i don't even care no one will notice this

  • Dazai: You're easier to mess around with than Kunikida and Atsushi!
  • Chuuya: Your... Associates, I take it?
  • Dazai: One time we went camping in the woods. I just left them out there. Nobody found them for like 5 days!
  • Dazai: I don't even think their families cared. Kinda sad really.
  • Chuuya: So... What you're saying is... if they disappeared... no one would notice.
When you’re all alone and it’s midnight and contemplate calling them to confess feelings that should never be said especially a year later, I think that’s when you know that you aren’t even halfway to the end
—  I don’t want this
Delinquent Rover Adventures 6
  • *pulling up into Arcadia
  • *Clarke running up to the rover but stopping short when she sees all the people in it
  • Bellamy: Hey, Clarke.
  • Clarke: Ummm Bell, I have a tiny little question. Who are all these people?
  • Bellamy: I've adopted 25 new kids.
  • Clarke: Are you crazy? We can't even keep track of the 7 that we have!
  • Bellamy: I couldn't leave them.
  • Clarke: You were only supposed to bring back our kids! Not pick up strays.
  • Bellamy: I'll take good care of them, I promise. I'll feed them, bathe them, and I'll even cuddle with the little one.
  • Clarke (looking unsure): Fine, but they're your responsibility.
  • Bellamy: Yay!
  • *Clarke looks around to do a headcount to make sure all her kids are back safely. She notices Monty's not there
  • Clarke: Bellamy. Did you forget something back at Farm Station by any chance?
  • Bellamy: No. Don't think so.
  • Clarke: Count your kids, Bell.
  • Bellamy: Well there's my 25 new ones. There's Harper, Bryan, Miller.... 😳 ....... Shit. I'll be right back.
  • Clarke: Yeah.
Anything for the Bakkoush siblings

Biology, and science in general, is very interesting to Sana. She likes learning how organisms work, she likes learning about the reasons why processes, things and begins are the way they are. She likes learning all that because it helps her make sense of the bigger picture. Sana loves that but what she doesn’t love is the pile of homework her Biology teacher always gives the class. Essays to write, experiments to do and pages over pages to read. Sana wonders if her biology teacher doesn’t know that she, and every other student, has other subjects to do work for.

Staring at her laptop she sighs and closes it. Sana thought having the house completely to herself, silent, would help her concentrate. Actually, it did. But she has been sitting at the kitchen table, completing task after task, for about three hours now. It’s about time to take a break. Her brain needs a rest. She gets up, stretches and walks over to the window to open it. Her mother had closed it before she left three and a half hours ago because she didn’t want Sana to get cold. The problem: the lack of fresh air gives Sana a headache and she was so invested in her work that she didn’t even realize it at first. Her eyes wander down the street, as far as she can look from her spot at the window. Now that she doesn’t drown in school work, her thoughts promptly go back to that one thing she can’t stop thinking about. Or better said, that one person. Especially the absence of noise, usually produced by Elias’ friends, reminds her of him. Pretty much every Saturday, for too long to remember when it started, her older brother and his friends spend their day here. Even before they started that whole YouTube thing.

The absence of noise helped her study better but when she’s not doing that, there is nothing to distract her from her thoughts about Yousef. Spending an entire evening with him, just talking and with that getting to know him more… The way they teased each other first, but then could talk about such an important topic to her and obviously to him too and how effortless the transition was. Yousef listened to her and she listened to him. None of them was judging the other even when they were of so opposing opinions. Sana doesn’t have conversations like that with many people; she barely ever has conversations like that with anyone. So her inability to stop thinking about him is partly due to yesterday evening.

While Sana is still deep in thoughts, contemplating how to deal with her situation and weighing the options in her head, the doorbell rings. Elias has probably forgotten his keys. He left in a bad mood after arguing with their mother and his keys probably weren’t the most important thing on his mind. Sana still wants and needs to talk to him but she also knows it’s better to give him space first.

Lazily she walks to the door and rubs her eye. One of the ups of not wearing make-up. All that studying has exhausted her.

Opening the door, Sana is greeted with a familiar face but not that of her brother.

“Hey.”, he says at the same time she does. Sana didn’t expect Yousef. He’s only here when her brother is.

“From the surprised look I assume that Elias didn’t tell you I’d be coming over?”, Yousef asks, a small smile on his lips, his eyes trained on Sana.

To recollect her thoughts she shakes her head and stands up a little straighter. Yousef is still standing outside, just standing there with his hands in the pockets of his black jacket. The one he wore yesterday too. “No,..”, Sana begins and is very aware of Yousef’s eyes on her. “He doesn’t need to tell me that.” Sana notices Yousef smile getting a little bit bigger and tries not to smile too much herself. “But Elias is not home.”, she concludes.

Apparently Yousef didn’t know. He wouldn’t be here if he did but his eyebrows shoot up in confusion.

“Oh, he texted me this morning to come over around 5 so I thought he’d be here.”, Yousef explains. Well, it was not up to Elias if he could spend the day at home.

Sana thinks about it for a second, in which Yousef presses his lips together and waits. When they talk, he never pushes her. He doesn’t make her feel like she has to be a certain way or act a certain way. Sana tells him:“Eh.. Mom was kind of mad at him for spending the night out and not telling her where he was.. so she made him go run every possible errand.”

