Sorry but i’m about to spew some straight up langst/klangst right now.
Lance has had it up to here with everyone’s bullshit. Pidge treats him like he’s stupid, Allura treats him like dirt, and Shiro… he used to look up to him, that man was his hero, but it seems all Shiro cares about is Keith. Keith this Keith that Keith’s gonna lead Voltron Keith’s the best pilot. Keith Keith Keith. He can’t stand it. No one takes him seriously. All he wants is to feel like he belongs but it seems like everyone else is making sure to make it clear that he doesn’t. And Keith is the worst.
The bickering has gotten worse, and Lance knows it’s his fault. He’d never admit that though. His emotions are running high and he can barely control what comes out of his mouth anymore. If anyone has noticed the tension coming from Lance they haven’t mentioned it. They probably don’t give two shits. They’re too busy praising Keith to even look his way let alone ask if he’s alright.
They’re fighting again. It’s pretty bad. Both of them are saying some not so nice things to each other. Lance is trying to keep calm, but he’s having a difficult time. He wants to yell. At Keith. At everyone. Let them all know that they hurt him. They don’t care. Don’t give them the satisfaction. Don’t let them know it hurts.
Until Lance let’s slip something particularly nasty and everyone just stares. He’s kinda shocked himself. Then Keith says:
“What is your problem, Lance!? Who hurt you!?”
Lance wants to be everyone’s best friend. And back at the Garrison, when they were fresh cadets, that included Keith.
I bet he’s actually really nice under all that emo. We could be great friends. We’re pretty evenly matched, and if we both make fighter class, I bet we’d make a good team.
Lance does everything in his power to be noticeable to Keith. But no matter what it doesn’t seem to work. Keith barely acknowledges his existence. So he tries a more direct approach.
Keith shoots him down.
It’s not that Keith meant to be mean or say what he said, but Lance takes it as a direct insult. He’s crushed to say the least. And he’s angry. I just wanted to be friends. He probably thinks he’s too good for you.
Maybe he is.
Over time this insecurity festers inside Lance. He starts to notice how much praise Keith receives, and how much criticism he himself gets.
He copes by forming a rivalry. He’s desperate to feel like he’s good enough. Good enough for Keith. He pushes himself to his limits, when it seems like Keith doesn’t try at all. Sometimes it’s overwhelming and he cries silently at night (wouldn’t wanna wake up Hunk and have him be all worried and stuff).
Keith’s words echo in his head, always a little meaner and nastier. He’s never gonna be good enough.
Lance is raging. There are tears streaking down his cheeks and his jaw is starting to ache from the pressure of his clenched teeth. He’s shaking.
Everyone is staring at him, looking a little alarmed now. Oh, now they care.
“You.” Lance says, trying to keep his tone even. “It was you.”