i do stuff like this when i have math to do

at some point when they’re doing homework together (… in proximity) rather than not-actually-doing-homework together, for once, jack sees kent doing calculus.  and he’s like: you’re a junior

kent: so?
jack: so you always tease me for being a nerd
kent: that’s because you ARE a nerd.  whereas i am cool even if i’m good at math and like calculus.  deAL.

anonymous asked:

Okay so I have exams in two months (GCSEs) and I have no motivation to revise. Like, I want to, but then when it comes to it, there's so much other stuff I end up doing. Please help, or I might fail maths!!

you just have to kick your own ass and force yourself to sit down and study, as hard as it may be. believe me, studying sucks but it doesn’t suck as much as underachieving or even worse, failing. do it for your future self!! imagine how proud you’ll be when you get your results and see that you got well deserved, good grades that you worked hard for!! you can do it bub!!! work hard, you’ll thank yourself in the future ✨

I went from growing up thinking I’d go into science
To being sad that I’m not going into science
But consoled that I’m doing a social science / sciency stuff
To not needing to b consoled cuz I really do appreciate non-STEM
To actively fucking annoyed at STEM ppl and their fucking snobbery

I had a STEM major tell me that nobody appreciates science. Like are you fucking kidding me. Everybody’s always impressed when you say you’re majoring in biochem and how you’re gonna get rich and get a doctorate in shit. Just because the republicans dont believe in global warming doesn’t mean ppl don’t appreciate science.

I don’t even want to hear about how some ppl have “real” majors compared to others. You know what’s truly hard besides memorizing a bunch of equations? Being creative. People don’t appreciate that, but it’s HARD to create something out of nothing that not only conveys complex abstract concepts, but compels us to feel EMOTIONS about them. Especially when it’s completely nebulous and there aren’t parameters or overarching physical principles that permeate a closed system like there are in the natural world

Instead of blogging about this awful scene, I’m going to talk to you about cringe humor!

For some reason, American comedy has decided that the best way to make an audience laugh is to put your characters in a situation where they’re doing something incredibly embarrassing and don’t seem to be aware.  I call it “cringe humor,” because the whole point is you’re supposed to laugh at something that would make you cringe in real life out of secondhand embarrassment.

I can’t laugh at this stuff.  I’m too busy cringing.

See, I spent my teenage years desperately trying to figure out how to socialize.  I had to reverse engineer it; I have Asperger’s syndrome, a type of autism that pretty much means you’re born without the ability to absorb social math the way most people do as a child.  When I was twelve or thirteen, I started psychologically torturing myself to stop making a fool of yourself Will come on.  There’s a lot more to it than that, but…whenever I see someone else acting like that, the deeply ingrained reactions from years of reverse-engineering social contact from first principles kicks in, and all I feel is a mix of sorry for them and angry with them.

I’ve gone a lot of years and a lot of therapy undoing the damage I did to myself, but one of the things I honestly take pride in is that I’m not mean enough to enjoy other people making fools of themselves.  Fortunately or unfortunately, this means that the fastest way to piss me off in a show is to start using cringe humor.

I’m not gonna do much blogging about this scene.  I’m gonna power through it as fast as I can, and hopefully there’s fun stuff on the other side.

@people who get pissy when mcu doesn’t follow comic book canon to the letter, have you considered the following alternatives:

- Petting a dog

- Looking at the clouds

- Eating some toast

- Going back to your comics and being happy about interesting, alternative storylines instead of acting like you’re somehow superior to people who haven’t read them

- Taking a nap

I gave a talk about my research to my Discrete Math students yesterday, and one of them got really stoked on the form of odd perfect numbers and if that kid discovers the first odd perfect number then I will have justified my whole life, like the purpose for my existence was to grow up and stay alive and learn enough about number theory to tell that guy about it so he could change the world. That’s why teaching is amazing. That’s why I never want to do anything else for the rest of my life. Whenever someone tells me I made a difference, or just goes around doing rad stuff with math, I feel like the whole universe has improved so much and I helped do that and there’s just no better feeling than that. 