Sana thinks that Yousef should know this because he was the one to save Elias from a bigger catastrophe and called Sana to find a solution. Sana still doesn’t know why Elias got drunk that bad and that so early but they haven’t had a chance to properly talk. Yousef looks worried for a second. Eyebrows furrowed, he bites his lip in concentration. Sana cannot help but to notice it and get distracted for a millisecond.

Yousef starts talking and Sana quickly averts her eyes. She hopes that he didn’t notice. Usually Sana is able to focus, not let herself get distracted but when it comes to Yousef, it’s a little different.

“O god, how did it go this morning? I only talked shortly to Elias. He only told me that he’s going home and to meet him here later.”, Yousef rambles. He has his right hand at his neck and his gaze is fixated on Sana. Never looking away.

Sana doesn’t know how much Yousef tries to look at her without her or anyone catching it. Yousef isn’t sure how successful his attempts were because he assumes Elias kind of suspects something but he can’t help it. As soon as Sana walks into the same room as him, his eyes find her immediately. She is beautiful, everybody knows that. With her make-up and without it, like right now. As Sana opened the door, Yousef directly noticed the difference. Usually, Sana wears dark make up, it’s part of the tough-girl facade she has built up for herself. Sure, she is tough. But at the same time, she can be so innocent and cute. And Yousef likes her either way. More than he should, she is his best friend’s little sister. But at this point, it’s too late. He knows that he won’t ever be able to see Sana as just his best friend’s sister.

Even when he’s always reminded of it. The topic of their conversation is Elias after all. Yousef realizes that he was so deep in thoughts, that he probably looked her in the eyes a little too long. No, Sana is looking at him like she was yesterday. Smiling but trying to contain it. Always trying to be in control of everything. But once in a while she forgets that, like right now. The longer they stand there, the bigger her smile gets. Her dimples show and Yousef feels the need to cup her cheek but refrains. He knows his limits, her boundaries.

Someone, one of the neighbors, slams their door which makes both Sana and Yousef jump. This bursts the small bubble they were in. They always seemed to be in, when they look at each other like this, expressing more with their eyes than with their words.

Again, Sana lightly shakes her head. That is something Yousef has seen more than once and she clears her throat.

“Mom..”, Sana starts talking and Yousef blinks a few times to concentrate on her words, “.. interrogated him and asked where he was and such. You can imagine.” Yousef nods, which Sana shortly mimics. It makes Yousef smile but Sana looks worried and the small smile on his lips vanishes.

Sana looks up at him again and hesitates a little, before finally saying:“He said he was at your house.” Yousef nods again. He assumed that that would be the excuse and is fine with it. “But mom said she saw you outside… with me.”

Unsure what he is supposed to say to that, Yousef waits. Yesterday, he couldn’t care less that Sana’s mother interrupted them. He would’ve loved talking to her longer but the day they spend together was more than he had imagined for him and Sana. Especially, after his confession and her reaction being not talking to him for a week. Yousef understood, didn’t like it, but understood. That she felt so comfortable around him yesterday made him happier than he wanted to admit to himself.

Sana smiles. It’s barely there. But it’s enough for Yousef to notice. “I just wanted to tell you. I don’t want you to get in trouble because of Elias and I.”, she thinks for a second, “In more trouble than you already got because of us.” The faintest smile on her lips is gone now, Sana frowns and Yousef’s hand itches to reach out and straighten that worry line in between her eyebrows.

“Don’t worry. I’ll be fine.”, Yousef says and smiles at Sana. She is back to avoiding his eyes and instinctively he tries to make their eyes meet. “Hey.”, he says smiling and hoping that she’d do the same. She looks at him again and irks an eyebrow at him. She presses her lips together and Yousef knows it’s because she tries not to give away too much of what she feels. Yousef waits a few seconds, in which Sana and he look at each other. It’s innocent and playful at the same time.

Finally, when she looks him in the eyes, Yousef says:“Anything for the Bakkoush siblings.”

Sana laughs a little at that. Yousef can’t help but grin at that. Making Sana smile is one of his favorite things. She’s always so tough, breaking that facade for even a second is pretty satisfying to Yousef.

“Hmm.”, is all Sana says at first, smiling and with her eyebrows raised.

“Hmm.”, Yousef mimics her and also raises his eyebrows.

“Anything, hm?”, Sana asks smiling widely. Her dimples make an appearance and Yousef looks at them and back into Sana’s eyes.

Yousef nods, his smile almost too wide to fit on his face:“Anything.”

If somebody didn’t close another door loudly, Sana and Yousef would have been standing there, smiling at each other for who knows how long. Again, they both jump at the loud sound and turn around at the same time, when Elias says:“Hey.”

He was the one that closed the main door and walks up the stairs. He stops next to Yousef who is still standing in the hallway outside of the apartment. Yousef didn’t even notice nor care about that.

“Why are you standing at the door?”, Elias asks and looks from his little sister to his best friend. Elias has too many bags in his hands to carry and Yousef and Sana go to take some from him at the same time. Elias smiles tiredly at both.

Sana answers:“Yousef came by like you two talked about.” Elias nods, Yousef observes the looks between the siblings and smiles to himself. Even if everything goes wrong, Sana has Elias and Elias has Sana.

Now, Sana opens the door more and lets the two boys in. Yousef smiles at her while passing her and then going straight to the kitchen to put down the bags.

Yes, he’ll do anything for the Bakkoush siblings. For Sana, he’ll stand at the door as long as necessary if it means that she is comfortable and he can talk to her.

