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I kinda hate tumblr

Okay so here’s a thing. I kinda hate tumblr. I really do. For an awful lot of reasons but this is going to be long enough so here are only a few of them:

1. Y’all are always preaching about how everyone should feel comfortable in their own skin no matter who they want to be and what they want to look like. Except you feel superior because your eyebrows or your hair or your winged eyeliner are on point. There are so many you vs me posts that put others down for the clothes they wear or the accuracy of their make up. Know what you are? Hypocrites

2. I’m all for equaltiy and I think it is great that important matters such as racism and sexism etc are discussed and taken seriously on such a platform. However, it seems to me that unless you are a part of a minority group or underprivileged, you are not allowed an opinon. Like, I get that those who are affected most by those things have to speak up and need to be respected and listened to. But that doesn’t mean that someone who does not have to face these problems can’t have something important to say about it. Tumblr doesn’t value your opinion unless you are a  poc or belong to the lgbtq+ community.

3. Can fandoms just get along? Why do people get hate for a bunch of tv shows they love? I mean it is pretty obvious which ones I’m talking about (*cough* superwholock *cough*). You cannot openly admit to be a fan of those three shows without getting hate for it. Which is stupid. Yeah, there are people in this fandom that are utter douchebags. But you will find douchebags in every single fandom. Don’t make assumptions on someone’s personality based on the tv shows they enjoy. It keeps people from enjoying their fandoms.

4. Problematic. I don’t know if it’s a meme or a trend that i missed or simply didn’t get but it pisses me off so much. There are so many posts that go something like ‘when your friend won’t realise their fav is problematic…’ Like I dunno, do you get that your fav is problematic? Do you get that you’re problematic? Cause we are all human beings and we are all problematic in one way or another. There’s no way any of us go through life without ever voicing an offensive opinion. And just because a celebrity once said something problematic doesn’t make them ‘human trash’, as many like to lable them. 

(same goes for tv shows btw. I know some are very popular to hate and be called out but honeslty, pretty much everyshow lacks representation in some aspect but that doesn’t mean that the writers are ‘problematic’ or racist douchebags)

5. Tumblr made me a way angrier person. I get offended so easily because if there’s a funny situation or a joke or anything I would usually laugh about, thanks to this lovely website I can think of a hundred reasons why pretty much anything could be offensive or problematic, even if they are so freakin far fetched that noone would assume it is offensive at all.


I could probably go on forever. I mean, yeah, there are hilarious textposts and gifs and great fandoms on here. And I love that bit. But then there’s this other side that makes me want to visit tumblr less and less. Maybe that’s just me but it’s kind of taking the fun out of tumblr.

I’m not saying that I am a philosopher or anything but sometimes I do so much thinking that I forget they killed Socrates for stuff like this. Because I think of unconventional things, explosive things, completely over the top things.

Like about the universe. We’ve got astrophysicists and super geniuses trying to figure out that shit for us but maybe we’re encroaching on an infinity too big even for our egos. Maybe we’re looking too far and for all the wrong things, I mean after all if human beings are made out of stardust, shouldn’t we be looking within? Maybe we don’t have to understand eternity, we just have to realize that we’re a part of it, that every spot we take up in this world, we add to an endless lineage of creation. Maybe we were put in this galaxy of galaxies to make something more the way the stars became the more that turned into our blood, skin, and bones. Maybe we exist for the small things we do like jotting down those notes to construct knowledge out of brain matter or smiling at strangers to send anything from shivers to warmth down unfamiliar spines or breathing this recycled air to remind this world that we are still here. Maybe there is no question to be answered, no meaning to life, no profound truth that needs to be discovered. Maybe we are here only to die or we die because we were here maybe we are trespassers on a land meant for gods. Maybe we are the gods.

I don’t mean to offend but sometimes I just do some thinking. And maybe I shouldn’t because what if there is nothing to get out of it, only hemlock juice and migraines. But then again– maybe I should.
—  You asked me for an answer I could never give because this universe is too vast for definition 

anonymous asked:

Duma I was just wondering if you've seen some of the 'leaks' going on for Final Fantasy Versus 13? What do you think of some of the news of that going around?

