i don't even care if people tell me it's wrong

the signs as Parks and Rec quotes
  • Aries: Jogging is the worst! I know it keeps you healthy, but God, at what cost?
  • Taurus: Oh, my God. These dogs are so cute. I WANT TO THROW UP AND KILL MYSELF.
  • Gemini: I think that Comic Sans always screams 'fun'.
  • Cancer: I don't even have time to tell you how wrong you are. Actually, it's gonna bug me if I don't.
  • Leo: I have no idea what I'm doing, but I know I'm doing it really, really well.
  • Virgo: Everything in my life is going wrong right now. Whose fault is this? I demand to know.
  • Libra: I'm not interested in caring about people.
  • Scorpio: Ugh. I hate talking to people about things. This is a nightmare.
  • Sagittarius: No, no. That's too much responsibility for me. I gotta— I gotta find a way out of this.
  • Capricorn: Yes. I am a hunter, and it's 'You' season.
  • Aquarius: My anxiety has kept me up for over fifty hours.
  • Pisces: I'm hungry and my legs are tired. It feels like I just exercised!

anonymous asked:

You are a bit of a dick. I get that you have the right to reply like that, but jeez. Some of the replies you give are kinda rude and out of place. You can keep doing your thing if you want to. I can't really stop you, but damn. You tear down anyone who even tries to argue with you. It's suspicious that you vehemently deny that what you do is wrong and just push down anyone who opposes your point of view. Why do you do this? I don't know. Just seems a little ignorant.

Wtf is with all the anon hate lately? 💁🏻look people: if you don’t like what I do or how I react to people being assholes to me THEN GO AWAY. Idk why you feel the need to tell me you think I’m rude? You think that, GREAT! Now go away, because I really don’t care.

I think I’m getting these because as women we’re taught to just sit and be nice and turn the other cheek if someone’s a jerk. Don’t call them on their shit. Just let them treat you like shit and sit and smile and take it, because why react? Like fuck that, you guys are so sad because I may hurt some fuckboys feelings.. that same fuckboy who tells me I’m nothing but fuckmeat anyway after I politely decline their advances? The same fuckboys who say “fuck you” when I simply say “not interested” or start insulting my appearance and calling me fat… you think I should just be sweet and nice and cater to their poor fragile feelings?!? 😂😂🖕🏼FUCK THAT AND FUCK YOU.

And why do I keep denying I’m doing anything wrong?? Because I’m not, dumbass. 🙄 again, I am very nice and kind in my initial rejection of someone. But if they’re going to try to act all high and mighty and try to bring me down because of if, I’m not just going to roll over and take it. 🙄🖕🏼 no one should. These guys need to be told what they’re doing and how they’re acting is wrong or they’ll think it’s perfectly fine. I say nothing unusually cruel to them, unlike many other people I NEVER EVER use penis size as an insult, I never insult anyone’s appearance or anything they can’t change. What I do is call them out on their BEHAVIOUR. I seriously don’t know why you people have such a stick up your ass about it. Oh no a woman isn’t letting a man walk all over her! Better send some cowardly anon hate.
Going to take my anon off because this is just stupid, if you’re going to be sending me bullshit like this at least have the guts to stand behind it.

Misc. {Sentence Starters}
  • "Okay, I don't think you should be eating that."
  • "Hold on for a second! Didn't you hear that?"
  • "I’d rather not be seen with you, if I can avoid it."
  • "I can't believe I choose to hang out with you!"
  • "Would it be weird if I kissed you right now?"
  • "I'm thinking we should go out and grab a bite to eat, sometime."
  • "Have you ever cried because you were so happy?"
  • "That might have been illegal. We should leave."
  • "You might be just a little obsessed with this, don't you think?"
  • "Do you sleep with a stuffed animal?"
  • "All my best memories involve you!"
  • "Why don't we head out and grab a drink together?"
  • "Please, come back. I'm sorry for everything."
  • "You look like you've had a tough day. What's up?"
  • "I'm really craving ice cream. Are you craving ice cream?"
  • "You know, I meant that as a compliment."
  • "You won’t catch me complaining about an offer like that!"
  • "Okay, I admit it. Maybe I wasn't as nice as I should have been."
  • "I need you to be strong. I can't do this alone."
  • "How do I know you won’t use this against me?"
  • "Where'd you get that black eye? Were you fighting somebody?"
  • "We should run! Or at least hide!"
  • "I don't know why I'm scared. I've been here before."
  • "Okay. Maybe a little help would be nice."
  • "You're telling me you haven't haven't watched _____, yet? We need to fix this!"
  • "Okay, I love you, is that so wrong?"
  • "Why the hell are you dressed like a chicken?"
  • "I am literally going though hell. Do you even care?"
  • "You just startled me is all. What were you doing?"
  • "People seem to trust me really easily. Probably not a good idea."
  • "I want to apologize. I've really been acting like a jerk."
  • "Well, if I'm angry, it's your fault!"
  • "Lately, you've been working too hard."

anonymous asked:

Feel free to ignore this message if it's too personal or something you don't want to answer! I'm writing a story that has a character with BPD. I've been researching for a while and I was just wondering if you could lend me some insight as someone who does have it/anything you see often and would like to NOT see,ever, or alternatively things you don't see often enough

Hey! So, BPD confusingly stands for Borderline Personality Disorder, which I do not have. So I can’t speak to that. But since bipolar disorder has the same letters, and I DO have that, I’m thinking it’s what you mean. And nah, I don’t mind. I mean, maybe if I had read someone talking about it it would have taken me LESS THAN THIRTY ONE YEARS AND A NERVOUS BREAKDOWN TO FIGURE OUT I HAD IT. 