50% OFF starters.
  • "You can't have sex with your neighbor's backyard above-ground pool."
  • "let me help you out of that swimsuit-- POOL."
  • "I sure hope we become best friends! but I don't hope we have a falling out, leading us to have a tense, emotion-heavy, dramatic, competitive, love/hate relationship later on."
  • "so anyways I regain consciousness, there's cops everywhere, (name) is covered in blood, got an icepick-- haha it was kind of a weird tuesday."
  • "we're gonna be late for anime school!"
  • "I'm just saying, is it illegal if I'm in my OWN pool?"
  • "WHAT'S UP SLUTS. GUESS WHO JUST GOT OUT OF PRISON!"
  • "(name) WAS A BITCH-ASS POSER."
  • "oh no, he's hot when he's sad!"
  • "this reminds me of prison. this reminds me of prison. this DEFINITELY reminds me of prison."
  • "look at that little pimp. he's gonna grow up to be a prison ass mothafucka."
  • "let's skip all the fluff and get to the part where we're shirtless."
  • "homeboy looks like shark week, I ain't messin' with that."
  • "It wasn't a dream! We got arrested for trespassing! We went to JAIL!"
  • "Nah, man, we went to holding. there's a big difference."
  • "Yeah now we owe Easter Dave a favor-- that is NOT a position you wanna be in."
  • "Wouldn't we have seen him around by now? I mean he is a bipedal shark-person."
  • "I'VE GOT MACE!"
  • "Was macing us really necessary AFTER you remembered who we were?!?"
  • "you took the fall for me and I said thank you."
  • "I went to jail!"
  • "I spent 6 months at a correctional facility!"
  • "I stabbed a girl in the yard!"
  • "I think that guard you killed had a family!"
  • "look at that majestic ass mothafucka. like a dolphin or some shit. a dolphin with legs... and arms... and a jetpack."
  • "BITCH GET IN THE POOL!"
  • "that's how they do it in Austrailia."
  • "20 bucks on jabber jaws."
  • "hey, man did you Tivo Glee last night?"
  • "I'm not allowed to watch Glee, my dad says it might turn me into something bad. A musical theater major."
  • "Neither one of them even died!"
  • "they won't let me back into sewing club because apparently when I threaten someone with sewing needles it's deemed 'inappropriate' and I 'have to leave'."
  • "I have to tumblr this!"
  • "a guy with emotional issues who swims away his problems? Lady, that's the whole team, you're gonna have to be more specific."
  • "I ship them! and them!"
  • "they hate each other, but they also fuck each other!"
  • "hey we try not to get this part of the gym wet so whatever you're doing is gonna have to stop."
  • "so do you wanna come back to my place, listen to some Dave Matthews and talk about my work out routine?"
  • "I wonder if that stuff I hid is still here? ...nah, cops probably took it."
  • "do you know? do you know for sure? Because I don't need another incident."
  • "If I get out of this chair I guarantee you'll end up in one with wheels."
  • "Ok. I'll admit, I'm a little threatened."
  • "'sup bitches!~"
  • "aren't you that guy who drowned a kid? and burned down that building?"
  • "get back to it before you learn a lesson in post-war, urban torture practices."
  • "Remember, snitches get stitches!"
  • "shut up you're high as balls!"
  • "you're just mad because mom and dad thought you were a girl for the first year of your life."
  • "right, son. and speaking of crushing disappointments-"
  • "coach tried to get me to vandalize a police station again."
  • "good thing I wore my Heelys."
  • "he's so hot but so crazy! which makes him even MORE hot!"
  • "Come on let me get those digits baby!"
  • "It should be illegal to be that fine!"
  • "oh just basic addition and subtraction. he was subtracting from my profits so I'm going to add a few extra holes in him."
  • "this doesn't seem like the time for polka-renditions of Ke$ha songs."
  • "I hate it when you leave but I love watching you go."
  • "Yeah I've seen him. He's in my scrapbook class. He cuts the eyes out of magazine photos."
  • "your arrest record is extensive... and amateur."
  • "the fact that you continue to avoid indefinite incarceration is insanityAND THE FACT THAT OUR LAW ENFORCEMENT CAN'T PUT AWAY SOMEONE WITH SUCH BLATANT DISREGARD FOR CONVENTIONAL CRIMINAL FUNCTION BAFFLES THE MIND."
  • "I want that boy to be my bride!"
  • "Pilates will do that man, works your core."
  • "what are we waiting for? let's go bro! let's gbro!"
  • "wow you sure said that."
  • "WOOP! WOOP! hold it, I'm gonna have to pull you over for exceeding recommended hotness."
  • "One time we went camping in the woods, I just left 'em there. Nobody found them for like 5 days. I don't even think their families cared, kinda sad, really."
  • "So, what you're saying is, if they disappeared, no one would notice?"
  • "well I've gotta go not talk to you anymore."
  • "I learned how to swim the old fashioned way. When I was five my dad took me out to a lake and tossed me right in the water."
  • "I'm so happy right now! --and it's not just cause I get to see you in a bunch of different swimsuits. Ok I lied, I'm sorry, that's mostly the reason."
  • "SHE'S A WITCH! PUSH HER IN THE POOL!"
  • "hey I know you! You helped me smuggle some stuff out of the country! How've you been kid?"
what the strings think during a concert
  • first violins: don't mess up don't get lost don't mess up don't mess up don't get lost don't mess up don't get lost don't mess up don't mess up don't mess up don't get lost don't mess up oh darn I just played a c sharp where there a c natural shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit
  • second violins: oh dear we're lost and now everyone is just playing quietly. maybe if the conductor actually FKCUING LOOKED AT US DURING REHEARSAL WE WOULDN'T HAVE THIS PROBLEM.
  • violas: if we just got up and left right now, would anyone notice? like, seriously. if we left one by one, starting from the last stand, would anyone notice? would anyone care? if they did notice, would they even try to stop us? I don't think so.
