i don't care how bad these are i'm sorry i needed it on my blog

anonymous asked:

i'm sorry it why do you ship junkrat with mei?? if you haven't noticed or actually played overwatch, you'd know that mei hates junkrat, they despise each other and they're total opposites. and no, opposites don't always attract.

Ladies and Gentleman, we have a first!

In the two or so years I’ve had this blog, I’ve never had an antagonistic anon before. Then again, I only ever started branching out into non-Soul Eater things in September, so maybe this is just what happens when you start to create content for bigger fandoms? 

First things first: If you don’t like the content I post, I suggest that you either unfollow my blog or use blacklist to block the tags for content you don’t like. Your Tumblr experience is curated by you. I’ll tag my content to help you blacklist topics you wish to avoid, but it’s ultimately up to each user to take the necessary steps to tailor their dashboard.

Secondly, in sending me a rude ask, you have given me an excuse to talk about a favorite ship of mine. So buckle up, we’ve got a long post incoming!

Why ship Junkrat and Mei? Why ship any two characters?

Take a gander at this post by @chaoticlivi. It’s a pretty exhaustive list of reasons people get invested in the relationship between any two characters. They span from aesthetic and visual tastes (these two look great together!) to more in depth, thematic ones (their relationship embodies a theme I care about). Basically, there are many many reasons to love a ship, and canon rarely has much to do with it.  

In general, canon is a box of scraps. This is especially true for Overwatch, which despite its exhaustive lore leaves many holes in character stories and relationships. Nothing in the game itself (which I do play often, btw) is ‘canon.’ The voicelines you hear haven’t actually happened. They are meant to give us insight into the characters, their histories, and their relationships, but you can’t quote them as something Mei or Junkrat have actually said.  

In-game content is also in flux. As more shorts and comics come out, as the actual Overwatch lore grows, the game evolves too. It’s possible what’s canon within the game now will change later on. 

What I’m saying is, you can point at two voicelines and wave around words like ‘hate’ until you are blue in the face, but that won’t 1) make it canon that Junkrat and Mei will be at odds forever or 2) make me any less likely to ship them.

Now that I’ve got the “shipping doesn’t need a canon basis and Overwatch shipping is a crapshoot built on nearly nothing anyway” part done, I can actually talk about Mei and Junkrat.

Keep reading

anonymous asked:

I seriously think I'll do something bad to myself soon. I've been thinking about it almost every day. this is very hard for me to admit and I'm sorry to anyone who might get upset if they see this . :( I can't allow myself to say anything about to anyone I know. I can't allow myself to ask for help. I don't want to upset my friends and I know I'll get yelled at or even made fun of by my parents if I ever went to them for help. I'm scared of myself and really think I'll do something soon

hello again, dear. i think that there is no need for you to apologize. first of all, i’d like to share some helpful liks with you.

reasons to live by the amazing alice (her blog is wonderful and she is very supportive!)

reasons to stay alive also by alice

more reasons to stay alive

self-care masterpost

♡  50 alternatives to self-harm (also contains some nice tips not necessarily directed to self-harm)

recovery playlist by supergirl sarah lee

coping with depression

things to look forward to

crisis and help hotlines

♡  relieveing stress and other tips

more positivity blogs:

melody

princess-positive

emm’s positive doodles

soetkin’s blog

chibird

finnigan’s blog

dark positive

caroline’s blog

my positivity tag

i’d like you to know that you are so, so loved. i’ve been in a situation similar to yours, i know how you might feel. please trust me that asking for help is a good choice! if you feel like you can’t talk to your parents, you can ask your closest friend. it will not burden them. if you really feel like you can’t talk to your friends, going to counselor at school is also an option, and you can also try 7 cups of tea, too! but, dear anon, you can’t go through this alone! i strongly suggest addressing your friends. they will understand and you will work something out together.

i also want to tell you that you are so, so strong. times may seem hard right now, but this will eventually pass an things will work out, they always do. you can wake up every day and go to school knowing that you are working hard toward your future and your goals. i believe in you, my dear anon. i trust you not to do anything bad and to see something good in everything every day. your friends and family are there for you, and you are so loved even if you don’t realize it. keep going and chin up, okay? ♡

anonymous asked:

this has nothing to do with bts but you guys seem non judgmental and I need to tell someone how I feel but I'm bi and I'm so afraid to tell my parents especially since I struggle with depression and they think I put on an act and I'm just so tired of not being wanted and I feel if I come out they won't love me and this has been eating me up for a while and I honestly just don't want to live anymore no body around me cares or loves me I feel hopeless I hate myself

Ah, is this your message anon? So sorry that I didn’t see it. Kristi, my friend and a member of this blog, had to point it out to me. I feel horrible for not seeing this and am so sorry…This message might get a bit long, but hopefully you are willing to read it. 

While I have never been diagnosed (by myself or a doctor) with depression, I have had moments in the past and quite recently when I just want to give up on myself and everything. I look in the mirror everyday and always find something that I hate about myself. I see how successful others are and hate that I have done nothing with my life. On really bad days, I will just sit in the darkness and turn on some music, left alone with my thoughts. I can’t say I 100% understand your situation since as I feel that each person knows themselves best (and to be quite honest, sometimes I feel like we can’t even understand ourselves), but I want to tell you that there is a great ARMY community or just Tumblr community there to support you. Personally, I find music to be the best ‘escape’ or ‘medicine.’ I can turn on a song, and while it might not always make me feel better, it keeps my mind off of stressful things and helps me to not feel so empty. Often times I feel guilty for pouring my heart out to people (and often only do this with those extremely close to me), so this is kind of my own way of dealing with things. 

I know I can’t fix things and I don’t think you expect me to, but know that we are always hear to listen to you. I really hope that things get better…I can’t tell you to love yourself more, because I know just how hard that can be, but please know that we are here to support you. Thank you for opening up to us. I hope this message is of some help…Stay strong.
- Kylie

Is your OTP really your OTP?

Before you read on, this is NOT and attack and I’m NOT starting a war. You can of course, freely state your opinion like I stated mine if you wish.

I’ve been wanting to make this post for a while now and I finally got the chance.

Is your otp really your otp? that’s a weird question, right? 

Let’s look at the definition of ‘otp’ first: One True Pairing. Meaning your favorite combination of characters in a fandom.

Or something like that anyway. 

I realise that in my fandom (Naruto) most people have watched it from a very young age. Most of us including myself grew up shipping the standard ships a.k.a SasuSaku and NaruHina. 

And there’s nothing wrong with that really.

But I feel like for some of us, they were forced to, or should I say, scared of considering other pairs. And you know what, they have every right to because it’s known for a fact that there are many assholes and disrespectful people in this fandom (unfortunately). 

The canon ships are SasuSaku, NaruHina, SaiIno and ShikaTema

But I think you all need to be reminded that just because it’s canon, you don’t need to approve of it. or follow it. or like it (as you can follow it, ship it or like it. it’s your choice).

Allow yourself to criticise these ships (and any other ship for the matter), to see their weaknesses and imperfections.

This might sound silly because doesn’t everyone know this already? That you can ship whichever pairing?

No, actually, not everyone does. How do I know? I was one of them.

I grew up ‘shipping’ the canon ships because everyone ships those right?!! Because they’re the actual thing! Because fairy-tales and whatnot. (note the sarcasm)

I remember when I first stumbled upon KakaSaku and was like, holy shit I never considered this, this is amazing (same thing happened to me with NaruSasu and GenIno but lets stick to KS as an example). It took a few months to become a hardcore KS shipper. To be honest, I was scared, like don’t fall for this ship, they’re not canon, just stick with SasuSaku they’re cute.

I think it’s safe to assume there’s at least one person like me out there thus why this post exists.

And here’s the thing! That’s not how it should be, you don’t need to stick with canon.

Don’t ignore the imperfects of the canon ship, allow yourself to spot them and think about them.

I always said SasuSaku were perfect and turned a blind eye onto all their imperfects because they’re canon but that’s the farthest away possible from the truth. In reality, I think it’s a really fucked up ship.