I have!
Although the idea of some of the ones getting out are neat, I am just more than skeptical about almost all of them being posted.
There’s already been several “leaks” running around, and I know even a lot of them managed to get capped and pulled around tumblr, and there’s been a handful more that managed to avoid that before suddenly disappearing. And the big problem with that is there’s already been so many(almost too many), and a lot of them clash way to much with each other in what the story was about and what the characters were going to be like.
A lot of them say they’ll link up to proof and they just show where they took a picture of a word document that supposedly is the script of the story, or them putting up already dead links(while already claiming that the link was likely going to be that way later because Square would have had it removed, yet no matter how quickly you come into it doesn’t matter because it was already dead from the instant the post was up). And half of everybody is claiming to be a part of the staff or know someone that was on it and… frankly that sounds a lot like the big thing in the late-80s and 90s where everyone was claiming they had an uncle who worked for nintendo. So with the sheer amount there already has been it’s already hard to believe if one of them might even be true, and even harder to think one of them might be with more that comes out. Or at least for me it’s that way.

So really I’m just very skeptical of it all. The only way I am going to know for sure if any of them might just be right is either if Vs13 actually becomes a thing, and I have a copy in my hand, and it shows one of them for being absolutely right. Or if the impossible happens, Square invites me into it’s company and hands me out the storyline and such.

However I just want to say some of these “leaks” have been very interesting and really I wouldn’t mind playing the game if it happened to be one of several of these incarnations (I wouldn’t mind having one for most every incarnation actually)! A lot of them sound like they’d be fun to go through (even if a little heartbreaking still)

(@describingcolours I don’t know how to answer to comments and tumblr is weird, so I’m just going to do it like this >.<)

This is how I crocheted a kick-ass Jughead hat, so you too can make one and wear it with a ton of other aroace stuff!

Anyway, I only learned crocheting 1 ½ weeks ago, specifically to make this hat – and I did the hat by just putting it on my head after every row and checking. Which is why it is fitting at least me perfectly now. So yeah, I’m not exactly great and there was absolutely no plan involved, I’m just going to tell you what I did on the fly - best to look how to do these crochets up on YouTube, or better yet, somewhere else (not exactly a fan of YouTube right now).

I used a wool (yarn? I’m just going with wool) that worked with a 3.5 mm crocheting needle – also I needed two balls of wool for it. I’m not a native English speaker, so I hope I found all the right vocabulary for this…

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To all my fellow writers who have a writer’s crisis right now:

Don’t give up! Know that what you’re doing is appreciated and that someone out there loves your writing and would gladly die for more of it. 

I know exactly how you’re feeling. I was at the point myself, pretty often actually. I write since I’m … about 13 years old … and I know how cruel and discouraging it can be if you pour your heart into your fics and don’t get the feedback you sure as hell deserve for all the effort you put into it. 

We writers don’t have an easy standing here on tumblr. Consuming our works takes more time than consuming artwork. It can be incredibly hard and it hurts because if we upload our writing, even if we write what we ourselves would like to read, it’s meant to be shared. 

Please know that you’re doing great work and that it’s not your fault if your writing doesn’t get the attention it deserves. 

And someone out there - I bet they’re many! - loves what you’re doing. 

ALRIGHT, DEAR FOLLOWERS LISTEN TO ME PLEASE. It’s time for me to get some shits straight, unpopular opinions about over sensitive Tumblr. It’s long, but I WOULD REALLY LIKE IT IF YOU READ IT. It’s so very important.

1) TRIGGERS: 

Some triggers are absolutely delusional. For example: gifs, eye contact, food, cursing and much more… Excuse me, you’re on the fucking internet, gifs are part of this culture and have been there since 1987. Eye contact? What do you live in, a grotto? Food? Mc donald’s sitting in your country with its balls at every corner of your city. And good news, you have to eat FOOD every day. I first thought the system was good, like if you have phobias or this disease with the flashing lights that gets your body convulsing, but people are being way too sensitive. I have coulrophobia, phobia of clowns. I don’t want any of that shit near me, but you know, like yesterday a clown popped up at a tv program. I coped with it. It really scares me that YOU people who’re supposed to be already adults are this way. You’re probably already in the work industry, and it’s a world where you have to toughen up, my teacher (an amazing woman) always kept repeating me so. I also saw a South park episode, and it represented so well Tumblr’s community nowadays! Basically, there were people hiding in a transparent block, and this block represented their safe zone, and outside was a man who represented “reality” and that thus, the people inside the block weren’t letting reality enter the block, and so never face it. And last but not least, I had that one time someone asking me to tag videos, because apparently “you won’t know if there’s a jump scare in the end or something, and that’s very triggering to some people”. Well again here are some good news from queen obvious: jump scares are MEANT to scare you. The first one I saw was when I was nine years old, I cried, it was scary as fuck… But I’m here, safe and sound. 