  • cellos: HI MOM okay this is serious business. um pah pah um pah pah um pah pah um pah pah. serious business. woah the conductor just pointed at us. what does that mean? does he want more cello? more um and less pah? probably that. UM pah pah UM pah pah UM pah pah. srs bsnss
  • bass: it's been five minutes and the conductor still hasn't noticed that I've been on my phone the entire time. six minutes. are any of us still playing? I guess it doesn't really matter, considering we always have the same part as the cellos anyway.
I PAINT MY NAILS WHILE I EAT
  • Cashier: This sucks!
  • Other Cashier: *yawns* What sucks?
  • Cashier: This job. I'm so bored. Why can't we just leave?
  • Other Cashier: We've only got two more hours left.
  • Cashier: Yeah, but no one is going to come in. No one shops here. Let's stop pretending that this place is profitable and go home and do important things like sleeping or masturbating.
  • Other Cashier: I mean, you can masturbate in the back room and no one will notice.
  • Cashier: I know, but it's comfier at home.
  • Other Cashier: I get what you're saying, though.
  • Cashier: About masturbating?
  • Other Cashier: No, about going home. I'd do it, but I'm too big of a fan of making money.
  • Cashier: I don't care about money. It's not like my money goes to anything important. I'm pretty against money. I'm a libertarian.
  • Other Cashier: Libertarians love money, dude.
  • Cashier: Oh. What were the names of the one's who hate money?
  • Other Cashier: Commies?
  • Cashier: Yeah, I'm a commie! Fuck money! Everything should be free! ...What does commie even mean?
  • Other Cashier: *shrugs* I don't know. Probably short for something.
  • Cashier: Is it like a race of people or something?
  • Other Cashier: I think so. I hope it's not some sort of ethnic slur.
  • Cashier: I think I'm going to stop calling myself a c*mmie just in case.
  • Other Cashier: Yeah, that's a good idea.
  • *doors slides open*
  • Cashier: Did you see that?
  • Other Cashier: The doors?
  • Cashier: No, the 30% off beauty supplies sign. Of course the doors, dude! They just opened by themselves.
  • *doors slide closed*
  • Cashier: Omigod! That's so creepy. *tugs other cashier's shirt* Isn't that so creepy?
  • Other Cashier: Iunno. Not a big deal to me. Maybe they like malfunctioned or something. It happens.
  • Cashier: Yeah, but you don't think it's suspicious that they malfunctioned when we're in here alone?
  • Other Cashier: Not really, dude. I mean, if they were gonna malfunction, they were gonna do so whether or not anyone was here.
  • Cashier: I guess that makes sense... Hey, that reminds me of this creepy thought I had.
  • Other Cashier: Yeah?
  • Cashier: You remember Mary Kate & Ashley.
  • Other Cashier: The twins?
  • Cashier: No, the other Mary Kate & Ashley.
  • Other Cashier: There was another set of Mary Kate & Ashleys!?
  • Cashier: No, dummy. I was talking about the twins.
  • Other Cashier: Then why did you say there were another set of them?
  • Cashier: I was messing with you.
  • Other Cashier: That's a dumb way of messing with someone.
  • Cashier: Well, you can be really dumb sometimes?
  • Other Cashier: I'm dumb? Aren't you the one who's a commie.
  • Cashier: Don't say c*mmie when it's probably a slur!
  • Other Cashier: *covers mouth* Forgot, sorry dude. Anyway, what were you going to say about Mary Kate & Ashley.
  • Cashier: I don't know, probably something made up and dumb. They're both dead anyway, so who cares.
  • Other Cashier: They died?
  • Cashier: Probably. I mean have you heard anything about them in the last few years?
  • Other Cashier: Nope. I guess they are dead then.
  • *glass shattering*
  • Cashier: Eep! What the hell was that!?
  • Other Cashier: Sounds like it came from the beauty supplies section.
  • Cashier: That's the most isolated part of the store. What if it's like... I don't know a fucking spirit or something?
  • Other Cashier: Spirits aren't real.
  • Cashier: So you think we just go nowhere when we die?
  • Other Cashier: No, like, dead spirits are real. But, like, ghost spirits aren't? Dead spirits probably want to go to heaven instead of sticking around the flesh zone.
  • Cashier: But what if they're going to hell soon? I'd rather haunt a shitty store than go to hell!
  • Other Cashier: We're not supposed to talk about religion at work, dude. Listen, I'm going to check out what broke. You just sit here and twiddle your thumbs or whatever. *walks off*
  • Cashier: Alright, be safe. *twiddle, twiddle, twiddle*
  • Cashier: *looks up at clock* Holy shit! There's only five minutes before my shift ends. Twiddling your thumb wastes so much time. But, my co-worker hasn't come back yet. God, this is bad. No. Stop being paranoid. It's probably nothing. They probably cleaned up whatever broke and went home early. But, that means I have to close this place myself. Shit. I hate closing by myself. It's so creepy.
  • *glass shatters*
  • *a groan comes from within the store*
  • Cashier: *sweats and glances up at the clock* Wow, still five minutes left until my shift ends. Time really does slow down when you're paying attention.
  • *another louder groan*
  • Cashier: Haha, look at the time. Still five minutes left. Every second feels like an hour when you're as hard a worker as I am. *sweats harder* I guess there's nothing wrong with calling it in early, right? That's what being a c*mmie all about. Leaving work whenever you want. Worker's rights and such. It's not in my job description to deal with whatever the fuck is probably in the back of the store. I mean. I'm just a cashier. *shuts off lights and locks up the store* My co-worker probably went out the back anyway. Yeah, that's it. Everything's cool. I'm not doing anything wrong.