If you think about it, at first, yes they were cute, because even though he’s a bit of an asshole, he cared for his team and for Sakura. But when he left it all went downhill. He tried to kill her multiple times, he rejected her feelings multiple times (and even tho he did it harshly, he does have the right to speak of his feelings, he doesn’t love her and he shouldn’t have to, she can’t force him.) He was absent from her life for years and particularly between the ages of 13 and 17, this a period where you change the most. This is when you grow a personality. There’s no way you could actually ignore everything he did and go back straight away to being best friends. Actually, if we use it as a real life example, you can’t have barely any interaction with someone and have them constantly hurt you and still be in love with them. I know this because I’ve been in a similar situation as Sakura where my childhood crush and first love was harsh and mean and dare I say abusive to me. I did love him for years after that but he left and I didn’t see him for long. I moved on. I started to think seriously about how shitty he is. This is how feelings work. I began to hate him for all the shit he did to me.

How will you ever feel safe living with someone who once tried to kill you? it makes zero sense to me.

Besides, it wasn’t like Sakura actually had any thoughts behind loving Sasuke, she was a child who one day decided to make Sasuke their crush. Mostly because he’s cool. There is nothing wrong with that really, but it leaves many plot holes and unexplained things.

I allowed myself to question these things. How is my ship ‘perfect’ when all they did is hurt each other? How is being a single mother to a little girl whose father is always absent and doesn’t recognise her perfect?

And before someone jumps and says he’s away to protect them, whatever his reason is, it doesn’t change the reality of the situation. He doesn’t recognise his daughter. He doesn’t visit them or keep in touch with them. If he truly loved them he’d find a way to communicate the way he found a way to keep Naruto updated. Or at least found out from Naruto if they’re doing okay. Showed in any way that he cared.

People who truly love each other would go lengths to show it, to be there, to care and if you don’t think so then I don’t think you’ve ever experienced true love.

That said, this is NOT a post to convince you that SasuSaku sucks, this is my experience with it. I’m using them as an example, NOT to attack their shippers.

You don’t have to agree with me and I don’t need to agree with you. We’re all entitled to our own opinion.

As someone who claimed to be a hardcore SasuSaku shipper, it was difficult and scary for me to acknowledge these things. My Tumblr started as an SS blog after all. 

And I made this post to let you know not to be so, that when you do acknowledge a ship’s flaws and imperfections next to their good aspects, you begin to realise truly if you like them or not. I repeat, this applies to every canon ship, SasuSaku is JUST an example.

I still ship SasuSaku, but the fan fiction SasuSaku, the one with plot and feelings. Canon SasuSaku makes me feel sick to my stomach. I think it makes Sasuke a bigger asshole and Sakura a pathetic person and I hate it. (I’m not saying you should too, this is just MY opinion. The canon ship makes me feel bad and leaves a bad taste.)

So maybe be brave and give yourself the chance to think about this. Even if you personally believe there’s no way you’ll ever stop shipping your ship, don’t be scared of allowing yourself to think and criticise and like new things. Do take the time to think about it; this will either help you discover you don’t in fact like this ship as much as you thought or confirm that they’re indeed your otp. So no harm done,  really.

Don’t be scared of the assholes of this fandom who’d try to bully you or make you feel bad. You’ll most probably have your ship’s fandom, they will be there for you.

Lastly, from my experience, KakaSaku pair aside, I can truly say that their fandom has the nicest, most genuine people I’ve ever met in my life and I swear joining this fandom has been the best decision I’ve ever made. Not only are they super sweet but also super talented and chill. They’re a creative bunch who make the best art and write the best fan fiction. I’m blessed there are so many talented people who create amazing content featuring my favorite ship.

whoa, that was long man, if you read the entire thing cheers to your patience. If you’re new in the KS fandom, message me we can fangirl together. If you’re a SasuSaku shipper and were by any chance offended by this, sorry, but this is my opinion. By all means, keep doing you and shipping this pair.

anonymous asked:

Hey! I've been following this blog for awhile now and I love it! I love the analysis and theories you post here, I agree with a lot of them. :D Including what you say about Tom and Jackie and how they're treated by the fandom. -_- I honestly don't know why Starco shippers continue to act like such children(even if some of them are). I'm pretty neutral when it comes to Jarco they aren't my favorite(Tomco FTW!), but come on Jackie is adorable and she treats Marco well! And Tom needs more love!

Awwww, thank you!!!!

I’m doing my best ^^;

((Watch as s3 proves all of my theories wrong just to mess with me))

The fandom can definitely bash a lot when it comes to characters and ships but in my experience, Tom and Jackie get it the worst.

Now with Tom, i might be able to understand where it comes from, since he’s a flawed character and he’s done bad things. I love Tom, I like the idea behind him, I’m fascinated by his choices and how complex his emotions are, and I ADORE his design. But i could see how someone might not enjoy him very much because of the bad things he’s done.

((If i am right about his home life though, that might change people’s minds about him in the future.))

Based on my own views, I see him as a flawed teen, he’s desperate for attention….desperate to rekindle and have a close relationship again, and desperate to look good in people’s eyes so much he’s willing to change everything about him. So when people paint him as being this horrible, abusive, person….i can’t buy it, Tom is clearly willing to makes sacrifices for people he cares about, and it clearly pains him to hurt people. 

Yeah, he’s made threats, kidnapped Marco, but he hasn’t really hurt anyone…who knows if he’d even go through with them.

If you aren’t big on Tom, it’s ok, he’s not perfect. But abusive is way too far with a character that they’re clearly trying to make sympathetic, and it doesn’t even fit logically with his character or the story all that well either.

Tom being portrayed in these ways feel like they’re trying to paint him worse then his character is supposed to be. He’s screwed up, but it’s not really in his character to hurt Star or Marco intentionally.

Lucky for Tom, his character has improved more from s2, and he’s had less fandom issues then he used to.


Jackie, has also improved much from s2 considering she really didn’t have much to go on in s1.

But as far as characters go, she has it much worse then Tom.

And it sucks worse, because her hate isn’t even really justified. Ok, maybe you might find her bland, or not very interesting, but the fandom makes it sound like she murdered Star and took over the world.

There’s really no reason to be angry with her, she hasn’t offended anyone, hurt anyone, she’s so far the most innocent character on this show.

If you’re going to flat out bash her in front of me saying how she’s a horrible person, then i’m sorry, i can’t take you seriously as a person because she’s done nothing to get angry about.

Yeah, i think she needs more screen time and her character could use some development but she’s not worth getting so upset about.

Tom wasn’t given too much character considering he’s been in few eps, but a lot is implied and it makes it easier to figure out his character and what might be happening with him, Jackie hasn’t really had nearly as much focus in order for us to understand her…but that’s not her fault.

I could make a LIST of the dumbest things i’ve heard come out of Sta//rco shipper mouths and most of them would involve her, and all the excuses made to justify all her bashing.

She hurt Star!!! Literally no one knew about Star’s crush, at all.

She Stole Marco!! She and Marco both willingly wanted to date each other. Not to mention Marco was never Star’s in the first place.


And you know well if these same people were in Marco or JACKIE’s position, they would not be feeling the same way about this situation. They wouldn’t wish death upon jackie, they wouldn’t be telling marco he should be with someone else.

Because you know, it’s not ok at all.

Jackie is honestly a sweetheart, I love how much she supports Marco and isn’t fazed by all his weird insecurities. The show really has been taking their relationship seriously and wants you to support them and i’m glad they’re not making jackie evil or making their relationship bad for the purpose of Sta//rco.

Jackie better not be thrown under the bus next season,and definitely not because of Sta//rco, if she and marco break up i want it to be handled maturely and i want it to be because of their relationship…not Star.

She deserves better then that.

If Ja//rco remained canon, i would be perfectly fine with it.