Hello, my name is Octoberspirit, and I would like to address some shit.

I’ve been active in internet fandoms since I was about fourteen, and I’m nearly twenty-six now, so I have a bit of experience in this general area.

Toxic people exist in fandoms. Fandoms are not immune; toxic people are everywhere. As a fan community gets larger, the number of toxic people will increase. It’s more of a math thing than anything. 

Toxicity comes in various flavors. Some people set out to be assholes. Some people set out to prove their superiority by putting others down. Some people really want to start fights and will take any excuse to do so. Some people are just following leads and taking sides.

The fandom is not imploding. Toxic people do not outnumber nontoxic people. They’re just louder.

The problems set in when the community tries to make enemies of the assholes. Responding to the toxic shit just boosts it to the forefront, and makes it difficult to see the good parts of the community. In this arena, the best response to toxicity is to ignore it and to continue doing what you were doing.

Conflict junkies will get bored and go elsewhere. Genuinely misguided people tend to grow out of it when nobody rises to their bait.

Fandoms don’t implode because of toxic people. Usually, they implode because everyone else gets so caught up in the us vs. them mentality that they lose sight of what brought them to the community in the first place. 

Fandom isn’t a war. There’s no reward for defeating the bad guys. All you’re doing is shooting yourself in the foot and losing something you love.


The signs as stuff that went through my head during the PSATs

Aries: I will shove this test up my ASS if it asks me again to “pick the lines that best describe your previous answer"

Taurus - what kind of shit name is Thad

Gemini - I failed both math sections

Cancer - what the hell is a fish farm

Leo - wtf moss isn’t moss

Virgo - it took me 3 hours to understand that fucking Fourth of July essay I want to die

Libra - umm why are there graphs in the English part of the test like shit does it look like I give 2 fucks on the increase of farmer’s markets

Scorpio - YASSS Herminia, fuck it up!!! Keep doing what yah do! Don’t let your father’s shit policies stop you from writing poems!!

Sagittarius - “DELETE THE UNDERLINED SENTENCE” “NO CHANGE” damn chill lmao

Capricorn - (me, when the proctor said I have 15 minutes left and I’m still on question 22) I love to die…

Aquarius - Who the fuck pays $40 worth cookies and water bottles… Does Thad support capitalism

Pisces - I want to carry a wolf pup in a pouch to work…

Seven Things About (Rewatching) Supernatural: Week Two - 1x11-1x22

I have built a routine for this!  Also, I need to do the math, but if I do S3 in one week, I may be able to split seasons like this all summer, which would be ideal.

Not ideal: I forgot my Ignitionwatch 2016 notes on the coffee table, so that’ll get rolled into a second post later.  Honestly, I’d put the whole thing off, but I’m in a weird headspace, and if I don’t work on this I’ll just quietly obsess over it all afternoon instead of doing other stuff.

  1. Okay, so the end of S1 is the most jarring, insane thing.  I came to the show long after, so I wasn’t there on the ground when it aired, and when you factor in the whole formation of the CW being in progress when the finale aired?  

    Mother of pearl, I don’t envy those of you who spent the better part of two weeks waiting to know whether there would be a S2 on the CW.  

    Somewhere, there is a parallel universe where that was it.  One season.  No more because of network bullshit.  And there’s still a fandom around it – like Firefly has– but it’s, like, full of people who love Russian Realist literature or something, because motherfucker, that is some Dostoevsky shit right there.
  2. You know, we spend a lot of time thinking of Dean as the impulsive, reactive brother, and Sam as the deliberative, strategic one.  Second half of S1?  Not so much, especially toward the end of the season when it feels like he’s accelerating toward suicidal violence.  Sam is ready to run back into a burning house, to charge into the trap that got their father caught with no plan, etc.  

    There’s that conversation with John about how he can’t be as effective (read: reckless) with the boys in the equation, which dovetails nicely into parallels between him and Sam.  Because, yeah, Sam is strategic and deliberative except when Dean, Jess, and John are involved.  Bring them into it and it’s like tunnel vision with bonus red haze.

