i do not know this is ugly

Poetry 109

Sometimes life is hard
Sometimes you feel like flying
Other times you may feel like dying
This is a real struggle for some
We sit back and think nothing can be done
But that isn’t true
We could lift them up
Fill the gap between their life and death
Speak kind words with every breath
I say this because I’ve lived in such darkness
I feared no one cared about me
Sometimes I wanted to scream
Scream “someone help me please!”
But no one replied
I wanted to die
It wasn’t easy to get out of the black hole
I had to dust myself up
After a long recovery
I became whole
To those of you who struggle
Don’t give up hope
Someone will hear you
You will learn to cope
I know the darkness seems never ending
That’s simply not true
It’s an ugly disguise
Of the real you
Strength of a lion
You have it in you
I know you do
You just need to believe it too

Behind my smile, I feel unintelligent. Behind my smile, I feel ugly. Behind my smile, I feel alone. Behind my smile, I am afraid. Behind my smile, I have my inner demons. I am not perfect. I know that. But I do know, I am beautiful. Brave. Smart. Talented. Independent. And powerful.

And so are YOU

2

#princely

5

When you’re under investigation and unable to act officially but you don’t give a f.. about UN’s orders.
Idk, I just wanted to draw theses two together.

9

Alec + jackets/outerwear in 2a

10

Dear white people,

Here’s a little tip. When you ask someone who looks ethnically different, “What are you?” the answer is usually, “A person about to slap the shit out of you.”

2

She walked up to Nico, who was standing to one side in the shadows, as usual. She grabbed his hand and pulled him gently into the firelight. “We had one home,” she said. “Now we have two.” She gave Nico a big hug and the crowd roared with approval. For once, Nico didn’t feel like pulling away. He buried his face in Reyna’s shoulder and blinked the tears out of his eyes.

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#creeping creeping creeping…

you are the only goddamn thing that gives me peace, the only thing that keeps me still when all I wanna do is fall and shatter, sometimes I feel as if the universe’s crushing weight is too much to handle, that no matter where I look, where I go, that weight will forever stay with me, but you make me feel different, you know that feeling you get when you listen to your favorite song? you fill me up with that feeling, that feeling of sunlight or some poetic shit, sometimes I think about how horrible life is and how ugly the world is then I look at you and I see the way the sunlight hits your eyes and I hear the sound of your laugh and I can’t help but let all my thoughts fade into nothingness, you are beautiful and terrifying and you are so full of everything and everyone and I don’t know how to explain it, you talk about things with so much passion and you dance to songs so freely as if your soul is the one in control of your body, you smile at strangers and their heart melts and I could see it in their eyes, you spit the truth like poison and you stand in bravery while others cower in fear, you leave pieces of yourself wherever you go, in everyone you meet, you stumble upon people, talk about the world and movies and songs and you captive them and you hold them hostage with your eyes and brain and heart, you posses them and they feel you in everything they do, you are beyond my understanding, beyond anyone’s understanding, you make me wish I could have all the time in the world just so I would spend more of it loving the moments I get to share with you, you are deeply under my skin, deeply rooted somewhere in my heart or soul whatever those are, you are the only thing that makes me fall in love with life a little more each day, you are my home.
—  atelophobiaxx // Nada Toghoj

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