Protect these two at all costs, they deserve so much more.

anonymous asked:

I love your blog but don't forget weed is still illegal in most countries. People look up to you. Don't encourage them to break the law or at least mention that they should remember that when you praise weed. I know it's not your problem and you don't need to care but you should. My parents would kick my ass and punish me quite severly if they caught me using drugs and I'm sure my parents aren't the only ones. With great power comes great responsibilty, it's cheesy but true pls remember that

aah sorry! you’re totally right. i don’t think of myself as someone with great power, haha, i honestly forget how many people see what i post. plus i sometimes forget that a lot of people on tumblr are younger and more impressionable than i am because i’m 25 and have been active on the internet for like… way too long… and i’m so fcking jaded at this point, haha.

i’m definitely not trying to encourage anyone to do anything that would be illegal or anything that will get them in trouble!! don’t break the law. unless you’re looking to get in trouble, it’s generally a good idea not to break any rules, whether they’re your parents’ rules or the country’s rules. 

and assuming your consent isn’t compromised, please don’t ever try anything that you don’t feel 100% safe and comfortable with. you can say no and should say no if you don’t want/can’t smoke (or drink, or do whatever it is that you’re being offered). it won’t make you ‘less cool’, i promise. if you’re hanging out with the right people, they’re not going to judge you for not participating. and guess what? you can still have plenty of fun without it. i know i did.

as i mentioned in my previous ask, i only started smoking once i moved to california, where it is legal, largely because i didn’t want to get in trouble for it before. i know how it goes not wanting to get in trouble with your parents or school (or the law), or even just not wanting to feel sneaky or guilty!! definitely don’t do anything that i do just because i say i like it, what works for me and is good for me won’t automatically work and be good for everyone. don’t be afraid to try new things, but if you don’t like whatever it is, you don’t have to keep it up.

i just want my blog to be somewhere that people feel comfortable talking to me about things like this, especially because when i was younger i literally thought weed was like, the devil, mostly because of the conservative catholic environment i grew up in. i wish i’d been more educated about the positive effects instead of just thinking smoking was instantly gonna turn you into a lazy stoner or make you want to do other harder drugs. i wish i had known sooner because of all the positive things it does for my mental health, so i’m really happy that people feel okay coming to my blog to talk to me about it <3 but as you pointed out, it’s not legal everywhere and it’s not something everyone should do!! my bad if i gave the impression that everyone everywhere should just be like, lighting up 24/7 regardless of their situation haha. it wasn’t intended.

anonymous asked:

I grew up with very neglectful parents. I rarely went to school, I ate terribly, I was not hygienic, I basically learned almost no life skills. Now I'm trying to get myself together but I don't really know how. Can you help me?

Hi there love :) thank you for messaging us for advice, my name is Shelby and I’m going to help you out today. :)

I’m sorry that you had to go though hard times with neglectful parents, I have a very close friend that is in a similar situation like this. The advice I have for you is the following:

Self Care

Nutrition

Hydration

Skin Care

Cleansing the body

Hair care

Hand care

Foot care

Oral Care

SPA DAY!

Once you’ve looked over those links the next set of advice I have for you is some advice on how you can get back on track with not only your self care but life in general.

For starters, I’m not sure how old you are, but I would highly suggest getting into some therapy to help vent and get more help/support about this whole situation.

Then, I’d suggest possibly looking to those around you for some extra help. If you have siblings, look to them and ask them for some help. If you don’t have siblings, then look to your community and see if anyone is willing to help you out with supplying you with basic needs.

Next, I would suggest looking deep in yourself. Often times when children are neglected my their parents, they sort of have to learn things on their own for example what is a healthy meal to eat. & that’s not always easy. I think that you should think about things you did when you were younger and see if any of those decisions made an impact on your life (positive or negative.) & look to changes :)

Keep me updated?

Lots of love,

—Shelby. (:

anonymous asked:

Hello i'm very new to block b! I was wondering if you could quickly give me a rundown on the members of the group, as i don't know much about them? If not, that's fine! Thanks anyway 😌

wah a new bbc!! it would be my pleasure  ❤

let’s start with the most important member: 

Originally posted by jaehyohoe

Name: (안재효) Ahn Jaehyo 
Born: 23th of December 1990 
Position: sub-vocal / visual (actor)

- biggest dork, like you can’t believe how much of a dork he truly is
- loves gaming (GREAT league of legends player)
- former ulzzang 
- has a tatoo with the initials of his ex-girlfriend on his wrist
- plays every sport known to man
- doesnt have a girlfriend but does have 3 broken computers 
- he was scouted at a dance competition 
- but he can’t dance
- like at all
- scared of girls
- spokesperson for bb-creams (he loves bb-creams)
- most underrated singer in the history of music
- gets shit on by the other members a lot of the times but actually gets along w   everyone really well 
- knows all the butterflies known to man by name (really smart)
- was the star of a online kdrama

Originally posted by stellar-heartbeat

Name: (비범) B-Bomb (real name is Lee Minhyuk)
Born: 14th of December 1990 
Position: main dancer / sub-vocal (actor)

- always silently judging you somehow
- also HUGE dork
- the ‘hoe’ member
- can dance reallllllly well
- part of Bastarz (block b’s subunit) 
- showers REALLY long (according to the other members)
- is afraid of heights
- can play the piano 
- likes girls with a cute vagina dimple (are we ever going to let this go?)
- produced & wrote an amazing song 
- wicked sense of humor
- no but really bbomb is actually really sweet & cool
- has the cutest dimples

Originally posted by nam-joon-kim

Name:  (이태일) Lee Taeil
Born: 24th of September 1990
Position: Lead vocalist

- looks smoll and cute
- actually isn’t
- ‘thug hyung’ 
- oldest member
- LOVES his fish (no but really really really adores his fish)
- voice of an angel
- multiple solo’s 
- hates waking up
- recongizable by his glasses + hats + tattoos
- goes to the gym a lot
- once peed on jaehyo’s clothes????
- when he laughs the cutest sound comes out of his mouth and its like heaven is smiling down on us

Originally posted by poisondripp

Name:  (피오) P.O. (real name: Pyo Jihoon)
Born: 2nd of February 1993
Position: Rapper 

- maknae (the youngest member) 
- number #1 lee taeil fan
- is a baby with the lowest voice possibly
- kind hearted, always helps clean up and takes cares of the other members
- little ray of sunshine
- member of Bastarz
- block b’s aegyo representive
- also writes lyrics
- “block b’s prankster” according to the other members
- loves food
- scared of pirate ships on the carnival 
- spreads happiness wherever he goes

Originally posted by pyorygon

Name:  (지코) Zico (real name: Woo Jiho)
Born: 14th of September, 1992
Position: leader / rapper

- ….. where to start??
- music prodigy
- wants you to believe he is this badass rapper but im pretty sure he listens to taylor swift and knits when he’s home alone
- mommy’s boy
- crawls on the lap of other men when he’s drunk
- loves hello kitty (legend has it that he bought a hello kitty phone case to minimize his idol image but got too attached) 
- talks randomly in marge simpsons voice
- used to have an alter ego we’d all like to forget 
- writes and produces all of block b’s songs
- gets a lot of unnecassary hate 
- kisses the other members often

Originally posted by ostrichyung

Name:  (박경) Park Kyung
Born: 8th of July 1992
Position: Lead rapper

- GREASE
- loves his fans 
- and i mean LOVE
- once won a rap battle in new zealand by naming random pieces of fruit
- everything he does somehow becomes iconic
- really talented
- has some amazing solo songs 
- flirts with everything that moves
- invented his own dance move
- not the cleanest person on this planet (has no problem sharing underwear with the other members)
- crawls in bed with the other members at night (even when they sleep naked *cough* jaehyo *cough*)
- REALLY SMART LIKE OMG MEMBER OF SOME SORT OF HIGHLY INTELLEGENT CLUB???
- has an iq of 156
“aight”


Originally posted by rapmonfcker69

Name:  (유권) U-kwon (real name: Kim Yukwon
Born: 9th of April 1992
Position: dancer / sub-vocalist (actor)

- has a really cool dance style
- participated in the korean dance tvshow ‘Hit the Stage’ 
- is obsessed with ‘one piece’ and has a giant flag of the anime above his bed
- innocent angel (according to the other members) 
- loves animals (hence his nickname “kitty kwon”) 
- has a unknown amount of dogs 
- rumour has it that he can actually cut food with that jawline
- member of Bastarz 
- little bit shy
- he likes to keep his privat life private (which is cool) and may seem a little bit distant but he is really a sweet, kind-hearted person trust me
- smile representive
- actually a pretty decent actor 

anyway if you want to see them in action i made a list with all the shows they did (i do need to update though!) you can find it here

I hope that cleared up (im really bad at these things so sorry) if you want to know anymore you can always ask me or other amazing bbc blogs like @alittlebitblockbbias @pyorygon @eternaltaeil @taeilliesgirl and so many others! 