  • Cashier: *walks off into the night* I can't wait to go home and have a completely normal night not at all bothered by whatever unseen events just transpired.
  • *the doors to the store are slowly forced open*
  • *hundreds of tiny maggots squirm out in the direction of the cashier*
Lucas/Maya One Shot...Kinda
  • Setting: Outside Topanga's. Lucas enters store, sees Josh with mystery girl in booth, talking close and laughing together, backs to the door. Lucas turns around and stops Maya short in her tracks:
  • Lucas(dodging and blocking her as she tries to look/get past him): Hey! Hey. Hey Hi. How are you?
  • Maya (Confused, annoyed): I’m…fine? I’ll be better once I get my smoothie though, so if you’ll just kindly move out of my way-
  • Lucas (Physically blocking her again, coaxing her like a child): -Orrrr maybe we could go get ice cream. You like ice cream, right? Yea? Come on, you know you do….mint chip? Chocolate? Strawberry with fudge? Isn't that your favorite? Great so let’s go then-
  • Maya(Increasingly annoyed): No-get off me Huckleberry I don’t want ice cream, I want a smoothie. “Lets go get a smoothie” means let’s get a smoothie not let’s get to the place where they sell the smoothies then decide to go get ice cream.
  • : Gives him strange look as she passes:
  • You are SUCH a freak sometimes…
  • Lucas(to himself): Nobody ever listens to the freak.
  • : Lucas follows Maya inside
  • Maya (Has spotted Josh, stopped short): Oh. So that’s why you didn’t want me to come in.
  • : Maya turns and walks back outside, Lucas follows:
  • Lucas: Maya, I…
  • Maya (Shaking her head): You know what? It’s fine.. We said the long game, didn’t we? We never said right now. If he want’s to…talk with someone else then that’s just part of the deal we made. It doesn’t mean anything changes between us, right?
  • Lucas: I-I don't know...
  • Maya (tearing up, desperately): No I’m right Lucas, say I’m right... You’re Mr. Moral Compass you know the difference between right and wrong, tell me that it’s fine he’s in there with some other girl and that it doesn’t change anything.
  • Lucas (Beat): …Okay. It doesn’t change anything then.
  • Maya (Wiping tears, fake chuckling): Great. So…How about ice cream?
  • Lucas (Looking back into Topanga's): Sure. Good idea. Just… give me a sec, OK?
  • Maya: You’re not gonna try and be a hero are you, cowboy? Because he’s obviously…busy and I don’t need to go bothering him-
  • Lucas: -I just need to use the little boys room, is that allowed?
  • Maya: …Oh. Ok. Gross.
  • : Maya exits up stairs:
  • : Lucas enters, taps shoulder of Josh:
  • Josh: …Lucas? Uh, hi, whats up man, how’s it going-
  • Lucas: -How could you do this?
  • Josh: Do what?
  • Lucas(gesturing at Josh and girl): This, how could you possibly do this to Maya?
  • Josh(Gesturing towards girl): Dude!
  • : Josh gets up and pulls Lucas aside:
  • Maya and I had an understanding-
  • Lucas: Yea? Did your understanding include her coming in here to see you sitting with another girl, again, and then go running out of here crying...AGAIN?
  • Josh: I...I didn’t know she would be here-
  • Lucas: -You didn’t know she would show up at a place she goes almost every day after school?
  • Josh: Well I didn’t think-
  • Lucas: -You didn't think.
  • Josh: Ok hey, wait a second, that's not very fair. I TOLD Maya she should focus on the now, that we both needed to live our lives.
  • Lucas: Do you think that makes any kind of difference when she walks in here and sees something like this?
  • Josh: It wasn’t like I was trying to hurt her. It was an honest mistake-but you know, Mr. Western Hero, you sure are getting pretty heated about something that isn't really your concern.
  • : Maya enters, standing watching, Lucas and Josh don't notice:
  • Lucas: Except it does concern me. Because I care about Maya…a LOT. She's one of my best friends and the most selfless person I know. She would do anything to make the people she loves happy and she deserves someone who can give that back to her.
  • Josh: I want to see her happy.
  • Lucas: Do you? Cause if I were you I would-
  • Josh: But you're not me.
  • Lucas: Nope. I'm not.
  • : Stares at ground, long beat, thinking/hesitating, launches into speech:
  • Do you even see the real her? Or really know her at all? How unbelievably beautiful, creative, and funny she is? Not to mention brave? Do you? Because if you don’t Josh? Walk away. Walk away now. Maya doesn’t need any more reasons to feel broken. And she definitely doesn’t need to get caught up in waiting around for some guy who isn’t going to take her feelings seriously. She needs someone who is going to appreciate how special she is.
  • Josh: And who is that someone supposed to be? You, Lucas? That person is supposed to be you?
  • Lucas: I didn’t say that-
  • Josh: -You CHOSE Riley. Not Maya. Riley. Or do you not remember that?
  • Lucas: Of course I remember, but that doesn’t mean-
  • Josh: -That you don’t like her?
  • Lucas: This isn’t about me this is about Maya-
  • Josh: -Oh no I think this is definitely about you too, man. You still like her…You still like her a lot.
  • : Lucas stares at Josh, they don’t break gaze:
  • Lucas (Gets serious, close to Joshs face, quietly and fiercely): All I know, is that if I see her cry over you one more time, I might have to ruin the reputation I’ve worked so hard to get around here. And I’d rather not do that. So how about you just do whatever it takes to fix this and save us all the trouble.
  • : Josh looks past Lucas, sees Maya. Lucas catches his gaze, turns around to see Maya there:
  • Maya: Lucas…I-
  • : Lucas gives one last glare at Josh, storms out past Maya. Maya stares in disbelief for a second, then follows him out:
  • Maya: Lucas!
  • : Lucas turns around on the stairs:
  • Maya: ….Thank you? What you said, I mean, I didn't think you-
  • Lucas(Shrugging): Don't mention it. It was nothing.
  • : Lucas exits:
  • Maya(to herself, confused): It was definitely something.