2) ABOUT RP THEMES:

There was someone who once claimed that if you’re not a victim, you can’t rp certain themes. Like, if you’ve never been raped, you can’t rp rape RP. This is so… sad. So, if I want to rp incest for whatever reason, I have to fuck with my brother first? Absolutely not. I shouldn’t have the right or not to roleplay something based on my personal experiences. If I want to roleplay female with female fluff, do I have to become homosexual? Impossible.

3) UNDERAGE SMUT:

OOOOO WE’RE GOING ON A TOUCHY SUBJECT. It’s a slippery sloppy slide. Just as anyone would do his or her or their, whatever, coming out. I am telling you that I am 17. Exactly, one year away from hitting 18 years old if you went at least in primary school in your life, you can count. But I roleplay-ED and roleplay smut. Now before making that cringing face and going to talk to your buddies about how much of a liar I am, let me tell you some things. We all did it. For those who like to write this I mean. We all wrote some shitty one liners that went along the lines of: he puts his dick in her belly button and gives her a baby. Maybe it wasn’t that bad, but we sure all once were curious children, who had fun writing about these things. About the legality stuff now, more seriously. The police has other things to do than dealing with those affairs. If both rp partners agree to doing a fictional sex scene, then there’s no problem. You are not your character, you are simply depicting a scene. Now if your partner turns out to be a harasser, here you can do something, but otherwise if you agreed, you both will enjoy writing with each other, no? And how even would anyone even know your real age? Come on, we have no real proof that you are the age you claim to be. I find it strange that 99% of Tumblr blogs are directed by 18+ muns. No but honestly, please don’t be delusional and think about it. So underage writing gore with you is okay, hurting, torturing, guts everywhere, all of that is fine, but a breast touch and WHOOPS IT’S TABOO? Excuse my French (literally) but you’re an asshole. Now I can understand that you don’t feel comfortable, and in this case politely refuse to rp such things. That’s all. But as a matter of fact, I’ve seen so many adults unable to write smut correctly, things like: *moans, *sucks* and the likes.People need to do the difference between fiction and reality. If you want to draw, on a side note, DO IT. DRAW EVERYTHING YOU WANT, no matter how gross. I would rather have someone depicting abuse on a paper rather than relieving their rotten desires in reality. As I know that it sometimes help people. This does not mean that I condone it, far from it. I hate animal abuse, it’s truly the worst for me, but I’d rather have someone drawing a horrible thing rather than hurting a creature. Going to move on, because for personal reasons, this thing really disgust me and makes me sad.

4) ANON HATE:

HEY COWARD. YES YOU, WHO HIDES BEHIND A GREY FACE. GROW SOME BALLS HAH. I can’t fucking stand anon hate, Even if I had the whole world against me, I’d still face you and not go anonymous. That’s how you handle problems.FIN. Now if you decide to unfollow because boohoo, ha-hi-hoo, then do it I don’t mind it is your right. I will know who you are, and probably be disappointed, but apart from this, you can feel safe. I respect your choice to unfollow me if you decide to not enter reality with me.

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A month ago I thought it would be a neat idea to try and put together a little silly video that combined a few fcs fast forward a month later and I go back to the file and find it corrupted, that was yesterday. Today I present video mark 2 because I played catch up all of yesterday and pushed to get it finished because I’ve been wanting to show you for a while now.

I’d like to preface this with I could only work with what I could get my hands on since I lost a lot of my video files and fraps files too. Some of the clips might be lower quality than others but there wasn’t much I could do about that.

I’d also like to add that I couldn’t possibly fit every single person on here that I wanted to (but that’s just all the more reason to make another video, yes?)

There are a couple of off timings I’m not sure how that happened, somewhere between rendering and youtube and a few small mistakes here and there I’m not quite sure how to fix but you know what I’m happy with it. 

Whether you are in for a second or several or not at all know that I love you.

I love you all to pieces, DARP has become such a big part of my life, and you all have become a big part of my life. You are my friends and I just wanted to take the time to put something together because you mean the world to me and I can’t even begin to give back what you have given to me.

So without further ado, this video is dedicated to and staring

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Thank you for filling my dash and my life with such light.