Originally posted by wroni87

anonymous asked:

Louise!! Hi!!! Your blog is amazing!! If requests are still open could I ask for a little imagine of me and Channie? I would like that the imagine talked about self-steem bc I'm a little fat and I would like a fic of Channie saying that he doesn't care of how you are and that kind of stuff. (It doesn't mater if you don't want to do it)

Hiiii~ Thank you so much, little anon, you’re so cute~ TT v TT 
And of course I can do that for you~ Enjoy hehe!


The weather was so bad today. It was raining for hours and hours now, and you couldn’t do anything outside. Your boyfriend was playing video games online (agaaaain), and you left lonely and more and more depressed. Doing nothing gave you the time to think about bad things such as… You weight. Yes. You always thought you were fat, or at least more than those pretty girls Chanyeol used to date, and this made you feel so inferior and bad…

You walked to the bathroom, still with no idea of what to do, and left your boyfriend in the living room, playing and screaming to the other players. He was cute…

In the bathroom, you looked at yourself in the mirror. You stared at you curves, your body that you hated so much and sighed. You tried to look at yourself with different angles. “Maybe I’ll look better like this…”, you thought.

You were so concentrate that you didn’t even heard Chanyeol coming in the room, looking at you with a smile.

“…you can’t stop admiring yourself, right~?”, he said, looking at you.

You stared at him with a sad look in your eyes and then, looked down.

“Don’t say stupid thing, idiot. I was just- …never mind, forget it.”

You sighed again, and your poor boyfriend, looked at you, speechless. So many questions went to his mind, when he saw you so depressed like that : “sh*t, Park Chanyeol what did you do again? Did I forgot something? It’s not her birthday, right… Or maybe I made strange sounds during her sleep and-”

“Chanyeol…?”

“E-er… Yes..?”

“Are you… Embarrassed of me..?”

“Wait What? Embarrassed of you? Why..?”

“You know… Because I’m…fat. And not as pretty as all those girls you like.”

Chanyeol looked at you speechless once again. He couldn’t even realize you could think like this. You, his perfect little girlfriend, being so stressed and depressed about this.

“Y/N… I’m sorry-”

“You are embarrassed of me right? Because I’m not skinny and tall..”, you said as you could feel tears coming in your eyes.

“N-no no Y/N don’t cry!!” Chanyeol came in front of you and gave you a big hug. He sighed and caressed your back lovingly. 

“My Y/N, my beautiful sunshine…Don’t say such things. You are perfect the way you are. It’s true that you are not the skinniest girl ever, but who cares? Actually, I’m so happy you look chubby and healthy… And I think you’re seriously the most beautiful girl I’ve ever seen… You don’t like your body, but honestly I can’t stop staring at it. I want to kiss every part of this beautiful body of yours… I love you, Y/N. And I never thought of being embarrassed of you. I’m so proud to be with you, actually. Don’t be depressed, you are perfect the way you are. Don’t change anything, honey… Please. You are beautiful and I love you.”

You looked into his eyes for a moment, in silence. You were so thankful for what he just said, you had no words. 

“…t-thank you Chanyeol… You’re so nice with me, I’m so lucky to have you with me…”, you said, trying to hold your tears. Chanyeol laughs and kissed the top of your head.

“I’m the lucky one here, Y/N. Don’t be sad, okay? I’m here for you if you need someone to talk with, especially about that. But don’t forget you are beautiful and I love you…”

“Hehe thank you, Channie… You’re the best. I love you too so much.”

“You’re welcome… Do you want to go outside now? The rain stopped, we can maybe eat something together!”

“That’s a wonderful idea hehe. Let’s gooooo~”

You went to your bedroom to get ready and your boyfriend looked at you, happy and relieve that you were yourself again.


Ta-dah! I hope you liked it :3
And little anonie, you are beautiful, okay? Don’t let the others judge you or something. And when you are sad, think about this little puppy and what he said to you “You are perfect, beautiful and I love you”. Fighting, cutie !!

Ofc gifs are not mine

anonymous asked:

Moi! I'm studying Finnish but sometimes I feel like I can't do this, I tried it hard but I don't know how to memorize all the words or GRAMMAR, also my phone is in Finnish. I feel so stupid or unable to express myself and it makes me really upset because I want it so bad but I can't. How can I do to be able to focus more? (sorry of something is wrong, I speak Spanish🙄)

Moi!

Firstly, I believe in you. You can absolutely do this.

Also I squealed a bit cause I get so happy when someone wants to learn Finnish.

I’ve heard a lot of talking about Finnish being the hardest thing ever, which might be discouraging. So to start here are some reasons why Finnish is easy to learn.

How long have you been studying? Remember it takes a while to learn a language, even with good motivation. Do it in your own time, no need to hurry. I know the feeling, I’ve been learning Russian for two years and it feels like I can’t say anything.

For vocabulary I recommend using a fun way to learn, even if it might be slower than just reading lists up and down. Some things you can try:

-translate songs, and listen to songs. You can understand one word or phrase somewhere? Great job, give yourself a high-five.

-follow “suomitumblr” aka finnish tumblr blogs and others who post in finnish, they’re sometimes written quickly in slang though so you might be confused. (And be aware that inappropriate stuff isnt uncommon in suomitumpleri…). Some:

@saakelinsuolasirotin @ulkomaa @ristiinrastiinnaulittu @perus-suomalainen

-talk to me wait im boring tho… or someone else in Finnish!! We can chat like me and my real life friends do, multilingually. If we cant remember a word we just say it in another language. And I can correct big mistakes (nobody cares about small ones).

- stick post-its with the words written on all around your living spaces, so that you see them often even if you’re not actually studying.

-the last one is using Memrise if you don’t already, which isn’t “fun” in that way, but I find learning words using it is easy.

For grammar I’m really not helpful at all, since I’m lost when it comes to that in Russian, and in Finnish I only learn some mostly unnecessary shit at school.

What I do though, is I have example sentences and learn in what type of sentences it’s used by heart.

Try reading these articles, they seem good

Learning grammar

In this they talk about english, but it can be applied to any language

you dont need to study grammar to learn a language

You’re not stupid for not being able to express yourself, in fact you’re smart for wanting and working on expressing yourself in another language.

The best tip I have is don’t worry. no one cares if you make mistakes. except the trolls but ignore them they are the stupid ones and are only here to make you feel bad. We others only want to help. im such a hypocrite here tho

I’ll gladly help you some more, just send in a ask/message me. I hope this was helpful in some way.

gladiatricks  asked:

hey I need advice :/ I'm having a lot of trouble finding my path because deities just don't want to go near me for some reason. I've approached ones I loved since childhood to ones who I thought I could learn from. all from different pantheons. No one cares for me and it's really disheartening. I don't know if I'm loved by any pantheon or where I fit in and I just want to give up.

Yo gladiatricks

I’m not sure what it is that is making you think that the gods won’t go near you and I’m really sorry that you are feeling that way. I can only assume based on the language you used in this that you think it’s because you haven’t been able to communicate with them; perhaps you have a “terrible godphone” and aren’t able to get a signal? Based on this assumption, I’m going to be answering this. (And if I’m wrong, please correct me.)