anonymous asked:

how did you get people to notice your art? whenever i post mine i get 0 notes even if i tag it :(

aaah i didn’t really do anything special? >o<;; i just posted art and tagged it ;; there was a point where one of my works got noticed and reblogged by a rather popular blog, so that definitely helped! I think you should also think about timing! There are certain times when there are more people online, for example. And while making art for a currently popular series/character/show/etc would probably make your chances of getting noticed higher, the best advice I could give you is to draw what you’re invested in! I made my one blog just to have a place to put art for ships that I was really into back then, not really thinking too much on getting lots of notes or anything (i actually expected i wouldn’t get any, and i didn’t for a long while), and I was pretty happy just to be able to have fun!! To be completely honest I found the most success in making art for things that I really wanted to draw (as you can see by my sometimes random, multi-fandom scattered-ness), because most of the time it shows in art how much someone likes something! And that kind of thing is what can really draw people in! It doesn’t even have to be incredible technical skill, but sometimes the content that makes people really notice something and want to share with others! 

There’s really no One True Way to get noticed really,, and gaining followers or a bunch of notes definitely doesn’t happen overnight or that easily. If you asked me, it takes a lot of luck, perseverance & determination, and just really liking what you do!

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Jake/Ryan + touch

anonymous asked:

Why is NCT 127 even coming back when NCT U exist???? They're the better unit and it has Ten in it and ten is honestly the most talented and popular member out all of them so I dont why sm is promoting the other members over him. Maybe 127 wouldn't have flopped so badly if he was in it, I mean have you noticed no one really likes them

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February Horoscopes!
  • Aries: Your sexual side has been on a rise lately Aries, this is a good thing! You may not even notice that you've been feeling some type of way, everyone gets this way in some point in their life. This is a excellent month for you to explore your sexual side and build chemistry with a certain someone, if you already have a chemistry with someone then now is the time to have a talk with them about your venereal fantasies and make them come true.
  • Taurus: You are so loyal Taurus, even in the most problematic situations with somebody who may have stabbed you in the back. Very soon that is going to happen to you, it may not be tomorrow, next week, or the week after that but it is bound to happen. You are such a strong person, and your ego is huge! Don't let anyone mess with you or they may get the horns.
  • Gemini: You're going to feel really content this month Gemini, you feel relaxed and balanced. With Valentines day coming up be sure to be extra romantic and woo your way into their heart because thats what you do best Gemini. You have such a strong communication and thought process that you can easily persuade anyone and woo them with your wise word choice. But be careful, don't abuse this power or else it'll come back to bite you in the long run!
  • Cancer: You're going to make so many new connections this month Cancer, even strengthened your current ones. There may be some days where you feel like you can't handle whatever stress that may occur in your personal life but ignore that negativity, if you ever feel negative energy thats overwhelming you I recommend meditating and clearing all of it out. If you're not into that, then take frequent long baths this month and light a candle and clear your mind. If you hadn't notice Cancer, but every time any part of your physical body is touching water your mood stabilizes and your suddenly mellow after a few minutes you may not even realize it.
  • Leo: Your personal love life has been confusing for you Leo, you don't know what you want. This month will focus on your affection for others, at times you can be insensitive and you don't even realize it, if you are in a relationship or talking to anyone be careful what you say to them Leo because the outcome will not be so good. If you have your eyes set on anyone ask them out on a date and see where it leads, this may sound cliché, but love is in the air.
  • Virgo: A certain someone has been on your mind a lot Virgo, you don't know why? You're aching for this person, don't be shy to confront them about how you feel Virgo. If you do end up confronting them about your unknown feelings lately and it doesn't turn out the way you hoped it would, don't worry because this world is full of so many possibilities. Each action you make has a consequence wether its for the good or bad, every choice you or any person makes in life has a outcome.
  • Libra: You're going to be such a little sweetheart this month Libra, and your fashion taste is going to sky rocket off the charts to the point where people compliment you on the clothes you are wearing. If you ever feel down this month Libra suck it up because a sweetheart like you shouldn't be down in the dumps over someone/something
  • Scorpio: You're either Mad/Angry/Sad/ or just Neutral Scorpio. BUT, this month there is no time for anger or neutralness! You're going to feel so giddy for most part every day and you're going to appreciate the little things about each person in your life. If you are in a relationship try not to over compliment your lover or they may feel uncomfortable, if you are single then you should most definitely go out and get to know other people. If you do decide to do this, a potential love interest will soon be coming your way!!!
  • Sagittarius: I know sometimes you say things without thinking but its alright, a lot of us make the same mistake Sagittarius. You should focus on your dreams, you may have been having strange vivid dreams lately. Take this as a sign of some sort Sagittarius, keep a dream journal and try to record every detail in your dreams this month, it may give you a prediction of your future.
  • Capricorn: Don't take everything so serious Capricorn, loosen up a bit and relax! Your defensive systems have been up but now is the time to take them down just a notch, and just take whatever is coming your way hit you. If you ever feel like its too much you can always put your defensives back up Capricorn. A certain someone may have been aggravating you lately and is ticking off your extreme emotions, if this is ever the case make sure to tell them to stop making you feel this way and you want it to end.
  • Aquarius: You feel so free Aquarius like a bird soaring its wings through the clear blue sky, you can't explain why you feel this way. Even birds have to come to a stop at some point when it comes to flying right? Why don't you go out more often and appreciate the beautiful things in this world even though us humans are making it a bad place, also you should try having more discussions about certain things Aquarius because I know at some point you don't even know what to say. So don't feel shy, let all your thoughts roam out of your mouth and into the ears of others.
  • Pisces: A person from the past has entered your life again Pisces, this person has been on your mind constantly now. Why is that? They have this sexual attraction to them that just calls you closer, but be sure of your feelings Pisces because it might not even be a person thats back in your life but now perhaps a new and fresh face or even a close friend. If you are in a relationship at the moment your sexual side is going to be flipped on majority of the time so be prepared if you're ever feeling... Ya know.