Okay so first off bipolar is a diagnosis, but like most diagnoses, it is simply a collection of a symptoms, which can be widely varied among people who are diagnosed. So I would HIGHLY recommend you look at the bipolar subreddit or other message boards, so you can see the wide variety of experiences people with bipolar disorder have. They’re not all me. 

But here are some oversimplified things:

  1. Bipolar disorder has two parts. Depression and mania. Though depression lasts longer, mania is where people often get diagnosed because people make terrible life-ruining decisions then. No one ever writes about mania. So I’m gonna focus on that, since depression in bipolar is in most ways similar to major depression. I think. Well it’s the only kind I’ve ever had so I don’t know for certain. But MANIA is what fic writers just ignore. 
  2. Mania has a few standard symptoms - not eating very much, not sleeping very much,and not very aware of the consequences of your actions. Grandiose thoughts are also present. It also can include hypersexuality, excessive spending, and starting one or multiple projects. People cheat on their spouses, spend all their money, and quit their jobs to do something they think is suddenly worth it. I personally wrote a resignation letter to my dean in January because I felt that I could live off of my fanfiction “career.” Thank god my department head didn’t let me deliver it.
  3. Within those standard symptoms, mania has two flavors and a spectrum of intensity. Euphoric mania is the kind most people think of, where you’re doing wild happy things, getting stuff done, writing a novel in a week, whatever. Dysphoric is the kind of mania where at it’s most intense you’re terrified that everyone is out to kill you. Your excited energy is terrified shuddering, and it is hell because you can never sleep and escape. You can jump among these and depression in rapid cycling (though psychiatrists are not in agreement whether or not rc is real). 
  4. The intensity starts at hypomania, where although you have the elevated mood, elevated energy, little sleep, little eating, you’re somewhat aware of your actions and what they can do. You are more capable of reigning yourself in. On the far opposite end, full blown mania is the type where you think you’re the king of the world or somesuch, and you experience full blown psychosis, which turns even the happiest mania into a complete nightmare. People who have Bipolar I experience full blown mania. People who have Bipolar II do not, though their depression is often longer, and they are statistically more likely to commit suicide.  
  5. The older you get without treatment, the more intense and dysphoric your mania becomes and the longer you stay depressed. Also, tbi is pretty likely to ramp up your symptoms. Teenagers often only have mood swings with some depression.  
  6. MANIA SHOULD NOT BE WRITTEN AS A TOOL FOR A CHARACTER TO GET SHIT DONE UNLESS YOU PLAN ON MAKING IT OBVIOUS THAT’S AN UNWISE CHOICE. Please please please don’t make it into deus ex efficiency my god. Mania, especially hypomania is something that people with bipolar often miss when they’re on meds. Don’t make us miss it even more by writing it wrong. Oh god you have no idea how much I miss it. 
  7. It is hard to get a med combo that works. The process of going from one to another has been terrible in my experience, though some may have it easier. It’s like you’re a person! And then the new med interacts with something, you have to stop it, and you feel like a disaster again. In my experience, depression is the hardest part to treat. 
  8. Meds have gnarly side effects like weight gain or loss, an acne-like rash, tremors, strong mycleonic jerks (kinda like those jerks when you’re falling asleep), dizziness, sleepiness, etc. A lot of them go away, but some, like the rash, only go away on a lower dose of lithium, and some people, like myself, need a large amount of lithium in comparison to our body weight, so we’re stuck with it. 
  9. You cannot treat bipolar disorder without medication. I’m sure there are some people out there who would disagree with me, but they’re wrong. No one really knows what causes mania, there are some theories, for instance, that it’s very related to a seizure (in fact anti-seizure medications are some of the more effective mood stabilizing medications). Whatever it is, it is a brain issue, not something you can meditate or CBT away.
  10. You cannot treat bipolar disorder without therapy. People with bipolar have to follow a strict schedule regarding eating and sleeping, they need to teach themselves to regulate their emotions, they need to learn to self soothe to avoid stress because all of those things can trigger mania (because meds fluctuate even if they’re perfect). That shit is hard. It’s also really hard to see yourself, and be like, am I in a good mood, or am I manic. My therapist was the one who told me I was manic when I was in the process of trying to quit my position. I really needed her. 
  11. YOU CANNOT TAKE ANTIDEPRESSANTS THEY WILL ALMOST IMMEDIATELY MAKE YOU MANIC. In fact, this is a way many people are diagnosed. I took them for years, and no one seemed to find it strange when I would stay up all night yelling at people’s doors in the dorms whenever they increased my dosage. Because I just had mood swings. EDIT: this isn’t true of everyone who is bipolar, some people can handle SSRI and SNRI antidepressants. Others definitely cannot and in my estimation it is not a bad idea to write them that way.
  12. People with bipolar disorder are not violent or mean. Anyone who uses bipolar disorder as an excuse for being those things can come and see me behind the school, because that fucking bullshit is what kept me from seeking care for thirty one years. 
  13. Although some do, people with bipolar disorder shouldn’t drink for a myriad of reasons. Weed can be even worse, it gave me really bad psychosis like six years ago. 

Hope this helps, anon. But don’t just take my word for it.