There are a lot of people who don’t seem to get “pings” from the gods in any context. We don’t see it very often within Tumblr and even to an extent on non-Tumblr blogs, but I think it’s probably far more common than we realize. I think this is because, as TTR said once, it’s because most people without a godphone don’t think that their paths are worth discussing. I think the specific thing that they stated was, “Who wants to write ‘gave the gods some incense and heard nothing yet again’ all the time?”

I understand where these feelings come from – in the communities that have cropped up in places, it seems much more common to have experiences that can be translated into that indefinable godphone experience we see so often discussed.

The thing is that people without godphones have relationships with gods. Again, they may not discuss it as often or as seemingly as loudly as people with them, but they do exist. Even taking away from a modern context: let’s look at the past.

Was everyone a priest back then?
Was everyone associated with the temples back then?
Was everyone an oracle for the gods back then?

The answer to these questions are no. There were laity and there were priests. There were people in between, I’m sure, who developed personal relationships with their gods without requiring a set priesthood to intervene and there were people who only paid attention to them once in a while. There were people who probably didn’t believe at all but went through the forms just because.

We all get really het up and think that the apotheosis of a relationship is based entirely on personalized communication with the gods. I mean, I get that. We all want to have a personalized relationship with deity, but we have to keep in mind that there are people from non-pagan traditions who manage relationships rather well and do not hear their deity. They pray and have devotions; they don’t expect a response the way that many pagans seem to.

I think we get completely focused more on what we expect a relationship to look like versus what that relationship should really entail.

I’m going to link you to thetwistedrope‘s FAQ, which is mostly a Kemetic FAQ. However, if you scroll to the first third of the page, you can see a bunch of posts regarding godphones and deity communication. I am going to point out two posts that I think may be helpful to you: “How Do I Pagan Without Gods” and “I Can’t Hear the Gods; Is That Bad?

As far as finding a path, I think you were probably better off with going with the gods that spoke to you based on your childhood. Many pagans seem to enter pagandom with a predefined idea, which stems from a love of certain mythologies as children.


I was obsessed with ancient Egypt as a kid – is it any wonder I’m a Kemetic now? I know people who having childhood obsessions with the Greek gods turned to Hellenic practices and people with history boners from the Norse gods looking into the Heathen circle.

So even though you believe the gods don’t want anything to do with you: the one thing you should recall is that this isn’t about them, this is about you. Did you decide to go into a pagan religion because you wanted gods or did you decide to go into because you needed religion? If you went into this because you needed something, then I say keep doing what you’re doing. And when you feel badly because you think none of the gods wants you, I strongly recommend reminding yourself that this is about you, not the gods.

so i know alec being the first one to say i love you would be so so cute and i’m very much about it but um side idea: magnus says it first. and oh!! better: it’s on accident. 

i mean of course he 1000% means it!! it’s just that he’s already known his feelings for alec for a while now and it’s become this very normal thing in magnus’ life. like the sky is blue, water is wet, the clave is The Worst, and magnus bane loves alexander lightwood. see? simple. 

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anonymous asked:

Hi! I was wondering if you knew any fics where Stiles and Derek are in different relationships with different people but they go to high school together and are having like a tutoring session, and they kiss and then break up with the people they were with. I'm very sorry if this is too specific, but thanks! (Even if you don't find any, thanks!) love the blog!

I found high school au with tutoring. Not necessarily with other relationships. I did my best. - Anastasia

Originally posted by princetonarchives

You’ve got to break some eggs… by Stilienski

(1/1 I 3,851 I General)

Derek really shouldn’t have taken the dare to egg the sheriff’s house. How did he let Jackson talk him into this again? Now the sheriff got home way earlier than expected and Derek was going to get arrested and fuck his life, really. Honestly, Derek never meant to put the blame on Stiles, but what was he supposed to do?

Or the one where a fake break up fight leads to a real first kiss.

I’ve Got The Past by brokenpromisesandhope

(1/1 I 4,037 I Not Rated)

Stiles runs into Derek at the grocery store seven years after a horrible night.

Don’t Judge a Derek By His Cover by captaintinymite (augopher)

(1/1 I 4,510 I Mature)

Stiles doesn’t care about the rumors surrounding Beacon Hills High School’s resident bad boy, Derek Hale. In fact, he thinks the rumors are total crap. Of course, being secretly in love with someone has a way of clouding one’s judgment.

However, he knew for a fact that Derek liked books. So when the two paired up for a final English project, he was excited (but also a little terrified).

But you know what they say…never judge a book by its cover. The same goes for people.

You Fixed My Life by LoveActually_rps

(1/1 I 10,992 I Teen)

John Stilinski had had to change tutors for his son five times in a single month so far – ranging from professors and experienced private tutors to intelligent college and university students. None of them had survived more than a week. Greenberg had had given up after just four days.

“Beware of the boy,” Greenberg had warned Derek. “And…stay away from Roscoe,” he had muttered, looking weak and terrified, as if he was recollecting some nasty nightmare.

“Roscoe?”

Greenberg had already fled before he could entertain further confused queries from Derek.

(aka - Stiles is a rich, spoiled brat, struggling academically(or is he?). Derek is his new tutor, who just needs a job.
Of course, Stiles owns a grumpy cat – Roscoe - and Derek doesn’t get along with it.)

Love is too Plebeian by Blue_Jaye_Fevre

(12/? I 22,266 I Mature)

Derek Hale is a gangly mess of limbs who begins his sophomore year of High School as a nerdy, socially maladjusted pariah. Stiles “Iceman” Stilinski is the Captain of the Beacon Hills Hockey Team and a gigantic slab of brooding beefcake. Will they recognise their feelings for each other in spite of their flaws and an ensemble of insane friends and family members?

Bad Habits by Fudgebug

(12/12 I 108,296 I Explicit)

“Mmmmh pretty.“ Stiles purrs in a way that makes a wild fire torch the planes of his skin.
He knows Stiles is drunk and that the boy would probably stroke a pineapple and compliment its attractiveness, but Derek can’t help the way his heart starts to be a huge backstabbing dick, thundering uncontrollably against his chest.
It’s painful, because Derek knows it isn’t real.

A story about goody-two-shoes Derek crushing on a Polish Prince Charming with a drinking habit - also the universe keeps on shoving astral poop into his face. It’s utterly spectacular.

anonymous asked:

I'm sorry I just wanna say that I'm a huge fan of your blog I truly am and I'm also a 100% richonner without a doubt but don't you think that you and the rest of richonners are being mean to AB? She's just the actress playing Jessie so I don't really understand why you would disrespect her like that. And please so t say that oh it's probably her sending you this anon. It's not. It's a huge fan of your blog and hopefully a future actress who wants to know why the actor is getting so much hate. Xo

Nope, I don’t think I’m being mean or unfair at all. I have no problem separating actors from their characters, hence my love for Sarah Wayne Callies, David Morrissey, Jon Bernthal, and Laurie Holden. I have very little affection for their on-screen personas, but they seem like wonderful, thoughtful actors with reverence for the show, their castmates, and the fans.

Alexandra Breckenridge, on the other hand, doesn’t just play a character I don’t like. Yes, Jessie is poorly written and this storyline is problematic, but I don’t hate her as a character that much. I want her to die so that my show can get back on track. So that Rick can be who he was before she came along, because I don’t know who the fuck he is right now, or what the writers are doing with his character.

I can’t speak for the entire Richonne fandom, but I can tell you why I, personally, don’t care for AB offscreen.

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anonymous asked:

I recently moved in with my mother for the first time in all my life. Before I lived with my grandparents. My father doesn't exist. I'm two classes away from graduating with my Associates degree. I have no real job experience. I don't drive (it was everyone's way of keeping me at home) & on top of that I have torn ligaments in my right leg that require surgery. I don't know what to do, my grandparents are verbally abusive. So is mom & stepdad. I don't know what to do. More to say not enough room

I’m sorry that you’re stuck in this shitty situation. You have some options, but I will warn you now that they will all be hard. You’re going to have to make a lot of uncomfortable and difficult decisions that center on: which is worse.