If England players cared about international football as much as Bale does for Wales, we’d be one of the best teams in the world. Maybe not just caring but they all just look tired and as if they lose all creativity and hope when they play for England. Maybe it’s a little to do with the fans not being as enthusiastic or maybe even to do with there not being enough pressure on them; we always expect England to fail. Maybe the fans should try and expect England to do well then that will reflect onto the England players? This post won’t go anywhere or do anything but even if a few of us are positive, it might grow. Be positive for England football :)

Priorities!
  • Junichirou: [looking at his phone] Now that's a silly question.
  • Kunikida: What question?
  • Junichirou: If all of your friends are drowning, who would you save first?
  • Kunikida: I don't think that's silly.
  • Junichirou: Okay. If us, all your coworkers are drowning, who would you save Kunikida-san?
  • Kunikida: I-
  • Dazai: [butts into the convo uninvited] Of course he'd save me!
  • Kunikida: No. I-
  • Edogawa: I'd save myself!
  • Kunikida: Actually I-
  • Junichirou: You got the question wrong, Rampo-san.
  • Edogawa: Then I'd be having ice cream while watching y'all drown.
  • Kunikida: Wai-
  • Dazai: I'd save Atsushi-kun! So he can get me out of painful death situations when no one else will!
  • Atsushi: I don't think that makes me happy at all..
  • Kyouka: Then I'd save Atsushi too. My reasons are different of course.
  • Atsushi:
  • Kunikida: Guys list-
  • Naomi: I'll save my dear brother of course! [gets uncomfortably close to Junichirou]
  • Yosano: I'll save Edogawa. The others know swimming but he is too lazy to swim.
  • Edogawa: Awww.
  • Yosano: That wasn't a compliment.
  • Kunikida: I do-
  • Kenji: I'd save all the food that might be drowning!( ゚▽゚)/
  • Junichirou: [sweatdrops] There's no food. And it's a hypothetical question so no one knows swimming.
  • Yosano: [shrugs] I'd still save him.
  • Kunikida: Why won't anyone lis-
  • Dazai: No one needs to save me! It will be a good opportunity to die!
  • Edogawa: No one will, even if you want them to.
  • Kyouka: I'd save Atsushi.
  • Edogawa: We heard you the first time. And you really don't have to go through the effort.
  • [Everyone too engrossed in the conversation to notice anything else]
  • Atsushi: [notices an awful dark aura coming from a corner]
  • Kunikida: [sulking & murmuring to himself] No one cares about me. No one cares about my opinion. No one cares about me. No one cares abou-
  • Atsushi: ...I think it's too late to realize that, Kunikida-san.
loneliness

yknow when you see people in real life or online bein great pals and having so much fun a nd laughing together and doing all these things without you and being so public about it and ur kinda like well no one cares about me and i’m a failure and a disappointment and they probably wouldn’t notice if i just died yep 100% and it just feels like they don’t care even though they do care and you know they do, it just hurts more than it should and i’m not sure why and i should be posting this on my other account no one knows about but i’m not i hope i don’t annoy any of you i’m sorry

anonymous asked:

I think I scare people when I stim. I'm a pretty big dude and stim by rocking most of the time. It's kind of weird when people look at me weird or ask if I'm okay because I don't even notice most of the time :/

I’m sorry to hear that you have to deal with that.