    And, you know, this is textual as early as S1 once John and Sam really start talking.  Sam identifies with John because of Jessica’s death.  To John.  
  3. There is a lot going on with Dean in the second half of S1.  I’d forgotten just how visibly emotional he is in these episodes.  There’s so much going on in his expressions and his body language.  He radiates pain a lot of the time, and a lot of it circles around abandonment: Cassie, Sam, John.  He’s also clearly the one who has to keep the peace between John and Sam most of the time, physically separating them on multiple occasions.  

    Dean hasn’t just been Sam’s caretaker for years.  He’s been in a position to have to curate the moods of everyone around him.  He’s intensely sensitized to it when things go sour – which seems to have been often – because he is perpetually in the middle when his father and his brother clash.  

    He’s not just responsible for Sam.  He’s responsible for keeping the peace, keeping everyone comforted, keeping everyone…maintained?  Like, we talk about the brothers’ codependency later on, but this is even worse in some ways.  Dean is desperately attached to both of them, but his experience of them is intensely stressful, and one of his biggest fears (articulated more than once during this season) is that he isn’t needed in return.  He is absolutely terrified of abandonment, and he’s convinced it is inevitable, and that keeps getting reinforced by circumstances and antagonists.  

    So much of Dean’s behavior is predicated on keeping people from leaving, keeping them happy, trying to earn their love.  Family, the most important thing he can imagine because he literally has nothing else, never feels unconditional for him.  

  4. Watching the boys force an adult relationship with John is one of the small pleasures of S1.  It’s also a great example of Sam’s emotional intelligence in play, and a contrast between him and Dean in terms of attachment to John.  Sam doesn’t need John and is willing to introduce stress in the relationship.

    Once the brothers are able to form a unified front, though, John’s behavior changes.  It’s something that comes up in the queer community when parents aren’t welcoming/understanding.  Your presence in someone’s life is leverage in negotiating a more mature relationship with a parent.  Sam is willing to use that leverage, and it pays off.  John becomes more candid, emotionally open, and shares information instead of expecting orders to be followed without question.  

    I don’t think there’s much evidence that the boys connected with John in a meaningful way before this.  If anything, I think the evidence is that their relationship prior to this was very difficult.  And really, John’s not just hard for his kids to deal with.  He’s estranged from Elkins, hasn’t talked to Jim Murphy in a year, and Bobby Singer threatened to shoot him.  The man’s a toxic mess of bad masculine stereotypes and shitty coping mechanisms.

    I’d say it’s a miracle that Sam is so well-adjusted, but he’s…kind of not?  (See last week’s comments about Sam using secrecy and lies to carve out his own safe space.)
  5. It’s kind of astonishing how much the demon mythology develops in a single season.  The VFX change, demons enter and exit bodies differently, and the exorcism in 1x22 looks nothing like the exorcism in 1x04.  We’re still dinking around with the lore, too, where things like salt and holy water are concerned.  It’s still not perfectly solid leaving S1.  
  6. This season gives us a lot of brief glimpses at other established hunters – Daniel Elkins, Jim Murphy, Bobby Singer – which is awesome for flavor, and because each of them have specialties.  Elkins hunts vampires.  Murphy…well, he can spot a demon, but I’m not sure it’s really his gig.  Bobby, though, seems much more prepared for Meg.  He’s got more experience with possessions – he’s savvy to them, he’s got the numbers – and knows the consequences of an exorcism on the person being possessed.  The boys have been doing this their whole lives, but in S1 they don’t feel like veterans.  They’re skilled for their age, but they’re still learning.
  7. While SPN gives excellent geographic failure on a regular basis, one of my absolute favorites is Cape Girardeau, MO’s Thriving Crab Industry.  Which, if you’re not sure why that’s a problem, allow me to haul out last year’s visual aid:

And on that note, I should probably think about dinner (which will probably be tragically crab-free).