  • Which is worse: living in a homeless shelter or living with abusive family members?
  • Which is worse: getting a meaningless job or being financially dependent on abusive family members?
  • Which is worse: uncomfortable conversations with police and social services, or continuing to suffer at the hand of abusive family members?

Since you grew up in unhealthy, abusive homes, you think very little of yourself. (No judgment. This is normal in abuse survivors.) Your message is full of negative things that your family has told you to make you feel worthless: you lived under their control, people were absent from your life, you aren’t done with school, you have no job, you have health issues… all of these are excuses your family has given you to keep you from becoming independent.

Learn how to counteract those thoughts. You are more than your family’s abuse.

And you can escape their abuse and start healing.

You will have to think long and hard about what you are willing to put up with, how much patience you have, and how driven you can be. You will have to leverage really hard choices: some of those choices may mean choosing between physical health (surgery) and mental health (escape), or choosing between financial security (staying with them) and having shitty jobs on your own (independence).

I can’t give you an easy answer for those choices because I don’t know your whole story. I believe in getting out of bad families, but ultimately you have to decide which is the most pressing issue to deal with today.

I know that even thinking about being on your own is hard, and scary, and it feels impossible. It is definitely those first two things–I can’t lie to you and tell you that it’s easy and fun–but it doesn’t have to be impossible.

A lot of people stay with their abusers because they feel dependent on them or think that maybe one day things will be better… or even that staying is easier than figuring out how to live differently. You probably won’t feel safe or secure in getting out until you reach a breaking point or get a good support network that makes escape more feasible.

But know that you are strong. You have survived this so far, and that should mean a lot more than the negative things they’ve said and done to you. You have the power to decide whether to do something scary and hard (getting away) or go with what you already know how to manage (staying in an abusive environment).

For now, I suspect your most important issue is the surgery. You might need to stick it out and put up with the things they say and do in order to get that surgery and make a quick physical recovery because short of a viral GoFundMe campaign, you probably won’t be able to get that surgery outside of your parents’ insurance and pocketbooks. 

So you might need to hang in there with them for a little while longer, even though it’s soul-crushing and damaging. You might need to agree to the things they want you to do, or stay silent when they tell you you’re worthless until you’re fully recovered from surgery. Focus on self-care and reminding yourself that you are not defined by their abuse. They are unlikely to change, but that doesn’t mean that you can’t. 

You may be stuck depending on them for the surgery right now, and it sounds like you’re probably depending on them for money, but you can make money on your own (without them even knowing or seeing it) and start taking steps to create a better future for yourself.

(Side note: before you say, “I have no job experience and can’t get a job with my health problems,” search for Work At Home Mom blogs. Without a full degree, you have roughly the same experience and skills as a SAHM. You obviously have access to the internet, and I’ve previously written about how to make money working online or using Swagbucks to earn PayPal cash. Check out my money tag for more info on internet money.)

While you’re waiting and dealing with them, take five or ten minutes a day to work on your plan to get out.

Supplies

Find a safe space (or several safe spaces) and gather the essentials for your Go Bag. 

Good places to hide stuff: 

  • between mattress and box spring
  • underwear drawer
  • coat/pants pockets
  • bottom of a clothes hamper or trash can
  • an air vent
  • friends’ houses
  • sticks of deodorant
  • old pill bottles
  • book/binder safe
  • potted plants
  • battery compartments

What do you need in your Go Bag? Anything that you might need or want if you had to get out of the house in less than five minutes.

  • Important paperwork like your birth certificate, driver’s license, social security card, degrees/diplomas
  • Documentation for your health and abuse: police reports, doctor’s records, social services reports
  • Money: you want to have some money for transportation or food, and shelter if possible. You also want to have documentation of any bank accounts that are in your name so that you can make sure your family never gets their hands on them again.
  • Sentimental items: photos, jewelry, notes.
  • Clothes: have a couple of days’ worth of clothes ready to go.
  • Toiletries: trust me, you’ll want to brush your teeth and put on some deodorant sometimes.
  • Misc: in this day and age you probably feel dependent on your phone or computer, so keep them close.
  • Information: keep a list of contact numbers and websites for the people and organizations who can support you once you’re out.

Support

What kind of things do you need on your Go Bag info list? Think about what you’ll need once you’re on your own. Money, food, housing, medical care, emotional support… Keep a list of all of the people and places that can give you that so you know where to go in the middle of the night. These can be:

  • friends
  • friends’ family members
  • your own sympathetic family members
  • social services/child protective services
  • the police
  • hotlines
  • domestic violence centers
  • shelters
  • food banks
  • employment offices
  • clinics
  • college financial aid offices
  • the library, which can put you in touch with all of the above

Plan

What should you plan? How do you even get started?

Having the things listed above will go a long way in helping you figure out where you can go and what kind of help you can get. The most important things you’ll need to know how to find are housing and money. 

If you had to get out of the house in two minutes, where would you go? How would you get there? What would you do the next day? How would you get food? How will you keep your parents from dragging you back into their abuse?

Come up with a concrete plan that covers those things. If nothing else, know where a homeless shelter and food bank are.

Part of your planning should involve reaching out to support systems like shelters or crisis hotlines to find out what all they can do for you in an emergency. They are bound by confidentiality rules, so your parents will not find out that you talked to them, and they can be very helpful in pointing you in the right direction and telling you what your actual realistic options are. 

Shelters and crisis centers won’t sugarcoat the situation or get your hopes up like friends would–but if you have supportive friends, those are always a good option to keep on the back burner. They may not know how to deal with things or really help you, but they can make you feel less alone.

Final Thoughts

Things will be hard, and you will hurt for a long time. But you can get through it. There are resources out there for you to get help, and people who have been through the same thing you have.

If you need to feel validated and supported, or you just want hope for your future, head to Raised by Narcissists and Parentless By Choice. These subs are full of people who have been in similar situations to yours, who either learned how to manage their families or escaped them altogether. They also have a great list of resources for domestic violence and therapy that I really recommend checking out.

anonymous asked:

did you know that crayon queen is closing her asks for a few days?! i don't know what i'll do!!! please be cq for us until she gets back!

Ok, so I almost deleted this ask. Definitely thought about it. Decided to address it.

I want to apologize in advance if the anon who asked this is a bit thrown by the response I’m about to give. You were probably expecting something more lighthearted or even funny, or maybe something more laid-back and casual, or maybe sarcastic. But you asked me, so I get to answer.

Even if this was purely meant to be a joke, I don’t find it funny at all. It’s…hurtful. In a couple of different ways.

Yes, I know CQ closed her asks. And good for her. She obviously did it for a reason, and whatever her reason is, is her business. She’s allowed to turn on/off her asks whenever she pleases. We all know she’s got a lot going on - during her Patreon streams she’s always talking about the original projects she’s excited to take on and prepping for Cons and figuring out her house stuff and all the other things that are important to her. And in the midst of all of that, she does SO MUCH INCREDIBLE STUFF for us. All her comics, all her drawings, all her stories, all the questions she answers, all the characters she makes…she’s without a doubt one of the hardest working artists we all collectively know.

But if these are the kinds of questions/reactions she gets when she needs to step away for a bit…like, c’mon, how do you think that makes her feel? How would that make YOU feel? It’d probably make you feel pretty crummy. And stressed. And worried that you can’t take breaks without people taking issue with it. So maybe you’d feel bad about taking breaks in the future, of any kind, out of fear that people would make you feel like you’re letting them down, when you’re already giving so much of yourself to others. And then you just stop trying to take breaks because you don’t think it’s worth it anymore.

And that wouldn’t be fair to you.

And that’s not fucking fair to her.

So here’s what you do: you wait. Because you care about CQ and because she’s a human being and not an art machine. You do something else with your time because you’ve got your own world going on. You don’t make a bit deal of it if CQ takes longer than ‘a few days’ to open up her asks because it’s her blog and she can do whatever she darn well likes to. And whenever she chooses to open up her asks (because SHE chooses to, and not because she’s pressured to) then feel free to send her the ask of your choosing because at that time she will be ready to take more asks. 

