And you’re listening to that song and that drive with the people you love most in this world. And in this moment I swear, we are infinite.”

In this moment, the sky outside is blue and pink and orange and so sweet I hurt–

I’m listening to Jon Bellion, that smooth voice singing: took fifteen hits ‘till I could barely walk. 

In this moment, my room is dark, the plants on my windowsill outlined by the sinking sun reflecting off the snow at the end of another day among million-billions. 

I have felt infinite before but right here and now I feel ephemeral; I am so, so small; 

I am a sliver,

an infinity of nothing. 

Imagine:

Being at a party with Tom and some Marvel co-stars, and as you walk away for a moment to get a drink, Tom, who had been having an animated conversation with Scarlett about her latest baked creation when you slipped away, goes completely silent and just watches you as you cross the room. Prompting Scarlett to frankly state, “Lord, will you just realize you love her already”, and it hits him that, in fact, he does.

{ By: Anon } 

unpopular opinion

shiro isn’t hopeless at household chores and cooking. he’s a decent cook and keeps things military neat and clean

anonymous asked:

I feel like nobody talks about what dan and phil don't do. Like how they haven't been in a serious relationship with another girl. And even though they have the money they haven't moved into different homes. And how phil didn't leave the room to change his pants when he was in boxers. It's the things that they don't do that kinda shows how much they love each other

you come into my house, make me feel emotions,,

Matthew Daddario Quotes
  • "We call our shoes ‘sneakers,’ right? But they're not really sneaking."
  • "Can't wait till they invent phones with keyboards."
  • "I don't know this guy. He came to hang out so I complimented his hair."
  • "How many artichokes can you eat in one sitting?"
  • "No, go back to my idea!"
  • "Maybe, they'll throw the books out. Just not follow the books anymore."
  • "Hey guys did everyone floss today? You gotta floss every day. Otherwise, your dentist makes you feel bad."
  • "I play piano but I won't call it a talent."
  • "I'm the funniest person in the cast and that's simply because everybody else is so painfully unfunny."
  • "There is literally no memory left in my phone. I took fourteen thousand blue sky photos and I need all of them."
  • "Send him photos of fried chicken and crab cakes."
  • "I have a dentist appt tomorrow. I'm not gonna brush my teeth tonight. Also not going to shower. This is going to be painful for everyone."
  • "You are not trash, you are lovely!"
  • "Don't sign contracts in your blood. It's usually not required by any reputable party."
  • "He's slippin' out his little tongue eating snail treats off the ground."
  • "I will eat anywhere in the house. I'll eat cheese crackers in bed!"
  • "He looks down and sees this wonderful man. He hops down there and smooches that man right on the face. Right in front of everyone."
  • "...it's not fair that he is more handsome than me!!!"
  • "Don't do the hokey pokey around witches."
  • "They're never gonna release the deleted scenes to you guys because they're racy and inappropriate."
  • "This video is going on social media!"
  • "I'm ashamed to admit I lied about the selfies. The phone is 98% cow pictures and I can't delete them. I need a new phone. Forgive me."
  • "Thank god I started sandpapering my feet when I was four."
  • "Is Alec appreciating at an increased rate because of an increase in demand? Or is it the same rate as before."
  • "Note, some alpaca do not appreciate head pats."
  • "If humans lived in barns, we'd be smelly, too."
  • "Had to delete all my cow photos to make room for selfies, so I will say 'I appreciate you, cows.'"
  • "Wow. It's spelled Gollum. Wow. So disappointed. Hiding my own cell phone for the next two weeks."
  • "You're a little kitty cat. Yummy, yummy, yummy, yummy kitty cat, kitty cat."
  • "Sometimes when I travel between dimensions, I think, man, I should really buy a sailboat."
  • "If I was running for President, my VP would be a well trained golden retriever."
  • "Who's not going to watch Hamlet in space? I mean, Space Hamlet!"
  • "I just think we should all acknowledge what is awesome about Harry!"
  • "I like eating food after dark."
  • "Generally, people avoid kissing their sister in a healthy life."
  • "If you don't like my zebra leggings, it's because you just don't understand zebra leggings."
  • "I think we should provide more showers for cows."
  • "If I'm having a bad day, I eat pizza."
  • "I hope Google uses the same algorithm to encrypt my email as my pocket does to tie knots with my headphones."
  • "I would own a farm. Not like growing crops but maybe have a few animals like cows, and maybe an alpaca or a llama. I would chop wood all day."
  • "Dog. #dog. Dog. Dog."
  • "Had fun tweeting with/at you guys. Phone is about to die. Gonna go get more double-A batteries."
  • "The jackhammer has been joined by his friend, the concrete saw. Rare that you get two music legends right outside your window like this."
  • "Interdimensional cat smuggling is severely punished. But you can make a killing on the black cat market."
  • "You should just give up on me like I did. So done with me right now I can't even."
  • "What am I fan of? No one's ever asked me this before! Oh man."
  • "I don't know why they say that. I think they're poking fun at me."
  • "Congrats. You deserve that sailboat."
  • "I don't know. I don't have any pet peeve. Yapping little dogs, I guess. Buttons that don't go up right."
  • "Donkeys look like rabbit horses."
  • "Everyone is all, 'follow your heart.' If that worked I'd be watching Shadowhunters in my spaceship."
  • "Am I making this up?"
  • "I don't condone it, but I understand it, and therefore, I will not pass judgment on it."
  • "I can eat a pound of pork rinds."
  • "I am your bird king!"
  • "Baby pigs or baby cows? They're both good options."
  • "I have deleted a single photo from my phone. I have room for one selfie. Living on the edge. If it happens, no second chances."
  • "She gets it at a Shadowhunter tailor where we get all our stuff. Are you serious?"
  • "My cell phone is not the most important thing in my life. It just feels that way."
  • "Kill her immediately. Problem solved."
  • "You're not me? Most people aren't, in my experience."
  • "Man I've spent a whole year talking about sailboats and I could have just jumped on this SHIP."
  • "Reminder not to cite 'game of thrones' as my motivation for getting into politics."
  • "To all the people who threaten to punch me in the face... Do I have to be concerned or is that a love thing?"
  • "Put this on?! Fit it on my body?!"
  • "I’m going to shave today. Nobody will recognize me and I’ll have to reintroduce myself to all my friends."
  • "Don't get me started on this question."
  • "Okay, quick question. What does it mean when someone says they are your 'trash?' Asking for a friend..."
  • "Wait, 'SexyBack' is by Justin Timberlake?"
  • "Everyone's smooching everyone and Alec just wants to do his job. That's why he's the best and deserves a big smooch."

anonymous asked:

Hey Colton! What's up? I kinda wanted to ask you a serious question, I guess? Uhm, as an openly gay actor, do you have some advice for younger, queer kids? I am one myself, and there are times I don't know how to deal with my sexuality... Lots of love! ~G

I can honestly say that it takes time to be comfortable enough to come out…it has to be on your own time but when i did…it changed my life for the better! It opened up so many doors for me and i dont have to feel like the elephant in the room anymore. Theres so much support i never knew was available for me and i am so proud to say that i am gay and it hasnt done anything to hurt what i love to do in life. Times are thankfully changing