I know I had a break a while ago because of family issues, but when it rains it pours and I just got a huge depression relapse and haven’t felt like doing anything, so you won’t hear from me for a while.
I feel so angry at the world. For making me feel like this. For making me in such a way that I will always be an outsider
I was not made to fit nicely into this world and I feel it mocking me as I realize this
So yeah maybe I ran out of questions but you ran out of answers.
where the fuck were you when i was half drowned in a bottle of whiskey just asking for a text back?
where the fuck were you when life crawled under my skin and tore itself out from the inside?
where the fuck were you when I was going through it last November and you said looking at pain this close made you uncomfortable?
where do you get off with telling me I shouldn’t talk to him and that he’s bad and he only cares about one thing when the only goddamn time you were interested in me is when my clothes were off and yours were too
look at this game we played because it never was that to me but you only just now put your cards down so you could hold her fucking hand and
i can’t be mad about it I can’t feel it in my chest like a jolt of electricity i can’t beg for you to come back when you were never even here so
maybe i ran out of questions
but only when you stopped fucking answering them.
so block me again we’re not even friends– lily rain
So, I watched the last three eps of this season and having seen the creepy blind almost kiss, I’m actually more cringed out over the part where he falls on her and doesn’t get off right away. It was a poor use of a trope and came across as both super awkward and creepy. The almost kiss was on the creepy side, too, since, you know she’s BLIND. (Though honestly it’s not entirely out of character for princess outpost, who is, in fact, an entitled, self-absorbed monster at times.) Also, Astrid’s “why didn’t you” line makes no sense. He didn’t because you turned your head. You know this. Stop reducing yourself to being a pawn in things that Hiccup makes happen, Astrid. The bigger question is why didn’t YOU? Alas, I digress.
What I don’t like, what I really don’t like (aside from an almost kiss that edges on non con) is that the rtte writers decided that hiccstrid development consists solely of making them kiss on screen and making Astrid be worried about Hiccup (and then making her apologize for that? Fuck that noise). This isn’t relationship development. This is cheap. Anyone can kiss. Kissing doesn’t mean anything at all. I don’t want to see them kissing in every episode. It’s weird. I want to see them working together and respecting each other and for fuck’s sake, I do not want to see Astrid apologizing for her feelings every damn episode.
So, in conclusion, my opinion is: meh. Still better fanfic out there.
Once, when his uncles asked him what gift he wanted for his nameday, he begged them for a dragon. “It wouldn’t need to be a big one. It could be little, like I am.” His uncle Gerion thought that was the funniest thing he had ever heard, but his uncle Tygett said, “The last dragon died a century ago, lad.” That had seemed so monstrously unfair that the boy had cried himself to sleep that night.