And then there’s the part where you threw ME into the equation.

At first, I laughed because I was surprised. I felt…awkward. Awkward that you’d ask something like that. But then I felt…bad.

Because I’m not CQ. And I’m not trying to be her. I appreciate when my work gets compared to hers - it’s really encouraging and uplifting and having it compared to someone I admire and respect is amazing to me. And it’s nice to know that you guys seem to enjoy the things I say and talk about and the way I respond to asks.

But I’m ME. And the work I do is mine, and the non-canon, non-other-people’s-AUs story aspects are mine. I know what I signed up for by using someone else’s characters in my story, and by using other peoples’ AUs in my story. I know that Fatal is barely even my character. But the parts that ARE mine on this blog, I try very hard to make them mine. And I think I’m doing an ok job at it. Sure, the comparison is flattering, I guess, but I don’t want to be reduced to someone who is trying to be like CQ. I want to be someone who is on par with CQ. 

So no, I’m afraid I can’t be CQ for ya’ll until she gets back. But I can be myself until CQ gets back, and when she’s back I’ll just keep being me if you don’t mind.

And mind you, this is my response if you were joking. I’m not even going to pretend like you were being serious.


And I just…I’m sorry if I made you feel bad, anon. I hate making people feel bad. Or if I made anyone feel bad here. And I’m sorry if people think I overreacted, or took this too seriously. Because maybe I did. And I’m sorry if this came off as mean or angry, because I’m not a mean person and I’m not mad at you or anyone.

But I’m not sorry for what I said. And I’m glad I said it.

anonymous asked:

Hi Ben. I don't know why im choosing to ask you this. or anything. Idk okay. Im sorry. But your blog just... manages to make people happy. And im so unhappy. It's like my lungs are sinking so low and I can't get enough air in my body. And I'm so terrified of myself. And I don't know what to do. Or how to live... and I just want to know... what's the best way to commit suicide.

You don’t. Read this x

Imagine this: You come home from school one day. You’ve had yet another horrible day. You’re just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, and take out that suicide note you’ve written and rewritten over and over and over. You take out those razor blades, and cut for the very last time. You grab that bottle of pills and take them all. Laying down, holding the letter to your chest, you close your eyes for the very last time. A few hours later, your little brother knocks on your door to come tell you dinners ready. You don’t answer, so he walks in. All he sees is you laying on your bed, so he thinks you’re asleep. He tells your mum this. Your mum goes to your room to wake you up. She notices something is odd. She grabs the paper in your hand and reads it. Sobbing, she tries to wake you up. She’s screaming your name. Your brother, so confused, runs to go tell Dad that “Mummy is crying and sissy won’t wake up.” Your dad runs to your room. He looks at your mum, crying, holding the letter to her chest, sitting next to your lifeless body. It hits him, what’s going on, and he screams. He screams and throws something at the wall. And then, falling to his knees, he starts to cry. Your mum crawls over to him, and they sit there, holding each other, crying. The next day at school, there’s an announcement. The principal tells everyone about your suicide. It takes a few seconds for it to sink in, and once it does, everyone goes silent. Everyone blames themselves. Your teachers think they were too hard on you. Those mean popular girls, they think of all the things they’ve said to you. That boy that used to tease you and call you names, he can’t help but hate himself for never telling you how beautiful you really are. Your ex boyfriend, the one that you told everything to, that broke up with you.. He can’t handle it. He breaks down and starts crying, and runs out of the school. Your friends? They’re sobbing too, wondering how they could never see that anything was wrong, wishing they could have helped you before it was too late. And your best friend? She’s in shock. She can’t believe it. She knew what you were going through, but she never thought it would get that bad… Bad enough for you to end it. She can’t cry, she can’t feel anything. She stands up, walks out of the classroom, and just sinks to the floor. Shaking, screaming, but no tears coming out. It’s a few days later, at your funeral. The whole town came. Everyone knew you, that girl with the bright smile and bubbly personality. The one that was always there for them, the shoulder to cry on. Lots of people talk about all the good memories they had with you, there were a lot. Everyone’s crying, your little brother still doesn’t know you killed yourself, he’s too young. Your parents just said you died. It hurts him, a lot. You were his big sister, you were supposed to always be there for him. Your best friend, she stays strong through the entire service, but as soon as they start lowering your casket into the ground, she just loses it. She cries and cries and doesn’t stop for days. It’s two years later. The whole school talks to a counselor/therapist at least once a week. Your teachers all quit their job. Those mean girls have eating disorders now. That boy that used to tease you cuts himself. Your ex boyfriend doesn’t know how to love anymore and just sleeps around with girls. Your friends all go into depression. Your best friend? She tried to kill herself. She didn’t succeed like you did, but she tried…your brother? He finally found out the truth about your death. He self harms, he cries at night, he does exactly what you did for years leading up to your suicide. Your parents? Their marriage fell apart. Your dad became a workaholic to distract himself from your death. Your mum got diagnosed with depression and just lays in bed all day. People care. You may not think so, but they do. Your choices don’t just effect you. They effect everyone. Don’t end your life, you have so much to live for. Things can’t get better if you give up. I’m here for absolutely anyone that needs to talk, no matter who you are.

dandelionlass  asked:

Could y'all please help me get through the the weekend to Tuesday? I just need to get over the hump of my son's would be birthday on Monday. Are there any new story's I may have missed. I'm desperate and open to anything at this point as long as it's not sad like "Hotel Paper" or "forever until." Well, unless there is finally a continuation of HP. I'm sorry I'm rambling I just don't know how else to cope.

We’re so sorry to hear you’re not in a good place right now.  Take care and be kind of yourself.  We hope some of these will help -


New fanfics:

Daily Favors - pikelet184

The Lighthouse - Historywriter2007

Against the Wall - papofglencoe

A Match of My Own - MTK4Fun

And Eat it Too - Anais117

Cheese Buns and Bad Puns - HPfanonezillion

Cross-Checking - Everylark

The Firebird - fakelight

Coxa - JennaGill

sound the bugle now (play it just for me) - eponnia

The Bride Swap - Titania522

Who Laughs Last - LizzieOktambe

Don’t Stand So Close to Me - Gamemakers

Falling Slowly - RedHeadedFlame

Naked in Brooklyn - AULOVE

Perhaps, Maybe? - EverllarkingJoshifer


There’s also a new blog called d12drabbles that features fics based on weekly prompts.

Another new blog is everlarkbirthdaydrabbles.


Hotel Paper:

Seeing as you specifically mentioned it, not so long ago there was a drabble challenge on tumblr for Everlark writers to write their own HP fanfic / continuations. Here are the links to those drabbles below. :) 

Everlark Drabble: Hotel Paper Challenge by @pronetoobsess

Hotel Paper: Cecelia’s Story by @notanislander

After by @chele20035

How Hotel Paper Really Ended by @w000ly

Dear Peeta by @titaniasfics

Hotel Paper Deux by @mega-aulover

Hotel Paper: Always by @victors-mockingjays

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⚔ tinyxiumins’ 1st follow forever 


since this is my first follow forever and i have always thought that this things are supposed to be special (AND ALSO BECAUSE I NEVER THOUGHT THAT ONE DAY I WOULD BE DOING ONE), i’m going to tell you my story so you’ll understand why you are special to me. don’t worry i’ll keep it short.