Advice on handling it

If you want, you can accommodate others by looking more approachable (i.e., nonthreatening). There’s a common “big guy who’s a total softie” trope, and a warm smile or nice outfit can help send this message. However, this isn’t necessary; you should only do it if you personally want to.

Consider developing a repertoire of stims, so that you can choose different ones based on your desires and how much you may or may not care about how others view you.

  • Swaying from side to side (consider wearing headphones too; they’ll just think you’re really enjoying your music, which could be true!)
  • Playing with a stim toy, like a tangle or slinky
  • Finger-flicking or -tapping
  • Wearing a deep pressure vest

If you notice other people looking uncomfortable or worried about you, turn your head towards them and give them a smile. You can also tilt your head to the side a little and close your eyes while you smile (thus avoiding eye contact while still looking friendly). This looks like a friendly-acknowledgement-smile, and won’t be misinterpreted as an invitation to talk.

Smiling can also be a good response to rude people sometimes. It surprises them and reminds them that you are a person who has feelings.

Consider giving a smile as an automatic response to people who seem confused by your stimming.

Also: if you’re rocking a lot, it suggests that you’re either (a) overwhelmed or (b) not getting enough activity to fulfill your sensory needs. Stimming is a way of filling a need, so if you’re stimming a ton, it’s good to figure out why you are needing to do so.

Things to remember

There is no size limit on stimming in public. Big guys are allowed to do it too! Stimming is a great thing, for people of all genders, heights, and weights.

If other people don’t understand this, it isn’t your fault. You aren’t hurting anyone by rocking in public.

Being neurodivergent in a neurotypical world can be hard sometimes. It’s okay to feel confused, frustrated, or upset sometimes. You face problems that other people don’t have to deal with, and you’re strong for handling them.

I hope you have a wonderful day, with a perfect temperature, a nice breeze, and your favorite music in your headphones.

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(( Okay guys, I didn’t say anything since now but it is kinda really submerging my dashboard. 

GUYS. DON’T TALK ABOUT SUICIDE SO EASILY. PLEASE DON’T. 

I don’t know if some of you just want to have some attention from people ivl and in reality you don’t attend to do it at all. Tbh, it doesn’t matter. I know that life can be hard sometimes, but the suicide isn’t the SOLUTION.

Hey, you only has ONE LIFE

It is okay to be weak, it is okay to cry, it is okay to want people to care about you time to time. It is okay. 

But you need to be STRONG too. 

Why? 

Because if you look carefully around you, you will realize that there is a beautiful world out there, not perfect but pretty in its own way. 

You will realize that there are people who really CARES about you out there. Some people love you deeply but don’t show it quite often. 

You will realize that if you do it, you won’t be able to come back ever again. 

You know what will happen after you do it?

Someone who treasures you will find you corpse, they will call the ambulance while crying, as you will be carried to the hospital, they will pray for your safety, believing that there is still a chance that you will be still alive. But no, the path of the life ends here for you. Your death won’t resolve anything, it’ll make people who care about you cry and sadness will overwhelm them. They will live along with this burden in their heart. Always thinking 

“I could save them. If only I could… They will still be there today…”

You know what is there after death? Your dreams, your future, EVERYTHING will end if you die. Only darkness will stay. 

It is okay to rely on other people, it is okay to ask for help

No one is going to blame you. Just do it. Don’t wait someone to reach out their hand for you, sometimes you need to do the first step. 

And everything will change. I believe in you.

Pillows

ao3 link, part 1 → 1.6k

Soulmates AU where people are born with a tattoo of the first words they hear their soulmate say + deaf!cas & nerd!dean

Castiel didn’t put much stock into soulmates. He couldn’t fathom why such a plethora of people would rely so heavily on the concept. The tattoos appear from who knows where, laying stagnant on your arm, and, yet, everyone is so apt to become a slave to the string of words. Sure, it’d be nice to find someone with compatibility guaranteed, but c'mon. It couldn’t be all that it’s cracked up to be. Maybe he was bitter because he grew up without a mark, or maybe because he couldn’t hear his soulmate, even if he had one.

Maybe the grass is green, and the sky is blue, he thought.

He knew he didn’t have a tattoo-couldn’t, really-because listening to his soulmate’s voice just wasn’t in the cards for him. It would have been so much easier if the markings had been, like, a picture of his match, or something. And if money sprouted from sighs, we’d all be millionaires.

Instead, this strange system targeted his weakness and turned him into even more of an outsider than he already was. He would never know the first words his soulmate said to him. He was stuck just making do with a guess and hope. Even if he didn’t wholeheartedly believe in the idea, he secretly wished he knew what the fuss was all about. At night, in the quiet of his room, he would imagine what his tattoo would say, or act out scenarios of his first meeting with his soulmate. The wonder and eventual satisfaction must feel like flying, or maybe falling. These bouts usually ended in puffy eyes and broken glass.

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I just realized while I have friends, I don’t really have close friends who worry about me or miss me? Like no one ever sends me “I miss you” “I hope you’re okay” or messages like that, most friends don’t initiate a conversation with me, like I know I have friends but like, no off them actually care I had an eye surgery? wondering how I’m doing? Like, how unimportant I am to my friends? How little I matter to them?. One day I’ll be gone and none of them will even notice.