I apologize in advance for any grammar error you may encounter.  i don’t know how many of you will actually read it but i really hope you do. ok here we go…

i made this tumblr on january 2011 and i was a ‘regular’ blog meaning no kpop in my life yet (if you go to the core of this blog you’ll find a lot of cats and pizza posts, don’t ask me why, i’m still ashamed), but that change in july 2011 (around the time i started college) when i saw f(x)’s hot summer (men that’s a catchy song).
i was in denial for almost a year, like i would see a lot of kpop videos regularly (cause since i had just started college i had a lot of 'free’ time) but i would keep telling myself 'this is just the type of music you enjoy for a while not the kind you put on your ipod’ I WAS SO WRONG.
i started following kpop blogs around july-september 2012 but just that, i’d never reblog or liked anything (sorry about that), i liked just having them there… seeing them.
i started giving in on august 3rd 2012 when i downloaded my first kpop song snsd’s 소원을 말해봐 (Genie). the second sign of weakness was shown on december 9th 2012 when i reblog my first kpop related post, this sooyoung photoset.
a year of casual reblog passed, and yet i would still be in denial of the fact that kpop was all i knew and all i cared. by september 2013 all my reblogs were kpop related, i had already unfollowed almost all the 'normal’ blogs i used to follow, that’s when i decided to become a full active kpop blog (i mean i already was but you know how it is). i kept my original url (wilburth) for a long time, but you know i need to changed it to really feel that new start.
so here we are now, i changed to tinyxiumins around may-june of this year, i have +450 kpop song on my ipod, i follow 105 kpop blogs and i couldn’t be happier really. 

['i’ll keep it short’ I’M SO FULL OF SH*T]

ok so to sum up i’m doing this ff because i’ve been here for a 3 years, i followed some of you over two years ago, some a year ago and some just last month, but every one of you has made me happy with everything you post. and also because i’ve gained a SH*T LOAD of followers since i became active and i’m really REALLY thankful for that.

✐   ok so what you’re here for, the ff :) 
✐   bold - mutuals (srly why do you follow me).

♘special people (you two are gonna have to hover for a message and please don't talk to me about them, i'm embarrassed) :

pamolita ✄ baekby

♘ultra special shoutout to the first six kpop blogs i followed over two years ago and who i held 100% responsible for how deep i am now in this fandom :
soehyun ✄ soshiplanet ✄ soulli
xiumania ✄ ruby-sica ✄ m-iyoung 
☃a - h :

antisulli ✄ baekyoons ✄ baekzone ✄ beautifulgeneration ✄ chen-s
choisulli ✄ chonghyeon ✄ cosmicdrive ✄ dyominion ✄ exober
exoisperf ✄ fan-qins ✄ femaleidol ✄ femaleidols ✄ generationofnine
girl-group ✄ gor-jessicat 

☃i - p :

iu-loveattack ✄ jesseseo ✄ jieunswifeu ✄ jinahpls ✄ kaeseul
keulzi ✄ kim-minseok ✄ kittenluna ✄ kyungsmash ✄ melonhun
minseoked ✄ minseoxual ✄ mnseok ✄ monoka ✄ norangna
o-exo ✄ ohsexiing ✄ parklunatic 

☃q - z :

s-ooyoungs ✄ s1cas ✄ sacrod ✄ sehukai ✄ sekaisquad 
sickals ✄ soijns ✄ sonyeoshidaesone ✄ sooyoungss ✄ soshifeels 
soshimoshi ✄ stopsojin ✄ taemintleaf ✄ taeoff ✄ telepany 
this-is-shiro ✄ tiffiana ✄ twerking-xiumin ✄ wu-fan ✄ xiuhanee 
xiumanizer ✄ xiuminsdreams ✄ xiupreme ✄ younas

♡special mention to these followers who i always see in my 'biggest fans', don't think i don't notice you ;) :
xiu-peaches ✄ matchahisa ✄ baozibby ✄ fallingbobaa


✏︎
i know is not there (that’s why i’m telling you this here) but the purpose of that long ass message at the beginning was to tell you that kpop and you people help me go through my first year of college, being alone in a new city is not easy and kpop and tumblr became my scape so i’m really thankful (i’ve said it a thousand times but i really am)
ok here i go again… THANK YOU, thank you for just being who you are and for bringing me (la la la la la)happiness one reblog at the time. (apologies for the bad pun). i love you all and yay this was my 1st ff.

(disclaimer: my love for taeyeon it is not proportional to the size of the edit, my love for her does not has px limit, and i if you ever doubt me i will fight you, thank you)
✏︎ 

anonymous asked:

I'm glad someone else thinks callout culture is too extreme and kind of awful. Anytime I've said that it's really toxic I get people saying things like oh so you don't want people to care about xyz and I'm like?? I never said that,, like yeah call people out for their shitty behavior but when someone makes one small mistake and they genuinely didn't realize it was wrong how about we don't crucify them. People like to point out others wrongdoing but never point out their own and it bothers me.

I’ve even paused my One Direction video to answer this, bc I want to give it my full attention and I cannot do that with Harry Styles in my peripheral vision. Also this is gonna be long. I didn’t pause the boys to half ass this answer.

Anyway, I don’t necessarily think callout culture in itself is a bad thing, i think it’s really important to identify things that are genuinely a problem and let people know why. That’s how we learn and grow as people. The problem with it, particularly on this website, is the extreme to which people take it. 

What callout culture should be is if Person A makes a comment that is kinda Yikes™, Person B steps up and says “sorry, but you said this thing, and i just wanted to let you know it’s kinda Yikes™ for these reasons.” For example, I made a post at like 4.30am about B/uckynat in the MCU and how i can’t see it bc like my blog title says, I am v much an advocate for Gay!Bucky in the MCU. Anyway, I tagged that post with “no offence but ur ship is non-existent in the MCU and Bucky likes dick” and then I went to bed and didn’t think anything else of it. Then when I woke up I had a message that was like “Sorry I just wanted to let you know that equating being gay to liking dick is kinda Yikes™ bc it ignores trans men” and I was like “Shit sorry, I tagged it at like 4.30am i didn’t even think, sorry, I’ll change it to Bucky likes men” and then that was that and we all moved on with our lives. 

However, more often, what we actually get is Person A makes a comment that is kinda Yikes™, Person B is like “Wow why would you say that it’s so Yikes™, what an asshole, consider yourself blocked” and then Person B makes a post like “Just to let you all know that Person A is Super Yikes™ and you should all block and unfollow them” and then Person C and Person D see and they’re like “wow that’s awful what a shitty person” - as if one single comment is enough to condemn a person. 

And that’s made worse when they’re talking about someone in the public eye. Celebrity A makes a comment without being aware of it being a problematic thing to do, and then they have hundreds of People B’s seeing it and making posts like “Celebrity A said this one thing 4 years ago, they’re an awful person, a shitty human being, they’re cancelled.” and then Person C steps in and says “But, Celebrity A has spent the last 4 years displaying behaviours that show they have educated themselves and done better and are trying to make a difference? Maybe we should forgive the poorly informed comment they made once and perhaps judge the strength of their character on the good things they’ve done since?” and then Person B shows up again like “Oh so you think its okay to say things that are so Yikes™, wow Celebrity A is an asshole and so are you Person C” 

And that is more of a problem than what they’re trying to callout. No one is going to learn or want to learn, if there are so many people that behave like it doesn’t matter what you do, a mistake you made years ago is what you will forever be judged by. Every single one of us says dumb shit. Every single one of us can do better. Because we are human beings, and we make mistakes and we fuck up and we falter. But our individual mistakes aren’t what show the people that we are, it’s how we better ourselves and how we improve.

And saying one or two things that are Yikes™ doesn’t make you a bad person. It means you are uneducated in that area and need to be taught a little more. Or it means you simply made a mistake and weren’t thinking properly and needed someone to point it out so you could fix it. Yes there are people that deserve to be called out as being continuously gross and not learning from the shit they do (I’m talking J/ennifer Lawrence, A/my Schumer, J/ohnny Depp etc) and that’s fair enough, bc they keep showing that they don’t care enough to do better, they show themselves time and time again to be of poor character. 

But like, I see it on my posts about Chris Evans all the time. He spends a lot of his time educating himself on social and political issues and trying to do better and make a difference with his privilege and people will bring up something he said in an interview like 7 years ago as a reason why he’s an asshole? Despite him showing time and time again that he’s a good dude trying to do good?

Would you want to be judged for who you were 7 years ago? Or would you like to think that you’d grown and developed and bettered yourself in the last 7 years and you were a different person now than you were then? The problem with this website is that a lot of the time they don’t think about that, it’s all just done in extremes and that’s the wrong way to go about doing anything honestly.